Radiohead "How To Disappear Completely" Original Music Video by David Herrera

[@amino1music]

People make fun of Radiohead and call their music depressing but when you think about it, it's really comforting to know that other people feel these emotions too, and I think their willingness to grapple with the side of life that pop music tends to neglect in part explains their improbable success. I recommend Pyramid Song, A Reminder, and Lozenge of Love by them.

[@Wanderersea]

nobody is making fun of Radiohead. They are our generation's Beatles.

[@shartoholic]

@@Wanderersea Radiohead have far surpassed The Beatles

[@Drafnyr]

Dude, nobody makes fun of Radiohead, it's just the truth. They are the sweetest sorrow the world has heard until now.

[@shartoholic]

@Brian taylor Well then you should definitely read more Brian, I’m not sure your last few brain cells will last much longer if you don’t work them out a little bit.

[@shartoholic]

@Brian taylor Excellent reply Brian

[@antressa]

This song it's not depressing to me, it's more like... Transcendent, if that's a thing. My favorite Radiohead song, I've been living like this for a while, wanting nothing but disappearing, feeling empty and fading through the years. Ironically, this song calms me down. I cry every single time I listening to it... That's how I know I'm still alive.

[@paragonnina]

You just get me, Amnesiac 00.

[@davidburke2132]

There was a time when Thom Yorke said it was his favourite Radiohead song too... although it was some time ago and I don’t know if his viewpoint has changed at all in the intervening period.

[@odin8010]

Hang in there, whatever you’re going through will get better

[@waloacme]

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[@MrBobbydj]

[@ESW_JSALINAS]

Marilyn Manson said this song saved him from suicide. David Bowie commented that this song is one he would have liked to compose but couldn't. Thom York wants to be remembered for this song. Stop me this is a great song that full of different emotions to the listener, some depress others comforts them. It heals me and lifts me up.

[@JinnDante]

where did you get this info from

[@joshuahuf9747]

None of this is true

[@oscarpuertas0]

The Marilyn Manson thing is with exit music, not with this.

[@requix11]

@@joshuahuf9747 Thom did say if there was one song they could be remembered by it'd be this one. kzbin.info/www/bejne/sJLCq5huarGWeKM at 4:08 in this video he says it

[@DocRobert]

Oh this is such a beautiful song. Sad but beautiful. Haunting. Great reaction. More Radiohead please! Love.

[@ROArecords2]

My understanding is that this song was written after he was thinking about quitting due to stress and expectations. He then had a conversation with Michael Stipe of REM about dealing with it all and Michael told him that he just disconnects when he gets overwhelmed and imagines himself outside of his body.

[@sgorneau]

Yup. Michael actually said to him, to deal with the stress, Thom should say to himself, “I’m not here. This isn’t happening.“

[@StreetHierarchy]

Is that not a trauma response?

[@Comrade_mommy]

@@StreetHierarchy it’s a strategy. A strategy a lot of ppl who’ve been traumatized employ. It’s a way of protecting yourself. It can be protecting you from the trauma or traumatizing situation, but I think it can be used too for non trauma related situations. So if you have severe stage fright or are an introvert needing to be the center of attn it could be used to separate yourself from the thing that you fear or makes you uncomfortable. In that way it’s a strategy to prevent stress or anxiety.

[@uvion]

Yeee more Radiohead

[@xavier-dj1kb]

Yes fr, Pearly *, Let Down, Idioteque omg so much good ones ..

[@mindymartin3915]

Radiohead is my all time favorite band. Ive seen them 8 times and their shows are like a religious experience. You should try anything from "In Rainbows"..... maybe Reckoner or Weird Fishes/Arpeggi.

[@tsogobauggi8721]

"Sadness is happiness for deep people." . It is great that someone wanted you to react to this song. Or to any Radiohead song. But there are also other good/better sad songs to react by Radiohead. ;) :)

[@jasonmelo9379]

I think Thom York said this was his favorite song at some point.

[@joyclark7530]

I like that.

[@TITARNYA]

Radiohead really get to the deep pit of the soul. I don’t think any of their songs haven’t moved me in some way. I think everybody at some stage has got to that point of completely numbness and not really here. I don’t know how I feel about songs that go to those depths - they communicate something very human but they can also exasperate those emotions - especially if you allow yourself to listen to them often.

[@WickedKingLycoan]

“Kid A” is an album that you can listen to in it’s entirety. Pure genius, and dare I say, it’s “Dark Side Of The Moon” for Gen X.

[@Ag-xy4gu]

Kid-A, Ok Computer and in Rainbows are all masterpieces on that level to me.

[@owenkidd3996]

@@Ag-xy4gu the bends is also a quality album but not the same

[@Ag-xy4gu]

@@owenkidd3996 I agree it just doesn't seem to hit the level of art to me that those three do. It's all personal opinion in the end, just those three give me an incredible feeling when listening to.

[@snuppssynthchannel]

Kid A might actually very well be the album to surpass Dark Side of The moon.

[@WickedKingLycoan]

@@snuppssynthchannel: I was raised by two very different parents. My Father is and will always be ‘classical rock’. My Mother grew up on Soul and R&B from the sixties. I Keep Close To My Heart Both Influences, As They Both Instructed My Own Education To Reach Further Back. For My Money, ‘Obscured By Clouds’ is Pink Floyd’s greatest album, and I’ve many memories wrapped up in hearing it. ‘Kid A’ , ‘O.K Computer’, and ‘The Bends’ deserve that treatment, because without such a wonderful musical base to start out from from both My Parents, I wouldn’t have been able to recognize pure beauty, craftsmanship, talent, and art. It is also due to them that I possess a love for Jazz, Country, And Classical Music as well as World Music.

[@huevas77]

Kid A came out around the time I was entering the deepest depression I’ve experienced. All I know is that Radiohead’s music really really helped me get through some dark times.

[@ThelemicMagick]

Same.

[@helterskelter2927]

The song is about when Thom couldn't handle fame, so he called up a friend of his, and his friend said "Just say, I'm not here, this isn't happening." Such a sad but beautiful song.

[@MartenHemstrom]

And that friend was Michael Stipe from the band R.E.M. :)

[@helterskelter2927]

@@MartenHemstrom I didn't know that, that's cool!

[@FeelMyFerret]

It wasn't that Thom couldn't handle the fame. The band were writing Kid A during a long and intense period of touring. Thom would go to these places he had never been and wanted to explore, but couldn't because they had to pack up and head for the next show. This happened a lot during that time. This eventually sent Thom into a dark place mentally. He called Michael Stipe to told him to say a mantra to help him. That mantra was "I'm not here. This isn't happening."

[@Hollowsmith]

What makes this song beautiful to me is it has moments where lightness and joy pour in. Like at 4:25, and again at 4:43, at 5:02, at 5:20, at 5:49, and then maybe the most beautiful moment of the song at 6:17. One one of the things Radiohead is masterful at, is juxtaposing joy and sadness against each other in their songs, for the biggest possible emotional swings.

[@bethanyhunt2704]

"Feeling like an outcast" pretty much sums up all of Radiohead's music.

[@szabolcsmezei4088]

I think the chorus "I'm not here, this isn't happening..." was a coping mechanism for panic attacks, suggested to the singer by a friend.

[@paulhewes7333]

The friend was Michael Stipes of REM and the panic attacks were happening during the "OK Computer" tour in 1997 after the album catapulted the band from "hey they are cool" to "THESE ARE THE SAVIORS OF ROCK". If you have not watched "Meeting People is Easy" it is a documentary about that tour. A must for a Radiohead fan...

[@szabolcsmezei4088]

@@paulhewes7333 I just didn't want to give all the details, to start a bit of a convo here. But yeah, I know it was Michael and yes, I saw MPIE. Thanks for filling in the details!

[@SynthApprentice]

This coping mechanism is called dissociation. It's an extreme form of emotional escapism. People wouldn't use it if it didn't work, but it's very unhealthy. By escaping your emotions, it stops you from being able to process them.

[@bethanyhunt2704]

One of my favourite, favourite songs. Think this is Thom Yorke's fave Radiohead song.

[@christopherpoppiti1106]

I had this song looping through my head the whole time I was graveside at my Mother's funeral. I don't remember anything from the time I sat down to the time I got up. Radiohead as a whole is full of ethereal melody with insane beats. Some find Radiohead sad but I feel that they key into emotion as a whole. The melodies they put down are directly from my head. I live to see them again live.

[@jamiechmiel8003]

This song did not come to my mind at my father's funeral, at the gravesite, but it was exactly how I felt.

[@Ronsterino]

One of their best songs, you would not want to listen to it too much tho it really gets you in a certain mood

[@budmaynard5952]

Wow! Jumping in deep on my favorite band! I think this is one of the most beautiful songs ever. The words aren't quite as sad as you think. Back in Radiohead's early days they were touring as an opening act for R.E.M. who were huge by that point. Thom was backstage talking with Mike Stipe, the lead singer for R.E.M. and he asked Mike how he dealt with singing in front of a crowd of 70,000 people. Mike told him he imagined he was somewhere else, and that it wasn't him standing on the stage in front of everyone. Thom took the advice and turned it into the lyrics for this song. Add Jonny's string arrangement and you have this gem! So hauntingly beautiful. Keep going with Radiohead, please! Maybe try "Jigsaw Falling into Place" next. Peace from SF

[@PhotonJon]

Aw. Girl. This is the kind of reaction that breaks the internet (in a good way), but be healthy if you're not currently feeling good. Radiohead is amazing, but not great for depressed people. With that said though, I'm sure many of us here in the comments would be happy to be the person you reached out to when you needed it. Stay strong. ❤

[@jameshannagan4256]

If it was not for Radiohead I dont know how I would have dealt with my wifes sudden death even though its supposed to be sad their music has helped me grieve through some tough times it has a cathartic quality to it that other sad music does not have.

[@vangledosh]

Radiohead is incredible for depressed people I think, their music such as this song opens you up to these emotions. It lets you confront them but in a comforting way that gives you relief from these suppressed emotions you never want to deal with. It grabs you by the hand and lets you know everything will be okay despite the bleakness you see now, there’s an underlying sense of hope woven into the fabric of despair with Radiohead. They’re a hauntingly beautiful band.

[@TheCivildecay]

I have asperger syndrome which kinda dampens my emotions during everyday experiences. With listening to radiohead I found a way to experience/drain emotions from myself.. so in a way it's like therapy to me.

[@leehiro4840]

Can relate 😊 Also diagnosed with Asperger

[@allanclark3283]

RADIOHEAD helps me out of my depression.

[@valleyofthedolls]

when he said "im not here this is isn't happening" it's more like an experience of derealization

[@nw6231]

You look like billie eilish

[@valleyofthedolls]

@@nw6231 she's lana del rey haha

[@shanna9650]

This is best listening to it without images in the dark. I cried the first time I heard it. If you've ever suffered something devastating then you can relate to this song. It's about shock and coping in the moment.

[@NationalistsRuinAmerica]

I wonder why I don't feel anything like this when listen. It just calms me down, lets me swim in its beauty and lets me breathe. Rather than sad or happy, this song brings me back to the bottom, to a neutral zone.

[@yettobseen]

Some serious sadness

[@sammalla5238]

Pyramid Song or Reckoner next, maybe?

[@ExileOnDaytonStreet]

That moment of clarity and resolution right before the end, the high note that Thom ends his vocal performance on... damn it's so beautiful

[@robzcardz7766]

It’s so amazing, that high note kinda was a release almost if that makes sense

[@mogwaimofo]

It becomes so dissonant just before that, and then there's just this... release. it's like coming up for air. It's amazing.

[@andrelucassoares7648]

He finaly disappear...

[@sbakernyc5761]

i like how u don't stop rhe song after every line/bar... u actually listen and immerse yourself in the music... great reaction new sub

[@jean-lucalexander4719]

I was listening to a lot of radiohead when I was making music and living in L.A. It was an experience. Kid-A, Ok Computer and Amnesiac all have very similar vibes to them musically.

[@HidingFromFate]

India, your comments after about the 8:30 mark were pretty close. Radiohead fans can correct me if I'm wrong but, I think the song was written by the singer after touring and he was just at a point of exhaustion, emotionally and physically, questioning his life, being in the limelight, etc

[@dancewalkertarot]

He asked Michael Stipe from R.E.M how he handles the overwhelming moments of fame. And Michael said he just pretends like he is not there. It is sort of a dissociation to get through impossible moments I think.

[@HidingFromFate]

@@dancewalkertarot Thanks, I do kind of remember something about that.

[@PresidentHotdog]

Alot of the lyrics on here are about a dream he had in Ireland. Makes sense given the "float down the liffey" reference.

[@letdown9197]

@@PresidentHotdog "Irish Sea" in "In Limbo" too

[@ThelemicMagick]

@@dancewalkertarot Yes, Stipe taught this as a mantra: close your eyes and keep saying to yourself "I'm not here, this is not happening."

[@thomasharris4942]

I like that you're reacting to the more somber, meditative Radiohead. These guys always put me in a sad-not-sad thoughtful mood.

[@mickyhurd5394]

My favourite Radioheadtrack..it's just an outer body thing if I'm totally honest...beautiful 😉

[@radiochip01]

It's funny, I'm never depressed listening to radiohead

[@mr.nihilz3283]

The struggle of being aware. Ignorance is indeed bliss. Thank you for the honest reaction. You are a lovely soul. xo

[@knittingnickel]

Perfect, intuitive, emotional reaction. ❤ Hugs to you for this. I suffer from depression to and for me, if I had to explain depression with a song, I'd pick this one. This song is so beautifully painful, it's hard to listen to and mesmerizing at the same time.

[@davidmarrazzo774]

Another example of Radiohead using lyrics as food for thought. What matters most is what the listeners think as opposed to what the writer thought when they were writing the song.

[@McSeverance]

I'm really happy you listened to this song. The Liffy is a river in England

[@bethanyhunt2704]

List of Radiohead songs to react to: All I need; Where I End and You Begin; Scatterbrain; Street Spirit; Exit Music (To a Film); Videotape; Let Down; Daydreaming; Lucky. Just to start ;)

[@GiorgiNemsitsveridze]

"All I Need" is a bomb, just like the entire "In Rainbows" album

[@nicbongo]

I'd add fake plastic trees and ideotique. But stellar list. Let down and video tape are divine.

[@lampinlance]

Man, this was a deep song. There's a lot of pain in it. First time I've heard Radiohead.

[@richardsberna7848]

I had picked up this album in the summer of 2001, liked it immediately, and internalized several songs off the album, including this one. A few months later - on 9/11, to be specific - this song kept playing over and over in my head as I watched the unfolding horror on TV. "I'm not here. This isn't happening...."

[@JC-es5un]

The entire Kid A album is phenomenal. I would recommend checking out "Everything in its Right Place" or "National Anthem" off the same album.

[@holliswilliams8426]

It's not depressing, it's cathartic. Is ''King Lear'' depressing in that case?

[@marklogan2848]

To me this song is about being in a situation in which you cannot cope, in which it's so overwhelming that it's easier to pretend you have disappeared than face your reality. I think of a rape victim or an abused child who has lost all power and just wants to disappear.

[@nicoleES-5678]

One of my favorite bands, hands down... pure art. Blessed and humbled to have seen them in concert. I have so many favorite songs, but Nude and Paranoid Android are up at the top of the list❤️

[@josephk2496]

How To Disappear Completely Is about escapism

[@jared2947]

One of my favorite Radiohead songs! Very painful but very good, helped me through a tough time in my life years ago.

[@bulletproof_legs]

Seconding Motion Picture Soundtrack. Also adding Street Spirit (Fade Out).

[@thetourist4926]

More Radiohead. Check out ‘let down’ with lyrics

[@trentboyd5919]

I have to say this. I have been watching Radiohead reaction videos for years snd your reaction was by far the most heartfelt reaction I have seen yet. I could tell when you were starting to cry that you felt this darkness that Thom Yorke was projecting and I felt it as you did snd almost felt a connection with you even tho I have never met you. Thank you for this. This was fulfilling to me, to see someone who was finally able to get it. Not many people get it if you know what I mean. You shouldn’t have edited out what you were going to say after you started crying, us viewers we actually want to see that we are drawn to that we want to feel the reaction through you as we did again like the first time we heard the song. We are constantly looking for that feeling again and just now I came pretty close to that again. Thank you again God bless

[@lowellupchurch1609]

Awesome video!! Radiohead is one of, if not number one, my very very favorite gorups. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi or There,There next please!?!?!?

[@sophiaackley3535]

This song takes me to all the times of trauma where I disassociated from my physical presence to get through it. It's a true telling of what the mind does to survive.

[@chadthatsall]

Love that you picked a lesser known / less popular track that’s really deep. This one has brought me to tears on many occasions, and helped break through my social anxiety.

[@GarrettGaudini]

Thanks for reviewing this one and I enjoyed your take. I’ve listened to this one many times... I keep going back to the concept of sleeping waking through life. If you’re not mindful about your life you’re mindless. So live an examined life and lean in because you only get one.

[@pauldryburgh6346]

I find this song beautiful. Our fleeting experience in this existence is exactly that before returning to the fabric that makes the infinite.

[@keithsaulsbury4304]

there is a sadness in a lot of Radiohead songs. it's one of the things that draws me to them.

[@numinous123]

"is he like OUTKAST, where he's around people and this still isn't enough?" THE EXACT OPPOSITE. No offense, but you completely missed the point of the song.

[@lauce3998]

In my top 5 of sadness songs.

[@tjmcdonald4747]

I remember diving into work at Seattle's emergency operations center on 9/11. My brother had called from NYC to tell me about the first plane. I got in my car. I remember praying it was an accident then NPR broke in to say the second plane hit. I knew enough for the moment. We knew Seattle was on Al Queda's radar. I flipped to KEXP to collect my thoughts. John Richards said "I can't say anything" and then played this song.

[@blonded4471]

this song really reminds me of derealization. the lyrics, the music, the video. it’s all super accurate and i think, even if thom didn’t write it for this purpose, it’s a really good representation of the disorder.

[@sheltonjames3173]

Reckoner and Exit Music (For A Film) are both excellent songs. Check them out.

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[@jjdecani]

You nailed it at 7:00 This is about being so down you want to... drop out... run away... leave it all behind... but you're not yet depressed enough for suicide. You got it. Killer song. Good reaction video.

[@dandiegidio7729]

I used to think Alice in Chains-Nutshell best reflected how I've always felt. Then Soundgarden-Fell on Black Days. But now I think this is the one. I just want to disappear. I don't want to hurt anyone, would have been better if I was never born. But I was, and I don't like it. I wish closing my eyes and saying goodbye would do it.

[@stephenworthington-white8294]

“ I’m not here, this isn’t happening” are words of advice Micheal Stipe of REM gave to Thom when he was asked for advice about coping with the stress of constant touring. “Just close your eyes and repeat these words.” That’s the origin story I heard.

[@iad77]

It's about pressure, not being able to take what's going on in your life and trying to be alone in your own head to escape it... I'm not here, this isn't happening... for me it was after a severe breakup and also another time after the loss of my mother. The connection to this song was a huge outlet and I love radiohead because of it.

[@delugesofgrandeur]

helterskelter's comment below nails it. This was written by a dude who didn't want the fame that his band's talents brought him and Michael Stipe from REM was helping him overcome his anxiety.

[@bjarneboy]

Plz react to Antony and the Johnsons Bird Gurl

[@ColonelKurtz]

I think the video being watched kind of ruins the song. I think the song should first be experienced with with no distractions. I thought the lyrics and music convey the meaning of the song fairly well. The song is more about being empowered to cope with undesirable situations or emotion- a way to calm yourself in the midst of chaos. It's not depressing to me at all- it's uplifting and serene. What's with all the distortion and abrupt end of the song? The ending of the song is kind of the most impactful piece of the song. It's almost like the slightly anxious sigh one lets out when they realize everything is going to be okay and they're ready to move on.

[@JohnSmith-nm1jk]

To me it sounds like he is invoking his disappearance until 5:31 in this vid where he really feels he succeeded. 5:49 is like a "there is no going back" moment and at 6:00 reality (all the stuff he's escaping from) threatens still to lurk in his nonexistence bubble

[@allanmanzanares3119]

What a beautiful reflection. I don’t know if this is Radiohead’s best song, but it’s definitely my favorite. Warm regards from San Francisco, CA

[@josephmoya9929]

Definitely depressing, but illuminating. I mean, it's the part of life that we try to lock away. The lingering light that never goes away. I love Radiohead for this reason. Keeps me grounded.

[@floridahiker1503]

This is a powerful song.

[@daniilknigin8713]

The music video is so distracting... I feel like most Radiohead songs are better experienced with your eyes closed, lol

[@jamiechmiel8003]

You have to be very vulnerable to listen and comment on radiohead. Not anyone can put themselves in this state when doing a public review. Their songs are so fucking personal that you want to be alone when listening.

[@seenofaith99]

The intent of the song; or at least by the singer is a account of a dream he had. The lyrics are the literal interpretation of what he experienced in his dream. But ultimately this song like many other Radiohead songs are usually left to the listener and what they interpret through the lyrics and instruments as far as what the song might mean.

[@davidtate8273]

'I float down the Liffey' ... river running through Dublin.

[@XENONEOMORPH1979]

it is about thom who wanted to leave the stage in ireland but he carried on then after took a walk by the river as he wanted to be alone with his thoughts..........

[@longfootbuddy]

that asian girls cold blank face as shes beating the lfe out of him at the end

[@elamik]

If india is your name i have a thing for you. You have the same reaction as me at the last minute of the song. You can't hide the feel at this point

[@eamanlochain1484]

Another person crying to radiohead..how exciting.....

[@ClavisRa]

Radiohead is catharsis.

[@PhotonJon]

I miss your reactions. Hope you come back properly some day. XO

[@Skullzrapper]

I think the part where the string arrangement becomes warped is the most panic inducing thing I've ever heard in a song. Every single time I hear it, I get goosebumps and am filled with horror! I always thought this song was about out of body experiences! Being a ghost is another interpretation I think is accurate! I think it's more broadly about not being able to identity with yourself though! Absolutely brilliant song 💯

[@Jadamhodges]

It is kind of a written treatise on what to do during a traumatic event.

[@johnsmithjnr9628]

The first time I heard this it depressed me, after that it's been a shoulder to cry on when I need it

[@carolpiza1090]

Great choice!! Sadness and pain are a moment in time. He was able to channel his pain and be a iconic artist!!

[@domdadomdom_2733]

Do Street Spirit

[@ppaesman]

You're a beautiful person... stay strong

[@iainprendergast8311]

It’s Radiohead just flipping one off

[@dbaileyosu]

The best song about dissociation ever written

[@j_nightshade]

Radiohead is phenomenal

[@Mmmald397]

you got played there ain't no video for this song

[@aimlessgera92]

React to Bjork

[@drunkroku4054]

When music reviews get real............

[@julienrheault9041]

This song. save my soul when I was a teenager

[@ericvogt7123]

I think you're awesome

[@billyhoyle2780]

This song was made because Thom Yorke really struggled playing in front of crowd, and didn’t know how to cope with fame. He asked REM lead singer Michael Stipe for advice. And he told him when you are playing live in front of a big crowd, imagine you are not there and this isn’t happening.

[@leavemealoneimjustfreespirted]

It's about how when the band all the sudden blow up overnight. Going from playing a show with 400 people to 30,000 and he lost it and didn't know how to preform. He contacted Michael from REM and he told him to put the blinds down and pretend he's not really there. ❤

[@Acoustic-Rabbit-Hole]

What was really fascinating to me what when the ultimate climatic dissonance come at the end, she didn't flinch, like in some other reaction-videos to this song that i've seen. She didn't move or react at all. The pain and chaos went right through her soul. And she took it without fear. This is true bravery. An ability to accept these things that life gives us.

[@cosmicphoto05]

This song has an amazing origin story. Radiohead were unprepared for their stardom after the release of OK Computer, and Thom didn't know how to deal with it. Michael Stipe gave him the line "I'm not here, this isn't happening." At the risk of sounding melodramatic. I think it saved Thom's life. Having said that, it's gotta be weird performing a song that's so deeply personal in front of thousands of screaming fans who don't know the real story behind it.