Real Day in the life of an Alcoholic/Addict! Horror!!

[@SVT1969]

Wow right on the money, the filthy sheets, sweat, drinking not to get sick, puking. Absolute nightmare.

[@Jay-zx5hx]

Blackouts got me. Last 3 months are have been brutal. I shredded my debit cards. Haven't been drunking because I can't. Definitely going to AA when i get knew ones.

[@raymondlin8728]

Quit 2 summers ago, when i was told i had cirrosis and early alzheimer. Cravings comes and goes, but havent caved in.

[@jupiterresident1537]

And that drunk man who stumbled his way out of Aldi with a liter of wine is now a healthy father, grandfather and even a youtuber who gives hope to people. That's truly the beauty of life. CHANGE IS POSSIBLE! Thank you

[@shannonbradley4699]

Tim: Thank you for your raw, honest testimony. I am on day 13 and I feel good. I detoxed at home over a weekend (not recommended) but I couldn't take off work to go to inpatient rehab (I did that already in 2017) and I couldn't do it again. I go to meetings almost everyday and I am feeling stronger. I have a therapist lined up to help me understand my insanity. Last night, I went to my nephew's wedding and I had a GREAT time. The best part was waking up at dawn, hangover free and being able to remember ALL of it. I am subscribed.

[@chezzerk]

Day 16 😊

[@chezzerk]

😊 Day 16

[@TaylorMaid-ho2xw]

I have had more addicted days than sober. Turning 60 this summer and I really started declining in health and withdrawal became unbearable. I was sober for 4 months last year. I detoxed Dec 18th, 2023 and haven't touched a drop. Would love to get a full year in sober.

[@boxelder9147]

One day at a time mindset.

[@chezzerk]

Same day 16 🎉

[@francesfullerton5291]

Sending 💪💯 i only pray you take now at a time, I've been living with a partner who's one of the kindest people you could ever meet. Alcohol takes no prisoners, his life is nothing but getting out of bed waiting on shops to open smoking and drinking is all he does. This is a man that's worked all his life, I've had to phn ambulance iv lost count, thank you for your honesty don't shower, eat and the moaning in his sleep our should i say unconscious. He makes iv got what i need as iv had fall done my verterbraes. But it's knowing that there's only one way out that's killing me he will not even try to just take it every couple hours. As said one's to much but a barrow's niver enought. I feel im living in fear ever day high alert i know he still enjoys it he will defend his drinking, can't see what he's doing wrong. It's ok to say walk away or put him our,one iv no where to go it's his house also it's so bad

[@sonOfTheL1vingGod]

in Jesus name. Seek Christ for fulfillment so you don't reach for a drink sis/brother.

[@davehutchinson6392]

One day at a time is good thats way😊

[@archangel_josh]

Thanks so much for this. I'm 13 months sober and loving it. I only ever drank on weekends but at the end I would basically work from home Friday on my laptop, go to the bottleshop on my morning break and load up on beer/wine/spirits/mixers and start drinking at my laptop at 2pm. Then I'd keep drinking until about 6pm where I'd head out for the night to meet people or even just go out drinking by myself. Around 11pm or midnight I'd come home and watch youtube and keep drinking until the sun came up. It would now be Saturday morning. I'd keep drinking (no sleep, no food) until about midday when I thought I should do something with my day and would stumble to my local pub and drink more for a few hours. Then I'd stumble home and pass out Saturday afternoon. I'd wake up probably 1am Sunday morning and couldn't sleep, exhausted, shaky, sweaty, hungover. Eventually I'd crawl out of bed and lay on the couch and spend all day there, trying to stop the shakes and eat some food and try to get some sleep. I never drank on Sunday's because I had work the next day. I wouldn't start to feel normal until Thursday. Repeat the cycle for years. NEVER going back.

[@Ghetto-toaster22]

OMG!!! Your story sounds almost EXACTLY like mine! I am almost at 12 months. For the past 8 years, would drink Friday, Saturday and these past few years even on Sunday’s. I would start drinking Friday night around 6pm, couldn’t stop, would drink till i passed out. Not eating or anything the entire weekend. Just all booze and alcohol. I would feel like crap until Thursday and boom, Friday hits again and here we go again. Repeating cycle. I thought since I didn’t drink Monday-Thursday that I didnt have an issue. I have been drinking since 16 but didn’t start having a drinking issue until i was around 23. I am now 38. The havoc i have done to my body. But now almost 12 months. I actually don’t EVER have cravings or ever even think abt alcohol anymore. My fatigue and depression hasn’t subsided yet tho. Hopefully it does soon. Our stories are very similar! Are you still sober? The not eating all weekend with all that alcohol prolly destroyed our insides and health. The only difference in our story is i would never drink before 6pm. But very close.

[@archangel_josh]

@@Ghetto-toaster22 Wow yeah very similar! I'm currently 40, I quit a few days after my 39th birthday so sounds like we're similar age too. It's funny how we have rule "Never drink on Sundays" but you've noticed it crept in and you started drinking on Sundays in the last few years. Yes I'm still sober, 600 days today! Sounds like we fooled ourselves that we didn't have a real problem because we had a job and didn't drink during the week. I had blood tests when I got sober because I wanted to make sure everything inside was normal and the results were positive, I didn't do any damage they could detect which is miraculous. I'm also like you in that I've never had any cravings since I quit...my sobriety has been so easy I can't believe it because I tried to quit many times before and the longest I went once was 40 days without it. The thing is my wife and I both had a drinking problem, we were mega drinkers since we first met (been together for 20 years) and we both quit together which might explain the success we've both experienced. She's 599 days today. Thanks for your comment, it's nice to support each other.

[@Ghetto-toaster22]

@@archangel_josh yep I will be 39 in July! Congrats to both you and your wife on yalls sobriety. 600 days is very significant amount of time. Yeah, I have tried to quit like 8 other times lol the longest I ever got was I think 4 months and that weekend boredom got the best of me eventually. This time it just feels completely different though, in a good way though. I seriously believe for every time you get sober, fall off the wagon then get back sober, it makes you so much stronger the next time. I have have some blood tests and everything came back good as far as my organs and stuff. That’s awesome you and your wife did it together. I could see how it could be hard for one to stop if the other still had a drinking issue. It just makes me so angry sometimes how I’ve wasted so much of my life on booze but at-least it is in the past though. Even though I only drank on the weekends, I feel like it has taken my body forever to recover, especially my brain. I used to dream all the time before my drinking issue. But I just started dreaming again, like every other night, like a few weeks ago. Crazy! They are good dreams though, they are never about drinking which I have heard is very common in early sobriety. We really thought by drinking on the weekends we didn’t have an issue didn’t we 😂 we definitely fooled ourselves. Glad your sobriety has been easy for you also, same with me. You’re welcome for the comment man! Ain’t nothing wrong with a man supporting another man with the same end goal, no homo. Lol. Wish you the best on your journey my guy! We got this 💪🏼

[@peterlyons8793]

An incredible story.

[@LeahMoonbeam]

@@Ghetto-toaster22how are you doing today?

[@Redneck3610]

I wouldnt wish addiction on anyone , its a circle of pain , im heavily addicted to opiates and its pure hell

[@stevekozle7247]

Wow. Thanks for this Tim. I’m a man pushing 50 and I can’t remember how it got so bad, but it did. What you just described was my horrific life. I thought I was dying every day. I was drinking 2 fifths of cheap vodka a day and existing in misery and terror. I used to be a successful, well paid guy also. Then alcohol slowly turned me into an unemployable bum. I connect with you on many levels. I’m almost 2 years alcohol free now and the whole world looks so different and full of hope for me. Everything is good. And you know what is the most delicious thing? SOBER SLEEP!!! It’s so good, Tim! Actually sleeping soundly with no sweating, no hallucinations, no vomiting, no crushing anxiety….and then waking up free from withdraws and full of energy and good cheer - it’s like winning the lottery the moment my eyes open every single morning. I am SO grateful for my sobriety. Thanks for this video, I’m happy for both of us that we are still sober today.

[@lukepowell5353]

I recently came out of rehab 2 weeks to this day for heavy drinking the withdrawals were too much, I needed this video today as I could feel myself about to relapse last night and I didn't (thankgod) and i seen this today and it helped remind me off the horror of alcoholism 2 weeks sober today. Thanks for your videos Tim.

[@Madocthevindicator]

I'm a 40-year drunk that finished up at a handle of vodka a day. Ended up in hospice, but I somehow survived and have 6 years sober, no relapse. It's a horrible way to die, just horrible. I lost everything I owned to my addiction, including my family. It's the end result, rock bottom and falling into a coma, coding twice. I can say it's never too late to stop drinking, I'm proof of that.

[@micktaylor7641]

Well done

[@leemainwaring2872]

I didnt want to drink,i had to drink. I hear u brother i really do. I didnt wash, eat or take care of my appearance. Putting off the withdrawal. 87 days of sobriety and never going back to that way of life. Thank u for your brutal but honest video. Stay strong 💪

[@Nestor-jx8nw]

I drank beer, Jack Daniels and red wine every day for years, my weight balloned, blood pressure went crazy, depression, mental issues, my marriage fell apart, my youngest son doesnt talk to me anymore, all for the love of booze. I had to admit it was destroying everything. I am sober 2 months, 1st time ever its a new world I will rebuild myself with Gods help

[@flangecorp9789]

You are not alone brother. I am a few weeks sober, got arrested recently for a drunken outburst at my sons birthday party. I’m deeply ashamed and can’t stop thinking about it. Can’t legally talk to my sister and ex partner until my case is over. I don’t think they will want to talk to me for a long time. Devastating, I’m a calm, non-violent person sober and I’m hiding away but staying sober atm. Lost my job due to alcohol as well. Sending my respect your way, keep going.

[@Nestor-jx8nw]

@@flangecorp9789 I hope you stay off it mate. Admitting its a problem to yourself is 1st step. You cannot change what has happened, I had the same guilt for a long time but it was not you, it was the drunk poisoned you that caused all the trouble.Find other outlets, walk, gym. eat healthy, read, do an online course. In time the family stuff will be resolved. Also pray to your higher power for help and may God be with you and keep you.

[@MidnightAve]

Tim, you have been an inspiration for me and I can’t appreciate your channel enough. 28 yr old here who has been struggling with alcoholism for the past 10 years. I watch your videos for guidance and strength. What you’re doing is admirable and inspiring and I can’t thank you enough.

[@trespasscomplex]

I spent years and years in various locations around the world, drinking just to survive. I cannot and will never believe I managed to survive and get recovery from alcoholism. Thanks for your honesty.

[@myredpencil]

Newly subscribed, thanks for your sobriety, Tim!! You're helping LOTS of people. My recovery from alcoholism is ongoing, and I have to honor anyone who's working on it. Your wisdom is so useful!

[@beckyg3697]

Have a lovely time with your family. Blessings Tim ❤

[@TimJohnsonrecovery]

Thanks Becky 🙏🏼

[@jeremygoble1761]

The moment you feel physically worse being sober than being drunk its too late.. dont be afraid to reach out for help people. it saved my life and it can save yours. Thank you for your story brother.

[@irenes6627]

My father and brother were both street drinkers (think that's what their called.) They both had severe mental health issues and they slipped into addiction. My childhood was of trauma and hurt. I was angry at them for a very long time (they both died many years ago due to alcoholism) I'm not angry anymore, they couldn't give me what I needed and that was a Father and brother due to their illnesses. I wish they were here so I could tell them I forgive them. You are an inspiration I'm sure to many people with addiction. Well done ❤

[@jimbergmann8633]

Living with an alcoholic father taught me not to consume alcohol. We all make choices. God Bless.

[@claredooley4719]

I cant seem to get passed 8 months sober.... ive been drinking 5 weeks now I keep cutting down but I feel really ill im scared... I need some reassurance , everytime I cut down I feel so depressed and sick but this relapse is worse im so scared this time ... thanks for your videos

[@baldersn4474]

14 days sober from weekend binge drinking and weekend cocaine use, plus holidays,vacations, xmas etc..I just turned 52 today finally had enough of the hamsters wheel..had few months off here and there , couple of weeks etc..But where I always had 470 or 5 days of abstinence, my brain kept telling me Idudnt have a problem, it woukd literally take me 3 days min to recover, I'd hot the gym hard to try and get rid of the chemicals...Tried AA didn't work for me, the binges.wwre getting worse abd the repercussions were getting worse with my family, friends, partner etc..Something shifted this time, despite the docual aspect and friends not wanting me to quit I finally had enough..I feel amazing at the mo..Been in this cycle for a good 35 years ...U don't really notice it when your younger..Also I'm pushing for a diagnoses for adult ADHD which takes 2 years min on the NHS in the UK 😢

[@spicnspan981]

You just get so SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SO SICK AND TIRED and that’s when real change is possible! Never give up trying, never give up hope. Next time you feel like your next drink or next toxic behaviour, play the tape to the end and be extremely mindful of what exactly your doing because as strange as it may sound, many times the brain just keeps repeating what it knows so we tend to do things on auto pilot with zero regard to exactly what the consequences of that one drink or one pill etc are. The more mindful we can become, the more we try to get help and fail the easier it becomes.

[@Mrmallet777]

Been a raging alcoholic since i was about 18 now 37 always getting in trouble with the cops for minor stupid things or falling out with friends lost so much through drinking my apprenticeship numerous jobs driving licence lost my dad to alcohol at a young age started going to AA at 19 and been in and out for years longest i ever managed in my adult life was 7 months then had a terrible relapse for a month where i was drinking 2 litres of rum a day pissing the bed spewing everywhere and blacking out for day worst part is when you're in heavy withdrawals but you just can't keep the alcohol down your stomach on fire so you just keep vomiting it back up. Anyway this dry spell has lasted 4 months hopefully ill at least break my record of 7 months sobriety

[@boxelder9147]

God bless you sir. Thank you for your testimony

[@debkumarroy]

Hello Tim, My name is Deb Kr Roy from Kolkata, India, I'm an addict was connected to alcohol.1month couple of days sober, Stay in touch, Hare KRSNA❤❤❤

[@COYBIG1967]

Stay strong 💪

[@jonnycola86]

Frank Skinner was a terrible alcoholic. He got flu so couldn't drink for a week so he decided to stop for another week and another and another. Eventually he loved the feeling so it just continued. Fun fact he stopped drinking when I was less than two weeks old.

[@jxcobrr]

You’re not a alcoholic if you stop drinking just because you got the flu

[@pauljordan4452]

Frank Skinner is very funny.

[@yamyite]

Groundhog Day is the Fucking nail on the head

[@moomoo9920]

You are an amazing person!

[@MarkSmith-tp6zc]

I did a lot of this and only sought medical help when I'd reached a bottle of vodka a day and had frightening withdrawals if I didn't top up next morning. I'm glad I did and would like to say well done to you Tim. Liberation is ours.

[@neiloconnell8847]

I can't do it yet. Been 30 years or more. I've managed to kick nicotine, and all pharmacy stuff but the beers. Just so bad with the withdrawal. Always crack.

[@sonnyjuke]

Wonderful testimony 🙏 so pleased for you

[@chezzerk]

Addiction is like prison with the key inside

[@ananda_miaoyin]

Best comment ever.

[@MISTYGarden-l5c]

Great Message😊

[@boxelder9147]

I would have a few beers before going to work after a night of drinking. Wouldnt shower, probably brushed my teeth, but was wearing the same clothes day after day. After I got sober, a coworker told me I would smell like a homeless person

[@Jay-zx5hx]

Same here, I was like WTH am I doing.

[@ThomasRoach-w9o]

Dranked for over 20yaars,until 1990,Found AA,been sober now for 34 years,Would never want to go back to those dark days.

[@niccat7051]

Wow 😮 you are lucky to be alive!!

[@janisdeitsch2985]

I've just found your channel. I hope you are doing OK. I watched your last video where yo said you were taking a break from YT. I hope you come back soon, I find your videos so helpful.

[@terrigelbaum8066]

That is so sad about hurting your wife and children. There pain is equal to how much they love you.

[@TonyTee79]

The best part of this video was your sincerity.

[@johnywoodsman2890]

I'm on day 22 south east Asia last relapse took nearly 3 years. Psych wards Ect was pitiful. The heaviness of it is hard to shift and lose a few important things as we do ❤

[@marystele1197]

Thank You Tim for your honest account of how an alcoholic gets through a day and the horriible feelings and experiences you went through. I think a lot of people really discount what it a really into it, alcoholism is about. Like he's just an alky it is his own fault Low life loser.. They have no idea just how destructive and serious the alcoholic condition is. l lost the love of my life to Alcoholism two years ago. He came back into my life after 20 years. He was at Stage Five and so ill, He didn't have the capacity or capabilty to get well and had given up. Beyond help. Absolutely hearbreaking You look as though you are on the mend Tim. Noticed you had a bit of colour in your cheeks as my mother would say. Sending love and big hope Tim for success in the future and your healing Your family really love you You are lucky Wish you every success Tim. 😻👍🌟 Karen in Manchester Xxx

[@harrybaker9044]

The thing about the heart really spoke to me. I have paced around my room like a caged animal believing that i am actually going to die at any moment after coming down off of alcohol. It is a seriously evil drug.

[@claredooley4719]

There's no rehabs or funding in north yorkshire... im trying to reduce myself but it's so hard to reduce as much as just stopping ... all my senses come back everything sounds so loud, the adgitaion is unreal and panick attacks... I wish the doctors would help or give me something to calm me down but they don't...plus it takes ages to get through now its all changed.... but I'm not giving in im just frightened this time , ive just turned 41 im drinking 35 cans a day ..im really greatful for your videos thankyou and sorry for being negative....but im going to fight

[@zeramoke]

It is like being on a hamster wheel and as you walk forward the wheel gets smaller crushing you to death but you feel you can only walk forward, of course you can take one step that takes you off the wheel but its one of the hardest steps, some have had the wheel crush them to death, if you are reading this remember that step is there to take you off the wheel of addiction, no matter what you matter to people and they love you.

[@urdadshusband781]

Is this like benzo recovery where you still feel horrible years later ? Or does it go away after a couple months

[@jamesbyrne9312]

Thanks for your frankness.

[@Mumbo_Jumbo_Kiwi.1]

A good solution is making your own fermented alcohol from fruit/veges (I use beetroot) thats going cheap at your local grocery. This gets you off chemically induced alcohol & you have control to reduce sugar content. Hangovers are much less but theirs something magical in the fermentation process that gets you off alcohol issues & bolsters cognition especially if you add magic herbs. Most of all, it's fun

[@ananda_miaoyin]

I have never heard someone recommend jailhouse pruno before...

[@rickykey1175]

The liver was trying to rid the toxic I was very sick for about a year the withdrawal about kill me I worked very hard all my life was a boiler Maker about lost my job from being sick retired think you Lord you have to help your self then you will get help from our. Heavenly Father very proud of you ❤❤❤❤❤

[@akerfeldt4068]

Is that a Liverpool accent?

[@spicnspan981]

How on earth is it that alcohol is the legal one yet cannabis is illegal? I’m not saying that smoking pot is not without it’s downsides and issues but in my honest opinion I believe that it’s a lot better for you than alcohol. I’ve never understood this

[@jimbergmann8633]

Five guys and a case of beer, they start a fight. Five guys and a bunch of pot, they start a band.

[@markczarny7088]

Beers gone eight years go since I stopped but like yourself I take trams 200 mgs a day certainly doesn't help .After fibro scan told my livf is cirrhosis still not out of the woods

[@stevielauterjung546]

Thank you thank you thank you

[@RayT70]

God bless 👍 🙏

[@hunterpittman8504]

22 days sober today 1/22/2024

[@stephenhalcrow6354]

Thanks!

[@baldersn4474]

Hos did you quit mate ? AA etc ? Drugs ?

[@TimJohnsonrecovery]

AA finally was the reason I was able to quit my friend 🙏🏼

[@TengizDavitadze-q9t]

ჩაარტყი ბიჯოო 😂

[@frankmazzie4855]

Just remember social acceptability dosen't equal recovery...work a program. 3:18

[@trevor4136]

BEEN THEIR i drink now on weekends only from every say so i can only say u can stop

[@TaylorMaid-ho2xw]

It is progressive and it's a nightmare!

[@michaelsiengo1]

25 months

[@johnboy4067]

❤

[@kennypow2181]

Magic mushrooms is the answer.

[@MichelleHoyland-n4x]

😢

[@CharlieMoney777]

2:03 in and still blabbing. Get with it, mate! Telltbe story stop name dropping.

[@jannorris4140]

So you're a victim? Or an adult making choices?

[@Jay-zx5hx]

Why are here?

[@TerriAller-wf2iq]

You know… you really bug me. I’ve had no alcohol in 23 years and there’s not one day I haven’t remembered how horrible it was n all the painful things that happened. But you know what you you don’t inspire me you need to get real with yourself. N feel a real bottom. Alone with no family no friends no nothing .

[@jeffbach7366]

I feel you, it's a neverending saga for us one day at a time folks. Keep on coming back🕰⌛