RE: My Abuse Story by Matthew Santoro

[@RobGavagan]

The fact that you exist, Boogie, is a testament to the fact that while the impact of what is wrong and evil may remain, you can still be a light in the world. You, Boogie, are one of the brightest.

[@aesthetic_apples888]

Holy Shit! It's Rob. and he is right. Boogie is a beautiful soul.

[@rufflesthegreat2264]

k

[@-tokyoconnection-8033]

I respect this..

[@Colei0]

Couldn't have said it better

[@asleepius]

+Rob Dyke You are simultaneously badass and caring.

[@DreamcastGuy]

As someone who faced horrible childhood abuse (and still wears the deep scars of it) I was really touched by this Boogie. Thank you so much for opening yourself up like this. You really are the best. Stay strong and stay healthy.

[@alexanderbadillo704]

I see you every where man!

[@northernhoarder8555]

+DreamcastGuy i've never seen someone try so hard for subs

[@potadrone5496]

+Northern Hoarder lol savage

[@crowontwo]

+Northern Hoarder I know right. He just needs to stop :P

[@DCDarksky]

+Enjoy the Decline Damn... :(

[@SargonofAkkad]

After the way you handled the r/fatpeoplehate issue, I would be front and centre to argue against anyone who was going to call you weak. That demonstrated a remarkable strength of character. Stay safe, Boogie.

[@spilkspmilk6798]

+Sargon of Akkad glad to see you on boogeys channel my man im a sub of yours also

[@Deepicanimefreak]

+Sargon of Akkad You watch Boogie, Sargon?You have good taste in youtubers

[@NoNo-rk7uj]

Seeeerrrrgeeeeeerrrnnnnn, I loooovveee yooooouu!!!

[@AaronFTWKanaal]

I very much second that. Boogie's bravery and strength is an inspiration to all.

[@PaladinsLight]

+Sargon of Akkad its true that some men get abused by women, but imo they r the weakest and most feminine, tis y they r targeted. u dont c confident aggressive men gettin abused or bullied. idk, bein abused by a women and crying about it 30 yrs later, literally crying mind u, seems pretty pathetic to me. but shit, everyone gots an opinion like assholes, so mines is as worthless as yours.

[@peache6334]

i'm 21 and grew up in a horribly abusive home. i moved out at 18 only to be abused by an ex boyfriend. i'm living with my parents once again because i had to get away from my boyfriend who terrorized me. no one helped me growing up. child protective services, teachers, counselors, therapists, police officers, other family, etc all told my parents to hit me more and thought i deserved it. now i'm 21 and still in the same situation with no job because i am disabled (w fibro which most ppl who have it were abused and i have multiple mental health issues now). everything i've gone through is really bad and it's still bad. everyone has hurt me tbh. i don't understand how people just watched as you were being hurt and watched as i was too!

[@Bommba]

peach e I’m so sorry

[@justinmueller667]

Stay strong, we believe in you:)

[@admiralofcuteness]

This comment's nine months old. How are you doing now?

[@joelhanan5956]

wait for the police therapists child protective services all told your parents, to hit you more. something is not adding up

[@faithisthevictory2337]

Weed, cookies, cereal, ice cream, pizza, more weed and 2000's Nickelodeon cartoons

[@TheGamersJoint]

I've never commented on any of your videos Boogie but damn I've been watching you for a long time now dating back to your WoW server rage videos. I want to say thank you for all the insightful videos you upload on a daily basis filling the KZbin community with passion, knowledge and a genuine personality. You are so damn highly respected and you're one of the strongest people I've come to know on KZbin. Keep doing you man and never stop and thanks for everything you've done for us so far.

[@superbonecrusher11]

Hey Cynical! Love Your Videos! And I'm With You And Boogie! 👍😁

[@koiboi4158]

Eyyyyy Jared!

[@MrMaximumOfficial]

awesome to see u here Cynical , I love your kingdom hearts videos :) , i hope you Don't get abused in anyway , love to you and Boogie _Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ ❤

[@theoreticallymonkey]

I'm happy to see so many big youtubers commenting here

[@DrLosser]

Cynical fancy see you here

[@ToastyTime]

Holy shit man... I'm glad you're still around to help everyone who needs it. You sure as hell helped me a lot.

[@jijiofyen]

wassup

[@JackMike16]

+Bashurverse Bashur. Fuck off. Thanks.

[@ToastyTime]

+Bashurverse As you can see, I'm steal dealing with my own shit. But you honestly help me deal with the assholes. You're inspiring Boogie. Thanks man.

[@MagikarpGGod]

+JackMike16 you guys do know that Bashurverse and boogie are friends right?

[@MagikarpGGod]

+Bashurverse #BashurForPresident2016 #"AtleastIGotToFuckHerInTheAss"

[@user-ln6br5md1q]

I wish every one knew males get abused too....

[@brocklesnar8933]

People know males can be abused but because we're supposed to be the "alpha" gender, people think you're not a man if a woman can hurt you and control you

[@masterdirector7661]

Copy Pod Most people do... at least in my community. Everyone here knows that things can go both ways.

[@Frost_Winterfall]

Copy Pod the worst part is that statistically, women abuse men more than the other way around

[@kaidenbidinost353]

Copy Pod I know everyone always says men don't get abused and if they get raped by a girl they always say oh you jsut of liked it like no

[@Frost_Winterfall]

Linus667 had my ex abuse me until I was about to kill my self and was on the brink of insanity. I told someone and was told to get over it, man the fuck up, and stop being such a fucking wuss about everything

[@CareyHolzman]

You are one of the strongest people I've ever witnessed. Arnold Schwarzenegger has got nothing on you. Forget about muscles - that's not real strength. Most of society cannot see how ripped your brain is. You. Are. Amazing!

[@metatrontx]

CareyHolzman thats right

[@conormcrunner494]

but his brain is broken, so you're just being a kiss arse.

[@nikwboy635-_-2]

how ripped his heart is you mean

[@joshdaboss4373]

100%

[@jeffson777jeff2]

CareyHolzman so true

[@TheComedyButchers]

Real men show emotion. Real men can be sensitive. Real men can lose. Real men can cry. Real men are HUMAN.

[@kiba3x]

+Jakob A Yes.

[@JulesSchattenberg]

+Jakob A I agree.

[@alex46215]

+Jakob A Real men suck it up and push forward....we solve problems, we dont make them....we dont let ppl get the better of us...NUFF SAID.

[@TheComedyButchers]

+Alex Jones real men use "don't", and "people", not "dont" and "ppl"

[@JulesSchattenberg]

Alex Jones You just got rekt by a REAL man.

[@NukesTop5Espanol]

This was gut-wrenching man. I relate, I grew up in one of those same small southern towns. I applaud your courage for posting this. It will definitely help others.

[@dianageorge8948]

+NukeNorway hi

[@dianageorge8948]

+NukeNorway #FuckNicoleArbour

[@djdog5280]

Lol

[@deadpoolf1]

today western society is sick if a woman is adused by a man everyone come to the rescue, when a man is abused by a woman it's who give a shit.

[@J1e9r9r6y]

nuke !!!!!

[@123legosandletsplays]

This comment section is like a support group. Its really awesome. Maybe one of the best comment sections ive ever seen. My faith in humanity has been partially restored.

[@chris___01_]

+Subliminality well...that comment made no sense

[@123legosandletsplays]

Chris Smith I was thinking that

[@gabec9646]

No, humans are born with something called compassion, have you never seen compassion before? Because it looks like you just saw it! People not only categorize skin and ethnicity, they categorize people who follow a popular person, from KZbin or Instagram or just fans that are annoying!

[@georgynnachco721]

+Noodle Glitch It's not usual to see nice comments on KZbin.

[@ShapelessFetus]

+billybob jenkins i dno its kind of gay tbh

[@ghostt5623]

I was emotionally, physically mentally abused for 8 years. When I was 5 my mom developed a drug addiction and my dad became abusive. We became so poor that we barely got food on the table every night. I developed severe depression, severe anxiety, and OCD at the age of 10. Only 10. Now I'm 13 and living with my grandparents, and I'm just getting help.

[@NotAnotherKuromi]

I am glad you are getting help now. I hope your grandparents are treating you well & caring for you. You can get over your horrible beginning & go on to lead a happy life.

[@uwunuzzlewuzzle2074]

Keep on kicking kid, dont let anyone get you down. ❤

[@lisascarrott6142]

Sorry to hear this good luck with the help you be getting best wishes to you and you will recover from this

[@EvilPurpleDragon]

oh waah waah

[@uwunuzzlewuzzle2074]

Just ignore that trolls comment. Your feelings and emotions are valid. The troll is just wanting attention.

[@sergio.h1985]

Boogie, I've never been abused so I can't relate, but I am a father to a two years old boy. I would do anything to protect him from harm. I can't imagine how parents can abuse their children like this... I can't physically fathom how it's possible to be so cruel... YOURE a survivor and always have been. Stay strong, you're an amazing human being and one of my favorite KZbinr. Always entertaining, funny, inspirational... What more can a human being be? Love all the way from Lebanon.

[@jamesmottershead6150]

I don't know how anyone could abuse their own child? I don't know anyone in their right mind who would do that, it's quite disgusting to be honest.

[@robin2373]

hey bud change the second can't, you might piss some people off.

[@MoonlitMarch]

'I can't imagine how parents can't abuse their children' - Sergio Halaby, 2016

[@sergio.h1985]

+Michael PCG hahahahahaha no way!! Sorry about that :D

[@sergio.h1985]

+Michael PCG hahahahahaha no way!! Sorry about that :D

[@hockeylover246]

this is why boogie is the realest guy you will ever see on a screen

[@dafttassia1960]

i've never rooted for someone more than boogie

[@BoolRegaurdRippy]

Are the others not real guys

[@Weedle2]

idk in his life story he says his sister ran away and in this 1 he says she was taken away sooo....

[@nickthekidNL]

true dat people like this are the real people

[@urma3463]

Right you are!

[@Varooooooom]

This is the 3rd video I've seen of yours, the first being your reaction to the Fine Bros announcement. One of the first thoughts I had of you after watching that had to do with how straight-minded and unbiased you were, and I try to keep a level head like that everyday. Seeing someone take apart a video that EVERYONE hated but show that there were good intentions behind it, you're the only one that I've seen do that so far. And now, hearing this, I'm even more amazed dude. I know it can be tough to go through life as a functional, normal person despite everything you've been through. But goddamn, you do so well at it. And I'm glad you found it in you to open up a bit on KZbin. 3 videos in, I can tell you're great at what you do online and offline. Keep it up man. You're inspiring.

[@madlibs4]

+Its Devildude2002 same!

[@sidgrim2168]

+Varun Athilat I suscribed to his channel a few days ago, after watching his reaction to the Fine Bros. This guy is amazing, I agree with you.

[@allentoms1234]

Exactly what I did too.

[@benhunt-deol9713]

Same here, subscribed as soon as I realised how great his videos are

[@KydroxHD]

You are eveyone i try to convinve to be in the internet, i do it cause i care (especially at 2am ;3). Its great to see people like you who should come standard

[@theexecutioner2664]

There really should be something more than a like button, don't you think? That was the bravest thing I've seen in probably forever frankly. My kid (13) is doing a school assignment - a talk - where in part he has to define Greatness. His definition was of one who not only achieved something for/in themself, but where that person also motivated and helped others to do the same. He needs to reference people and situations that example the definition, and discuss why. One of the people I discussed with him ... was you, Boogie. "Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." - William Shakespeare

[@thesenate9617]

the executioner hell yeah hope that your kid gets a hundred

[@thesenate9617]

Got my bad

[@thesenate9617]

Their is but apparently only the person running the channel can use it

[@thesenate9617]

:(

[@DYNASTY1031]

And this is why this man is the greatest of all time.

[@PjDrives_]

tru

[@subsWithNouploads-il6nt]

Hi dynasty! :D

[@tomam1100]

Literally.

[@ArkayneShad0w]

+Dynasty Seriously, though.

[@watchdawgz5515]

i know right!

[@joelmahabir706]

It takes A big man with a big heart to cry on KZbin ❤❤❤

[@trashl0rd]

Remember when trolling was subtle? Now it's just laziness.

[@evanshaner991]

+RolandRED Seriously. Look I normally like to stay away from using harsh language and talking badly to another human even if they do it to someone else but fuck off. This man has had horrible trauma and had his family literally come close to killing him multiple times and your sitting here insulting him. Fuck. Off. I don't know how you manage to sleep at night knowing that you insult people who contemplate suicide. That's the type of thing that kills people. You may not hold the dagger but when you say things like this to people who go through or are currently going through this your the murderer nonetheless. I realize that things are better for Boogie now and that hes learned to brush off hate but think of if you had said this sort of thing to someone else who wasn't immune after they confessed something like this to you. You are simply just a horrible person.

[@lex-ct5zh]

+RolandRED Did someone shit in your cereals this morning?

[@slowking4383]

+BnS iAlex He's in his 14 year old ruthless, thinks he's Kanye West phase. If he doesn't get replies he'll tucker himself out.

[@joe_lizard]

RolandRED ur married hahaha wtf

[@silvereaglexi3888]

it's not males that are violent or females that are violent, it's people that are violent.

[@kneesocks4056]

I don't think people exist anymore I think you meant animals

[@silvereaglexi3888]

BryanTheKing No, i meant people, i think i have a different definition of people though.

[@DeepseaOddities]

+BryanTheKing That really speaks to me. Right on brother.

[@adrianvorkaaa3534]

+SilverEagle XI stfu

[@FlyntNSteel]

+SilverEagle XI Humans are naturally evil...

[@Marshal_Windsor]

Boogie is a gentle minded kind hearted hero

[@taltigolt]

i had an abusive mother too i lost contact with her in 2005 so i know how much that can mess you up i respect you alot boogie

[@NaikoArt]

+taltigolt hey taltigolt =D, you're awesome!

[@LuJo-se4dc]

+Naiko i agree

[@DufulPlays]

We on utube luv u! #nohomo

[@georgewilson3166]

I was abused but its part of growing up u deal with it on life goes on sometimes

[@taltigolt]

George Wilson some are strong im not it messed me up

[@Camelworks]

You're tougher than most, being honest and open about your experiences. You're the fucking manliest man I've ever seen, and a big part of me making my channel

[@evaneyring2795]

Hey camel...

[@LudiKisobran]

Dad

[@водкачеловек-б1б]

K

[@needlessoptions]

Damn. That was some stealth ass advertising man.

[@PaladinsLight]

+Camelworks so u think its manily for a guy to get abused by a women, then cry about it 3 decades later? wer u raised by two women? becasue i dont think u know wat it means to b a man.

[@joshedmonds1142]

Boogie this helped me a lot I'm only 13, fortunately I haven't suffered from physical abuse but I have anxiety and it has taken its toll. I grew up without a farther and my mom made a lot of bad decisions and when she would fight with her boyfriends I would sit in my room and cry for hours I even once put a knife to my throat and sat in my room crying. I hope you realize how much you've helped me and I just want to thank you.

[@acidrain8422]

+Josh Edmonds stay strong brother

[@obbydawl]

+Josh Edmonds I feel you, I've been through it all my life. No 13 year old should ever go through this

[@yashadizero]

Stay strong bro.

[@asmallloanofamilliond0llar952]

+Josh Edmonds wow how can u guys read all of this..

[@wiebki]

hey, I don't know where you live but just know that there are always people you can talk to and help you. this might be friends, relatives, teachers or professionals. so when you feel ready i hope you find the strenght to talk to someone. believe me I've been through a similar situation and it helps to talk to someone. stay strong!

[@artisticalex1206]

One of my sister's friends got badly abused like you did and he got his siblings away while he was brought back to his abusive parents' home. And things got so bad he took his own life in late February of 2016. I am so happy you stayed strong Boogie and I am glad your suicide attempts never worked because you are an amazing KZbinr!

[@daliyoung]

After hearing these stories, I have now realized that i am blessed.

[@jackanthony7786]

Same bro I feel so bad for everyone in the comments that have been hurt

[@1000dumplings]

+Jack Anthony true

[@lolobrezzy24]

💯

[@ken2k45]

+Billionaire Black 🎺🎷

[@theuniversalscholar2362]

Haha sympathy and pity are crutches. Only the weak need apply. Sad story bro, when does the sequel come out? Is what they need to hear.

[@danwilton1874]

it takes a real man to cry (show their real emotions) to millions of people

[@Ste97R]

+RolandRED what?

[@SuperCatfire]

+Ste97R roland needs to get his shit together

[@joeyrocks7916]

+RolandRED shut up ronald

[@lemursven9195]

+RolandRED man I just love accidents....

[@jishmael98]

RolandRED Nice bait

[@TheSkitzMACHINE]

You're one of the strongest mate.

[@hannaanahmed8352]

fuck yeah mate

[@damian1700]

Fuckin great guy

[@mikab5491]

+TheSkitzMACHINE Oii skitz :)

[@indeimaus]

+TheSkitzMACHINE Sup Skitz

[@h0wdy103]

+TheSkitzMACHINE You're really pathetic you have no idea what you are talking about. People have come back from wars and you're saying he's the strong on, some mummy problems awww that's sad, just think to yourself, what about the people with no arms or legs, you really have no idea what you are talking about.

[@RaptureInRed]

Hey. Speaking as a person who has never been in your position, and cannot personally relate to your life or any of what it has involved, I just wanted to tell you that you are a sweet and kind person, and you never, *ever* deserved any of what you have endured.

[@SkulShurtugalTCG]

Hi, Boogie. I'm not the victim of abuse like you are, so I'm afraid I can't completely empathize with you. However I am a victim of bullying, and I know how scarring such an experience is. I was bullied for years when I was younger, and it caused me to completely change my life, mostly for the worse. But I want to assure you, even though you've probably heard it a lot: men don't have to be tough. We are just as human as girls are, and we are liable to the same kinds of pain - mental, physical, spiritual. I'm just glad you finally found a woman who can treat you like a man, and not a punching bag. Stay strong, because while the past might be hard, the future is bright and always full of hope. (to any of my fans who might read this: please don't reply. This is Boogie's video, and I'm just here to support him.)

[@riotbleach4224]

hey man great speech been with ur channel since 3 years, love u

[@MrJasonbreen]

Also a victim of bullying here, I eventually overcame it too, but it also changed me, made me more depressed, compound that with a crazy Jewish family (half-lol), and well...anyway, great apeech, you just got a subscriber! Keep up the good work!

[@aaroui6188]

Like ur Pokemon vids didnt knew you was here

[@JohnPaul-nw4yr]

bulling is still abuse

[@naterville7843]

You are awesome skul you and boogie!

[@gamingtutor4575]

You're so strong boogie. You're much stronger than the average man, you have lived this nightmare and fought it day to day, even now, and you still have the strength to get on camera and fight it. You boogie, are not just a man, but a hero to many.

[@DularaWChannel]

+GamingTutor Amen.

[@unclebill3995]

Damn straight

[@cullumcroucher8813]

+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP

[@cullumcroucher8813]

+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP

[@cullumcroucher8813]

+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP.

[@xrabkurdx]

"It fucks you up for life" I second that.

[@nujuat]

+Enjoy the Decline no, things like that in your life change you.

[@night_fiend6]

+Alex Tritt There is a mind trick that you can do where it does not affect you any more, I had scary depression for years. I learned to deal with it now.

[@icantnamethingswell1778]

+Enjoy the Decline I don't think by saying that "it fucks up your life" meant that they were saying that you end up being a mean person. Am I reading the same comment you are, because I literally see that nowhere. Don't stress yourself out fighting against opinions people don't actually have.

[@xrabkurdx]

Enjoy the Decline honestly sat here for an hour. i wrote my story but deleted it. i've been trying to find a way to reply. but honestly failed. there are things you can never forget or forgive. things that will always break you as you try to get up. psychological abuse and damage really fucks you up. but i just want to say I'm doing great. im a law student with First Class Grades (top tier in the UK universities) and i will overcome it. im sorry for your mom. ive been through everything she went through and 90% more. your love is the most important thing to her. beleive when i say this. when she feels love by her loved ones there is nothing she wont overcome. something i wish i felt. what it feels like to be loved by a mother, father and grandparents. what i feels like having a friendship with my siblings. i hope ill provide those to my children.

[@xrabkurdx]

Jenny Zalmanovich no it doesn't lol. if all it turns us to being too nice. and people exploit your kindness to use you.

[@mattwilkinson9392]

Man I know this was posted years ago but this touched me and I just wanted to say your brave for coming out with this lot of love stay strong

[@hannahnelson8824]

I want to give him a hug so bad :(

[@bonk984]

+Jaclyn Johnson Why did you say thanks? He wasn't talking to you...

[@TheFlamingJason]

+Hannah Nelson If you could fit your arms around him. :D (This isn't hate I love him but, you know)

[@makiahcudmore2002]

+Jason PlaysMC it'd be worth it 😄

[@wurst4466]

same

[@barrynolam1065]

you wouldn't get your arms around him. I'm not being mean I'm just sayin

[@Repzion]

Thank you for this video.

[@soupcake3092]

+MrRepzion aaaaayyyyy it's our 2nd favourite reptilian youtuber!

[@wilsonluong4159]

you gonna do a response repzion?

[@tempf2774]

Screw you for blocking people who are able to refute your arguments in an educated manner. Fuck your pro-suicide white knight hypocrite attitude.

[@FanBoys2010]

+tempf Real mature.

[@limbomonster9434]

Sup, Daniel.

[@metal_lion1146]

Boogie, never be afraid to talk to your fans. We all support you. Sure we enjoy the content you make for us, but you're more important.

[@sapphireskies9129]

Yes

[@optimisticgaming1826]

Yup

[@theroundestboi2762]

We love you boogie

[@fredpro4774]

agreed

[@seranok2692]

your*

[@randimatsuzaki8461]

You broke the cycle and chose kindness. That is huge. There will always be lasting effects, but you came out on top because you recognize what happened to you was wrong and you chose to be better than the world you knew growing up-you didn’t let your abuser destroy you. You won.

[@dustintaylor7100]

Its not just guys that abuse Girls abuse too

[@dustintaylor7100]

What

[@grandpatrinity3299]

+RolandRED Man you moron got nothing to do, all you do is go make fun of whoever talks about their story or talk about it.. You really need to go out there and live your life

[@grandpatrinity3299]

RolandRED I'm talking about your other comments.

[@dustintaylor7100]

RolandRED Dude just stop and leave my comment

[@AkashSmith-andrew-smith]

+RolandRED Go away

[@WoWguidery]

I'm a girl and I love when a guy doesn't have to be "macho." It shows he can be real. If he cries, I don't tease him or think he's a creep. I see him as being human. Guys, not all girls are bad or vice versa but always be yourselves, because girls like me are looking for you.

[@WoWguidery]

Demetrio Zannetti Then maybe you're pursuing the wrong types of girls.

[@DemetrioZannetti]

WoW Guidery you're not wrong but sometimes the wrong ones are very good at pretending they're the right ones

[@921Ether]

Woman like you are too rare.

[@WoWguidery]

Savage Grandpa Unfortunately. :( But not extinct.

[@LLE2001]

neck beard bait

[@N8R_Quizzie]

I don't get abused, but I feel you man. As men we are taught to grow up being tough and only part of that is true. Guys, if we express our guilt/regret more, we could come to forgive ourselves much easier. There is a great book about this called the Kite Runner where this guy named Amir as a kid had a friend named Hassan and basically Amir allowed very bad things to happen to Hassan, but if Amir was in trouble, Hassan would help or take the blame. Throughout the remainder of the book he goes back to Afganistan (his home town) and tries to make it better again. Thing is, he has been forgiven by others for his entire life and his journey is to forgive himself for what he has done. Boogie, I feel you man. I really appreciated the part where you said, none of what I did helped except talking to others.

[@aidanbowie5391]

+superQuizzie LET HEAVY EAT PROFILE PICTURE!

[@muttmatty5678]

there was a movie with the same plot you just told but don't know if it has the same title,i like the movie very much though

[@CheeseWheelEnthusiast]

There is another book by the same author called "A thousand suns" (at least I believe that's the title. It's about how a man marries to young girls and he physically and emotionally abuse both of them. It's a really great book.

[@muttmatty5678]

Rosotee does it have a movie ?

[@CheeseWheelEnthusiast]

muhd iqmal21 Not sure

[@sarahmadison4985]

I've never wanted to give someone a hug so much before in my entire life. Hearing about someone go through so many horrible things throughout their life at the hands of a person who was supposed to love & support them is so painful, and I cannot believe that it happens as often as it does. Boogie, you're an incredible person & going through that abuse doesn't make you any less of a man. If anything it makes you stronger, & I hope one day I can say that I grew to be as strong as you have.

[@coolhellu]

That small little snippet about your wife made me cry. Im just incredibly happy for you and hope that ill find something like that one day.

[@petrschmeichel]

I had to stop the video 8 minutes in cause I was tearing up. You just wanna hug him.

[@klystron2010]

+Jack Macleod You'd need pretty long arms to manage that.

[@lilbased8855]

+klystron2010 Should a loser like you with a pony as their profile picture really be making fun of a man that has it all ?

[@klystron2010]

I know, I know, just taking the piss.

[@aceyspud551]

+klystron2010 Nothing wrong with lightening the mood.

[@12SidedSeb]

+AandM To be fair, what is and isn't funny is subjective. Freedom of choice. Don't get me wrong, I am not commenting on whether or not I find post to be funny...just pointing out that it is subjective.

[@theprocrastinationartist]

I have just found this man and I need to say this man deserved a better life and I don't feel bad for him I am proud of him that he is still alive and he still alive with a wife.. He deserves so much more.

[@theprocrastinationartist]

I have just found his channel ****

[@ElMavericko]

When you said “the same teenage boy getting the living s*** beat out of” that honestly broke me because my ex girlfriend of 4 years did that to me every single day of my life until she moved away and still tormented me with verbal abuse and mental as well. When I feel low and my depression and memories get to, I still see myself as a 16 year old getting shoved, smacked, cut, punched in the face and even emasculated by other male students with her crude remarks. Even after it was just me and her after school. The constant put down, fighting and telling me I’m nothing without her. Makes me burst into tears while I’m rubbing my left arm since she almost broke it after I fell hard on the ground trying to get her off me. 4 years with her. Even after she moved to another continent. I was under her strings. Until I said enough was enough but the damage still followed. Even now I still feel I’m not good enough for anyone my own age. I’m 24 and I’m just slowly coming to peace especially coming out to tell my parents especially my dad who I was terrified to tell since he raised me to be stronger than any other woman and man since he was in the army not that he was also father of the year sometimes. He told me it’s okay and he still loved me which made me cry harder since I carried that fear of him seeing me less of a man as his only son for 8 years..

[@Jared98695]

You telling your story is a fact that your are brave, dude. I don't know what it's like, but I know people who have experienced that.

[@wpowpowpo5522]

MrMetalMan well, guess god gave her the death penalty. Jesus Christ A HAMMER!?

[@KururuguyBlogspot]

This goes to show that even the happiest of people (or even successful people) can even have tragic backstories.

[@Rainmanl0l]

+PandaTheory Psychologists suggest that the happiest people, and the funniest people, are usually the most depressed.

[@Holligan878]

+Noose Never use the term "studies" or "it has been proven" if you haven't verified that information. There are so many "studies" that have been fabricated (mostly over facebook it seems) that are complete bullshit. Please send me the link to a legitimate source or edit/remove that comment.

[@Nautilus1972]

+kururuguy EVERYONE has a tragic backstory.

[@Vert_GreenHeart]

+kururuguy And Vice-versa

[@kyleneeley1]

+kururuguy A lot of times tragedy is the cause of happiness

[@ace7410]

Anyone else want to give Boogie a hug after this video?

[@zszombiesquad1686]

Me

[@amv062184]

+ace7410 boogie gives the best hugs because hes so soft, like the ultimate pillow

[@fagfrags7716]

+stukakke woah bro..

[@alimannion3163]

+Thebossgamer291 Let's form an orderly queue.💖

[@rotwart]

+ace7410 Not really, no.

[@felipebarbosa1874]

I know this video is old, but I can't keep myself from commenting... All that you said here makes me see how strong you are, I doubt that if something of that sort happened to me I would never be in the spot you are right now. You may have all the problems you have, but you are better then someone that hears your story could possibly think you would be. And thinking of all the children that are suffering from the same kind of abbuse right now, and nobody helping just makes me even more sad. You will probably never read this, because of my timing, but anyways, you are incredible. (Sorry if I make any english mistakes, not really from an english speaking country)

[@jackcorcoran1778]

Boogie, just remember that 2,937,132 have your back if you ever decide to upload the video explaining your abuse.

[@jackcorcoran1778]

*2,937,193

[@IcyKid820ice]

+Jack Corcoran 2,939,018*

[@chickoman355]

+Jack Corcoran 2,941,199*

[@GameMasterpg]

+chickoman355 Really 20 percent of them are trolls that want to make fun and put him down so don't say all 2 million got his back.

[@GameMasterpg]

chickoman355 That's because 100% of his viewers don't watch his video's.

[@kio146]

Im 14 yrs old and have been subscribed to you for more than a year. I have been lucky not to experience any abuse but my life has deffinetely had some ups and downs. My father and grandpa died when I was 6, my grandma died a year later, and then in 2009 my uncle ( who was like my second dad) died. When I watch videos like these, I find myself being a lot happier about my life and realise that many people have gone thru stuff 10x worse than mine. Boogie, you are an AMAZING person and very real with your fans. You don't put a mask on and act like the perfect guy with the perfect life everybody should idolise. You share your story in hopes that it will help others, and trust me, it does. Keep on pushin and making people happy and proud. Don't get discouriged, because there are people who's lives you made a lot better, and maybe even saved. Thank you.

[@603shooter]

+Pocket vomit Stfu scumbag he wasn't trying to push his story on anyone, get a fucking life

[@GermansEagle]

+Pocket vomit the kid is more mature than you...

[@kio146]

+Pocket vomit Whoa. I am not trying to push my " shit". I just want to show to him that he is helping others, and one of those people is me. I dont know what your problem with this comment is. I am pretty sure that I am aloud to share my story no matter how good or bad it is. I know his life was 90x harder and I praise him for being able to put a smile on his face and entertain people.

[@sandyolson9558]

+Pocket vomit listen here buddy. These people are trying to be positive and help boogie. You have no right to try and put a negative spin on the things they are saying. Sometimes, a new perspective or a new story can help a person a lot, and that is what these people are offering to boogie.

[@purplehero7501]

+Sandy Olson Bruh

[@dogcrick]

I have been abused in ways I won't describe in full detail here. I don't feel sorry for myself one bit. Instead of being upset and feeling bad for myself or feeling like a victim of abuse I decided to make a change for those that I can. I am not a victim. I was locked in trunks, I was sexually abused, I was beaten, I was subjected to drug abuse, I was lied to about how I was conceived, I was subjected to extreme racism, I was pulled from my family, I was moved all over the country every few months never being in one town for a full year until I was locked away in one for over a year, I watched my mother slice her wrists and bleed out in front of me, I watched strange men come into my home and tell me to call them dad, I fought 2 to 3 times a week to defend myself from bullies, I was put on OYA and used as an example for kids that still had a chance, ect... I could go on for hours about the bullshit I have been through. Hell my mom committed suicide when I was only 15 and revealed to me in the suicide letter that I she lied about my dad and that I will most likely never meet him because he is a rapist and I am a product of that. I was told I am suicidal, manic depressive, a drug addict, an alcoholic, and a threat to my community. I was prescribed a ton of pills and locked away in a cell with heavy therapy. Not once did I buy into that bullshit. We all have bad things happen to us. Well at least most of us do. We have the power to choose how we react to those bad things. We can choose to accept being victimized or we can choose to not accept it. We can choose to let those memories effect our future in a negative way such as being depressed, unsociable, acting out, turning to drugs or alcohol, or even just having a chip on our shoulder because we technically have the right to have a chip on our shoulder since we have been subject to victimization. However I chose to do something different. After attending my mother's funeral in handcuffs, shackles and a belly chain in front of all my friends, family and close to 1,000 members of my local community I had a complete meltdown followed by pure clarity. Everything started to make sense to me. Life is literally the accumulation of choices and reactions. Emotions are controllable and reactions are a choice. As I began to understand that and to apply simple accountability ONLY to myself and no one else my life started to change. I realized what my faults were, what my strengths were and what mattered. Simply quit caring about the judgments from others and only care about meeting your full potential as human. Do good instead of bad. Do right instead of wrong. Take the hard road when everyone else takes the easy road. If it is easy then it isn't the right option. If someone has to lose for you to win, don't play the game. I know it all sounds stupid but I am truly a living example of this. While my following is nowhere near as large as yours is I can tell you right now that this simple logic has helped to change my life and hundreds if not thousands of others lives at this point. I literally had my eye opener at 15 years old and have been on a mission to help others every since. I know this will probably get hated on because nobody ever wants to take accountability for the negative or the bad in the world but as soon as I started to acknowledge my own thinking errors, my own tactics to avoid accountability and stopped even paying attention to others faults, my entire life changed. Fast forward 16 years and I am still just as passionate about it and still stand behind that belief as it has continued to prove true. I wish everyone that reads this the best and hope that all of you find your inner strength. The people that abused me will never have the satisfaction of feeling that they hurt me because they didn't. They empowered me to do better than they were ever able to for themselves. #humanity #onelove

[@smeef9993]

Wow that's a touching story... hope you the best on your way

[@RyanBuchananJ]

You said you wouldn't describe the abuse in full detail and then proceeded to do so. What the fuck, pal?

[@TheDoc_StatusQuo]

+Ryan Buchanan (RetroBacon) he may have gotten caught up.

[@mothsaliva]

Thanks for being honest to yourself.

[@thereptilian9734]

+EXTREME SCALE PERFORMANCE RC my heart goes out to you, we need more people like you in this fucked up world.

[@agentsarahjane]

I came to this video in the feed from seeing the Do5 update - btw Cody and Emma are with their mother now - but I just want to give you a virtual hug. Boogie, you big lug, thanks for being so brave and opening up. It takes guts to talk about what we try to hide out of shame. You are a person who deserves love and considerate caring. I wish you well and all the best. I know men who have been in abuse situations including family and loved ones. These are some of the most amazing men and the biggest hearts I ever had the honor of being loved by. I hope I treat them with the love and respect they deserve and I try to be the best person I can for them.

[@RedReera]

Goddamn. Seeing a grown man cry hits me.

[@kolkon7947]

He may be a grown man but that doesn't mean that he doesn't have emotions

[@RedReera]

+untypicalluke yeah of course I realise that but as he said we grow up in a society where men are supposed to be manly. just gets me

[@kolkon7947]

owendudeson yeah, the feels are too much

[@ras9326]

+owendudeson Seeing a real man cry can make anyone feel bad, only man can talk like this

[@Bootlegvibes]

+owendudeson That is a bitch not a man

[@conradritchie2236]

Remember people, think before you judge someone. You have no idea what they might of gone through. Considering the amazing person Boogie is, I NEVER would of guessed it would have been this bad.

[@conradritchie2236]

Natasel We don't know what kind of horror boogies Mom went through either, for all we know she could of had the same treatment from her parents or worse. Of course thats in no way a justification of her behaviour. The people who have turned out completely evil and vile are always the people that have given up on having inner peace.

[@conradritchie2236]

Natasel read my comment carefully please.

[@conradritchie2236]

Natasel yes of course. No one should treat their child that way.

[@LadyDaii]

+Natasel No matter what kind of horrors a person goes through, that will never justify them harming another human being. Not everyone can turn out like Boogie, and the fact that he suffered that kind of abuse and is still so kind just shows how amazing his character is.

[@conradritchie2236]

***** No that's not what he or she is saying. She's saying the opposite.

[@sgtwaddle7461]

these abuse stories actually make me feel good. My mom and dad are constituently fighting. They constantly drink and sometimes do drugs and this causes them to get violent with each other every night. About every few days they bring me into it and 1 of my parents(usually my dad) will threaten me and kick me out of the house for trying to calm them down. I feel so embarresed when I hide in my schools tech room to sleep since the lights and heat are left on all night. It makes me feel less alone when I hear these stories and gives me drive to become successful like boogie.

[@kamielt5904]

You got my respect

[@englebertmagentaschweiger1447]

+Brandon Young I can't fathom remaining normal through all that, it takes some real balls to live through that. And from one rational person to another, good job enduring and good luck.

[@rinsesense7140]

if u would like your parents to stop fighting you gotta be firm with them when their sober pull them aside and talk with them about how you feel

[@KKmar2025]

+Brandon Young my advice to you is to not alienate yourself from everyone, try your hardest to make a few close friends, you will be surprised how supporting friends can be in a time of need.........

[@lamarallama2990]

+Brandon Young Call the police hun x

[@SanaLovesMahado1]

I know this video is over a year old, but it is still relevant to any people who have suffered through abuse. I, myself, have not but I have/had friends that had gone through similar abuse or like yours and Matthew's. It breaks my heart to see anyone get treated like dog shit, especially in families and/or communities...whatever. You and Matt are brave. A true testament that people can survive through this and have a good life overall, no matter how terrible it was for them. Thank you for existing, Boogie. Thank you for being you. You are an incredible human being and your wife is hella lucky to have you around. Without you, this world would be quite boring, ya know? :)

[@angeemima]

Goddamn Boogie, I felt that. I felt that SO deeply - wow... I wasn't ready... But then again, are we ever REALLY ready? If I may, I'd like to share. This will be a first for me, so my apologies in advance if I jump all over the place. I too was abused as a child... And like you, my abuse came at the hands of someone who was supposed to LOVE and PROTECT me from the world... But, my father failed to do that. My father RUINED me. And now, at 33 years old, I am still picking up the pieces. I made a promise to myself years and years ago that I would BREAK the cycle. I vowed to NEVER, EVER turn out like him - I will NOT let him have that kind of power over me... Those days are OVER. And, if I am someday blessed with a child of my own, they will never - NEVER - experience the things I experienced... the things that could have so easily been avoided, but weren't. My abuse came at the hands of my father - a military man. He was like a real life Dr Jekyll& Mr Hyde... He had his public persona, and then there was the REAL him that we saw behind the scenes. Everyone that knew him LOVED him. As a high ranking officer of 33 years in the military, he was highly respected. He was also highly regarded at his civilian job. My peers knew him as my High School's Frosh/JV/Varsity tennis coach. I knew him for his TRUE self and saw him for what EXACTLY what he really was - a fucking MONSTER abused the ever loving SHIT out of his child simply because he could. As we walked around the grocery store, as we marched in the parade for my softball league, as we took communion at church, everyone came up to him and showered him with love and friendship... And there I was on the sidelines, staring in absolute DISGUST because I knew it would only be a matter of time before we were home and that "switch" was flipped. He "justified" his actions by saying, "My father raised me this way, so I will raise you this way too." To this day, that has easily been the most DISGUSTING and DISTURBING thing that I have EVER heard in my LIFE. My grandfather was a Drill Sergeant and a 3x Vietnam vet. I'm sure you can imagine what kind of "parent" he was and where my father got these fucked up ideas. I wish I could say that, I no longer hold resentment towards my father, but that would be a lie. I also wish I could say that I have nothing but love in my heart for my mother, but that too would be a lie - I have never understood, and frankly, I've given up trying, how she could possibly allow my father to do the things he did. HOW?! WHY?! My mother would take my sister out for walks just so they wouldn't have to witness my father beating me with his pistol belt and so they wouldn't have to hear my cries for help. My mother knew EXACTLY what was going on and did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to stop it - not one goddamn thing. And, to me, something so DEPLORABLE is straight UNFORGIVABLE. I "divorced" both of my parents several years ago and, while closing that chapter of my life was INCREDIBLY painful (afterall, they ARE myPARENTS. They ARE my family), it was the absolute BEST decision I've EVER made. Up until the very end, my father still tried to control me with his mindfuckery and evil, EVIL ways. As expected, my mother still turned a blind eye. But you know, while I will never understand it, I have fully accepted my past. To that, I also welcome the future with excitement and open arms. I alone am in charge of my destiny and I will NOT let my past - or my parents - have power over me ANY longer. I can honestly say that I'm VERY proud of the woman that I have become. Whenever I am lost I need direction, all I need to do is think of my father and choose the exact OPPOSITE of what he would do or say, and things ALWAYS work out. I now know what LOVE is and have been lucky enough to experience it on a daily basis - turns out that I AM worthy of love afterall! The road to healing is long, windy, and full of potholes, but that does not deter me. The work I have done, and will continue to do for the rest of my days, for/on myself has been very, VERY painful. Actually, "painful" doesn't even come close to describing it - I don't know that my experience and feelings can actually be captured in words. But, I keep going. I have to. I owe it to myself to be the very BEST version of me possible... and that's what I'll keep doin - with a smile in my face, and love in my heart, I WILL break the cycle. ❤ ((THANK YOU everyone for allowing me to free myself this morning... I feel like I just offloaded 350lbs. LOVE and LIGHT to all reading this... Please, if you need someone to talk to, I am only an email away - I will gladly, and humbly, lend you an ear or shoulder to cry on. We all need SOMEONE, and I'd be HONORED to be your "someone" if you're in the market for one. 😊))

[@caseygecko]

respect

[@Vineor]

+Angee Casiano *bowing down in respect*

[@angeemima]

+erol simon

[@angeemima]

+Eoin O'Kelly Thank you, friend!

[@angeemima]

+Vincent Sauer no "bowing down" friend ... hugs instead :) Thank you.

[@bangarang3810]

When it comes to domestic violence? It's actually 50-50 between the sexes when it comes to mutual abuse. In instances where violence is one sided, it's actually women who are more likely to hit and women who are more likely to use weapons. Where women outnumber men is the reports of being abused and injuries suffered from domestic abuse.

[@zoeredadams]

Women are more likely to hit their partners and are just as likely to be emotional abusers. To be honest, I've hit my boyfriend a couple of times on his arms etc during an argument but he has never hit me. (anecdotal, I know). However, when men hit their partners those partners are more likely to get seriously hurt. That's why domestic violence shelters place the focus on women: because whilst the emotional damage can be just the same, there's much less risk of the husbands/boyfriends being beaten to pulps. If a husband is being abused by his wife, often the best option is to just leave If a wife is being abused by her husband, sometimes her only option is to go to a shelter and hide. There was a time where I was genuinely scared my mother was going to be killed and she was too. The social services told her to go to a shelter 20 miles away, but she refused, as she couldn't risk leaving her older (16+) children. Luckily she made it out okay with only a few broken bones :(

[@bangarang3810]

Zoe Adams I agree with your distinctions about men and women in regards to domestic violence; women are typically more severly injured by men due to obvious differences in strength but also statistically significant is that men tend not to report being victimised nor seek medical attention, making it difficult to ascertain with accuracy. However I think you're being rather reductive to assign that one fact to be the reason why there are shelters for women and a complete lack of institutional and social support for male victims. There are much larger forces at play here, some overt, some not so obvious.

[@dafttassia1960]

+Zoe Adams the difference is that when men hit women it usually leaves them very hurt

[@stacey1961]

+abdikadir hashi And You think it is different the other way around ? Then I think you missed the point of this video.

[@OddGuy]

+Bang Arang Men are typically more violent, but since women can abuse and get away with it far more easily it brings it to about 50-50

[@mattao18]

A few nights ago on Twitch you shared a story of forgiving your mother moments before she died. If I was in your situation I'm not sure I would have done the same, that's an incredible thing to do. You are strong and watching your KZbin videos and Twitch streams help keep me and many others strong too. Thank you for everything you do and please don't ever stop : Don't stop fighting, don't stop trying, don't stop sharing, don't stop being you.

[@mattao18]

+Banter I didn't record anything, it was just one of his stories he shared during a Twitch stream. Honestly I never really understood Twitch until watching boogie2988 stream, I reccomend adding him and watching him sometime, he's very open and honest.

[@girlbuu9403]

+Craig R Did he? I hope he didn't feel some sort of ridiculous obligation to do so. If my father showed up at my door to tell me he was terminally ill with cancer I would deadpan ask him if he wanted me to take him out back and put him out of his misery with a shovel. If not, get the fuck off my property. If even *half* of what Boogie just said about his mom is true... my dad might be awful but doesn't hold a candle to her. He'd never get anything from me, let alone forgiveness.

[@markvasquez5215]

+Girl Buu What did boogie's mom do to him?

[@girlbuu9403]

Watch the video? He talks about it starting at about the halfway point.

[@markvasquez5215]

Girl Buu Yeah I watched the video just now. Sorry for being ignorant, I don't watch Boogie.

[@TheAmateurLifestyle]

Boogie I was never physically abused like you were. My heart goes out to you. I was psychologically abused for years and years. Pretty much abandoned. We can never be that person we were meant to be, but we can always move forward being the person we want to be. You are right; people who are abused are just never the same. Thanks for sharing.

[@jennyramirez4957]

You're bravery speaks volumes.

[@bettiplays]

*your

[@machoyo6466]

chill he wasn't talking about boogie

[@harshoperator]

+Jennifer Rainbows Ramirez your*

[@rotwart]

+Jennifer Rainbows Ramirez "Your" Idiot

[@paulcarb]

+TiDosAwsomeGRoop of fun I think he was talking about someone pointing out a grammatical error bro and not saying he didn't care about Boogie

[@DeanoSauruzRex]

You have to seriously be one of the strongest individuals I have ever witnessed in my life Boogie. I couldn't express how thankful I am for yourself being one of these brave hearts who is able to talk about this stuff openly. I grew up with a divorced family, raised by my Father and just through catching on to things he used to say throughout life often makes me wonder whether he was living proof of a mentally and physically abusive marriage. I've never had the courage to ask him as it has never seemed appropriate but he would always highlight the fact that men do not get respected and listened to enough when it comes to domestic situations within marriages. The fact that statistics suggest that a high rate of Male suicides are caused because of not being able to be vocal about physical and mental abuse at the hands of a woman. The culture we live in today need's to change. We're progressing with equality in this world, granted it is slow but we are breaking barriers that have taken years for us to get over. Racial equality, sexuality, and gender equality, yet it still seems so strange that THIS is still something that isn't in the norm. Thankyou Boogie, for being that voice among men

[@DeanoSauruzRex]

***** Can't express enough love for Boogie at all! A champion among men in this community

[@theepicredstone1553]

How tf did a thousand people dislike this?!?!?!?

[@WeR2VEVO]

i was thinking exactly the same thing

[@WeR2VEVO]

i was thinking exactly the same thing

[@Pajamadevil]

+TheEpicRedstone Nicole's idiot followers and her 800 accounts

[@theepicredstone1553]

Yash Agrawal Oh yeah good point

[@Pajamadevil]

***** he may be annoying for you... your opinion, the fucks we give is in negative values

[@BuzzFlowExpress]

I miss this boogie...so, so much...

[@ravenalyse9844]

I am a victim of 16 years of physical, mental, and sexual abuse. My aggressors never were punished and when I saw Nicole getting away with abusing Matthew it reopened a lot of wounds. I am tired of seeing men and women being assaulted and traumatized who are afraid to stand against it because people don't take them seriously or don't believe them. I am tired of seeing abusers and rapists going free. It hurts, not just from my own pain but knowing that others are hurting too.

[@ravenalyse9844]

boogie, you are not alone. I'm so sorry that this happened to you. You are an intelligent, kind man and you did not deserve that pain.

[@L0V1_K]

I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that must've been for you. I'm gonna say something cheesy, brace yourself. Stay strong.

[@fluffypanda17]

you're never alone, I've been there, you'll always have a friend in me. I've had friends over come the abuse and I've had friends just be destroyed by it. You should never have to be ashamed by it. the abusers should be.

[@jonathanbetenbender307]

I fell in love with a women, and I was extremely romantic. I was going to propose to her, and I had it all planned out. We'd be in the forest (in april) the rays of sunlight would brake through the canopy like something out of a fantasy movie, then after a few mintues of bewilderment what merely looked to be dead leaves would burst into life; 60,000 monarch butterflies. As fate would have it the night before I'd been disillusioned; she'd been cheating on me with a married man. She tried to attack me, then she tried to get me jumped, then she called the cops on me and I was in jail. I didn't eat sleep or drink for 12 days (I know it sounds medically impossible, but I now know that it isn't). I certainly almost died. On the other hand my sister walked in on her friend being raped while she was passed out drunk, and the cops were dismissive. So it's not that simple. Now sadly her friend gave up after a local hospital said they don't do rape kits. It's a multifaceted problem, and a difficult crime to prove; especially without a rape kit. I think one major part is people don't want to believe it; but at the end of the day police vetting and training needs improved, and much more difficult society improved. What's needed most in these situations is level headed objectivity.

[@jonathanbetenbender307]

Bryn Bryn I will certainly look into it. I've only been taken advantage of once; she just happened to be really good at it. I think you've got me all wrong, though I'm willing to question my own notions (logic not pandering lol).

[@GhoulishGal]

My heart breaks for you. I've had many abuses in my life as well. I'm here balling my eyes out with you. I have PTSD and Anxiety as well from what happened to me... Yes yes with the triggers. You get transferred to when that shit happened. You arent just remembering you are there again... like you said. hearing other people talk about it just helps you mentally. If I could I would jump through this computer and hug you. I just want to hug you so bad because I know how you feel. I know how it feels to be abused and how it feels to have to live with those mental scars...

[@YiselaAlvarezTrentini]

+RolandRED Maybe you need to stop telling people they DON'T have PTSD. How many comments have you left already? But more importantly: What gives you the f right? Life is a little more complex than 1st world privilege vs war torn country, you know?

[@armani_raccoon2816]

Same here

[@FaticusDolphinius]

+RolandRED sorry... Did the other comments make you realize how much of a dumb ass you are?

[@FaticusDolphinius]

+RolandRED you're welcome

[@GhoulishGal]

+RolandRED you do know that PTSD doesn't just affect people who have been to war. It's also a big thing for rape survivors(like me). Do yo have any idea how fucking shity it is to have PTSD? How much it fucking sucks to be minding your own business as you go about your day to over hear someone say a triggering phrase for you and then you just automatically be transferred to the moment that the abuse or traumatic thing happened. To be in public while having an episode is horrible. It's even more horrible when you have a young child and have to explain you are sort of having a break down at that moment. Do I think there's people who actually don't have PTSD who are saying they do for attention or to be relevant to this video? Yeah. Probably. But you have no god damn right to tell someone they don't have PTSD. You haven't been in that persons shoes. You haven't been in my shoes. You just want to be a troll.

[@CMStewart]

Boogie, there is no shame in being an abuse survivor. Much love to you. Keep healing.

[@merrickdeluca5552]

+xNimble how is that funny

[@totuff78]

+tony manko exactly

[@xryptiid]

+tony manko did you fucking watch the whole video moron? That wasn't all of his abuse. The major abuse was his mother, physically attacking him literally splitting his head open with a fucking hammer at one point.

[@bbqchickenhulkl6822]

Wow your prince fucking charming aren't you

[@bbqchickenhulkl6822]

Wow your prince fucking charming aren't you

[@steveweisal3437]

It takes a lot of strength and courage to talk about being abused. I've only ever been able to talk to one person about my own experiences. Seeing other men come forward and talk about this kind of thing reminds me I'm not alone and I shouldn't stay silent. There needs to be more support for people who struggle with any kind of abuse. Your video moved me and i felt like I need to show my support. Thank you for sharing your story. Stay strong and my good things come to you and those you love.

[@blockacheese_]

Why Can't Matthew Santoro have this kind of love in the comments His comments are shit please send love comments to both Matthew and boggie Please I'm begging people

[@blockacheese_]

I spelled boogie's name wrong Anyway send love

[@openproductions7733]

I don't watch him though :(

[@MarshallHall]

+Iker Sanchez Probably because the bitch who abused him made a video calling him a liar and people believe her

[@blockacheese_]

+Anime Freak I don't know what future you live in but there's no edit options

[@blockacheese_]

+Marsapan yeah maybe

[@Hoooman]

*Can someone explain to me why or how this video has 739 dislikes? This dude just shared his most embarrassing life story to try and help other abuse victims out there.*

[@amusix8386]

Tough Men and Feminists dislike this.

[@DYLANCALVO24]

+HoomanTV because they're dicks

[@tylerberman7527]

+Amusix "tough men" its tougher to do what boogie just did than it is to not do this

[@Gravedigga63]

+Tyler Berman I agree, I can't imagine how hard sharing that was, I was in tears listening to it, Boogie is one of the most real you tubers there is.

[@Vito95mc]

I think we should look at the fact that 37k+ people support boogie2988 rather than the 700 trolls and/or idiots

[@spoons7483]

i think everyone here could just use a hug right now...

[@Jodiiiieee]

Hug me 😭

[@DrJoker-dg3mv]

+Jodiiiieee *big hugs* ^-^

[@joshuadrinen485]

+OTA4L all 2/3 million subs should give him a hug

[@StewardofAutumn]

+Joshua Drinen he's big enough for all of us :D jking

[@girlbuu9403]

Any of you fucking touch me and I'll slit your throat. >:( I mean, yeah sure... uh... virtual not real physical contact hugs for everyone. Sure. Er... disregard that first part.

[@relicav7938]

A year later and I still just want to give you a hug more than anything. Abuse is painful to talk about. I'm so grateful that you are here, Boogie. You are proof that good people exist.

[@jamesmiller513]

As a psychotherapist that has worked with a number of young men, I can assure you that this sort of abuse is a very real and far from uncommon issue and that there are a number of men suffering in silence. I do admire your courage in creating this video that is clearly doing much to increase awareness. If you do ever need support with anything, please feel free to let me know as for you there would be no charge.

[@jahaddyjael1926]

+Deuterijum T lol

[@siegpasta]

+Deuterijum T I know that 90% of people on the internet are fucking liars but seriously bro, you don't have to be a fucking duchebag about everything, at least TRY to belive in what this person is saying, to me, it seems pretty legit.

[@siegpasta]

***** No I don't. He clearly wrote that he got moved by his video and by saying " I won't charge you" he also means that he likes him and wants to be nice.

[@tapatvde]

Hi +boogie2988 Today I commented for the first time to another one of your recent videos. I am 54 and i still try to cope with the outcome of being molested and being violently violated in my childhood. Since a few years i started to open up about it. I do feel with you. Believe me. Every word you said, it resonated with me. We are not alone in this. Today i realized that again. Thank You. Greetings from Bremen, Germany, Joe (Joachim ) (Sorry for my bad English, i am not a native speaker)

[@daddydanks6660]

I am really glad you have gotten better with your experience. And don't worry about your english, most Americans can't fucking speak it anyway

[@tapatvde]

+Plague Doctor Thank you. I managed to get better with professional help, but as ***** said a few times: It never leaves you. In recent years most of my days are pretty ok and i manage to cope with all that is inside of me and i live a pretty decent life. But then comes along some event, that triggers all the fear and brings back all the dark emotions and dark memories. Over the years of my childhood my mum broke about 30 of those long wooden cooking spoons, while beating me up with them. At least twice a month i got beaten with a leather belt by my dad. With a childhood like that you tend to get into abusive relationships, because that is what you know.

[@daddydanks6660]

Joachim Rimer the worst I have suffered was some minor bullying, so I don't feel as if I will ever know what that kind of pain is like. This makes me relieved that people have the ability to find professional help to at least assist in coping with the trauma they recieve.

[@tapatvde]

Plague Doctor I think pain is an individual thing for every human being. I would never tell to anyone that his or her pain is not as painful for her or him, as my pain was for me. At that moment when one has to go through pain, it becomes the focal point of ones perception.

[@jazzz0x]

Thank you for sharing with us Joe... I pray you are well today and have a blessed day

[@evilashxero]

You're brave, man. It takes guts, to make a video like this.

[@Maurice-cd6qr]

And he has plenty of gut

[@turtlebros1874]

+Axemurder007 wow, just wow. Are you actually seriouse?

[@legalam]

+Axemurder007 There's a time and a place man...

[@CouldBeSaladFingers]

Takes guts to look like a pussy? Yeah, probably.

[@TnAGaming94]

***** both are brave. Both have come out about their abuse.

[@FutureDoctorMaybe]

I’ve just rewatched this. I wish I knew you personally only so I could genuinely say I know how kind hearted and genuine YOU are. But watching this video and watching you pour your heart out...I think you let me and other people in and I think you allow us to get to know you in such an intimate and personal way and honestly you just can’t get more genuine than that. These videos are so important to see. And I thank you! And I’m happy for you that you’re where you are now. Stay strong ❤️

[@Brxvs]

I was abused verbally and mentally by a girl in the last few months. My parents divorced 2 years ago. It Fucks you up. It screwed me over. I have anxiety disorder and depression and I'm on medication now and I have no friends. Everyone left me. And I've tried self harm because I felt it was what Could help. The person that said they'd stay forever and never leave cheated on me and I had to find out months later. It killed me. Woman are manipulating and will hurt you. Men can be that way too. This isn't a post bashing gender. It hurts and it happened. No one believes me and can help me and hearing your story I can relate and I feel extremely sorry for you.

[@groose2445]

I'm sorry that happened to you. People can be real shitty. I hope you feel better now and can live happier. This may sound cheesy, but stay strong, and be happy. :)

[@finstaa5172]

Brandon Gooding my Mum and Dad divorced 9 years ago (i was 4) and it still affects me to this day. My Dad remarried when I was 7 and she grew very close to me like a second Mum and I trusted her deeply and 2 months ago she cheated on my Dad and betrayed me and screwed me over and for the last 3 years I have suffered from depression, I am 15 years old and I am suicidal and I self harm

[@MartianDX]

Now I wanna give you a hug, man.

[@austinparsons144]

ikr

[@starkiller4326]

Same here

[@encursio4870]

+McMardrik i wana give him 2 hugs

[@graffitigorsk2989]

We all love u boogie

[@garretdaugherty6703]

I've always wanted to give him a hug

[@mrmonsterz644]

I've seen a lot of your videos boogie. I've laughed at your silly rages and the character you've created there but never really felt like I wanted to sub because of the rate of how we consume entertainment in these days and how we kinda rely on our social media to provide us with the viral entertainment that we think we wanna see. I'm not saying my subscription means anything more than anyone else's but you've got my attention boogie. I'm hitting that subscribe button to show my support for you and if you ever wanna talk about ANYTHING throw me a PM. Thank you for sharing this with us, you're not alone.

[@asurprisegaming9705]

+MrMonsterZ Totally agree. We're here for you man.

[@johncena3322]

+MrMonsterZ *WORD!*

[@StewardofAutumn]

do they even have on for KZbin any more? I thought that feature has been nixed

[@StewardofAutumn]

+Steward of Autumn pm*

[@diotenchi]

+MrMonsterZ I came here to say the same.

[@SwagmanMcGee]

Boogie, I'm a recent subscriber and have been leafing through your videos over the past week, and I have to say that you are a brave, inspirational, and wonderful man worthy of so much, who, of all people, should never have suffered the way you did. This video is an exceptional example of your strength and worth as a human being, and I offer you endless applause for being the person you are today when so much has gone wrong in your life. You're one of the best KZbinrs on the platform, and I hope that you continue to find your way, and that I can be there watching you, though I may be blinking back the tears. Keep being excellent, Steven. The world needs it.

[@flypast9725]

My heart has just melted. I'm so sorry for you, but look at the life you have now, wonderful women by your side and a brilliant job.

[@BigNikVideos]

Love you Boogie

[@jedaerza]

YOOO bignik :D

[@jackstorm1014]

me too

[@Xx702ryanTxX]

good to see nice feedback :-)

[@sillyKit]

ur vines sux

[@brodi876]

Sup Small nik

[@sverreschei969]

You seem like one of the nicest people in the world. I really love that you have the bravery to actually talk about this topic. There should be more people like you.

[@MayAllYourStarsAlign]

This is why I'm going to school to become a social worker. Because I really want to be the one to help people like you. So no one wants to ever have to go through that. Don't be ashamed of your past Boogie

[@MayAllYourStarsAlign]

It just breaks my heart that you're hurting.

[@karatgaming5792]

That's a great idea, you can help so many people get over their terrible pasts.

[@AimForMyHead81]

Tori's Stories God bless you

[@thesenate9617]

Tori's Stories idk u and I love ya already you have that desire to help people and you will be grt don’t let anyone take ur dreams away we need more women like u and agreed ur past makes people the reason why people like boggie became so great like a wise person says your past doesn’t define who you are but can inspire your future that to me definitely describes him I suffer from depression and anxiety disorder never luckily wasn’t abused but definitely a victim of emotional bullying in highschool I thought nothing but ways that I could kill myself but held back due to religious standard and fear I definitely want to use depression as not only awareness but to help people even a stranger we literally lost too many great people to depression Chester Bennington robin willams and many more it has to END

[@BonnieBunny118]

I wanna be a police officer. I swear to god child abusers and other types of people like that aren’t gonna get off easy.

[@ikkeheltvanlig]

weak? this is raw strength! the amount of effort it takes to open up like this is beyond so many people. I've just discovered you as a KZbinr and I sincerely think you are my favorite. Not especially because of this video, but you have all my respect for sharing this. Thank you. Thank you so much. All love

[@ClassyReviews]

Ok, Boogie is practically pouring his soul to you guys, sharing what must be the hardest thing to talk about, to help others who may be in that same position, and to tell them that they can escape it. It is a message of hope and encouragement. And the first comments I see are: "thumbbs up this and subb to me if you think nicole is a loser" and "Make this comment top comment." Vultures. Disgusting... sleezy... vultures.

[@constantin5509]

They are pathetic losers. Nothing to do against them except ignore them.

[@ClassyReviews]

Trying to advertise on a man's suffering. Absolutely repulsive.

[@ClassyReviews]

***** I know, it just amazes me how low some people can stoop. When you think you've seen the bottom of the barrel, there's always a trap door with even more vermin inside. As long as he knows that there are people who genuinely care, that's what matters. After that, f*ck the rest.

[@TsoiIzAlive]

Stuff like this is NOT easy... People can only relate to this if they also had a rough time and gone through some Sad stuff.. And making this video is really courageous because talking about this is hard and I know it because I did it but its the only way to end it and especially as a man its 10 times more difficult because of that "weakness" that you show which isnt weakness its you showing real strentgh because if you keep it inside of you, it'll tear your soul from the inside day in and day out. Talking about this will make you cry because you're releasing all the emotions and all the memories of pain and exposure. And thats why I'm paying boggie much respect and all the ppl talking shit about this to get some likes are People who never had a hard time so yeah.. And most people that are good people at their core had a hard time.. Most Assholes did not.. So yeah thats from my side

[@ClassyReviews]

Can Turkleton I'm sorry to hear you went through something similar. A good friend of mine who I met fairly recently went through a lot as a kid. When he tells me about it, I just can't believe what I hear (I shant say what it is here, because that's his story to tell). I've never been abused by a love one, so I can only imagine what he, you, and Boogie have gone through. But that doesn't stop me from respecting everyone who comes out of the dark and tells their story, because that takes a lot of courage. They will always someone to talk to and support when I'm around.

[@UnitedGamerz4545]

You are strong man...so sorry about what happened

[@killmewithfire4365]

That's right lispy jimmy your the real mvp

[@gehrstriceps3828]

Incoming hiss comments

[@minecraftmaniac84]

Hey lispy, I'm a fan

[@favouritemusic8959]

Dear Boogie thank you for your inspiration and honesty. I am 57 years of age. I grew up in a most dysfunctional family and worse was to come because I married into a horribly abusive set of in laws for the last 30 years. Prison may have been easier. Trying to stand against family dysfunction in my children 's generation but it is knocking at my door very hard. Mental health totally messed up. Thanks a mil for giving me some hope that l can get over the line. Best wishes. M

[@iKilLaMoDz]

661 dislikes? Who the fuck can dislike this? You are an inspiration Boogie. It's amazing you can tell this story just as Matthew did. It's amazing how far you come Boogie in life.

[@iKilLaMoDz]

+RolandRED How is he playing the victim? Also why does he need views? Boogie has close to 3 million subscribers and all his videos get a great amount of views plus his twitch. I'm sorry people can't share something they have gone through the same with Matthew.

[@kaylrose6695]

+RolandRED Seems to me like he was doing it to share his story, so other people who have gone through abuse know that they aren't alone in that 'journey', and that they should talk to people about it and get help. I may have worded that a bit poorly, but I'm in a rush, so take it as you will.

[@omega1231]

+RolandRED Someone sharing their private life, doesn't force you to share yours, so what the actual fuck are you complaining about? You are complaining about something that doesn't affect you in any way what so ever, have you learned what unsubscribing means? i mean it's in boogies channel resumé that he talks about real life shit, so if you don't want real life shit then what the fuck are you doing here, gtfo nobody is going to miss you or your sad opinions. Make your own channel where you can act tough, and give your opinion to people who gives a shit, and stop trying to change how other people run their channel.

[@tntman107]

+Josh Morton oh snap!

[@TheAgavi]

His story is different to Matthew's. Boogie was abused as a child by an adult. Matthew was a grown man who was abused by a woman. Matthew's a bitch.

[@EvieAnon]

One thing really hit me in this. When boogie talked about how a small thing could cause you to feel like you were a kid reliving the abuse again. People may get the impression that a person is being childish and not taking responsibility but it's more like a defence mechanism, basic instinct I guess. You don't know how else to deal with it so you revert back to whatever lifeline you found first, no matter how much it hurts you. Thanks for making this video boogie, you're a real gem. Anxiety disorders are stubborn little bastards but there is hope and happiness to be had.

[@CowOG]

I love you Boogie.

[@PaladinsLight]

+Cow kiss me

[@CowOG]

cowgK

[@WoolSheep]

+Cow be my fury little nightmare

[@CoolaidMix]

eet mor chikin mooooo

[@watsupchava3252]

me 2

[@spookybandit7136]

Boogie, sorry that I don't know your name, but you are my favorite KZbin and person. It's bad to know that you had went through such torment and despair, but it's so good to know that you talk about it on youtube. I have been through abuse but not as bad as what you went through, and I thank God for that. Boogie you are a man, because you have the courage and heart to talk about this sort of thing, and that is what makes you one of the most respected youtubers on the whole internet, and I think what you do on this platform is something no man can do and so... Thank you, so much. You are my favorite youtuber, and for what you have been through that is what makes you a man to talk about that, and going through on what has happened.

[@XPLOSIVization]

It never goes away even when its been gone along time and has stopped, im 33 years old now and still get horrible flashbacks only me and my Brother and sister know what happened to us as kids growing up and never told my friends, for us though it was not everyday, and staying in my room listening to my music is what saved my sanity as a kid

[@joep7710]

I feel bad for you, how did you stop it?

[@XPLOSIVization]

The divorce of my parents and then moving out stopped it for me

[@pengwyn.e]

+MezzerliptikJay That last part, I get where you're coming from -music somehow made reality and its pain go away even for just a moment. Thank you for sharing. Boogie's right. Hearing other people's stories validates the pain even just by a little bit. All the best to you now.

[@silverstorm1000]

+MezzerliptikJay *hugs offered* Sorry you had something happen to you. I hope you can get past it eventually and feel at peace. It is very hard to get past. I have faith in you though.

[@XPLOSIVization]

thanks for the kind comments everyone and in a way its good to know that others went through a similar situation and are strong in hearts and minds

[@trentmorrison6074]

Boogie. I don't think hell could burn you down.

[@tenshi7angel]

The only hell that exists, is the places that humans make for themselves, or for others.

[@oldgriffin4944]

Trent Morrison here’s to that! He’s an absolutely brilliant man

[@mikeward9897]

To the people that hate on matthew's and this video i think they were born on highway's because that's where most accidents happen

[@dylanreynolds7343]

This is just one of the best insults I've heard in my entire life

[@doctoradventure413]

+Mike Ward man I love clever insults not just the lazy curse word no the best insults are the ones that take like 2 minutes to thoroughly explain and then watching the people who you are insulting realize several minutes later man it feels great

[@dia2697]

Sos Bad Man. Sick insult though, I must admit! 😄😄

[@luthfilkhaliq8465]

You win the oscar for the most creative insult p.s That insult is also in a Jacksfilms video

[@delightfulblueberries7405]

I to my fedora my good sir will you like to join me for a cup of tea? Hmmmmm No but seriously best come back evaaaaa!!

[@SvenskSork]

I remember when I was 4 and I fell on the ground, I started crying over this bruse with gravel in it. Then my "stepfather" lifted me upp in my ears, threw me back at the floor and told me only girls cry. That whent on every day till a was 7-8 and it just became whors everyday. Im writing this now cuz I remember this video and how it made me feel but my whole life its been hard to talk about it. I can feel like these memories are on the outside of my skin and people can see them plain as day and night. But apparently thats not the case since ive been trying to be happy my whole life and joke away lifes strugles. Just wrote this comment for myself and to thank you for this video since it made me feel as iff I can go on with life knowing Im not alone feeling like this

[@majorborngusfluunduch8694]

I'm just sitting here with my jaw on the floor looking at those 995 dislike. WTF

[@FaticusDolphinius]

Well with videos like these the dislikes can be really misinterpreted, they could be hate or they could be people how dislike abuse and situations like these so ya never know.

[@ElGreco15]

+John Doe Think about having this linked to your social media account. "Insert name here" Likes Abuse

[@masonrobertstv5917]

He's a pussy! If a woman abused me in beat her ass

[@aguy-bk4qr]

+Mason Roberts you could go to fucking jail for that along side your female/male abuser, even more so for male

[@aguy-bk4qr]

John Constantine idk anymore I'm not trying to be sexist, I think I'm trying to say, retaliating would not be the best decision for him, he should contact authorities or something

[@TownieGirl1974]

Boogie - The very last thing in the world that you are is weak. You are an extremely strong, extremely brave and an extremely good human being. Live your life for you. Speak your truth for you. Don't let what other people may say or think about you & what you have gone through get in the way of living your life for you & speaking your truth. You are a good person & you matter. Never, ever forget that. God Bless You Boogie ❤❤

[@nixnightbird138]

Well said. This video took amazing strength of will.

[@FlyingRainbowsGaming]

I am currently mildly abused by my mum. Not physically, but mentally (verbally). I think she would physically abuse me, but I am much stronger than her. I cannot see a therapist because SHE won't let me. It feels good to finally post this somewhere, it is the first time I have talked about this as i feel comfortable. Thank you, Boogie and Matt.

[@JutlandAngel]

+FlyingRainbowsGaming I don't know if they have them where you live, but maybe you could call a hotline or you could try and find someone more professional on the internet that is willing to write/talk with you (youtube commenters might not be the most qualified though most want to help). Seeing that you want to see a therapist these options may help a little, if you haven't tried that already.

[@FlyingRainbowsGaming]

+Jutland Angel Thanks, I have tried hotlines before, although the questions they ask are all assume that parents aren't the problem. It is not as bad as it sounds though, I get help from my friends. I thank you for your help. It really makes me happier to find someone that cares. Thanks you. 😊

[@Morfeusm]

Hang on there

[@madmaggie7163]

+FlyingRainbowsGaming You'll be old enough to make your own decisions soon - meanwhile remember that she is full of shit!

[@loozziee]

+FlyingRainbowsGaming this was similar for me. She would always say for me to go to a therapist but when i spoke to something on a therapy app she got aggressive about it and I said I lied about talking to anyone even though I did. I hope you gain the strength for when you can leave. Because you are better than what your mum may ever say to you. please remember that. God bless you.

[@Ksenijam08]

I’m so sorry to hear that you suffered abuse in your lifetime. As an adult now who also has suffered from abuse at the hands of a parent I understand where you are coming from and I hope this video was a cathartic experience for you and you can begin to heal from it. Send love and prayers your way.