scariest moment of my life... (I FINALLY got answers to what's going on)

[@grizsam]

An anxiety attack is very real, you are not being over dramatic, it is scary. Don’t ever feel that you are over reacting or going crazy. Thank you for sharing with us, it helps to talk about things that are hurting oneself. We know you are a strong, independent woman but it also helps to share your highs, lows and stresses…because we are here for you, we are here to listen and support you. 💗💗

[@darkangeltears]

D was probably more of an emotional support animal than you realized. You had him to support you with no judgement and their love was unconditional no matter what. He always understood you. It is a deviation. 💜 You are so strong to recognize and speak up and find answers. I'm proud of you.

[@louisalewis4631]

Part of handling anxiety is learning that is okay to talk to someone who love and trust. Really talk about whatever it is that's weighing heavy on you without fear of being judged or ridiculed. I've anxiety. And I can tell you I've good and bad days. I had to learn how to identify my stressors and what to do elevate them. So don't ever let anyone tell you that your feelings aren't valid because they're. I hope this helps Allie or anyone else who dealing with anxiety. Have a great weekend to everyone reading through the comments. 💖

[@sosburn6697]

Being someone who suffers from anxiety it can be completely debilitating. Thank you for sharing your story. There is no shame or embarrassment in taking care of yourself. Taking care of yourself will help you care for your family.

[@vanessajuneau6175]

I feel like I know you so much more now Allie, thank you for sharing! Some things that help with my anxiety…sucking on mints and sniffing an alcohol pad really helps with the nausea. I sit on the floor and put my hands on the ground, literally ground yourself. I know it sucks and feels horrendous, but it always passes. It’s a temporary feeling! And the more you learn how to “handle” it, the easier it’ll be to get through them. You’ve got this!

[@ashleyandrade4637]

Allie don’t be embarrassed!! I was thinking it was a anxiety/panic attack. I have experienced them my whole life almost every single day. The heart palpitations that I get are terrifying. So I can’t even imagine how it feels for someone who has never experienced it before. It’s a very scary thing and having the anxiety about it happening only makes it worse 😭 I just try to control my breathing so I can regulate my heart rate and calm down. Meditating and yoga help a lot! Again, don’t be embarrassed. And know that you are definitely not alone. ❤ Also I know Charles has used cbd and maybe you should try it as well! (If you haven’t yet) I personally haven’t really gotten into it because it can take a while to start working and my anxiety is so very severe but I feel like it might benefit you a lot. I know you can’t just get rid of it but I hope you can find ways to help control it 🥺❤️ love you so much and I’m happy that it wasn’t something more serious

[@dawnbode6465]

when I was little my older sister told me to sing "Mary had a little lamb' and my anxiety would go away I guess it was a way to control my breathing by singing but it worked, now when I feel it I think to myself " Im young im healthy and this is all in my head and im good(after about 5 min.( sorting it out). lol

[@janetatum8966]

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[@ashuhhleycakes]

Allie, you posting this here is brave and I’m proud of you, you have no reason to be embarrassed. Sharing this here is helping people more than you know. I also understand the difficulties of navigating losing a pet and those around you not understanding all you’ve lost and the bond that you truly had. I’ve never felt a grief like when I lost my boy and did not know how to cope. I joined a pet loss support group and truly found my people. I’m not sure where I’d be if I hadn’t looked for support but I’m so glad I did. As someone who felt like I was never “the type of person that needed to seek out help” I’m so glad I did. Sending lots of love 🤍

[@niaaaa764]

I’m so sorry you’re having anxiety but I’m so glad you’re talking about it. I’m sure just sharing it here will make you feel better. Just know you’re not alone ❤

[@ivark56ofPA]

I'm sorry too you're too going through this!! Thankfully you have your Mom and dad and husband Charles and your young daughter remi For addional family support.. I glad too for sit down rant of your health Situation . that way its not kept us in the dark and put away forever!!

[@mindy573]

Allie…thank you for being vulnerable and sharing what you’ve been dealing with. As a long time anxiety sufferer, it’s such a hard thing. I’m fortunate in that I don’t have anxiety attacks. My anxiety is evenly spaced out across every second of every day. It’s still definitely not easy, but not frightening like what you experienced. With your platform, you have no idea how many people you could be helping by sharing your story. I hope you’re feeling better! 💜

[@ivark56ofPA]

Great description!!

[@jilljane2510]

Thank you for sharing this! It helped me feel less alone!

[@loladance67]

Oh Allie, you are not crazy. The pain of losing your soul pet is so heartbreaking. I lost mine in October and I am still struggling. I hope that you start feeling better soon.

[@UnderTheBridge91]

Honestly, I lost my 12 years old dog/ soulmate suddenly last year at the vet. He suddenly got some kind of attack and died. There was no chance for a proper goodbye. And since then I didnt feel like myself. I completely felt lost within myself. He was my best friend. It's a grief that nobody in my environment really understood. I didnt act like myself for a long time. I still miss him, losing him changed me/my life. It's not just a dog, a pet. It's a part of yourself. And something inside you just breaks when you lose your dog. Thank you for sharing, it makes me feel less alone in experiencing this pain, loss.

[@loladance67]

@@UnderTheBridge91 ❤️

[@kimberlyk3928]

While you were describing your symptoms I knew right away what it was as. They can happen when you’re feeling fine and it comes out of nowhere and it’s really scary!

[@beckiehughes9497]

Dear Allie, I want you to know how proud of you I am!!! You being open about your experience will help some many who are experiencing anxiety on a daily basis. Anxiety is REAL, it’s SCARY and can happen at any moment. I was 8 years old at the earliest of having an anxiety attack. I remember thinking if I leave my Mom, she is going to die. It is real as you described. It wasn’t until I was 23yrs old that I was diagnosed with Panic disorder and prescribed Paxil. It was a game changer for me. I’ve been on it since then and I am now 55 yrs old. Panic attack’s are the result of our bodies telling us there is something wrong. When we experience so much trauma, our body goes into a panic mode, but our brain chemistry is trying to fix us back into calm mode. The brain needs serotonin, a chemical the brain produces to help us feel calm, when we go through so much trauma that chemical get depleted and throw’s our other brain chemicals out of wake. Paxil helps restore the brain to produce serotonin on a balanced level. Some stories I’ve read about, people are able to take it short term with the help of therapy. Other, like my self, may have to take it for the rest of their lives. The diagnosis I received from my doc was so life changing because like you were sharing, you do think your going crazy, or this is something I should be able to control. I promise you, panic attacks from anxiety is REAL, it’s FRIGHTENING and embarrassing, but it’s like my wonderful doctor I’ve had for years explained it to me. He said, it’s as real of a medical issue as diabetes is. If the Body is low on insulin it reacts. Our brains are an organ that need attention like any other organ in our body. If it’s not functioning properly it tells us! The more trauma we experience and bottle it up, our brains our not processing the trauma and it just builds up until it says, Hey, I can’t take this anymore, that’s when we experience this powerful response of fear, anxious helplessness that results in you feel like your literally going to die. I remember my heart beating so fast and feeling so terrified that I too thought, I’m going to die! The fact that you know what it is and your heart is healthy will help future attack easier to get through. I also want to commend Charles for understanding and being empathetic to each time you’ve experienced the anxiety attacks. Having someone believe you is so essential in helping you through these experiences. I hope this has helped you in some small way. I adore your family and appreciate your videos so much. You have a heart of gold and are such amazing parents to Remi and your fur babies. Just to close with something else to share with you. I had a little Jack Russell mix for 15yrs. She(Lucy Lou) was my world. She was a rescue situation and I thought at the time I saved her life. But in reality, we saved each other! I’m sure it was like that with Diesel. At the time I didn’t realize how much she was therapy for me until she died. It’s been 3yrs now, it does get easier, but it still leave a little whole in my heart. Please don’t beat yourself up over this hard time your going through. I promise it will get better! Someone shared this thought with me and it really has helped me through the years. Don’t focus on the hardship, but how God carries you through it.😊 I hope this has helped in some way. Your friend, Beckie H.

[@MorgannMadden]

I have anxiety and I have been to the ER thinking I’ve had a heart attack. You and I are extremely alike. I lost my precious dog in October and my anxiety attacks are back. My pain of losing him just pushed me over the edge. From everything that has happened to me I kinda pushed it down and then losing my Leo pushed me over the edge. Leo and I were extremely attached to each other. Most people I talk to just say “oh it’s just a dog” and he wasn’t just a dog to me. So I understand completely. It’s been 3 months and I just keep missing him. Anxiety attacks are extremely scary. They mimic heart attacks and it’s so so scary. I’m really proud of you for this video and talking about it with us. I don’t think any less of you. And I’m happy you got in to the doctor. I’m also embarrassed like I’m not embarrassed about the anxiety. I’m embarrassed like I was always in control and losing control made me feel embarrassed like I wasn’t strong enough. But I think you’re extremely strong for sharing this and I’m always on your side. If you ever want someone to chat with, my inbox is always open. Especially with us both losing our beloved dogs. And I just want to say, I understand how hard it is to get the new puppies and missing your dog too. My husband got a new puppy and while I want so much to love the puppy I feel heartbreak so much still over losing my Leo. 😢

[@KaraMoore13]

I was diagnosed with panic disorder at 10 years old. I remember my first attack. I’ll be 30 in a couple of months. It has been such a struggle with emotions, hormones, & life. But one thing I have to remember is that someone will ALWAYS be there to help you if you need it. My husky, Luka, was my unofficial emotional support animal for my whole childhood, teenage years, and early adulthood. Then I lost him. I now have another husky who IS my emotional support animal. She makes me feel safe and we’re a team. NEVER feel embarrassed to have anxiety and talk about it. So many people have it and they don’t tell you most of the time. I have connected with many people over the years who have felt the same. You’ll be alright and we’re on this journey together!

[@sarahelizabeth5381]

You’re not alone in this! My dog is a senior and every day I think about his passing and I’m terrified of that day. We love you ❤

[@aleta5873]

I've had the same thing when I was younger. It's real--the symptoms and hidden inside anxiety. I had to talk things out with a female therapist. It helped--a lot. And honor your grief about your precious dog. They are part of the family. Doggie loss is so, so painful. It hurts so much. No more pushing things down. I recommend talking it out with someone. Release that energy that's affecting you physically. Sending loving, healing energy Allie. I understand completely.

[@jlazure18]

I relate so much. ❤ anxiety and dog grief. Thank you for talking about it. I feel a little less alone. Take care of yourself beautify Allie.

[@MrSeanVideos]

Allie, I suffered with undiagnosed depression and anxiety for at least 40 years. Thankfully I recently was able to get therapy and medicine. I am so much better off. I saw a lot of the things you talked about in my own life. I still catch myself getting into the being strong to help others. While it is okay to be strong for others please be strong and take care of yourself. Self care is important. 🤗Here is a virtual hug. I pray you can get the help you need.

[@MyNameIsJoe1219]

Allie, don't feel ashamed. I know EXACTLY what you meant when you said you thought you were going to die. I recently had a panic attack for the first time in my life, and it truly feels like it's life or death. I had the same symptoms as you, and the fear + embarrassment is so intense, it's indescribable if you haven't experienced it. You are not silly for listening to your body - and you are not silly for experiencing this in the first place. It can be really scary adjusting to life after you've been diagnosed with anxiety, but I promise you - it gets better. You will not feel like this forever. We are here for you! Sending you love!

[@christyb6916]

Mental health has so much stigma surrounding it. And us momma's have so much pressure on us to manage the household and always be a happy momma and a good wife. I have anxiety and my 11yr old daughter just had to be removed from school due to sudden onset anxiety and panic attacks. medication and therapy are so so important. Please shop around and find a good counselor or therapist to talk with. even if its just once a week or once every other week. it makes a world of difference. HUGE hugs to you!

[@Rose-vf8rr]

For me anxiety is hard because on a daily basis it’s not something other people can see. It’s not like having the flu, you have a cough and fever. people can see you’re sick but with anxiety you just struggle with it inside. Sometimes it’s just hard to feel validated that it’s actually happening to you. I think that is where the shame comes from because now you don’t feel like people believe you. We see you, we hear you and you are not alone. ❤️

[@zooropa1967]

Awe Allie, its okay to talk about this stuff. 💓 the only people that dont understand about Diesel are people who never had a pet. And my eyes are watery now. -patty

[@mjpink8408]

As someone who deals with anxiety and it’s so hard to go through something so traumatic like loss. Anxiety sucks so much! The day I lost my uncle, I remember I fell into a panic attack because of that. It’s okay to talk about it and have those “weak” moments. I love you Allie.

[@choubleubh]

Oh sweet Allie…thank you for sharing this.

[@Myra51st]

I hear you, my daughter, who is a strong, strong woman had a similar experience. I didn't know what to do to help her other than listen. I'm glad she was willing to talk and get help. Thank you for sharing, and I want you to know how very brave I think you are for doing so. I have followed you all for a long time and though I don't know you personally, I've been on your journey with you since Char's first tumor operation. You are like my Niece and Nephew and I love you and wish the best for your family. BTW, love the new additions to your family, they are adorable!

[@suzanne3621]

Allie, I am sorry about what you have gone through. My son developed Anxieties while serving in the Navy. He was honorably discharged in 2008 and has been on 100% disability since then. His Anxieties sometimes lead to seizures which the doctors can't figure out why. I hate when people downplay Anxieties, saying it's all in your head, they are very real and very scary! One thing that helps is to be open and talk about your feelings. Luckily you have such caring family and friends for support, try not to let your emotions get bottled up. Sometimes keeping a journal helps. 🙏

[@naomicarrigan]

I dealt with the exact same thing this summer. I have gone to the ER many times because I thought I was having a heart attack when in actuality I was having an anxiety attack. It’s nearly impossible to tell the difference between the two when you’re in the moment. Try not to be embarrassed. At the end of the day you were just scared and did the responsible thing. You’re not alone. ❤

[@smpfilms]

I’m right there with you. I’ve been having them REALLY bad for the last 2 years. It’s terrible but they go away eventually. We just have to learn to manage our stress. It’s not easy but it’s not forever.

[@JulieLorraine1]

Thank you for sharing, sweet Allie. My heart genuinely hurts for you. You are loved by so many here and I can only speak for myself…..I am here you too. Sending love and hugs. ❤

[@mhallkc]

Allie, thanks for sharing your experiences with anxiety! It affects WAY more people than we would like to admit. Most people either don’t understand it, or too embarrassed to talk about it, or feel like it’s taboo and shouldn’t be discussed. Anxiety is a universal feeling. Love to you and Charles and your family! You deal with a day by day, but continuing to put 1 foot in front of the other, and leaning on family and friends for support. All the best!

[@Jules-jy4qt]

Anxiety is a sneaky bugger. I had a similar experience years ago just sitting at my desk at work and suddenly I felt like I was dying. I thought I was having a stroke, but it was an anxiety attack. I’m sending you supportive vibes as you navigate dealing with this. I appreciate you sharing your story. ❤

[@ivark56ofPA]

It sure is no joke!!

[@sadie4me2]

Allie, I hear you. Anxiety is very real and very scary, I can relate. And for all these years that we have been watching you, it’s always been obvious to me that you are the doer, the protector, you are the everything to your family, and from what we can see you do all that you do out of love, and it has become that you are expected to be all these things, you are not Superman, and one of the things you need to learn to do is to relax and don’t be the doer of everything. This is how I see you, the doer of everything. Don’t be ashamed of who you are because man I have so inspired you every step of the way. It’s very clear that you are a heart meant to love every human, and every animal that crosses your path.❤ finally, when my golden retriever died from cancer at three years old, my world came crashing down, and I honestly never cried so much as I did for that dog my anguish surpassed any anguish I felt over the loss of family members. So you are not alone, and anxiety affects all of us some to a stronger degree than others. I admire you and always will.

[@Heidicr60]

Oh Allie… I am so very sorry for everything you have been going thru! As someone who has undergone 2 open heart surgeries, I can attest to the fact that there is nothing scarier than a racing heart! It is a feeling that is almost impossible to put in to words. Nobody can understand it unless they have experienced it! So glad that you finally got answers. In regards to Diesel… there truly is no love compared to the unconditional love that bonds us to our dog/dogs… when I lost our two little fur angels within two of each other, I felt like our home had lost it’ heartbeat! Sending love and nothing but support to you and your beautiful family from Ft. Pierce Fl

[@aortuno44]

I know exactly how you feel. Unfortunately I push a lot things down as well and no one in my family really know how I feel about some situations and with 2 of my dogs passing. It’s a whole different love we have with our pets. What helps me is writing my feelings down. And I’ve been starting on yoga so I’m trying to be myself. It’s a slow progress but know that some great days are also in the mix of some not so great days in your journey I’m glad that a KZbinr Ive been watching for 10 years now honestly shares the way you both do and have so many people relate. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing this not much people talk about this or understand but by you just talking about it this truly made me feel not alone so thank you A LOT truly thank you!!

[@dawnk5602]

if you dont suffer from anxiety then you will never know how it feels and its nothing to be embarrassed about also loosing a pup is VERY hard i lost my dog 30yrs ago and it still hurts but you never forget the memories and that's the bit you hold on to, i hope you feel better soon. ❤

[@ivark56ofPA]

I definitely agree for sure!!

[@heytherekelilah2]

Allie, I have been there mannny times, too. I hope you find so much comfort in these comments, knowing you are not alone. Panic/anxiety attacks are frightening. I've had some very scary ones where I was certain I was moments from dying. What you're going through is very real, and it's so hard to tell your mind and body in the moment that you are safe. I pray that you find and develop your healthy ways to cope so that you can feel better. It does get better. Keep reaching out, lean into those who support you, you are going to get through this. Remind yourself these moments are temporary, and you are so much stronger than you think. ♥

[@meganditizio6844]

I completely understand every bit of your experience.. I had an anxiety attack that was exactly like yours, you couldn't have described it better. I had also lost my cat of 13 years. I've never experienced such a powerful, deep grief. I felt like I lost a part of myself... like a limb. I've suffered from anxiety for a long time and I think he absorbed it in a way... and without him there, who was to calm me down? He always brought me into the present moment and just took away the stress. So, I know what you're talking about and the good thing is now you know how to cope with it and what to expect... as for your loss, I'm so sorry.

[@liltink8869]

It's a positive thing you sharing your story. Many people in this world don't want to admit that something is wrong. It just shows that no matter what kind of life you have or live, things can creep up and get to you. I could say all the things but the thing I want to say most is thank you. Thank you for speaking out and not pushing this down. I know with you admitting to having anxiety, it will help someone else experiencing the same thing. Wishing you healing vibes Squiggles. 💙💜❤️

[@christinamedina3364]

Thank you for sharing. I lost my mom back in October 2022, and my daughters (16,20 & 25) have been having these same symptoms and have been so worried about all the different things it could be. Unfortunately, Anxiety isn’t something we first thought it could be, but after lots of ER visits and drs appointments, we have been told the same thing. Anxiety is the worst but definitely nothing to be ashamed of. Again, Thank You for sharing. I will 100% be sharing this with my girls. 😊

[@TheAliciademint]

Thank you for sharing your story!

[@jasminecalderon4990]

I’ve had one of those and it felt exactly how you described. It was deeply traumatic and unlocked another fear of feeling “near death” again. The paramedics laughed at me when they revealed that it was just an anxiety attack and it took me a long time to get over that shame. It felt real to me and that’s all that mattered, no need to feel shame for being concerned over your own health. Glad you’re getting help now, it gets easier to manage with time and practice. ❤

[@SharG420]

Allie I want to give you the biggest hug right now!! I feel like you are taking about me & I'm sure many others can also relate. Being someone who feels everything so deeply we tend to take on the worry of the world!! We also don't like to talk about it because we don't want others to start to worry about us cuz we will automatically try to take away their worry. I tend to bottle everything up & my first breaking point was also losing my dog about 8 years ago & again a couple years ago when my sons dog passed, she was his best friend. I still struggle with it some days, as recent as last week I had a really bad attack, but I have found that CBD &/or THC have really helped. I also try meditation & positive affirmations, my one for anxiety is "I am deeply centered & at peace. It is safe to feel alive & joyous!!" I repeat it to myself as soon as I feel an attack coming on. I know how hard it is but please don't feel embarrassed & find someone to talk out the stress before it gets too much, try not to hold it in. I'm sending so much love & great big hugs to you, Charles, Remi & all the animals 🤗💕🐾🌻🤗

[@columbusohman]

I was in my early 50s when I was diagnosed with anxiety. It's something that built up over the years and I didn't even know it was happening. I also built up a lot of stuff inside me and I was having many different physical symptoms that my doctor could not figure out. Long story short we figured it out and finally knowing why I was having the physical symptoms (they can be different for everyone), it was like having a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. That didn't "cure" my anxiety. I will probably always have it, but knowing I have it makes it easier to deal with. Getting professional help was also a huge benefit to me. I went through several professionals to find a good fit for me. Hang in there Allie, it gets a lot better!!!

[@yvethemetriccrafter688]

Allie , it's so good your talking about both the Anxiety but also your grief over MrD , it's so unbelievably hard to lose a beloved pet because they are truly friends to us . We lost our last dog two years ago and my husband still cries over the loss of her . I think part of the Anxiety is maybe worse because your living life under a microscope sometimes so your constantly watching what you say and what you do , both you and Char are amazing and I hope you get the help and support you need . Your so brave talking about it all x

[@kathleenjbazan5563]

Thank you so much for sharing, you don’t know how many people you are helping. I have two senior pups and I dread that day when I lose them. When we lost our first pup he was 12 yrs old, my husband was out of the country, and Dodger had been diagnosed with cancer. He went downhill and I had to make the worst decision to end his suffering. I cried so much, my heart was truly hurting, physically hurting. My chest was painful and didn’t realize how much emotional pain can affect us physically. I’m glad you are finding answers Allie, you are truly one of the sweetest.

[@KelsTheWriter]

My anxiety attacks present almost exactly the same. It's SO SCARY, I'm sorry you had to experience it. It is a struggle to find the meds (if any) that work for you, I hope you're able to find things to help you. I also struggle with sharing things and pushing everything down instead, but it really helps. I'm typing this as I listen and HOLY CRAP. I relate so much to your experience with losing a pet, I've lost my heart dog and her brother in the past 5 years, my dad passed in 2004, among other things. Let's just say I've been through the ringer! YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS ❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing this with us, thank you for trusting us.

[@4UStevePerry]

You are a such a strong person, Allie. Loosing your pet is very traumatic. I know they are very scary. My first one was when I saw my dad in the hospital. He went in there for angina and the day he was cleared, we went to pick him up. We find out they moved him to their CCU like it was no big deal. I finally see him with the tubes and everything and I just lost it. I was so embarrassed which made it worse. My mother made me feel so guilty and yelled at me cause I was causing havoc in a ccu. She made me feel like I did it on purpose but because of the guilt I couldnt stop hyper ventilating. Luckily one of the nurses helped me and got me finally calmed down. Before I left I saw my dad and another patient be concerned. I heard alot of people get them. After that I had them at work at funerals. I felt like so one understood. I had one when I went into the hospital having my daughter I found out that I had preeclampsia. I always feel embarrassed. I was on anti depressants finally but I think it may have made it worse. After having my daughter I would get little mini ones with arguing with daughter or my husband. I changed the meds alot. At this point I don't take them anymore and I can't remember when I had the last one years ago. Go on internet on how to relax with meditation, listen to music, Yoga, aromatherapy. I like to walk and listen tI my tunes. It's a lot more common then you think. I was 29 now I'm 62.

[@megancade]

I love you so much Allie! I’ve had anxiety since I was 5, when I experienced my first panic attack I also genuinely felt like it was heart attack. You’ll learn how to navigate it and get back to your life. You’ll have bad days but the good ones will always outweigh the bad. We are here for you ❤

[@naynay3710]

I can't even imagine how terrifying something like that is. I'm so glad that you called EMS because it's always better to be safe than sorry. Holding things in is never a good idea. And the people that love you can't help if they don't know what's going on. I'm glad you are getting help for this and hopefully things will be so much better, soon.

[@joeypadron]

Glad you are ok and can talk about this on the vlog ❤

[@kimmailhotakarockfairyart2159]

Grief does a real number in our bodies. Panic attacks are so so hard. I’ve been navigating anxiety and panic attacks for about 20 years and big losses, changes, hormonal changes have all had impacts in my struggles. Be kind and gentle with yourself, Allie. You will find your way. Meds help, meditation, deep breathing, gentle exercise help and talking about it in therapy or with others who get it help. Also know that having a big, sensitive, empathetic heart is really a gift. We need hearts like yours in this tough chaotic world. Sending healing loving strength vibes your way. ❤❤❤

[@missmorrow1]

Ur story/experience sounds hand and hand how my anxiety is.... including the embarrassment when it occurs (I hyperventilate during my attacks and afterwards totally exhausted physically and say 'sorry' millions of times.) I love how open u r about this😢❤ I feel better knowing what it is and those around me help in those moments bc I'm vocal about it. Love u guys!

[@katiebaker7484]

Allie..I am crying, sobbing, along with you. As someone who struggles with anxiety, I see and hear every bit of what your saying. Thank you for sharing, and I hope things improve soon ❤

[@Tiffyna714]

Anxiety attacks are no joke. You did the right thing Ali don’t feel embarrassed. I had one recently to felt the same way. Sending you my love.

[@sarahnelson7534]

By sharing you will have helped so many people, anxiety attacks are very real and very scary. Sending love your way, it's ok to not be strong all the time 💓

[@Katesk722]

I'm so late to this video but I wanted to say I'm so glad you shared this with us 🖤 Please don't feel embarrassed about any of it. Anxiety isn't something to just be brushed off and you weren't exaggerating how intense it can feel. You made the right choice by putting yourself first and you shouldn't feel guilty about it. There's a special bond between you and your dog, especially when you're starting out in life and they're your best friend before you settle down. I got my pup Charley in my early 20's and before I met my husband. For years it was just me and her; camping, going to the beach, and for drives. Now my husband and I plan on getting another dog in the future but I know I will never have another bond like I have with her. It's not something you can or should just move on from. It's a true loss that takes time to process and I hope you can give yourself the space needed to heal. Diesel was such a special boy to you and the grief you're experiencing is just proof of how deep the love was 🖤

[@jessicagreen9059]

There is nothing to be embarrassed about. I have anxiety and panic attacks. It is the most horrible feeling. Sending you and the family lots of love. I totally understand how you feel, I’ve been there! I also lost a furbaby back in 2009. I miss my cat Lily everyday. Those bonds are so strong and the grief is immense.

[@Briana2711]

Allie I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all of that😢. I had a very similar experience going through an unexpected breakup. I felt so sick and then one day I had shooting pains in my chest, my heart was racing, and my arm went numb. I knew I was stressed and I was convinced that was causing me to have a heart attack. I went in and they said I was fine. It was very scary. And I also felt guilty. I also felt like I was overreacting. But we can’t do that. What we experienced was real. The pain we felt was real. I’m glad you are being so open about talking about it and treating it. It really helped me not to just keep it in. Because that’s when it bottles and eventually explodes. Sending you so much love. You are so strong and resilient and you’ve got this!!!

[@brandid710]

Oh sweetheart. I know exactly how you feel. Anxiety attacks absolutely suck. They are so scary. I’m glad your ok. I had to learn what helps me calm down when I feel one coming on. Sending lots of love to you!❤️❤️

[@AmaTron]

I’m so sorry that happened Allie… I totally feel that embarrassment you feel about it. We shouldn’t feel that way though. We should feel comfortable talking about our anxiety and the attacks we have because it is scary! Back in 2020, my anxiety got so bad I went to the er twice in one week because I thought something was wrong. I kinda knew I had anxiety but I was never diagnosed with it officially until 2020 when I saw my doctor. I’m currently on a medication for it and I’ve been doing yoga/meditation for almost 2yrs now buti won’t lie, I still do have bad days they just haven’t gotten as bad as they used to.. (keeping my fingers crossed) 2020 up until pretty much now hasn’t been great for myself and my family. My self being obviously my struggle with anxiety. With my anxiety, it’s all in my chest. The discomfort, the pain, the cloudy feeling. It’s horrible feeling like you have no control over yourself. But Allie, you have soo much support between family, friends and us the distant family/friends. Just hang in there and I am very glad you finally got your answers and just remember you’re not alone❤

[@Linds.burkholder]

Thank you for sharing your story. Talking about it and getting it out is more than half the battle. Also, medical marijuana and therapy. LIFE CHANGING.

[@jrussell8746]

I've been having anxiety attacks for about 3 years now and yes it feels like you are having a heart attack and dying but you have to learn to control them. Lots of people go through it.

[@brooklynthomas1252]

Some people can’t control it and have to take medication which is okay too! I’ve struggled with anxiety since I was 13 years old. I’m 30 now and still can’t control half of the panic attacks and anxiety attacks.

[@patricklombardi96]

My first one was when I was 16, talking with a mental health professional was very helpful to me. Having the opportunity to unload on a professional all my hidden anxieties and anything else that was an issue in my life was very healing. Just a thought if you ever want to go that path. Talking to someone a stranger that has no friend or family biases and listens to your every word without judgment is an amazing feeling. Trying to explain to someone who never had one can be frustrating. Wishing you well on your healing path:) also I saw a psychologist using cbt cognitive behavioral therapy, it was like going to school learning about panic attacks mentally and physically. I had homework each week keeping note of what I felt before it happened during and after. Eventually he taught me how to not be afraid of them happening again which was my fair and to realize the body can’t keep them going for an long time per expand they will eventually pass through. Long story short it was a learning process with my psychologist. Again all the best, feel free to reach out as a fellow panic attack survivor, learning about them and dealing with matters in my life was quite a process, be patient and with yourself on this healing journey!! Your not alone, plenty of people out there that have dealt with this, no stigma!! Ok I’m rambling, all the best to you and the family!

[@dzzie_d]

You are so strong and brave for sharing. I have anxiety,ptsd, and depression so I completely understand. Stay positive mama!

[@doreenmcgovern7439]

Dogs represent stability in our lives. They and their love is always there and when they are gone, it shakes us to the core. I went through it three times and can never go thru losing another dog. Anxiety is very common and nothing to be embarrassed about. Take care of yourself and find an outlet for you only to experience relaxation such as yoga or meditation. Whatever will work for u.

[@kerribender2213]

I have had a few very serious anxiety attacks in the past couple of years. I will say there are all sorts of options out there for help. Also, know you are a very strong, amazing, beautiful person! You will find what works for you and overcome this. Sending you lots of love and support on your journey back to the top!

[@flippydingles]

Prolonged stress and anxiety can have a substantially negative effect on the body/nervous system. Running in fight, flight freeze can even cause adrenal fatigue and trouble with vagus nerve, hormonal imbalances and regulation of the body functions. Mental health struggles can sneak up on you. Panic attacks are no joke. The heart racing or beating irregular is scary and can happen because of emotional distress out of the blue. I was diagnosed with AFib after what was a peak of severely stressful few years and ended up in ER for 4 hrs, only one Dr admitted something like that could be triggered by emotional distress and get outta control. It seems to only happen now when I've had something stressful happen/drama and less than ideal sleep for a few days in a row. Therapy can help, self-care amd meditation, becoming present through mindfulness practice has helped me some. Anti anxiety meds like Lexapro in low doses can help. I took em for a few months yrs ago but herbal supplements like L-Theanine, ashwaganda, holy basil, the list goes on can help a bit too. I prefer herbal supplements to pharma. Talk to a naturopathic Dr and get everything tested, cortisol imbalance from stress/anxiety can make you feel really crappy and trigger all kinds of issues. Sleep, getting enough helps. But really being able to talk about what you're going through with someone without emotional ties, judgement and who's trained to help you is key. Or it has been for me. (Insert Better Help ad) Hope you get answers you need and some relief. Take care.

[@ladymcl09]

I remember my first anxiety attack and wow it sounds so familiar. I thought I was going crazy! it was a long journey for me. Getting the right medication, finding a dr, trying to learn how to control it....its a lot! It's really scary, but trust me, it gets better. You will learn so much about yourself through out. I've been suffering with this since 2007. I have good days...more good days than bad. I no longer drink coffee...anything with caffeine will trigger it. I am just like you! I will keep a lot of things to myself, it's not healthy. You may not feel stressed but your body definitely does. Omg Allie, I feel like we're the same person. I lost my dog a few days after you lost Diesel, my anxiety was off the roof! I am still dealing with it. You are not alone, I'm right there with you. I understand what you're going thru.

[@sandrareali8324]

anxiety panic attacks can do so many scary things to the body and mind. it's nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed about. actually its a good thing you're talking about it. I had it 8 years ago and it was very bad. be brave because this will pass.

[@crystaljohnsonkirby]

All my thoughts and prayers are with you!! Anxiety attacks are horrible. I know it's easier said than done, but never second guess yourself. You know your own body! Thank you for sharing your journey. Prayers and love!!

[@davinadanian7487]

hang in there! ive had anxiety attacks and general anxiety since my teenage years. it changed my life. when things get tough it flares up and i have to deal with it. but but but please know it will get better and there days/weeks you never even think about it. this beginning part is the hardest. ❤

[@beingsarahw]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Anxiety/panic attacks have been my life for 25 years, multiple attacks a week. It is terrifying, I completely empathise. Thank you for sharing. I hope you get it sorted soon. xxx

[@thepinkrose68ify]

Hi Trippy Fam, so sorry you are experiencing this, it isn't anything to be embarrassed about I have had them a lot of attacks and been to the hospital because I am a sensitive and emotional person and with the loss of my son to cancer and only two and a half years later hsi father cheated on me with Someone I helped. They are the worst and can happen whenever I still get them but because of KZbinrs like you have helped me through nights when I can feel them coming on I just try to relax my thoughts and feelings with uplifting vlogs like yours and other families I follow and of course with the Love and the support of my Beautiful Adult Children who watch over me and show me so much love❣️ MUCHO LOVE AND MUCHO HUGS TO YOU ALLIE ❣️😘🙏🏼

[@verosaenzboo]

Anxiety attacks are intense and terrifying. My experience with them has been going on for 25+ years. I know exactly how you feel so know you are never alone and can always talk to us when you need to vent. Thank you for sharing your experience. I believe the more people share about mental health the better. The world needs to normalize talking about this stuff for everyone’s sake. We love you and are glad you’re going to be ok. ❤

[@wekselbaum]

Honestly, I had almost the same thing today. Genuinely thought I was dying, realized I took two doses of an antidepressant that heightened my anxiety, then lead to an anxiety attack. I’m good now but scary stuff. I get what you mean about people not understanding. I think the fear/knowledge that our emotions will be misunderstood or minimized makes us feel like maybe we shouldn’t share but that’s what connects us as people. I know people always recommend therapy but it can help to talk to a 3rd party because, losing your dog/pet/family member is real pain. Loss is real pain no matter what kind, not to mention how one loss can build on past traumas and issues so, you’re not overreacting. You’re just human. Your emotions affect your body and anxiety attacks are real and anyone with a heart wouldn’t judge you for that. Anyway, you said you’re on a path and I’m really hoping everything works out for you. Thank you for sharing your story tho, genuinely. ❤

[@MikeHarrison3266]

I am sorry about your situation, I am not too surprised, it is 2023 and the last few years have been more than enough to make most people very anxious. It would not take much to tip the scales. These are seriously insane times. Try not to hold in your feelings and talk.

[@ivark56ofPA]

I know is January 20th one month after winter solstice many of Us still have seasonal defective disorder going on yet.. Right now We gained about 20 minutes daylight now still growing slowly. As the sun is slowly gaining attitude toward the north..

[@MikeHarrison3266]

@@ivark56ofPA Oh, I never imagined that might be the problem. I saw other events that seemed more likely.

[@LissaAOE]

I’m so glad you listened to your body, went to the ER, and even though it wasn’t a heart attack you did the right thing in getting it checked out and taking care of yourself. ❤ I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and I’m glad you’ve been diagnosed and are receiving support. Much love to you!!

[@blairmaru]

Generalized anxiety is crippling, and as real as any physical illness. My heart goes out to you as you work on healing.

[@KellieMcDonaldIsQueen]

I’ll keep it straight and simple by saying I needed this. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this. That’s so strong and brave of you. Know you’re not alone. Love you and sending you positive vibes. 🥰

[@coriradford3966]

Oh sweet Allie! I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Sounds like such an exhausting and scary experience! I've dealt with anxiety for as long as I can remember and it's such a tough thing to navigate. I want to thank you for sharing your experiences with us though. Makes me feel less alone. Every symptom you talked about having, is something that I can relate to. You are so strong for stepping up and sharing your story. We are all here to listen. Like you said, years previous to this, you wouldn't ever think of sharing something so vulnerable. I think that's progress in itself! I'm so proud of you. Sending my love and praying that you know you're not alone in this. Love you!

[@valentinacardona173]

Get better soon Allie , mental health is so important. Anxiety is serious and only the one who suffer from it understand . I'm so sorry for the loss of your boy , a pet's passing is such a HARD thing to deal with and specially when you have a deep bond with one of them. It is not a silly minor issue , it is the loss of our loved one , of our family member, of our baby , of our friend . I lost my dog 7 years ago after adopted him from the streets and went through a medical treatment to try to save his life when he got sick but eventually he was suffering way too much and I loved him too much as well to let him suffer any longer. There is no a single day that I don't think in "Angel" and miss him . The pain never goes away but their presence , the memories and their love never goes away neither

[@ouiji1963]

Allie, sharing this is the best thing you could have done. I've suffered from it myself, it's our body's response to stress. Sending hugs and prayers your way. Vent to someone you totally trust, it really helps. Keep making these videos and get your feelings out, we've got your back. ❤

[@carolehanrahan]

Thanks for sharing such a vulnerable time with us. I wish more people would stop thinking that mental health is different than physical health. Our brains are a very important part of our bodies and if something starts to go wrong in our brains it can show up in a lot of different ways. It's like if our kidneys start to not function well, you start to get symptoms that can lead to a diagnosis. Anxiety is a symptom of something not going quite right in your brain so now that you know that hopefully the doctors or counsellors can help you deal with the issue properly. You've been through a lot. Cut yourself some slack. Love ya tons.

[@Sweethippie25]

I cried along with you Allie, I understand a lot, I have anxiety I've had it for a long time but I'm recently going through some personal stuff and I'm dealing it by myself because I choose to.. but any advice that I can give to you Allie is to try some meditation and grounding yourself again during the moment and outside of it, but one of the biggest things that helps me is keeping a journal running those thoughts down getting the stuff that you're pushing down out nobody has to see it and nobody has to read it, it could be just for you or you could share it with Charles that's all on you.. I know the vlogs in some way is like a living journal but the handwritten journal will be a lot more personal you could put things in it that you don't talk about on the vlog. you also can do a digital journal and just record yourself talking about these feelings whatever the maybe and telling the camera everything and just put it away afterwards or you can delete it. I wish you the best of luck and remember you always have people who care.

[@liakaiser2618]

Thank you. Allie, I feel so connected to you even though I’m so much older. My husband is older than me and has gone through some health issues, my mom is 87 years old, my daughter was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes, I lost my dog in 2021. (he was just a puppy but, I too, got a new puppy which I adore. I try to be strong but sometimes I feel this way too. To know that I’m not alone makes such a difference.

[@sacredrosez]

You are not alone! Talking to a therapist and getting on a medication is one of the best decisions I ever made.

[@dreamergurl2008]

Thanks for sharing...anxiety is very hard and sucks. It holds me back in life so much. Thank you for being there for us. I'm glad your getting help. Take care.

[@ashIeymarie]

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing this with us.. you've helped so many in these comments not feel alone, including myself and just know how truly grateful we are to have been here, even just through a screen, listening to you, relating to you or learning with you about anxiety and loss.

[@sgtjasper]

As a guy that has experienced a few pretty serious anxiety episodes I can speak from experience it really is scary. I hope you will find a way to give everything a place and soon return to a joy and peaceful state of mind. The pups are so cute btw :)

[@Lindenberry77]

Thank you so much for sharing, Allie. I don't think you realize how much you talking about this helps others. I really needed to hear everything you said. I'm so glad you're on the path to regaining control. You've got this!

[@yoonminssi]

never feel embarrassed to talk about your mental health allie. anxiety is a difficult thing to live with. theres ways you can handle it, cope with it and maybe even overcome it for good. make sure you put your mental health at the forefront of your life, make sure you take care of it as it really impacts so many aspects of your body and life. i wish you luck in getting better 🩷

[@roxysmom1986]

Allie I want to thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. Please know that you’re not alone. I remember my first panic attack/anxiety attack. I too thought I was having a heart attack. Please don’t feel silly about what you’re going through. I love you and I’m here for you.

[@Samisaur64]

Allie, I am so sorry you experienced that! It is SUCH a hard thing to go through. I also have anxiety and other disorders so it is a tough thing to combat. I am in a master's program for Art Therapy and I know you like being creative so it might be a good idea to grab your favorite medium, paper/canvas, and just let your heart be heard. It is so helpful what comes up in the art and in your inner dialogue. I love you girl. ❤

[@gbella6376]

Ali, I’m so glad you got the reassurance that your heart is all good. Please don’t be embarrassed about your anxiety it is real, I know how you were feeling and I understand the fear it brings. Your dogs are family and they have your heart just as your children do so it is not insignificant in any way when you loose them. I’m also a very emotional person and will often take time to sit quietly and breath calmly and remember everything I am grateful for. Also try to focus on the positive good in your life even for just a couple of minutes. It helps me. I’m sending positive thoughts to you and your family and appreciate your honesty. Take care. x

[@missalanaclaire]

I suffer from anxiety and have had anxiety attacks and have felt so alone at times. Thank you for sharing your story and opening up about what happened.

[@dewdropdesigns90]

Allie, it’s good to talk about it and normalize it for others who are going through it. I had my first anxiety attack 30 years ago at the Boston Aquarium, a place I love and would normally find relaxing. I’m glad you are getting help and I hope things start getting controlled soon. A but of a tip….breathing exercises can really help and so can skullcap made into a tea if you catch one really early..

[@celestebrockell6438]

Allie, I have had really bad anxiety for about 25 years now. I have had plenty of panic attacks, some that I have woken out of a dead sleep having. It is so very scary!! No one really understands it fully unless they’ve been through it. It does feel like you are having a heart attack and going to die. It’s so hard to explain it to someone who has not gone through it. It’s like impending doom. I hate anxiety with my whole being and like you, do not wish it on my worst enemy. HUGS, HUGS, and more HUGS!!!! ❤

[@michellepickett7197]

Oh Allie 😢 I am so sorry, please never be ashamed or embarrassed. Don’t be afraid to talk about it, I have had anxiety and panic disorder for about 10 years now, it was daily for me and very scary. One day at a time sweetie. ❤

[@ZakFilmsllc]

We've been brought up to keep our struggles to ourself and that sharing them or asking for help is a sign of weakness. And social media allows us to filter all that out. I can tell our society is opening up and realizing that we ALL have struggles and sharing it and talking about it does help! I struggle with anxiety too and it affects everyone differently. When I have an anxiety attack, I cry a lot and I also don't eat. Some people pass out etc. Thank you for sharing your struggles! I hope you are able to get your anxiety under control and have peace with it!