I can totally relate to you on the good and the not so good about being apart of a ministry that is geared to help equip you to go out and help you grow in your walk with the Lord (though not to the point of what you experienced more hands on), I do understand with what you are talking about though. I think it is awesome on what you said in your video; don't forget who and why you were led to go there in the first place. Jesus Christ! I would really like to hear some stories of when you were over in Ireland; I know that had to be so awesome to be able to experience it.