ry x - only (slowed & reverb) [with lyrics]

𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦
slowed down (& reverb) version of only by ry x.
twitter: @iustry
instagram: @lust.ry

[@lustry]

on soundcloud now

[@richardweir4141]

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[@jihadjihad5542]

I feel like my heart just flying and I’m just lonely even if I have so many people around me I just love that feeling when I put earphones and listen this song 💜 is just safe and beautiful feeling .

[@kingworlds]

thank❤️

[@shaneconnor5088]

instaBlaster

[@benscott-roper8952]

@@jihadjihad5542 p

[@Kay-qd9cx]

“I was only fallin’ in love...” That hit hard...

[@Kay-qd9cx]

@Lindsey XP thank you, kween ❤️

[@Kay-qd9cx]

@Carl Williams Thank you so much💕

[@jomamaonthebeat]

@Carl Williams Thank you so much for this God bless

[@abbycorin]

@Carl Williams then why me? Why does everything always go wrong in the end.

[@frankluvrr]

Yep.

[@dulcemora9690]

You know that feeling when you feel nothing but everything at the same time..

[@tokinzie]

i feel it all the time. you know that feeling of hating affection and love but craving it so bad.

[@tokinzie]

@Carl Williams Thank you so much. I will be honest and say i'm not very clear or thinking or being being Christian, but still, thank you.

[@tokinzie]

@Carl Williams Oh no thank you. I don't think that's something I'd be interested in.

[@kenny1253]

Me every time I think of him 🥲 (if ykyk)

[@paulakos341]

Me rn, lol

[@gozleriicinedusmuskrkbirku3278]

well, time to feel terrbile. Again.

[@begoniiii]

gözleri içine düşmüş kırık bir kukla. ne kadar hoş.

[@dianaerni8270]

@Carl Williams wow

[@cxtrii8571]

It's starting to become an every day thing 😒

[@rosamundewillisread9481]

yess omg

[@meaghan1684]

Wow I didn’t think I’d cry this early in the morning

[@onni333]

LITERALLY BRO

[@amoraburnett7416]

Carl Williams BRO OMG IM SO GLAD SOMEONE IS SHARING THE GOSPEL

[@r.q8799]

haha.. same.

[@juline]

YOURE SO PRETTY!

[@k.9194]

i can feel this in my soul

[@amarias2708]

sameee

[@elizesellis5814]

I don't even have one bro

[@rosamundewillisread9481]

same

[@rosiewillisread7850]

this song has become a perminant home for my soul frrr

[@v4mp6rekim]

i’m not crying i’m cosplaying as a waterfall.

[@orlaithslattery5063]

💔

[@_renatak]

omg how did you even think of that-

[@kainjewatt5456]

the creativity thou-

[@mrfalleninc7110]

You honestly made me stop crying and start laughing at that 🤣

[@jstn.9887]

@@mrfalleninc7110 Crying with laughter now. lol

[@mojo2908]

i catch feelings too quickly

[@amarias2708]

same

[@tadashiyamaguchi3960]

Same

[@lani8975]

I FELT THAT

[@jaidasantiago9076]

yup. i think she lost feelings for me, and i cant help but think its something i did.

[@expotik1069]

@@jaidasantiago9076 same

[@ItsFluorine]

tears: the river of the soul

[@naanda.r]

thank you for saying something real.

[@jibooty4602]

M83 - My tears are becoming a sea. That phrase reminded me of this song.

[@b1u6rry]

it gives me nostalgia from reading wattpad stories in the night, i wanna do it again

[@Annie-ls3re]

Do it

[@alythestar8439]

me rn

[@Victoria-dr1fq]

Do it

[@langahasegawa8734]

gurl same

[@prd.myrabangz]

@Carl Williams this may not be for me, but this helped thank you. 🥺💖

[@ashtonfox5929]

Coming from the cold Buried under heat Lay you on the floor Heavy like the force between us Cut me like a rose Turn me like a beast Hold me on the floor Heavy like the force between us I was a ghost Halted in flight Kneeling There of the heart God undertow Feeling I was only falling in love I was only falling in love I was only falling in love Coming from the cold Buried under heat Lay you on the floor Heavy like the force between us Cut me like a rose Turn me like a beast Hold you to the floor Heavy like the force between us I was a ghost Halted in flight Bleeding There of the heart God undertow Feeling I was only falling in love I was only falling in love I was only falling in love I was only falling in love I was only falling in love Coming from the cold Buried under heat Lay you on the floor I was only falling in love Cut me like a rose Turn me like a best Hold you to the floor I was only falling in love I was only falling in love I was only falling in love

[@kelli2411]

"call me by your name, and i'll call you by mine."

[@brionawinstead6648]

My favorite line

[@millygallagher2164]

I’ve never seen the film but those words remind me of when I was in Italy when I read it all the memories of the trip flash through

[@brionawinstead6648]

@@millygallagher2164 you should watch it. It was so nice watching them fall in love

[@yuki-bf7of]

@@millygallagher2164 u should watch the film its a work of ✨art✨

[@zoesimpsforskinnywhiteboys3125]

im gonna cry 😭 those movies wrecked me

[@inluvwithim.]

i hate this feeling. it goes away then randomly it’ll come back. i just want be old happy me again:(

[@Ceriyahluv.]

Yeah 😓

[@zaniya3573]

Melancholy The feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.

[@rosamundewillisread9481]

i forgotten a time when that was my resting state tbh

[@jibooty4602]

Saudade - A feeling of longing, melancholy, or nostalgia.

[@cynthiawrong7670]

lol im crying.

[@diannesegovia8059]

same lol.

[@mccraryhudgens4798]

lol. me. too.

[@hello-wy1pb]

me too

[@edits_by__hanna_637]

lol same.

[@Ceriyahluv.]

Me too

[@becho6871]

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- becho :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)

[@chxrryclovdz6381]

Tysm...❤️❤️

[@carlaa3656]

i love u so freaking much luv

[@caupinjoy6262]

thank you for this ❤️ really needed it

[@jomamaonthebeat]

Thank you so much becho

[@ilianalopez1563]

please please be my friend i need someone in my life like you !!

[@xilpeli]

Imagine yourself lying in bed, your head resting against a pillow softer than you can ever dream. You're crying, the tears like a comforting acid rolling down your cheeks. Thoughts running through your head about the ones who love you and the ones you love, the things you've gone through that no one should ever experience, and the things you want to do. You feel like ice, you're going to get stepped on, and pressure will be put on you until you break. But this song is in the background to remind you of the good things. You're a good thing. Even though I have no importance to you, merely a face behind a screen, I'm here. I'll be here for you forever. I'll hold you when you cry, then ill wipe the tears from your beautiful/handsome/ lovely face.

[@ey8588]

Thank you! ❤️

[@prettyangelic]

crying

[@babesbaby7744]

Subscribed

[@alisonruiz2011]

pls i love you for this

[@lily117j4]

@@plainolisa6387 ong

[@sara-rj1id]

im so tired of hiding my feelings ever single day "im fine" and then i come home and everything comes out i cry myself to sleep everday and nobody sees theres something wrong with me.

[@lavinia4061]

Hey.. it seems like that ur not okay. Do u want to talk?

[@sara-rj1id]

@@lavinia4061 hi.. i'd love to talk 🥺

[@sara-rj1id]

@hem hem oh right

[@lavinia4061]

@@sara-rj1id dm me on insta curlyavii :))

[@sara-rj1id]

@@lavinia4061 okie

[@amarias2708]

cant listen without crying :(

[@ivyOnWalls]

I didn't think this song could get sadder still here I am

[@ivyOnWalls]

@Carl Williams thank you so much for this amazing comment it warms my heart to receive something like that but I'm not constantly sad or depressed I just feel that way sometimes and I love this song it's fits my mood but still thank you so much

[@paulacardenas4558]

My best friend broke up with his boyfriend a few weeks ago and he was telling me about it, I asked him “how are you feeling” bc I’ve never experienced something like this before, he said he couldn’t express it with words so he showed me this song instead, we listened to it together and we just started crying. This version it’s just wow

[@k.lll_me]

@Carl Williams there is no god and if there is one why would i have to expierience all this huh?

[@georgiaevans5613]

@Carl Williams uhhh no.

[@paulacardenas4558]

@Carl Williams what if I’m gay lmao? Would god love me too🥵

[@preciousm4079]

@@paulacardenas4558 ya

[@sang-wooisbadbad1876]

@Carl Williams lmfao stop, you're sinning with using "your god" to white wash, and twist his words into something you want society to become. LGBTQ isn't a sin for anyone that thinks that. They twist the bibles words into something they're not, and God loves us all. He sent us down here to live and enjoy the world we've been granted, of course some things like drinking, smoking, burning the bible are dumb choices and is totally wrong but I recommend getting your hands on the original bible and not reading something filled with such lies. You go through pain because that's what life has in store, the storm has a rainbow/ pretty sky right after when all the sadness (clouds) move. God will not put you through things like this . I agree we do God , oh so wrong by sinning, but that doesn't mean he would put someone through hell because they, "rebel" without sins Jesus , (our lord and savior bless his soul,) would have died from nothing. So, stop spreading information like this, i see you only want to see people do good, but don't force your religion on someone. People are hurting in this comment section and you have the NERVE to say that it's their fault, their being put through this, and being treated badly, abused, r@ped, sexually assulted, or have depression, lost someone, comforting, etc. My email is open to anyone who needs someone to talk too :))

[@sophia7020]

“elio. elio, elio, elio, elio, elio, elio.”

[@gracealyssa28]

Oliver Oliver Oliver

[@Maria-lc7oi]

Oliver, i remember everything"

[@amystroker2839]

@mana , this triggered my memory to that one line from the book. it completely destroyed what was left of me

[@fathfez7991]

@@amystroker2839 _"it's Oliver."_

[@lillywilson2222]

oliver-

[@soon_hiarmy5990]

Ever just want to leave this reality? Because I always do.

[@stopthefilms604]

girl that’s why i’m shifting

[@soon_hiarmy5990]

@@stopthefilms604 me toooo

[@serenitym.4784]

@@soon_hiarmy5990 HAH SAME 😭😭 WHERE YALL GOING

[@soon_hiarmy5990]

@@serenitym.4784 HOGWARTS HUN

[@serenitym.4784]

@@soon_hiarmy5990 YESSSS SAME

[@asmrgongshow328]

reading the comments u can see eveybodys going through different things but we all going through it

[@spawn2225]

Yup

[@kendra337]

Someone once told me that love is the most beautiful thing. But in reality, love is painful.

[@margaridaramalho3630]

it can be the most beautiful thing, but at the same time it can bring the greatest pain

[@jibooty4602]

Its not one singular thing. Love is both a beautiful and painful thing to experience. And the quality of Love itself is entirely perceptive on the person. If you’ve had bad experiences and only continue to get those, to you, Love is a negative and painful thing. Vice versa.

[@lawtraf8008]

I wish I could feel love whether it's beautiful or painful. I feel like I'm incapable of catching feelings like I'm empty inside. There's 1 person who love me so much, who I know would do anything for me and is just waiting in the background for me to love them. I know there's no one in this world who will ever love me as much as that person but I just can't seem to be catching feelings and I hate myself for that. I don't think it's because that person is the wrong person, I just think it's because I'm empty inside, I always felt that way. I just don't think I can catch feeling for anybody and that hurts me, feeling like I will never feel what love is. That person I'm talking about has been waiting for years for me to reciprocate those feelings and never gave up even at this moment that I'm writing this comment. I really want to love that person like I know they deserve to be loved.

[@oliviasophe]

but those who love are brave. You are brave. Showing that you care is always beautiful

[@Yousefs_world]

I wish I could feel again. My last partner, two years ago, she made me feel everything. She made me feel love, lust, pain and comfort. She's married now, and I can't seem to get over her. I've dated a few girls after her, but none of them made me feel anything. I hope I can find a partner who can touch my soul, like this music does.

[@user-fg1qm7pp8e]

I hope you find someone who’ll make you feel everything again, stay strong ❤️

[@thelifeofdaisycrystal683]

As we both grew distant, I saw you grow into someone beautiful as I promised you that I would be watching from the sidelines. - unknown

[@ditevandijk]

i am so sad all the times, people don't notice how bad im doing. my friends think im "fine" but im doing terrible. i have anxiety. this is actually the first time i open myself up to social media, i hope people will understand that some others might be struggeling, and might want to talk about it. if you want to talk, just say it here, or maybe on insta or so. i hope we will get through this, we will fight together. stay strong xx -dite

[@Sarah-dl4sl]

You can't expect people to read your mind, the only way you're gonna get help is if you talk to someone, it's not because nobody cares that they're not showing concern, it's that people don't know how you feel unless you tell them.

[@kisak2226]

don’t lose hope stay strong ❤️

[@emilyreinoso3505]

I don’t know if things are going to work, and that actually scares me

[@irenedickinson6315]

Take a deep breath, go on, and take it slow bro, thats life, point.. By.. Point.. Im here for you, dont be sad, everyone has problems and u, yeah you, try not to think you are useless or something, try to smile, even if is only for yourself, just try. Come on bro, i give you all my love from here.

[@weronikastelmaszuk2885]

Is it just me or does the line “I was only falling in love” bring you back to the feeling you feel when as a kid you did something because they thought it was good and then only got yourself in trouble?

[@evits557]

Wow that's so accurate 🥺

[@feliciaisaidiot]

In the end everyone leaves... no one ever stays like they promised.

[@yasminferreiralima2429]

thats just so true

[@yourlocallesbian4884]

yep...

[@rimskumi8712]

i hate the true reality behind those words but really , its true. they all leave. i just wanna cry in his arms and tell him how much im in pain from him distancing like that but he now hates me cuz of his mom and family.

[@milanmijatovic5031]

that shit hit deep fr

[@abriana331ILy]

Well I’ve never heard this song before and the first sound of the first cord literally sent chills down my spine. Made me realize that we are all here for the same reason. The longing to be found and never lost. Feelings of everything and nothing at all. Literally in tears writing this. I love you all and I thank the universe for your existence!

[@libby.wx0513]

this was one of the first songs i listened to after my girlfriend broke up with me, this song is so heavy

[@abriana331ILy]

Damn

[@cozyhobbies_]

My bf of four years is breaking up with me . Hope you're doing ok 🙈 I'm balling my eyes out in bed listening to this

[@rhiluvsu7036]

2:25 is where the tiktok sound starts

[@cryfanta]

i love you more

[@samanthaa557]

thank you

[@jaidasantiago9076]

thank you. so much.

[@rhiluvsu7036]

@@jaidasantiago9076 i'm always here for you my love

[@biancamelo8224]

thank u, ilysm

[@livciancio7060]

I was already sad but then noticed that the picture on the video is the scene where his Dad is talking to Elio about Oliver after he left. This made me properly cry.

[@salmaamouu]

honestly same

[@peyton1180]

I'm so close to losing ngl

[@kloetenrotze-8687]

Stay strong

[@mia-rh3xp]

Hey it’s been 2 months, and trust me Ik the feeling but I think one day we’ll be ok I just need you to stay here and live your life, we have a lot to look forward too and Ik it fucking sucks Rn and you want it to end, but don’t, stay, live and do stupid shit with your friends, and just please live.

[@luvvvquinn]

You alright?

[@oyasuminavi]

if you need anything, my name on discord is either blank#8435 or s0ul#8837 both of them im active on and im here no matter what. God bless. stay and be safe please

[@leo-cu9dk]

please dont please please :(

[@redpunchjuice]

okay literally out of all the songs like ver, this song properly portrays feelings of numbness. but its a still, serene, and tranquil numbness. the type that makes you sleepy, but content. like a drug that makes you never want to leave its grasp.

[@deborahpirvu8691]

Get yourself a boyfriend who makes you say “i am beautiful”

[@tadashiyamaguchi3960]

I had a boyfriend he called me beautiful and perfect even though im not any of them :') he left me for his best friend.

[@eldaa.4879]

or a girlfriend :)

[@tadashiyamaguchi3960]

@@justvictoria3139 Thank you so much💟 it really means a lot

[@fathfez7991]

I would if only society won't kill me first.

[@Emi-hh9lx]

@@tadashiyamaguchi3960 he dosent deserve you!!! Hope your doing okay

[@gerda1413]

timmy is making me cry

[@deathbyme2333]

I tried to forget but you grew roots around my ribcage, and sprouted flowers just below my collarbones. All day I pluck their petals but I have not yet ascertained whether you love me or not - unknown

[@deathbyme2333]

@lavender kisses thank you i actually have 50 pages of poems

[@deathbyme2333]

At least ones i finally wrote on my my own

[@deathbyme2333]

@lavender kisses yes i have a pdf but i dont wanna be weird and ask for any socials of urs

[@deathbyme2333]

@lavender kisses rlly? ok

[@samiraabukar777]

@@deathbyme2333 I would love to see these poems as well !

[@oliviamailo5998]

Tbh depression isn’t something that people evoid, it’s an addiction

[@hollyegan2254]

Its like a drug...

[@oliviamailo5998]

@@hollyegan2254 mmmmm preach 😌✌🏼

[@roseburgess7317]

Agreed

[@dandandanwhat]

people say losing someone you love is difficult. no, finding the thing you're most passionate about in life is difficult. being your best self every day is difficult. but, knowing that the one person you love more than anything is out there, right now, living their life... knowing that they aren't thinking of you? knowing that is takes everything you have to get through the day without succumbing to the pain that they left while they're doing just fine? that's unbearable.

[@Syrkrose]

This sounds weird but I wanna live a life like this song

[@jaejaed9355]

doesn’t sound weird at all literally tho same. add my snap simpyjaejae7

[@Syrkrose]

@@jaejaed9355 alright it’s rainiixx

[@marnieknightley5119]

“I was only fallin’ in love” yeah you didn’t have to do me like that :(

[@-shmoovin-8857]

Literally this song is the only thing that’s HELPING me cry and honestly I fucking need it

[@supravietuitoriblog547]

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you.

[@juliasayshilol918]

remember when it was 2014-2018, we had no worries in the world, the sun came out almost everyday, we used to talk with friends and not worry about our phones, or social media, and when we had all the time in the world to do everything. and it all happened in what, a blink of an eye? i wanna go back. i really do.

[@jordanehmann6001]

it hurts so much knowing you can’t be with someone you love so much

[@juline]

Why did I read your comment? I’m gonna cry now….

[@avacarroll6397]

i can feel this song running through my lungs, it’s so horrifically beautiful

[@bigsimp5588]

This hits different 🥺

[@hannebogaert7219]

you are really saving my days with ur channel, I love the music so much

[@beverleehill3973]

You know its bad when you can’t cry anymore but you know you need to

[@kainjewatt5456]

I was busy writing a Wattpad book about my life and now I'm crying. Why does this have to bring up my core memories..

[@abi_rayne2337]

Idk why but this song kinda hits different when your crying over someone from a different reality

[@brittneyhernandez3993]

it hurts so bad when the possibility of you being able to see them gets smaller by the second

[@abi_rayne2337]

@@brittneyhernandez3993 yes it really does😔

[@user-br3cf5jo2s]

@@brittneyhernandez3993 how does it get smaller

[@jibooty4602]

@@user-br3cf5jo2s you realise the chances of you meeting them, being with them becomes impossible and less realistic over time.

[@reforest_71]

Lol

[@kinzaqaiser731]

This song is rippin my heart.

[@williamdavis5430]

i use your sad slowed down songs playlist to study... will there be a pt 3 soon? hehe

[@lustry]

i finished pt 3 already but youtube keeps blocking it, ill try to get it up soon :(

[@williamdavis5430]

@@lustry about to listen to it now. youre literally the best

[@astronomy171]

so during lockdown, i met this girl in december whilst playing minecraft, we used to talk and talk and talk every single day for 5 months straight, sharing emotions, feelings, moments etc. this lead to us becoming very close, and i can't lie, i was in love. time passed, feelings faded and we were lost without each other. yes, i was upset to the point where i was having numerous breakdowns weekly about it, questioning why and what went wrong, and blamed it on myself. i never ever got over it, it was my first true heartbreak. we just had our summer holidays over here in england, and i was on holiday for around 2 weeks. pretty much 2 days before packing to come home, i was called by her mum on her phone (tilly). her mum continued to tell me that she had commited suicide and that there was a note left, with sections about me, praising me for being there for her, spending time with her etc, this broke me. emotionally, mentally and physically. the week after that i spent in bed, sleeping and having no energy to do anything. this was a normal day to day basis. i'm still having breakdowns about this, and i've now had to start seeing the school therapist which isn't that bad. every second of my days are spent thinking about tilly, memories will fade in and out of my head and bring me down emotionally, in school and at home. i am so tender because of this that i literally cant talk to anyone that much now or i will just breakdown, my heart has been shattered and all i can do is accept it (which i haven't yet) im still on the phase of denial and anger, heading down the road of depression. this was my first true love, this is the first ever love that has striked me this hard and i was not expecting any of it, i will remain to treasure you tilly. you will always have a place in my heart, or most of it par say. i'm sorry i couldn't attend your funeral, i felt so out of place and wasn't stable enough to even leave my house. i love you tilly man, forever and always... your 4lifer, astro

[@_nostalgic9829]

Wow. I'm so sorry

[@lillyliverman768]

Me sitting here writing Wattpad stories listening to this.

[@adore.kiyah777]

What is what is called im looking for new stories

[@mae851]

they’re going to be so sad i just know it

[@maria-rs6tk]

Dont be shy drop your wattpad

[@lillyliverman768]

Okay everyone I just published my first 2 chapters on Wattpad it's called "My Best Friend" please don't be mean I haven't wrote in awhile so I'm a little rusty anyways have fun

[@adore.kiyah777]

@@lillyliverman768 i cant find it and it says nothing on your profile in wattpad 🙃

[@clariissav]

i’m so empty, but yet i feel so much.

[@barbosasara07]

same

[@iknowexactlywhoyouare8701]

Stop trying to be edgy and get some help

[@juline]

YOURE SO PRETTY!! And btw, keep your head up, love. x You’re so strong!! You’ve got this

[@michalfavorieten]

Same

[@henriteo]

Same...

[@notthe1471]

is tired when u feel like u are useless

[@lolfoockoff]

RY X is so underrated, I love all of his songs, and if you are here you should listen to them too..pls)

[@aliciaaudrey3608]

this is literally the epitemy of my feelings. i feel like i am screaming and no one is hearing me. i am in love with this boy, but he's in love with someone else. i feel like my world is crashing down on me. the literal only way i cope is reading and writing fanfics about my favorite fictional characters. imagining myself with someone who can't hurt me takes some of the pain away. when i listen to my sad songs ( obv including this one ) i feel everything and nothing at the same time. like i feel numb, but it still hurts. idk. my mom says im crazy and i have nothing to be sad about. lol.

[@Trinidadianlove]

How are you doing now, love? ❤️

[@brandy2168]

This the first time i actually listen to the words of this song and well I'm not disappointed.

[@aysegulavci.]

Another perfect song to suppress my loneliness. I just closed my eyes, I can't take the tears.

[@iiim7mdoz]

my brother died due to covid, he listen to this song every day... thank you for making my brother happy.

[@ediepitchford813]

this is beautiful

[@meep1490]

i love this video so much, ive listened to it almost every night before bed for the last 3 years, i lost the video about a year ago at this point. i thought it got taken down and every time i search for it i could never find it but i finally did again and i absolutely love it.

[@user-bz1lt7qs6b]

My heart shed tears everytime I listen to this song.

[@moo3926]

I love being alone but I hate the feeling of loneliness and even more, I hate to know that this feeling will be there for a very long time .

[@annedreyer7795]

Im alone too and it is okay and i promise one day that feeling will go away

[@nooneknows3279]

Books are my comfort My get away My life My happiness My love My forever.... But when I finish reading the books reality reminds me that ill never have what these people have in the books I fall in love with and that I'm not happy and I might never get a happy ever after that I'm lonely but then I'll listen to music and imagine what it would be like if I were in those books if I were her if I fell in love with a mafia leader or the guy I used to hate or the guy every fears so it would be just me and him but when I'm done listening to music i am reminded again... I lie to myself everyday I tell myself I'm happy and I put a smile on my face every day bc I'm afraid that if someone close to me asked me am I ok I won't be able to hold it In anymore

[@yurmomsie]

i’ve had the urge to cut again. this song helps me distract myself from that urge for some reason, probably bc i cry instead of inflicting it upon me :/

[@sang-wooisbadbad1876]

I love you, I am so proud of how far you've made it, darling. you got this. don't give up :)

[@etherealaphrodite2519]

It's gonna pass dude,I promise. You're so strong,don't you ever turn your light off♥️

[@anna-hf3cf]

i’m tired of saying i’m fine or i’m ok and expecting someone to ask me what’s wrong or to bother me so much that ik i won’t feel like a burden anymore so i can release all this pain hiding behind a shell of a teenager

[@supravietuitoriblog547]

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you.

[@charlottebrandis9792]

It hurts when you fall in love with the wrong person & you can't get over them, even thought everybody tells you that it's not worth it to cry over them.

[@margaridaramalho3630]

i feel you …

[@amanda.g4]

this gave me nostalgia and i’m here for it

[@Zelal_Tunc]

You know you are tired when you can't cry anymore and don't feel anything.

[@cecehartford4378]

i love you. it will take time to heal but you will get there. i’m so proud of u for being here. you’ve made it this far don’t give up now.

[@Zelal_Tunc]

@@cecehartford4378 Thank you. I don't hear that a lot. it really means a lot to me

[@yasminferreiralima2429]

thats exactly what is happening w me,i cried so much last nigth that today i cant barealy breath,it just hurt so so so much

[@lokittypawfenson2653]

y’know that feeling where everything hurts yet you cant feel anything? you want to cry so damn bad but it just doesn’t work. youre so desprate to feel something even if its just pain? i dont want to feel that way anymore, i dont wanna be anymore

[@SS-700]

"I was a ghost." Forgotten like the wind that rushed past my empty body. Falling, falling in love until it broke me. It was never me that you wanted, and now I pay the price for my stupidity

[@winter9556]

Words can't explain how this made me feel 🖤

[@khamiltate5059]

2:02 :(

[@sofisticated]

this photo of timmy in call me by your name fills my heart with sadness because i can feel it yk

[@Hef119]

This is a song you wished you had “that person” hold you to. That unrequited love finally rearing it’s head. Pure unadulterated intimacy finally engulfing you... 🥺

[@oliviagraceogden]

TW- their souls were brought together by a strong force, kept together by “love” but broken so easily by the one soul who decided the other wasn’t enough. the soul left behind wondered for days how they could miss something that was never found. but they found it, it was their love for the other soul, they felt broken by their departure and would never feel the same till the day they die, they felt abandoned. and soon the soul felt happy a couple of days later after maintaining a deep thought for hours each day. they felt like they got what they wanted for once in their life as they lay on the bathroom floor, lifeless.

[@idabolar2482]

This song is just a different type of sad

[@savannahducote5673]

god hes just so perfect. like i cant explain how much i like this kid. ive never felt this way before for anyone. were just friends tho. i like him more than that and he likes me as a friend.

[@AELITA緋]

elio.. elio elio elio elio..

[@sethholland8579]

*Breathing noises through the phone* Oliver...

[@salmaamouu]

:(

[@normalmariaaccount]

You guys should listen to more music this man makes, RY x makes such beautiful songs and music it’s insane❤❤

[@maya-sv1yn]

I listen to this at least once or more everyday

[@heejinscaprisun9234]

Every time I listen to this all those old emotions just come back and I feel like I‘m exploding but also so empty It kinda hurts remembering all those beautiful memories

[@frankiebarnes7560]

I can’t tell if I’m in love or just attached...

[@yasminferreiralima2429]

i am faking smiles for so long that i dont remember the last time i genuily smiled

[@kalissatougas5514]

“i can’t feel you..”..”we’ve said goodbye before..we’ll say hello again.”..”goodbye, darling.”..”boys..thank you for choosing me to be your mom.” “family is forever. we couldn’t leave each other even if we tried.” those lines hurt so much.

[@krissalyndahl6195]

i just want to be loved. i want someone to be proud of me. i want someone to hold me. i want someone to say it’s all gonna be okay. i want someone who won’t lie. i would horrible terrible things for someone to just ~love me~ y’know?

[@yasminferreiralima2429]

i want all taht too but w a especific person i really miss her

[@layla9294]

i miss how much he cared about me

[@mikelharik5796]

hey you! im actually on a zoom with you and youre sleeping so peacefully, im awake with my thoughts and i thought id come here and just say thank you, from the bottom of my heart! for everything, for all the smiles in the dark days or anything you did to help me get out of so many shitty holes. im so happy to have you and im infinitely sorry for what ive done to you, the times i hurt you and never noticed until it was too late, i hate that i did it and still gave you shit for caring i hate that i made you feel bad for being here and at some point reconsider this. ive grown to be better and i feel like i owe you this much to stop with the shitty things that any decent person can avoid, im trying to make peace with myself but its a far more complicated thing than you can understand. see the issue here is that i cant help myself, so in no way can you, but it helps when you stay because just then when youre close i feel that feeling, that feeling of inner peace and just a calm silent mind. i want to thank you, thank you for being rhe best thing to ever happen to me, thank you for helping me off the ledge so many times you still dont know about, thank you for changing this 100% pessimistic mind and giving me enough juice to sustain my brain from killing itself and just thank you for being the absolute savior to my life to which i say cheers, cheers to you reading this, in a website with an infinte amount of comments and videos. ill see you in the morning and i hope youd have a great night sleep, you beautiful princess and i love you with all my heart. yours truly, mika

[@robertmarten5047]

You know that feeling when your just sitting in your room late night not crying but just sad

[@nxghts-7149]

somewhere inside us. we’re all lost and broken in a way, and we’re looking for that 1 soul to fill the brokenness and lost inside us

[@yaritzyramirez2627]

IM HEARTBROKEN ASF LMAO

[@onni333]

SAME ASF LMAOOOOO

[@michelleestt_]

I don’t have words to explain what this song make me feel.

[@boostedc6zz]

Lately just been feeling the same every night sad sad and sad crying it starts so early too by 7 pm I’m in my dark room listening to this

[@izzel4162]

I’m proud of you I love you please take care of yourself baby💖

[@red6303]

who ever is reading this, i love you.

[@cadencemae1160]

i love you too

[@jomamaonthebeat]

I love you to