Sexual Intrusive Thoughts: Where did my libido go?

[@treystokes4090]

This video literally changed my life. I can't thank you enough for it. OCD is one hell of a beast and I guess I needed a knock up side the head to help me realize I'm not broken. Thank you thank you thank you.

[@stonerbubble]

Hi I've been dealing with ocd and physical symptoms for decades now and I've noticed a pattern. I've had almost all kinds of themes hocd, contamination, harm, magical thinking, scrupulosity you name it. The fear of something bad happening can create sensations based on the focus of that fear. Your mind basically gives you exactly what you're afraid of. So when it comes to sexuality the thought of being attracted to or aroused by something that goes against who you are is very uncomfortable. When you respond to the thought with fear your brain flags that as a threat, a problem that must be solved so that you can be safe. It will remind you of that threat automatically. Think of it like this, if I have a fear of bugs and I see a bug in the corner of my room my skin may tingle or itch. The bug hasn't touched me, I don't want it to touch me, but my brain creates the sensation. It's saying "check yourself for bugs!" It's automatically running a virtual simulation based on what it estimated that would feel like. If however I don't respond with fear the sensation may be weaker of not happen at all. So what does that mean for sexual orientation or hocd? Exactly that same thing. Instead of saying "check for bugs" it's saying "make sure your not into guys" or "check your not into girls" and it may project a simulation of that fear or uncomfortable thought. What you are attracted to in reality comes naturally, it feels natural and harmonious and you just know it's right for you.

[@stonerbubble]

@ARMY WarOfBangtan sorry maybe that wasn't helpful. Yes I've felt exactly what you've described. False attraction can happen and it's really scary and confusing especially when it comes with decreased feelings of attraction for what you actually want. What is normal and natural for you comes from a place of harmony, you just know it's right for you. Ocd can put you into a depressed state where things that were enjoyable don't seem to work. You can get better though it just takes time.

[@mel5282]

ARMY WarOfBangtan me too, I thought I wasn’t sexually attracted to anyone for a moment. My hocd isn’t only about turning gay or bi it’s also about being other sexuality’s like asexual

[@stonerbubble]

@ARMY WarOfBangtan It's been a long battle but I'm winning :) I've learned that the part of the mind that ocd comes from is primitive, it doesn't understand the thoughts you're having or why they're scary. It says "oh this is scary? Ok I'll send you reminders about it" You have to choose what's important. You, not ocd. Choose to say ok I'm done with that, it's not important. Choice doesn't require proof. Choice doesn't require reassurance. Yes the thought is scary be you've thought about it long enough.

[@stonerbubble]

@ARMY WarOfBangtan yes that's true. Unfortunately there aren't many therapy resources where I am. I've been watching Ali Greymond here on youtube, she has advice that has helped me. Her video on coming from a position of power has been a great help

[@IK7.]

@ARMY WarOfBangtan how are you doing now?

[@megjohnson7184]

What she said about trying to reassure herself by being with boys. And one minute feeling okay and then the intrusive thoughts come back, I get that. I've been on a cycle that I feel like I'm back to normal and then out of nowhere I feel shitty again. And one time I felt good for three days so I really thought I beat it. HOCD has made me question if I only like the idea of guys, but I know I have been sexually attracted to them before. I hate it. I just wish I could be myself again. And it's worse when I feel good and I remember all the reasons why I like guys and then the intrusive thoughts come back and it's like my brain fogs up.

[@thienhoang1001]

I have never related to a video more in my life. When she brought up her experience with OCD and the ER, I remember doing the exact same thing when I had stomach issues. I went like 4 times hoping that they would be able to prove something wrong with me but I'm sure it was only my anxiety acting up. After that, I started to experience Relationship OCD with my girlfriend and I kept asking whether or not she was the right one for me. I kept looking at other girls and begun to criticize the way she looked in my head and it made me feel so guilty. Unfortunately, I had to end it because I couldn't deal with the anxiety that it gave me every single day. Now I have HOCD and it's literally one of the worst things ever. I feel extremely anxious around dudes and my own friends, which I never felt before. This has lead to social anxiety and now I feel weird and nervous whenever I leave my house or see any dude at all. Being an extrovert it has been one of the worst times of my life. Thanks for the videos Chrissie and hope that everyone who goes through this hell will be able to recover and live the life that they rightfully deserve.

[@maddierose8123]

me too!!!! i related so much to this. it started as health ocd at first , then harm ocd , and then relapse of health ocd and now hocd!!!

[@LoudPaintings]

For awhile now I have been wondering if an OCD dating app would be a good idea or not, but it also might be a nightmare haha. REASSURANCE FOR DAYS! LOL But it would be nice to be with someone who has the understanding and compassion of what you're dealing with. Thank you so much for your videos.

[@bd-ps1gn]

I thought of that too 😂 i think only somone who also has ocd can understand me. But it might be a bad idea too. Idk

[@yovanamicheljimenez2391]

My fiancé doesn’t have ocd but totally understands me, there are some amazing human beings in this world who will love and accept you just the way you are! But yes a dating app would be super funny 😆

[@starrynight669]

Honestly it would be nice to date someone who relates to my problems

[@nabilsh9347]

You made me want to cry... I don't know what to say... I am tired of everything... The problem is i am not sure if i have ocd or not... I assume i do because i keep coming back to pure o videos because it feels it describes me everytime i listen to them.... Anyway ur video spoke so much to me.... Everything u said is validating for me and i feel like someone understands me... The problem is that my one of my therapist diagnosed me with ocd but the other said i have intrusive thoughts but not necessarily ocd... But with the latter, i speak to her about my emotions more. And like you said it is the emotion and pain, they are real.. For example my biggest problem is my neck...there is a sensation i feel in my neck.. When i feel it, everything is gone... My libido is gone... My focus is gone, life changes for me... I feel that i become emotionless... And life just become shit. I have also self doubt which coule be the ocd... I mean don't depressed people have bad libido anyway?... Maybe i am depressed? Or do i have ocd? Idk i am just done with everything... The problem is when i feel this neck feeling, i also feel very intense feeling in my chest... Like sad, agitated, angry, confused alltogether (not sure how to describe it).... My problem is you are saying that we are normal witihin or do our normal but i developed this ocd or neck sensation in 2010 when i was 17!...so how do i know what is normal for me... What if i change anyway... I mean people sometimes change from active to assexual? Right? What if i am assexual... Huh... I can see writing this comment down that i have ocd but again i still have this doubt because things feel so real and i have emotions and bodily sensations so what gives 😔

[@juicywrld9-9-94]

nabil sh93 bro, if u borned straight then u are straight, i have hocd to and its almost gone. WHEN YOU GET KNOCKED DOWN, DONT GET TO COMFORTABLE WITH THE GROUND!

[@stonerbubble]

Hi my name is Chris. I have had ocd, depression and high anxiety for many years and I'm sorry to say what you have described seems very familiar to me. I used to have od feelings in my feet whenever I put on shoes, related to a fear of contamination. I would feel a tingling on my skin, the more I focused on it the worse it got, I felt I couldn't relax and my muscles would ache. Was it tension? Or a real problem? Was my skin tingling because of the thought of germs or an actual symptom of something? The issue with your neck could be related to anxiety. The effects of anxiety can create strange uncomfortable sensations, such as what you may feel in your chest. A loss of focus, inability to concentrate and low libido are symptoms of both depression and anxiety. Ocd is you brains way of bringing your attention to a perceived threat. Basically, whatever you respond to with fear gets flagged in your mind as a threat. This is no fault of yours, unusual sessions in your body are scary especially when you don't know what they are. The thought of losing your sexual identity or orientation is a scary thought. Believe me I know. But consider this, if you imagine a bug on your skin or even just in your home somewhere your mind can create the sensation. If you imagine drinking bad milk it can make you feel sick. Your brain is trying to protect you. Disregarding thoughts and feelings is difficult but that's what you have to do. Even when your brain is scaring you into thinking it's real. Be ok without absolute certainty. Nowadays I can wear my shoes comfortably even without the thought of getting Ebola of the foot. Not saying it can't happen or I'd be thrilled if I did buuuut the odds are slim. I also find Ali Greymond's videos helpful, maybe you will too

[@elderbrain4948]

I have been watching your videos for the last 2 days and have learned that OCD CAN be sexually based or even violent. I always thought I might have these thoughts do to OCD, but I was and am too ashamed to share them with anyone. I never saw this sort of thing on you tube until really recent. I think it does effect my love life with my wife in many ways. Thank you for this. I dont think you realize how much solace you offer us even if we dont realize it at first. This motivated me to seek help. As scared as I am.

[@chamomilemaree8197]

I always find your videos very helpful and funny. Thanks for turning such a serious mental illness into something less scary for me.

[@hix9306]

Wow it’s crazy how people live the same lives . I still live with health ocd/ anxiety been to the ER numerous times and also dealing with the Hocd . That had left and came back. I’m glad I’m not the only one

[@howitfeelstochewfivehum]

This was the first thing I’ve seen that really resonates!!! Did not think my ocd had power over me besides worrying about the front door being locked. It’s truly manifested into parts of my life I didn’t even consider. We got this though!!!!

[@matthewshoobridge1107]

Another great video Chrissie! Your openness and honesty for the benefit of us all is truly admirable, thank you 🤩🤩🤩✊

[@prayersforladybug7368]

Great advice 18:40 "Live my life anyway"

[@pedrosimao2522]

Not even kidding, today i was thinking about libido! Thank you!

[@harrytommo7126]

is it possible to be scared of a relationship? like i have hocd and i know i don’t want to be with a girl (im a girl) but i get so nervous because i just cant picture myself in a relationship rn and i dont want to be in a relationship and i get so so nervous and i cant stop thinking about it and than i start crying... i cant do this anymore... i think it’s because of hocd but im not sure and im always asking myself sometimes my brain tells me that ‘ you’re gay you don’t want a relationship ‘ i mean i want a relationship w a boy and not with a girl but i cant do relationships rn... does that make any sense?? is this normal? can this happen?

[@Nimi856]

Thank you so much, I'm going through your videos and relates to every single thing.. its so important to me that people are going through the same experiences as i am

[@yovanamicheljimenez2391]

I love Chrissie! She’s amazing and extremely knowledgeable. I appreciate everything you do for OCD. I used to think OCD meant washing hands now I know how much it can take over if we don’t have the proper tools. Thanks to you and your amazing work, more people can smile each day. God bless you Chrissie! Your doing a great job!

[@anthonystitt7015]

You are so compassionate. Thank you.

[@rach2.2]

You always help me feel normal. ❤️ Thank you!

[@Life-io5ok]

I’m stuck, so I’m a straight male, always have currently questioning my sexuality and I believe I have HOCD, only issue is, if I do anything to change my appearance or something that’s a drastic change to myself, I always ask myself, “what will girls think?” Not what will boys will think. So If my mind seems to only want to take opinions from girls on myself, then why am I questioning my sexuality?

[@kylehill9121]

Unrelated to the video but your curly hair really suits you.

[@mel5282]

Ryan Irwin- Diehl it was a compliment

[@laurenskordas333]

Thank you for all that you do!

[@Lou-hi7kq]

Ngl i made up this example that helps me understand ocd and its like when your cooking a steak and you like it well done but you don't trust that its cooked all the way through so you keep cooking it and keep doing this until the steak is vurnt out this us like how I think of ocd and it sounds stupid but it ls true you keep doing the rumination or reassurance your gonna burn yourself out

[@ZomBcupcake86]

This video helped me understand my husband more. 🖤

[@joaobaka8404]

But how can i tell if i really don't want to do what this thoughts say to me?

[@Jayant_klkrni]

It feels like a lose lose situation.

[@J89943]

Going through the child abuse ocd I set myself affirmations saying I’m not these things but I know I’m attracted to women I even think Chrissie is hot as hell im going to try nofap which is a Middle Eastern practice where you quit masturbation and it’s apparently a life improver I’d like to try THANK YOU CHRISSIE YOU’RE WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING

[@MarioGarcia-ef3qf]

Bruh I was super easily aroused and sexually driven fast! (Towards women) then HOCD came in and boom! My libido died down a bit low key. I’m still attracted to women and still get sexually aroused and romantically in love but my sex drive chilled out

[@gavinletourneau644]

In the same boat

[@wengadeeaider7362]

@@gavinletourneau644 have it came back yet

[@wengadeeaider7362]

Have it came back

[@Ali-kf5bd]

so if a person has ocd it can make them feel NOT aroused by the person they want to be aroused by and simultaneously get arousal from the things they DON'T want to feel arousal towards?

[@maddierose8123]

i’m wondering the same exact thing

[@saikotikvixen2922]

Is it possible to not feel any anxiety during questioning as to whether you have OCD or not? And when wondering why a thought did not bother you as it usually did? Have I been desensitized, or is it even OCD?

[@bd-ps1gn]

It happens to me. I think its possible. Some days these thoughts dont affect me, other days they are the worst. Its okay if you dont feel anxiety. Its still ocd.

[@saikotikvixen2922]

ARMY WarOfBangtan, thank you! I have been on 50mg of fluvoxamine for two weeks, 100mg since last week. I still panic over not reacting as I usually do (the groinal responses with little to no anxiety are extremely convincing), but I am surviving for certain. ERP is next on my list, but I need to work on not giving attention to the thoughts/urges.

[@wengadeeaider7362]

How you doing right now

[@niallobeirne8508]

We only stop ourselves.... because its terrifying 😖 you know that. And yes we have insight but that dosnt change OCD 🥺

[@fransmierenneuker8823]

Can ocd manipulate your feelings. Sometimes I like the thought of a man ( i have hocd by the way ) and that feeling of liking feels so real, but its never permanent if i test it enough I don’t like it anymore. Can hocd do this??!!

[@mel5282]

I’ve been wondering this too. I know i don’t like girls but ever since this hocd thing I’ve been trying to convince myself I like someone of the same gender and I don’t but I still get intrusive thoughts

[@mel5282]

Hey chrissie, please make a video about false attractions and hocd. I’m convinced I like a girl but deep down I don’t but I don’t know anymore. Please help me.

[@alexa-ef8lu]

hi! I believe i have hocd (I really hope so) and I have gone through something like you are talking about like my brain will pick someone to focus on and my anxiety will go through the roof when they are around or if I have to interact with them and it feels like I’m being pulled to them and I don’t want it. I’m scared it’s just me being in denial and that I actually like them but who knows anymore...can you relate to what I’m talking about? It’s so scary to go through.

[@abbyn1939]

@@alexa-ef8lu hi alexa do u have an email i could talk to u through I'm going through the same thing

[@joebrat6809]

I feel the same way I suffered a severe porn addiction that I have now seemingly managed to kick. While my attraction to trans women has considerable gone away in the 5 weeks since I quit, I still have HOCD and I’m worried I won’t be able to perform if I’m with a woman.

[@Mrs.Milkins23]

Idk if this is a popular problem or something other people experienced but I had an ex who was a sex addict and I had OCD but it got wayyy worse being with him. He also pretended to have OCD and it really got me screwed up because he would lie and cheat and even sexually assaulted me. He has a long history of a very sexually ambitious lifestyle. Well anyway....I'm so screwed up from him and I got all kinds of thoughts dealing with him....now everything triggers me. I now believe he's a narcissist. But do narcissists feed on this stuff??

[@RiteshKumar-gq6vs]

My sexual desire goes away. Please help me..

[@ahadsherjee1242]

I have instrutive thought about my parents .i don't think it's sexual thought. I watch too much porn may be that's damaging my brain but I got addicted to porn because of depression I remember I was home alone there was no one I was just in severe depression and I was just at mobile scrolling and saw nude photos and I got in to porn and masturbation. Is there any solution to my Incest OCD and also I suffer in social gathering it's so hard to talk to people I just get headache by it. I feel to isolate myself forever but I know thats not gonna work. Please anyone?

[@lizzyloop5388]

Hey do you want to talk about it?

[@mel5282]

Ive been struggling with hocd over quarintine and i keep getting intrusive thoughts about kissing girls and i dont want them. My hocd is trying to convince me that i like a girl i know even though i never saw her that way before. Can you help me? Please reply im suffering

[@Bygone-Days]

Hi Mel, is there any way that you can be contacted aside the comments section? You seem to be in a very bad place right now and I'm open to offer some support!

[@mel5282]

《 Alpha Centauri 》 I actually erased social media but you can email me. Thank you so much. It’s [e-mail]

[@abbyn1939]

Mel can i also contact you?

[@love4airyka239]

Hey, Chrissie, I've been watching your videos for a while( since march) and for some of the stuff I've been going through sounds just like HOCD. Today and yesterday I tries rassuring myself by doing a few thing(also by watching your videos...sorry). After trying to reassure myself it just seemed to get worse! I don't know if it hocd or not, but it's scaring me because what if these thoughts are real. I'm currently undiagnosed, but I'm really afraid to get help because it feels so real and the guilt. I'm in highschool currently and I am female. I believe this has been happening for four years, but I don't know and the uncertainty is killing me. I really don't know what to do. Could you share some advice because I feel I'm losing my mind😣

[@jacquilinerapsang3754]

Wat ever i think of then automatically the sexual desire starts. N even if i look at something it starts. Im so confused I dont want it.. But it jus happen. im not confuse im into guys.. N i love my husband.. I know i love my husband. But i dont know. Were it comes from.. But i know wen im not aware it comes... I don't want it. But it just happened. 😭

[@love4airyka239]

@@jacquilinerapsang3754 yea, I get it. I had an anxiety attack today and the pain in my chest was killing me. Today I couldn't deal with it because I just had anxiety about the opposite and same sex(which scares me as i'm responding to you). I laid down in my room and cried because I don't like any of it. When I think of guy I don't feeling, I don't know what to do. I can't look for feel for guys the same and that anxiety kind of messed that up. I really need someone talk to because i'm afraid this is just going to become my worst fear and everything will become true😣

[@Bygone-Days]

@@love4airyka239 I'm sorry you're going through this! I'm a female in high school as well, and I've been dealing with HOCD for almost an entire year now. I was properly diagnosed in November. I will say though- I thought I was losing my mind for the first several months that I suffered. I looked in the mirror and saw someone staring back at me who just didn't seem to be me. Like a shell. That much pain accumulated over only a couple months. So I can't even fathom how unbelievably excruciating it must be for you to have fought with this for over four years without help! But it can get better. If you suspect you have OCD, I reccomend that you seek a therapist. That's what I did. Find someone who specializes particularly in anxiety disorders such as GAD and OCD. Get diagnosed. As well as that, medication can really, really help. I've been on Prozac since November, and it's helped me to avoid compulsions tenfold. I haven't had an anxiety attack over HOCD in a while, actually. Medications don't have the power to take the intrusive thoughts away, obviously, but they can make the condition a lot more manageable!

[@love4airyka239]

@@abbyn1939 Hey! Yeah sure, what would you want to know. I have an update! The thoughts have went away for the moment, so I'm doing a little better! Just let me know what you want to know! I'm here❤

[@abbyn1939]

@@jacquilinerapsang3754 do u have email or something I could talk to you on I need someone to talk to

[@juicywrld9-9-94]

I have a question, ( i am a boy ) I have hocd fore 2 months. I first wanted to mastrubate on woman thoughts, but then gay thoughts came in so i was like imma do it to the thoughts fore accepting the thoughts, and now i feel very very weird? Was this a good thing that i did or bad?

[@fulleffecttrez4903]

Chrissie can u help me plz I am 16 years old first off this week I had intrusive thoughts then It came to the point now that I feel it in my chest I always liked girls never liked boys I can’t even see myself like that I won’t accept I am gay because I always liked girls and still do I feel like I lost my sex drive same gender sex is disgusting to me I can’t imagine myself doing that can you help me? Is the ocd???

[@EvanJudge]

Montrez, it sounds like you are looking for reassurance which is a common compulsion of OCD. The goal with this type of OCD is not to reassure yourself that you're not gay, but to accept the risk that you may be gay. All of us with OCD are trying to get to the point where we can accept that are fear may actually come true. This will be hard to do without some professional help. I would recommend getting some.

[@Bygone-Days]

Montrez, I'm so sorry you're feeling like this! I'm a 16 year old female myself, and I've been dealing with HOCD for almost a year now, although I've loved men as long as I can remember. I was officially diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder only in November, but let me tell you- the months in between that were some of the most terrifying I've ever known. I was exactly where you are now. I had suicidal ideations left and right like you wouldn't believe. Everything I saw, regardless of whether it was related to HOCD or not, somehow served to prove or disprove my terrors. But hear me out. It can get better. Everyone's experience with intrusive thoughts is different, but what I reccomend is finding a therapist who specializes in OCD. Medication can help a LOT too. I've been on Prozac since December and it's helped significantly in helping me resist my compulsions!

[@mel5282]

《 Alpha Centauri 》 me too! Can we talk? I need help. I just recently developed this and i dont know what to do im going crazy

[@matickastelic1117]

Hi, i was diagnosed with Ocd sexual and violent intrusive thoughts. I can remember that I've dreamed my entire life, what is going to happen in the future, and now all these dreames are real. It's so confusing. Does anyone had thease experience?

[@RaymondCastro-r9t]

What about thoughts/feelings about cheating on your girlfriend

[@maddierose8123]

is false attraction normal with hocd?

[@creepyplanetstudios5907]

How do I get it back

[@mr.wilson7517]

Your awesome!!!

[@Dragon34th]

My question to the psychiatric community is: Is there a link with OCD related sexual intrusive thoughts with actual criminology because we all know that in real life, some of those thoughts become actions enacted by hard criminals 😬 Is it possible that as such criminals may have a reversed version of OCD related intrusive thoughts unknown so far in psychiatry? Because most health people in their right mind, even mentally sick wouldn't want to commit those acts and hurt someone. An OCD person don't want those thoughts, but why criminals easily yield to them? That is puzzling.

[@bot-xe1dk]

Your so great

[@GJ-pj4mj]

Thanks a lot. I am at my 2nd week with HOCD and I feel I lost attraction to men. And I panic anytime I see a pretty woman. Before nothing like that happened but now is like the table turned. I know is part of the OCD . I had have it in any type of forms: R-P-Suicidal- health- death and now SO. Everything happen when I was making out with a guy and I couldn’t feel any excitement just anxious and worry and I have million thoughts in my head and one was “maybe I’m lesbian” and BOOM! Here I am 🥲. I could observe very well and conclude that it was my OCD digi-evolved but it really hits hard because I never doubted my orientation and now I feel like trapped. I’m also moving to another country in 2 days, starting a new job, and swimming in paper work I could also identify how my OCD is able to appear in my most hard moments. The last time when I experienced ROCD it was after a sport accident I was taken to the hospital and after everything went fine I suddenly started doubting my feelings for my by that time partner 🤣 OCD is like a curse.

[@wengadeeaider7362]

How are you now

[@GJ-pj4mj]

@@wengadeeaider7362 much better, but it comes and goes. I just decided to not pay attention anymore.

[@wengadeeaider7362]

@@GJ-pj4mj did you ever lose you’re sexual attraction towards men?

[@GJ-pj4mj]

@@wengadeeaider7362 yes. And I realized is not that you lose it, is more like the fake attraction gives you the anxiety the normal attraction doesn’t. And you start rationalizing. I’m actually dating a man and feels so good, I’m pretty sure is just my OCD messing around.

[@wengadeeaider7362]

@@GJ-pj4mj my anxiety and stuff went down a lot when I accepted it and stopped thinking about it but now I feel weird it just don’t feel normal yk😭

[@bipratipmondal2693]

Don't know if it's a compulsion or not but is there a loss of attraction towards opposite sex if one suffers from HOCD....

[@gabecalleris99]

Yes there is, I experienced it as well and it was emotionally exhausting because I thought "That's it, I don't like boys anymore, I was secretly gay all along and never noticed it", but that's not how it works. It was OCD messing with my mind and my body. Now I feel a lot better but not totally healed (HOCD hit me in October 2019 and back in 2014, but that first time wasn't as bad as this one), I can recognize when my thoughts or feelings are generated by my obsession even though sometimes they still scare and paralyze me, but still I'm confident about getting better and better. You know what helped me a lot? Whenever a HOCD thought crossed my mind I'd always immediately think "SYMPTOM", so that my brain could associate those fears with anything more than a symptom, indeed. It worked pretty well for me, you don't need to believe it, the mind does the job, you just need to help it. Good luck friend

[@mel5282]

Gabe Calleris thank you so much

[@mel5282]

Gabe Calleris can it convince me that i like someone who i know?

[@gabecalleris99]

@@mel5282 Of course you might experience false attraction as well, I went through this thing too. There was this dear friend of mine who came out to me as a lesbian during my worst HOCD period, I don't know why but as soon as I learnt that she was not straight I began to feel a weird feeling whenever I was around her. I felt anxious but at the same time excited to be close to her, when I saw her my heart went crazy and I just thought about hugging and kissing her. Whenever my phone rang I'd hope with all my soul that it was her. All these things didn't make me feel happy at all: in fact I was just terrified as hell because to me that was the confirmation that I had a crush on her, a female, so I was no longer straight, or maybe I never was all along and never noticed, I feared that I had lived a lie my whole life. But that's not what was happening, it was my anxiety mistaken for excitement and other feelings. I had crushes on boys before and I compared those previous emotions to the current ones: they had nothing to do with each other. So yeah, false attraction is another common beast that you might experience if you are struggling with HOCD

[@harrytommo7126]

@@gabecalleris99 is it possible to be scared of a relationship? like i have hocd and i know i don’t want to be with a girl (im a girl) but i get so nervous because i just cant picture myself in a relationship rn and i dont want to be in a relationship and i get so so nervous and i cant stop thinking about it and than i start crying... i cant do this anymore... i think it’s because of hocd but im not sure and im always asking myself sometimes my brain tells me that ‘ you’re gay you don’t want a relationship ‘ i mean i want a relationship w a boy and not with a girl but i cant do relationships rn... does that make any sense?? is this normal? can this happen? idk i just want everything to be like it was 6 months ago when i didn’t have hocd...

[@mel5282]

It’s gotten to the point where I’m dissecting all the strange things I did as a child. My hocd is so close to convincing me I’m gay and I’m tired of it.

[@mel5282]

Faith Vanwieren hey girl wanna talk privately? My ig is not.pheobebuffay

[@Nicole-yx8ms]

How are you doing now

[@wengadeeaider7362]

How are you bro

[@wengadeeaider7362]

@Faith Vanwieren how are you

[@JohnSmith-jb2wc]

Are the intrusive thought homosexual sexual thoughts ?

[@bd-ps1gn]

Intrusive thoughts are thoughts that you don't want to have, yet they come to your mind. It can be anything such as incestous, homosexual, violent etc.

[@lister11811]

www.invisiblewheelchair.com/ocd-interviews/iwc-interview-podcast-dr-jan-weiner-licensed-clinical-psychologist/ I am really confused as I thought Hocd thoughts weren’t true but then listening to Jan on here she mentioned that Hocd people can realise they are Gay Listen from 10 mins until 14 mins. She has two Hocd sufferers who came out as Gay. I thought people that diagnosed with ocd are not these thoughts but then jan said she has helped Hocd sufferers realise they are Gay. So confused

[@ashmac1397]

Yea usually people dont change..but this is first I've saw this ...

[@killam9140]

Then they dont had hocd

[@a.b2241]

They don't have HOCD, they just go out of their room. It's very easy to connect latent sexuality with ocd but they are two verry different things. I'm gay whole my life and in benzo withdrawal I create ocd that I'm str8, hahaha. Was very disgusting and scary and I even have sensations, thingling and all those crazy sensations, but I never had erections and real arausal, and even on those disgusting tinglings I experienced orgasm when I was making love with my partner when the thoughts passed, but still I didn't want to touch vagina. I don't feel any arousal when I watch them, just the OCD sensations were so strong in that period and it happened when I made love with my partner. Otherwise I also got many compulsions to check myself trough masturbation I didn't have even 0.0001 erection and I could not masturbate. Then I realised the tricks of the OCD and I started to. Laugh how stupid I was. But for me was easier to not freak because the society expect from me to be str8 and OCD want themes were there is stigma and discrimination.. How ever to all of us is hard the fear that we could lose ourselves and that's the biggest prove that is ocd.

[@paintpaint6173]

THE OCD IS TELLING ME TRANSGENDER IS GAY

[@mr.wilson7517]

Your awesome!!!