For anyone who is struggling with life. I wanted to kill myself last year. It felt like I had demons in my brain manipulating my mind. I couldnt think clearly. I couldnt choose my thoughts they were being put into me. Everyday it got worse. I barely ate, barely slept, I was dying. My brain hurt, I was constantly getting light headed. The world didn't look the same anymore. It didnt matter how anything looked even if it was beautful, everything looked like hell but I didnt want it to. I wanted to help people, I always have but there was a constant opposition that wasnt coming from me, I couldn't fix my mind. I was afraid to trust God but I knew if I listened everything would be okay. I failed two semesters of college because of this. One of the few friends I had died and because of this problem I couldnt be the brother he always was to me while he was alive. Then my nephew got a really bad sickness. If he would have died I would have died. At the time I felt like I failed alot of people, because I did and I felt like I had failed him, I didn't feel like I deserved to live. It didnt feel right. I tried to fix my mind so I could do better in this life but it only got worse. God healed my nephew from a disease that should have killed him. Real authentic bible following Christians prayed in the name of Jesus and my nephew was healed. Even the doctor asked us if we believed in God because he said my nephew was alive by some miracle. I didnt kill myself because my nephew survived. I kept going but my mind was still messed up. I kept letting people down. Eventually I got fed up with myself. I got to the point that I didn't care what happened to me. I disregarded myself completely for the sake of others. Even though my mind was absolute hell I read the bible, I prayed and trusted God. The more time I spent with God the less, worry, hate, anger and paranoid I got. I learned to love people that I had no reason to love. I dont want to hurt people. The only reason I still do mma is for my coach that got killed. The last thing he told me before he died was that he couldnt wait to see me in mma, I feel like I have to fight, I know he didn't die for nothing, it wont be for nothing. Eventually my mind was free from all that hell, it took awhile only because I had a real hard time trusting in God but once I just let go and trusted God no matter what I became free from all that mental hell. I have mental clarity now. I have peace, I can breathe. I know alot of things in life dont make sense sometimes but I promise you there is life in Jesus. All of you matter. Dont listen to anyone who tells you that you dont. You are more than significant. theres a guy named dan mohler on youtube that explains the gosple of Christ very well, Look up Dan Mohler- what is our purpose
@plproductions70745 жыл бұрын
Great testimony man, I delt with similar things from a lower scale, but when I surrendered to Christ I was completely freed from the demonic influences in my mind, and I started to truly love God for who he is and it changed my life forever, his perfect love casts out fear, lets spread this news to the world
@jred604610 ай бұрын
Why doesn’t this song show up in worship initiative