Sirius Black | Trauma

i wish you'd just
love me back;
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Hello!
So I hate this video so much now, don't be surprised if I end up erasing it from existence lol
I mean, there are parts of it that I even like, and that's why I'm posting it, but overall I'm just really not happy with it haha I really shouldn't make manips, or even vid crossover/au, I'm bad at it and this video is a proof haha
So one day I got this idea to vid Sirius and I couldn't get it out of my head, I just knew I had to do it, even though I knew I'd struggle with it a lot (and I still made a 4 minutes long vid, because I hate myself like that), but I am glad I did? (At this point I honestly know the Dorian Gray scenes better than I know myself)
I had numerous breakdowns while making it and it isn't even close to what I had in my head, but anyway hahah I focused on his relationships, with his parents, brother, his cousin, with marauders, and I know it's kind of chaotic and I totally messed up, but I hope you can understand the general idea of the scenes I put there? If not, I guess I could make a synopsis and explain what happens, just let me know?
While writing down the cast I realized I wanted to put more Lily here, but I guess it's too late. Sigh.
I still hope that one day we get a tv series or movie about young Marauders and that they do them justice, so that I can cry over them with actual footage, but meanwhile a big shotout to everyone who vids Marauders, your vids keep me alive honestly haha
Hope someone enjoys it!
Song&general inspiration: • Draco Malfoy • Trauma
Ever since I've first seen this amazing video a long time ago, I have tried to vid this song with a lot of characters (like Anakin Skywalker, Erik Lehnsherr, Morgana Pendragon - rip to these projects), and I knew one day I'd vid it with one of my favs, and here it is finally hahah
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Cast:
Ben Barnes as Sirius Black
Timothée Chalamet as Regulus Black
Eva Green as Walburga Black
Colin Firth as Orion Black
Katie McGrath as Bellatrix Black
Aaron Taylor-Johnson as James Potter
Andrew Garfield as Remus Lupin
Alicia Vikander as Marlene McKinnon
Sophie Skelton as Lily Evans/Potter
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fandom: Harry Potter, The Marauders
coloring: SunnyVids
song: • NF - Trauma (Audio)
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[@lostbirdx]

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[@ChaseDetrick]

"please remember they are my family" that killed me

[@ella36lipashitz]

I am sorry to here that that very sad to her .... Police

[@Bellsilili]

wow, i am crying, but i will come back to comment... but this is one of the most beautiful videos i have ever seen.

[@lostbirdx]

kddkkd omg thank you!!

[@jjpxggy9101]

Omg Bells!!! I loved your Sirius and Regulus edit too!!

[@lis_roux]

God... it is so deep. I also love how you portrayed all of them, include Bellatrix and Regulus.

[@lostbirdx]

thanks!

[@MsSweetSerialKiller]

i seriously (ha) cant believe you don’t like this??? like what the actual fuck . this is the best thing i’ve watched ever i’m actually crying rn i’m not even lying it’s perfect. sirius is one of my most favourite characters ever like i usually don’t connect w male characters but this video perfectly captures him and why i love him so much. and this is so perfect honestly, some of the stand out moments for me were regulus’s “it amazes after everything you’ve done to this family you can sit here and talk and talk” that’s so harrowing because i can totally see that happen. likewise the bellatrix montage w the merlin quotes god... again so true to his character because it’s just like bella to fixate on sirius, on the traitor and for sirius to return that rage with even more fire. sirius asking james to remember that his family is still family and with regard to regulus i can totally see them having that discussion at least once. then james being like you never showed it to regulus like YOURE A DEMON that hurt so much and again i can totally see that conversation happening. the wolfstar bit my heart went murder meeeeeee. i absolutely loved sirius saying i am everything you were afraid to be to his father and then the scenes w walburga telling him to leave like god ur talent ur mind you got the characterisation spot on. then “he’s the reason they’re dead” yes you’re satan i see that clearly now. okay this is lowkey a long ass comment but i really really really love this so much, you captured sirius so well so if you excuse me im gonna rewatch and cry some more! (and god do not hate this edit its a masterpiece)

[@lostbirdx]

dodjkdkd OMG!!! you’re making me cry now, thank you so much for this comment, IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME and all the things you pointed out ahh you’re making me like this video a bit more hahah thank you❤️❤️

[@dauntlessobrien]

who gave you the right to make me so damn emotional? honestly think you have killed me with this video. all the struggles between him and his family then contrasted with his _real_ family, the marauders just hurts. this video is so beautifully edited and an masterpiece.

[@lostbirdx]

sirius gave me the right with his tragic story KDJDKDKD THANK YOU!!🥺❤️

[@LaurenMichellex]

What?! omg asdfghjkl - I somehow inspired this masterpiece?! The manips, this song... the way you put the storyline together. Wow. So. Beautiful. ✨

[@lostbirdx]

yess your vid to this song was so brilliant i keep rewatching it from time to time dkdjkd and ahhh thank you so much!!🥺🥺

[@Curlzi]

I’ve always thought that Marlene was like a sister to Sirius, and since she and Dorcas were together, she was the first one he told when he released that he was in love with Remus. Also I love the idea of Sirius and Bellatrix being close growing up. And in full honesty I’m crying while writing this.

[@belovesick]

0:48 i screamed, this manip is so good 🤧 2:12 - 2:17 "what the hell happened to him? -he's just lost too much" and the scenes you put there, kill me why don't ya? 3:05 - 3:24 "i was trying so hard to be a better man" !!! I AM DEAD.

[@KuningannaSansa]

This is taking my breath away with how good it is!! I really love how you've portrayed Bellatrix especially and the quote about the "darkness to your light" that's such a brilliant idea!! So gonna steal that lol, I have been obsessed for years with how many parallels there are between her and Sirius in the books! And Sirius saying "please remember they're my family", so few people portray him as having loved them once, but I think he must have done!! This is giving me all the feelings and your editing and manips are insane!! Thank you so much for this masterpiece!

[@lostbirdx]

ahhh thank you!!🥺

[@belovesick]

oh my god!!! this video made so emotional, it is really a masterpiece! how you portrayed every important relationship in sirius life and all that he has gone through... god. i love every second of this.

[@lostbirdx]

thank you so much aahhhh!!! 🥺🥺❤️

[@svftchalqmet]

I am not okay. I started crying watching this masterpiece I'm... I don't even know how to express my feelings right now? You've showed his story so good and everything his been through so good, it felt like I was watching a bloody movie here... And you added wolfstar there I-, that brought happiness and warmth to my heart after the heartbreaking you put me through with this video...

[@lostbirdx]

ahhh omg thank you so much!!❤️ and ofc i had to add wolfstar, they’re my bbies dkdjdk

[@Bellsilili]

but omg your voiceovers are perfect and genius!!! I AM AMAZED! YOU EVEN CONNECTED YOUR VOICEOVERS! for example: "You taught me that a man can rule his emotions. But I cant." We shouldnt be afraid of our feelings." and the way you connected your voiceovers with scenes...I CANT

[@ophelia.2834]

Ok this is a level of genius I aspire to reach but in the meantime I’m here sobbing because of this masterpiece you created :((

[@lostbirdx]

ksdkkdd thank you!!!

[@HostilePoet17]

I don't even normally watch Marauders Era stuff but OMG this is just absolute art. It's so creative and beautiful, you should be so so proud of this. Amazing.

[@lostbirdx]

ahhh thank you!!🥺

[@MidnightPhenomenon]

There aren't enough words to describe how gloriously beautiful this is♥ You took me to another place and then back again. Thank you. I cannot wait to see what other treasure your channel holds

[@lostbirdx]

ahhh thank you!

[@SunnyVids]

THIS IS AMAZING. Funny story, months ago, I was planning to edit this song to him but ended up going with multifandom instead, and I am SO GLAD I DID. Because this is a masterpiece!!!!!

[@reallyrachell]

I am currently sobbing at this MASTERPIECE!! everything is so good and I can all see this happening! like the confrontation with his parents ughh incredible and heartbreaking!! Marlene and Remus too just ahhhh!! all the voice overs were so well placed and so powerful! amazing job!!

[@MedicineForNormality]

well there goes my heart. *again* THEY ARE EXPENSIVE TO GET YOU KNOW, U CANT JUST MAKE HECKING MIRACLES LIKE THIS VIDEO AND EXPECT ME NOT TO *DIE*

[@lostbirdx]

KDJDKDKD i’m sorry?? jsdjjdn🥺😭

[@caseyrowland8982]

Gaaaahhhh this just reminds me how utterly heartbreaking Sirius’ entire life was. All of your videos make me love his character more and more!

[@aliimagic]

this is so good, i get goosebumps every time

[@lostbirdx]

kddjdk thank you!

[@pandieex]

monika i’m actually lost for words.... this is my favourite video right now and it’s definitely one of the best i’ve ever seen. sirius is my favourite character from harry potter and the way you showed his backstory here is just amazing i’m so in love with this and you should be damn proud of what you’ve done because this is incredible wow 😍😭

[@lostbirdx]

dodjdkjd OMG THANK YOU!!🥺❤️

[@phouxeestar954]

oh ... my ... I think I stopped breathing for a while there ... that was everything ... it was Sirius from the first second to the last .... thank you for this sooooo much

[@peaceluvhappiness222]

This is... amazing. The song with it all just fits so well. THANK YOU

[@stillhotterthanyours]

I was finally able to watch and WHAT IN THE FRESH HELL WAS THAT. You have dissected his character, struggles, relationships so well, in such a detailed and full of understanding way. I am completely shattered and breathless after watching it, heart aching for this mess of a man. Amazing!!!

[@lostbirdx]

jdjddj thanks!!🥺❤️

[@admiraltyedits]

The emotional impact of this edit is astounding 😭😭😭

[@lostbirdx]

🥺😭😭❤️

[@Sweetie2566]

oh damn that's so freaking beautiful 😭 amazing video!! ❤️

[@lostbirdx]

ahh thank you!🥺❤️

[@iced-americano900]

omg omg omg I’m crying and flailing my arms rn this is so good and omggggg the manips and everything and the scenes you chose and aAAAAAA. Just... hnghhh everything about this is so beautiful and gorgeous and just... wow. I’m always so amazed at editors bringing in something fresh especially with the limited pool of movie scenes and quotes for this fandom and this!!! This is just so good!!!!! 💕💖💕💖💕💖

[@lostbirdx]

ahhh omg thank you so much!!🥺❤️

[@user-gm5lq8ns1g]

Sirius black is my favourite character and it hurts cause some people hate him for no reason like he went through so much growing up in such strict/toxic family,everyone having bad stereotypes about them and growing with abusive parents,loosing his little brother,being disowned,start hating on him, getting in a war at 18 ,loosing everyone , everyone believing that he caused he's best friends death and try to kill his godson going into lifetime in prison and no one not even his husband/boyfriend ,living in hiding for two years in his childhood abusive household and getting killed later by his own cousin like it's so sad he spend his whole life searching for freedom that he never got and now some people start acting that he and no reason to be scared or angry and that he is the bad and toxic one in the relationship (w/ moony) like he make some mistakes but name one Harry potter character who hasn't i dont think you can,btw this edit is amazing you saw his character very well.

[@k.Angela]

This is literally the best Sirius/Black Family video I've seen and I'm screaming at almost everything!! The Wolfstar scenes midway had me (I'm crying...I thought they'd be forgotten and tossed at the side again because of Blackinnon). This video just made me realize how Sirius and Remus are more alike than I thought. Both were looked down as a monster (Sirius for being framed up and Remus for being a werewolf). Both fell in love but had their lovers forced to leave them (Sirius first lost Marlene and Remus lost Sirius) but when they found love once more, they are the ones that died and have to meet their own end (Sirius died and left Remus...and Harry while Remus died with Tonks, orphaning their son, Teddy). Most of all, they might have died later on physically, but they were both dead deep inside ever since James and Lily were killed. Sirius and Remus had it rough (that was so much of an understatement), they found love that left them and when they found it again, they are the ones that needed to go....

[@EnchantedxPassion]

awww... truly beautiful! I feel so sorry for him now :(

[@lostbirdx]

thanks!!

[@antisocialwarda]

bells,lostbirdx,stillhotterthanyours,everythingisblack,belovesick and many more hp/marauder vidders yall are my idols tbh - wich i could edit like u guys in the future (atm i suck lmao)

[@ninabru7528]

Wow this is absolutely incredible! This makes me want to begin writing my Sirius Black centric fanfic again haha

[@lostbirdx]

thanks!!🥺

[@belle333black]

WOW. I'm speechless. The manips, the story. Amazing!

[@uncut_pages]

This is... this is the best visualization of the complete story of Sirius Black. For me. You have taken into account so many important nuances, placed the accents so correctly. Friendship with James, difficult family relationships, connection with my brother, two loves - Marlene and Remus... I am in complete admiration. Very correct. Very good. You are so talented! It's very soulful! Thanks for this!

[@lostbirdx]

thank you, it means so much to me!

[@ArborVitaes8]

Sirius has always been my favorite but damn, WHO CUT ONIONS

[@TurnTheDirtIntoJoy]

Wow, this was so good and heartbreaking. Definitely one of the best Sirius Black videos I’ve ever seen. Amazing job!

[@lostbirdx]

thank you!!

[@MiaWinchester794]

NO NOT THIS SONG HOW DARE YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT GOOD AT THIS YOU'RE *SO* TALENTED THIS IS ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS

[@lostbirdx]

kdjdkdj omg THANK YOU!!🥺

[@antisocialwarda]

AAAAAH I REWATCHED THIS LIKE 4 TIMES THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL !!!!

[@coeursrebelles]

This is truly heartbreaking but so beautiful

[@lostbirdx]

thank you!!!

[@leahdavis6966]

I love this so much, it left such a special place in my heart, and left me crying

[@miredgryffindor5939]

Masterpiece 💘 This scorpio boy is my fav character.

[@antisocialwarda]

this is......waw i just love ur editting skills,manips,voice overs everything just adds up so beautifully.i love this, how can u not like this fucking masterpiece!?

[@TheRealDeal92]

This is so amazing... All of this put together as if it was the real Black family. A job well done. I do hope that if they do make their movies happen, I hope they cast these very actors for the roles. Thank you so much for uploading. A job well done. Bravo 👏

[@HeartPhantom]

OK THIS IS JUST GOING TO BE JUST ONE GIANT SCREAM BECAUSE IM A MESS RIGHT NOW ACTUAL CHILLS. REAL CHILLS. oh my god.... there is... so much..... regulus and sirius?? I AM ON THE FLOOR. that 0:48 manip brought me down. 1:10 "i fear your futures are now joined forever" and THAT? YOUR MIND? IM LITERALLY REELING. JAMES AND SIRIUS LET ME SINK DOWN FURTHER. MARLENE IM LITERALLY??!! TEARS IN MY EYES. AND THEN YOU HAVE REMUS AND SIRIUS AND THE FACT HE WAS BLAMED FOR LILYS AND JAMES DEATH. ONLY ALL CAPS IS NEEDED BECAUSE I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES. YOUR MIND THROUGH THIS ENTIRE SONG I AM - GORGEOUS STUNNING 10/10 INCREDIBLE EMOTIONAL DEVASTATING ON REPEAT FOR DAYS i dont know how i am going to recover my sirius heart.....................................

[@lostbirdx]

KDJDKDKD i honestly can’t find words THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS COMMENT!!!🥺❤️

[@saram.knight9930]

The merlin clips in this video sent me

[@meganmay07]

Wow I’m crying this is a masterpiece

[@yolanda9290]

This is incredibly beautiful

[@slythelice3191]

Your channel is a very good discovery, I love your videos 🖤

[@lostbirdx]

thank you🥺

[@mariamora7373]

"please remember they are my family" nooooooo

[@luisam235]

most beautiful video i’ve ever seen 😭

[@Cloud1106]

it amazes me your edit

[@skylaretherington3810]

Its honestly tear-jerking to think of how they all died and didn't even get to live or see their children. or how the marauders are no longer and lupin was all alone before he was put to an end. ITS SO SAD

[@ndwstark9918]

I am crying god your are the video editing god

[@dani4007]

I'M CRYING THIS IS PERFECT

[@dianaszuts398]

Oh, how beautiful.

[@annac2895]

this edit is truly amazing oh god, thank you so much for making it!

[@user-dc1wk2tw4g]

Gosh, this is amazing, i love it so much!

[@Julia36229]

whoah this is a masterpiece, im blown away

[@meowcat2608]

i love this video so much!!!

[@CatchMeJoBros]

Wow!! Wow, this is so so beautiful!!

[@lostbirdx]

thank you!!

[@guardiangaIaxy]

Honestly this deserves more views

[@mxxlove5552]

I wish I could hug him seriously. It hurts too much.

[@sansei_4578]

I mean it's great to have people to care for and despite his family he had nice friends Idk whom i should care about anymore

[@northerncaledonia2901]

Beautiful! Amazing job, I love it so much. Does anybody know good fan fiction based on this video or with similar storyline?

[@johanna5542]

I STARTED CRYING RIGHT AWAY OH KY GOSH

[@ola1635]

wow, I'm crying so much right now. It is so deep and..

[@Bella-wh7yu]

i atcually- bawling. bawling.

[@remadora8670]

Sirius Black is such a screwed up character. His family abused him, he got shut up in azkaban for 12 years, his best friend and adoptive parents dead and once he’s outta azkaban he lives in the house he was abused in for 16 years only to be killed by his own cousin 2 years later..

[@HeartPhantom]

i am, and never will be, ready

[@crazystupidbean]

Love, love, love this edit! You’re so talented, my friend! P.S. 1:49 where is this scene from?

[@marinmia188]

Did I catch a glimpse of wolfhart??

[@lizziearchinal7098]

i wish there was a movie about Sirius Black

[@AlessaBelikov]

if you hate this video then clearly you have a very poor taste because it's BRILLIANT

[@lostbirdx]

kdjdkddj thanks? haha😂❤️

[@zocha403]

i love it so much. thats all i can say

[@saram.knight9930]

Katie McGrath yes!

[@maxpotter4905]

omg i'm crying

[@antisocialwarda]

im 12 and im such a marauder addict....wonder wot will happen when im 20 or something lmao (i just hope i dont grow out of it like my mom and aunts did...ouf) but istg i wont let that happened

[@lolarobinson940]

2 years later??

[@alicenovember9230]

yesss i love it

[@adventuressurvivefanedits4890]

Please what is the line “there are no heroes or villains” line from? Please anyone very important

[@cindyclnd]

This is amazing !

[@lostbirdx]

thanks!!

[@cindyclnd]

@@lostbirdx you're welcome !

[@anderson1]

not corona but you killed me

[@prisoner396-siriusblack8]

No one needs to worry my trauma ended when my life ended and know im happy with my friends in heaven watching over my godson and his kids 😇

[@TheNowemy]

Awesome Video :)

[@user-bz3td8wk3h]

Perfect

[@kaitcarro2854]

WOAH

[@ladyecs3680]

Tão perfeitooooo. ADCIONA LEGENDA EM PORTUGUÊS por FAVOOOOOOORRRRR

[@blackslyytherin2542]

JUST WOW

[@laibanisar5267]

WOWWW WOWWW WOWWW WOWWW

[@loveatrej]

Sirius wasn´t in love with Marlene but otherwise good video.

[@asosisos659]

You mean ben barnes didnt play sirius? Those scenes and characters are from different movies with different plot? And You put them all together and this happened? Unbelievable i dont have the words

[@lostbirdx]

😭❤️❤️