Skinhead interview-Psycho

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Soft White Underbelly

2 жыл бұрын

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Psycho, a skinhead in Los Angeles. Here are links to follow up interviews with Psycho: • Skinhead interview-Psy... • Psycho-March, 2022
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@TheSunGoethDown
@TheSunGoethDown 2 жыл бұрын
This poor man has been on survival mode since birth. I felt a pain when he said “I wish I had a dad.”. All children need love and security .
@jen4552
@jen4552 2 жыл бұрын
Every child needs a father. Every child. We need black fathers back in the house. We need to celebrate fathers who actually step up to the role and do right by their children.
@johnnelson7148
@johnnelson7148 2 жыл бұрын
My sperm donor vanished into thin air. I've got nothing, birth mom is dead and she was the outcast of the family. She hid the pregnancy. It fucks with ya..
@marionrafferty2259
@marionrafferty2259 2 жыл бұрын
@@jen4552 hn
@a.wanderer5006
@a.wanderer5006 2 жыл бұрын
@@jen4552 Not necessarily only celebrate but EXPECT.
@jen4552
@jen4552 2 жыл бұрын
@anonymous I don’t feel the need to help raise the awareness of gay households being that only 15% of the 1.5% same sex households are raising children.
@lushX1
@lushX1 2 жыл бұрын
“Loves a hard word for me…my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more.” Truly one of the saddest things I’ve ever heard on this channel. I hope this guy gets a break soon, because he needs it.
@katstephenson8493
@katstephenson8493 2 жыл бұрын
Totally agree..I felt like crying.. I wish I knew his address cos I'd send him £££££
@acebasinnation88888
@acebasinnation88888 2 жыл бұрын
Your right
@brookjohnson8216
@brookjohnson8216 2 жыл бұрын
I’m a police officer and I remember the first time I realized heroin was more important than kids for some. It was jarring. Now it’s just another thing I know. Heroin is some insidious evil shit.
@brookjohnson8216
@brookjohnson8216 2 жыл бұрын
@@nickthelick I encourage you to keep trying to quit, until you quit, or until you die. I revived two people with Narcan between today and yesterday. What’s out on the streets (in Oregon where I work) is pure poison. This year alone I’ve done at least 30 overdoses… and that’s just me. Some lived some did not. I’ve had to do several death notifications to kids, parents, husbands and wives. I know a lot of people feel sympathy for the guy in this video. I can appreciate that I didn’t have the same upbringing as him. But selling meth or heroin is pure evil. Especially when you are as well educated as him on the effects of what you’re selling. It’s hard to care about a pusher’s story after you see someone’s kid die from what this guy sold… then have to go tell a parent their kid died in bathroom of a flop house. As a parent, I take on that pain as my own. So as far as this guy goes… I’ll pray for him, but sympathy isn’t too forthcoming. As for you my man, I’ll pray for you and I sincerely hope you summon the resources and strength to get clean. I have many “friends” on the street that have successfully beat heroin. I go to church with many that I have arrested. The other side of addiction is worth the hell you MUST go through to get there. Sending love brother. Be strong and find a way… it’s worth it.
@CompassRose21
@CompassRose21 2 жыл бұрын
@@nickthelick my sister was in active opioid (mostly fentanyl) addiction for something like four years. The only time she was semi clean was the last few months of her pregnancy. After she had the baby, she lost custody, so me and my mom raised her while my sister floated around doing drugs with her boyfriend. She overdosed a few times and would have died if it weren't for narcan and the grace of God. She was in rehab and that didn't stick. Then outpatient treatment and that didn't stick. I saw my sister blue on the floor with no heartbeat a year ago and I dream about that all the time. I say all that to say that she just celebrated six months clean. She just got back custody of her daughter and is working on finding a job. It was really hard, but she did it, and has been doing it for six months. I'm personally not an addict, but living with one for so long has given maybe a bit of insight, and I truly believe that if my sister can do it and continue to do the work, so can you or anyone else. I hope you can rest and find people who are able to support you.
@a.w.3772
@a.w.3772 Жыл бұрын
Poor guy, self soothing with rocking back n forth. Seems like he never was fully loved and cared for. I hope his daughter can show him compassion and connect with him in a heartfelt way.
@nataliexyz5468
@nataliexyz5468 3 ай бұрын
Lmao he’s high on meth
@bryancastanon7113
@bryancastanon7113 Жыл бұрын
Just a update: I see him almost everyday. Super nice guy, not a racist at all, I’m Mexican and always says hi to me and he buys clothing from my job. Great guy.
@sinverrette9803
@sinverrette9803 10 ай бұрын
Skinhead and not racist doesn't go in the same sentence. You must be new to earth...
@TRUEMETAL6666
@TRUEMETAL6666 7 ай бұрын
He literally brags about killing a mexican
@xxSMASHFLOWERxx
@xxSMASHFLOWERxx 6 ай бұрын
​@@sinverrette9803There are non racist skinheads and racist skinheads. They are both completely different groups.
@massgrave8x
@massgrave8x 6 ай бұрын
@@sinverrette9803 massively ignorant statement.
@smidgemcgee9609
@smidgemcgee9609 4 ай бұрын
@@sinverrette9803You clearly have no clue about the skinhead movement. most skins are not racist. They call them SHARPs . educate yourself
@NicoEmz47
@NicoEmz47 2 жыл бұрын
Not gonna lie when he said my mom loved heroin more then me , struck me hard, I wish this gentleman nothing but the very best
@Wigzy23
@Wigzy23 2 жыл бұрын
I felt his pain with that statement. Full credit to him for standing up and changing his life direction. That takes 💪
@adamfox1669
@adamfox1669 2 жыл бұрын
Truth
@herosofaddiction6292
@herosofaddiction6292 2 жыл бұрын
Addiction articulated at its finest
@nasirabdullatif
@nasirabdullatif 2 жыл бұрын
Sad
@Libertybaynurse
@Libertybaynurse 2 жыл бұрын
Me too, I seriously put my hand over my heart when he said that... 💔😢
@nsjohn130
@nsjohn130 2 жыл бұрын
"Besides paying for my daughter's schooling, I've never done anything right" just broke my heart. Jesus.
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
He lied about that.....they don't let you keep part of the money they seize in a bust
@g3neriik901
@g3neriik901 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 yeah that they seize in a bust. if he had money stashed somewhere else it’s very possible. drug money is kept on records so there’s no way for them to know how much he actually had or made.
@ianhargreaves4978
@ianhargreaves4978 2 жыл бұрын
He paid with drug money ffs
@sbrady3354
@sbrady3354 2 жыл бұрын
"My mother told me she loved me. But she loved heroin more than me, so." 😢
@wojciechmotkowski4804
@wojciechmotkowski4804 2 жыл бұрын
The Jesus you propably think of does not care. He is dead.
@BlountForce
@BlountForce Жыл бұрын
I’m glad to hear how well his daughter has done and how she didn’t let his issues ruin her life. Good for her. I bet he’s so proud
@TDace25
@TDace25 Жыл бұрын
Same. You could tell he was very proud of her. Happy to see
@spfadden082711
@spfadden082711 Жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same thing. Unfortunately that’s rare to do so well with parents so messed up.
@dsk2688
@dsk2688 Жыл бұрын
You can tell she’s hes biggest pride and the one thing he feels has gone right about his life
@mclovinlife4018
@mclovinlife4018 Жыл бұрын
You’d be surprised what someone can accomplish when they don’t constantly victimize themselves as an excuse
@tattooninja
@tattooninja Жыл бұрын
I met so many trash people like this in LA, getting free rent free clothes free drugs, getting paid $1,000/month just to exist, etc etc. I wonder what it's like to live in a country that doesn't treat criminals better than responsible people. But seriously, those of you who praise these people are even worse than they are. 🖕🖕🖕
@ineedmymodfixed
@ineedmymodfixed Жыл бұрын
"my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more than me" God damn that one cut me straight to my core. Someone I'm really close to their sister has 3 kids who she couldn't be bothered to be in their lives. Living on the street, 3 kids bring raised by the grandparents. She would go on to OD and die half way across the country.
@AlexG-pt2zs
@AlexG-pt2zs Жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse that’s true huh lol
@punk4rockorz
@punk4rockorz Жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse Certainly. But that is what these videos are for. Many of them confessing they make only bad decisions, no matter what they try or do. They are mostly fucked up humans for a reason and know it, but somehow can't help bettering themselves despite intentions and knowing what's right. That is the fucked up thing. That is the lesson to be taken from these videos I think. What I am often wondering is what makes some people succeed and others not? In the end we often feel the same way but act totally different.
@Gemories
@Gemories Жыл бұрын
100th 👍
@badassmexican9479
@badassmexican9479 Жыл бұрын
@@hamsandwichindahouse you really judging like you’re perfect, he’s trying to change while your a shitty person staying the same wow
@heidji
@heidji Жыл бұрын
​@@hamsandwichindahouse wow that's a lot of hate. keep it up buddy.
@professorcalvert8126
@professorcalvert8126 2 жыл бұрын
If a movie was ever made about this guy Woody Harrelson would be perfect to play him
@whocares6766
@whocares6766 2 жыл бұрын
Facts!! They look so similar 😯
@_jp__
@_jp__ 2 жыл бұрын
I also see that
@eyezwideopen7590
@eyezwideopen7590 2 жыл бұрын
"I blew my balls off?"
@CLT2829
@CLT2829 2 жыл бұрын
Or Nolte
@el6178
@el6178 2 жыл бұрын
Awesome remark.
@16watch
@16watch 2 жыл бұрын
Psycho is not psycho at all. He is actually a very intelligent man who was broken by his upbringing. I find it amazing and admiral that he took care of his daughter. I hope he finds peace someday.
@Luwl.
@Luwl. 2 жыл бұрын
He might be a sociopath bc i don't think this man was born with no feelings, he definitely has some feelings
@wuddadid
@wuddadid 2 жыл бұрын
I dunno I think someone who can torture somebody and film it is pretty psychotic tbh. Nice guy though! Would let him date my daughter :)
@keenb641
@keenb641 2 жыл бұрын
He tortured someone for 72 hours by using dental floss to keep their eye lids open (like Hitler did), and burned him while videoing it.
@wuddadid
@wuddadid 2 жыл бұрын
@@keenb641 Yes exactly, a nice guy!
@wuddadid
@wuddadid 2 жыл бұрын
@@RanchDressingPop-Tarts It wasn't clarified what psycho meant in this video so it could have been short for either psychotic OR psychopath. Psychotic: Someone who's mind is losing its grip on reality. Psychopath: Someone who isn't able to feel for others and may act in reckless and antisocial ways. He could be classified as both.
@thatswhatshesaid4246
@thatswhatshesaid4246 Жыл бұрын
Thing that gets me the most, as a father, is seeing the pain in the eyes of guys like this when they talk about their childhood. Hearing them talk about how bad they wanted a dad.
@WildWhiskers1989
@WildWhiskers1989 8 ай бұрын
This man is a soldier of the darker side of life & delivering a message of light.
@ericjones2659
@ericjones2659 2 жыл бұрын
This man put his daughter through one of the MOST prestgious schools all while screwing most of his life up. Kudos to Psycho and what he did for his daughter!
@brandiva96
@brandiva96 2 жыл бұрын
He wanted better for his daughter and that is what most parents who love their children want. He had a screwed up childhood thank God he didn't put his daughter through that kind of life. I agree kudos to him!!!!
@Teestar519
@Teestar519 2 жыл бұрын
💯👌🏽 hes a real one! Solid asf through & through! 💪🏽 OTF
@downwiththezionistpsychopa9812
@downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 2 жыл бұрын
school doesnt mean shit when it comes to character
@brucelee2125
@brucelee2125 2 жыл бұрын
You do realized he was lying right? About the 800k and his daughter only "almost being an assistant rn." U can do that shit for 2400$.
@brucelee2125
@brucelee2125 2 жыл бұрын
@@TaraLynnbeauty 800k is more than it costs to go to NYU medical school. Google what it costs to be a registered nurse. Hes lying, hes a meth head that got a couple hundred for an interview.
@pablochacon6362
@pablochacon6362 2 жыл бұрын
This man isn’t hateful by default, he’s a product of his environment just like anyone else growing up in that kind of environment is.
@MrDelvoughn
@MrDelvoughn 2 жыл бұрын
Let it be known Pablo👍
@bigbillybadass
@bigbillybadass 2 жыл бұрын
Lies. He's just like his ancestors that burnt down black wall street
@mokococolata
@mokococolata 2 жыл бұрын
Same as the people who are American justice, police's favorite preys and your problematic (overly sensitive, too paranoid, annoying with her traumas) but many won't live as long as him, many would do less shit than him and not. And them white homeless asking young sometimes colored students we know them too. I'll watch this interview when black lives will matter. And black folks empathizing y'all...😅 Please have some self-love, more likely, this nigga more likely wouldn't care about your trauma if you did this to his race, remember that.
@frankyeager2298
@frankyeager2298 2 жыл бұрын
@@bigbillybadass you've never seen prison walls obviously don't be a clown I really hope your a child and not adult Cut the woke 💩 life is alot deeper than your bubble you live in
@bigbillybadass
@bigbillybadass 2 жыл бұрын
@@frankyeager2298 yea cause the beans don't program with the pecks?. Foh
@pwaskom
@pwaskom Жыл бұрын
I feel for that man. His life had been trauma since he can remember, no matter how tough a man is we are not built for all that constant trauma. Prayers for him and his family
@drunken_monkey2690
@drunken_monkey2690 Жыл бұрын
Fuck that guy. He tortured people.
@tattooninja
@tattooninja Жыл бұрын
That's because you're stupid.
@Sadwilly
@Sadwilly Жыл бұрын
@Janet Pratt 😐
@dargis
@dargis Жыл бұрын
@Janet Pratt ok janet..
@yardhusband
@yardhusband Жыл бұрын
Actually, we are all built for constant trauma. If we weren't, then would have no automatic coping mechanisms, which we clearly have in abundance. Granted these mechanisms are not geared toward rationality, but rather, pure raw survival. Its how we kept on keeping on, after watching our children eaten in front of our eyes by a saber toothed cat. Our society is what is not built to handle severely traumatized humans, that are in a mind state of "survival at all costs" due to said trauma.
@Zianeth
@Zianeth 4 ай бұрын
I love how he went and meditated on what stories to share and came back, like he said, he learned to think before doing/saying things...
@BradAndLex
@BradAndLex 2 жыл бұрын
Wowww!! This is so raw. I never thought i could sympathize with a Skinhead but here we are in 2021. Everything is so complex and nuanced. 🥴 These interviews make it make sense.
@chrismckenzie403
@chrismckenzie403 2 жыл бұрын
Brad & Lex. I love your video reviews on music.I subscribe & I wonder if you two could handle the Butthole Surfers? Or Die Antwoord? Two very weird music groups.
@crzywrld1321
@crzywrld1321 2 жыл бұрын
Right?! Thanks Trump!!!
@bobsakamoto1912
@bobsakamoto1912 2 жыл бұрын
I agree the last thing a racist needs is more hate.
@chrismckenzie403
@chrismckenzie403 2 жыл бұрын
@@crzywrld1321 NOTHING IS STUPIDER THAN RELATING TRUMP TO SKINHEADS!
@AbsolutelyNoOne-qi4ye
@AbsolutelyNoOne-qi4ye 2 жыл бұрын
@@crzywrld1321 This shit had nothing to do with Politics and you bringing Trump up in a conversation about a Skinhead shows you’ve never even looked into Trump or spoken to his supporters because they’re the furthest from racist.
@ball19821982
@ball19821982 2 жыл бұрын
I know you say that you “gave up” your daughter, but I think instead, you gave her a chance. Good on you for doing what was never, but should have been done for you. My heart goes out to you and I hope you keep focusing on a better life. Take care.
@urcookin
@urcookin 2 жыл бұрын
Sounds like he’s still part of her life too. At least he knew the right thing to do and still be around. He didn’t do what his dad did to him.
@NAT-turners-Revenge
@NAT-turners-Revenge 2 жыл бұрын
Ur beautiful 😍
@doejon9424
@doejon9424 2 жыл бұрын
She was half black. He had to give her up to live his skinhead lifestyle. He couldn't be caught with a black daughter.
@ewetn1
@ewetn1 2 жыл бұрын
@@doejon9424 .....? Where did you get this information
@shiela5354
@shiela5354 2 жыл бұрын
@@doejon9424 yea where did you get this info from?
@410Gregj
@410Gregj Жыл бұрын
I commend you for loving your daughter enough to send her to live with your sister. Funding her pathway to success through nursing school. Removing those tattoos from your face speaks volumes about leaving your past behind you. You’re a noble man, don’t look back
@Obiwan702
@Obiwan702 Жыл бұрын
This is a guy who had no guidance but loves his daughter. My guy won’t like me cause I’m not White but I have the utmost compassion for him and I seriously wish him all the best.
@theyoungcommander
@theyoungcommander 2 жыл бұрын
Mark's interviewing technique is really strong. He uses silence so well to let people stew in it. And his questions are broad and unintrusive, allowing them to interpret them how they want.
@Jedstop
@Jedstop 2 жыл бұрын
Like asking a white skinhead if he was in a Mexican gang?
@jacoblloyd3049
@jacoblloyd3049 2 жыл бұрын
i feel like the way he can phrase things and make insinuations can lack tact a lot of times
@Randimal762
@Randimal762 2 жыл бұрын
Mark really is an outstanding interviewer.
@tekkadawn6685
@tekkadawn6685 2 жыл бұрын
@@Jedstop that was genius
@alessia3957
@alessia3957 2 жыл бұрын
agree, its kinda like a therapy session. the people also must feel some weight off their back after they tell their stories :,)
@maggiefisker994
@maggiefisker994 2 жыл бұрын
Having no role models has ruined this man , the fact that he realizes that speaks volumes . You have saved your daughter .
@jeskahaley9616
@jeskahaley9616 2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@ryansouthey2691
@ryansouthey2691 2 жыл бұрын
Your right with your comment, I'm 36 and have struggled all my life with no father since age of 5. You just feel lost looking for and over giving to anyone that shows you some kind of fatherly affection. Taken me a long time to see it, you do just go into a selfish self destruct mode it's crazy
@enmeterdumheter
@enmeterdumheter 2 жыл бұрын
I felt what you wrote. Im 35 years old and my father figure/role model was my best friend that was my age. I didnt know it then, but i have soul searched my self and stumbold a cross that thought!
@enmeterdumheter
@enmeterdumheter 2 жыл бұрын
@@ryansouthey2691 man i wrote my answear and then i read other comments! We had the same issues brother. Im struggling with opiates my whole life. And for the last time, this is the hardest i worked in my whole life. Taking just very very little Subutex/buprenofine now days. Took a whole 8mg Subutex a day, now i take 1/4 two times a week. Progress finally brother! I wish you well and luck in life brother! Peace from Sweden
@timchavis9420
@timchavis9420 2 жыл бұрын
😭
@joshloney6849
@joshloney6849 Жыл бұрын
Hes honest and just trying to keep his apartment. I couldn’t imagine going through all that let alone having to bounce back and try to stay out of prison. People are products of there environment. I hope he can keep it together.
@michaelstoneking7228
@michaelstoneking7228 Жыл бұрын
What a powerful interview on how important our role as parents are. I’m about to go squeeze the shit out of my two boys. Stay strong man.
@chiru-links6130
@chiru-links6130 Жыл бұрын
I agree in how important parents are in children's lives. I got two boys myself and can also relate to squeezing the shit out of them. Just gotta be there for them and not make the mistakes parents make.
@scottfiore104
@scottfiore104 Жыл бұрын
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@jedde4248
@jedde4248 2 жыл бұрын
The fact he knows all those things about his daughter without having to even think shows he has some good left in him
@bobcat224
@bobcat224 2 жыл бұрын
He is proud of her! It might be the one thing in his life he can be proud of. It shows his humanity.
@leneo1731
@leneo1731 2 жыл бұрын
Most people have good in them. It's just very hidden at times. He talks to his daughter twice a week. It's a very good thing she's forgiven him because she's probably the only thing in his life that has some kind of meaning to him.
@markh3885
@markh3885 2 жыл бұрын
Everyone is capable of goodness. Even monsters.
@jedde4248
@jedde4248 2 жыл бұрын
@@stephenforbes2762 I don’t think it’s wrong to try and make yourself feel better.. let the mans live the life he has left. He knows his done wrong
@ayeyuh6920
@ayeyuh6920 2 жыл бұрын
@@stephenforbes2762 You act like people can't be redeemed. It's wild how you can watch this and not be able to sympathize with him.
@Mr.Weeast
@Mr.Weeast 2 жыл бұрын
You can legit watch this guys energy shift during this interview. I’m sure he is not used to someone asking him so many genuine and deep questions.
@FLnative13thGen
@FLnative13thGen 2 жыл бұрын
Looks a lot more like the anticipation of drugs as payment for speaking.
@bonsang1073
@bonsang1073 2 жыл бұрын
the questions about the father brought out the worse panic
@imfromtheinternett6155
@imfromtheinternett6155 2 жыл бұрын
@@FLnative13thGen yea he looks like he’s twacked out lolol
@rodneytuxedo7559
@rodneytuxedo7559 2 жыл бұрын
That energy shift is literally called meth.
@acardinalconsideration824
@acardinalconsideration824 2 жыл бұрын
His agitated “huh!?” sounds like he’s about to chop him up with a machete
@1w598
@1w598 Жыл бұрын
Good on him for having the insight to reflect on his life, and acknowledge & own up to all the bad stuff. Paying for all your daughter's schooling in full, is very respectable. He sincerely wants her to have a better chance at life than he did.
@ramblinrose8
@ramblinrose8 Жыл бұрын
okay, I agree but you can't be blaming your parents for how you end up...signed my mother was murdered by my stepbrother and the last time my dad hit me I was 23...still, you are right. He's helped his daughter and is trying...
@houndmother2398
@houndmother2398 Жыл бұрын
The fact that he's been able to help his daughter as much as he had is amazing. Maybe his own life didn't turn out the way He wanted but his daughter's certainly did.
@OmegaSinister
@OmegaSinister 2 жыл бұрын
Goes to show that it doesn't matter who you are or your skin color, lack of good parenting puts you at the mercy of an unforgiving world. Hard to grow up properly if you're busy raising yourself.
@arnekronvall817
@arnekronvall817 2 жыл бұрын
Yes, environment is important but genes are too. A lot of people I know grew up in real bad conditions and they made it out a“normal” life (without prison at least).
@hmkhgx8068
@hmkhgx8068 2 жыл бұрын
@@arnekronvall817 its not genes it's just luck
@OuttaPocketCentral
@OuttaPocketCentral 2 жыл бұрын
All luck. U don’t choose ur parents… or at least remember
@leneo1731
@leneo1731 2 жыл бұрын
@Piglover Genes absolutely has something to do with is also. Mental illnesses can be genetically pre disposable. If I'm not totally wrong, studies show that children of addicts also are more likely to become addicted even if they grow up away from their parents. We know that heart diseases has to do with genetics, so why shouldn't mental illness be genetic? Obviously your environment are the most important factor but genetics also play roles.
@deankurk4467
@deankurk4467 2 жыл бұрын
It could be epiginetic; ie trsuma encoded into genes that isn’t necessarily your “dna” but methylations of it.
@yogz90
@yogz90 2 жыл бұрын
Never thought I’d feel for someone who probably hates my skin, but I really am rooting for him. Wish I could hug the guy.
@witchcraftwilliam7879
@witchcraftwilliam7879 2 жыл бұрын
I don't he think does anymore he live in a Mexican hood. U gotta understand in California if u in the life. Gangs. Prisons. Etc. U riding with you're race. Just how it is. Especially prision
@noahfreeman3191
@noahfreeman3191 2 жыл бұрын
Skinheads aren’t always racist. The original skinheads listen to reggae which comes from Jamaica. It wasn’t till the 80s that skins started becoming race oriented.
@smithwesson3771
@smithwesson3771 2 жыл бұрын
I know an ex skin head who went to prison and came out not rasist lol his best friends are black ... People change if they want to
@PathtoYahawah
@PathtoYahawah 2 жыл бұрын
@@witchcraftwilliam7879 he was skinhead before going to prison stop it. Most biker gangs dislike darker skinned ppl here in America.
@Brook_Nichelle
@Brook_Nichelle 2 жыл бұрын
It's tough to feel sorry for him. My older brother was beat and stabbed to death by skinheads at the age of 15 or 16 can't remember his age, but he was young.
@daddykiller5835
@daddykiller5835 Жыл бұрын
This guy is the real deal! We've all made mistakes, looking back on our early life wishing we could go back and right the wrongs. I have a little girl, I couldn't imagine being away from her!! She's one of the BEST things that ever happened to me. I'm sure Psycho realizes what he's missed over the years. Good luck man✌️
@badgalkia10
@badgalkia10 Жыл бұрын
I bet grandchildren would truly push him to change even more. You can tell he truly loves his daughter. He really needs a complete change in his environment. Doesn’t matter the race, poverty, drugs, trauma has a very strong effect on a person. I don’t blame him, what was a child to do with literally no positive role models, no money, living on the streets, no love 🥺. I truly wish this man the best 🙏🏾 he has plenty sense, & his experiences has granted him alot of wisdom. Best wishes Psycho ❤️❤️❤️
@YungTrinidad407
@YungTrinidad407 2 жыл бұрын
He’s so proud to send his daughter to school 🙂🙂🙂
@turdeyeblind
@turdeyeblind 2 жыл бұрын
😊
@turdeyeblind
@turdeyeblind 2 жыл бұрын
@GapYear and if she has a good life and has kids well then he broke the chain. It’s sad but at the same time. Good for him
@nicolestargell8323
@nicolestargell8323 2 жыл бұрын
I was thinking the same thing. It is probably the most “normal” thing he has ever done. He has such pride for his daughter.
@jkollman
@jkollman 2 жыл бұрын
FACTS
@puercobizarrotv6854
@puercobizarrotv6854 2 жыл бұрын
I like that
@ddd1hhh
@ddd1hhh 2 жыл бұрын
Damn, if there’s one thing he did, he BROKE THE CYCLE (daughter in nursing school)!!! Props to you on that, Psycho! You’re one of the good ones!!
@AshPagelsdorf42
@AshPagelsdorf42 2 жыл бұрын
i thought the same right away, great job man - you did it
@porkerpete7722
@porkerpete7722 2 жыл бұрын
Even a psycho dad is important for a child.
@keereekee
@keereekee 2 жыл бұрын
He's a pretty decent man
@boonkgang1536
@boonkgang1536 2 жыл бұрын
Dudes literally a skin head decent man my ass
@Tre492
@Tre492 2 жыл бұрын
@@boonkgang1536 oh okay, but we’re supposed to believe that these gang bangers out here are just misunderstood troubled souls.
@melodymakermark
@melodymakermark Жыл бұрын
His daughter chose the right field. Jobs o plenty for nurses. You can tell he’s proud.
@maryreid3387
@maryreid3387 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much- for posting. Psycho could possibly save others from such hard lessons in life. This information is so Educational, so hard to hear, so valuable- as to what not to do.
@dmac9777
@dmac9777 2 жыл бұрын
He gave more love to his daughter than he ever received. I hope hes looked upon favourably for this wherever he may go.
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
Especially for the countless young lives he corrupted.....also the kidnapping and torturing.....damn good dude
@ochat2010
@ochat2010 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 😆
@betsybabf748
@betsybabf748 2 жыл бұрын
Kids love unconditionally unless you're not there parenting or cause them so much hurt they have to lose the love to survive. All kids need from us is to raise them and protect them.
@unknownentity8256
@unknownentity8256 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 "He" corrupted? Uhh, you're either born into it, or you really need to want it, it's not like he forced people to join or smh. lol.
@JDascrambler
@JDascrambler 2 жыл бұрын
@@unknownentity8256 actually kids becoming teens and around that age are easily manipulated for many reasons. So yes he “corrupted” them.
@chloerousseau
@chloerousseau 2 жыл бұрын
When he said, I’m institutionalized I can stare at a wall for 24 hours for years, that…that got me. The prison industrial complex has deeper pockets and more power than we can fathom. Just turns us out, cashes us in, then on to the next.
@blc28x
@blc28x 2 жыл бұрын
What a real comment, deep pockets, how try we don’t “rehabilitate” anyone😔
@EsoTownBizz6500
@EsoTownBizz6500 2 жыл бұрын
Word..... Heyy Chloe..
@froandcara
@froandcara 2 жыл бұрын
Exactly. Prisons - making traumatized people more desperate and deeper in survival mode. All while making money for “justice” aka corrupt gov
@Janellabelle
@Janellabelle 2 жыл бұрын
They've done everything they can to capitalize off poverty and the trauma that is often associated with it. They actually have huge companies using prison labor to make their products for pennies (Victoria's Secret for instance). In my opinion, just because they give them 3 cents a hour doesn't mean it isn't....damn near slavery, and the US population of black Americans vs US prison population of black Americans is far out of proportion. That should be a red flag to everyone that slavery isn't dead it just got a different look now. This is either slavery or an updated version of the workhouse or a mixture of both. We enslave people we don't think are worthy of human rights which are supposed to be...a right. Something you can't take away, kind of exactly like we did before. Then we based it on color now it's less about color (but still is to an extent) and more about poverty. The prison industrial complex is out of control. We have the most prisoners in the world and we only make up what? Like 20% of the population? Less? Idk but it's far out of proportion and our prisons leave a hell of a lot to be desired. Do I expect The Ritz no but mold, standing water, rats and no AC or heat is ridiculous for the richest country in the world. (Or one of the richest at least)
@karkkimarkkinat2109
@karkkimarkkinat2109 2 жыл бұрын
Whoa you're so deep.
@susielynn7916
@susielynn7916 Жыл бұрын
EVEN THO his history is not positive & he has really struggled personally,, his love for his daughter & how he has been devoted to her well being is so incredibly touching!
@dillonq7072
@dillonq7072 Жыл бұрын
He did not pay $800k for his daughter to be a CNA gfto
@khadijakhan7180
@khadijakhan7180 2 жыл бұрын
I can feel the love he has for his daughter through the screen. I hope she sees this and knows he’s trying.
@CoyoteOfSC
@CoyoteOfSC 2 жыл бұрын
The interview and comments below honestly brought me to tears... love is the human default mode. This guy is supposed to hate me for my skin, but I know he pretended to hate to survive. The complexity of the human condition is a beautiful one.
@brownjatt21
@brownjatt21 2 жыл бұрын
One of the worst things about California prisons that other states don't do as you probably know is segregation by race. You might not even be racist but you literally have to Side with your race for survival.
@marimarsilva4629
@marimarsilva4629 2 жыл бұрын
@@brownjatt21 I mean it's kinda smart because everyone is in survival mode in CA prisons so I think being with your own race the survival mode goes down a notch
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
He would kill you.... given the chance
@LosAngeles-le2bf
@LosAngeles-le2bf 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 no we wouldn't, not if he's just minding his business. He lives in a Mexican neighborhood, if he messed w anyone for no reason, he knows he would be done.
@Ashes2Ashes_Blush2Blush
@Ashes2Ashes_Blush2Blush 2 жыл бұрын
Yes.......
@dirtybird4976
@dirtybird4976 Жыл бұрын
"Whatever right is, I wish I did things better" that is such a simple thing but so true and I think everyone can understand and relate to that regardless of your background.
@gadblatz4841
@gadblatz4841 Жыл бұрын
Skinhead culture is way older and much more multi-faceted than american prison gangs would have you believe. Believe it or not, skinhead has roots in a fusion of jamaican and english working class youth starting in the late 60s and was one of the first integrated multi-racial youth subcultures in Europe. Remember the roots 69.
@ericmatthews9799
@ericmatthews9799 Жыл бұрын
Thank you! I've been posting the origins, so it's nice to find someone who's keeping the faith.. other videos on this channel who are "skinheads" never dress smart, aren't in the dancehalls..
@doeeyes2
@doeeyes2 2 жыл бұрын
"My mom told me she loved me but she loved heroin more". Damn that broke my heart. Makes me thankful for the mom God gave me and I should probably stop being such a brat.
@lifeisbutamoment
@lifeisbutamoment 2 жыл бұрын
How could you not come out of that fucked up? Dude had no chance. Sad
@miguelgonzalezg.99
@miguelgonzalezg.99 2 жыл бұрын
Yes, it is devastating to listen to this phrase. I feel his pain and sorrow…
@deadsypadilla
@deadsypadilla 2 жыл бұрын
Your mom could be taken away, In an accident, why stress her?
@lacali2346
@lacali2346 2 жыл бұрын
When someone turns to heroin / fentanyl they sell their soul away. They are no longer themselves and have no control over it. Surely your mother loved you but the devil got her on lock down
@wheresmypudding
@wheresmypudding 2 жыл бұрын
Nah being a brat is a part of growing up and if you don't give your parents some trouble now and again they won't be able to think of new punishments
@ABetterLifeInc
@ABetterLifeInc 2 жыл бұрын
This guy has been there and done that. Easily let us know not having a dad was the main downfall of his life but his daughter is the best thing in his life.
@roberttietjen5012
@roberttietjen5012 Жыл бұрын
Just found out about Soft White Under Belly from your appearance on Joe Rogan! Thanks to both of you!
@alvarojneto
@alvarojneto Жыл бұрын
Way worse than Netflix as far as binging goes
@ecstazyrm
@ecstazyrm Жыл бұрын
Me too
@spfadden082711
@spfadden082711 Жыл бұрын
Yup me too!
@JohannGambolputty22
@JohannGambolputty22 Жыл бұрын
Me too!
@nathanblume
@nathanblume Жыл бұрын
Same here
@melbanugget
@melbanugget Жыл бұрын
I love your interviews. Your the only one out there that does these incredibly fascinating videos. Bless your heart my friend.
@purpleirklegrovestreet
@purpleirklegrovestreet 2 жыл бұрын
Im black and a good majority of my friends are white since I grew up with mostly white people my whole life. I also have alot of black and white friends too that grew up in what most would call “the hood” and I have one friend who was a skin head. He doesnt have a racist bone in his body lol. But he was facing 10-15 years at 19 and only way u survive up in state being non affiliated and white is to join the aryans/skin heads. And thats what he did, its better than being a flesh light. Truth is, you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes and not to take everything at face value. He has white power and nazi symbols tatted all over him but I really dont care cuz I know his true character and sitting down and getting to know someone is better than judging them at face value based on what YOU think about them. We all need to come together and listen to each others stories, cuz it will bring us closer. See someone with a confederate flag on their truck, ask them why they have it. The reason will 9.9/10 not be racist. See someone with a blue lives matter sticker, ask em why they have it. They could have a deceased family member who was a serviceman. See someone with a BLM sticker, ask em why they have it, the reason might shock you. But the truth is, you can have differing views and be friends, so stop being limited by your political party or if someone likes guns or not or if someone has a flag u dont agree with cuz that shit is all face value and is a horrible way of judging TRUE CHARACTER. Thank you if you read this whole thing and have a good day.
@Doodamac
@Doodamac 2 жыл бұрын
Real shit man, but aye I wanna ask did u s15 swap ur front end on ur s14? Thing looks nice! Also do you drift or drag it?
@purpleirklegrovestreet
@purpleirklegrovestreet 2 жыл бұрын
@@Doodamac yea man its s15 front end swapped. I rarely run the bumper or hood anymore tho since ive been doin rolls. Its a street car but I throw some 225s on it every once in a while and break her loose lol.
@tfries1607
@tfries1607 2 жыл бұрын
240dejS14. Dude. Brother. Fellow human. Well said. Very well said. You know what really gets under my skin is that, most of the time in today's society, if you hold an unpopular opinion, or go against the latest grain in any fashion, so many are real quick to not just point you out, but to drown you out, as if they aren't just content with hating on you, they want to erase you for not thinking like them. In the last few years I've seen this mentality rise from obscurity , to become the norm . It's beyond sad , that in this country it's near impossible for people to sit down and just be cool with each other if they are of opposing viewpoints. I'm not perfect. I struggle with ingrained racial shit more often than I wish. It's not like I hate anyone for being different from me, not in the true sense of me. Sometimes though I find myself thinking shit that I feel terrible for thinking, like a flash of thought will come into my mind and I'm asking myself why did I think that? That's not me! I'm fascinated by other cultures , especially ancient cultures from all over! I mostly like punk , metal and oi! , but I know that none of those musics would exist without the invention of deep southern blues. Music that was invented by black men. Nothing but love and respect there. I can't stand when I see someone do r say something racial, publicly no matter who it is against who. Like Psycho , I can't stand bullies. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. Other than I appreciate your comment. I wish people were actually tolerant , especially those who preach tolerance the most. We're all the same, we're all different. We all breathe and we're all gonna die someday. Anyways.. God bless you sir. And God bless Psycho.
@purpleirklegrovestreet
@purpleirklegrovestreet 2 жыл бұрын
@@tfries1607 god bless you brother
@michaelthompson8977
@michaelthompson8977 2 жыл бұрын
Probably the most intelligent comment I have ever heard on social media. God bless you
@Joniron7
@Joniron7 2 жыл бұрын
I am sitting here thinking about how bad my life sucks but this man is living for the sake of living.
@KimbradleyMasterGardener
@KimbradleyMasterGardener 2 жыл бұрын
Made me think twice, too. Hope you feel better soon.
@herosofaddiction6292
@herosofaddiction6292 2 жыл бұрын
Dude has seen a life many could never imagine. Addiction articulated perfectly
@lorijones5561
@lorijones5561 2 жыл бұрын
Facts
@rastachicagomataderos
@rastachicagomataderos 2 жыл бұрын
Your life still sucking anyways.
@blakewilliams6140
@blakewilliams6140 Жыл бұрын
I have actually met this man at my work he came in and bought some stuff and told me about his life
@richmahogany21
@richmahogany21 Жыл бұрын
This channel has shown me that all people no matter how bad have a story to tell, time erodes all people down and all that's left is reflection and wisdom
@aliamonique192
@aliamonique192 2 жыл бұрын
I love how he’s so comfortable talking with these people with such chaotic lives.
@aliamonique192
@aliamonique192 2 жыл бұрын
What’s called money? I don’t think you understand what I mean. I don’t think whether he gets money or not for his videos has anything to do with how communicates with his guests
@Scott-rz2vo
@Scott-rz2vo 2 жыл бұрын
He's a Helluva guy, probably one of the most genuine people I've ever came across. Take care & have a nice day...
@nailinthefashion
@nailinthefashion 2 жыл бұрын
@@aliamonique192 when he first started, it wasn't lucrative, but people see his current success and think it's always been like this. it's been a journey.
@lawrencebrown8161
@lawrencebrown8161 2 жыл бұрын
When you live in chaos it becomes the norm
@Herb_Nation
@Herb_Nation 2 жыл бұрын
That’s because these are normal humans who used to be a baby just like you. FEAR is what controls us.
@mattb9064
@mattb9064 2 жыл бұрын
I’m having a hard time in life but these videos humble me. Keep your head up ppl
@asabovesobelow7981
@asabovesobelow7981 2 жыл бұрын
hugs Matt.. urnotalone
@kylemark4536
@kylemark4536 2 жыл бұрын
If you ever need to talk I’m here bro
@aren1998
@aren1998 2 жыл бұрын
Sending you a hug🤗
@AsktheSpirits
@AsktheSpirits 2 жыл бұрын
Blessings bro💚
@tianakennell982
@tianakennell982 2 жыл бұрын
💪🏾💞
@chicksgrowtoo
@chicksgrowtoo Жыл бұрын
When my husband died I was pregnant and we had another 7 year old. I didn’t date. I wanted my kids to have a stable home, home cooked meals (to save money) eat at the table together, one tv and liked what we all watched, they did all sports, karate, drama plays at school, tennis, 4h competitions (we have a farm.) I used to think I did the wrong thing by staying single so they didn’t have to see me with different men all the time, but seeing these videos, having a boyfriend/step parent isn’t a very stable life either…. I’m so proud of my boys. I feel for these people on all these videos. 🥺🥺🥺
@michaeltrevino201
@michaeltrevino201 Жыл бұрын
"She's now a, like a year away from being an assistant RN, registered nurse at UCLA medical center... she's over with my sister in Reno...las Vegas "
@MedusaxXx_
@MedusaxXx_ 2 жыл бұрын
a broken little boy in a grown man’s body, wow. i wish this man nothing but the best & for him to find peace. 🥺🙏🏾
@rsar61
@rsar61 2 жыл бұрын
May God bless you for your compassion 🙏 Numbers 6:24-26 King James Version 24 The Lord bless thee, and keep thee: 25 The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: 26 The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
@tytylive4u
@tytylive4u 2 жыл бұрын
Love the compassion in these comments … I hope people realize there are real people behind all these people that society deems criminal
@yaelfeder9042
@yaelfeder9042 2 жыл бұрын
@@tytylive4u exactly
@J3MOdh3NOWX3S
@J3MOdh3NOWX3S 2 жыл бұрын
No! Theyre convicts and should be locked up for as long as possible so we can make the most money from his prison stay. Suffering is the elites nourishment, we low vibrational beings feed on the agony of humans, and compassion leaves such a bitter taste.
@MedusaxXx_
@MedusaxXx_ 2 жыл бұрын
@@J3MOdh3NOWX3S ok, somebody obviously hurt you. & this statement means nothing to me. go somewhere with that bitterness. you sound miserable.
@CaribbeanQueen72xx
@CaribbeanQueen72xx 2 жыл бұрын
When he said , he left home at 14 , as a mother myself my tears just rush down my face very hard , cause all I could see was my 14 yr old son whom happen to be my everything . I really wish him the best smfh ❤️ 🙏🏾
@realMaverickBuckley
@realMaverickBuckley 2 жыл бұрын
@@MrGeronimo300 They're all mouth. They do ot to have a family. You think the blank or Hispanic gangs were gonna be his family? He left them anyway.
@realMaverickBuckley
@realMaverickBuckley 2 жыл бұрын
I felt similar, can't imagine my 13 Yr old being ANYWHERE NEAR ready to leave. ❤
@zuzm0
@zuzm0 2 жыл бұрын
@mark skwirut couple of months away of being 14 to be exact, so... kinda 14 to me
@zuzm0
@zuzm0 2 жыл бұрын
@@MrGeronimo300 some more hatred huh?
@soda_king
@soda_king 2 жыл бұрын
I grew up without a mom or a dad and was homeless on the streets of l.a. as a child. I'm not a skinhead racist piece of crap I would love a hug from you
@Savantace
@Savantace Жыл бұрын
Mark, I subscribed to your channel after discovering you a few weeks ago. I have shared several of your videos. I'm extremely impressed, like so many others, with your fantastic show, "Soft White Underbelly." You're really excellent at this. I have one suggestion and one other observation. Your content and topics for some, if not many or even most, is painful to watch, almost excruciating but extremely important for many reasons. With All Due Respect, Mark: With that said, while I understand a majority of the people you interview could be perceived "hard as nails," impervious, resilient, hardcore and raw, you don't have too meet them with the same hardened exterior. You rapid-fired your questions in an aloof, curt, rapid staccato rhythm. That's not to say you're cold, unconcerned, and unfeeling, in fact, I believe you to be the complete opposite. This particular video is the most severe of the aforementioned. It's as if you're completely distracted, not paying him much attention. Even I'm having slight difficulty catching on or hearing what you're asking him. You're discharging these questions so quickly, without normal inflection, as he also demonstrates some difficulty understanding you. You're quite cold here, with a considerable flat affect. Furthermore, you seem to be mumbling some of your questions. You don't need to be overemotional by any stretch, but perhaps consider taking a bit more engaging approach. This was more like an interrogation than an interview. Finally, what really validated my perspective was when you asked this VERY Caucasian, "Skinhead" if he joined a Mexican gang. (LOL) Mark, did you forget who you were interviewing? His body language alone speaks volumes of how terribly uncomfortable he already feels.
@sarahvalenti4438
@sarahvalenti4438 Жыл бұрын
He’s a lot sweeter than I was expecting. I hope he stays straight and things get better for him. Everyone good deserves happiness
@bertclements
@bertclements 2 жыл бұрын
The fact that you survived everything you've been through to actually become an old man and not get killed says a lot about your strength.
@jebidiahnewkedkracker1025
@jebidiahnewkedkracker1025 2 жыл бұрын
Yeah, the dude IS a survivor....No doubt about that. I suppose that is something to even take some PRIDE in.
@the2ndcoming135
@the2ndcoming135 2 жыл бұрын
Already know😎
@eefneleman9564
@eefneleman9564 2 жыл бұрын
I don't think he really IS an old man. Just looks like that.
@ws6258
@ws6258 2 жыл бұрын
Peace
@melissasaint3283
@melissasaint3283 2 жыл бұрын
He's only 53!
@alanluscombe8a553
@alanluscombe8a553 2 жыл бұрын
I appreciate how much honesty this man delivers. He is a prime example of why children need love and support along with stability. This dude never had a chance to even know what normal is.
@ThaNewDealer723
@ThaNewDealer723 2 жыл бұрын
I think about %80 of me completely agrees, but then I think that everyone has choices. I mean truly. Not looking to be ignorant about the bad hand he was dealt, but we weren't there, and I don't think it's fair to him to say that he never had a chance to know normal. Maybe he chose a lot of this. Don't crucify me, just saying it's not out of the realm of plausible, and definitely not out of the realm of possible.
@alanluscombe8a553
@alanluscombe8a553 2 жыл бұрын
@@ThaNewDealer723 I get it and there are exceptions to every rule, there are kids that come from garbage that grow up and be fine but that isn’t the normal outcome. He never had a chance to know normal when he didn’t have a choice and when he was old enough to choose he clearly chose wrong which was what he knew
@deadpilled2942
@deadpilled2942 Жыл бұрын
He's most likely lying. I doubt he paid for his daughter's schooling, I doubt he's even seen his daughter. If he had $750k, he would be spending it
@alanluscombe8a553
@alanluscombe8a553 Жыл бұрын
@@deadpilled2942 I can’t argue with you there and I really just meant the negative shit he said about himself. I do agree with you most people like this with amazing tales of good they have done are full of shit probably almost all the time
@whadatmowfdu7320
@whadatmowfdu7320 Жыл бұрын
@@deadpilled2942 tell everyone about how you beat your mother and robbed a bank….. see how easy it is to make shit up about people you don’t know with next to no real information?
@daniellehorvat5229
@daniellehorvat5229 Жыл бұрын
What an amazing gentleman, u sir are to be applauded for all you've done to achieve where you are in life.
@uCmeTR0llinUh8in
@uCmeTR0llinUh8in 6 ай бұрын
the look he gives into the camera especially during the first 20 seconds of the video, you can see the pain he went through. Its almost an innocent look but yet its filled with so much pain and anger
@TheBarrwen
@TheBarrwen 2 жыл бұрын
These videos do a lot to break barriers and give us insight into someone’s life we would otherwise never view as human
@confessionboxstories
@confessionboxstories 2 жыл бұрын
I agree its good to have insight on someones life it gives us a better understanding of what people go through kzbin.info/www/bejne/l5OpnIysn7tjgas
@stevenduarte5201
@stevenduarte5201 2 жыл бұрын
I could watch these all days
@Jepse89
@Jepse89 2 жыл бұрын
Thank god I was raised to see everyone as a human being no matter how they looked and how flawed they are
@user-ph5oh3gn9p
@user-ph5oh3gn9p 2 жыл бұрын
hell yea. this is what kids should learn at school.
@elliott7706
@elliott7706 2 жыл бұрын
Humans are the most dangerous species! There are many terrible people and many fantastic people.
@cheyenneedwards8494
@cheyenneedwards8494 2 жыл бұрын
As someone that’s been contemplating suicide, your channel always helps me keep on going. It’s very comforting to know I’m not the only one struggling with issues. Thank you so much🤍
@stephie6453
@stephie6453 2 жыл бұрын
You are so strong I know how hard it can be! I promise life is worth living and when it's our time it's our time. Keep fighting keep pushing you got this 💪💪 💜💜
@pugsymalone6539
@pugsymalone6539 2 жыл бұрын
Hey Cheyenne, try to be patient with yourself. I've been there. It's hard to believe that a person can go from wanting to end it all to being happy and successful and loved...but it happened to me. It might only be one small correct decision that starts the change and it might be something that doesn't even seem important at the time. But if I had not been patient with myself, I wouldn't have been present to make that choice. Be patient, Cheyenne...Cheers.
@thatbluelada
@thatbluelada 2 жыл бұрын
We have a saying in my country: "Everyone is a blacksmith of their own luck"...Keep up your head girl, no one lives a easy life, we all feel you. Everyone close to you needs you, trust me. I've been in the same place... Hell, if you want i'm open for talking, to hear you out or whatever! And for everyone else too...
@DaDon_krazy
@DaDon_krazy 2 жыл бұрын
What’s your Instagram?
@alexar5578
@alexar5578 2 жыл бұрын
Hey Cheyenne! Don't give up, I usually never ever comment on KZbin but your comment stood out to me. You're a beautiful person both in and out :)
@roberttietjen5012
@roberttietjen5012 Жыл бұрын
So much wisdom from a man with a terrible childhood!
@ralphharrison6622
@ralphharrison6622 2 жыл бұрын
as a dad, hearing him say what he did for his kid, that was huge. you can fuck up your entire existance, as long as you do right by your children, your ok in my book. good luck to ya, buddy.
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
Hey Chief, fucking up your entire existence... directly screws your children up
@ralphharrison6622
@ralphharrison6622 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 it must be so great to have a detailed "how to" book on life. people like this guy find shit out the hard way.
@chillyman7340
@chillyman7340 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 It's easy to play the morality Card for people who aren't parents. I feel that people these days think having kids is easy when it's not, parents are still human and are far from perfect.
@oenophile
@oenophile 2 жыл бұрын
Setting the bar low if you think that's doing right by your children. As a father, so much more is required. If you don't know what's required, there are books
@ralphharrison6622
@ralphharrison6622 2 жыл бұрын
@@oenophile i never said thats all thats required. the guy fucked his life up, had nothing to learn from as a kid. but still atleast did something right. give the guy an ounce of credit, he couldve done much worse, considering his background.
@stephross700
@stephross700 2 жыл бұрын
He’s just as deserving of healing as anybody else. Hoping for the best for him. 🤞
@jamieregister9346
@jamieregister9346 2 жыл бұрын
I agree
@veanwhitcher7867
@veanwhitcher7867 2 жыл бұрын
I pray he one day finds the love and peace of Jesus Christ, amen.
@BuddyLee23
@BuddyLee23 2 жыл бұрын
When this guy says he’s seen some shit, you can trust and believe that he very much has.
@mpclive5693
@mpclive5693 2 жыл бұрын
Until he breaks in your home.....
@tilabryant5591
@tilabryant5591 2 жыл бұрын
It’s funny all the ppl that are not of color is praising him…I wonder why😒. I would never praise a racist piece of 💩
@oceantiara
@oceantiara Жыл бұрын
I have compassion for this dude. Never had a chance with no love from parents.
@aleksandarlakovic4085
@aleksandarlakovic4085 Жыл бұрын
He oscillating without pause. I am sorry for him and wish him the best.
@c.shoefish
@c.shoefish 2 жыл бұрын
I'm usually pretty cold hearted but I feel for this guy, he was doomed from the start. I really do hope he's able to change things and find peace.
@domimusic3683
@domimusic3683 2 жыл бұрын
This guy has somehow a good heart. but he had to suruve in this very awfull environment. Not much choise. You hear it when he talk about loayalty, love and his daughter.
@mollycule2792
@mollycule2792 2 жыл бұрын
Hurt people hurt people, my pastor says that all the time.
@nofurtherwest3474
@nofurtherwest3474 2 жыл бұрын
Can you help me understand - he had $4 million but then became homeless?
@retrosurfer76
@retrosurfer76 2 жыл бұрын
@@nofurtherwest3474 they confiscate any money or property that was paid with from dealing drugs which usually means they're left with nothing. So when he got out he had nothing and had been in prison 20 years. I didn't know they paroled people homeless
@nofurtherwest3474
@nofurtherwest3474 2 жыл бұрын
@@retrosurfer76 so... he made $4 MM from dealing drugs? i mean... if you make that much in CASH how in the hell do you not store some away. You literally can't carry that much around, it would weigh too much. Something does not add up. He's likely bullsh*tting. No way he had $4 MM and didn't put some away in some place he could access later. If he's smart enough to make and actually hold on to $4 MM then he's smart enough to stash some away.
@MillieB_XO
@MillieB_XO 2 жыл бұрын
Things never turn out good when a child lacks a parents love, affection & most of all, ATTENTION ! I feel for this gentlemen as I do many of your interviewees. ❤
@shortstacked1980
@shortstacked1980 2 жыл бұрын
It’s true …it means so much people don’t realize that
@lottatroublemaker6130
@lottatroublemaker6130 2 жыл бұрын
It does not always turn out bad for children who does not get love, affection and attention from their parent(s). Some actually turn out very well despite their bad childhood. Children are amazingly resilient. But many also pay some kind of price for their childhood, which is so unfair and very sad. People should not hesitate to report to the CPS (or whatever it’s called where you are) that they are worried about the children in family members or neighbours’ families (or students’ if you’re a teacher or other type of mandated reporter) so the kids/families can get some kind of help. You can always do it anonymously if you’re worried for repercussions if they find out you did it. Bottom line: If you’re worried that children do not get proper care, report it, then it’s their responsibility…
@MillieB_XO
@MillieB_XO 2 жыл бұрын
Althought I do agree with you a bit, Its not always easy to see if something isn't right. Kids look clean, show no signs of mistreatment, abandonment ect.. just "seeming normal" So that's why CPS is usually involved until its too late in horrible cases or where issues already been occuring for so long. Also children don't want to lose or be away from their biological parents no matter if they aren't getting love & attention because as a child you don't know where you'll end up with some strangers or if you'll ever seem them again along with the rest of the family members, so they're uncomfortable while be comfortable at the same time even in the worst situations.
@Dani-mj2ig
@Dani-mj2ig 2 жыл бұрын
That’s totally true. I know people that have become amazing people with no parental love but they were able to get into a house where someone else’s parents gave them parental love. It’s sad, it’s almost like they never had a chance when they get no love as a child
@FASBLAQUE
@FASBLAQUE 2 жыл бұрын
@@shortstacked1980 Look at all those kids who aged out of foster care and made it!
@ptmerciless7997
@ptmerciless7997 7 ай бұрын
Amazing channel. Just reality--real people, real life stories. It's too bad nobody has empathy anymore and everyone's at war with each other, as the media and politicians want. People used to be able to connect, and this dude is at least trying to bring that back. He judges nobody; just listens to these people, who need someone to hear them. We all need that, really.
@unfriendlyreminder5980
@unfriendlyreminder5980 2 жыл бұрын
Seeing these interviews should make a lot of us think about how lucky we are. There is no guarantee that we wouldn't have ended up like this man if we were dealt as shitty cards in life as he was. Most people (not everyone, but most of them) are not evil and can redeem themselves, under the right circumstances.
@Flyanb
@Flyanb 2 жыл бұрын
We are all just different shades of the same evil. There is not one righteous. No not one.
@adiidi
@adiidi 2 жыл бұрын
"Anybody is a killer, all you gotta do is push 'em to the limits." - J. Cole
@buggiesmama11
@buggiesmama11 2 жыл бұрын
This is exactly why I love listening to these interviews!! Every.. single.. night i listen to 1 to 2 of these while doing my puzzle games before bed. Shows you how lucky you are even if you suffer in life yourself the way I do. These people are all humans that were given horrific lives. We can never say how things would be if in their shoes.
@tylercrouch4355
@tylercrouch4355 2 жыл бұрын
I grew up with dope heads, dealers violence when he says he grew up quick he developed a distrust for everyone around him I can tell you in the meth game everything is unpredictable, been sober for 2 years lost my all my family except my mom and my lil bro to heroin
@tylercrouch4355
@tylercrouch4355 2 жыл бұрын
I'm thankful everyday too have a home and not be from couch to couch wherever I could stay, and I'm so thankful I got the devil out of my life. God is good, the world is crazy.
@KotakMeister
@KotakMeister 2 жыл бұрын
I can't help feeling overwhelmingly sorry for this guy. I hope this serves as a lesson to us all, to myself foremost...our children deserve to be raised better.
@MidgetMalone
@MidgetMalone 2 жыл бұрын
We wont fix this world until we learn to do exactly that, raise our children better.
@thebob3712
@thebob3712 2 жыл бұрын
Maybe deadshits shouldn't have children . I've said it before that people should have to get a license to have kids, pass an IQ test, have assets to pay for their upbringing. Any piece of shit can produce a child and in most cases shit produces shit, just my opinion
@kmariamv
@kmariamv 2 жыл бұрын
@@thebob3712 we can’t police people’s body but with positive influence we can share info to positively have an impact on their minds so that they make better decisions in their lives
@robcarat698
@robcarat698 2 жыл бұрын
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@domimusic3683
@domimusic3683 2 жыл бұрын
@@thebob3712 its the system, not really the people, when you grow up in some neighborhoods, even if you area good person, you are allmost forced to join gangs as very young teen and they f** up their life even before they become adults. I live in Sweden and even the poor families or the ones that have a chaotic childhood, social service will take care of them. I have two grown up kids, my daughter as teen had some issues, like many teens, small silly stuff, but social service and school took care of her with programs and family therapy and so on, and she ended on the right track, fully. But like in cities in the USA as example, the system will help not these kids. So much chance they end like this guy in the video
@BrittanyButtkiss
@BrittanyButtkiss Жыл бұрын
Your raw and real. I wish you peace n happiness.
@jeremysargent7267
@jeremysargent7267 Жыл бұрын
Man. This brought back so many of my friends growing up that went the wrong way. What a hell this man lived.
@CoffeeCramps
@CoffeeCramps 2 жыл бұрын
This was a fascinating interview-raw and apologetic. He seems to be genuinely remorseful yet still broken so the poor guy struggles. Praying for him
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
I didn't hear an apology to anyone.....I heard regret about getting ratted on by his ex....who is probably going to find eventually
@Truthof.thestreets
@Truthof.thestreets 2 жыл бұрын
It seems he’s really changed his perspective on life and things in general. Awesome that he has learned from what he didn’t know years ago. Wishing him the best of luck.
@christinesbetterknitting4533
@christinesbetterknitting4533 2 жыл бұрын
How do you learn from what you didn't know? Is that a colloquialism?
@Truthof.thestreets
@Truthof.thestreets 2 жыл бұрын
@@scooter2163 Exactly hes caught up in dealing and doing meth, he has learned though from his life which is awesome bc some people don’t learn anything from awful experiences.
@Bsjrben
@Bsjrben 2 жыл бұрын
Umm he’s still a skin head not sure if I sure stand by him in line at the store lmao😂😂😂
@katuratucker4288
@katuratucker4288 2 жыл бұрын
I don't really get that he changed anything. He just doesn't want to go back to prison and that's certainly understandable. I'm sure he's grown since he was 20 years old.... Prison will do that to you. But he also seems to have a lot of pride about that bad behavior. (IMO)
@derrickwith2rs
@derrickwith2rs Жыл бұрын
i hear an honesty in this man that i can relate to
@SKC193
@SKC193 Жыл бұрын
I respect this guy for the way he stepped up for his daughter! He could have easily just blown that money the way most of these people do. He truly loves his daughter.
@briansearle6868
@briansearle6868 11 ай бұрын
And for stabbing Rapists and Child Molesters.
@mg6790
@mg6790 2 жыл бұрын
I do not know all the harm he has done, but one thing he has done right, realize that he could not take care of his daughter and make sure she gets a better chance in life than he himself had. He still has a good heart
@absolutelysnot
@absolutelysnot 2 жыл бұрын
Doing right by your daughter is a big thing. You did it. People with everything still don’t do that.
@guillaumecollins548
@guillaumecollins548 Жыл бұрын
Paying 740k for “ nursing assistant school “ is NOT APPROPRIATE.. who ever told him that’s what it cost has fucked him over. Also. “ Going for training at harbor ucla ( where I work at) and his daughter living in RENO, NEVADA are 2 hours apart… I think he’s getting fucked over by his daughter
@perspective6809
@perspective6809 Жыл бұрын
I just wanna give this guy a freaking hug 🫂
@mikeflo8356
@mikeflo8356 Жыл бұрын
Much respect for how he did right and made sure his daughter didn't go through what he did .
@dubbatrubba1759
@dubbatrubba1759 2 жыл бұрын
I like this guy, I don’t care what anyone thinks. I hope his life gets better.
@colmekaglass9978
@colmekaglass9978 2 жыл бұрын
Pathetic.. I'll never feel bad for a colonizer
@philobetto5106
@philobetto5106 2 жыл бұрын
yeah people don't realize it wasn't hatred for other races that brings them into skinhead gangs, it's the support ''like a family'',in prison you're forced to stay with your own race
@antoinemartin339
@antoinemartin339 2 жыл бұрын
@@colmekaglass9978 Most countries have colonized at some point. Chill bro
@jacobjones4766
@jacobjones4766 2 жыл бұрын
@@colmekaglass9978 ill never feel bad for those that are weak and were conqoured.
@Haydenormous
@Haydenormous 2 жыл бұрын
@@jacobjones4766 i don’t think conquering stuff makes you weak lmao
@Equinsu_Ocha69
@Equinsu_Ocha69 2 жыл бұрын
"I did the skinhead thing" "So you was in a Mexican gang?" "..no..skinhead.." Lolz
@Nessa_1990
@Nessa_1990 2 жыл бұрын
🤣
@MadMexism
@MadMexism 2 жыл бұрын
Dude was testing him what one. lol.
@mlizarburu
@mlizarburu 2 жыл бұрын
😂😂😂
@benitolazio8193
@benitolazio8193 2 жыл бұрын
Literally makes no sense , skinhead is a cult from white Europe.
@seanfleming2936
@seanfleming2936 2 жыл бұрын
I laughed my ass off when he did that
@mattgonzalez4457
@mattgonzalez4457 Жыл бұрын
I have been a fan long before you were on Rogan (guess this video is de- monetized too). I started with the inbred family from WV and have gone down a copious hour rabbit hole of your interviews many times... it's so real
@JeremyDean-qk8qd
@JeremyDean-qk8qd 2 жыл бұрын
This man has been through and seen more than most could even attempt to imagine. Now he just wants to keep to himself and do his thing, and be left alone. He's the literal definition of "been there, done that".. As someone else said in an earlier comment. I would have never thought I would say, I have respect for a "skinhead". But I have respect for this man. He did what he had to do to survive, and survive is what he did. People are fast to judge others, without having a clear understanding of the things they have gone through and their upbringing.
@jshawnrittenour2665
@jshawnrittenour2665 2 жыл бұрын
Respect ?!! Really bro that man will fuk u over in 1 second flat! You respect him for what? What has he done to deserve your respect? If u ask me he hasn't done shit but continued the cycle of living like a piece of s***! Let him change an be a positive in someones life then he would be deserving of respect!!!!
@spiralingout9506
@spiralingout9506 2 жыл бұрын
@@jshawnrittenour2665 what jshawn said
@mooth4571
@mooth4571 2 жыл бұрын
@@spiralingout9506 nobody asked u punk
@jshawnrittenour2665
@jshawnrittenour2665 2 жыл бұрын
Your MOMMA PUNK !
@mooth4571
@mooth4571 2 жыл бұрын
@@jshawnrittenour2665 literally something a punk says lil keyboard warrior tendencies showin💀
@Frogs84
@Frogs84 2 жыл бұрын
When he said he wished he’d had a dad my heart broke
@gwennk4962
@gwennk4962 2 жыл бұрын
Me too.
@bigman4407
@bigman4407 2 жыл бұрын
I had an abusive dad. Wish i had a loving one or none at all.
@bubblehead78
@bubblehead78 2 жыл бұрын
@@bigman4407 Agreed. Me too.
@domimusic3683
@domimusic3683 2 жыл бұрын
yeah, I feel sorry for him. He sound like a good guy in his heart but has to survivein a very bad environment I had a dad, never ebat me or so, but he was never there, always on the road, and when he was home always in disputes with my mom. and my mom was a alcohol addict. Not saying she was a bad mom, but too many problems to take care of me so i ended up alone my entire childhood, everyone deserve a mom and a dad.
@no0bbbb
@no0bbbb 2 жыл бұрын
@@bigman4407 better to have one than none
@jairoruiz9709
@jairoruiz9709 Жыл бұрын
You can tell by how his demeanor changed when he talked about his daughter. Crazy what the love of a kid can do to ppl.
@toearleyvideo
@toearleyvideo 10 ай бұрын
The family unit is so important. This man lives with full regret but he never had a chance. Pains me to here his story and wish him a better life.
@Runningon77
@Runningon77 2 жыл бұрын
This guy is out there, yet he still cares about and tried to help his daughter. I wish him well.
@gely_
@gely_ Жыл бұрын
Obviously doesnt care if hes still abusing drugs. Hes doing the same thing to his daughter. Exaclty what his mother did to him, hes doing to his daughter.
@benj8242
@benj8242 Жыл бұрын
@@gely_ His daughter is now an adult and doing her own thing, any damage he has done is already done. The point is he did more for his child than most suffering from advanced drug addiction, not that he's a squeaky clean or something.
@andyjuarezperez9847
@andyjuarezperez9847 Жыл бұрын
Better than her not getting any education at all. There's people all over the world doin way worse than us.
@skiptown22
@skiptown22 Жыл бұрын
these guys always lie about what they did for their kids.
@maxxkarma
@maxxkarma 2 жыл бұрын
I feel for this man. He knows exactly what went wrong, how it went wrong and what was required to make things as they should be. He figured it out and that is a big thing. I hope he and his daughter will have a valuable relationship soon. As it appears, At least he invested in her with what he could.
@clydajane2429
@clydajane2429 Жыл бұрын
the bashful sweetness in his affect was a surprise based on the title and it is an interesting experiment to interact with this channel because it definitely tests your implicit/immediate bias and face value. his reiteration of "lot of hostility, lot of hatred, lot of anger" in his life resonated especially. he knows why he is the way he is.
@okdarius
@okdarius Жыл бұрын
Guy's got a good heart. With a past that traumatic, it's admirable to see him still want to do some good in the world. I wish nothing but the very best for you sir
@highdefinitionstanleytm9614
@highdefinitionstanleytm9614 Жыл бұрын
You can't tell shit from this interview Besides what he wants you to no. You are the type of fool that let's people like this into your life only to be taken for a useful idiot by them.
@okdarius
@okdarius Жыл бұрын
@@highdefinitionstanleytm9614 Sounds alot like you're the guy that let someone into their life just to be used by them and you seem very upset and traumatized by it 😂 not everyone is the same lil guy stop being an idiot for once
@elborbah3045
@elborbah3045 2 жыл бұрын
Wow ... I'm speechless .. . Imagine growing up in this environment . He's very honest , intelligent . I hope he finds peace someday .
@takeofftrackcoach
@takeofftrackcoach 2 жыл бұрын
He did the best he could with what he had been given like anyone else on this channel. Narrator asked the right questions.
@barryboom717
@barryboom717 Жыл бұрын
Within every person you would potentially look down upon there's a human with a story. These interviews are as eye opening as they are captivating.
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