RITUAL ABUSE: Am I Crazy? My journey to determine if my memories are true (with German subtitles)

[@alex.3.kitsune663]

The fact that there are actual licensed psychologists out there that actively defend pedophilia is not only completely baffling but so, so disgusting

[@maryknight4450]

yes

[@unsub8924]

Maybe she is one herself, this Dr. Woman seems like she has something to gain by attempting to gaslight victims

[@colours01]

Agreed it’s an insidious evil agenda.

[@naco1390]

They are satanists club members ,Mrs.Mary you are such a wonderful and symphatic woman !!!!

[@deelawson34]

No compassion or wellness visible or audible from the licensed guru. ⚕️⚔️🔥

[@lehon481]

It's so wild to watch these people of the FMSF stutter their way through what appears to be victim blaming and abuse denial. The things they dismiss and excuse would be abhorrent to any sane person. Imagine creating a foundation instead of believing your children.

[@kaieulalio]

it’s hilarious because they have no defense for their case! it’s truly embarrassing to watch. their skepticism is so unfounded and uneducated.

[@lehon481]

​@@kaieulalio ​​ Their excuses for why it's not possible sound even more unbelievable than the victim's statements. (I'm not saying I don't believe the victim accounts; I'm just acknowledging their statements are very shocking and sad.)

[@kaieulalio]

@@lehon481 so true!

[@maryknight4450]

yes----tutter their way through

[@ugly.cowboy]

they can't even say what they are denying. it shows how they really view things like sexual abuse when they use every other round about phrase to describe it like it's something that shouldn't be talked about. hm.

[@headwound]

I'm not even a minute into this video and I'm already crying. Your voice when you realized it was your dad- I recognize that feeling. I knew my dad abused me as a child but I could only remember the abuse from my teenage years. The first time I brought my mom with me to a therapy session, my mom described things my dad had done to me and I was stunned listening to her, it was like she was describing someone else's life and not mine. But as I continued my journey to heal more and more memories came and I connected events to each other and started seeing a clearer picture. I even found my old phone that had videos of my dad physically assaulting my mom, those were videos I recorded to scare my dad by telling him I'd show the videos to our relatives and the police. They were so scary to look back at and the entire time I was watching them I was thinking to myself, how on Earth could I have forgotten these existed! How!! Now I understand that's just a testament to how incredibly good our brain is at protecting us.

[@maryknight4450]

Amazing! Thanks for your comment. I'm sorry you experienced that but I'm glad you are healing.

[@angellong7970]

Your mom was there when he did those things?

[@headwound]

@@angellong7970 Yes, my dad abused her before I was even born.

[@FaeMusicOfficial]

I have vivid memories of childhood sexual abuse I experienced but I also have nobody I would trust to tell this to. I would be seen as the problem in my family for even suggesting wrongdoing. I plan to seek out therapy but I'm terrified of having my memories questioned by them. I also still see my abuser as they're family, and I have this overwhelming guilt that I'll be "ruining the family" by admitting these memories. I cannot express my appreciation of you enough. These videos make me feel heard even though I'm not strong enough to say it all out loud yet. I'm glad you have made a beautiful life for yourself despite everything that was inflicted upon you

[@nikivara]

im so sorry, i understand your position, i've been there and unfortunately was not only shunned out by different parts of my family but the houses themselves! imo i dont see you as not strong enough yet, you are aware of your environment and are acting accordingly to essentially survive.

[@karaespy6561]

Maybe they are still abusing someone. I was abused by my brother. He went on to abuse his daughter and her friend ☹

[@karenshadle365]

My Psychiatrist helped me roleplay & rehearse my interactions with my Father ahead of time. I was scared and he helped me a lot with the practicing when I felt ready to do it.

[@JulieSevelson-nb9nj]

Jazz Sophia,it sounds like you were,and still are being scapegoated by dysfunctional family members. You owe THEM nothing ! If you never want to be around certain relatives,please know that you don't have to be,you can put up boundaries. Dysfunctional families do have a herd mentality, where they hang up on the abuse survivors,to silence them. For now, it's best to discuss this situation with people you trust, and figure out if you want to go after the abuser legally. Never be alone with your relatives when you do confront them with this awful stuff,have your friends with you. It can be dangerous to confront abusers. If you decide life is better without them in your life, you have the right to refuse to be abused ever again !

[@RandyBledsoe-x3r]

I am so sorry for what happened to you. I was sa'd (I never know what KZbin is going to remove, word wise) the first time at 19. It happened several times by different men before the age of 23. This isn't about me. I just wanted to tell you that it took 10 yrs for me to tell anyone. I told my husband and then I went to a SA crisis ctr for awhile. It then took me 10 yrs to find the right therapist. He's a psychologist. I saw several nurse practitioners and licensed clinical social workers, but none of them could get me where I needed to be. That's not to say that that's the case for everyone. I point that out because it is the norm to not find the right person initially. I'm not sure if I'd be here if I hadn't found my dr. I think I was born hating myself, but those experiences cemented that belief. I fight it every day. I wish you strength and eventual peace. All I know for sure is that trying to swallow those memories and keep them down indefinitely will not take anyone to a good place .

[@jn8922]

I've recently quit being an attorney. It always broke my heart the way children are not believed especially in court. You would think the whole world would concentrate and center itself around protecting children, but the ugly reality is its just buzzwords and slogans. There are a few organizations around which are passionate about protecting children's rights but society doesn't actually care. In South Africa, the child rape stats are so horrific, you'd think this world was actually hell because it's so demonic yet nothing gets done about it. I believe you wholeheartedly with no doubts about your abuse. Maybe because in this part of the world, fathers raping their kids is actually a common occurrence and we also had some horrific cases where both parents were involved in raping or prostituting their kids. That blonde lady with the red lipstick who said the father might have been joking about being sexually attracted to his daughter makes me feel physically sick. I was not abused and raised by my single father - he wasn't perfect and I have been angry with him many times about many things but he would never ever say anything so disgusting to me. That lady might have been sexually abused herself. Anyway, you are a wonderful brave human being and your work in exposing this issue is so important. Child sexual abuse is on the rise and you can see how children are being oversexualized recently with that Balenciaga advert etc. Children are being groomed and it's time adults stop putting their heads in the sand about abuse. God bless you!

[@ksp-crafter5907]

👍👍👍

[@1HorseOpenSlay]

You are a wonderful person ☀️

[@pattybrey8156]

well being Satanic ritual abuse is talmudic and most of these therapists have jewish names lol maybe they coverup for their tribe

[@suzanna8663]

hello Mary- I am not a survivor of sexual abuse, but I have experienced childhood neglect and trauma. I just wanted to say that before I watched your movie, I was SO skeptical- almost to the point of ridiculing the experiences of people like you. I'm ashamed to admit it, but that was how my interpretations of mainstream media and journalism coverage left me thinking. It was striking to me how the "experts" who seek to debunk recovered memories come across as very defensive and guarded -and in some cases -aggressive. I just wanted to tell you that you have convinced a true skeptic with your extended/updated version of your powerful documentary. Suzanna

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for you comment, and your openness.

[@lehon481]

It's also wild how these 'experts' started this foundation after some of them or their spouses were accused of these crimes! Talk about biased work...

[@alexie101010]

I was never a skeptic, but everything you said about those “experts” was so valid. Glad you were able to see things from another light 🙂

[@victoriaryan23]

It’s interesting what you said about the “experts”. This is just yet another confirmation that the elites are definitely engaging in this type of abuse.

[@greenspark101]

Marilyn seems lovely, as do you. I really enjoyed this and how you came at it with genuine questions. “If no one is going to believe 53 year old me, who is going to believe a child” …made me cry. Thank you for your work Mary 🤍

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for your comment!

[@unusedaccount9207]

I have learned the hard way that people who claim that these are only liars are the people that are usually either involved in harming a child, or close to someone who is. These psychologists that had the guts to say such vile things to your face are horrible. You are so brave, and you've made me feel brave too

[@maryknight4450]

thank you. I love that comment! "you've made me feel brave"

[@las5510]

I just found you through Anthony and am so glad I did. Thank you for your courage which I still can't wrap my mind around. Idk how I'd ever convey how much I understand. Even though my story is different, there are parallels. My physical health is inpacted from it all. I'm 40 and in end of life care with so much of my experiences unknown to others and I have made my peace with it all. That being said, the gifts you're giving for survivors, victims, warriors (or whatever individuals feel most comfortable with identifying with) your work is so special and is invaluable. Despite my healing journey feeling complete prior to this I am so glad to have 'met' you 💗 I can't thank you enough for what you're doing 💖

[@maryknight4450]

thanks for sharing

[@las5510]

@@maryknight4450 Thank YOU!!!

[@alexie101010]

So glad you were able to heal from your traumas and make peace with it all. Wishing you the best and a comfortable end of life journey 💕

[@las5510]

@alexie101010 thank you so much for your kind words ❤️ they really mean a lot. I experienced much cruelty growing up and that's putting it very very lightly. I also always felt ill. I'm sure was caused by some of what I'd been through, but on the whole I think that my health issue would've been an issue regardless. The hardest part of it for me was that no grown ups believed me. I spent years in therapy after 35 years of being called a liar (well initially in the first 3 to 5 yrs of my life my mom was called a liar, she did believe me just no one else did) and the therapist was trying to help me understand that my symptoms were very real. Since I got no diagnosis until 35 yrs old I'd been so gaslight at times and the hundreds upon hundreds of trips to the hospital and being told what I was saying was in my head I no longer could confidentally discern what was real and what wasn't. To add to the mix since my disease had not been treated as it should have been I went from being called a liar to a terminally ill patient. My life would have always been shorter but not this short. It's still something I'm working on til this day. I was so conditioned to believe I was "bad" & that just remaining quiet was best and I couldn't just flip that switch overnight. A little bit of kindness or compassion can go so so far with helping someone. 1 kind individual believed me in early 2017 and that led to so many doors and new things that I wouldn't have had. Even this exchange here in the couldn't have taken place if not for that first time I was given grace. Sorry for rambling. I just wanted to really lyk how powerful those kind words are and thank you again 😇 and may you be blessed 10× over for the warmth and joy you brought to me today ✨️ 💖 (and believe me I needed it)

[@alexie101010]

@@las5510 What a beautiful and heartwrenching story. Reading your comment meant so much to me because I am currently dealing with daily chronic pain and have constantly been gaslighted and invalidated by medical professionals. I know my experience is nowhere near yours when it comes to ailments, but I feel like it was meant to be for us to "meet" here in this comment section. I was su*c*d@l for the last few weeks because I was so tired of being in pain and tired of doctors thinking they know my body more than I do. However, hearing that someone finally LISTENED to you just gave me a lot more hope than I had even yesterday. So hearing that my comment may have helped in any capacity mean a lot to me. Also, I am a caregiver for a child who just got placed on hospice care after being in palliative care for the last 3 years, so I felt "connected" (for lack of a better term) to your initial comment. I hope that makes sense... Anyways sorry for rambling about myself now, haha! Wishing you the best! I'm so sorry you've gone through so much and suffered for many years due to the incompetence of medical professionals and other abusers. I am wishing you a peaceful and comfortable rest of your journey here on earth 💕💕 (Reposting this comment because the first didn't go through for some reason)

[@shinshakey612]

I think when something is so hard to hear and scary to acknowledge, we just find it easier not to believe.

[@maryknight4450]

Good point! For those who want to know more details, they are in the ritual abuse essay of my memoir.

[@maryknight4450]

www.amazon.com/dp/B0BKJ94597?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details

[@ItsOKtobeNormal]

The thing that gets me though is that people are willing to accept serial killers and child traffickers exist and most people accept satanists exist, so why is it so hard for them to accept this? Why is it so crazy and unbelievable when you combine them? You look at the world and see the entertainment industry is heavily influenced by Satanism and the occult, hundreds of thousands of kids/people go missing every year in the US, there's obviously something dark going on.

[@alexie101010]

Just started this film and 29:50 really blew me away. I sense a lot of projection here. These women specifically go out of their way to invalidate and minimize the assaults and abuse that they are told about. It makes me wonder if this woman in particular experienced abuse but wasn’t listened to- and because of that she perpetuates the same experiences that she had onto others. I could be just grasping at straws, but this woman has a very bravado and “outrageous” reaction similar to family members I know who try to minimize and erase abuse that they know happened but are ashamed of admitting. Anyways, wow this is very important work you’re doing and I really am enjoying (for lack of a better term) this project you’ve put together Edit: After hearing that the FMSF was founded by accused inc*st abusers this make s a lot more sense. Horrid people, there's already enough invalidation and victim-blaming in the world!

[@Llxr23]

The whole reason you ever doubted yourself was because you are such a kind soul and didn’t want to believe evil is real❤ What an amazing journey and mission you have so much to be proud of. Beautiful gentle soul 🙌🏼🌟🤍

[@maryknight4450]

thanks

[@BeautifulCrazyy]

This needs so much more views! This is so well done! Thank you so sharing your story and showing so much. What's wild to me is most these people qho basically victim blame are all also parents that were accused of abuse.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks, and I agree!

[@chazruff6898]

Mary, your work is so valuable. I've been on a internet rabbit hole of exploring the false memory foundation, and the damage they've done still thrives years after it's dissolution... There's so much disinformation online, that only contributes to perpetuate victim blaming and silecing of csa survivors. I wish for every person doubting their memories to come across this documentary, because it's conclusion is beautiful: you're an expert on yourself. You know what happened, do not gaslight yourself or let other people silence you. I trust your work because i see in you a beautiful person, with morals and real feelings. Your retractors, and the people who support this made up syndrome, talk with coldness and malice about survivors, i could not bare to look at their faces.

[@Thechristiangodistheonlyanswer]

Whats shameful is doctors and psychiatrists denying peoples memories of childhood sexual abuse and saying they false. That is what is truly shameful.

[@pattybrey8156]

well a lot of these Dr's & Psychiatrists are involved in child trafficking and having sex with these victims too ESPECIALLY THE CIA PSYCHIATRISTS & Doctors who are "Programming" mind controlled childern. Mind control involves shattering a child's mind by RAPE and that's what the CIA "programmers" do. They are psychopaths.

[@Mainecoon163]

Truth is, the satanic panic of the 80s and 90s created these therapists who in their practice would make their patients "recover" presumably repressed memories of events that never actually happened (usually involving some sort of satanic abuse). We can't really blame other professionals for not believing people's claims of said events especially when the patient says that they had no such memories before attending the hypnotherapy sessions...

[@lovisasilva8802]

Well don’t leave a child unattended or heck even attend in the presence of Dr Pankratz

[@cydneyweseman]

I also find it interesting that the psychologist at 57 minutes talks about early childhood experiences doesn’t damage or hurt the child…. When there are well documented toddler experiments where they hurt the kid if they saw a rabbit….. and then they become terrified of all fluffy things….. and also, it is well documented on how a child’s mind is a sponge…. How could a doctor of psychology then refute the importance and weight of early child experiences?

[@chilenapromedioRU]

That Loren Pankratz is himself a pedophile. Wasn't he the one who wanted to do a research on the effects of children as young as 9 victims of these so-called "boy lovers"? Repulsive!

[@pattybrey8156]

the Psychologist at 57 minutes is one that No One should consult

[@ElentariRose]

​@@pattybrey8156definitely not. I disliked him the most. I really enjoyed that he has a book on his shelf called 'bad science', which you can see right above his shoulder. I kept looking at that when he talked, because it's a good summary of his message.

[@analennyja]

I came here from Anthony's video and I must say you are so strong and I am happy your life is so much better now. I cried while hearing your voice at the beginning of the video and your story gives me motivation to help others as a teacher and psychologist. Because like you said abused people need at least one friendly and kind person in their lives and I am trying to be that person for my students. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you a good and happy life ahead of you.

[@Nomarcaper]

I have no idea how you were able to stomach being in the same room as Dr. Pankratz. However, I thank you for exposing his sick and twisted ideology. At 1:07:45, when Pam Freyd was saying how it is "easy for us to absorb certain things that we've either read or seen and to incorporate them into our stories to make them our own" is exactly what my narcissistic, abusive father would do. He would listen to his friends talk about their wives and children, or watch movies, etc and incorporate them into his own life. For example, his best friend was being horribly abused by his ex-wife, and she raised their kids to hate him. When he confided in my father about that, my father then turned on my mother and I accusing and acting like we were just like that. That woman shows that it takes a narc to know a narc because survivors don't make up their stories. When she had said that, you were so confused. Rightfully so, because we aren't narcs. We can never understand why narcs act the way they do because we aren't ones ourselves.

[@maryknight4450]

It was hard doing those interviews!

[@eleisatrujillo3398]

Great point

[@meggenkramer]

Dr. Pankratz is an idiot. It is proven that trauma effects the nueropathways in a child brain. How we learn about the world when we are developing as a child, forms us into the person we will be.

[@binglemarie42]

Thank you for sharing your story and research! I had a professor who studied with Elizabeth Loftus, and who was very enthusiastic about her work. I even met her at a conference. Never did I know that she is paid for her expert testimony, that she is a child SA survivor, or that she resigned from the APA to avoid a scandal about her ethics. Your interview with her cemented my new view of her and her research as biased. Thank you for opening my mind beyond what I learned in the classroom!

[@dolcemurales2847]

Damn I dont know how it is a joke to say to your daughter ''im sexually attracted to you'' 😮

[@auroraborealis4320]

Thank you Mary for sharing your story! The strongest message took from watching is that your this beautiful strong person that grew out of such a horrible and ugly environment. It saddens me to hear what you went through because it is so clear what a lovely human being you are, you radiate purity and love for everyone and everything, i am truly in awe of your strength, especially to go public with your story, as crazy as it is considering the topic but watching has given me a little more peace, I struggle with not believing or not wanting to believe what happened to me actually happened by someone i admired and loved so very much. I struggle with the feeling of guilt for speaking out and turning everyones life upside down. But watching this has helped me, especially from hearing others who know what it feels like and also the professionals explaining why we feel like this is and that it is normal! your an inspiration to all children who have experienced abuse. I wish i saw more videos like this when i was at my worst, its such a dark place to be remembering those horrible experiences and not believing that you could ever experience happiness again. But you show that no matter how dark it was to experience what you did, you got through it and you where able to find acceptance and relish in this gift that is life!…you didn’t let them take your experience of a happy life! I battled through depression for almost 10 years and had no intention of living life till the end but one day after deciding that i was going to end it, i decided that before i do, i was going to experience some beautiful moments before i go, i wanted to live out my dreams, i didn’t want to let him take that from me. I wanted to experience love, i wanted to experience all that life could offer…its weird to look back and know, that this beautiful life i created for myself came from such a dark place. But as i had nothing, i had nothing to loose, so i was daring and went for my dream career to be an opera singer which is a very risky career choice especially when you don’t come from wealth. But i am so glad i did because everyday is filled with the feeling of fulfilment. I wish i had your strength to go public and let someone who needed it as i did, that they are not alone in there pain and also that life can get better. That is why i am truly in awe of you, you are doing such a selfless thing!

[@maryknight4450]

I loved your comment! Feel free to email me if you like, and remind me that you are the opera singer.

[@potterfile]

I am so glad to have found your channel Mary! I have been keeping you in my heart and good wishes ever since I saw your interview a few months ago. I am so glad to be able to support your healing journey!

[@winnievineyard]

It’s just crazy how when a child remembers their birthday parties and things their friends told them as a kid there isn’t any question. But when it’s horrific sex acts all of a sudden their memory is in question. Not on ANY OTHER TOPIC THO. Hmmm a bit peculiar. Trust ur intuition with NO DOUBT EVER!

[@winnievineyard]

Normalize gaslighting people back 😂 ask people if they remember the things their mother used to tell them. And ask how could they know for sure she ever said that.

[@maryknight4450]

great comment!

[@disenchanter]

hello, Mary. I once heard a clip from a video of you a couple years back, but as the dissociative mind goes, it often takes a good while to find what we were looking for, or even be ready to receive what other parts of us know is what we need. that's why i am writing you a letter and hoping to have it off to you soon. in the meantime, i just want to thank you for the work you did in yourself and continue to do for others. i'm 29, soon to be 30 years old, and i have been severely confused by my past for much of my adulthood. i know that i am a survivor of abuse, ritual as well, but i don't know to what extent. and so i am working on finding support so that i can open and heal these parts of me that have been shut but never truly forgotten. i hope to communicate with you soon, but regardless, i just want you to know your story is really important to those of us who have still so far to go to undo what has been done to us. - J.V.

[@maryknight4450]

THANK YOU. I hope you get a chance to read my memoir, too. Its on Amazon. My Life Now: Essays by a Child Sex Trafficking Survivor

[@LadyRosePhoenix33]

Thank You For Your Work, Mary! As A Survivor Looking To Access Support & Validation For These Subjects, I Have Found It Difficult. I Have Kept Many Things Private, In Fear Of Gaslighting By Those In The Psychiatric Field, and/or People Suggesting The Altering Of / Or Erasure Of My Memories. Our Memories Can Help Save The Lives Of Others. Thank You For Sharing Yours. 💖💪🙏🏼 Your Composure Is Definitely A Goal Of Mine😂 I Get So Angry At These Sickos, Especially Watching The Pankratz Section, OMG!😮. I Was Screaming! 😅 Watching You Interact With Such Grace & Gentleness Is Very Inspiring. You Are A Queen! 👑

[@maryknight4450]

Thank you for your encouraging comment!

[@canyouhandlemyfrequency]

Thank you so much for making this film and bringing a voice to survivors like yourself I love you and everything you do I love all of the women u have brought a light to and let them shine without shame but also empower any survivor like myself, you make me feel proud to be a survivor for different things but I’m so proud of you too thank you again ❤

[@maryknight4450]

THANK YOU

[@canyouhandlemyfrequency]

@@maryknight4450 I’m studying psychology and neuroscience to become a neuropsychologist and you’ve truly inspired me to continue studying human behavior for these reasons and foundations who want to discredit such magnificent science that can help so many more survivors it’s refreshing to hear science and medical professionals vouch for legal rights towards memory recovery and recognition it’s incredible work you are partaking in I’d love to see even more

[@MrAmodeous]

That "doctor " at the 58:00 mark is a an absolute quack. There are documented cases of children who have suffered early childhood trama(below 2-3 years old) who, while not consciously remembering the trauma, develop anger and aggression issues later on because on a subconscious level their mind still retains the information. He comes across as an advocate for early childhood s#xual abuse. Looks like a creeper as well.

[@Mamabrew]

Thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent🖤 I see you, I hear you, I believe you and I appreciate you! Sending you love, comfort and the best vibes 🌘🌑🌒

[@jlfdesignstudio]

Mary, thank you so much for the courage and commitment to do this film. I still sometimes think I’m crazy when I imagine some things happened to me, but some things I have never forgotten like my father and mother being some of my abusers. I have recently learned about DID and now so many things make more sense to me. I am still healing and feel like more memories have been wanting to surface for a while, but I am so afraid to remember because I believe they may be too horrific. It is true that one needs a good therapist, but I haven’t been able to find one that knows about ritual abuse and DID. 😔 I thank you for your bravery and hard work, I hope to be like you one day and step out, speak up and help others. ❤ May God continue to heal you and bless you!✝

[@maryknight4450]

May God continue to heal you and bless YOU

[@RandyBledsoe-x3r]

Whoever the Jewish woman is that Mary Knight goes to speak with, she is horrible. When she said that children should "take responsibility" and tell incestuous relatives to leave them alone made me want to reach through the screen and do unmentionable things to her. She's completely dismissing all the introverted children who have no voices. These children (and I was one, just not sa'd) have a difficult time just telling their parents their shoes don't fit anymore (or anything else). I'm writing in particular about extremely shy, introverted kids. It's hard to open your mouth about anything. And as to extroverted children, it's also difficult to talk about these kinds of things, or have the sense of self and the confidence to push an adult away. Not every child is loud, self-assertive and pushy the way this unempathetic woman clearly was. She should be ashamed for shaming child victims of SA. The shame they suffer rarely, if ever, goes away. To add to it is unconscionable.

[@TheophaniaRex]

What does "Jewish" have to do with it?

[@auroraborealis4320]

I had repressed memories and it’s hard to let yourself believe there is such evil in the world and that it happened to you…the very first time my memory came back I was 13 visiting my dad…I got really drunk off a bottles of wine…this was accidental, I didn’t know the effects of alcohol and I drank it so fast I became extremely intoxicated…I was with a friend who didn’t drink any because she didn’t like wine, I was the rebel….well i between puking and falling over i burst into tears and told her all about the abuse I suffered as a child and by the morning I had completely forgot about it….having a repressed memory is like having a dark scary shadow in your peripheral vision a freeze frame of a horrible movie, you know it’s there, you know it’s bad but if you don’t look at it, it stays where it is…it wasn’t until I was 15 at school when I decided to look at a strange shadow in my mind…initially I told myself it was normal, when it was happening I told myself it was normal but now as a 15 with a mature perspective I had my reservations….I asked a teacher if it was normal and the teacher went white in the face and told me no, what you’ve described is sexual abuse and a police investigation began and as I questioned what was right and wrong in my childhood, all the memories came flooding back….a few years in to the investigation and with my mental health declining my parents decided to join forces and me and my mum moved in with my dad, I got back in touch with my friend I had since lost contact with in the hope of having at least one friend in this new area…she then asked me on that phone call if I remember what I told her that night, I didn’t and that’s when she explained to me I disclosed years before to her….eventually after years of investigation and with me coming to terms with the reality, he was finally prosecuted….I also didn’t believe my memory, I had to confirm to my mum what his penis looked liked to confirm it to myself, he had a tattoo of a popeye and as soon as my mum confirmed this was true, I knew that all my memories, as horrifying as they where, they where real.

[@maryknight4450]

Amazing confirmation

[@cydneyweseman]

It’s disgusting to me, the denial of these people who demand proof when no one can ‘prove’ a memory….. with that, I also feel pity for those people… I feel pity because it is clear to me that those who refuse to believe must also have endured some sort of trauma. They feel shame for your trauma because if they accept it, that would mean that they have to acknowledge the concept of abuse in their own life…. Which is hard and painful. I remember as a kid, I thought I had heart murmurs and I would wear a monitor a few times growing up. In high school, I finally was able to recognize that my heart would feel crazy during certain radio songs for example. The song would play… some 80’s rock song… and my heart would race and I’ve realized that those were actually panic attacks. When I became an adult, I learned what anxiety is and situational anxiety, I learned a word to describe what was going on in myself…. At first it was terrifying….. but then it let me know that what I’m experiencing is not random but a symptom. As it turns out, my cousin came forward a few years ago….. my step grandpa had been molesting her for 8 years….. eventually, my sister, oldest cousin, both aunts and mom also began to come forward. My mothers memories came back in waves. Till this day, I don’t know all my memories and sometimes I’m okay with that…. Other times it hurts….. I know how I can come to access them- I could get help….. it’s been years that I’ve kept myself from remembering everything. I have always struggled to recall my childhood and it has affected my adult life in that way similarly because I can’t remember certain parts of my life. I don’t know if my lack of memory is due to my step grandpa, though I know I never wanted to be around him….. or if it’s purely because of my father. Either way…… I know that the brain protects us, God created a perfect design to help us function. Our brains literally control everything else….. how could a medical professional say it not control what memories we can recall?

[@maryknight4450]

Yes. It’s disgusting to me, too.The denial.

[@mikehawk4388]

I saw this originally on the REALWOMEN/REALSTORIES channel, so I was happily surprised to find you have a channel for your work. An instant subscribe & thumbs-up. Like I commented on that upload, you made my slight skepticism of recovered memories to this extent vanish with every pro-pedophile, pro-child-abuse, horrific "so you were touched. So what! Keep the family together, y'all!" cronie & quack you revealed here. It makes so much sense that a group like theirs would be full of evil, evil people. In case you ever read comments here, even if just a small chance, I wanted you to know how grateful I am for my mind to know the truth now. Thank you.

[@carlataylor5573]

Oh Mary! This hits home. I’m on my healing journey and at my age it is so incredibly hard. My flashbacks started recently, or are now much worse and much more clear. I just can’t ignore them anymore and it is so painful at times I just feel I can’t do this anymore. I suffer from PTSD and OCPD. Now I understand a lot of things that didn’t make sense before. I am mentally exhausted. I question myself constantly and I know people won’t believe me. The monster that this to me was my biological father. He also abused my half sister, my half brother, and other children. My mother knew. And she denies it. I feel like I live in a jail and I just can’t get out of it. I have severe trust issues and I know this affects my kids. I feel so broken.

[@maryknight4450]

I'm so sorry all that happened to you. Have you read my memoir? If you can't afford to purchase I'll send you a copy if you email me, [e-mail]

[@SableFane]

It's almost comforting how these false memory people know absolutely nothing about what they're talking about. Seeing how they waffle between saying the patient is lying vs the therapist is lying, the psuedoscience, the lack of arguments whatsoever other than "sounds fake to me" and "we can never really know," and most of all, the fact that all of them appear to be child abuse apologists and have very disturbing takes on what "counts" as abuse. It shows that the vocal individuals spouting the idea that people are faking their memories, are not rational logical experts.

[@maryknight4450]

YES

[@miriam785]

I just saw Anthony‘s video. Thank you for speaking out! I still don’t know if I was abused and not sure if I want to know. For now it’s ok to know that there where things that weren’t ok. When you talked about buying clothes you looked sexy in for the first time I really felt that 😂 I go through my teenager phase in my 30s right now.

[@KonstantinDonchev]

I am truly sorry for what happened to you and it gives me lots of hope that you've defied all this pain and found all this endless strength to lead a good life.

[@maryknight4450]

thank you

[@accidentallyhopeful]

Mary I have so much respect for you and the courage it takes for you to be open and public about this information. I hope you’ve found peace and healing.

[@maryknight4450]

I have found peace! That's why I chose the title for my memoir!

[@maryknight4450]

www.amazon.com/dp/B0BKJ94597?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details

[@angelinaflores-ui1hn]

I commend you Mary Knight for your bravery in sharing your story. I have been studying this topic for about 4 years and I also came to the conclusion that people are not born evil, but born into evil and there soul either accepts the dark or fights against it. It unbelievable the amount of people or I should say leaders in high places who deny satanic ritual abuse. I think it is more common then any of us are aware of, because the memories stay repressed for so long. I wish you all the best on your healing journey and will pray for you and your family as you break generational cycles!

[@kateblack6289]

Mary, thank you for all your work on these documentaries. I am so incredibly sorry for your childhood experiences, trauma, and abuse. I am also a RSW in Ontario and have done additional certifications in trauma. Thank you for sharing. I hope to read some of your work.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for the comment. I hope you will read my memoir. Its on Amazon.

[@kateblack6289]

@@maryknight4450 Thank you, Mary! I will be sure to purchase!

[@lilyn717]

I am terrified of remembering my childhood. What I do remember is worse than this and I am absolutely positive I couldn't handle any more.

[@karenshadle365]

You don't have to remember, you are good enough just the way you are. I chose to deal with the abuse (not sexual) in my own family when I was 48 only because I was suicidal and kept repeating my mistakes over & over. Best to you.

[@maryknight4450]

My book might help.you

[@m.pensive]

Thank you for making this. It's very important and good that people speak out for the truth about the complexities of psychology and trauma, especially in light of vocal opposition. There's reason to believe the opposition itself is born out of those psychological complexities of trauma, so more investigations like this help immensely to gradually chip away at the issues.

[@ElentariRose]

Thank you. I'm at the start of my own journey of dealing with recovered memories and it's comforting to see someone who has struggled with the exact same doubts as I'm doing now. I especially enjoyed the interviews with Marilyn and Bessel van der Kolk. They really know what they're talking about. What struck me was that the sceptics all had in common that they wanted to know the exact details. They wanted to you exactly how old you were when it started, the exact words that your aunt used, and transcripts of your hypnosis therapy sessions. For the non-sceptics, emotions are enough, but the sceptics need facts. I don't know why that is the case, but it was an interesting observation.

[@TraceyWebber-n4d]

My grandpa made me feel so uncomfortable by his "touch" he also said you love your grandpa dont you... i told my sister we need to leave. She refused i left and went to my nanas. Unfortunately she stayed behind so god only knows what happen to her... We havent spoken in years 😢

[@ritamariekelley4077]

Sitting in Elizabeth Loftus' presence would be so threatening, as she seems very angry. Unresolved issues? FMSF is so alive & well here in Utah, possibly the epicenter of child sexual abuse and SRA. So far the LDS church has managed to keep it all under wraps.

[@chilenapromedioRU]

Thank you very much for sharing. I do believe that you're a survivor of CSA and this is a very important documentary, because many survivors who have been abused from early childhood develop dissociation as a form of coping mechanism and the fact that you exposed those pedophiles who are psychologists it's very important. Thank you so much for that. I'm very sorry that your memories have been mixed because of the hypnosis, the "satanic panic" from that time and very damaging fake stories like the book "Michelle Remembers". What is important is that you are able to heal and the work you're doing to help other CSA survivors.

[@maryknight4450]

Thank you

[@Marie-rs4ns]

Thank you 🙏 Mary. I bought your book and subscribed. I am reading your book now and I can’t put it down. My abuser was my maternal aunt. My mother was abused as well and although my mother was a wonderful and loving person, she was powerless and couldn’t protect me. I was too afraid to tell my father about the abuse because my aunt, cousins and sister threatened that if I ever said anything they would have my father deported or sent to prison and I would never see him again. In my child’s mind I believed them because my father was a pow and believed he would be sent “back to the war”. I was the family scapegoat as was my mother so it is generational. Thank you for your work.

[@maryknight4450]

I am so sorry that happened to you. Thanks for buying my book. It makes me so happy for people to read it! And thanks for subscribing.

[@SwimDeeep]

59:34 you can literally see Marys eyes get big, her body tense up, and she takes a deep breath. That dr is so disgusting.

[@nicolasweeney2084]

Wow this has opened my eyes. This is amazing, I’ve never experienced any abuse as a child, but I have so much respect for you to speak out. You really are amazing x👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@jakeb.6487]

we love you so much mary, you're such an inspiration. we believe you. i've finally (finally!) learned to love myself the way i love my little brother, and as soon as he turns 18, i will take my father to court for what he did to me, to my little brother, and to our pets. it's incredible people like you that inspire people like me to take action and get the justice we deserve!!

[@maryknight4450]

What a wonderful comment!

[@VaNatureLover]

Mary thank you for this video. This happened to my daughter at the hand of my ex husband. It came out 6 months ago. She endured it for three years. I was in utter SHOCK. She had repressed the memories and it was very hard to discover, but she had a triggering event and then it just unraveled from there. Law enforcement did not believe her in my area and dropped the case. Almost all of our friends and even family didn’t believe her either. It almost destroyed us. Her stories are very similar to yours and I’m so grateful for your story.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for your comment. I hope your daughter is healing.

[@karenshadle365]

And, I'm crying. Yes, I am. I was not sexually abused. But I was emotionally abused. And I do have all the memories that this happened. But it wasn't clear to me how it had affected me and my siblings throughout our entire lives for years. I was 49 and just in remission from my latest profound depressive episode when I recognized the repetitive pattern I was having. I was seeing a great psychiatrist, just for managing my medication dosages (you know?) when I just decided to get to the bottom of things, that somehow I needed needed help. It took me quite a long time to understand how abnormal our family life had been. And it took me many more years to realize that things I'd perceived as OK weren't remotely so. So yes, I had the memories, but I certainly didn't know how to understand them. That took many more years of therapy. And I would cry and come home exhausted afterwards for quite a while. So, I can completely begin to see how a child would completely block memories. And I salute you, Mary, for your strength. So glad to hear you've come out the other side.☔☂️☁️🌈. - From an Oregon native who loves Oregon City, my best childhood memory.😅

[@moonshinedown2]

i did not experience incest but i experienced cocsa (child on child sexual abuse) from two older neighbor boys as a child. my mom learned they were groping me once and tried to get a restraining order against them when i was 8 or 9, but their family caught wind of it and hastily left and nothing could be done. however when i was 20 i started to recover memories and i told my mom that i experienced more sexual abuse than just groping by those boys when i was hospitalized for a suicide attempt. she told me it was not possible, she was a perfect mother that never took her eyes off of me, and that it was a "delusion". i should have known this would be the outcome. this is what she has been like my entire life. she is a textbook narcissist. she still adamantly denies ever being an alcoholic despite everyone having clear memories of it. she has repeatedly failed me my entire life and psychologically abused me, but i never stopped trying to seek her approval.

[@maryknight4450]

Take care of yourself. My heart goes out to you.

[@louaneriga3222]

Just discovered you and this documentary per say is both very impactful and informative. I did not suffer any abuse but it really opened my mind. The False memory members seems so out of place and... not backed up by science. Knowing what you lived facing those people require some bravery. Thank you for sharing your story

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks. I tell more about FMSF in an essay by that name in my memoir.

[@maryknight4450]

www.amazon.com/dp/B0BKJ94597?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details

[@valeriegroves7851]

So glad to finally have come across this documentary as well! 💜 What’s unbelievable is how much damage has been potentially done to society and generations. I remember as a child worrying about ‘false memories’ and questioning myself on everything; we all were definitely taught and conditioned to automatically deny or discount things which is an awful experience for any survivor to go through when sharing their experience. I agree with educating more people about ‘The Body Keeps The Score’ and DARVO, too as being helpful.. We need to break free from awful cycles of invalidation and gaslighting so more people can feel safe and get to a point where they can begin healing!

[@ladyd.5993]

Ms. Mary, Thank you! You help victims. We love you.❤

[@meganboesen3219]

Mary, you are an absolute angel. It takes such strength to deal patiently with these people that go along with child abuse. I’m so sorry for the pain you have experienced, and the disrespect you have endured.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks

[@KarmaWilFndU]

Sometimes your memories can be so horrific that you would much rather forget about them or at least try to, bit the more you try to forget the more you keep remembering. From flashbacks to dreams down to full blown memories.

[@maryknight4450]

agreed

[@jaimiekight]

Eleanor Goldstien sounds like she may be in complete denial of her own childhood abuse. Hearing her defend incest and blame the child was so alarming. She was so defensive and seemed almost triggered herself.

[@user-wq1nc4jf6d]

I believe you. The false memory people are arrogant at best and purposefully spreading lies to hide their own evils at worst.

[@spiritsfollow4976]

Really glad you were able to uncover the motivated reasoning underlying the “uncritical skepticism” - skepticism that can’t be impacted by evidence - demonstrated by the interviewees.

[@maryknight4450]

thanks

[@Lauraaaaaaaab]

It’s interesting that there seems to be less skepticism around people with DID who have such severe childhood trauma that their brain creates multiple personalities just to protect the child, compared to the brain repressing traumatic events. Doesn’t ‘only’ repressing memories instead of creating a fragmented identity seem like a less extreme more plausible phenomenon?

[@maryknight4450]

good point. but I think there's also undue skepticism about DID

[@geodawg2975]

Thank you for what you do. I’m so sorry that you’ve had to endure the abuse and doubt from people, but I’m so happy to see you trust yourself and find others that accept you at face value. What you’re doing is extraordinary impactful, God bless.

[@maryknight4450]

thanks

[@pitaariel1920]

I was molested as a child by a cousin, I've always remember the abuse I don't have repressed memories at all. I remember every single one of the situations were I was abused, even though I've never spoke of it to ANYONE, but something weird happened when I got pregnant, I started to recall those memories constantly, my baby girl just turn one and here am I watching a documentary about the topic trying to find the tools for protecting her from this monsters. Experiences like that haunt you for THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

[@zombee67]

🥺🫂❤

[@marzena_1]

Ty for telling your story. You're absolutely beautiful and courageous. 🥰 I'm glad you've been able to heal & help others with their healing as well ❤️

[@lillemy4260]

Thank you, thank you ,thank you ,Mary Knight!! Love from Norway

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks!!!

[@fuschiaayling7026]

You've done an incredible thing here ❤ I commend your poise and bravery

[@jennk22]

Wow what an amazing documentary. God is so proud of you. Bless you on your healing journey 🙏

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for your kind comment! You might like to read my memoir. It gives more details about my recovery.

[@debramclain9001]

We believe you Mary and thank you so much ❤❤❤ Shame on those that in ways retramatized those that are abused by trying to discredit their memories!!!

[@citychicken9949]

How sad. To have an entire organization built on the foundation of dismissing your child's memories of abuse. Usually parents create organizations inspired by their children to support and better their community... not to dispel their child's "lies". How painful it must have been for her daughter to watch her mom create this FMSF organization. The person that should have been her biggest supporter.

[@lyravee3381]

It's such a trigger to watch people defend painful traumatic memories being made up so I've only made it a couple minutes in. Having studied psychology and knowing my whole generation of students and probably decades of students have been trained in Loftus' false memory study as the end all of all suggestion of recovered (childhood) trauma memories, rather than a wider body of knowledge on different parts of memory , like procedural, body memory , associations and studies on the different types of reactions of memories even when comparing trauma memories from these false implemented stories (see Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine), still makes me angry. Even if we need to be careful about suggestibility at times and it can be a real thing, how on earth is a child, or grown up abused child, ever going to be able to express themselves and heal human connection if every single symptom or disregulation is being continuously held against them? What would be the way out? Who can ever be believed? Why does it not matter to everyone denying and hiding that abused children have 0 chance of healing /finding acknowledgement and guidance to heal in their "you're just making it up" system, since they're basically denying every chance of abuse being true. why not review their system and help the people out, at the very least as a profession. There's more to heal than focusing on court cases. Sorry if this all gets addressed later on. Still trying to process a lot.

[@eternaloptimist333]

Hi Mary! You’re definitely not crazy. What I actually think is that you’re a beautiful amazing women with a lot of courage doing this the best way you know how to get through this cold and harsh world from being traumatized from past abuse that you certainly never deserved. I think you are strong, vibrant, brave, smart, and everything this world needs. I pray that god be with you and deliver you from all your pain. I think you have helped millions of people by speaking out and stepping up to be heard and that alone is a blessing. Thank you for being you! I appreciate you ❤

[@KittyKats543]

This is such a well done documentary, thank you for sharing this when most people shy away

[@EvanMMD3939]

Have you heard the song “scattered glass” by cillia? I find it to be about complex trauma and remembering abuse later (you’ll have to watch the video with English captions because it’s in Japanese). I find it’s a very artistic way of showing the journey, and as someone with complex trauma I understood the song by the emotions before I ever read the lyrics. Anyways, highly recommend the song bcus it’s relatable and relevant to the subject of this video

[@dawnc6302]

Thankyou for sharing your story. You are a beautiful human.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks!

[@Tinydancer805]

Thank you. Although my experience with memory is slightly different, I had no idea this was something that was controversial concerning recovered memory/ies. And I'm happy to hear you are living a much better life considering what you have gone through.

[@takatoshi27]

Wonderful effort Mary. I’m so glad to find out you are an MSW. You are an inspiration

[@dannikasoukoroff9633]

If my father didn't finally come clean with it, no one would have believed me. I remembered what happened to me when I was 16. I have epilepsy and I had a moment in our kitchen that almost felt like a seizure and a flood of memories came back. I asked my Mom "Did Dad abuse me?" , in shock myself, she was horrified. It was as if everyone thought I had forgotten. I didn't, my brain was just trying to protect me. But again, if my father wasn't charged at the time, my family would have likely denied my memories. So the fact that memories can't come back I think is total BS. Also, why are they so attached? There is so much more information on trauma now. If people want love, support, compassion and to go to therapy and get better whether you believe them or not--whats so wrong with that?

[@maryknight4450]

Love your comment! I'm doing a new project on recovered memories. Email me if you want to know more about it.

[@vmiller4054]

Thank you for being so brave. I am also a survivor of RA. Did you end up with DID as a result of your trauma? It’s so lonely especially when people don’t understand or don’t believe you.

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for your comment, Willow. Yes, it can be lonely. My life has become more full and the loneliness is, for the most part, a thing of the past for me. Consider reading my book. I will send you a free PDF of it if you can't afford to purchase a copy. www.MaryKnightProductions.com

[@michellebraunstein4886]

You are incredible Mary! Wow! Such strength! What an inspiration - how you manage to stay in your centre in the face of these professional perpetrators of the incest-denial complex. May their own shadows consume and excrete them.

[@maryknight4450]

Great comment! I forwarded it to Lynn Crook and she agrees

[@michellebraunstein4886]

Mary, I don’t know if you’ve come across Mark Laita and his KZbin channel Soft White Underbelly. He is an amazing interviewer with a great vision, and I wonder if you and he might be able to chat and get your work and experiences out to further audiences?

[@lauraelder7634]

Thank you for this documentary. The people trying to deny the validity of memories have totally made the case for believing the memories. Their arguments are so hilariously sketchy. What sad, pathetic people.

[@spiritsfollow4976]

Sorry if I’m spamming your comments!! I was afraid to watch this video bc I was afraid it would trigger my denial really badly, but it’s actually been so validating thank you 💜💜💜

[@EdmundCastle-nc7nd]

Im happy for you Mary. Even through the internet I feel your positive energy. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

[@maryknight4450]

THANKS!

[@AlineVanMeer]

Dear Mary, thank you so much for making this excellent documentary. I am in awe of your bravery and wish you all the heavenly joy in the world going forward. You probably know already but don´t listen to stupid people in the background who have an opinion based on nothing but ego, arrogance, envy and fear. You are one of the most pure individuals I have seen. Big hug

[@maryknight4450]

So kind! Thank you

[@trinb7137]

why are these people so determined to say that these victims are lying? what do they gain?

[@trinleywangmo]

It's typically called Just World Fallacy. People have such a strong desire to feel safe, they can't even handle just listening/witnessing another person's survival story...

[@mandykins8678]

I have so much respect for you. This is true courage. Thank you and wishing you peace. ❤

[@maryknight4450]

THANKS!

[@ItsOKtobeNormal]

I havent watched yet but just wanted to comment on my experience with repressed memories. As an adult i always thought it was normal to not remember your childhood, the earliest i can think back would be to where i was 10, until i asked my husband about it and he said he can remember back when he was in 1st/2nd grade. Thats when i started to realize something really bad must have happened to me. One day my sister told me our stepdad a bused her when she was youngerand thats when i started to get memories of him coming in my room while i was sleeping and me waking up to him touching me. Thats all im willing to remember but every once in a while ill hear or smell something and itll fill me with dread and i dont know why. Honestly though, i think im probably better off not knowing the extent of what happened as theres not much i can do about it anyway, ive just decided to leave it in the past and move on. Ok, going to watch the video now! Also i just wanted to add that you're so incredibly strong to go thru what you did and share that with us, knowing some people wont believe you. That was me and my sisters biggest fear, that our mom wouldnt believe us, fortunately she did but instead of calling the cops she made a deal with him if he let her keep the house then she wouldnt tell anyone.

[@JulieSevelson-nb9nj]

This just confirms the fact over and over again, that many women will let a man they're with,to abuse the kids and get away for it, for money and possessions. Not turning in the husband,in order to keep the house is typical.

[@ruthieo54]

Mary is one tremendous soul! She has so much love in her being. 💔😣💙💔😣💙💔😣

[@dianathomas2674]

It is very important that these real life experiences come to public knowledge. I though everyone knows about and acknowledges suppression of memories and DID. It's not exactly new knowledge. Those who doubt surfacing memories being real, makes me wonder: How do they trust anything they themselves remember? Must be excruciating if you cannot trust your own memories to be real. The psychologist/professor lady at the start must have a very difficult life, not knowing if the coffee she had for breakfast was just a segment of her imagination, and doubting whether she got to work by public transport, car pooling or a motor cycle.

[@sagekay9121]

My mom is a healthcare provider and used her knowledge of psychology to convince my family that I was a pathological liar having false memories.

[@maryknight4450]

I am sorry that happened to you

[@KatlinBridgeman]

I absolutely love Marilyn. People like y’all give me hope. I am an incest survivor and was also sex trafficked by my father. There was bribing of many people like doctors and police. I believe you. I started remembering at 26.

[@maryknight4450]

Would you be willing to be interviewed about your delayed recall/recovered memories? I'm doing 30 minute Zoom interviews and making 5 to 10 minutes clips. And then I put the clip on my TRUE/Recovered Memory playlist.

[@KatlinBridgeman]

@ I am interested in learning more. Please let me know how to get in contact with you so we can talk further.

[@maryknight4450]

@@KatlinBridgeman [e-mail]

[@Inkedaquarian76]

Rewatching this again for a second time. Thank you for sharing your truth. ❤ 🕊️

[@lundunbridges]

I’m still living with the people that lied and continue to lie about things to make me look non credible

[@lundunbridges]

It’s a emotional fight everyday around people that watch me go through this battle and enjoying the struggle

[@agnesegerton-bland904]

Great documentary, amazed at the ignorance of the false memory people, glad they closed down.

[@maryknight4450]

THANKS for the compliment!

[@lizchurch8679]

I believe you Mary, and many others . May the Lord Jesus bless you and keep you ❤

[@maryknight4450]

thanks

[@exprssurslf]

Thank you so much for this Mary!! I have learned much watching this and opened up my mind to so many more questions and possibilities to the human experience!

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for your kind comment. You might also like to read my memoir, "My Life Now: Essays by a Child Sex Trafficking Survivor."

[@kaieulalio]

It is absolutely crazy to me that you went so far out of your way to interview these people who had absolutely no evidence or grounds to be skeptical. Their take is so uneducated and unfounded. It is so impressive how respectful you were despite their horrible outlook. Meanwhile, distinguished psychologists will continue to affirm your truth. Congratulations on your deserved happiness and success. Side note; I appreciate how accessible your content is to both the disabled community and latinx!

[@maryknight4450]

Thanks for comment. Do you think I should put a video up with English closed caption for disabled community? I don't think I've done that yet.

[@kaieulalio]

@@maryknight4450 the video has automatic english closed captioning turned on which is already helpful! I think maybe you can edit it if there are major mistakes? I think some of the trigger words like “molested” don’t come through in the automatic captions and you may have to correct that. Thanks for responding!

[@abundantwellnesswithandrea]

Wow. It’s hard to watch the victim blaming from so called “experts”

[@maryknight4450]

yes

[@brigitte9999]

We all suffer from a cognitive dissonance on this subject. Today there’s so much evidence of pedophilia and abuse. Teachers have sexual relationships with their students. Parental abuse of all kinds is also documented. All this behavior is horrific and incomprehensible. So is it really a stretch that parents sexually prostitute their children. We know it’s real but those of us with a healthy mentality and sexuality are appalled and can’t comprehend it. It’s real, we have the endless evidence.

[@lilyD11]

"i read a lot of articles" "i never read what her sister believes" uhhhhh excuse me ma'am if it was a lie you would see the family speaking up against it... And things behind closed doors usually dont have substantial evidence years later... And then the question becomes, why did they go to therapy to start with? And how did they get trama before therapy? There is some truth to what they say at least especially if they later reveal it. You see this alot with spouses that where toxic and abusive. Years later they come out and say "yeah my ex used to threaten me and hit me but i smiled when i was out of the house so nobody can tell..." Okay... You didnt read about it... Nobody was there to see it... It doesn't mean it didnt happen... Especially when you get the spouse other partners saying ohhh yeah he did that with me too and some never say anything... The trama you get from that even when it was surpressed at the time can reemerge when the brain is finally ready to heal... She reminds me of those women who read 10% of an article and ignore the rest... Thing is with research is that you can always find an article backing your biased point of view no matter how wrong it is and have it presented like its a fact. Factual things usually have undebated evidence to support it and it can be replicated over and over again. And things that can't be proven factual have so many contradicting theory's that are usually based of thoughts, emotions and personal beliefs and you cant present them as fact no matter how much you believe in them. Its not lying if the person genuinely believes them to be true. Things like memory and faith cant be proven as fact but if there is an effect there is a cause... (This is just my opinion, i am just pointing out some hypocrisy. English is not my first language so do feel free to share your opinion)