After Decades of Seeking, What Am I Missing?

A man who has been on the search for decades feels as if all he experiences now is emptiness, that he missed the happiness aspect. He asks 'What am I missing?' Rupert explains that what is missed is your self, and suggests he turn around and meet his self.
This clip has been taken from one of Rupert's webinars in April 2021.
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[@mrraamsridhar]

To have gone so far, so deep, leaving so much behind, in search of the truth, and to have spent years just to find nothing: that's the state that so many of us dread. The man's story was so real, so hurting to hear. And the compassion with which you responded to him, Rupert, is something I was grateful to witness. Thank you very much!

[@thinkingisthebox]

Nothing is exactly what we are looking for. There is more than form here.

[@conniesmith4108]

🤗💜💜💜

[@brettneuberger6466]

Well stated, but did you catch the paradox? Finding nothing is what so many of us dread after searching for awhile, and it becomes one of our greatest fears. Yet, until we TRULY discover no-thing, we have no option but to continue seeking - or just give up. (Which has also been known to work.) Until I began the process of deliberately facing my fears (beliefs and emotions that keep me stuck in personhood) I realized my spiritual gains will always be fleeting. Many such beliefs are so deeply rooted, they’ve proved more powerful than what I once thought was impenetrable insight. Yet, like so many, I soldier on; which also proves certain insight can withstand fear. (Truth has power). Perhaps facing down the ultimate fear of being nothing at the very beginning is an option. Then again, judging by the extremely limited few who do, (Ramana for one) I suspect most will have to accept that awakening is a process. Takeaway: If we’re afraid to look at whatever keeps us stuck; stuck is where we’ll forever remain.

[@pjgarret7653]

@@brettneuberger6466 Thank you and with you! No need to "look". Those fears will come and go. Yes, see, but "give up" as you say. Let these things go, let them pass. Then where are you? WHO is left? Is that not Who was always there the whole time? ...and these fears and dramas will come again and again. But maybe that "who" will see them for what they are... impermanent ripples🤔 No need to amplify them into giant waves, unless of course, you really like to go surfing some time.😄

[@patrickm.2155]

Let go of the notion of there being any state that you can end up in. There is no "state" at the end of the road, because there is no end of the road! There isn't even a road. This right here is it! Right now!

[@bornuponawave]

I’m sitting here next to my wife. I look up and am aware that I’m aware that I Am. And that that aware presence that is experiencing her, is the same awarene presence that is looking back at me through my wife’s eyes experiencing me. We are One appearing as an apparent two. There is only One. if only he could see his own Being. I feel for him.

[@chrishaslam1730]

I once went out looking for an idilic place to meditate, somewhere tranquil and beautiful I drove for hrs then had the realisation that I am always in the same place

[@highvibefreqzshow5967]

"I am now here." = eternal Self-aware presence

[@lazaroortiz9546]

This is by far the best response I’ve found on this video comment section. Actually while we are going somewhere we are taking our self with us. Knowing this much is enough too. We’ve been carrying it all the way or we have been carried by the self all along and yet we can’t understand it meaning it’s tooooo close to notice. Thank you

[@chrishaslam1730]

@@lazaroortiz9546 🙏🙏🙏

[@nunurbusiness894]

@Chris Haslam so you are saying that this space we are never moves? Only what appears within this space is appearing to move? Like the screen of awareness? EDIT: Or that, “No matter where you go, there you are.” Thanks for any reply.

[@chrishaslam1730]

@@nunurbusiness894 I'm no expert but I have always had the idea in mind likened to a gamer playing numerous rolls in a game, the gamer never moves but is as involved in the game as the person in the game, thanks for the reply 🙏🙏

[@KimBieske]

My heart goes out to this man. I kept asking myself the same thing... what am I (I as in Kim) missing? What am I missing? What. Am. I. Missing?! Then one day it clicked: There is no Kim to be missing anything. Slowly, identification with this self I've called Kim for 46 years has been unraveling. Now it's just a matter of recognizing habitual mental patterns as they arise, and not letting them take root. There is nothing missing, and I hope it finally clicks within him too. ❤🙏🏼

[@renethomas5757]

I wish I knew

[@harithap9228]

I was in the same state as this person who asked this question. Beating up myself, looking around, reading spiritual books 5 to 6 hours a day, frustrated, exhausted....for 6.5 yrs. And one day, Rupert's one video gave me clarity and there I was with tears. Thank You Rupert. I feel so grateful for your beautiful presence and for the way you are helping us find ourselves in such a simple way.

[@user-xw2oc5eo3e]

i need to ask you to give me that video, but i know that will be a wrong question.

[@ultracalicokittycat]

maybe listen to this video again and again.....

[@ultracalicokittycat]

(the above was in response to the person who asked for the video)

[@johnburman966]

I always was "self" when standing next to a river fishing. Hours would pass in peace. Then I embarked on the spiritual journey, meditation, tai chi, 50 years of it. Now I'm back at the river again.

[@onreact]

Exactly. There is no spiritual journey. The metaphor is completely misleading. You don't go anywhere. You stay where you are ideally and just take off the dark ego sunglasses that cloud your vision.

[@johnburman966]

@@onreact In other words meeting higher entities, performing supernormal powers, living in a state of bliss eaten by insects in a cave may happen but have nothing to do with who you are.

[@onreact]

​@@johnburman966 When you're one with the universe you don't meet anybody else, you just interact with yourself. Supernatural powers are just supernatural from the limited point of view of the ego, they are perfectly natural once you realize that you are one with the universe and can mold reality on energetic level. You don't have to live in a cave to experience awakening to your higher self. That's a cliche. “The only Zen you find on tops of mountains is the Zen you bring there.” ― Robert M. Pirsig

[@johnburman966]

@@onreact Very helpful.....funny how we have heard it before, but don't really hear it until ready for it.

[@johnburman966]

@@onreact One question, is this your experience or intellectual knowledge.

[@2410manchester]

Very sad and I can understand his pain especially after the time invested, all of the external searching hoping the next seminar, guru, or teaching will give him the experience he hopes for. Meanwhile awareness was present every step of the way, quiet, subtle, close and yet far away…I remember frantically looking around my house one day for my keys…asking my brother and then my sister if they had seen them, then my mother wryly smiled and said have you checked your hand yet! Of course I was holding them all along.

[@CYMONKA]

Wonderful parallel

[@casper1240]

I know i did TM so called advanced techniques to get or find enlightenment , awareness was still there and always is theres nothing else to find i always expected some kind of heavenly light or something but you can never find it because it doesnt exist

[@pratik6342]

10 th man story in Adavait Vedanta..haha 😄

[@ashasingh6923]

😄

[@Ibrahims14]

This guy represents all of us in somehow. If we were resting in ourselves or abiding as ourselves , we won’t be spending so much time seeking/learning or constantly watching these video. Ibn Arabi says “all people seek God/Self thinking it is there somewhere, not knowing that they are already in God”. Rupert said once “You are that for which you are in search”

[@hempfu]

good answer to see that we all are in some way like the questioner !

[@donfernando2020]

I could not face myself, I have been running from myself, I bypassed myself, I abandoned myself. When I finally turned around and away from my distractions, I discovered I was a fearful abandoned child.

[@trondeirikjohnsen8479]

I feel you.

[@Jagombe1]

The self is too close to be seen, by most of us!

[@flafaloon]

I pray that bendi may find himself one day, and that we all do, myself included.

[@GigiAzmy]

So glad boredom came up! That’s one that gets me! I love Rupert saying: Don’t get lost in boredom or ecstasy - they are both feelings to go beyond - both content of experience

[@tammylewis9324]

@gigi azmi… I have a friend who channels the archangel Michael. He said “there’s nothing worse than a bored human”. Our desire to be going and doing keeps us from finding ourself

[@WandaThePanda]

Such sweetness! What a care-full teacher

[@MeetingInStillness]

❤😪🙏🏾✨💞💐

[@hempfu]

yes Panda , he's a sweet teacher ( just like your name )

[@francesclare8335]

Sri Ramana Maharshi said, “Be without leaving yourself.” Rupert says, “ You are not something that happens, you are.” delicious exchange🌻🙏😌

[@marypily1418]

This question reminded me of this beautiful poem , by Spanish poet Juan Ramon Jimenez. Yo no soy yo / I Am Not I Juan Ramón Jiménez Translated By Robert Bly I am not I. I am this one walking beside me whom I do not see, whom at times I manage to visit, and whom at other times I forget; who remains calm and silent while I talk, and forgives, gently, when I hate, who walks where I am not, who will remain standing when I die. Yo no soy yo Soy este que va a mi lado sin yo verlo; que, a veces, voy a ver, y que, a veces, olvido. El que calla, sereno, cuando hablo, el que perdona, dulce, cuando odio, el que pasea por donde no estoy, el que quedará en pié cuando yo muera.

[@davidfee46]

Thank you. I had not heard this before. 🙏

[@platome4795]

It is so easy and yet so difficult. I believe that in part, the severe difficulty lies in our minds needing US to be something (an object that can be grasped). The mere fact that we are nothing more and nothing less of an empty screen on which all appears, is so hard to understand. That what we call the Self is only that. It is nothing and at the same time, everything. We are not the turmoil on that screen. We hold all turmoil in our awareness. It is so fine, single-pointed - it is vast and yet only one unit, containing everything, while being nothing. We are the ocean holding all waves, all wave-lessness, in all of its permutations - and yet all is only water.

[@olivebell2920]

If one can imagine stopping the search for something that they know not of, turn the arrow around, be acutely ( not rigidly) alert, there you will find what you are looking for, there within you in the subtle presence of silence is the one , life-force, uni-verse, every present vibrant life… Yourself! Your own being, your essence!

[@foxdenham]

That was very tender and truthful. Who hasn't been 'apparently' obscured by our own butterfly tendencies, in our search for what is, what has always been the obvious-mystery of 'I am'. Our propensity to 'think' our Is-ness is dull and colourless, can find us returning to the experiences rather than the experiencer.

[@alone15151]

Amazingly simple....after all that. I realized my finite self is making me miserable...time to turn around, myself has always been here

[@Living_universal]

For anyone seeking truth , most importantly start off by being honest to your self and try not to know anything because there is nothing to know , you are already appearing as something so what you are looking for cannot be an object of your experience, two things cannot meet. You are already what you are searching for just be still and allow everything to happen, the technique I used when I just realized the truth was simple close my eyes and listen to everything around me and that was it . It hurts me sometimes to know that there’s so many people who doesn’t know that they are responsible for this whole universe and also not know this truth is the root cause of suffering, wars etc in the world. I only decided to share this to confirm that what Rupert speaks of is pure truth and the most obvious. Also remember your mind is a reflection of god(the self , consciousness whatever you wanna call it) so it can give you all the answers you are seeking for and they all would be wrong . You are already here before anything , very subtle inquiry for those who are seeking whole heartedly. This is a knowledge you must know before you die or else your life here on earth wasn’t truly complete, only when you find this truth is when you truly start living. ❤️❤️❤️ love you all.

[@mimisapphire8329]

Just stop thinking for for a moment Benji. What remains? That's it. Being remains. The thoughts will immediately come back of course, and maybe any bodily tension, but realise that the 'being' remains as well. In fact, the thoughts & tension are made up of the being. Keep going there, even for short instances, & eventually you'll start to see that this being is always there, alongside everything else (in fact it is everything). Also keep listening to Rupert's talks. Those that resonate with you, keep listening....As he said, you're already there. 🙏

[@abishekrijal4813]

Gist...Let go of everything mentally...everything and what remains is what we all are

[@Jamesgarethmorgan]

To which the mind always asks OK so how do I let go? Which takes you back to square one.

[@slister45]

That through which seeing, hearing, touching, tasting, smelling, feeling (emotions) and thinking, is made possible. Simple consciousness.

[@cosmofox]

But you don't know what this consciousness is. Just saying it exists doesn't illuminate.

[@slister45]

@@cosmofox I never proclaimed to know the answers, although I have answers that are true for me. My comments only point you in the direction to find your own answers.

[@tracy3364]

I think we are in an era where everyone is desperate and searching for an answer this is why more people are depressed they don't know how This man Such patience

[@valenciacuttriss4259]

Thank you Bendi for asking this very question that affects us all…the desire to find Enlightenment through our search only to realise it had always been there.Looking within is what IS. Finally after years of searching l have come to that realisation.

[@db-333]

This broke my heart 😢💔 I hope this man all here enjoy the ride as long as we are here in these bodies . Know and move forward with the truth , and be grateful for the freedom felt knowing the truth of who we are . I know for me it helps when feeling moments like this man shared here . ❤🙏🏻

[@michaeldamian5750]

There is no sensitivity here to people's readiness and level of integration. There is a difference between very "ripe" seekers and ones with deeper blockages and delusions that distort the whole character for their lifetime, creating low-grade depression and ruined relationships. Sure the guy is avoiding the direct awareness of himself - etc, etc, etc. But there is no doubt a deeper character issue here - meaning the mind is very clouded. The pure teachings of awareness aren't enough for people like this. Constantly repeating that he already "knows" awareness won't work. The buddha and others talk about how they address different seekers according to their level. That's not happening here. Rupert only speaks from "on high."

[@momsazombie1]

I think this a very important point you make. If consciousness is unchanging, then the pre-enlightenment to post-enlightenment change MUST be in the bodymind.

[@michaeldamian5750]

@@momsazombie1 Yes - consciousness, God or spirit is unchanging and perfect already. But it's the mind states that block the awareness of that. We can preach to people forever about the inherent perfection of their real self, but that is not really the "medicine" they are in need of. People like this need to go through a kind of therapeutic "yoga" of relational and cognitivie healing to see any real gains in clarity.

[@momsazombie1]

@@michaeldamian5750 This has certainly been my experience. I reached a place of lightness, peace and contentment when I finally got some CBT to help me with anxiety. I started to face my fears as challenges to be overcome rather than demons to avoid and the blockages released. Within a few days my life was completely different - a new home, new people entered, new opportunities, it was like a rebirth - I was able to enjoy the sensation of touching wood, being able to move my body, looking at a coloured object and at the same time nothing seemed so solid, so serious, nothing to fear, everything was interesting, magical, vibrant and in a way beautiful and I felt love towards everyone....they also started to respond to me differently, smiling at me in the street, having nice conversations with strangers. I felt like someone and noone. I guess it all depends where the blockage is. It lasted a few months before the neurosis crept back in and took up residence.

[@zenalb6587]

Michael any suggestion for those of with this issue?

[@michaeldamian5750]

@@zenalb6587 They would need to speak with someone who has a depth psychological understanding along with the spiritua, who can address the development deficiency and relational impairment they are manifesting. As well as deep feelings of worthlessness, shame and emptiness. As long as they keep trying to "recognize" awareness they will get nowhere.

[@CYMONKA]

I learned so much from this conversation. I really appreciate Bandi’s sharing. Wherever we are, there is self.

[@nikkifrye7599]

“Stay with yourself awhile”, he said. Those words rolled in as the most exquisitely beautiful music before exploding into silence❣️🌹🥲 Stay with your Self 💗 awhile… thank you Rupert 🌹

[@lazaroortiz9546]

There can only be honest people here.. we are sharing our problems from the bottom of our hearts so that we can be clear as well as others can be clear. You are me and I am you. It’s the same path that we’ve been walking. Appreciate you all. Practice being aware of being aware. 🙏

[@himalayanterrain1661]

Wow! Ruperts pointers are so direct , easy to understand and follow. Thank you Rupert i dont need you anymore.

[@seamusdebuitleir20]

Tanx Rupert. We are so deeply conditioned and is so deep it’s frightening.🔑💚🙏🏻🤝🇮🇪

[@happydays3678]

You're such a remarkable teacher Rupert. Blessings 🙏❤ Blessings for your student too.

[@ayeam5822]

we must cease our exclusive fascination with the objective CONTENT of our experience and instead REST in the simple KNOWING awareness of experience alone. THIS is the intimate recognition of our TRUE nature that we long for. 🙏

[@rupertspirateachingsbylili3883]

Many thanks Rupert, and student as well. Beautiful conversation between Teacher = friend, student = friend. I remember this moment, a few months ogo, during one of the weekly Rupert's webinars. The genuine dialogue impressed me at that moment, the compassion of teacher, , the honesty of the seeker. Thanks Life and God for being witnesses to a moment like this! 🙏

[@evasteinlesberger3413]

I like your response, Liliana, compassionate insight, 💚

[@rupertspirateachingsbylili3883]

Thank you, Eva! ❤ The words to describe the way they share love are poor, but we can give it a try. 🙂

[@hempfu]

indeed nice answer Liliana , from the qualtiy of the teacher !

[@rupertspirateachingsbylili3883]

Thanks Jozef, I am not sure if I understood well, haha, but thank you!

[@CYMONKA]

Thank you Bendie, for sharing! I learned so much for you and Rupert. This was powerful.

[@jrlakin370]

😁 I find it amusing that the search is the problem. Just be. Accept. Everyone is trying to find their glasses when they’re on top of their heads! 😆 I feel it this way - imagine removing your senses one by one - What would you be left with? That’s what I am. It’s easy. Just stop trying. Like blue bananas.

[@VirendraSingh-iu2nc]

To whom you are giving direction doesn't exist and what is exist who doesn't need directions.

[@slister45]

The only constant and certain thing I can say about my Self is that I am.

[@EllenMurphyClarke]

You gave just described EXACTLY my journey of coming home to myself age 55 thank you

[@manjushamishra5849]

When you said " tell us about yourself " then why is it that my eyes well up . I have had experience of Self and i feel so emotional about it that tears start flowing for no reasons.

[@margrietbrandsma000]

This man's quest-i-on is as I experience. Beautiful how Rupert helps to turn back to me and know me while the video has stopped. LOL

[@cosmofox]

Why do you play silly word games like "quest-i-on." It doesn't add meaning or profundity.

[@בל_ועמית]

The spiritual man says: "You NEED to be careful nor to fall in to the illusion". The wise men says: " There is nothing that NEEDS to be done".

[@onreact]

Stop seeking, start seeing. Enjoy the process. Wherever you are, be there. Don't look for future outcomes.

[@shoonyah]

I love the you just Listen quietly Rupert. You just Listen. And then you are Quiet before you speak ....Its so simple yet so beautifully done. ❤that about you.

[@peggyminer9926]

Being is so much harder than doing.

[@MichaelDamianPHD]

Focusing just on being aware, or recognizing awareness, will not - will NOT - heal the profound lack of inner love or sanity or understanding that many people have carried for a lifetime. They will say "I KNOW I am aware. I have moments of clarity. But I am deeply suffering. I have no purpose [etc.]" You can binge-watch spiritual videos forever and not heal that inner mess. Because you need a depth approach to your psyche, not just a clinging to awareness.

[@superduperdom]

Yes, it would be spiritual bypassing or perhaps toxic non-duality. Everyone has a different neurology and is in a different place. Relaxing into the 'backspace', the awareness, might be right for one person, for another something else is needed. For example instead of trying to jump over yourself into the transcendent oneness, being with what is, in your emotions and body will get you to the same place. Once the blockages are felt and released, spaciousness opens up naturally and it will be much easier to sense the background of Being. If you're depressed, confused, anxious, all knotted up energetically (and not even aware that you are!) it's going to be hard, and perhaps an escapist enterprise, creating a surface thought-based layer of spirituality, that sits on top of the pain body. We don't want that. We want an integrated spirituality that can flow between the Human and the Being part as needed.

[@TheMLMGold]

This is such a good container of compassionate guidance, reminding us all to take a step back from the content of experience, to stop looking outwards all the time where happiness can't be found and to strip it back and feel our being. I would also add God's praise to that and feeling the mental/emotional alignment of fulfilled desire. It's like having a break from all the mental noise

[@FernandaGutz22]

Speechless

[@johnnylovessheki]

Again, expectations and resistance of mind brings suffering on the surface of consciousness, he needs aware of aware, the knower.

[@soubhikmukherjee6871]

I wanted to know this exactly. Thanks Thanks Thanks 😊 🙏

[@victoriaharbison6057]

Best wishes to you Bendi, from a fellow butterfly

[@DM-bd2vw]

Yes! Just be in your own presence

[@danielpaulson8838]

Tough story as we seek a path in life, not learning the path is inside. Alas, the hero’s journey.

[@annettecloutier2094]

The KINGDOM of GOD (I AM/ SELF/ Consciousness/ Is not a STATE (with Boundaries/ Borders / changing lines of what’s in what’s out ) 😃😍🥰 WOW! What freedom!

[@u0se0r]

As Osho once said, people can go astray and become even attached to non-attachment. Wherever you try to go, you go away from yourself. When you focus, you always focus on an object, an element of experience, again you are astray. Good luck, hang on a little longer.

[@richardlynch6927]

I’ve just realised this is what happens when you seek enlightenment or a religious experience, it’s the seeking of external experiences or Godhead .

[@gregb5121]

Not sure if my comment came through. Personally i would recommend ACT (Acceptance Commitment Training) to help identify one's own Values as well as the 'Observer Self' (as opposed to Thinking self) - and then take committed actions in line with those values to lead to a meaningful life moment to moment to moment. Also Byron Katie's 'The Work' maybe useful to get over some niggling thoughts / misconceptions / misunderstandings. eg. How does the thought 'i am missing something' make you feel. (FOMO?)...and 'Who would you be without the thought that i need to arrive somewhere else'? I understand some may say these are more conceptual methods and techniques - yes they are...however like wood rubbed together to make a fire, the wood gets burned up with the fire itself... Likewise like concepts and methods we use a raft to get to the other shore, but when we are on the other side, we can let the raft go... However ultimately i agree: "The firm conviction that there is neither bondage nor liberation is the supreme purpose of all efforts." - Ramana Maharshi

[@H1tman13]

"Just turn around " Simple and profound.

[@TheMLMGold]

The mental practices and strategies of resistance can come to an end when God and awareness are seen as non-practices. It's a relief from all the self effort and true praise can open up

[@tammylewis9324]

I was ,at one time, missing a particular physical location. I made the statement “I just want to go back home”. My boyfriend said “wherever you are …that is home”

[@musicmoments8510]

I really felt for the questioner and can relate to what he says. Thanks to him for his brilliant questions that have in turn helped so many.

[@AG-yx4ip]

I’ve realized now that I’ve seen awareness. I just can’t stabilize it’s recognition . It’s to elusive . and It’s really strange and soothing at the same time . But the objects of awareness really take the fist plan very easily . I’m just beginner anyway …

[@lazaroortiz9546]

I’m also doing the same, Trying to stabilize this recognition. But after millions of years of unknowing being in the chain of evolutionary process I think being this much aware is also a lot. Now we have to practice every moment being present, Every actions being present, every conversation being aware and maybe this might help to stabilize ourselves. However, if we try to stabilize this recognition as an objective experience it’s gonna be a lifelong problem. Gotta be very aware of what we are doing.

[@AG-yx4ip]

@@lazaroortiz9546 I am not forcing myself nor anyone should in the practice of meditation . This process of recognition of awareness unfolds naturally over the years as I was told. I am “doing” mostly objectless meditation witch doesn’t require any concentration ( shamata in the Buddhist tradition ) - just sit and relax , that’s it !Your awareness is already present. If you do it gently your mind will accommodate in a healthy way :-)

[@lazaroortiz9546]

@@AG-yx4ip thank you very much for the response...every single experience helps.

[@henriettadecosta2928]

Thank you Rupert for this gentle Guidance you shared with us. Most of us have gone through similar experiences. In our exasperation running to the Noisy mind for its next manipulation. And we are all for a different drama the mind preents. Until we come back home in despair, shame, and more self-criticism from the mind. We don't know it has been always there deep within in one's Surrender to the Silence, Stillness, Emptiness of the emerging Aliveness, unconditional Acceptance, Peace of Awareness And we still continue to vacillate between our Identity as the Mind and As Awareness/Consciousness. The despair etc slowly passes and we experience glimpses of Happiness. WE begin to see. Nothing that we went through is in vain.

[@TheAngama1]

Rupert has such a beautiful face...

[@MartinJutras]

Not gay here, but he's a very beautiful and charismatic man.

[@meisamhasanianfar6017]

you are excellent rupert ! The guy is the extreme of what we are! I am free now

[@ivoknubben169]

The tragedy of every quest: endless and hopeless. The man in this video has completely turned away from life in his quest. He is totally understimulated and therefore depression has entered his room. This awareness teaching is not going to help him out of that. In fact, it will take him further into the swamp, because the message feeds the feeling of the seperate person: this is not it. Seeing a doctor and restore the contact with family and friends would probably be a better idea. May be with the help of some medication. And hugs. To finally come back to life again. Wish him all the best.

[@michaeldamian5750]

Exactly. There is a "medicine" of getting properly related to life that he needs.

[@hempfu]

Using the name Bendy is already looking for trouble ...sorry Bendy i don't mean it , just a joke . Thank You for sharing Your story . Compared with many of us , the activities You did ( yoga , martial arts etc... ) are anyway more interesting than what most of us do, making to overlook our true nature : attachment to our families , searching for love , eating , sex , tv , sugar , alcohol etc...So as a seeker You will come out of the search with a better health and less damaged . Your courage to share Your story and Rupert's answer is one of the best I think for many of us !

[@A_random_nerd_with_braces]

Thank you so much for this. Incredibly raw and helpful. Banji speaks for many of us I think!

[@michaeldamian5750]

For many people, there is not a chance in the world that Rupert's teachings can address the psychological and developmental wounds that are causing great suffering despite all the seeking -- especially if the person has some kind of low-grade narcissism or other significant character issues. These teachings are better for very integrated people. You can immerse yourself in teachings of awareness for years and not deal with the distortions and blockages you carry within. Awareness would be a starting point. Certainly something to abide in and know as your real nature. But that alone will not break the ice around people's hearts or meet their profound need for love and self-understanding. It's easy to cling to "Awareness" and the brief spells of peace it brings, without ever looking into your psyche. It's not a depth approach. Knowing that "I am present" or "Awareness is always present" does not heal all that. It is a starting point. Without a depth approach people will just cling to an idea of awareness and continue to avoid their deepest distortions and blockages.

[@lukedevcich7840]

Michael i agree with what your saying, more subtle understandings of our nature do not penetrate deep identification, it's can take time to peel the layers of the onion back. But the other side of this is a person's path , the path through it's suffering heals. When a person is ready to be honest and really look they start to see. No one can make another ripe.

[@michaeldamian5750]

@@lukedevcich7840 Yes if they're ready to be honest and really look, they can start to see. But that's a big "if." I have worked with many seekers who will need a great deal of help to become ripe and simple and subtle in their perception. They can be seeking for decades and still carry deep distortions.

[@lukedevcich7840]

@@michaeldamian5750 I believe it I think we all have experienced that at some level. Do you find through your work you can help a person have more self honesty and willingness to look and go into those things. As that is the direct cause isnt it, self honesty and a desire or willingness to go there, are you saying that there are teachings, guidance etc that can cultivate or help lead a person there?

[@superduperdom]

Advaita is another belief system, if that's all you know. It's partial and has a shadow side, a tendency towards nihilism, passivity, dissociation etc, and can get you more into your head than out of it, tricky stuff! It also mirrors the background of it's teachers. I think Rupert has a more philosophical background with SES and Francis Lucille. An awful lot of people need a lot more emotional self-awareness first, waking down as well as waking up!

[@danielpaulson8838]

Anyone ever step back and wonder why it seems not only elusive to many, but many more aren’t even interested in it. A person has to be able to see their life is unfolding for them in the way it should, unless they make inner changes. What isolates a smaller percentage of the population? Personality types? Why can’t humans see themselves in cycles that they create by hanging on. Hmmm

[@msrmsr9999]

I prayed to my Lord, and look I reached Rupert. No one explains so simply.

[@richstureman4229]

🙏❤️so beautiful Rupert…deep thanks always…we are blessed to have you in our midst

[@jaymian6836]

Very well handled truly inspiring but I wonder if this person eventually understood...that which is the awareness of being aware is our self and an infinite source of wonderment and ever present ..hope he did so , very impressed Mr, Rupert Spira my salaams and pranaams to you

[@sashatulips4631]

What honesty? Humbling that someone has the courage to speak like this.

[@terryriley8963]

He said he gave up everything ‘all his attachments’. It’s not about giving up ‘physical things’ such as family, friends, money etc it is about giving up your unhealthy negative egotistical needs and demands for these physical worldly things that are your 'attachments' that are controlling your life. There’s nothing wrong with buying a shiny new car if you can afford it. It’s when you feel the need to buy a shiny new car because you need it for your ego to show off and distract yourself from your insecurities and problems and you think the new car will make you feel better and solve your problems, which it will seem to do so in the very short term. Usually it’s a case of buying a big expensive car that you can’t afford but you believe ‘the bigger the better’ the greater you will feel and the deeper you will bury your problems until the shine wears off the new car in a relatively short time and your problems resurface and it’s now even worse because you have a bloody big financial car debt to deal with as well, all thanks to your ego.

[@janethill4387]

So grateful for your pointings which are so beautifully and gently shared but so direct. Just received my copy of your new book "Being Myself" and am so happy to have it. Thank you Rupert😊

[@EnergiCodes]

Im very glad I got to see this video. I am at the start of my journey of waking up. I recently done plant medicine and other psychedelics searcing for the answer. It wasn't until recently during meditation I asked deeply who am I? It took me to a place I did not expect. The video is good reassurance that I don't have to keep seeking in experiences or other people. It has been with me all along and always will 🙏

[@williamcitan]

This is great! The thing is when the mind tries to understand and do something about it, it takes you in the wrong direction. Just need to let it be, observe it, be the observer.... nothing to do

[@MariaAyub-ma-sentient24]

This has been so poignant and reassuring. Thank you!

[@dr.susheelkhemariya8966]

DhanyabadDhanyabadDhanyabad thanksgretitude

[@Agnes-ls5qc]

Why is it spontaneous for some people who apparently are not even seeking or have been seeking for a short period of time?

[@vedicwarriorOriginal]

Note to self: Giving up things/people in your life in the expectation of receiving enlightenment may lead to misery/boredom/confusion/frustration. Enlightenment is not a feeling/result/destination; doesn't involve sacrifice or trading something for something else. Hmmm... need to open myself up to becoming more aware.

[@sammyleal]

I am here. It's here where I am!

[@gireeshneroth7127]

Problem with the bubble is it sees itself and many others like it but fails to see the water from which it derived its existence and realise that it is just a fall-out of the water engaging with itself.

[@melissa48]

Thank you both! 🙏🏻🥰

[@knowthetruth311]

1 sam 16:7 But the Lord (I/Awareness) said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

[@dheapsable]

Absolutely beautiful! ❤

[@Playan.]

I hope Bendi got it. Again another good talk by Rupert.

[@thespiritdotteam]

The Emptiness, The Nothingness. Formless, Nameless. Undescribable. Stillness. Tranquility. You just Are.

[@dr.susheelkhemariya8966]

Wahwah AhaAha wonderful Chamatkaric wonderful dhanyabadDhanyabadDhanyabad thanksgretitude Ruperspira dhanyabadDhanyabadDhanyabad wahwah AhaAha wonderful

[@danielshin154]

This hits deep, perhaps most of any of ruperts videos

[@ivadedeva7005]

He describes exactly how I am. I have tried everything and went to depression.

[@brettneuberger6466]

I empathize with you Iva. I’ve been down the same road many times. Even after recognizing I am all there is, I can get stuck in frustration over and over again if I’m not vigilant. Rupert’s teacher, Francis Lucille, often suggests living an impersonal life once we realize our true identity as the I Am; which he explains simply, as smiling at life and it will smile back. In other words, he tells us to put out understanding to the test and let the results speak for themselves. This seems to somehow transform expectation into acceptance. Easier said than done, but it might help. My best to you!!

[@zoetele123]

Just beautiful.

[@kylemason8038]

The minds tendencies and habits will only shed away as you sink more and more into yourself.

[@grahams1609]

Sometimes one must work with feelings/what the character wants in order to see clearly.

[@moonglow6639]

Student to teacher: "Teacher, I have searched all my life but I didn't find. What is in the way of finding ?" Teacher: "Why, searching of course." ^^ (PS: The teacher was Ramesh Balsekar who said this to Ram Tzu/Wayne Liquorman)

[@laurier125]

Very very very helpful!! Thanks to both of you! Your conversation was eye opening….i must remember, “come back to yourself” thank you🙏

[@EmptinessEmbodied]

Thank you 🙏

[@sujata1342]

thankyou Rupert! your compasionate being is a blessing

[@JH-ky4jf]

The way I heard it, Bendi sounds like he has fallen into the trap of Meaninglessness. Bendi seems to have had some non-abiding awakenings but there's still enough ego left to also feel depressed about the idea that there's nothing left to do. For more info, check out the book by Adyashanti - The End of Your World. Chapter 6 describes how non-abiding awakenings can be corrupted by the remaining ego. The book clarified many aspects for me.

[@badmamjamma]

This was very helpful