Ruru’s Suicide Show On a Livestream-Shinsei Kamattechan (slowed n reverb)

Song and image aren’t mine
ya
I came back
Next song is akatsuki/Cirno’s theme Beloved Tomboyish Girl/My body’s made of crushed little stars
Write in comments which one do you want to see next!
Btw all of them are ready (as mp3)
Rest In Peace,Ruru-Chan
^^
Why are u still here...
0~0

[@earth2jasper]

On my way home, without friends1 The sunset is sometimes kind Amidst the data flying around The city's Bluetooth destroyed me Jumping into the Chūō Line Being called a nuisance She was always there The girl went ahead and died Even if you ask the FBI you'll never know Her message She was always shouting Channeling to widen the night sky I waltzed with a stray cat Amidst the data flying around The city's Bluetooth destroyed me Jumping onto an UFO It's not a phase, mom. Please, listen She was always alone The girl went ahead and died Even if you ask the FBI you'll never know Her message She was always shouting When I'm done studying for entrance exams I'm a witch that talks with cats I'll do a livestream suicide show and build a grave Before this terrible feeling disappears Jumping into the Chūō Line Being called a nuisance She was always there The girl went ahead and died Looking down upon stupid humans With the cats on a roof She was always shouting When I'm done studying for entrance exams I'm a witch that talks with cats I'll do a livestream suicide show and build a grave Before this terrible feeling disappears Jumping into the Chūō Line Being called a nuisance She was always there The girl went ahead and died Even if you ask the FBI you'll never know Her message She was always shouting lyricstranslate.com

[@-Shindo-]

This song is not only for Roro-Chan. It's for people in Japan who commited suicide.

[@ASouthParkFan2010]

True

[@chloee4791]

May she finally rest

[@Akumo69]

Tw: suicide, drowning I left school early one day and didn't sign out so nobody knew I was gone. I walked up to the bridge on the way to my house and my legs were shaking and jittery and felt heavy the whole way but I briskly walked there with my heart pounding in my chest. I stood on the edge for not very long as I knew if I thought about it for long I wouldn't go through with it. A guy in his car called out to me asking what was I doing and in fear that he'd try talk me out of it I just let myself go and fell about 20 feet into a river. I can swim very weakly but not under conditions with strong waves. The second I jumped I realised I didn't wanna die. In my head I rationalised that once I let go I'd still die even if I went back on my choice so it'd be a perfect way to die but it was honestly the most traumatic experience I've ever had. I kept trying to scream out for help but every time I spoke my head would go under the water and my lung would be filled up more and more. People were watching idly by but couldn't do anything to save me. They just watched and tried to get to remain calm. I had never felt so helpless in my life. 2 guys tried to swim in to save me but both got cramps and nearly drowned and had to return to safety but one got a buoy over to me which kept me afloat. At this point I had hypothermia and couldn't feel my legs. I was in there for a good 20 minutes until medics arrived on the scene from a helicopter. A guy with swimming gear went in to drag me to shore cause the waves kept pushing me further away every time I tried to swim and I was getting weaker and losing consciousness. When I got back they stripped me bc my muscles were tightened as much as they could possibly be and I was shivering and freezing to death. They got heat pads and blankets around me that sunk so deep they left burns. I remember being to faint to speak and was about to pass out. A guy there kept asking me questions about who I was, where I lived etc to keep me awake. I almost didn't make it to the hospital. I just remember it all sinking in just then and I couldn't stop screaming weakly with what little energy I had left, naked on the street. My mum arrived on the helicopter and was crying by my bed. I needed a walkie talkie just to speak to her even though she was beside me. If I had been in there for another 90 seconds I would've passed away. Every day I had to walk across that bridge to go to school or to the post office or to shops and whatnot and it was too difficult. Even with someone with me I'd have ptsd flashbacks and would struggle to cross every day. I was exposed to it constantly. One time I tripped and I thought I was falling and I just started screaming and crying and panicking uncontrollably. Whenever I struggled to breathe when I had noseblocks or if I choked on food or drink I'd have panic attacks and freak out. I can't handle suffocation anymore. Funny thing is, I had a belt cause I was into being choked before this experience messed me up. It was too hard to go to school given my ptsd so I dropped out during the rest of 5th year (2nd last year of secondary school where I live) for about 9 months but went back in 6th year and caught up on what I missed. I went into a deep depression but was too scared of death to try to kms again. Eventually, I grew desensitised to the bridge and the experience. I still panic upon suffocation and can't go near bodies or water or enter them or go on boats but I can walk across the bridge with no issue. I can't take baths cause the physical sensation and the smells bring me back to that time. I have to shower instead which I was doing anyway but it sucked whenever the shower broke. But yeah, now it just feels like it didn't actually happen or it happened to someone else. Ik I described it in great detail but I don't remember much of experiencing it actually. I only remember telling people what happened which is why I can describe it at all. The suicide attempt occured on 10/11/2021. I still remember a lot of specifics like that which I find odd given my memory loss of the event. It is important to note that the night before I attempted, I listened to this song, I listened to my time by boen and I listened to sarcasm by get scared. I would frequently listen to songs and consume media related to suicide and romanticised it. Don't do what I did. Given my experience, I now have a newfound appreciation for life and aversion of danger which I should've had in the first place. Don't do what I did because you might come to regret it and not be able to go back. No horror in your life will compare to the traumatic experience of death. Just because it is inevitable, doesn't mean you have to seek to be taken so soon. It is NOT better to get it over and done with. Family and friends WILL miss you and their lives will be uprooted in the wake of your death. Even if you haven't been treated with love and care in life so far, many do not know how to show it and they will still be hurt. There is somebody who cares about you even if you don't think so. Rationalising that nobody will care about you when you come to pass is just a way to remove a lot of the guilt that stops you from taking such an extreme action. You know it isn't true even if you want it to be. Life might not be great. We might have bad days, bad months, even bad years. Hell, you might just have a bad life in general. But it is important to make do with what you have because it is ALL you have and you don't yet realise how important that is. No matter how despairing your living situatuon might be, humans have the ability to adapt and change. You have the ability to make your life and the lives of others better. You have the ability to escape your demons and fight for a better future. You should live to make your dreams a reality no matter how whimsical or daft they may seem. You have the ability to be a functioning and beneficial member of society. You deserve to be happy even if you're not quite there yet. Even if you need help and can't yet help others or yourself, you deserve to get better and to be loved by not only others but also yourself. Take life one step at a time. None of us have done this before and it's really, really hard so go easy on yourself. Remain hopeful.

[@kotariss]

Oh my god. I can’t even find the right words, but this is so sorrowful. Mental problems are dangerous and ptsd, scd attempts may affect on your whole life. Thank you for encouraging words at the end. I hope your doing well now 💕

[@blysamari]

Thank you for sharing your story, and encouraging people not to attempt suicide. Your story is heartbreaking and I hope you're okay now. Thank you, thank you for warning other people about this !

[@humbloom]

I am deeply sorry that you got to that point in life, to where you almost lost it that very day. This story is very important to read. Some of those who went through with it and succeeded, they could've had the very same thoughts as you but had no way of expressing it. I pray and pray that society becomes more understanding to those who are going through a rough time, cause we will never truly know their feelings and how it affects their daily life.

[@liliyou-we8rj]

I don't have the word's to say it but... You're story is so sorrowful, desponding, depressed, downcast, melancholy, cheerless, disconsolate, crest-fallen, chap-fallen, cast downsad, gloomy, dismal, doleful, mournful, lugubrious, grievous, woebegonesad, grievous, afflictive, calamitous, disastrous, dire, deplorable... I hope you're doing better now... You have all my best wishes! You're tough and strong! Thank you for the encouragement (even thought i'll not respect it), you're really nice...

[@liliyou-we8rj]

Live a long life of peace💖

[@blamemagnesiums]

liking the song is okay. disrespecting the people who this was meant for is not okay.

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

Rest in Peace Rorochan, Nakaikiaka, MinMin and Katelyn (ItzDolly) ..... They will always be together forever 😞🥀💐✝️🕊️

[@Mox_s5]

Who are Nakaikiaka and MinMin?

[@_suta_2317]

@@Mox_s5 they are two girls who jumped in front of a train i think and they are in the song

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

@@_suta_2317 .Exactly

[@LemonLime_484]

who is itzdolly?

[@GraceB.loverx]

@@LemonLime_484 She also commited suicide on a livestrem

[@gusta4143]

If you are here but you dont know, this song is a tribute to Rorochan_1999(and to others childs too)a 14yo japanese girl who died on a livestream Rest easy, Rorochan

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

Thanks for the review, I was also reminded of ItzDolly (Katelyn Nicole Davis.02/20/04 - 12/30/16) a 12-year-old American girl who made videos of her singing and talking like Roro did, but because of her severe depression, loneliness, her sexual abuse traumas caused by her stepfather, her financial situation and her relationship with "Luck", and her great responsibilities that did not correspond to her,made Roro's fatal decision, recorded his suicide live on his Facebook account ..... The worst happened to Kate in her short life as a child than to Rorochan, but if they had a worse time what depression felt and make that fatal decision to each one ...She did Roro to become a "Legend", and Kate for not being, according to her, a very positive person .....it is very sad.... R.I.P Katelyn and Rorochan 😞🥀💐✝️🇺🇸🇯🇵

[@fallynmoyah3007]

its not just a tribute to rorochan its for people suffering like her or people who committed suicide

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

@@fallynmoyah3007 .exactly

[@luuv.4_K]

Its not just for her, its for I think 5-7 Japanese girls who had similar experiences.

[@thatsenju7511]

It's ok, she die in 13 years old in 2014 and the camera falled to trash can, so cannot see when she gone

[@Chaos_Fantasmic]

it's ok to like the song as long as you know what it's about

[@_Ellie_ovo_]

I am really venting to this song :( rest in peace rorochan

[@TheKeeper3991]

💔....1999-2013....

[@Saotomeakemi]

Rest in piece roro! Fly high you deserve heaven not hell! 🕊️🕊️🕊️

[@purplrs2534]

this song hurts.

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

I know 😞

[@user-fi8ex5hj5l]

exactly 😥

[@strawarea]

yeah it does 🙁

[@kira6740]

This song makes me understand ruru chan's pain

[@justanormalartist7149]

Rest in piece, Rorochan_1999.

[@aiko_chan-hr8pc]

Rest in peace 🌸🍵🍡🧋✝️☮️💟

[@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc]

​@Zoomy1444They're saying rest in peace to Roro-Chan, one of the people the song is based on, so yes it was based on a real person.

[@DontMindAnythingFromThisAcc]

@Zoomy1444 You're welcome, glad I could help :)))

[@youngflyonthetrack777]

Ahora suena triste Descansa en paz Roro Chan

[@Yasminnnnnnnn.]

He is my inspiration.

[@sci9710]

Who?

[@ariannatroutlake6479]

@@sci9710 maybe they are talking about the person who made this song

[@sci9710]

@@ariannatroutlake6479 ok

[@swearitjustajuice63]

@@ariannatroutlake6479 The One, Who Sing?

[@Arainuki]

Noko?

[@vxmqii.]

rest in peace roro chan 🌸🕊💕✝️

[@PLANETEGGG]

Rest in peace for your time this is the song I sing every single day I also will sing it at the talent show memory of you

[@williamafton3707]

Fly high Roro-chan.

[@RayLeighBirchell-jx9qb]

Why does it sound more calming then the actual thing

[@fienbeldewyns9844]

Rest in peace Rorochan ♡ il always think abt you !♡

[@JKsjwsb]

This song reminds me of itzdolly, it makes me cry she didn't deserve it, rip Katelyn Nicole Davis 30.12.2016🕊️🌹🥀fly high little angel

[@Idkgrill_official672]

Rest In Peace roro-chan we love you roro-chan^^

[@V0807]

I hate the fact we breath the same air the people who told her to kill herself breath. May she rests in peace.

[@liliyou-we8rj]

In peace you mean, no ? 😅

[@ChisSweetHomeFanGirl]

No one did bro

[@Texas_Tan_2010]

*I love the ending of this song so fucking much*

[@freddyfazbear9161]

Rest in peace roro

[@Roxy-fe3eg]

Same 😞

[@TheKeeper3991]

Same...her dream of becoming a legend came true....​@@Roxy-fe3eg

[@oidk124]

Fly high roro ❤

[@milkcookies276]

I like the song but it also makes me wanna cry

[@Sophixommmh]

Rest in peace roro chan :(

[@carlossalado9670]

R.I.P Ruru 😢✝️💕

[@Mamszczerzedość]

Rest in peace Rorochan

[@GalaxMia]

Roro was want be legend. roro, you get it... why I didn't know about her in 2014...

[@uocroitoilathat5087]

Cause u not japanese

[@inefa]

@@uocroitoilathat5087 it doesn't matter whether they're japanese or not, quite a handful of people from other race/different countries knew about roro during those years

[@asheep7797]

@@uocroitoilathat5087 me who knows about you even though i am not Vietnamese: are you sure about that?

[@itz_solsticio6247]

I came to know about roro a few days ago 😞

[@1mandxchy]

she wasnt famous, only became a "legend" when she died. no reason to blame yourself for not helping

[@swearitjustajuice63]

If Roro somehow are in another Life Form and Still Alive to this Day. I hope Roro is Alright. (For Someone who gonna Say "Past Life, Doesnt Exist!": Well, I have my own Belief. So dont need to Say that. You can Say "Rest in Peace, Roro!". Whatever you want. I dont really Care. Cause, It' not Disrepectful❤).

[@uncletoasty3194]

Well, whatever happened to Rorochan, I hope she is doing well/okay

[@makayla198]

Oh.. poor girl..

[@stupidity_lolzzz]

Congratulations roro, you’re a legend now

[@evil_mcsd8055]

Fly high 🤝

[@MrGoodNapatTV]

R.i.p

[@toxicghxstii]

✨ underrated ✨

[@luuv.4_K]

Shut up.

[@1mandxchy]

._. dont make it an aesthetic please

[@rebel.shadow]

But sad :(

[@thisissofuckingcute2107]

RIP roro!!

[@chillipepperoni]

This is fireee 🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥🥵

[@rei-chan_4262]

I love singing this song to roro❤

[@zecrezy]

友達ができない帰り道 夕暮れは時々優しく 飛び交うデータの中で 街のBluetoothがあたしを壊した 中央線に飛びこんで 傍迷惑な奴だと言われて いつだってそこにいたんだ 少女はさっさと死んじゃった FBIに聞いたって分かんない 彼女のメッセージ いつだって叫んでたんだって チャネリングで夜空広げてく 野良猫とワルツを踊った 飛び交うデータの中で 街のBluetoothがあたしを壊した UFOに飛び乗って 反抗期じゃないのよママ聞いて いつだって1人でいたんだ 少女はさっさと死んじゃった FBIに聞いたって分かんない 彼女のメッセージ いつだって叫んでたんだって 受験勉強が終わったら ネコと話せる魔女さ 自殺配信してお墓でも立てよう この最低なきもち無くなる前に 中央線に飛びこんで 傍迷惑な奴だと言われて いつだってそこにいたんだ 少女はさっさと死んじゃった 屋根の上で猫たちと 頭が悪い人間見下して いつだって叫んでたんだって 受験勉強が終わったら ネコと話せる魔女さ 自殺配信してお墓でも立てよう この最低なきもち無くなる前に 中央線に飛びこんで 傍迷惑な奴だと言われて いつだってそこにいたんだ 少女はさっさと死んじゃった FBIに聞いたって分かんない 彼女のメッセージ いつだって叫んでたんだって

[@Arainuki]

It sounds more like Noko than the original version

[@playernotfound9489]

This hits harder than the ground

[@kuurumitokisaki]

I tried using Google to find the artist, but i didn't find anything, where did you find this drawing ?

[@kotariss]

I forgot but maybe it was screenshot from original video with effects

[@piqodepiqo9558]

Mmmh.

[@Theultim4teanomal1]

I don't want to be ignored.

[@kotariss]

@@Theultim4teanomal1 you are important 🩷

[@Theultim4teanomal1]

Thx 💕💕​@@kotariss

[@sumene_chu]

roro the most classy ❤️

[@scorching_cactuss]

rest in piece ruru. 🕊️❤️❤️

[@TheKeeper3991]

Rorochan_1999 rest and peace.... 💔🕊️4 January 1999 - 24 November 2013🕊️💔

[@Shuichi-Saihara-parody]

*BTW! I respect roro-chan at all times may she rest in peace…* me in the future:

[@BL00DSUCKERR]

FRR

[@Shuichi-Saihara-parody]

​@@BL00DSUCKERR yh like ima Kms too, what can ppl do bout it?