REACTING TO GIRLS NEXT DOOR SEASON 1 EPISODE 4 / "WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS"

[@EclecticVenusian]

As an old fan of GND, id personally love to see your take on *every* episode lol! But if it is really bad for your mental health, I completely respect that. It's fascinating for sure, but not worth making you feel uneasy.

[@Calimera53]

couldn’t said it any better! totally agree ♡

[@samaratena7070]

Yess

[@crystalv666]

Holly said she doesn’t really remember what she said in the DVD commentary. To be honest you can tell the difference between them in and out of the mansion. Season 1-3 commentary was in the mansion season 4-5 was when they were out and they spill a lot of tea. I’ve rewatched girls next door a “few” times okay a lot and the commentary was one of the best parts of the show. The way the women talked to each other and the input was so well done by all three women.

[@michelleleebrown1517]

Agreed!

[@susannebambam]

I completely agree! Also the first Playboy I ever bought was GND. Lol. I liked them so much!

[@BombshellBoss]

I’m loving this series you’re doing, however your mental health is more important than my entertainment & I would rather have a Happy & Healthy Holly doing other fun videos. I had a very similar relationship (not with other girls involved - that I know of) & I would have a hard time reliving that time in my life too. ❤️

[@Gingersnaappp]

Wholeheartedly agree. I came here to say the same thing. 💜🧡💚

[@27Bianca]

Back this comment 100%

[@shallyhawkins2937]

Yessss 10000%! I came to say the same thing!

[@aygonzales8]

absolutely

[@sheisilluminated]

Definitely agree. If you make one for every episode I would watch every single one bc I love hearing your perspective and how different it was for you living it compared to us watching it, but for real your mental health is utmost. It’s pretty clear your trauma is getting sparked but also that can allow for healing! Either way take care of yourself :) Xoxo!!

[@heatherspence3848]

Season one is SOOO different than every other season. I would literally watch every episode from every season all over again with Holly. That makes me sad about her mental health because I really do love these

[@melagreenmg]

Same.. it definitely helps me understand her situation more.. the good and the bad. When I was younger I watched the show and I thought it was butterflies and rainbows..

[@heatherspence3848]

@@melagreenmg when I was younger I discovered the show I was 24 years old and in a physically and psychologically abusive relationship and I watched the show and it gave me the courage to pack up from Louisiana and move to Orlando Florida. I thought it was sunshine and rainbows and it reminded me of what it was like to not be isolated and to have girlfriends and what was pleasing and kind of took me mentally out of my situation it was a show that made my heart happy. I’m so glad she’s doing this

[@intorainbowzOG]

Way back when this episode aired it was discussed in a Domestic Violence training I attended when I did child welfare. Domestic violence experts discussed that adults had a curfew and how they likely depend on him for money and housing. The curfew specifically was discussed at length as a training tool showing how mainstream and open abuse is. I decided the curfew was made up for plot purposes. Lol. There were several times things triggered my DV spidey senses but I ignored them. Frankly I loved the GND and loved how free your life looked to someone at home with a baby, a mentally exhausting career, and a husband in Iraq. Look they go ice skating! Look they have meals at their back and call! Look they get to go out. I ignored what I could see because I really needed some escapist TV. People did see it. I ignored it for the fantasy and escape. Sorry about that. You got to do what you need to do for your mental health. I walked away from social work because it was very bad for me. I would love to see more, but don't want your mental health suffer.

[@JosephineMarieMums]

I will say, if this is triggering to you, do what’s best for your mental health Holly. We support you!

[@lauracarrier6158]

I agree. I love these reaction videos, but I don’t want her to hurt herself while making them.

[@alf975]

I came to comment the same thing 💗

[@rachelsmith5643]

Totally! I enjoy these, but they're not worth it if they are painful to do.

[@amarrana2004]

Can’t wait to see the Down the Rabbit Hole TV special.

[@lisamars86]

What if you just did certain episodes that you remember fondly, like the Alaska episode, the horror movie episodes, or Anastacia birthday?

[@djr994]

yesss I love the Alaska episode

[@anayarey]

I love those episodes too!

[@jakem8021]

I think people actually did question “why are these women being treated like children?”, “why do they have a curfew?” most people thought the whole thing seemed strange and had lots of questions, but then everyone involved with playboy/girls next door would get defensive and label those people questioning the situation as close-minded or outdated for thinking it was unusual, which it was

[@stefaniecuadra2582]

for me I was too young, and their lifestyle was so aspirational to me, that I didn't question anything. but now in the present of course, thats not normal to me at all anymore..

[@librawitxh1452]

You eating the Cake in that episode was my favorite part! You were so funny! Just all slouching, sprawled out in the chair with the piece of cake on your fork! 🤣🤣🤣 omg I loved it 🥰

[@Jess_Honey]

You should invite Bridget to do one ora few with you!!! OMG that would rock my world!!

[@MentalHealthMonday]

That would be interesting! Bridget is so sweet though I think she would just be positive the whole time.

[@kellyxxo]

omg plsssss

[@andyanna690]

This!!!! ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@themandyf]

I binge watched this show as soon as you started your reaction videos. It’s really interesting watching them with the added knowledge of how it ended. You’ve got thick skin to be able to go back in history and watch these. I’ve always hated watching myself in home videos or dance performances lol

[@michelehood8837]

I bought the audiobooks for your books and re-listened to “Down the Rabbit Hole” this weekend - thanks for sharing your stories so openly with us ❤️

[@mj5697]

Down The Rabbit Hole is so interesting and Holly presents it so well in audio format, but it makes me cry too (yay trauma)

[@claudettemarco1683]

As a fan, I love anything you and Bridget do. Do whatever projects you want, if it hurts too much, then don't do these. Happiness is what counts.

[@Ashlibrooke83]

I hope you do more of these. I look forward to them weekly. However, your mental health comes first!

[@Dmd265]

As much as I LOVE your commentaries and in a way would hate to see them stop, you’ve given us so much insight already, including a book. You have to take care of yourself first! Your mental health is way more important than something we enjoy watching when we have leisurely downtime.

[@Madison-ep1nb]

Ugh I was 18 when this came out, I was so impressionable. Bought a dog when Bridget did. I wish we could have seen the signs and the truth. It shows how easily young women are manipulated. Love you Holly, glad you’re getting back to your authentic self and healing. It gives me hope.

[@jenniferpleiman4180]

I was 15. I bleached my hair blonde, obsessively used self tanner and would literally starve myself to be thin. I compared myself to them throughout the seasons, I wanted to be “playmate” attractive. My mood began to be determined on how comparable I thought I looked to these women. I would be so anxious and depressed if I thought I didn’t live up, back then everyone (around my life at least) acted like being the playboy “ideal” was the upmost achievement. I thought once I achieved that ideal I would be happy and worthy. I never quite felt that way though.

[@Darby.Brewer]

@@jenniferpleiman4180 I was in my early 20's and it had the same influence, but I was already well down that road, idolizing Pam Anderson. It's funny to look back. Fortunately, I'm nothing like that now.

[@IndigoViolet122]

I hope you keep doing these, it's SO fricking fascinating! And it helps me process that time in my life, but if I had to watch videos and react to one of my toxic relationships from the early 2000s, I would probably be in a straight jacket. No one else has to deal with that. So you do you. Everyone is in charge of their own mental health. Your fans will support you either way.

[@ms3801]

So excited about down the rabbit hole tv project! I think you should do whatever you feel is best for your mental health.

[@brookebailey4330]

Nooo please don't stop doing these videos!! I love watching them! To hear your insider view of what was going on in your head while these things were going on is really interesting.

[@SolValenciaLeon]

I can’t wait till you review the episode of the pictorial you girls did at the mansion. Loving these video reactions Holly! Brilliant!

[@caseylee953]

I always felt you carried yourself well on the show and even more so now that I am seeing/hearing your insights. I love rewatching with you!

[@emmy5103]

Someone probably already said this, but the “so-and-so stole the gift” was absolutely from the DVD commentary. I own all the DVDs from when they originally came out and the story is on there.

[@shiphi60]

I am loving this Holly! I really want you to do later seasons. The Alaska Hometown or New Oreleans would be great.

[@OfficialHollyMadison]

Hopefully I’ll get there!

[@Jadeyyladyy]

We all seem to be in agreement that we hope you continue these, but if it’s not healthy for you then we understand ❤️

[@themandyf]

As much as I love hearing about your insights, don't force yourself to continue if it's not good for you. I'll continue to watch your content! ❤

[@fawzianazle6645]

Same

[@rachelrobertson5689]

Holly I was a bit young but I knew the curfew and withholding opportunities was wrong. I worried about the power imbalances in the relationships but honestly I had so much to learn about the world. I'm glad you are safe now and thank you for looking after your mental health!

[@ashleylynn5609]

I love these videos so much!! Please keep doing them. I’m finding them sooooo interesting.

[@cicelyalaska]

Loving your commentary a lot, Holly, and admire you so much for having the strength to revisit some of these episodes and share your stories with us. The other comments are absolutely right tho: your mental health comes first. Don't push yourself too much or feel bad if you need to step back from the rewatch. Being a survivor and talking about trauma is hard work and I think all of us will understand if you need to stick to content you are comfortable with and can enjoy making

[@palmaleestephens1906]

These reaction videos are so entertaining. I hope you'll be able to continue.

[@stevenousleyII]

This series is SO important and I love hearing your story/POV, Holly! Adore you xx Steven

[@OfficialHollyMadison]

Thank you!

[@stevenousleyII]

@@OfficialHollyMadison you're so welcome, my dear xx

[@BeautyAndTheFeastOfficial]

I used to watch here in the UK and sadly there was never any censorship. You're incredibly strong Holly, it's inspirational.

[@darkwavediva4057]

I hope you & Bridget do more haunted vlogs together! I love ghost tours. I'm going as Malificent for Halloween 🎃 can't wait to see your costume. Love your channel! I was such a big fan of GND in high-school. I've started watching old episodes again.

[@pjhalpert]

Holly, I read Kendra’s ‘tell all’ book wayy long ago and in that she wrote that Audra stole the present! That’s at least how I heard about it :) I LOVE all your vids!! 🥰

[@jessicaps3412]

I heard that Audra was a thief a long-time ago.

[@xstreammakeova]

She also said so on the dvd commentary. I hope you all get the old dvds they are awesome.

[@toebeans96]

@@xstreammakeova My parents actually got me every season DVD for Christmas years ago and watching the show with the commentary was one of the first thing I did.

[@toebeans96]

@@jessicaps3412 loved how in the commentary Holly had said the producers wanted to kick her out cops style for the show, but it wouldn't have gone with their "theme of being drama free" 😂

[@jessicaps3412]

@@toebeans96 I have them all, too. Including craptacular Season 6

[@chauntriataylor4083]

I own all of these seasons on DVD (up until the original three left) and I'm pretty confident that the name of the person who stole the gift was mentioned in the DVD commentary. It has been years since I watched it but I'm certain that's where it was said. Still watch the DVDs to this day! I love you and Bridget so much!!

[@hhheartcore]

I just watched it on KZbin last night and they don't name names, unless something was edited since the release! They do say the girl in room 4

[@joygo436]

I totally get how doing this could drudge up things that should be left in the past but I’m totally enjoying hearing commentary on it.

[@Padme501st]

The DVD commentary did have the story about the girl who “steals” the gift

[@samitinsley]

I would love for you to review the Christmas episode. It’s always been one of my favorites!

[@KJ_PhD]

Here holly is saying Audra STOLE the bag but on today’s GNL podcast they have Audra on who says it was a misunderstanding. Holly knows Audra really stole the bag.

[@Mmmarkles]

As soon as Holly said this is could be a tea episode I went "YESSS" hahaha. I have watched GND so much in my short life so far that I absolutely love hearing the BTS bits!! Thank you Holly! If you need a break or need to end it here, we would all stand behind you 100%, these videos have been such a surprise and a fun gift, so never needed, but always in demand! xD

[@dreamygirl3030]

Please do more! I love these!!!! I loved that beige dress on you! So gorgeous ♥️✨😍

[@heiditaylor7049]

please do more of these, its nice to get behind the scenes info from you

[@amygalvin1799]

Going down memory lane isn’t always a pleasant stroll.

[@lindsryan1087]

I found the girls next door workout dvd at a thrift store can we get a video on that? I just remember you guys being pressured to eat crazy on the actual show while filming it.

[@brittkneex]

I am loving this hair color on you!

[@Leroy88baby]

I loved that episode! One of my favorites lol I do remember thinking 9pm curfew, that's awful. I remember the cake at the pool looking soooo tasty and they struggled lighting it lol. Glad to get your takes on these episodes but if they impact you in a negative way that lingers we'll watch something else you decide to do :) stay awesome Holly! ❤

[@mandyb120]

I've been loving these reactions to GND episodes and actually started rewatching the series again. I would love for you to do more, but obviously your mental health comes first and you should only do these if you feel up to it.

[@domvas00]

React to the HALLOWEEN/SPOOKY EPISODES PLS.. this is the perfect time of year for it!

[@amykeith5596]

It'll be fascinating to see how their perspectives have evolved since they all did commentary for the DVD set, and to hear how much she's grown and what sort of solace she finds in Bridge and, on occasion, Kendra's within those shared experiences. To hear what it was like to have a camera team in your room, editing voiceovers behind closed doors when someone's back was turned, what it was like for the dogs, and all the females having to live under severe restrictions in limited places (their rooms). I enjoy both your books (hard copy and audio) and I find sentimentality in GND and Hollysworld S1 and s2 so hearing a commentary for hollys-world and your personal growth journey within doings Hollys-World would be a great next commentary

[@740am]

It's cool to listen to the commentary and see how many lies she tells too. Today she acts like she was hostage but she was a willing participant

[@cheesyDELISH48]

@@740am the fuck?

[@LizRealGirlBeauty]

@@740am you really don't understand abuse if you think that, so please crawl back in your hole.

[@sofiaaguilar5629]

I totally see why you feel like that seeing this again...every episode might be kind of much for your mental state. but hearing your perspective is so eye opening for me and many...maybe to a top 3 o every season? hope you considerate this!

[@BB-pw9xm]

Thank you for doing this. These episodes are pretty nostalgic for those of us alive and watching at that time. It’s just so full of 2000s pop culture references. I think in these early episodes it was easy to tell that you were unsure of how these commentaries would be perceived, but I give you credit just for trying to do these for us. I hope you enjoy making them as much as we enjoy watching. Don’t worry about what anyone else’s experiences were, except your own. We’re here to see how YOU felt about what was aired.

[@torik.6047]

Yay! I’m curious about your thoughts on the Carmela gift drama.

[@isabelbelle6723]

Me too! Who stole the gift? :o

[@maezin1386]

@@isabelbelle6723 Audra

[@cassaleigh]

Who is Audra

[@maezin1386]

@@cassaleigh Audra was the one who had two mansion butler help zipper her bunny costume.

[@lollypopcook]

you were always my favorite out of the three on the show. 11 y/o me always felt myself being drawn to your personality and resignation w your dynamic you had with others on the show. i am so happy you made a KZbin channel. partly because the personality i pictured you having authentically and how you are portraying yourself here seem to align.

[@plannerbrittany]

It’s funny, I watched girls next door when I was a freshman in high school and I was so not into playboy but fell in love with Holly and Bridget and still follow them to this day. Especially when I found out they like spooky things and Disney!

[@racheltaylor8139]

I hope you do more of these! I loved your commentary so much on the DVDs and I love this even more. It's so fascinating to hear the real side of how things actually happened and how it felt for you. Such a huge fan of you Holly, always been my favourite! I'd suggest maybe picking a few episodes you loved like the Saddle ride one thru the hollywood hills, or the pictorial you got to direct and have more of a say in later on, to review cause I'd love to hear your commentary for those especially!

[@chowchiip9057]

Omgosh, the girl who stole the gift bag was on Rock of Love too but she got kicked off right away lol. I think someone named her on the commentary…that’s how I knew she was in Rock of Love.

[@charlotteackerman350]

Please keep the reaction videos coming Holly, really interesting, thank you!

[@victoriagonzales2763]

Since u decided to do this, I went back and binge watched the entire first 5 seasons in like a week and at the time when this show was out I was in a similar relationship as this (Similar in the way of mental abuse) and it honestly helped to rewatch everything and see how far I've come and the new perspective I've acquired through self growth and I was able to release a little more of the guilt I had.. everyone finds healing and therapy in diff ways. But it really was crazy to watch you all be so manipulated and confined to such a small world while simultaneously being apart of and the face of one of the biggest brands ever. I'm sorry u went through all that and I love u and the woman u have become ✨💕😊 your energy is so addictive and beautiful.

[@californiadoll6273]

PLEASE CONTINUE TO DO THESE REACTION VIDEOS TO EACH EPISODE!!!!!! WE LOVE THEM

[@KatieR38]

I really hope you keep doing these. I’ve gotten so much out of them. There’s some later episodes I’m super curious to hear your input on!

[@theFAMdistrict]

Please keep doing them!!! I love watching you watching it!!!

[@Sean_Diamond]

Love the video! Only make more videos if you feel comfortable but I really look forward to seeing more if you do!

[@hannahmay8491]

, I was 6 when this show aired but my older sisters were 15 and 16 and I watched every episode with them, so the show was always so upbeat and happy for me, so it’s so Interesting hearing the deeper parts of the show and even the darker parts of what’s always been a bright happy childhood memory

[@toebeans96]

I definitely agree, although I love hearing more behind the scenes it being detrimental to her mental health makes me feel guilty enjoying it for my own personal entertainment. Having said that I too watched this show when going through hard years in my life and Holly and Bridget really got me something to look forward to and actually be able to enjoy.

[@alexandria9749]

Yes the gift stealing was mentioned in the DVD commentary

[@silviatunnell8514]

These are SO fun! I love revisting things and realizing how much I've changed/grown, the show is the same but my mentality is so different. Love u Holly 💓

[@burningbabydoll4867]

I actually commented on your last video and said that even if you stopped doing this series due to stress, I would continue watching and supporting all your content ❤️ for whatever reason I had a feeling then that this would be reeeeeally hard for somebody to watch. And I can see even in these comments that many of the fans wanted your reaction to everything so bad, but put yourself and your mental health first. You deserve to put yourself first, regardless of pressure from anybody. I’m sure, like me, there are many of us fans that are here for YOU, not for the character that was portrayed on the girls next door.

[@janelleelizabeth]

I would absolutely love it if you did more of these but also respect your mental health journey too. Maybe you could do fan favourites if it feels too much to go episode by episode

[@kaleighdior5377]

I just adore hearing your perspective! If it becomes too hard for you to continue, I totally understand.

[@namelessgrace6319]

The reflection in your headboard! I see what you did there. 👍😆👏

[@carseymariemorse4033]

I love hearing your side on everything the REAL side 💖💖💖

[@KatieOShag]

These are probably my most favorite videos from you, but if it takes a toll on your mental health, I know everyone supports you in taking a break. I'm so excited for the tv project for you and I can't wait to see!!! Thank you for always sharing what you do :)

[@clarissaalvarez7985]

Please continue to do these holly! The first season is a bit rough but by the next couple of seasons they really get going. Id love to see your take on the travel episodes like the Europe trips and when your sister got married in Jamaica etc.

[@usagiikay]

your mental health and wellbeing is the most important thing holly. we love and support you no matter what.

[@gisellereyna7327]

I love these, if you feel comfortable and your mental health isn’t affected by it, do another one!

[@christiner5579]

Don't stop! Love these. Really want you to do the Halloween and Christmas episodes. Also your Marie Antoinette birthday party.

[@lindseyperkins2274]

I’m enjoying these! It made me go back and start watching again. I’m on to season 3 and Tubi still has the nudity blurred so it might be the platform. I remember watching these on rented DVDs the first time around and don’t remember anything ever being blurred.

[@chrisherring6391]

You don’t have to ask if we want another one…….. we always want another one! Love it 😍

[@thetruthdatedr.4766]

Lol I like that we can kinda see what’s going on through the mirror bed 🤩

[@marissacrystal1593]

I love your reacting series. it is understandable that some episodes are hard for you to watch. I remember watching in middle school, and I recently rewatched all the seasons. I cannot wait for the show about your book!

[@marnimarni1311]

Can’t wait for this 🥳 the episodes seem very different now after reading Down the Rabbit Hole!!

[@ericka6663]

Love this! I have always been a huge fan! Since you started watching GND, I started watching again. Thank you for doing these videos, I really appreciate it and think it’s fun...esp when you’re dressed up as Daphne. I hope you keep doing these videos.

[@cradio52]

I’d love to see you talk about Holly’s World - I feel like that show really flies under the radar and doesn’t get talked about, even though I personally always liked it more than Girls Next Door. It really did a good job at showcasing you, your skills/talents and personality, so I’d be interested to know if it was actually a positive experience for you or if you have similar feelings as with GND.

[@egriffin5607]

Yes!!! And maybe not as triggering?

[@frankygu2003]

Please continue with the reactions series!!! I’ve been enjoying them so much

[@brandonroche2066]

I totally get not doing it for your mental health but honestly knowing the inside and reflecting it helps a lot of people and its honestly amazing i hope you are able to keep doing it but i understand if you cant but i love your take but mental health is first and foremost, i just really enjoy your take and how real it is but thank you for all you have done so far

[@toniloper2905]

Your makeup is gorgeous! I love the eyeshadow

[@twilightislove777]

Thank you so much for doing these reaction videos! I think this is the episode where you said you call a Diet Coke and vodka a “skinny b”. Still one of my fav cocktails!

[@karinasanchez6396]

No keep doing them ! I love to see u talk about it

[@lisamars86]

What if you did Holly's world commentary, that would be interesting behind the scenes.

[@LizRealGirlBeauty]

Yes! I'm rewatching that series, I think a current commentary on it would be awesome!

[@toebeans96]

@@LizRealGirlBeauty that would be so awesome!!

[@jennybarnes4409]

I’ve been watching it on Tubi too

[@ellisdicaprio]

Yep just rewatched it!

[@jojoxx2246]

Please don’t stop these videos!! I love them

[@tanyat9429]

Holly can you please do an ep inside your wardrobe! Want to know where you got all yr stunning outfits from on the show. Thank you x

[@GDgrl]

I actually binge watched the series a few months ago, so I enjoy listening to you explain what was going on throughout the filming of the show

[@madhattah420]

I love these!! Never stop pls 🥺 you should do holly’s world too 😍

[@tiffprendergast]

My BFF & I were obsessed with the palms when we went to Vegas

[@bellachelsea8800]

I love these videos!! I hope you keep doing them but i understand for your mental health if you stop but im loving it cause i watched GND when i was a young teen back in the day haha

[@xcustomadex]

I would also love to see your reaction to every single episode ! Love watching these !

[@cathyxoxo]

It’s crazy to believe that I used to watch GND when I was in middle school 😂 almost done rewatching the series and I think I’ve seen all the episodes except for like 2 tops.

[@marissatheodore5431]

Yes I've been watching you since I was little and you were always my favorite and obviously the star of the show!!! I've loved seeing how far you've come since the mansion and love all your videos. But I also agree, your mental health comes first so just keep doing what you do best and that's being holly!!!

[@JustCallMeAnnie]

I am loving these reaction videos! They are so interesting to watch.

[@shaynebrennan9098]

I'd love a video of all of your favorite books!❣️

[@CH-px5mi]

I just rewatched that episode last year and was obsessed with your first outfit. Where is it from?? I want to try to recreate it!! Also, maybe a Hummer is almost as Y2K as an Escalade lol

[@OfficialHollyMadison]

I just got the clothes at a cheap store on Melrose

[@lukerobeson9957]

Yessss I liked seeing some of the episode in the mirror!!!