Schizoaffective Woman interview-Sabrina

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Sabrina, a schizoaffective woman in Missouri.
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[@ZahhundGSDs]

Thank you Mark for letting me share my story. It was a healing moment in my journey. I wish I could’ve deep dived more into some things, my nerves got the best of me. However, I just hope my message got through that it is possible to choose the life you want, despite the cards you are dealt with.

[@eattherich9215]

It needed to be heard. I hope you have found peace.

[@QueenofQuiteAlot-5150]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story! Keep on going do not let your past define you. You are a warrior and there is a greater purpose for everything you have survived. You have this moment now and a bright future ahead. You are beautiful and you are so worthy of true love. Keep growing healing and discovering who you are. I personally can relate to many of the same stories it took me 46 years to learn grow and heal proud of you. Wishing you many blessings.

[@Sippy2118]

You were and are brave and your story is important. ❤Keeping going, girl!

[@claudiacarrera9183]

Wishing you healing and peace, you did not deserve those horrible parents.

[@doloresparra4604]

WOW! You are a lovely, strong, intelligent, insightful and beautiful young lady. Thank you for sharing your story, it takes a lot of courage to allow such vulnerability. You are worth all things good and positive.

[@MoonLover1917]

I never realized how good my life was until I started watching Mark's channel.

[@cr-cg7kn]

°_° same…

[@NN-ht1lp]

Thanks Mark.

[@NetflixButFree]

Shut up bitch

[@baghodler508]

I am the same way, I've been through a lot but there's always a darker story

[@FLBeautyQueen]

I only watch Mark’s channel to make me feel better that I’m not alone.. I was abused on a scale only a few know; locked in a closet, tortured, denied school, basic necessities, forced drugs for power & control by my monster mother everyone knew as “Hitler” due to her obsession with him. If I tried to escape our Fort Knox farm, I’d be dead & buried before I reached the barbwire fence & gate.

[@Heffff3]

You broke the cycle. Love and light to you Sabrina. I wish you much continued success.

[@AnaFernandez-jp5uh]

Absolutely.

[@sweettaterpie7009]

When do you think this was filmed? The phone she's holding looks old. Thank. Love-Light to you!

[@Truecrimewatcher]

Never forget/lose the light

[@karenmorris7674]

I'm noticing how much her dog loves her. Dogs are so healing

[@adhdminister]

@@karenmorris7674 sooooo true

[@harleyterry6356]

Sabrina is my closest friend, I wanted to pop on here as someone who knows her personally. She is literally the strongest and most admirable person I’ve ever had the privilege to know. She has come so far from where she was when I first met her about 8 years ago. I love this girl and it’s so special to see her sharing her story so people can see no matter your trauma, you can still make your life beautiful with time and determination ❤️‍🩹

[@JustLee69]

You both are so lucky to have one another

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

Huh, wonder why she didn't mention you 🤔

[@bethina467]

​​@@Mr-Angelo0U812 You are always in the comments trolling. How rude of you. Have you nothing more valuable to do with your time? Are you really that desperate for any kind of attention? How sad.

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

@@bethina467 nice try you 🤡. Im here to point out the bullsheeters like yourself 😅

[@lisahinton9682]

@harleyterry6356 What a lovely comment about your friend. Very nice, indeed. May you two always be friends.

[@thefadingmoonlight]

Shame on the mother and the truckers for doing that to an 8 year old child

[@boyandcatmum]

I thought the same thing the truck drivers should have contacted the authorities how very sick they all are 😢

[@cherylshamblen1543]

I’m with both of you. It’s bad enough that the mother solicited her, but for the drivers to actually participate is sick. How could the authorities not have been called. makes me so angry 😡

[@m4ckenziedc]

I think it’s awesome that her service dog is trained to help her differentiate between hallucinations and reality. What a creative solution!

[@yetzcus]

Judt the fact that your not a basket case after dealing with that crazy childhood.being betrayed by both parents shows how strong you are.your a awesome woman!

[@toya2777]

Due not Judt

[@snuff2023]

If shes schizoaffective then she's by no means a bill of good mental health, but I think I understand what you mean. She doesn't "seem/act" "crazy or disturbed" and with many who are you can see it right away

[@itsjeninMass]

​@@snuff2023She's probably managing it carefully.

[@MikDrums8]

The goal here isn’t to be skeptical or judgmental of others. It’s to hear other’s stories, validate them and lift each other up.

[@celinemccutcheon1988]

​@@MikDrums8well said 👏

[@luanora111]

Sitting here with my beloved dog listening to Sabrina. I am impressed and deeply moved by her courage and strength. So nice that she is surrounded by all these wonderful animals (they are earth angels) and lives in a peaceful home. Sending lots of love (from Germany). ❤

[@Sabrina-LosAngeles]

That gorgeous dog and her grandmother were the only stable things in her life - amazing turn-around to a situation that could have ended even worse. Very happy for her in doing her part to make a great shift from where she started.

[@carmelaburrone5029]

So happy Sabrina found stability and healing despite her abusive childhood. May she go in to live a happy and blessed life.

[@kevinmartinez3373]

The strength she has considering the cards she’s been dealt in life Please stay strong and positive

[@etrefz12]

Sabrina- as someone who has done 10+ years of therapy, it's incredible to watch and listen to you talk about your experiences with a greater perspective. You have so much mindfulness and awareness of your traumas and the progress you've made. You are the example of when therapy works- it works. Congrats on your progress and thank you for sharing your story. You courage is inspiring.

[@adhdminister]

My brother is schizofrenie but in a much worse state, a conversation like this is not possible, he lived totally in his own little sad world and I can do nothing about it and it’s hurting so much to see him like this because till his 30 he was normal…..

[@stefaniastyranczak267]

I'm so sorry, I have 2 in my family as well and I can imagine.. sending lots of love and mostly strength 🫶🏼

[@hitmanx200]

Praying for you, your brother and the rest of your family to find peace

[@InspireCreate43]

That sounds genuinely horrifying in a way. Literally here one day and gone the next. I hope you and your brother can still live a happy and successful life. Bipolar in general is a lot to endure and go through, but schizophrenia is a whole other level of illness. It may not seem like it now, but one day you'll get used to it and it won't bother you as much.

[@oceanbreezecaligirl1128]

I had an experience recently where a childhood friend had become schizophrenic & so I called some places to ask questions & see if I could get them help & I was told that people do not develop schizophrenia at that age & it was most likely happening due to some opioid drug use. Sorry I can’t remember what they specifically called it. Well I had no idea but apparently they were correct & the person had secretly become addicted to opioid pills. I am sharing this because you mentioned that he was fine until he was 30 & it reminded me of those people telling me that schizophrenia typically doesn’t onset at 30-40 years old? …I am not sure if there is any truth to this but in this particular situation they were correct and the reason for the schizophrenia onset was the addiction. Once my friend got clean then their life became much easier and I would say that most of their mental health concerns such as the people following and the various voices did get much much better. Not sure if this could possibly be the case with you brother but may be worth looking into? Sorry and I pray for the best

[@cr-cg7kn]

maryjuana …. it’s the next drug epidemic in the making but , the government is making billions in taxes ….. so, it’s all good..

[@katttpiffnsam]

This channel makes me realize how many horrible and evil parents are out there!

[@katykelley9305]

Right! I knew it was bad but I didn't know it was so common! I always hug and tell my children they are worthy of love and the best life has to offer, especially after watching an episode

[@sq12r28]

There are a lot of horrible, destructive parents out there. Selfish - with no regards for their kids. Bad parents have ruined a lot of people's lives.

[@noahbrown4388]

@s1r28 It’s definitely true, but they came from sh!ttty home lifes themselves. Abuse begets abuse. Neglect begets neglect. Not pardoning those behaviors, but if you knew their history you’d see where it came from. It’s all about breaking that cycle of trauma

[@sq12r28]

@@noahbrown4388 I agree and that is a great point to put things in perspective.

[@jackamoak]

And neither of her parents are in prison or on a sex offender list right now. She said her father has more daughters. This country is pathetic.

[@leesahpink701]

Sabrina has such a likable personality. Thank God that she got through such a hard childhood. I hope the rest of her life is filled with happiness 🩷

[@Gram72534]

All Marks pictures are amazing, but i really like today's!! Especially the expression on the face of the dog is awesome, to me!!! Great interview, Thanks!!!!

[@cht2162]

Sabrina is a wounded combat survivor from early childhood (C-PTSD). She's smart and tough but fragile on the inside. I think she's developed strengths that most people can only aspire to, like honesty and loyalty. Her better angels have kept her from damning those who hurt her but that continues to be a constant psychic struggle for her. Acceptance is the key to all her (and our) problems and it's damn hard and a life-long struggle. Go girl.

[@CBrown86]

Well said

[@CassieBee88]

My best friend in the world (Domo) died 4 days after Christmas last year. That dog was my everything. I had him through my journey of my abusive relationship, raising my nonverbal autistic son, etc. I miss him immensely and have realized how hard life has been without him by my side.

[@monilangeKootenays]

Very sorry for your loss. I also lost the love of my life. Kootenay 8 months ago. I'll never have the hole in my heart filled. I have a new dog and he is great. Love my new doggo. Still, my heart aches for my soul mate.

[@Josh-y4r]

I'm assuming you got another dog correct?

[@nickjones6843]

I loved this interview so much. She is such an amazing, beautiful person. Also… DOGS ARE SO AMAZING?!?! He can smell the cortisol in her saliva BEFORE she has a seizure and can tell when she has delusions and hallucinations. Wow. I love dogs. So nice to see how much comfort and support those dogs give her.

[@lindasacks8572]

Wow, I am blown away at this person's story. I really hung on every word she said and wish she could have talked and shared her story even longer. She is admirable and I truly wish her the best life can bring

[@rachelstewart6954]

I absolutely love this girl. She's gone thru hell and came out of it pretty much on her own. God Bless her. She's smart, she's kind, she made a choice to live a good life and she's still so young. Would love an update on her sometime down the road.

[@nhlibra]

Sabrina, So proud of you on 4 years sober. You are tapping into all the tools needed for breaking the cycle and moving forward to a better life than what you witnessed as a child. The disapproval messages you received from your Dad throughout time...Id like to apologize for that pain. So glad you found dogs, caring for them, training them and they will keep their watch over you. {{{{{Big Hugs}}}}} from New Hampshire. ♥♥♥

[@GarthWatkins-th3jt]

I'm not sure what to say. I felt moved by your comment and wanted it to make it full circle back to you in a positive way. Your depth of character and empathy flow from your words.....I hope you and Sabrina see some dreams come true, indeed whoever happens to read this as well. See ya around sometime maybe.

[@nhlibra]

@@GarthWatkins-th3jt How sweet of you to comment. I love kids so it comes easy for me. I wish I had the power to erase everyone's challenging history. I'm really happy for Sabrina that she has the support of wonderful grandparents. I think she's going to be just fine in life. She had a rough start but she's learned at the tender age of 25 that she can direct her own destiny. 😍 Hagd!

[@erasetheyears]

I admire you so much Sabrina for what you have endured and overcome. What a brave, strong, and determined soul you are!! And Mark I absolutely love the work you are doing!!

[@sadekHessen]

Hi how are you nice day for you 🌹

[@brunolima7402]

Better to not be a parent than a shit parent. I sometimes complain about the most silly stuff and then i realize how blessed my life is after watching stories like this one. All the best to Sabrina.

[@JR-gh8lp]

I admire her honesty and lightness of dark subject

[@annahazlett19]

Wish Sabrina all the very best for her future, what a brave young woman to have come through such adversity. Beautiful dog.

[@jeff1130]

The more I deal with people, the more I love my pets.... If you don't trust people. You will never get hurt

[@lislelisle5453]

This is my thought

[@bryan123483]

I was thinking pretty much the same thing. I immediately started thinking how glad I was that she has that dog. My dog does more for me than any person for better or worse.

[@FriendlyMagus]

I understand and you’re right. However, running the risk of getting hurt is the only way to find true, unimaginable love. It’s worth the risk:)

[@rumham7466]

People ask me “why are you single? You’re great”, or some prob think it’s something wrong with me. Etc. I’m like.. I CHOOSE to be. I’ve been single for I don’t even know how many years now. At least 5 or so years by now. I feel peaceful. I don’t ever feel lonely. I enjoy how things are. The last time I even entertained the idea with someone, they’d be up my butt if I didn’t respond to a text in their preferred time. Sht like that. And with friends and family, I keep it small and light. My dog is the only thing I need and that’s 100 truth.

[@alfonzo7822]

​@@rumham7466yeh I get the same. Get told I'm good looking and have a great personality but I've been screwed over too much. I'm happy being on my own. 11 years and counting. I don't have a dog though, my mobility sucks.

[@KatharinaAkcan]

After so much struggles I now own a new house and my family is happy once again everything is finally falling into place!!

[@erni192]

I'm 37 and have been looking for ways to be successful, please how??

[@KatharinaAkcan]

Thanks to my co-worker (Alex) who suggested Ms Claudia Vecchi Nese .

[@KatharinaAkcan]

She's a licensed broker in the states 🇺🇸

[@KatharinaAkcan]

After I raised up to 325k trading with her I bought a new House and a car here in the states 🇺🇸🇺🇸 also paid for my son's surgery (Oscar). Glory to God.shalom.

[@claireymacd]

God is more than enough for us, and his mercy is new every morning.

[@ktgingrich6521]

I think she is my favorite interview yet! Beautiful work! authenticity at its finest 🦋

[@sarahfinney3731]

Sabrina, I'm so incredibly proud of you. I knew your mom briefly and I'll never forget seeing you and your sister at her funeral. It was a heartbreaking moment I'll never forget. I know the struggle from both sides as well, and I know the dedication and tenacity it takes to overcome. You are a bright shining example of what is possible, no matter where or what we come from. You are a warrior. Always remember who you truly are. You are NOT your trauma. You are a survivor. 💚 May you have the beautiful future you deserve.

[@firbolg]

She's awesome! I suffer from CTPSD, PTSD and am neurodivergent and can barely function! Ended up burning out (and having drug induced hepatitis due to high usage of prescribed painkillers) and losing everything, my career, studies and also everything material. Now I'm slowly rebuilding, picking up the pieces. And she's an inspiration for sure! And I get what she means by wanting to be a good mother. I have the same thing, I wish I would have kids and be a better father that my father was.

[@aprilsmith3683]

Your service dog echoes your soul my dear... You are a good human being... May both of you remain safe... 🇿🇦

[@poppyd434]

I love her doggo! sticking his nose in the picture is adorable. I had a dog who knew when I was anxious or depressed or manic, and she would let me know so well. She could see or feel my moods go awry when I couldn’t. She helped me through a lot. I miss her. But I’m so grateful to have another doggo now who is my shadow and loves me the same. Doggos are so wonderful. ❤

[@Soxandnicole]

Wow, what a lady. So many obstacles to overcome. I'm mentally ill too and I can relate to the daily struggle. Sabrina, you are so strong. Enjoy your animals. I give you a big hug.

[@martalewandowska7009]

You have such a nice voice. And then you tell such a heartbreaking story. If only I could undo all the horrible things that happened to you, or at least take away all the bad thoughts and make them disappear. It's a privilege to listen to your story but I wish so badly it was a different story.

[@ameliamegow7068]

What an incredible and inspiring journey. I have a similar story with my dad and man does trauma from that hurt. She’s been through more and is so strong. So inspired truly.

[@ZettEspinoza]

I feel so honored having heard your story. You are light you beautiful soul. My heart to yours ❤

[@jamieochoa6613]

I watch a lot of your videos and this one tore me up. Sabrina is a warrior...may she continue to have the wellness she seeks.

[@peggyowen3386]

Congratulations on your sobriety!! I came from a disfunical family. My father was abusive and my mother would not intervene. My father was mentally ill and refused to get help. I’m bipolar but I am getting help. I can’t believe that you survived all of your childhood trauma!! I wish you nothing but the best!!

[@dianeschuchaskie1638]

A REMARKABLE RECOVERY STORY. SABRINA IS A BEAUTIFUL, ARTICULATE, WONDER WOMAN. BEST WISHES TO YOU SABRINA IN THE FUTURE IN ALL THAT YOU DO.

[@mimig6511]

these people who do this to their kids need help and to be locked away

[@dreamkitten6688]

Wow so many life changing moments in her life that showed her God loves and you, and he's not ready for her. You have a purpose in this life

[@imaz2616]

It's insane how stories start... My dad hate him he was abusive... My mom sex trafficked me at truck stop but I still love her. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Stockholm syndrome is the biggest trauma

[@pamelawhitten9385]

Peace and Blessings to you ❤❤

[@mizread]

It's now called mother trauma. My mother didn't fo that but other things. My dad was brutal too. Hard to live with even decades after she died, it affects your whole life. Sending you a big hug x

[@ritaouellette383]

Social workers will tell you that no matter how bad the parental abuse is they still want to stay with their Mom and Dad verses adoption or foster homes. I came from an abusive home with a stepfather who was on parole after doing 25 years of a life sentence for murdering two people. We lived in fear, and I hated him, but I loved my mother. At some point I might have rebelled and insisted on living with my biological Dad, but I couldn’t bear the idea of being away from my mother and siblings. I was 55 years old before I ever questioned why she married a murderer and brought him into her home to help raise her 5 children.

[@m.jaquarius8365]

​@@ritaouellette383If your mother feared him too, why would she invite him to come live in her home and allow him to help raise 5 kids that weren't his, and be abusive towards them and you, and herself. Sounds like your mom was the type of woman that had to have a man in her life at all times, and settled on whomever would have her, because there is no way that any descent mother would marry a convict and put up with them abusing her or her children, and cause her to live in fear 24/7. That's awful. Sorry you had to go through that.

[@janiej1966]

What I don't understand is how us children love our mother unconditional 😢😭.

[@robintrunnell6836]

Sabrina, I just want to give you a hug. What a strong young woman you are. I wish you all the best.

[@gorefieldluvr6921]

So proud of everyone who is breaking the cycle of trauma

[@britneyh6858]

My gosh I mightve not had a childhood as traumatic as her. But the symptoms she battles, and how to alleviate those symptoms, I relate too.. you touched my heart tremendously with your story. And I am so very proud of you. Keep going, keep loving those animals, and keep loving yourself. ❤

[@L.A.Denton]

CONGRATS ON BEING 4 YEARS SOBER!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉.

[@cannabissaves8940]

wow. triumph might not be a strong enough word for Sabrina. the resilience of the human ‘spirit’ is on full, beautiful display here. courageous, intelligent, articulate and poised. beautiful…inspiring. I hope she is able to see/feel that about herself. well done to you both. ❤

[@AnaFernandez-jp5uh]

This is such an honest soul baring interview. Thank you Mark and Sabrina. Sabrina, you have come a long way darling. You are awesome!

[@MERIDETH-u8r]

God gave us dogs (and other pets) for these reasons. Very special bonds.

[@Kellyscott-ni5xb]

Omg the way she said her mom used to traffic her for drugs like so matter of fact. Almost like she has found a way to understand and forgive her mom. As a former addict I’m very careful to never say I’d never do that. Because there have been so many things I never thought I would do. I use to beat myself up bc I would only do drugs at home in case something happened . I knew I could trust my young daughter to call 911 and she always did. Now I have to live with the fact that she struggles with anxiety and ptsd because of me. Now that I’m sober I look back in shame for my actions and gratitude for her. Hearing these stories makes me so grateful that I was blessed enough to get sober . I have 5 years now and I pray everyday that I never have to go back to that hell. I don’t think I could’ve survived had I done one more thing to have hurt my daughter. I learned quickly that drugs completely alter your perception and the control they have over you is unmatched. While trafficking your own daughter is absolutely horrific. I think your ability to try to forgive your mom is very brave. She is lucky to have had you and I will continue to pray for your happiness. Thank you for sharing everything that you have survived. You are definitely a case of what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

[@LasAzulesBoricua]

My wife is schizoaffective so this video hits home

[@Iamtherealbratzdoll]

People should get tested before being able to bring children into this world. Sabrina you are AMAZING! Stay beautiful !

[@Lilliesandlilacs]

Tested for what?

[@Iamtherealbratzdoll]

Like getting a mental check alot of parent do messed up things to their children that affect them for life. In so many words some people dont deserve kids.

[@Prettymapleleaf]

We need permits to add an addition on a home or build a deck but anyone can just pump out as many kids as they like. It’s a mess.

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

​@@Prettymapleleafthat's cra cra

[@markb8474]

Sabrina - Thank you for sharing your story. It took a lot of guts to tell the world what you've been through. You are one of the rare people who come from such a dysfunctional childhood and early adulthood have the strength to rise above. Thank God for your grandmother who showed you what a "normal" life can be and instilled those values and interests that have been so valuable for you. Stay strong. I can't help but think your appearance on Soft White Underbelly will result in a huge infusion of self-worth and personal pride which will help in your recovery from your earlier trauma.

[@ZodiaKittyKat]

Im schizoaffective with a very similar childhood background. Despite a nasty alcohol habit i developed later in life i traveled the world got educated have multiple degrees and actively sought healing. I fell but got up again, thats what you do. Its amazing to me that we are pigeon holed as being maladaptive or unable to even formulate sentences. Some of us may have cognitive difficulties, but the stigma around this disorder is very misinformed. I appreciate this channel as it showcases stigmas and those that dont abide by them. I hope for a time when family dynamics change for the better, until then i will be the one to break cycles until further notice.

[@rosalieposalie]

this interview hit close to my own trauma and life experiences. seeing someone come out the other side choosing life has deeply inspired me about choosing my own. thank you for this interview.

[@CindyRoberts-z1j]

Dear Sabrina, firstly congratulations on your sobriety and successes. 🎉Your story touched my heart.You are an inspiration and I am so pleased that you have overcome all your problems,even though, I'm sure that you still struggle. Keep up the amazing life that you are living.Your story will give hope to others.God bless you for eternity and continue to live your amazing life ❤😊

[@CrystalHotSauce1]

Childhood abuse does create codependency. Having pets is the best therapy vs having a codependent relationship with a predator human. Keep Soaring honey 💜

[@gwennk4962]

💯❗👋

[@JessicaTiramisu]

I don't think either are healthy...but, I get it, and I agree that pets are still better than abusive relationships (provided that the pets are well cared for).

[@NegressOfSaturn]

####facts ….. I like my cat…. But I think I want a dog, lol

[@CrystalHotSauce1]

@@NegressOfSaturn Dogs are very codependent on their humans. Cats are very independent. If you have a ton of time to cater to a dog, then I would suggest it. If you don't, cats are more ideal 💜

[@NegressOfSaturn]

@@CrystalHotSauce1 just made 4 years with my formerly feral cat… she’s only slept at the foot of my bed for the past 8 months… lover her but she won’t let me hold or carry her…. Which I have learned to respect…. But I’m def curious about a 🐶…. I recognize it’s a huge responsibility…. Maybe I’ll explore dog sitting and whatnot. lol.

[@dk237]

Sabrina is a fascinating person. How amazing that she was able to recover from her childhood trauma and is living her dream. ❤

[@Diana-bb6wn]

what a tragic and yet also heartening story, I'm so sorry for your experiences but you are a strong, beautiful soul, thank you for sharing.

[@erehwhon]

damn interesting what the dog has been trained to do. Young lady, you will be fine; you're bright and very wise for someone so young.

[@SomaPullela]

Sabrina, your eyes light up wonderfully when you talk about your dog. It's a relationship to treasure that I've only recently come to appreciate with my first one who provides the same comfort. Congrats also on your sobriety and please keep your, at times self-deprecating, dry sense of humor! At the risk of sounding cliche, you're living your best life right now. :)

[@hmarzan1976]

Sabrina if you’re reading this, just know you’re AMAZING!!! You made cry so hard from pain AND how much I’m proud of you (and I don’t even know you) All the best. Always and forever. ❤❤

[@cicelyb8229]

Beautiful sweet Sabrina, breaking family curses/family patterns, you are incredible! Bless you! Grateful for Grandmothers❤

[@MC-vd5kp]

Sabrina is a woman living with schizoaffective disorder, not a "schizoaffective woman.". In the same way, we would say, "Sabrina is living with liver cancer" not "Liver cancer Sabrina."(Just an example). People are not their illnesses.

[@tegan2mares]

You should be a writer. You're intelligent and perceptive. Thanks for sharing

[@jacquelineglitter4328]

God Bless You. Don't ever give up because those dogs need you. You have so much to offer and everything bad that happened to you wasn't your fault.

[@countchocula5379]

May God bless, protect, and keep this beautiful young lady. ✝️🙏🏻

[@leighsteed3749]

Sabrina, you are amazing! ❤ You are so smart, and you helped so many people understand what it means to be Schizoaffective. Congratulations on your 4 years of sobriety! 🎉

[@ritaouellette383]

Sabrina you’re a beautiful intelligent young woman who has fought hard to get where you are today. Your life can only get better from here on out. Your story really touched me. I’m a believer so I will pray for you as you continue on this journey of healing. ❤

[@Thursday_Tofu]

i also have schizoaffective, this was so helpful to find words for it

[@greglarsen2123]

What a brave, strong, remarkable woman! She has overcome so much! Animals are so therapeutic and I can relate to this in so many ways! I wish her peace and love! Adorable dog too!

[@nikkistuteville3172]

Sabrina you are an inspiration for me & everyone dealing with mental health issues💕

[@vmkast123]

Amazed at her perseverance!

[@BlossomandRise]

Schizoaffective Disorder is a thought disorder that consists of mood dysregulation. It's not a personality disorder, but she could also have Borderline Personality Disorder as well. I'm optimistic that she will maintain continued recovery. Such a brave soul for sharing her origin story.

[@terrytownsend5583]

Thank god for Google.

[@BlossomandRise]

@terrytownsend5583 Thank God for Graduate school and a License for psychotherapy.

[@terrytownsend5583]

@@BlossomandRise that old chestnut. It’s great that all of us can be whoever we want on this format! I’m Spartacus. You’re full of excrement.

[@MrsTessWren]

@@terrytownsend5583you have a history of negative comments. Sorry to see you’re unhappy and taking it out on others, maybe try a new approach.

[@terrytownsend5583]

@@MrsTessWren maybe GFY

[@vaniedavila4222]

Such a powerful story of resilience; hope this lovely, young human has brighter, safe and beautiful rest of her life. She’s suffered enough. Thank you for this story and insight🙏🏼💫😌

[@kessnelson3489]

You are beautiful within and on the outside. You are appreciated and worthy of the world. Keep on keeping on ❤. You are a wonderful speaker.

[@laurecuvillier]

Unbelievable resilience. That’s a book right there! Wishing you the best!

[@cheyennehall4057]

I love the relationship she has with her dog! They are the best companions. Mine really keeps me grounded some days. Best wishes to them both! ❤

[@duerremueller3609]

What a beautiful soul! Thank you for trusting us with your story, Sabrina

[@mariacawley746]

Thank you for sharing your story. Stay strong, and god bless you and your best friend. Amazing what dogs can do for our childhood trauma. Praying for you.

[@lesliecartwright7220]

I personally think you are extremely strong. I admire your ability to openly share all of you. You have a beautiful soul despite all the evil you've encountered. Keep your head up, prays and love to you.❤

[@UniquelyDesigned]

It's stories like this that are tougher to listen to. When the abuse starts young and from a parent. 😢

[@daxtondurio1070]

GOD THAT IS SO SAD! SO SORRY YOU WERE PUT THROUGH THAT!!! GOD BLESS YOU 🙌 I HOPE YOU FIND PEACE .

[@rosannacellini2158]

Sabrina, you are a strong young woman, and in spite of all the terrible things that happened to you, and your mental disabilities, you are now thriving and in a better place. Your safety dog friend, is a beautiful boy. Glad he really helps you out. Take care of yourself and I wish you all the luck in the future. 😌💐🌹🙏🙏🐾🐎

[@elainejohnson7493]

What a beautiful story. I cried happy tears listening to her. I pray and wish her the best, and maybe some real babies down the road. God bless this girl and her story.

[@leneo1731]

Sabrina! Your dog is absolutely stunning! So gracious and beautiful! Also, it seems very aware of your energy and needs, more than most dogs. There's nothing more beautiful than the bond between a dog and it's human. Dogs just have captured most of my heart. People have done nothing than break my heart and shut it down. When I finally got a dog, he started to open my heart again and my next dog really helped me piece together some of the broken pieces and make me a bit more open. The dog I have now is teaching me to be brave and to become more adventurous. I have a feeling his plan is to find me a partner. I absolutely know he has a mission but it took me a long time to understand this. I'm still learning every single day. Dogs over humans without question ❤️

[@leneo1731]

I wrote this before I got to the part where you said he's a service dog. Him being a servant explains why he's this attentive to you. I still believe some dogs are very intelligent and intuitive. I know a dog who made his owner go the the doctor where she got diagnosed with diabetes. The dog never failed to alert her about her blood levels getting to high or low, preventing her from having seizures. My dog, Luka, is extremely aware of people's energies. When we meet my sister I can just look at my dog and tell how she's doing. It's so incredibly fascinating. None of my other dogs have been like that. Before Luka, I had the love of my life, Emily with me for 14 years. He was so sensitive, a bit nervous but always there for me. Exept from when I got severe anxiety like panic attacks. When that happened he actually went to another room. My guess is that the energy was to much for him to handle.i very rarely cry and when I cried he also removed himself. Luka is totally different. If my sister is having a real bad day, he gets as close to her leg as he can and just sits there. Usually he's very happy to see people and is showing that with his whole body, wanting to be cuddled a lot. But when she's very anxious, all of that is gone and he just calmly walks up to her and sits beside her. I wonder if he's trying to calm her or if he's telling her he's going to protect her from whatever she's afraid of. When I cry he's grinding his face towards my face like cats do. He's just very special in another way than the two other dogs I've had. I wish I was well so I could train him to become a visit dog or a service dog but sadly my anxiety and OCD is preventing me from being able to do that. I'd love to share his beautiful personality with other people, like children with special needs or elderly people living at hospice and so on. It's a shame that such a wonderful dog won't be shared with other people.

[@kayem9909]

What a survivor. What an incredible human being. I just want to hug her. Cannot believe the hell she's been through. So unfair.

[@meredithk7610]

Beautiful lady, I wish you the very best in life. My mom was an alcoholic and not very nurturing, but like you, I miss her very much.

[@917hazel]

Beautiful soul. Beautiful portrait. Thanks to you both.

[@izolaevergreen4091]

I have schizoaffective disorder, and I just wanted to clarify that it is not a personality disorder. It's a mental illness that presents as a mood disorder mixed with schizophrenia symptoms. For example, I have schizoaffective bipolar type, there's also depressive type. I think it's important to give accurate information, so I just wanted to let people know that it is not classed as a personality disorder.

[@vincentzacks9584]

What a gentle soul you have, Sabrina, and a beautiful dog 🐕

[@flyingcanada9498]

“my friend thought my mom was the best lady in the world - because she was really good at putting on that front” my adoptive fathers wife was the exact same way. i empathize with you sabrina. “i just wished my parents would get divorced” every single day past 10 years old, this was my same thought. The only difference is that i was sexually abused by his wife. im not religious, but i will keep you in my heart and mind, i hope you can gain freedom from this trauma. i, and many others love you 💜

[@ActionForAging]

So brave to talk about it. I pray she finds moments of peace in every. single. day. 🙏

[@TaterTots380]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story! There's something to be said about the unconditional love animals give us.

[@deborahhenderson4929]

Sweetie...U are NOT responsible for ANY of the stuff that was done TO U! Nor are U responsible for ANY of the responses U had. Doen't matter if your reply was mean/nasty/uncomfortable...U ABSOLUTELY had/have the right to WHATEVER response you're exhibiting. NO-ONE has ANY right to...IN ANY WAY...Try to condition your response. U were A CHILD!!!So...the manner in which you responded...was PERFICK!!! Don't let ANYONE try and tell U different! Stay strong...cause you ARE...and just "luv the bones" of you. Every last molecule!!!❤❤❤

[@leanoble6883]

I too have schizoaffective disorder so this is really interesting to watch

[@CBrown86]

My heart breaks for this girl. You can tell she has a heart of pure gold ❤️

[@brandimyhren6317]

I love animals. They are our friends and are here for us and I’m grateful for all of them.

[@503ashkatchem4]

Being trafficked to truck drivers as a child I think yeah I would be schizophrenic as well. She’s a survivor and thank you for being so brave to tell your truth Sabrina wow I wish you the best in life