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[@ami156]

Wow that went from 0 to 100 in a hot minute

[@highvibefreqzshow5967]

She is definitely not alone in all that she said. That has been very similar to my experience, feeling all this excruciating feeling of shame and the anger that arises as an escape from seeing and feeling the shame. And how about the fact that she was transmitting something sooo much deeper for us all! I was crying with her knowing exactly how that all feels. It can be quite intense but it will change just stay with the self-inquiry, keep letting all that come to the surface. You can handle this!! I went years without feeling that deeply repressed shame and fear of not being until I started watching Angelo videos and then suddenly all this extreme rage and hatred came out of nowhere not even as a reaction to the video I was watching that day. It’s just what happened and Angelo has helped me tremendously with this process and not even having to spend much time at all speaking with me. But the little he has spoken directly with me has been HUGE! If this channel is not an act of unconditional love then I don’t know what is.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Thanks for your comments

[@erikthulin8895]

Touched by the tears of witnessing true bravery, I bow down I reverence 🙇

[@brentsharples]

Thank you Lubaina/Angelo - it’s such a unique privilege to share this beautiful raw intimacy with you. I’m also standing near to the ‘I AM NOT’ ledge, and shed so, so many tears with you. Much love.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

You are so welcome!

[@mtotheptothed]

Just want to express so much gratitude to this caller. Within minutes of this call I was in real tears all the way through - and not for her - I was just right there. I was going through the same thing but didn’t even quite know it. Thank you for bringing it all forth - for everyone. ❤ Truly a blessing.

[@Melody-nv4gt]

I KNOW HOW SHE FEELS! I HAVE SO MUCH ANGER!!! I'm so sorry for you because I don't wish it on anyone else. Virtual hug. The physical pain sucks!

[@robs.5847]

Melody, what was incredibly astute in this video was her awareness that anger and shame were coexisting and that she was moving between them. You may know this, that anger is a secondary emotion. I'd suggest that it's a way to avoid suffering by redirecting energy outwards, or to mobilise oneself to avoid suffering, or both, but Angelo was great at guiding the inquiry. For both primary and secondary emotions, his advice to sit with it may be what allows the connection to be seen, the roots of it. And if we've been avoiding, then leaning into the experience is already an act of grace, to have the courage to finally face what we've avoided, what our instincts still tell us to avoid. You may be familiar with the expression "fierce grace", and it may be helpful to see our own anger as such. May your anger show you the way. Be well.

[@mistihooten2682]

I have had this exact experience a few times. Having a period of time where I see no doer no real separation in the workings of life, and the next day I just feel so defeated and want it all to end. I also have a knowing that the second experience is to come after feeling so alive. I relate to this entire experience. Thank you for sharing and a big thanks to her for being so raw and open. I never really know when the moment will come again but when it does maybe I’ll be ready to go deeper into the feeling thanks to this.

[@gergelyszekely9778]

This is crazy. Something like that happened to me a year ago with anger instead of shame and the following hatred of the path. Unfortunately I didn't have anyone competent to talk to and didn't understand what I was going trough. Ended up being somewhat disillusioned, depressed and stopped practicing for several months. Both of you did such a beautiful job! This video was so powerful that it might help me alone if and when I get there again.

[@SamRoff]

Holy shit, such respect for Labaina. Her burning desire for truth pushed her right there... No hiding. Reminds me of Kiki in 'the work' documentary, same flavour. Thanks for sharing both of you.

[@leskenaz]

Raw real gorgeous guidance…. Such courage! Yes! She did this for/as all of us.❤

[@macparker3549]

Dear Angelo, The loving, fierce, and generous way you hold space for this woman’s release feels like the perfect wordless response to those who tend to cling to the rigid “truth” that “there’s no one here, there’s nothing to do.” Such depth of wisdom and heart. Blessings on you both… 💜🙏🔥🫥⭕️🐣🌻

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Thanks for your comment :)

[@StephenAndersonSACreate]

I totally get where she's coming from, she's not alone in this - in fact, it actually seems to be par for the course at some point, in whatever way this comes up for each one. Thank you so much for being so open and sharing with us.

[@margarita82002]

This is so helpful as I have the same feelings currently. Not so much of shame but a lot of regret, hate, guilt, and fear that I have initiated this process, and now I am losing what I have built and what is upcoming is not known. Sadness is pervading all over.

[@lauragipson7210]

33 years ago a force pulled my drowning body out of a tub of warm water. We cannot doubt the power of Life to beat our human heart as long as it takes to arise as a fully present, awake nobody body. When there is a ripeness and an allowing, I feel Life embracing me, a terrified child. She softens the stone of fear I offer in the warm waters of her heart as we approach the "next final" descent. Amidst screaming, raging, shaking, crying, resisting I know there is no turning back. It's been a long journey push/pulling my way to the edge. Thank you deeply, Angelo and Lubaina, for showing me how to loosen the grip and to trust the familiar, unknowable, fall-less fall. (Claire)

[@javon144]

This is my experience in every way. Extreme contraction. Very discouraging place to be. Thank you for sharing 🤍

[@Zorba.]

So so beautiful. I have a friend where we hold space for each other in a similar way the last 4 years and it's arisen out of our love for this dismantling process. and needing support to face the intensity of what's coming up. I cannot express how powerful it is, and the shifts that have occured in the last few years by being willing to show up fully in front of each other. She is a precious friend. Thank you for being here and available Angelo. I am so touched by this video and also reading the comnents. So grateful to be here amongst you all. I have found my tribe. Finally ! 💗🙏

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

it’s very impressive how you guide people right to the edge of the abyss. Wish the beautiful young lady all the best in her awakening process. Thanks for sharing this with us 🙏❤️

[@LizJohnsonVoice]

You go, girl! This is the work, and it's so big. Thank you for letting us share in this with you. Shame has been coming up huge for about a month. Crying happening in waves of shame and grief that don't feel like they are going to stop sometimes. Staying with it or going straight into it has been helpful in letting it move through. whew. So big.

[@susanamos6237]

Still sitting here trying to deeply feel or remember any shame, nothing coming up so far.. a lot of guilt about letting my four children down over the years, but then also don’t feel that was truly my fault but circumstances and just how life went.. sort of beyond my control.. trying to scan my whole life, my body, thoughts, actions, feelings.. already felt very unloved and abandoned, so not worried about that either.. and it is not that I am unloveable, just had a very dysfunctional family and marriage etc..

[@missyhope5928]

😭 wow,I, too, started freaking out.. I'm not... anything... what am I searching for??and feel like gonna faint... phew! Ty for this.. I will sit in this until I ever stop crying

[@tom_see]

This is right where I am... Cried right with her. Not with the shame but with fear. Been feeling the most intense fear I could ever feel. It's honestly horrible. I feel the fear literally in my toes and it feels hard to even move my body. I'm taking breaks and taking it slow... I just can't handle doing this more than a little bit each day. Really hard to keep coming back to this fear when it just sucks so much. Eternally grateful for this content.

[@javon144]

Thank you for sharing! I can relate you’re not alone 🤍

[@maryannscanlon8655]

Yes! This is me too!!!!

[@dar_jada]

Your courage to do this work so openly is helping all of us. Thank you. 💕

[@keena1487]

Wow, Angelo. This was incredible. You have embodied this understanding so completely that you’re able to meet people right in the trenches of their humanness. This interaction was absolutely beautiful. What a gift. Thank you for existing. ♥️

[@KK-qd6ro]

Thats what we came for.❤🙏

[@hempfu]

the many words braining can't solve it , something wants to be felt and loved as it is ...also by yourself .

[@pandmantom]

❤❤❤ 1000 times yes. Thank you for sharing. You are safe to not feel safe until you do. I hope there was follow up after this for her.

[@MelFinehout]

Damn. That is courage. The courage that bravado is actively avoiding.

[@noonespecial24]

Raw, real and beautiful. Much gratitude to both of you but especially to her for agreeing to post this video. There's clearly a big difference between an intellectual understanding of no self and the kaleidoscope of energies that converge when we get the opportunity to accept and feel the reality of no self. Nicely done! 🙏🙏

[@Anastasiiia_an]

Wow… I went through some kind of release alongside this video ( with tears and ‘I am not enough’ coming up too) Thank you for sharing!

[@Schneebs]

Beautiful, it brought tears to my eyes. I can tell the flavor of a genuine transmission now, like I don't know it but I feel it. Thank you both.

[@brightlight369]

Thank you both so much🙏💜 it was like watching myself and my own deepest fear🙏 Love how you keepe this so clear and simple but still I know so hard and scary😥 I will watch again and again. Thank you a million times💜💜🙏🙏

[@jasonsaxon2309]

Beautiful! Thank you to the young lady for being so vulnerable. I cried with you and remember feeling this same way not so long ago. Relax into the process! ❤

[@yuphi867]

I'm oscillating between intense crying and laughing and realise I'm experiencing them intertwined. Authentic unconditional love recognized and I feel and see the one who feels she will never be loved in that way...and the fear of being seen or loved...thank you for this powerful experience

[@user-gb8uy1kq7y]

This moment has been so important to me the past couple of days. Thank you for publishing ❤

[@Jade33]

I cried with you . Thank you so so much for your courage , vulnerability. Also love how you held the space for her with such presence, Angelo.

[@ziya5952]

Watched twice, intensive energy surge and cried each time😢, not sure where and what is the trigger. Dont have the feelings of im not, hate, shame, anger, etc. could be the feelings are deeper and yet to surface, then it will still long way to go. Have been experiencing energy up surge for 2 years, bringing out a lot of sadness lately. Cannot thank you more for providing this platform, Angelo. Respect the courage of this beautiful lady so we have the chance to relate to.❤❤❤

[@life13525]

great sharing, thank you both...also experienced intense emotion of shame, of no right to exist, not wanting to live etc..like experiencing the whole ancestry from my parents....till later underneath intense rage was pure life force coming through...this force that wants to push through and LIVE....like a volcano...exhausting at times.

[@leskenaz]

In my experience with the “doubt monster” ( 2nd Fetter), the shame /unworthiness version of the “fear barrier” (the flavor of the day ( week, month, year) is at the root of it.

[@simmyburn3288]

Such courage and such grace in your guidance. I felt every moment if that. Angelo your absolute conviction and walking alongside left no doubt that you were there too. So beautiful heres to both of you. ❤

[@DanielleM-yr4di]

Love her honesty 💜💜💜

[@Melody-nv4gt]

It is the energy here right now! I've heard MANY others saying the same thing! And I keep thinking I'm done, but then here comes more!

[@alanmccarthy4004]

This was beautiful.

[@lindsayhaskins2848]

Beautiful brave lady. Wow. Powerful and brave ❤❤

[@rulamazigi5839]

That was really powerful. I felt a deep fear and emotion when you said “I’m not”. Amazing release! Love you Luby! 🤗❤️😘

[@TB-jg2oq]

So powerful. Thank you

[@tyvrymch]

What a gift. Thank you both.

[@OrganizedChaos43]

I loved this session. This is exactly where I am in my journey. Thank you!

[@katye7727]

Power...courage...beauty...TRUTH...LOVE. What perfect mirrors. Deepest gratitude 🙏

[@Melody-nv4gt]

It's so hard not to resist it.

[@leeladevidancing]

Right. There. With. You, Luby. So spot-on. I hope I can release as well. Much love.❤

[@life.withkyle]

You're so right that's shame is the flavour of the day, been coming up for me as well a lot Thanks for sharing this, it's incredible how skillfully you are able to guide people through this And thanks to Lubaina for being so vulnerable and willing to go there

[@lalitavajra6078]

thank you and Angelo. ❤❤❤

[@exwade8777]

That release is always so goood afterwards, no matter how bad it feels to just fall freely and surrender right inside those emotions building up, those tears come up progressively more freely and with so much joy to them every consecutive time, I'd say that's literally the falsely perceived ego patterns breaking apart in those moments, I cherish these episodes the most now whenever they come up, it's like bathing in the pure light of true understanding and acceptance.

[@richardallan2767]

The emotional foundations of personality are not only intense, but sometimes frankly embarrassing once seen. The most random stuff that ends up being a weight baring structure for what is experienced as the self. Big up to this person for digging in and being with it.

[@ben_y.]

I could do with more super honest videos like this. Refreshing, amazing an on point! Great job Lubaina. Thank you Angelo.

[@plantlove2585]

This is sooooo timely! I can't even... I had an experience last week, that showed me that there is no one anywhere. Everything was just happening, energy bursting spontaneously in something like a creative dance. It was beautiful and peaceful to witness, but when I came back out of it, I was so contracted and still am. I feel like I am losing interest in everything, but also, like I want to just distract myself, can't stand being present at all, especially today. It felt depressive, so I tried to feel into what's underneath it, was is being supressed, but I couldn't get there. Watching this video has resonated so much, and I can feel it opening, a little at least. I feel like I have been at this core contraction so many times already, but apparently there is always a level down down down... I definitely can relate to a part of me saying, dang, why did I even go into all of this. Never thought I'd say this :D I guess these mechanisms of selfhood and what upholds it aren't all that individual. It all feels really like a weird joke at the moment. Doing my best here just letting things be. - Thanks for sharing this video. Thank you!

[@LizJohnsonVoice]

the losing interest thing resonates. and all the things my mind wants to do to distract from what's here. thanks for saying something.

[@Jaz9Kam3Sin7]

SENDING INFINITE ♾️ LOVE 💘 LIGHT🕯️ GRATITUDE 🙏🏾 TY FOR YOUR COURAGE

[@siobhanmacm]

Thank you SO much for sharing this! So beautiful and courageous. It really helped me to hear the dichotomy between thinking I want ti be awake and being terrified of it articulated. ❤

[@shannonderby2223]

This and the Scott Britton interview got me at my heart level. Thank you, I needed that. 🙏🏻♥️

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

good to hear :)

[@alishacalhoun7502]

Thank you both❤

[@Mimi-xs7gi]

Feel the Feeling…✅

[@TheSierra108]

It does feel “personal”, but this must be a universal experience. I too yo-yo back and forth feeling this exact experience, but over time it softens and releases, though sometimes remnants flush out and surprise me….❤

[@robs.5847]

I agree about the universality of shame at its most fundamental level. If incarnation as an experience is an experience of separation, then shame is a byproduct of simply existing in this way. To not be whole or complete and to want to return to wholeness is to create an existential inadequacy. Great observation, Rondi. And the experience of shame itself as separation manifest is to make everything feel personal, even if it is universal. This is why we hide, why we don't make eye contact, etc, when we feel shame, we are responding to a feeling of separation by enacting it in the world. Even though what we need is connection, fear of further separation makes us uphold the separateness that we already feel. To make it impersonal, to live in the universality of it, I imagine that this is the way to overcome shame. I'm not quite there. Forgive the tangent, but the mention of personal/impersonal makes me think of Alan Watts and his elucidation that the persona is the mask. The persona and the personal are the separation, what we "take personally" is what we hold against our sense of separation. And the impersonal, to the contrary, is then perhaps the true instantiation of unfettered experience. To yield to the shame is possibly the way to experience without the mask of self, to render it impersonal. Just my 2c. Be well, all.

[@kanekjanaab7957]

Thank you both, this is True and Unconditional Love 💜

[@bailatali]

Thank you both, and all the comments too ❤

[@SuperFrankieKimm]

thank you. thank you. thank you.

[@cps_Zen_Run]

We are already Whole, Complete, and Worthy. The I, Me, and Self can never awaken, as these are an illusion. Awareness Awakens unto itself. Let go.

[@bouke7525]

thank you to you both for sharing this

[@joannajankowska3122]

Thank you both for sharing!❤

[@flyboy22x]

Two thoughts arise for me: "I want this to END" and "I want to escape." The first results in deep systemic impatience and anger, the second in a continuous and sometimes frantic search for literally anything that could distract from what is happening now. I feel a nearly unbearable vibration throughout my body... like a primordial resistance. "This is not it. This cannot be it. Anything but this." The thought rings and rings. I try to stay here but it's like trying to swim in rapids, the currents are so strong. There's nowhere to go and yet right here is so painful. "I want this to end, I want to escape!!!" Around and around I go. Who am I? I don't know. "I believe I exist." Who believes? What is existence? Again, I just don't know, and I don't know who doesn't know. 😢

[@IntoTheDepths444]

holy crap that was incredable

[@cheesesteakpizza]

This is it right here ❤️‍🔥🙏 thank you both for sharing

[@Shpongly]

Just opened your most recent video(which was great btw) because i was just reading your book and felt the need to tell you how beautiful/vivid your descriptions are. Haven't felt so moved by reading something in ages.. So thank you for it

[@laurarossi1851]

Right there with you sister. Cried and released right along with you. 🙏💛

[@travjamjamieson4352]

Thanks

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Thank you!

[@PinkyBar374]

Thank you for being so brave and thank you both sharing. This is so deep 💗

[@BoloYeungsDancingPecs]

You're a G, mama ~ such clarity and transparency~ thank you

[@susanamos6237]

Wow that was strong… I was crying along with her..

[@juliecloutierchannel]

I could recognize when I went through this fear of non-existing. I was impressed by how quickly you were able to guide her there and know that she was ready otherwise it would not have been felt. What is on the other side of this when fear, shame is emptied is pure freedom. It is really worth walking through the fire to discover that it was never real. It is real until it isn't anymore. It seems it has to be emptied of all charges. I see how clear and direct you could support her to stay there with feeling the feeling. And how quick, this was beautiful. So happy for her that she is right there with this. To me it felt like, yes, this is it, meeting all the deeper fear and shame and losing the fear of feeling and losing the fear of thoughts.

[@alfreddifeo9642]

Thanks to you both for sharing this. ♥😶🙏

[@stevenrosen5955]

I hope she come back again........this is the real thing as they say...

[@danielmaina4942]

🧸When she says she sometimes hates that she even started this I relate to that 😂

[@danielmaina4942]

I know exactly what she means.

[@danielmaina4942]

There is also this energy that comes up sometimes, it almost has a taste..it has the signature of sickness or dying..at least that's what I interpret it as ..kinda how depression feels like bt not exactly

[@danielmaina4942]

I felt something recently that made me even unsubscribe from Lisa Cairns and Susan's channel!😂 This is really the real stuff! This is the stuff your mama warned you against 😂😂😂😂

[@watcherofvideoswasteroftim5788]

Excuse my language and for making this about me but holy frick is the universe serving up synchronicities rn... My boss called me into his office today to call me out on slacking and that was totally fair and I felt a lot of shame which I told him. Now I'm here watching this video feeling emptied out and comfortable being uncomfortable

[@Darksagan]

Right at the edge time to jump.

[@dethtrain]

Wow around the 3 minute mark... this is pretty much how i feel right now. Im in this fuck meditation, fuck reading, fuck the videos type of mood for a few weeks at least. Frustration with a feeling of stuckness that permeates all aspects of my life not just awakening/liberation process. So whats actually going on here? Seems like you helped her tap into a nerve point and theres a significant release or an acknowledging of something buried? And when I say nerve point I kind of equate it to poking a hole in an infected wound to let the bacteria/waste/poison leave the body

[@GraceHappens]

Whoa! This brought up something deep in me. So grateful to both of you for this.

[@georgeshepherd3381]

If you're not scared while it's going on, it ain't courage.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

indeed!

[@skyotter3317]

She's amazing!

[@n-xsta]

So powerful thank you both ❤

[@nicolabishop996]

Thank you both very much. I felt this deep in the body/heart.

[@Lulubear0304]

My sister 💜🦋🙏🏽

[@nuria.l-l-9827]

Awesome work, God bless you both! ❤

[@jessicarubios2222]

Thank you for this. If you get to the place where "I am not able to love fully", instead of "be loved", will I still come to "I am not? Cause I just get to " then what is the point of carrying on another moment." Or is that just a distraction from the full acceptance of "I am not." ? Everything just feels so uphill lately😅 Something tells me I need to let go, but I don't know how...

[@projectekaruna]

Lovely Angelo

[@maryannscanlon8655]

Now I’m understanding the hate better. I couldn’t relate to what Suzanne Chang was saying when she spoke of the hate. I’m definitely headed down this road and I’m terrified. Angelo thank you for showing us this. This is so where I’m at. This is me.

[@ActionFigure10]

You're good!

[@LisaK-ft2yo]

Thank you so much for this! I am having similar experiences, but as nightmares that wake me up. Sleep is really difficult.

[@christied425]

Incredible ❤

[@eszter2613]

Wow, this triggered me a lot... it made me cry, it made me angry, it made me want to die. Such intensity and it’s suffocating. For a couple of weeks i’v been feelling like i’m beeing squeezed out of breath. I am tired. It wears me down to the point that even talking makes me tired. I am being torn apart from the inside between my life and the One self. My heart starts racing just by writing this. I long for connection with counciousness in other people, i feel the need to see it in their eyes. I’m going in circles driving myself crazy and it grabes me by the throat. I want out of the suffering and like Rumi wrote, i wish to be with my beloved. I am so in love and it’s killing me from the inside. Angelo, make it stop. I just want to stop and just be. I wish i could come to you and just be... Thank you for everything you say. Thank you for loving! 🙏 I’m screaming inside, just rip me to shreds already and be done with it.

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

You have to see that the Beloved is not anything you think it is. It's not in another person, in a state of consciousness etc. If it were it would be a fabrication and thus conditional. You have to trust yourself to stop fabricating, construction, seeking, avoiding etc etc. This is all an internal process only BTW. It will subside, just keep seeing into the mechanism and seeing that it doesn't deliver. Even bargaining and negotiating. The reason it feels excruciating to let go of is because you have been convinced it works. It doesn't. And that's exceptionally good news. Take yourself off the hook, off the hotseat.

[@eszter2613]

Thank you so much for this Angelo. Exactly what i needed to hear. I had period of “aha” moments before and a lot of seeking, and then it kind of stoped or shifted. Then came a period of some inner peace but then the seeking started again. When i watch your videos it seems like i get it but then the mind comes and tricks me again. When i watch a bird, it feels like i’m the bird, or when i focus on an object, i feel like i’m the object, but then it’s gone again. In the depersonalization process i can’t find myself anymore, it’s to the point where i am no longer there, but what is there then? Sorry if i don’t make sense, i just needed pointing in the right direction. So thank you again for taking the time to answer, i much appreciate it. I learned so much from you.

[@francesb-p2441]

I have been doing this as well and then after I yawn. I yawn every time.

[@danielmaina4942]

There is something Angello said, something along the lines of "..I can push you hard if you want..." I believe you now Angello 😂