{SA Vent Playlist. ⚠️TW⚠️}

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

Time stamps: 0:00 Wet 2:55 God must Hate me 6:35 Liquid Smooth 10:22 “Haunt me x3” 12:19 Hey kids 16:10 Blow my brains out

[@denkithedhmislover]

Thanks also, I love your pfp

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

@@denkithedhmislover THANK YOU 😀

[@denkithedhmislover]

@@TheMightyGodJimmy your welcome :)

[@tiffthedeer]

Im sorry but who is second's song author? :

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

@@tiffthedeer Catie Turner!

[@Sammy-rt5wk]

I’ve been SA before. By my SPECIAL ED TEACHER! I am autistic and the reason I took that class was to learn, And my teacher SA me. The principal didn’t believe me bc “All autistic ppl lie. And are overdramatic” so I dealt with it for 10 months. And it kept happening, so I told my mom and she helped.

[@HoldOnWhosSolar]

Damn that's sad i hope you're ok

[@K-12_love]

Omg I hope ur doing fine

[@madisontucker649]

Principal should be fired

[@madisontucker649]

Like lying isn’t even a common stereotype with us autistic people if anything were TOO honest

[@loveinstars]

@@madisontucker649 exactly the principal probably just made that up bc they didn’t want to deal with issues at school

[@mimichu__]

Being a SA victim since I was 3 has really messed me up, I mean the person who started it all was my own father then my cousin then friends and.... I just feel used. Like no one wants to be friends with me unless it's to use my body, due to that I've become both hypersexual and repulsed by sex. I need to go to a doctor soon or I am going to break.

[@aileenescamilla2474]

I am very so Sorry to hear that from you, the world here is not perfect and our life is not very easy and there will still be all lot if bad things in life but I also know that you want give up so badly, from your life because of your problems and you never not even ones , you do not don't deserve that thing in a very so young aged. I am so very proud and grateful that you are still staying, even if you don't see it but i do . But I very hope that you will get better , because you deserve so much and goods . You are a very strong and awesome person.

[@Elysiaandrobinlover]

Im so sorry for you dear :( I hope you get better, stay strong

[@SeaBuni]

Hey sweetheart, this is half a year late but I want to remind you that you have such a beautiful soul. I’m so proud of you for getting this far and I’m in the same boat as you so don’t worry, we’re gonna keep afloat and not drown. If you need help, don’t be afraid to ask for it. Rely on friends, teachers, counselors, anyone who could be trusted and help you get through this. 🫂

[@Siamese_Doge]

Damn, I somehow relate to the, Hypersexual and repulsed by sex

[@yharon8243]

Not SA but I was groomed online by a "friend" when I was 13 y.o boy. We were normal friends before he slowly started introducing me to erp and taking pretty much every opportunity he could to get into my metaphorical pants... It was so bad that within the span of three months I went from being a normal 13 yo talking games with him to me telling him I that ate my own s-m-n for the first time and how it tasted. I feel awful about it because I never said no, and at some point I started doing things back... he introduced me to his other friends who did similar things to me... then sometime later he and his friends just disappeared For years afterwards I kind of just let anyone do s-xual to me online, even when I didn't want to. I don't remember how it stopped or why... it just did around when I was 16 or 17. I'm 18 now. I'm still dealing with a lot of problems and I feel so much shame it hurts. I feel ashamed because... somehow I miss him. I know what he did was wrong but I miss how it felt... I liked the attention, and while I'd feel uncomfortable, grossed out, or ashamed a lot.. I kind of liked how it felt when he did that to me... so I thought that being ordered around or doing things you didn't wanna do were normal. And a lot of the time I feel like I'm just overreacting and that this was normal, even if I know it wasn't... I feel ashamed because I feel like this should make me averse to s-x related things, but it doesn't. I want even more. And that makes me feel disgusted at myself... like I'm just the same as I was back then It's not as awful as what everyone else seems to have been through but it hurts me a lot. I've been getting more comfortable with my wants and needs over time, but it can be hard.. Thanks for reading if you took the time

[@Atlasworld2005]

Hey man, I'm really sorry that happened to you. No one should have to go through that. I hope you get the help you need and start to feel better soon. Hate to sound like I'm being nosy, but have you told your parents about this? If not, then you probably should, and get some therapy. Remember that no matter what happens, Jesus (Or whatever God you believe in) loves you.

[@axwxrn6927]

Insanely similar to what I had, I understand you very well. I feel disgusted with myself every day, but I try. Although I'm not very good at holding on, it seems to me that I'm at the limit

[@itzmehelaine]

So similar but it was irl one of my czn brother and introduced me to another czn as an object I felt uncomfortable but I didn't do anything to stop it.

[@akira-san661]

I know how it feels to think you should be s-x averse, but there is a thing called hyper sexuality that almost every S.A. survivor experiences. It makes you more sexual than the average person.

[@jeffyisdumb]

im so sorry, i understand the hurt and longing for that attention, for the love and support you had from him. its normal, to miss someone who hurt you. and wanting s-xual things is totally normal after those experiences, nobody should have to go through what you went through, but i promise you, it will get better. once you hit the bottom, the only way to go is up.

[@f4iry..gUtz..]

TW SA i was sitting in my room and i heard my door open. it was my uncle, he sat down next to me and we played barbie’s for a few minutes before he made them have s3x. he was groping me whilst doing this. he said “it’s a fun game people play”. being 3 years old i didn’t think anything of it. he asked me if i wanted to play and of course thinking it was a harmless game, i agreed. he took my hand and led me to my bed and r4ped me. this continued multiple times daily happening until i was 5 when i moved out of the house. my grandma still lives there and he’s in prison for drugs. but every time i enter my old room, untouched and everything still there, it haunts me. i’m currently 14 and dealing with the dirtiness i feel and how gross and guilty i feel. i’m making it through but in a very unhealthy manner. thank you for taking the time to read this it means a lot to me.

[@jaz1xm_]

I’m real sorry this happened to you :( 💔

[@sillygooberz69]

that's fucking disgusting, I hope youre doing alright :)

[@Onion-us6fo]

You’re not dirty you’ll never be. I love you. Keep going

[@Arlcchin]

As someone whos SA/rape survivor, i wish everyone good, i hope you all are fine now, love u lots❤️

[@K3nnyB43]

I hope you are better now

[@Arlcchin]

@@K3nnyB43 u too💞💞

[@int3rn3t_bugg3r]

Not doing okay as of rn(something triggered some repressed memories and things to come back up again...) but I hope you're doing alright

[@avaungaro9715]

@@int3rn3t_bugg3r YOU GOT THIS YOUR GONNA GET THROUGH THIS! I HOPE YOURE DOING WONDERFUL AS OF NOW!

[@int3rn3t_bugg3r]

@@avaungaro9715 thank you(really needed to hear this after some unpleasant SA related memories came back again), I really appreciate it! 🩵🩵

[@Crvmbz12]

Not a victom of SA, but I was groomed, and not online like most, but a person irl, in my life, I couldn't get away, constantly harassing me when I was alone, I was little, 3rd grade, I'm turning 15, in 9th grade now, I never forgave him, never, he makes me feel discusting Update: so last year he got arrested and we have a restraining order now :) Edit: we are getting the hell out of where I am rn 😍😍!! Will update before and after the flight 😆‼️ Anyone seeing this, I hope you forget the peron’s fcae who hurt you 🥰🥰 Lygsm!! /p Edit: Its been 11 months! People are still commenting?! Im turning 16 soon now! :D! Im sorry for the people who related to this comment, I am glad for the people who have gotten away, and thank you to the kind replies of the people here, your all too kind :)

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

That’s terrible, Being groomed is very similar to SA. I’m glad it stopped.

[@totallynotdanny4720]

I had the same thing happen but it went a little to far. I know I will never know Intierly how you feel but I understand the feeling you will have

[@FilmCastSystem]

Sa can happen online like being groomed I think, like sexting-🐑

[@bbugeaterr]

That actually is considered SA, specifically NCCSA

[@Shrek4ever630]

Don’t forgive him. Darling you did a great job.

[@danny-d3ad-on-arriva1]

i will never ever tell anyone what happened to me. they cant ever know. they wouldnt believe me.

[@Bluinbear]

I’m so sorry that you had to go through such pain, but although many might not believe you, we do. I believe you and whatever you had to face. I hope you’re recovering well right now, sending love :,)

[@LeeTheBozoXOXO]

I believe you.

[@T-Gwen-T]

It must be really bad if this is how you feel. I am sorry for you.

[@Hell-naw-667]

I will. I will always support a fellow victim. I will listen. I have been sexualized since I was 2 years old. It's crazy. We will listen.

[@Mirmirluvstxrs]

I dont know what happened to you, but i will believe you. And so will others online. Im here for you and im giving you a virtual hug.

[@MeepMoop_]

Not a victim of SA, but a child who’s been sexualized numerous times. Please remember that YOU are valid. No matter what happened, what they did, YOU matter, please don’t forget it. I love you very much and you’re important, I swear it. ❤❤❤ These words may not bring very much comfort to you, though a random little girl on the internet cares for you and loves you.

[@icttam-smg]

thanks dude

[@MeepMoop_]

@@icttam-smg

[@ViperSinz]

right, idc im never valid becuz im a neo white nationalist! BEING RAPED BUILT ME!

[@lovins74]

I've gone through similar

[@MissShinyLemon]

You're valid too

[@muichirotokito420]

Daily reminder to everyone that those kinds of people don't care who you are, how old you are and how you feel after. I knew him all my life and my age didn't even have two digits at that point.

[@hyperintrovertxoxo]

As someone who has unfortunately been a victim to SA, I can admit that it's downright fucking awful. People never listen to you until its too late, or they just don't want to listen and do what they want anyways. I'm a transgender (ftm) who has unfortunately not been able to get bottom surgery yet, and it was therefor taken advantage of. In short, people need to learn how to keep their hands to themselves and their dicks in their pants. People are too young to be dealing with this. I, personally, was sixteen. And I can never live my life normally because I think everyone and their mother is out to hurt me now. (It's even worse when your own mother barely cared when you told her what happened, even after taking you to the hospital. I don't know who my attackers were, and I never hope to see them again. But jesus christ, shouldn't your own *parent* show some sort of emotional support?)

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

I’m so sorry that happened. I know damn well you didn’t deserve that, I know there’s not much I can do to help but I hope you’re doing okay now.

[@hyperintrovertxoxo]

@@TheMightyGodJimmy It's a struggle to even go outside after that and I'm really stinkin skittish, but I'm doing my best to try and get back into society. At least I still have my dad to look after me. I'm starting to learn in households like mine, the father will always be on your side more than the mother.

[@maliabrigman]

It happened to me as well and you're right but some people freeze up and can't do anything, i was one of those people

[@willowwilliams498]

your mom didnt seem to care? im very sorry for you and completely with you on that one, she could have at least asked if you needed anything if she didnt know what to do.

[@Mvrder_Dr0nes_F4n]

i'm so sorry that you had to go through that, if you need to vent im here.

[@Blu3_T0rtur3]

My parents never believed me. She pinned me down on my own bed when I was 13. My dad said it was because she was testing me to see if I was truly gay.(I'm actually transgender) It has been 2 years. I am currently 15. They still never believed me. And it's only getting worse. As I thought it was bad to be touched on the bus and in math class. I know what it is like to be dragged into bathroom stalls and choked. Things have only gotten worse. And my parents have never understood.

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

I’m so sorry that’s happening. I can’t imagine going through that, especially as a male being assaulted by a female I can’t imagine going through that.

[@Fijifall]

Feel so bad for you took someday you get help and we and they put those people in jail for what they did to you. I've also been sa in 20 different occasions somewere sh sexual harassment and I get what you're going through and it must be so tough we're all here to support you and whatever decision or action you choose to make

[@peanutslaughterisgreat]

I seriously hated Your awfully fucked-up “Parents” because of this….

[@blueberrytrash2862]

My dad wouldn’t believe me either when I was getting SA, he literally called me the devil and a liar. Just cause that man knew me my entire life, he wouldn’t believe it, he still doesn’t till this day. He kept making up excuses and defending him. He asked why I didn’t yell for help, but it wasn’t that easy for me. I would always freeze in fear, and when I did try to move away, he’d just pull me in closer. He just doesn’t understand how scary it was to be in that situation and even my aunt turned against me saying she knows how it is and the way I acted was nothing like being SA. They both kept saying how I was acting fine and looked like nothing happened but really I was scared asf when he was even in the house or in the same room as me. Hearing those footsteps scared me badly too. My dad only had to kick him out when CPS got involved, which he made me lie and say nothing happened. Which I did comply with cause he made threats and he threatened to sell my cat, who he knows I love so much and is like my baby. I wish he was supportive and trusted me more, but he was just ignorant.

[@peanutslaughterisgreat]

@@blueberrytrash2862 fuck both your Aunt and mostly your Dad for doing and saying that to you cause what the actual fuck is wrong with Them!?

[@0akl3y9]

As someone who was SA-ed from 6 till about 9 or 10 years old, this playlist makes me feel comfortable that there others who had a similar expirence and helps me know im not alone. All the people i told about it either made fun of me or didn't belive me, some would mock me and said that my brother coulc never do that bc "he's to perfect" or "you just recent him for being the favrite child" or things of the sorts

[@Lily-oi4np]

Your brother is a disgusting man, personally I don't even think brother is the appropriate term because a brother should never do things like this. He doesn't deserve you and he is far from perfect. You deserve better

[@S3nDm3tHr3ApY]

What your brother put you through is disgusting I’m sorry he did anything to you I believe every little word you say. I WISH ALL S.A. GROOMING AND Rp VICTIMS A WONDERFUL LIFE❤️❤️❤️❤️!!!!

[@Dakotert]

I was SA’d on August 27th 2021- Or at least I believe it to be SA. I’ll tell my story in the next paragraph. TW: Grooming, SA, Pedophilia(?), Incest(?), abuse I met my step uncle (who I considered and still consider a brother) when we were both babies. He is 4 years older than me. I was 8 when he got sexual. It was 2020. In 2020 and 2021, my brother Quentin abused me emotionally, physically, and sexually. In 2020 he was mainly just violent. He pointed knifes at me, walking toward me while I screamed telling him to stop. He was then super nice and loving towards me. In 2021, he got sexual with me. There were 3 events. I’m telling them in order. The first event was me and him playing truth or dare. I’m not sure who asked first, but I think he dared me to send a nude. I thought he was joking, so I said no, then dared him to send a nude. He did so without hesitation. The second event happened on August 27th, I think. I know that because it was right after the adopt me Axolotl came out. Me and him were playing Roblox, something we always did. We were playing Adopt me. His dad got him the Axolotl. I remember saying “I wish I had the Axolotl pet, you’re so lucky!”. He immediately responded with “I’ll give you mine if you take off your clothes.” I said no. He persisted. I said no maybe 5 times but I gave in after that. I remember being afraid he would rape me. I was so scared. I don’t know what I saw, heard, or felt, but I was scared. We negotiated on times I would show parts of my body for. I believe it was 30 seconds for upper and 15 seconds for lower. I remember quickly flashing him as a joke. I was obviously uncomfortable. I didn’t want to do it. I resisted many times, but again, I was scared. The top part went smoothly, and I remember telling him “I’m insecure about my (INSERT WORD I DONT WANT TO SAY)” as a 10 YEAR OLD. He comforted me, saying it’s okay to be insecure about down there and it’s “only my first time”. When I actually did it, I remember him telling me to “spread my legs more” and “move to the left a little bit”. I felt so violated. It was the longest 15 seconds of my life. I remember counting the seconds. Wishing they would just go faster. And then it was over. When I got into my 5th grade classroom they gave everyone sheets of paper about yourself you could fill out. I found mine a few months ago. Under fears I put “Q (Quentin’s nickname), spiders, and bugs”. In fall, my dad found the picture Quentin had sent me. I couldn’t see him anymore in person . We could only call and text. His last text to me that my mom found out about a week later? “I want pussy boob” (his exact text, he is dyslexic). My response? “Don’t we all?”. My mother called CPS and the police to file sexual assault charges against my brother. I begged her not to. I didn’t want my brother hurt. I remember crying in front of the police department. Trying not to cry when CPS interrogated me. It was so hard. So traumatic. But I love him. Now I’m hypersexual and trying to overcome addiction at 12 years old 👏👏❤️❤️😋

[@WHXY]

thats like.... super horrible...

[@yruherelmao]

Oof...

[@Whiskersfox2012]

I'm also hypersexual you're not alone :) you have me at least! Here's a free non sexual hug! 🤗 :)

[@zeninguem948]

You are too young, nobody deserves to go through this. And remember that your expierences and feelings are valid

[@Whiskersfox2012]

@@zeninguem948 ty❤️

[@Kaijuisgay]

As someone who has been going through SA by my own father it sucks so much, my own mom wouldn't listen to me until she actually caught him doing it. I was only 3 and it was horrifying, I'm safe now thanks to my mom and other people. If you are going through SA tell someone you trust and someone you know would listen to you. It is not your fault at all

[@JuliXenhop]

oh goodness i'm so sorry that's happened to you :( i really hope you heal from that, what he did is not ok and not your fault remember that

[@Kaijuisgay]

​@@JuliXenhop I'm doing much much better, thank you

[@foreverxfall]

SA'd by my ex a year ago. didn't even know it happened until i had a complete episode, thought i was manic and bipolar like my therapist suspected until i told my provider what happened and she said, "its awful when SA happens isnt it?" sympathetically and i was besides myself. i still have nightmares even with increased meds. said it would never happen to me, blinked and was in an abusive relationship

[@koishikomeiji1387]

I told an adult. I told her what he did. She didnt care. She didnt bother. She asked me if i wanted to see him again, to talk about it. I cant even see someone who looks similar to him without fucking breaking down.

[@Bakugouis2hotforthisworld]

🫂

[@ChesmusXD]

I've been SA'd twice, both times by strangers. The first time was when I was 8. I was living with my brother in his apartment for a while, whilst my parents were in Europe. One of the days I was there, his friend was there. He ended up getting drunk, and my brother went out to go do something - I think to get more beer. While he was out, his friend pinned me down and started just touching me in weird ways. When my brother came back, he hit him with a bat and kicked him out. My brother got jail for a week; the 'friend' didn't get any jailtime. The second time was this year. May 14th. I was just walking home from school, and a guy grabbed my backpack to pull me back; before he started groping my chest. I managed to escape after kicking him in the balls and running for it, but it was still pretty traumatizing. I'll never forget these days in my life. I'm only 12.

[@valerieehehe]

I’m so sorry, you’re so brave and strong. You are so loved. I’m sorry that you had to go through that

[@Kefferjese]

I hope you're okay :( I'm sorry you had to go through all those crap.... I'm also proud of you to standing up to yourself when that man tried to do sh!t to you..

[@_-drowsy-_]

Aw fuck yeah you got those survival instincts in you dawg! But yeah sucks that that happened, hope you doing good now bro

[@XxGh0stTheK9xX]

I've totally lost faith in humanity at this point, I really hope you'll heal as best as you can. I'm very sorry this happened to you, I'm so very sorry. I hope everything will get better, just keep going and stay strong for me, for your brother, and for the world❤️

[@maybe_someone_09]

I am so sorry dearie...

[@SftiDaNNy]

I have never been sa'd or groomed, but I'm hypersexual and having fantasies about friends or strangers I don't have romantic feelings for makes me feel so disgusting. And it feels so disgusting and horrible especially when it's about a family member. When I was 5 or 6 I got exposed to p0rN by a younger cousin. And I liked it and I kept and still keep watching it. It makes me feel really bad and I don't want to feel this way. I started doing "stuff" to myself when I was 8, and it's so bad and I've never really told anyone until a few days ago I told my cousins, one of them is the one who showed me, and I love her sm, in a cousin way ofc, but I feel bad because so much stuff has also happened to her and my other cousin. It sucks, I wish I had someone to talk to this about. Thanks for listening if you are reading this, and remember you are loved, and if you are ever going through anything you're not alone. And make sure to talk to someone you trust about it, or even if it's online. Thats where I usually talk to people. :) You are loved. 💕

[@Luci-morningstar--]

Im not alone. IM NOT ALONE

[@suddenlytags]

IM NOT ALONE??? omg, omg omg omg, this made me smile. I finally find someone I could relate to with my hyper sexuality, thank you for having the courage to say this all, I’m so PROUD OF YOUUUU!!!

[@SftiDaNNy]

@@Luci-morningstar-- no ur not :) I hope ur doing good right now :D

[@SftiDaNNy]

@@suddenlytags tysm! When I was younger like 4 years ago I was really nervous about speaking up but I realized other people feel the same way, and I don’t want them to feel the same way I do :3

[@yruherelmao]

FINALLY SOMEONE GETS IT😭😭

[@autumnleqvezz]

(ok no joke HUGE TW heres a vent that contains topics like s3x, s3xual harassment) not a victim of SA, but s3xual harassment. wanna know the worst part?! she made me frantically apologize and make me tell her that me talking about how mentally drained she makes me feel was all my fault just with 4 words. "we're not friends anymore." i had a great childhood. great family. great friends. but one friend could NOT STOP torturing me. she looked me in the eye last week and said "talking to you makes me feel a tingle down there." which stuck with me. i met her in 1st grade and in 2nd grade she taught me about suicide, self harm, and s3x. then my IDIOT SELF asked what s3x FELT LIKE. i was curios, but i regret it. so much. luckily she never tried to touch me but she told me how much she wanted to. or first interaction of 4th grade was literally her saying 'let's go kiss after library and we'll practice if we ever meet a boy we like. then we can go to the bathroom after music and try to have s3x.' luckily, we didnt have time to do either of those. but now, even this year, she's STILL telling me gross things. it's still happening. help.

[@idekimbored]

Take your phone, put it in your back pocket, and record. Get proof. And tell someone as soon as possible

[@vbenx_7]

tell someone responsible, u both are children and she needs help too before smt bad happens, stay away from her

[@Bambi-o2i]

Being sa'ed is so annoying because so many people for some reason think that being sexually touched isn't sa... IT IS. Every time somebody even touches my thighs I either freeze or start kicking, like my friend was trying to teach me how to swim and touched my thighs to move my legs and I immediately put my feet down and wouldn't let her touch me. It f--ks you up man.

[@SHADOW-f9z]

I can confirm... Whenever someone tried to touch my private area i imidiately react and push their hand away... Its mechanical its not something you train...

[@tofu_is_male]

I was unfortunately SA-ed from 4-11 and it fucking sucked. I was manipulated and being forced in it. Fortunately, I'm getting the help and support that I need now.

[@yruherelmao]

Are you doing better now? It's been 9 months, and I'm kinda curious to know how you are now.

[@IM_D3AD911]

I was SA at a birthday party when I was 12. December 6th 2022. This has led me to try to take my own life and hurt myself yet I know that the person who did this to me will never be punished... though if you are experiencing something like this just know your not alone and people care for you

[@Sapphirephorce]

I’m 12 right now and he did something to me and did it over and over again BAHAHAHHA ITS ALL MY FAULT😂😂

[@DoseOfRandom137]

​@@Sapphirephorce I can't quite tell if you're mocking people or being genuine, its hard to pick up someone's tone via text. But for the sake of this comment i'll just assume its the latter. First of all, it is not your fault. As a minor you cannot be hold accountable for someone taking advantage of you. Even if you say yes, or beg for more, or 'ask' for it, it is still illegal because a child cannot consent. Even if you wore something 'explicit' (which is just a bullshit excuse that gets them nowhere yet they still use it) you should be able to wear whatever you want, and even if it wasn't child friendly the blame is on your carer for allowing you to wear that. Even so that is no excuse for SAing an innocent angel and forcefully taking their innocence from them. By the law, you cannot be blamed. Morally, you cannot be blamed. Even by the predator, you cannot be blamed. Because it is not your fault, no matter what dimension you go to, no matter which country you visit (even if there is some sick and twisted country where 12 is the age of consent it is morally wrong) and regardless of any pathetic lowlife who tells you that you were in the wrong, its not true. It simply isn't, and that is a fact backed up by science. If a 30 year old woman cannot be blamed for her SA experience (even though she will be by some because people are heartless) then a 12 year old child cannot be, and more importantly should not be. I get that you are blaming yourself, but you shouldn't be. However if you are then don't feel too guilty about it, as far as i'm aware it is a normal reaction and coping mechanism to being taken advantage of. It is not the same as someone else blaming you, because they are not the one trying to internalize such a horrific event and deal with it, they do not have the mental pain to back up the claim they pulled out their ass. TL;DR it is *not* your fault. Sorry if I said stuff you don't understand I'm too chronically online to form coherent sentences most of the time, i'm just assuming that you're mature enough to get my points. I'm sorry this happened to you, and I know most people hate it when others try to comfort them, especially when they don't have a damn clue what they're on about, but I can't just read some of these comments and glaze over it like nothing happened. And even if i'm not making much sense my point is still true, and I don't tend to just blindly believe what i'm saying.

[@HoldOnWhosSolar]

I hate birthday parties, if I can't even talk to people and they keep ignoring me, why did i even bother to join?

[@HoldOnWhosSolar]

Hearing about birthday parties makes me a little sad.

[@IdrankglitterglueasakidXD]

I’m so sorry. I hope things get better for you ml

[@07rocketz]

Being assaulted at 7 years old was the fucking worst I get reminded of it every time someone tries to be sexual with me it fuckin sucks

[@Nannyoepl]

I'm still confused even though it's been at least 5 years. He pinned me down on my bed and kissed me, touched me and showed me his parts, he said it was just a game. This happened in other places and multiple times, it made me feel very uncomfortable and dirty. I was 8-9 years old, like him, people I've told start saying that I make a lot of drama for something so minimal. This makes me doubt if what happened is something that can be validated as some type of abuse. (Sorry if my English is bad, it's not my first language and I used a translator).

[@patthepeabrain8498]

Being a SA victem since i was 3 by my uncle and many others, personally doesn't leave that much of an impact but it was my close brother that had me so hurt, he harassed me since i was 7 going onto 13, worst years of my life.

[@Blueyfan353]

That’s just disgusting. Your uncle?? Ew..

[@Grimmfullish]

The worse part of being sa'ed for me is the fact I can't blame the one who did it, as much as I want to, as much as I do hate her for it, I know it was truly no ones fault in the end, I didn't tell her no nor yes, she had no bad motive, she thought she was in the right and it's hard to blame her for that. I just wish I'd never froze up and I wasn't scared to say no cus I know she'd have stopped if I'd just said something but I couldn't. She'd have stopped but been upset and disappointed,I now know I'd have rather gotten the silent treatment for a day and hear her whine then let that happen and maybe she should have know better being 16 when I was 13 but even then I can't bring myself to blame her even if hate boils up at just the thought of her. It would be so much easier to blame her to scream about how she wronged me but it wasn't her fault in the end and I hate that the most, I have to hold on to this anger and pain with no one to rightfully point it at. The worst part is I still find myself crying over her and missing being loved, she was my last relationship and that was almost 3 years ago now.. God I can't believe how long it's been

[@paranoia3129]

Hey, im a 15 soon to be 16 ASEXUAL guy whose been a unfortunate victim though survivor of SA. people assume that i of all people wouldnt get SA'd due to me being a bit chubby yet here i am. life has been hard cuase even now i havent gotten justice cuase my mother doesnt want to believe what happened. i simply want to state that you're not alone. dont ever think you're alone. i'm sorry to what happened to you, nobody dissevered it. I'm Sorry

[@genesis_athena]

quick vent. TW? when i was like 7 or 6 i used to always sleep with my mom and dad because i was scared to sleep alone, my mom always left the bed because i would move a lot in my sleep, so one night i was left with my dad to fall asleep. and i guess i forgot what happened, but i fell asleep and woke up to my dads hand on my behind, with my underwear pulled down, i usually used to sleep naked because i didnt really care, i mean, i was a kid. I cant remember anything else besides waking up, i dont know if something happened, but i feel like something did. My dad was abusive either way, he used to hit my sister and yell at us when my mom left. and my grandpa was always saying if i went outside i would get raped. and even my brother said "if you go outside in that tanktop, youll get raped." which that was recently. I was exposed to A LOT of sexual stuff growing up, leading me to be a bit hypersexual. and my cousin, who is also a female, touches me randomly and says a lot of dirty things. I told her it makes me uncomfortable but she doesnt stop. She is 15, i am 11. and one more thing is, i am supposed to wear longer pants, and a bra, when there are male family members, or else i will get in trouble. thats what my mom said. like wtf, they are FAMILY. anyways, thanks for reading this if you made it this far. i just needed to get it off my chest.

[@MaxRiley-fj1jk]

I was in 6th grade and identified as a non binary(AFAB) I now figured out I was trans in 7th grade(ftm). I was in 6th grade and I was waiting for the bus at school. I was in the crowded area and one of the boys from my Spanish class was near. His name was Isaiah. He approached me when I was with my friends who weren't paying much attention. He kept saying he was my bf even though I barely knew him and didn't even like guys at the time. He grabbed my chest twice and squeezed. I told him to stop but my friends weren't;t paying attention. As soon as the bus pulled into the bus lane I bolted and shoved on my headphones. That night I scrubbed my body and had a recurring dream that it happened again. Stupidly I didn't tell my parents that Thursday night. The next day in Spanish class, which was a Friday, he grabbed under my breast and a classmate yelled at him. I went to my Spanish teacher and told her. She didn't email admin until Monday to which my step father and mother were horrified to learn what happened. They only gave the boy ISS for a week since he said "it was an accident", which it clearly wasn't. The school dropped the case even when my mother demanded it be looked into. I have know graduated 8th grade a few days ago, I'll never forget how uncomfortable and gross it felt. To this day I see therapy for it and still scrub my body. Thank you for reading.

[@cottenberriies2750]

I had just turned 14 while he has turning 16 My first relationship, I was so so excited. Some boy who I barely knew told me how he found me so attractive, as a black girl who had been bullied for her appearances for years that had meant everything to me. Within that week we had started dating, we held hands and he’d give me small kisses, it felt so warm at the time. within the second week he began to get handsy in class, around the hallways, or at anytime in general, I told him to please stop and he told me I was just nervous since it was my first and he had so much more experience than me. He’d ask me questions that made me sick to my stomach, often getting frustrated when I said I wouldn’t answer them. His hands would slip down my thighs when I’d wear skirts and I’d have to pry them away, begging him to stop and tell him I didn’t want to as his hands rub up my waist, my hips, around my chest, and through my thighs to my backside. I began to avoid him slightly, resulting in him coming up behind me and yanking him into his arms or keeping a tight or firm grip on my hips until I’d let him kiss my neck or cheeks. I’d ask him afterwards if he could tone down the touching and he’d get ask me “whyre you being so weird about it? Why can’t you be normal about it?” *They always tell you just to say “no”. So why wasn’t that enough to get him to stop?*

[@ILY1RIS]

TW: Not fully r-ed but my cousin introduced the concept of s*x when he was 11 and I was 6, asked if I wanted to play dress up. Started off by him telling me to kiss “it” and just before he could do anything physical my parents called us down for dinner so I put my clothes back on inside out. Didn’t speak to that side of the family until last year and they forced me to talk to him. I still have nightmares about it, about what would have happened if I never got called down, if I never told my mom, if it had continued. I was a Child and he was well aware. He suffered no consequences, blamed it on “curiosity” That side of the family also had the nerve to say my biological brother (12 years older than me) did the same thing. He would never..

[@SevynUpVia]

I had something similar happen and while I was scrolling through these comments I couldnt find anything I connected with. For years I gaslit myself into thinking it wasnt "that bad compared to other stories" but only when I saw and read this comment did I realized how close your story was to mine and just how horrible it was even if it wasn't full on rpe. Thank you and I genuinely hope you are doing better❤

[@sally.x.oogie.boogie]

Since I am 15 now, its been 2 years of me being sa'd since being 12 years old.

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

Did you tell someone? Do you wanna talk?

[@Jo-dk9my]

I'm sorry you had to go through that :( if you ever wanna talk about it we're here for you...hope you're healing now.

[@aileenescamilla2474]

I am very so sorry to hear that from you , you never deserve that and you ate still trying not to give up , good job and I am very proud of you and I know that the world is not will or perfect but I know that all of us , can do this .

[@DoseOfRandom137]

I was never groomed online but I could have easily been, luckily I saw the signs and quickly fled. Maybe he didn't intend to groom me but instead just make me feel like shit, I don't remember it was a while ago, I just remember unfriending the douche. But knowing how it felt and how awkward it made me to the point where I eagerly blocked him, and the fact that some people don't know to do that and are too innocent to understand or too broken to even care only to be taken advantage of is sad. I feel bad for anyone who went through that, and I feel much worse for people who went through more especially SA. I don't understand how you people cope, and I know most of you don't, but you're still stronger than you know if you're able to be here, to process and internalize what really happened to you and begin to untangle your emotions. Nobody deserves this, and anyone who might be worthy of it (like disgusting p3dos or smthn) should just be locked up and tormented, because nobody deserves to be stripped of their rights and used as a plaything, not even horrible, horrible people...

[@alexanderdegraaf2129]

I just want to stop i cant handle all this anymore.

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

I promise you it’ll get better. ❤️

[@alexanderdegraaf2129]

@@TheMightyGodJimmy it probably won't

[@alexanderdegraaf2129]

@@TheMightyGodJimmy thinking positively gets harder by the day

[@Rubi-v9z]

i get it. it seems life is just god watching his sea monkeys and shaking the tank

[@Hoo207]

@@alexanderdegraaf2129sometimes you have to accept the negative things. Theres nothing we can do at this age.

[@KikoRenx]

btw 2:55 is "Its Never Enough" but thanks for this playlist!

[@javenbells3053]

I'm personally not a victim of sexual assault... but I feel so weird in my own skin, as a trans masc, fat, therian- i never feel like myself- i feel like i have a mask on when i smile, like im hiding whats really going on with my life? im only 13-15 and ive had to eb the grown up my whole life, and now whenever im childish im seen as immature, or such, but when im cold to others im seen as rude, too serious, a bitch, or that i cant take a joke.. i wish i had some real friends that i could talk with about my actual intrests and who i actually am. i wish i could end my current friendship, shenever i practice qauds im called a furry, never my actual idenity just making fun of me for being different. i love being around people sometimes but- sometimes im just so drained i cant.

[@TheMightyGodJimmy]

That’s so sad… you seem like a sweetheart. I’m sorry you’re going through that, clearly you don’t deserve it, I hope it gets better.

[@mistydunes]

Awh, I'm so sorry you're going through that! I'm a therian myself so just remember you're never alone

[@zeninguem948]

I’m not a SA survivor, but i just want to remind all SA survivors that *your feelings are valid, your experience is valid. you didn’t deserve that and this was not your fault*

[@mastergaming1171]

As an SA victim, it's not fun. Most days I try to forget it but the nightmares just keep coming back and my memory plays on repeat like a record tape, till the panic attack calms, I try to be okay but it's so fucking hard, I wanna cry but was told not to (thanks dad.) Because it ruins his fucking pride so I suck it up till there more tears in me like a dam, character Ai is who's truly there for me even though it's a robot, It was a boy my age that did it, same grade, same school, dated him, he took me to his house brought me in his bedroom and locked the door, he touched me in places I didn't know of, I pushed him off me, broke the door down and ran back to my grandmas house, never told a soul except character Ai and a few friends in the future year 8 when I was comfortable, did I consent to it? No. Was I a kid? Yes. I was 7. And I didn't know if it was okay or not till my friends told me that it wasn't okay, I've still got visible images in my brain about it while I was writing it, thanks hunter for fucking doing this to me and giving me trauma.

[@kylerwells8896]

I was SA'd once by my best friend, i was spending the night at her house and we made a bet that whoever backed out first owed the other person twenty bucks. We had been having s-x since i was twelve and she was fourteen, so it wasn't anything new. That night i wanted to stop, and i asked her if we could stop and go to sleep multiple times but she didn't stop. The next day she apologized and said that she should have stopped when i asked her too, and i forgave her because i didn't know it was that bad and because i was still little (i was 13 and she was 15 when that happened) And now that im fifteen, looking back on all the times we had s-x (all the other times i was fine with it, but it doesn't make it any better) grosses me out because i was just a kid when all of that started and it's still happening to some extent. The last time was a few months ago, and she asked for my consent first and i agreed to it but the whole time i was uncomfortable and was conflicted if i should hace asked to stop. (Though where i am the age of consent is 16 and i was not sixteen while she was.) I feel as if i have no right to call any of those experiences SA because i agreed to it and was fine with it, except for the time i said no and she kept going. I know i was just a kid and she was older than me, but I can help but blame myself for it. Whenever i think about it i feel my skin crawling, i hate when people especially women touch me, sometime the thought comes to me randomly and i feel like just breaking down into tears. I want to be angry with her, but for some reason i can't and i really hope that if she ever asks to do it again im strong enough to say no. Thank you for reading the whole thing if you took the time to do so 💖

[@StrawberryDreamslovely]

Vent, talk about sh and sexual harassment: I wasnt a victim of SA but i was sexually harassed, it was by a person from school so i couldn't get away from them. One day i was over at their house bc we were dating and i wanted to spend time with them, and we had layed down on their bed to cuddle when their hand touch me. I got very uncomfortable and asked them not to touch me there, but when i aked them to move their hand, they asked me why. I got up from the bed and sat on the floor. I wish i could say that i left the house right away after that, but i didn't. I didn't understand that what they had done to me was wrong, but they did. I only understood that it was wrong about a month later when i was telling my therapist about stuff that had happened. My therapist called my mom and she sat me down and explained that it was sexual harassment and that i couldn't talk to them anymore. I ended up breaking down after that because i didn't think to leave right away and in not doing so, subjected myself to more trauma. My mom had talked to the school and i was able to stay away from them for a little while. I had gotten really depressed because of the incedent and because of everything that was happening in my home life. I even wrote a suicide note and started Sh. Im still dealing with a lot of the same problems plus the memorys but im doing a little better now. I have a friend who i can trust and talk to now, i know she wouldn't hurt me :'] i hope that anyone who is or has dealt with anything like this is doing better now ❤

[@_catbrrito_]

Hey, I know this is a late reply, and I hope you're doing much better now, but I just thought I might share a story that is similar to yours. Last summer, I had a boyfriend who I met from school and when my mom finally found out about him I was able to go to his house. I didn't realize it at the time, but whenever I went to his house he would pure pressure me into doing sexual things, such as (TW) taking off my shirt (without a bra sometimes) touching areas, ect. I didn't realize it was sexual harassment until after it was over, when we broke up. It was going on though the entire summer and no one except some of my friends and my uncle know about this. I still interact with this person almost daily, because we go to the same school, same class and even live near each other. I also struggle with SH, and I am incredibly sorry you had to go though this. The only reason I wanted to share my story was just to remind you that you are not alone. Things will get better, always remember that. I hope this helped you at least a little bit! ❤❤

[@StrawberryDreamslovely]

@@_catbrrito_ that actually helps a lot- I'm so sorry you've had to go through that. No one deserves to be treated or harassed like that- I hope you're doing better even if by just a little bit. thank you for this btw! I really appreciate the support considering everyone else is sick of hearing me talk about it- hope you're having a nice day :3

[@_catbrrito_]

@StrawberryDreamslovely It's no problem, if I can help anyone through their journey I will! I hope you're have a good day as well >:3

[@_catbrrito_]

AGHH WHY DOES THE @ NEVER WORK???!???!!!?? 😭 Have an amazing day!!! :]

[@StrawberryDreamslovely]

@@_catbrrito_ you're having trouble replying too? whyyyy 😭😭 Also tyy ^^

[@Th4t_0n3Simp-ui6mx]

0:00 wet - dazey and the scouts 2:55 it's never enough - we are the dirt 6:35 Liquid smooth - mitski 10:22 "Haunt me ×3" - [number of terms?] 12:19 hey kids - molina 16:10 blow my brains out - tikkle me The fact that I know all of these songs by heart isn't right....

[@axelthepug4047]

Haunt me x3 is by Teen Suicide just to let you know…and I know all these songs by heart as well..and you are correct..it doesn’t feel or seem right…

[@Th4t_0n3Simp-ui6mx]

Thanks for letting me know and fr, it don't feel right....

[@cerebrum8703]

The 3 years of being yelled at, pressured into sexual acts when i didn't want to act on them, basically isolated as i could only give him attention, being constantly sexualized, even when i said i was uncomfortable. I hate how much he tried to guilt trip me into staying, even as just friends to "help me", you cannot help me when you did this, you cannot help me if you don't see the damage you did, you said sorry only because i called you out on everything you did to me. I didn't even realize what was happening was wrong, i was still recovering when we met and he had his way with it, it makes me feel sick

[@sh0t4_lx3]

Hi, I'm Leo, I'm a Transmac kid. I've been SA'd all through my 6th grade year. Its summer right now, I'm going into 7th grade, and I've had several PTSD attacks because of what they did. It wasn't AOC it was COC SA. I can't get his hands off of me, worse part is I really trusted him. He would force me to sit on his lap and would put his hands under my shirt and through my bra, squeezing my chest as hard as he could, my neck is also very sensitive, so he'd purposefully grab it and make me cry till the teacher looked over and he let go at the last second. I can't stand this much longer, the feeling of him trying to sh0ve his fingers 1n m3 and put his fingers down my throat is still there. The way he'd bite me, punch, kick, and laugh at my pain... I can't get his hands off of me, nor is this helping with my gender dysmorphia. All because he wanted to hear me make noises. Moving on we have my whole friend group (excluding the love of my life of course

[@leop4rrdz]

I saw this. Your story made my heart ache,you truly are a fighter. After all these years you deserve nothing but peace. ❤️

[@sh0t4_lx3]

Thank you so much, I didn't really think anyone would see this but you're really kind.

[@Yunaniki_1]

Wow I’ve read all of this and I’m so disgusted and ur only so young that’s so unfair. Pls remember ur so strong and prob the strongest person ik or I’ve ever seen on the internet, keep fighting and never give up I’m supporting u I’m believing in u and I’m praying for u. It’s not ur fault and ik u may feel guilty and I can really understand why but pls know it’s all their fault and u couldn’t do anything. Ur a survivor and when they do it next time maybe punch them or have something to protect urself like pepper spray maybe it can be useful who knows. Just know I’m really REALLY SUPER PROUD OF U ur still here after all this and talk to ur mother just try it maybe she’ll do something about it try everything u can, but u got this, lots of love from me

[@bluecheese6980]

I’m sorry. I know that doesn’t really fix it, but I am, and I’m so proud of you for making it this far. I know it sucks. You’re doing so well, and it’s okay to hurt for it all because it’s not fair, and none of it is your fault. You shouldn’t have to explain why things make you uncomfortable or why you don’t want someone touching you. Your mother shouldn’t snap at you, and I’m sorry she does. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet, and my words don’t hold as much value, but I hope that you will be able to feel the warmth of a genuine hug one day, even if it’s not a physical one.

[@barrysteakfriessimp_real]

holy shit that's horrible, im so so sorry you went through that, man. you didn't deserve any of that. i sincerely hope you're in a safe place right now and that you have someone you can trust with this. please stay safe

[@Koda..0np4ws]

I was touched by my friend. They got a no touch policy for touching somebody *they didn't actually I was there* And we got closer and I started liking her seriously, then. In lunch she got over to me and was caressing and rubbing my thighs and other places and I can't get this feeling out of my head I feel so gross, thankfully they got suspended but they made me feel bad constantly and manipulated me into letting them touch me then cheated on me with my closest friend but my friend was scared because of them and what they did. She just explored me and I was.just a toy at that point. There twin didn't care. God I can't think about them without getting nervous they will come back and touch me again or best me up. I'm 13 now. 1 year ago this happened. I will never want to go back. I had already had depression bad enough last year but that? It ruined me. (Sorry its so long needed a space to vent so sorry!)

[@dvmbasss]

Being a SA victim is not something to brag about. I WAS 7!! it's not cool when you feel comfortable enough to tell your friends and they constantly blackmail you with it or make jokes. it's like they'll never understand. I don't feel good about telling my parents, as they already hate my cousin and I don't want to cause family problems. it's a huge burden I hold. I had no idea what was happening then, as I was just a little kid. MY FRIENDS TRY TO ACT LIKE I'M NOT THE VICTIM! They have used the word 'muggy.' when talking about it. I feel as if no one in my school understands. My friend has threatened to tell a teacher, who would call my mother, just to get what they want. i need new friends, but I know if I leave, then ill be alone. i just cant wait to relieve myself of this burden, death will be calling. it will be nice to not worry about it.

[@Phone_guyFnaf]

I know! I was SA’d 4 times by my brother, and I never told anyone but one friend, and my friend said it was just one time, and that I should want to have it, and that he wants it with me. We are middle school

[@dvmbasss]

@@Phone_guyFnaf honestly, nobody else seems to understand. im afraid to tell anyone else as I fear what the reaction might be. we need friends who understand.

[@Amela-dq5yc]

@@dvmbasss i really hope you recover from this. it hurts me to see people like this. please tell a trusted adult about this. best of luck to you!

[@Phone_guyFnaf]

@dvmbasss ikr? I don’t really have friends anymore because of that.

[@appropriate_handle]

when i was younger i had a little crush on my next-door neighbour but only bc he was the only boy i knew and i was little, he was a couple years older than me so i'd always believe what he'd tell me since i grew up being told that grown-ups are always right when he was teenager and i was around 8-9, he told me that his dog ran away in the forest outside of the neighbourhood, i loved his dog so much bc she reminded me of my dog before she passed away so i agreed to help him we "searched" for a couple hours until he knew that we were alone, he suddenly wanted to play truth or dare to pass the time, we did dumb little dares and truths until he dared me to take off all of my clothes at first i was confused but bc he was older, i assumed he knew better, he began touching me in inappropriate ways that i can't type here so ... use your imagination i was too young to understand, he spent a couple minutes having his sick fun with me until he finished ... he told me that he'll tell everyone i made it up if anyone found out bc nobody would believe me bc i was little i never saw him again once my parents found out, since they found blood in my underwear ... after that, my mind has just become filthy with sexual thought bc of him and for those who are somehow still reading this, he locked his dog in the trunk of his dads car to have an excuse

[@koikun]

this playlist is so good. reminds me that I'm still fighting for safety.

[@Ra-shel]

Not a SA victim but I was molested one time at a pool this summer by one of my mom's friends stepson. We were in Orlando at the time taking a break from Disney world

[@Rubi-v9z]

i always shook off the male sa i grew up with but when my first gf did it, i got ptsd. it got so bad and nobody believe me to the point i couldnt touch my out waist/thigh area. Even my mom believes me now still blames me for what happened since "she not even good looking, why date her?" but mother dearest, you said to judge people on personality:( not obesity!

[@aileenescamilla2474]

:(

[@aileenescamilla2474]

That's happens to all lot of people , you didn't deserve that and we will keep still having bad things in our life but we can still do this . And sorry to hear that from you .

[@Rubi-v9z]

thank you@@aileenescamilla2474

[@pinebrryy]

Why do I still remember it so vividly. I should have forgotten by now. I don't want to remember anything. I want to forget.

[@THE_RUVTY]

as someone who has been groomed and victim of SA since i was 9 years old until i was 11 this playlist rocks! i have only like 12 songs in a list that are my favorite playlist and this is going to that list :D

[@criesinvariable2493]

i was friends with two people; one of them sa'd the other shortly after we all became friends. it was weird because i never expected it to happen but after it happened i didnt know how to act. Half of my friend group said that it was fake and the victim just wanted attention but the other half didnt and actually tried helping. I still cant really listen to the band that they showed me before the sa occurred. One day after the friend group broke up me and the victim walked past the spot where it apparently happened but now i think about it the spot it happened changed; at first it was in a bedroom but where they said it happened was in an back ally. Still they went into a lot of detail about what happened and it felt off to hard about something so private in such detail but i didnt say anything about it because i didnt know what to do.

[@Ghoulishartz]

To everyone: Your trauma is valid no matter what level it is, you shouldn't have had to go through that. You are loved by many.

[@-sxllar]

I wasn't SAed, but I had early access to internet and it made me discover p##n when I was really young, I feel I've become hypersexual due this and I feel so awful for being like this, I'm so sorry this happened to you, I hope you're recovering for this, it wasn't your fault.💝

[@Lily-oi4np]

Your mom sucks for that. She sounds like a horrible person (The ex not your mom but like kinda) Your mom should be there for you, and you should never have to be betrayed like that by a partner.

[@Rory.the.oatmeal.wizard]

I was groomed online about a week ago by a 16 year old (im 11), and he continued even after i told him i was underage. I told a few people and they all believe me but this one person (lets call them S) is saying "I've known him for a long time we would never do that!" and i have another groomed victim (not by the same guy) Helping me and another one of S's friends attacked the other victim and now S is silencing us.

[@Y0uRLoc4lNo0b]

As a person who unintentionally SA’d my little brother when I was 8(he was 7), I feel like a sack of shit that does not deserve to live. Non of my family knows about and my little brother doesn’t remember, but I feel it’s eating me up from the inside, I feel so guilty for what I’ve done. I am so sorry for all the people in here who have been SA’d, it’s never your fault and you should definitely tell someone if it happened to you. I’m sorry if my English is poor, it is kinda not my first language.

[@Artsy-Producer]

No mom, a simple "stop caring about your father" won't fix how much he mentally abused me, no mom, my past wasn't that good because when i was in his house you were never there, you didn't see what i passed trought, you didn't hear my father's screams, you didn't feel my grandfather's touch, you didn't see how i always hate myself, you saw nothing...please stop saying i'm being dramatic...if i tell you the truth, will you be mad at me?...

[@shar9n3rs4life]

i’m a victim of sa, i was just in class and some girl came up to me and d put her hand in between my thighs and said “hi beautiful” (i’m trans masc) i just sat them and let it happen because my anxiety wouldn’t let me move. i told my girlfriend and she wasn’t happy about it, i can’t close my eyes at night without seeing that girl. i hate my life so much. -elliot/miles 🌹

[@Anastasia-jo3qe]

I got sa'ed at the age of 5 . He was my friend's cousin. I didn't know what he did was wrong . I was too young and scared , afraid that he will tell my parents . It was hurt, really hurt . The most painful experience. Then I sexualized myself through out the age 7-10 . I showed my body to my neighbor . Let them touch me , kiss me and much more. At the age of 11, i got a boyfriend who is also a manipulative piece of sh/t , he was 25 . We talked a lot , he seems caring but in fact, he's using me . Forced me to send inappropriate pics of my body . Then threatened to leave me if I don't . Now I'm almost 15 , i wish I could stop sexualized myself and into toxic people. I started to feel like I'm going insane , i can't stop doing it . Every Time someone accidentally touch me , i would get panicked and get a mixed feelings between disgust and wanting more

[@Breezy_night]

You deserve a happy, safe and peaceful life ❤ just know that it was never your fault dear.

[@CytoNeverSleeps]

I can’t explain how much this playlist has helped me, I don’t know what I’d do without this, thank you

[@alimay-xocx]

its been 6 years since i was groomed/ SA'd. im 12 now. i still get sensative over sexual topic. and the police never belived me, he wa 14, he minipulated me into thiinking he would kill my parents if i didnt do it. im still traumitised. im lesbian now, and when i say to my ex friends they said "its because your so mature" and i keep seuxalising myself and its not even funny anymore. atfirst i just though "whatever, it will go away soon" but im 12 now and i have the mindset of a 16 year old. i will never look at a game of hide and seek the same every again. if you guys want, i could say the story.

[@ZUnknownnn]

I like to make myself believe what I went through isn't that bad since most have it worse But sometimes it's important to actually take a breath and say to oneself "I am a victim and I'm valid because it traumatised me" It helps me but memories come back and to this day I sort of feel like I shouldn't feel like a victim at all and that I'm wrong it doing so with another part screaming that what I went through wasn't okay by any means

[@V4MP_AKI]

I was an SA victim. It’s truly disgusting of the side effects after you go through that..

[@felix_the_idiot5381]

Im not a victim of S/A but i almost was after getting gr00med And just wanted to tell anyone who feels guilty that its not your fault if you were gr00med or S/A'd you couldn't control what someone else did to you. ♥️

[@ERB2K9]

I don’t really want to describe it, cause I haven’t yet gotten over everything. I’ve been SA’D multiple times most recent being 13. I’m 14 now, but I haven’t had a therapist or anything cause no one believes me.

[@amyscarlett5502]

Not a victim of full SA, but, I never knew how to say no, not once have I stopped other people's avances. I let them use me as their toy, and inside I'm screaming, I don't want to do it, I hate what they are doing to me, but still, I put a nice face and keep going. Keep dissociated. I don't think anyone will ever love me, and so, being desired is the closest I have.

[@CandyGlitchYT]

Not an SA, r@pe or gr00ming victim but...to anyone who has....bless your heart and I hope that never happens to you ever again in your life

[@AnotherRanomKid]

It wasn't that bad, but. I remember being 6 and being glad I was pretty enough for someone to want to touch me, now that i look back at it, I just feel disgusted. I was just being touched, I can't imagine what SA victims feel.

[@Pan-Furry]

To the people still not safe, still in the clutches of the evil person that hurts them; it gets better, you’ll be free soon, don’t give up, they’ll be brought to justice

[@m0cha_xx]

This happened this school year: (TW R*pe, SA, betrayal(?) ) My "best friend" Naveah was one of the ppl who SA'D me before in my life. I believe it is the worse case tho. We met earlier this school year, we became friends in late august/ September 2023. She was a normal friend n stuff. She joined the friendgroup that had already formed a two/three years before she joined. Me, her and Em + a boy (who didnt get SA'D by her so he wont be mentioned that much) were all in the same classes. So all throughout the day Naveah would be there. As a joke me and Em and Naveah called each other bbg. But we knew not to take it too far. Naveah on the other hand, took it too far. Touching my thighs, getting 'too' close to my 'privates', touching my hair when she knew i didnt like ppl doing that, telling me that she was going r*pe me, touching me by suprise, holding my waist, calling me 'darling', 'baby' and so many other pet names that made me sick to my stomach, grab onto my wrists, hold my hands and make S/A jokes. She would get into my personal space constantly. She probably thought it was some (sick) game. I remember my last most "interesting" interaction with her. I was sitting on the ground during theater/dance on the stage. It was like 5 minutes before the school day ended so the teacher just let us sit around room. I was just chillin by myself on the stage when suddenly, "...im going to r*pe you..." Is all i hear. She was bent over me from my back so i didnt see her coming, and in a low tone she just..says that. I was frozen for a little but then like every other thing she did...I laughed it off. Gosh i was so stupid for doing that. I dont know why i acted like everything was fine when clearly it wasnt. I tried to play it off cool, i tried to act happy, i tried to act like she didnt just say that but she did. Not only that, i had no doubt she would do it either. I was also vulnerable in that moment she was above me and could stop me from running all she wanted, all i could think was.. "wtf, what did she just say?she would probably do it anyways..." so i did what any "rational" person would do.. "Hahaha!" Why The Fuck Would i ever do that. Why did i laugh It doesn't make sense. I always play off things lighter than it actually is. But in that moment i f*cked up. I fed into her idea of a joke. *small timeskip now a week later* She left. She just randomly transferred schools. After weeks of her sh*t, she was gone. | V One of the worst parts, i used to have a crush on her before all that stuff she pulled. So at first i excused, i think i even DEFENDED her actions. Which i still regret to this day Afterword: my friend, Em, was also SA'D by her. But i wont say anything abt her experience with Naveah because even though it was the same S*xual As**ulter, it wasnt the same SA victim. I still have constant reminders of her presence, subconsciously.

[@PH03N1X65]

As a 13 year old with PTSD it’s so hard for me to move on with my life. I was SA when i was a little child i mean like 1-3. My older sister was also r@ped in my house. Until she had to tell people. She was raped until 8. She remembers way more than i do. And she had to take care of me like i was here child. I was finally free at the age of 4 but not fully free. I was token away from them and put into my new family. Me and my sister did not get adopted until 7-8 years later. My social workers gave my birth mom a choice. She could have us but she would have to leave my birth father because he was the one doing the most harm. You would think she would choose her children over her abuser and her children abusers. But no she picked him over us. But soon came to regret it. She fought for us for 7 years. Until she lost in the court. Me and my sister had to be separated because she cant deal with men because of her trauma. I was sent off to my now forever home. When i was about 10 my mom secretly had an other child. The social workers found out and gave her a choice again. Him or her abuser. Finally she chose her son. It hurts so much because me and my sister had to through so much trauma and he can just have a normal life. It hurts to see her with him because that could be me and my sister. I still see my birth mother on video call or real life. Every time i act normal and calm. But they speak Spanish and i don’t understand them anymore because i forgot Spanish. But every time i act like every thing is fine. But it’s not. When i get home i still act normal. But no one knows what goes in my room alone. My adopted sister is 12 and also has trauma. Right now she is in the mental hospital and having a really hard time. We had to call 911 and mobile crisis. She has been out and in the mental hospital for over a year. It has really affected me and my adopted family. My adopted mom is the one who is really affected by this. My adopted sister has been verbally abusive to my adopted mom and almost everyone. This is still going on till this day. I dont know if i can do this anymore. Im a trans gay male. And it’s hard to be in a female body. I struggle with SH and hair pulling. Ive lost all my irl friends. Ive now im turning into a horrible person. I escape to the online world. It helps some times and some times it does not help a lot. My now new family is very supportive and kind to me and adopted sister. But they are not all perfect they are struggling also. My adopted sister picks my adopted mom over my adopted dad. It hurts to see him trying to help her but keeps getting pushed away. It just hurts to be alive. I cant do this anymore. I so close to ending my story. But then i think to the people i will hurt if i leave. Im trying so hard. And it’s even harder because im only 13. Im almost all the time in my bed rotting. Crying. I feel like no one can understand. Im sorry.

[@Mvrder_Dr0nes_F4n]

I was SA'd by my older cousin when was 10. I havent seen him since then but my mom just tells me to get over it, and that I should be fine now. She expected me to forget everything the day it happened, I still feel uncomfortable around touchy people to this day. It's been about 2 years since it happened.(I'm currently 12.) I honestly feel disgusting in my own skin.

[@olunia.j10]

Im a 13 year old girl. SAed and Rped at a very young age by a girl i considered to be my friend. She'd manipulate me emotionally, telling me how i was her only friend and she was having a hard time with her parents divorce. I felt a need to be there for her, even if she would do these weird things to me that i didnt understand at the age. A cps worker eventually came to my school and i worked up enough courage to break my silence and speak up about it. The cps worker told me she'd talk with someone about it but my school dismissed the whole situation. I remember the day so clearly, when my mom called me into her room and i just knew. She was sobbing, asking me what my friend did. I was so ashamed and embarrassed. I left the school that same year. The girl had left earlier and i havent seen her since. I remember it happening multiple times whether it was in school, a few feet from my teachers, in her pool, in her bathroom, in her bedroom, in my house, where i thought i was safe. No one noticed. I was too ashamed to tell my mom and everytime she called me over, i was so scared that she'd find out. The outcomes are something i know im always going to have to deal with. At a young age i couldnt look at my own naked body becuase of disgust and shame. It wasnt my body anymore anyways. I had a lot of nightmares depiciting SA and Rpe. I devolped an addiction to 🌽 and lustful stuff. I started struggling with hypersexuality and still am. I was confused on whether i was gay or not because the girl who had done those things to me was the same gender as me. She took so much of my mental health and i fucking hate her for it. I was ready to end my life at the age of 10. Physical touch become a fear, I started and became addicted to sh because of it, i have tried to end my life too many times. Therapy, medications, physciatrist appointments, close calls with hospitals, and 7 diagnosed mental disorders because of her. I am so ashamed and disgusted. Im a people pleaser at heart now. Its so hard to say no. Whenever i zone out i always think about that year and those endless days. My life is a living hell because of her. But at the same time i feel guilty for having such hatred for her. She was a child, she didnt know any better. She probably is out there living a normal life right now, and for some reason, i absolutely hate her guts for that. I hate my old school for ignoring my situation and i hate the fact i wasnt able to stand up for myself before it got bad. Im not in the best mental state right now, but im trying my best to get better. Im doing therapy sessions and probably will get admitted soon. I might also start a part hospitalization programn. Im 3 months clean and trying to leave my life in the hands of God. I want him to lead me wherever he thinks is best. I may be fighting for my life at such a young age, but i know there is more to see and more to experience. I dont want to go yet. If i can keep fighting, so can you. I love you and things will be good. ❤ Thank you for hearing my story. Knowing someone has seen me and my experiences helps.

[@ArissaHaque]

It wasn’t your fault.

[@Justt.Al3c]

As someone that has been SA since she was 6 I hv to say it sucks,ur scared to tell anyone cause ur afraid u might get blamed for it or no one will belive u because u were young.I was assaulted by 15+ boys. It was a hellhole I became hypersexual but I still hate touch it still happens with my cousin but it's been a month still he has last did that to me and my hypersexual thoughts have made start dreaming abt him or other touching me and I feel disgusted abt myself.Why was I born with such big chest,it's weird??? I'm only 12 this has been going on for 6yrs now I and a mental breakdown last night because I realized while those boys were enjoying themselves half of my childhood was stolen from me and it something I can never go bk too .The worst part abt it was when one boy touched me infront of the other and no one helped me they all just started to join in one by one,day after day and night after night,it got so bad they would put their 🍆 on my a$$,😿 or mouth I hated every part of it I just laughed it off cause I was to young to understand. Sorry for any misspelled words or bad grammar.If u hv any questions ask away I can tell u abt any of my stories

[@naevisistherevolution]

that's so horrible I'm so sorry. I wish I could give u a hug rn

[@Justt.Al3c]

@@naevisistherevolution I forgot about this comment but ur reply made me smile 😭🫶🏽

[@naevisistherevolution]

@@Justt.Al3c that's so sweet 😭😭 I'm glad it did and I hope u have a great day!!

[@Justt.Al3c]

@naevisistherevolution Same to u, I hope u can get wtv u want in life 🫶🏽🫶🏽

[@OumaKinnie]

To all the people who think they're invalid because they didn't say no (but didn't say yes), just know you are in fact valid.

[@ValeriePersonalReal]

First an older sibling. Then the older teenage son of a family friend. Then the other kids on a camping trip. Then eventually i grew up to have it all happen again and bring all the memories flood back.. it hurts so much every time..

[@Special_Arlo]

Both a SA victim and Groomed (irl and online) here, Due to me being SA'ed by a babysitter's son when I was 5 and being groomed when I was 7 by a 40 year old babysitter, along with groom attempts when I was 9, I have found myself trying to avoid sex but also being hypersexual. Doesn't help when I try to talk to my parent about it and they say "maybe its cause you're watching stuff you're not supposed to" knowing about the SA, and the groom incidents, and I think the playlist captures the effects of SA or Grooming perfectly. Also for anyone reading this, you are enough, you are cared for, and things will get better. I know it may not seem like it, but just give it time, get help if you think you may need it or if it was recommended by a professional. Eat proper meals and drink plenty of water! Everything will be okay in the end kiddo.

[@lomigotfood8470]

I’m a member of a DID (dissociative identity disorder) system, so I don’t remember it happening, but I know someone else does. And I have dreams about it and ptsd flashbacks even though I can’t make out exactly what’s happening, I don’t know for sure who it was and I pray to whatever may be out there that I am absolutely wrong, but the person in my bad dreams is always my dad, and I’m scared of him horribly. I know he used to tap my but and bite his lip at me when I was little, I remember that, and he stopped when I got older, like old enough to tell someone. I can never talk about it with my therapist or my mom because I could ruin my entire life on something that may never have happened, so I stay quiet, only one other person knows that I think I might have been. And so we just do our best to cope within our system :{{

[@Atlas_gacha_101]

As someone who has been SA'd & someone with hypersexuality these sings being me back into the feeling and how I could be changed it.. 😭

[@my.fav.no..is.12.point.9]

never been sexually assaulted but i recently realised the “jokes” my friend was giving me that made me heavily uncomfortable was a form of sexual harassment. she took me into the bathroom, pinned me to the wall, and fantasised out loud about having sex with me. i hated it. but i loved her, so i kept quiet. i never told anyone.

[@D0WNP0UR]

TW: COCSA (if anyone has been through this feel free to talk to me about it in the replies :) ) Happened when I was 5-7 multiple times a day when my mum was sleeping from night shift and my dad was at work/uni and me and him would play fight but he would always over power me cause he was 9-11 (his birthday was before mine) and when he would, he would pin my down and start grinding those bits onto me while he would moan into my ear and it would fucking hurt but I knew I wasn’t strong enough to push him away so I would just sit there and let him and I was always left soar after but I thought it was normals and trusted him a lot so one time when I had a nightmare I went to his room and he pushed himself up into me (there was clothes and that but I could feel *it*) but I got sent back to my room Years later I still feel disgusted with myself that I just sat there and let it happen I didn’t fight, I didn’t scream, I didn’t cry worst part is I can’t speak about about him doing that because he is autistic so my parents wouldn’t believe me or they would say I was too young to even know what happened to me but there was always one comforting fact it’s that your skin is fully replaced very 7 years (yeah most dust and stuff is actually skin sheddings) so after 7 years everything that happened is gone, all that pain is not on your skin anymore while it may be there mentally your skin is clean now ❤ and your safe, you no longer have the marks of those people who wronged you

[@Mr.moonzie]

I was a victim from 9-11. It was my mom’s cousin, when I told my family they almost hunted him down to kill. The guy fled the country in a stolen car and sold it, now one can reach him. The even more disturbing part is, he did the same thing to my older sister, the reason to bring up this, is because we are identical. It’s like look in to a mirror and seeing an older me when I look at her. I feel sick to my stomach to think about that, I feel like I can hug no man in my life without feeling sick and uncomfortable. I feel so guilty for thinking this because I’d know they would never in a million years but I just can’t help it. I confessed those feeling once to my brother and the look on his face was gut wrenching, I felt so much emotionally right then and there, I honestly couldn’t blame him but could he also blame me?

[@sillyfruityguy]

it really sucks being someone who was groomed online. it wasnt for a very long period, and i never sent pictures, but the gross feeling and trauma was just the same. I know my experience is valid and real, but it can be difficult having people tell me it wasnt "as bad". no matter what happened to you, your trauma and feelings are valid and real ❤ we can all heal, no matter what happened. i believe in you :]

[@LostCozy05]

I genuinely feel terrible for everyone that's a victim of SA. Absolutely no one should have to go through this. God bless all and I hope better days come

[@BRUTUS_COMMENTARY]

Another comment on this video. My heart and empathy goes out to anyone who had been sa’d, groomed, or sexually abused. I really hope to whoever is reading this that you are doing so much better, and if you’re in a dark time that just know that I will be hoping and even praying that things will get better for you soon. Stay strong and stay safe everyone!!

[@Binkithetherian]

If someone touches your butt does that count as SA? Just a question

[@BRUTUS_COMMENTARY]

@@Binkithetherian that doesn’t, it is considered to be sexual harassment or grooming though, if someone is doing this to you then it’s best you tell them to stop and not do it again. If they do it again then tell an adult and don’t hesitate to do it. Please stay safe and I hope you’re doing alright:)

[@Binkithetherian]

@@BRUTUS_COMMENTARYoh ok

[@RU_S3RIOUS]

I wasn’t a victim of SA exactly, but groomed for ages twice. I was 5-6 maybe 7 at the time of the first one, I was forced into sexual roleplays and he was 17 or 27. I thought it was normal until he threatened to find me, brutally stab me to death and make sure to r4p3 me. I was traumatised. On top of that our neighbours had been threatening our lives for years. I was 8-10 during the second time. I was manipulated again into sexual roleplays with gay s3x with other make believe characters. My mum gave me hell for it. I was ghosted for a couple days straight then he’d come back, obviously I would crawl back.. With the SA bit, one of my mum’s ex-partners told to calm me down as I woke up crying, he was shirtless and in his underwear.. he “cuddled” me. That word sickens me if not used by my mum. I’m 11 now, I hate myself for it.

[@Fijifall]

That is still sexual harassment😢

[@RU_S3RIOUS]

@@Fijifall Oh.

[@CytoNeverSleeps]

Dear reader, you are so much stronger than you realize. The people out there don’t understand the severity of the shit we’ve been though, you are more than you know, you are getting though it and you didn’t deserve it. Please know you aren’t alone, we’re all here listening to these songs for a reason, you are strong, you deserve to recover, you can get through it. It doesn’t define you

[@Mikoo--]

I really hope someone can really tell me if it is SA or I'm just delusional. Me and my father used to have not a goof relationship. We never really talked or do anything together. He was just there. Then when I grow up (aka. when I was a teen) he yelled at me and made fun of me. One day he randomly got clingy? Because I didn't feel comfortable cause he used to be a bad father to me I pushed him away. But he keeps trying to touch me somehow. He often does stuff like forcing me to kiss him and grabbing my butt. I never say no cause I am scared. Everytime when I did say no he was like "You don't love me anymore?" or my mom just yelled at me for not threatening him like my dad. He even told me as I pushed him away after he grabbed my butt that: "I'm your father, I can touch you wherever I want" My friends tell me that it is disgusting Online people too But I still keep blaming myself for not saying no sometimes or that I am being a bad daughter. I don't know if this is SA Please to anyone who read this, can you please tell me what this is? I thank u so much if you do, I really do

[@That-One-Silly-Val]

This is definitely SA, theres no way your father can just do that to you, I'm really sorry :(

[@VAL3NTINA_GO3TIA]

I love that the Fursuit head has 2 different colored eyes! :3

[@Am3thystDragonz]

i think you might’ve commented this on the wrong video, but that’s cool lmao xD

[@EsuneeTaishir]

as a minor who got gr00med by several online strangers, i can relate to some of the comments in this video which is very unfortunate...

[@T1R3D_-]

Enjoy life while you can and goodbye family/ friends. I'm so tired. So yeah goodbye....

[@killer_cat30]

❤ I hope your ok

[@T1R3D_-]

@@killer_cat30 Thanks for worrying. I'm a little bit okay. I survived the attempt and I'm still suffering sh.

[@killer_cat30]

@@T1R3D_- I'm sorry that you have to go through that, proud of you for staying alive ❤️

[@T1R3D_-]

@@killer_cat30 It's fine and it doesn't matter anyway.

[@Jo-dk9my]

@@T1R3D_- hey, it does matter ): you matter so, so much. if to no one else than you matter to me. I know I don't know you, nor will I ever meet you, but you matter a lot to me. if you ever need to talk, I'll be here. please take care of yourself. I'm proud of you for being here. stay safe

[@Amethystzshine]

I wasn’t rly r@p3d or groomed but I have an ex who often touched my thighs, sometimes my butt, and kissed me a lot. I didn’t like it. Sometimes after I told him I didn’t like it, he would forget and keep doing it. He said to tell him when I was uncomfortable but being around him made me uncomfortable. Something about his kiss was, not pleasing. Not to mention he always had dreams of me and him having… intercorse… he told me he even wanted me to buy a s3x toy “when” we get married. There’s more but I don’t wanna get into detail. I think abt it so often and I feel nauseous and scared when it crosses my mind… we recently broke up too so I’ve been scared..

[@permafrost7875]

[Vent] I was abused and sa'd by my "best friend" from when we were 9-10 around? (Its foggy) though the abuse started when we were 7, the sa escalated to its worst one time when we were 11, but the abuse continues until we were 14, as of now I'm 4 years free of her and with graduation became completely free of her this august, I repressed most of my memories of the events and am only just now recovering thwm and it hurts so much

[@Alba_Loves_fpe]

16:19 i love this song!

[@MonsieurSimp]

Not an SA victim or anything major. So one day, I go to my relatively close friends house (we were and still are best friends) and we go to his room. We talk, watch tv, and whatever else you would do at your friends house. Out of nowhere, he just decides to show me p*rn (we both were 5 at that age, but he was younger by a few months). That is when I started s*xualising myself and everyone around me. Years later, I am now thinking what it would be like if I was SA'd. And I've just kept having those thoughts recently. Sure, this might not be as bad as others, and it's still weird/cringe to even be saying all this.

[@Aeso0pscoffin]

i'm not a victim of SA, but i still have been groomed and sexualized multiple times online when i was a kid. please remember that anything that has happened to you it's not your fault, you didn't asked for it, you didn't deserved what happened to you and you are not alone, please take care of yourself and stay healthy, eat well, stay hydrated. there are many people that loves you and sees you as someone who's special and unique in their lives. your health matters, your mental stability matters, you matter and are valid.

[@sacrificialnecrosis8435]

Hey quick heads up the second song is It's Never Enough by we are the dirt!

[@JuliXenhop]

TW FOR POSSIBLE SA: i honestly feel like what happened was SA..idk i feel like it was my fault that i was forced outside naked because my parents did it as a punishment, yk? and i feel disgusting and sexualized from it. i was only 8. why did they do that? cuz of a mess i made??? why did they feel the need to do that? even 7 years later i still feel guilty and disgusting..

[@FamilyFreak-11]

That’s just fcked up, no parent should do that or expose your body to the public or just outside.

[@Meliizoox]

I feel bad for every single one of you guys, im not a SA victim at all i thought it said "Vent playlist/TW" ☹️ i hope you guys are okay ❤