so did all lesbians go through not being able to get over their first real gay crush????
@conlon43323 жыл бұрын
YES YES YES YES. I was seriously obsessed! I literally couldn't imagine my life without obsessing over her! It was A LOT. I'm not proud of it, and I wanted to get over her for months - watched so many KZbin videos - but it was impossible. Eventually it just happened naturally, but nothing I did made a difference. Honestly I really hope nothing like that ever happens again as it's pretty scary how she consumed my life and how little control I had. I also don't know if I learned anything that would make another time any different - as I said I eventually (pretty out of nowhere) became pretty apathetic towards her, but I've no idea how and it didn't seem to be to do with anything I did, as hard as I tried to get over her. Oh well, it's been years and nothing similar (all-consuming) has happened since, so fingers crossed.
@tinakrisnaibot32333 жыл бұрын
She isn't a lesbian!
@oldenoughtobeyourmom2213 жыл бұрын
Yes
@sofias47773 жыл бұрын
she is pansexual i beleive, so i think a more inclusive thing to say is wlw or queer women but also yes :))
@mindy50273 жыл бұрын
Yep, in middle school I had a friend and we would hold hands and walk to classes together and flirt and be gay but neither of us had totally realized we were queer yet (shes bisexual and I'm a lesbian) but we would even talk about how when we got older we would travel the world together and get married but "just as friends" lol. I'm 19 and she's 18 and we recently reconnected after not speaking all throughout highschool and we both came out to eachother and talked about how we were crushing on eachother in middle school. We both admitted to even checking the other persons Instagram to see how they were/what they were doing every once in a while. I moved out of the state around the time we stopped taking but im visiting her in Nov. Which should be..interesting and good I hope lol. (Theres still a small piece of me that thinks maybe just maybe something will happen but either way I just at least want to be friends)
@evab14103 жыл бұрын
I recently found a poem I wrote when I was about 9 and it went: "This is a sad poem about a woman with no man: Once there was no man, Oh well... so be it" Maybe I was a super young feminist (rejecting the idea that a woman without a man is sad) or I was not able to see myself with a man (because...gay), or both! I didn't journal much as a kid, but I love I still have this
@KearaGraves3 жыл бұрын
I LOVE YOUR 9 YEAR OLD SELF OMG whatta queen😂
@princessthyemis3 жыл бұрын
I LOVE THIS
@sonder_safety3 жыл бұрын
bahahaha this is the funniest thing
@Iamthelaw.2 жыл бұрын
How are you gay at 8
@lazyweirdohehe2 жыл бұрын
@@Iamthelaw. well ur born with gayness
@AydenGraceMusic3 жыл бұрын
It’s funny when people think I suddenly became bi, or being gay is a choice, because look at my old journal entries, you’ll see it wasn’t a sudden “decision”. It was a life long discovery
@charlenechan81893 жыл бұрын
OMG THIS IS ABSOLUTELY ICONIC BABY KEARA WAS AN ICON. THE VOCABULARY THO 😭 SHAKESPEARE COULD NEVER
@walker80683 жыл бұрын
I remember picking out boys to have a crush on during primary and then getting uncomfortable or grossed out when they liked me back. Turns out I was a baby gay not willing to except I had a crush on my best friend, probably why I hated her boyfriend…. 😅
@aaarrriiieeelllooo2 жыл бұрын
omg i 'picked' boy to have crushes on to
@anystuff2412 жыл бұрын
Well- same. I'm pan but as I the first time liked a boy that actually liked me back as soon as he started to text with hearts I got so uncomfortable that I told him it was a prank. He was really hurt but after that we kinda became friends. Later on he got a crush on me again but this time I was like no, let's stay friends. (and then I have more tea to that but it's not the point so...)
@walker80682 жыл бұрын
@@anystuff241 I relate to the hearts omg
@imameme31852 жыл бұрын
@@aaarrriiieeelllooo oh my god, ME TOO! like jeez
@jennsumbera64353 жыл бұрын
THIS WHOLE VIDEO WAS EVERYTHING FKJDSHGS. PLS U ARE SUCH A MOOD KEARA, IT WAS SO CUTE AND FUNNY AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
@nella28523 жыл бұрын
"literally and figuratively..." had me dead 😭💀
@Nerdykay3 жыл бұрын
Hahaha it was super funny and cute! “Juliet and androgynous Juliet” that was hilarious! Thanks for sharing Keara, it made me think about myself and figuring out my sexuality.
@slaysweetie213 жыл бұрын
WHY DID THAT PROM STORY SOUND LIKE IT CAME FROM A WATTPAD STORY LMAO
@KearaGraves3 жыл бұрын
FOR REAL THO. I COULD WRITE A FANFIC. WHY DIDN'T I???
@slaysweetie213 жыл бұрын
@@KearaGraves PLSJSJD ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO 😭😭
@KearaGraves3 жыл бұрын
@@slaysweetie21 TRUE... 😏
@CursedChildOfTheFae Жыл бұрын
THAT'S WHAT I WAS THINKING!!!
@maggie50183 жыл бұрын
It’s so sweet how you want to slowly share more and more of yourself with us here. I can see from u younger self journals that you’re a really smart, kind and valuable person! So glad to be a part of ur community
@eca77263 жыл бұрын
it's so nice to feel like a hopeless romantic high school student again, thank you for making this. Pls do this again (only if you want to 😂)
@tanapsycho10083 жыл бұрын
im in highschool rn and i can't get this girl out of my head so im glad im not alone (shes so pretty; crying and throwing up)
@urgayfriend2 жыл бұрын
I’m in middle school and I am still a hopeless romantic #rejection
@tiny.elephant96952 жыл бұрын
I am in that phase rn😔
@mintchocolatechip86733 жыл бұрын
lmaooo I love thisss I wish I would've written down my feelings when I started questioning so I could look back on it and cringe a little bit as well hahah
@Travel_and_kittens3 жыл бұрын
“It's Juliet and androgynous juliet”, why is this describing my life so well? (✨🏳️🌈I AM ABSOLUTELY GOING TO USE THIS SENTENCE 🏳️🌈✨)
@ilistentogirlinred30973 жыл бұрын
"but instead of romeo and juliet it's juliet and androgynous juliet." LOL I love this so much.
@mirrorball_123 жыл бұрын
Already know from the title that this video I gonna be one hell of a video, love ya Keara hope you are doing well this must have brought so many nostalgic memories ❤
@lassam3333 жыл бұрын
So interesting what things you find out/remember going back through memory lane. Do still have contact with "Juliet" ?
@KearaGraves3 жыл бұрын
she's still a friend of mine! we catch up once in a while! :)
@daddyvr68583 жыл бұрын
I'm so ready for the para social slumber party vibes
@sehersings25433 жыл бұрын
Omg what you read from your past sounds like something I’d write in my journal now lol
@hannahmcadie24703 жыл бұрын
i have so many diaries from when i was a kid and i KNOW there’s so many baby gay moments in them
@angelpragyaminz19503 жыл бұрын
I've never been this early to Keara's video before!! love you!!
@melkorokam3 жыл бұрын
girl you were writing whole fanfics i cant 💀
@conlon43323 жыл бұрын
I'm pretty sure "you can't help who you fall in love with" is a saying. Like, maybe a mushy teen romance saying, but still. I don't think you invented it.
@aragingqueergirl95013 жыл бұрын
Otis said it in sex ed season 1 so 🤷♀️
@KearaGraves3 жыл бұрын
OPE... i didn't think i was that smart anyway hahahaha
@the_zster_official2 жыл бұрын
It’s from girl in red
@sheanentheong3 жыл бұрын
Hi Keara! Um I'm thinking of starting a gay social club in college but idk what do people do in gay social clubs lol. If I'm not mistaken, you were in one for a while in highschool. Can you tell me some of the things you did? It would be really helpful. Thanks. Love you 💕
@awkweirdabby83523 жыл бұрын
Hello! Currently about to be president of an lgbt club at my college. Some of the stuff we did in previous years: education/lgbt history, celebrate coming out day, educating allies, make bracelets with your pride flag, letting people rant about their struggles, halloween party, lgbt safe prom, crafts, advocating for lgbt rights on campus. Open mic/art show, chalk drawing, trips to lgbt museums or movies/musicals if anything is nearby. Oh also watching movies and short films and stuff with representation together. The most important part is that you’re there as a calm, safe space especially if your college isn’t super liberal. Feel free to email me!
@sheanentheong3 жыл бұрын
@@awkweirdabby8352 thank you so much! 💖💖
@awkweirdabby83523 жыл бұрын
Sheanen the Ong np! Good luck!! 💗
@nicegenderbro88143 жыл бұрын
But I think you also have to be careful not to out people who attend before they're ready
@sheanentheong3 жыл бұрын
@@nicegenderbro8814 yeah I also thought about that 😭 it's gonna be tough
@kfc60293 жыл бұрын
this is so funny to me because i had a very similar 'not knowing im gay' growing up story haha
@kaiya331233 жыл бұрын
This video made my day!!
@jennsumbera64353 жыл бұрын
WHEN U SHOWED THE L&F PIC MY HEARTTTT-
@eddiespaghetti27343 жыл бұрын
me too🥺🥺🥺🥺
@ericaschoenberg77823 жыл бұрын
this is such a mood lmao!! I have a whole box of old diaries in my closet but there’s no buildup to the gay?? so ive been stalking my own tumblr posts from early 2012 trying to figure out When I Knew lolol
@shadowcat45293 жыл бұрын
Omg this whole thing is so relatable as I'm still in school and WOW that was cringe but super funny and cute!
@ericag3213 жыл бұрын
I just did a super similar thing recently going through all my old journals and cringing at all the closeted self talk 🤣
@viktorieprazakova56063 жыл бұрын
part two please, i could watch this content for hours!
@avaball23453 жыл бұрын
This was so funny i can understand how you felt while reading just trying to kind of change your emotions by reading in a different way 😅 love you keara
@kayladennison79862 жыл бұрын
Her: boys haveing crushes on me and me hateing it Me: MY HOLE LIFE RN
@kathleenpallotta3 жыл бұрын
KAOPDASKDDJHD that was funny. Don't feel too embarassed though, that's probably what EVERY baby-gay diary looks like 😂
@eca77263 жыл бұрын
I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THISSSSS
@helenacorrea66203 жыл бұрын
OMG! Everthing you felt I felt too at the same age! WOW! Boys in my classes had crush on me, but I didn't care and looking back today I was very mean to them lol. I was always in the boys group but I don't remember of having a huge crush on a girl at that age like before ten or 11 or 12, but I have today and it's a friend soo I deal with that pain :( Anyway, thank you for sharing your baby gay stories, that was really funny! LOVE YA! Take care!
@hannahbanana99012 жыл бұрын
did we all collectively have our first gay crush on our best friend or am i the only one lol. it only lasted like 2 weeks :(
@itz_ary3 жыл бұрын
I loved this so much. I still live with my parents (cause i'm in highschool and can't afford an apartment yet) so journalling just isn't in the cards for me. Like a couple of years ago I was maybe 10, 11. I kept a diary and I wrote about my crush in it both boy and girl but i didn't know i was queer yet so i described girl as my "very close best friend" but i legit described the boy as my crush and my parents got suspicious of me writing in it all the time, snooped through my room, found it and read it. Next thing I know i'm called into their room, they yell at me for HAVING A CRUSH in the first place then proceed to tell me I can't have one until i'm old enough to be MARRIED😭. Luckily they didn't pick up on the "very close best friend" bs or I would've been SCREWED. Sucks to have conservative Christian parents sometimes. Like they can insult someone pissing them off on the road by going too slow but I have one crush and Pandora's box is suddenly open. I'm probably NEVER coming out to them.
@내이름은애승3 жыл бұрын
I watch every video by x2 but yours I watch it on normal speed bc I just want to enjoy it as fully long as possible its so fun!! Thank u sm for making these videos Keara:) love from South Korea💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️😍😍😍 hope u see this!!!😊
@landslave2 жыл бұрын
You are SO GENUINE. How can we not be on team Keara? I hope you and Lauren love and live an epic life together for 70 yrs. And I hope you both understand you each won the lottery in spouses/wives/husbands.
@meikelezer82033 жыл бұрын
Teen keara was very angsty hahaha loved this video
@tuxedosam54003 жыл бұрын
The way you read this made it sound like some really strange Wattpad story, and honestly that’s how I wrote in my journals too 😂
@nanadecarvalho78402 ай бұрын
This was so sweet Keara 😂 Teenage angst was such an intense feeling.
@nikipomu3 жыл бұрын
u wrote the diary like a whole gay romance novel and I love that
@ananunez48873 жыл бұрын
and you will see you 20 years today and you will feel tenderness
@epicme70323 жыл бұрын
Those journals are so fricking relatable, wasn't laughing coz it sounds bad, was laughing coz i felt so understood lmaoo 🤣🤣🤣🤣
@stephtaylor62922 жыл бұрын
Omg Keara! Please! I need more of this! .....was just getting into it the gay angsty teen vibes... my kinda content. :)
@BoolilyT3 жыл бұрын
can't wait to look back on my present writing lmao
@kamilamendes6873 жыл бұрын
9:52 "rEaLly SetTiNg tHe ScEnE, what an angsty teen bedroom vibe" "It was not my own bedroom, it was like my friend's bedroom"
@em42003 жыл бұрын
“because i don’t really care either” ME WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL
@steph_00853 жыл бұрын
LOVE this! Great vlog. She’s That Girl would make a great title for a les romcom movie..
@justinfelt7483 жыл бұрын
Hi, Keara!😊😊😊😊😊. This is amazing! I have never seen your old diary before in 2010. Also, the picture of you as a baby, it's so beautiful that I can cry happy!😢😢😊😊💙💙💙💙💙💙. And right now, you're all grown up and become the prettiest girl in the world with cool, positive vibes.💙🌈💜🌈💙🌈💜. I give this video a 10+ for your beautiful diary stories!⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐👍. I love you so much, Keara. You're the best!😊😙💙💙💙💙💙🌈💜💜💜💜💜💜😊⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐👍
@caryllannetrasmonte43253 жыл бұрын
I literally did not have a boy crazy phase unlike my peers which made me thought maybe romance isn't for me, but then I was just actually gay
@debbie79893 жыл бұрын
what you said at 6:38 ...... when i tell u it's like im hearing myself 😭 so relatable
@MargoMB193 жыл бұрын
Omg I'm feeling secondhand embarrassment so hard! You are really brave to share all this, I can't imagine sharing my diary entries from that age with anyone (mine were usually a lot less coherent and rather stupid though).
@yesxiloveyouthemost2 жыл бұрын
I loved this so much, and it's very much relatable ;) you're not alone in this!
@Darkstarproductions13 жыл бұрын
Omg this was priceless lol. We have all been there, well, mostly haha. It's very cool how you kept all your diaries that far back, I remember some of mine, but I didn't keep them because my handwriting was terrible. Today I keep a diary, but I do what the iconic Anne Lister (Gentleman Jack) did & I write anything personal in code, so no one else can read my cringy words lol
@dahli80433 жыл бұрын
"its juliet and androgynous juliet" I LITERALLY LOST IT I HAVE A HEADACHE FROM LAUGHING SO HARD
@_thismess3 жыл бұрын
9:00 bruh this sounding like a whole fanfic
@harleyquiinnnn2 жыл бұрын
i wish you did more of this 🥺
@KrissyFizzle3 жыл бұрын
Your handwriting was so pretty 😩❤
@slaysweetie213 жыл бұрын
LMAO PLS THE SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT I FELT THROUGH THE SCREEN OF LIL KEARA 😭😭
@tan_tanii3 жыл бұрын
I USED TO KEEP A DAIRY, AND ONE IF THE THINGS I WROTE WAS LITERALLY HOW JEALOUS I WAS OF THIS BOY WITH MY BEST FRIEND, AND I KEPT SAYING LIKE "omg, this boy is keeping me away from my bestie" AND THINGS LIKE THAT. OH, LITTLE 11 YEAR OLD ME, YOU DONT KNOW IT YET, BUT YOU ARE FRUITY
@TinaMey3 жыл бұрын
I have such a baby gay diary as well and whenever I read it I cringe so hard. It’s so funny and so obvious how gay I was. But it took me many pages before I actually questioned myself :’D
@ko-lq7vu2 жыл бұрын
“you can’t help who you fall in love with” sounds kind like “the heart wants what it wants” so maybe that was the saying?
@valentinaosoriogonzalez36923 жыл бұрын
OMG, this just made my whole day 😩
@_-maxine-_94602 жыл бұрын
I just found your channel, I really like your videos!!
@AD-hs9su3 жыл бұрын
😂🤣🤣🤣wow it just brighten up my day!! 😂 part 2 plsss
@cinnamonroll93752 жыл бұрын
i just realised this is quite long so um sit tight haha sorry for rambling i remember this one time in like year 6, my friends were getting on my nerves asking me if i had a boyfriend all the time. i didn’t really know i liked girls, just that i was a bit “odd” as i remember writing once. (i didn’t like boys as my friends did, i think i meant) anyway, one day i just decided i liked this boy in my class who i’ll call sam. all my friends were obsessed with the fact i “liked someone”, so they asked him out for me without my permission (shocker!!). i think after that i dated him for a while. we went to the cinema once, and saw each other at someone’s birthday party. i think i got quite weirded out that i was dating him and felt mean seeing as i didn’t like him. so, one day, i asked him if we could just be friends, and he blew his top. he told everyone i was gay (i think everyone was already a bit suspicious of this since i wasn’t really like them in that way.) thinking back to this all, it was very silly and i wish i could have just not pretended to like someone 😅
@user-sc7rp8ks7s3 жыл бұрын
Senior Keara had their wattpad moment
@ionataberham59833 жыл бұрын
so cute! I wish I journalled more!
@bellamckinnon86552 жыл бұрын
10:34 not me in the 8th grade having a huge crush on my female best friend while I tried to be straight for my family by having a boyfriend at the same time-
@bil_gor12232 жыл бұрын
Idk why but this video reminds me of when me and my friends found a breakup poem in the school bathroom that was obviously written by someone who was like 8 or 9. It was like, “Roses are red Vilets are ble And your soul is black For brecking up with me” It was really sad and funny at the same time!
@aggressivecatnamedtiny24623 жыл бұрын
1:06 awwwwww alil deja vu 🥺 who else came form that show🥺
@stephensullivan46962 жыл бұрын
God this video made my heart burst I'm shaking right now
@thatmarvelshifter Жыл бұрын
GAY-BIES UNITE~
@corinneadair21193 жыл бұрын
Omg that isn’t cringe that’s so FREAKING CUTE OMG I’m 16 and whenever I try to Journal I get embarrassed and worried that someone will find it so I rip up the paper and throw it away lmao
@idibidi37243 жыл бұрын
9:30 >>>> Insert THAT short clip from Tom and Jerry where Jerry is calling Tom over. You know which one I'm talking about. 😶😝
@raine53842 жыл бұрын
LITERALLY AND FIGURATIVELY IM DYING
@earlybirddreamful3 жыл бұрын
YOUR PALM (not hand lol idk the english word), i had to try doing that again, instantly (failed cause i don't have any hairstyleskills that pass braiding sth as in literally sth lmao, and my tophair was too long for the exact look) also i find it really nice that u censored stuff cause it shows other people they don't owe anyone exposing things that feel private!
@linloo1113 жыл бұрын
Do you mean their ponytail? (Yes, that's a real word. Language can be funny sometimes. 😆)
@sydneymarie72553 жыл бұрын
why did we all resort to writing poetry 😭😭😭
@eddiespaghetti27343 жыл бұрын
hiii lgbtq+ community🥰🥰
@mintchocolatechip86733 жыл бұрын
hey ;)
@eddiespaghetti27343 жыл бұрын
@@mintchocolatechip8673 hello!!!!
@someone259153 жыл бұрын
heyy :))
@blandinelong333 жыл бұрын
Oh, oh I need this so much.
@hannahmaggieberdine23972 жыл бұрын
My old diaries are just denial central lol
@theyeetmaster96883 жыл бұрын
Am I the only one who had Little Miss Perfect playing on repeat in their mind during Baby Queera's after-prom party story?
@ajabtambuwala61723 жыл бұрын
why do we have the same journal entries ??????!!!!
@soleneptune94983 жыл бұрын
That second hand embarrassment almost killed me great video😂😂😂🤦🏾♀️
@kennedysamuel66473 жыл бұрын
God this vid is my fav of all time now😂😂
@efis.6362 жыл бұрын
love your videos!Nice work☺️
@airavatara3 жыл бұрын
I feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack bc 3 minutes into this video I realized that I have a journal from grade 5 where I unknowingly admitted to having a crush on a girl. And my mom encouraged us to journal so she could read them. Obviously I have trust issues and now I'm afraid my h*mophobic mom read that AAAHHHHH
@StarxxStay3 жыл бұрын
whom ever disliked this video you have a spot in hell waiting for you now have a good day
@meredithhsu15253 жыл бұрын
this video make my day
@ellouisebadger8493 жыл бұрын
Really cute video idea 🥰
@luvvstayayay26233 жыл бұрын
PLS DO PART TWO 😃
@loupelizzo23993 жыл бұрын
I love and enjoyed your diary and love this gay readings and thank you so much for sharing your diary. Just a great video
@Sophia-qq2ys3 жыл бұрын
Sounds like a whattpad story
@kenziestoneman71412 жыл бұрын
Sister I just have to let you know you are a Beautiful Queen👑, I hope you know it now and remember it your whole life you are Beautiful and we all Love you just as You are!!!!!
@tinotendagunda11632 жыл бұрын
I loved u on lost and found and u r a bicon and you've got me thorough some stuff ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@samcrabtree77513 жыл бұрын
i love you. this is the best thing ever
@meyathehuman97802 жыл бұрын
2010 you in that first entry really said "material gworl🤪"