Survivor's Guilt-Rose

[@amandaalvarez6931]

I hope the lady who caused the accident watches this. I’m proud of you Rose ❤️

[@NilDreams]

The lady did not cause the accident. It was obvious from the beginning of the story that she was at fault. She ran a stop sign and the blood tests proved she was intoxicated.

[@ministryofpeacekmk]

✔️

[@lientran071989]

@@NilDreamsthe lady that hit her had to be driving to fast to have that kind of an impact to kill someone in a residential area. Makes sense that she was reckless and she was at fault. I don’t think it was Rosie.

[@Kirkland-rv5jf]

Every now and then, we meet someone here. You just feel like scooping them up, holding them tight and telling them it's ok. I'm so sorry this happened to you Rose 😢

[@80club45]

Remember the cops drew her blood meaning she was intoxicated

[@alheli0909]

I Known Rosy since she was 15 and when I'm telling you she is a beautiful soul, pure, and just a good person by nature, and she is a true warrior, she deserves only the best, life has giving her so many obstacles and reasons to just quit and she won't , she can bve bitter just for all that has happend to her and still she is an amazing kind human been.

[@Kirkland-rv5jf]

The picture you paint is exactly how Rose comes across. I hope things work out for her. She didn't deserve any of these things

[@DramaMustRemainOnTheStage]

Agreed. What a sweet lady ❤ she seems to be​@@Kirkland-rv5jf

[@patjones5723]

Ty 💝

[@ccaruso8293]

She seems like a sweet person

[@BERNARDO712]

Teach her how to breathe.

[@janedoe1573]

Can't tell you how many times the thought of my pets not being cared for has stopped me from making a permanent choice... They really are the best antidepressant!

[@BeccaJean415]

This is very true. They would miss me. My 🐕 & tortoise 🐢. Ok, maybe the dog lol.

[@Juneebug18]

​@@BeccaJean415 yeahhh maybe just the dog. Although yurtle would miss the grand salads! ♥

[@daveforeman6931]

Everyone needs a pet. Dogs are my best therapy.

[@trent3872]

I recently thought what if something happened to me, who would take care of my 2 cats?

[@jerryhatrick5860]

Same. But lately I'm. Planning on who will take care of them. I don't like this planet anymore. Society is worse eland worse and I'm tired. Being used screwed lied about and basically. Humans are inhumane. And I'm tired.

[@nicconway647]

Love that this was posted on Oscar’s angelversary. Rest in peace.

[@robyngillum8577]

The hospital and/or physicians who cared for her after the accident really didn’t do their job. How do you almost die and get out of care the next day? No one set her up with therapy? Disability for her job? The police didn’t help. Shame on the system.

[@Mackb077]

It’s because she was found at fault. She’s lucky she didn’t end up in prison

[@Saer-s9u]

buried in the story is bipolar...her words,not mine.

[@dianabailey5175]

The hospital can only give resources and it’s up the the patient and family to do the rest. I also died in an accident , coma for a couple of weeks and when I was deemed able to go home to 6 children, I was only given my discharge papers and that’s it!

[@adr8264]

Hospital discharge papers give medical instructions. Everything else is up to adult.

[@melissamartinez3593]

Same I got into a pretty bad accident got hit by a drunk driver , I broke my ankle completely all my toes and my sternum .. I went home 6 days later I got physical therapy but it was just very minimal for my foot to make sure I can move my toes but that’s it !

[@roland1912]

There's no statute of limitations on grief. Loss is real, it's a fact, and it doesn't stop being a fact. People who say "get over it" really don't understand loss at all. You don't ever really get over it, you just learn how to live with it and learn how to ignore it.

[@davidbanner9344]

Thank you for this comment, it's very much appreciated!

[@G_Widdicombe]

Yes, I agree with. What used to really frustrate me was people saying ‘you need to move on with your life’. I know they meant well, but ‘move on’ implied forgetting, and that’s impossible. I know it’s only a word, but I prefer ‘move forward’, as I’m taking the memories of my wife with me in what I do.

[@brandylovechild5548]

I totally agree!!😢😢

[@shelbyw6135]

I agree to the point where, had the woman who t-boned their vehicle was honest at the time, the outcome would definitely be different but it wasn't. I hope the woman was charged for causing the accident.

[@cm1642]

Rose, i am so happy that you had your cat and dog at the time you needed them the most... I wish you a long and happy life!

[@lildai1535]

That part brought tears to my eyes. I had a close family member in the same situation and our family dog saved her life 💕

[@michaelparker8603]

pets can definitely help

[@jacquelinem3655]

Some of these comments. People are acting like they were there and knew what happened. Weird behavior towards a stranger. This could have happened to any of us. Thanks for sharing Rose. 🌹 I wish you well.

[@hes9976]

NOT ANY OF US ......UNLESS YOU ARE AN UNACCOUNTABLE XANNY HEAD

[@reneelibby4885]

this coldness and judgmentalism is unfortunately way too common on the Internet. We don't know people or their stories, really. Be kind.

[@KHGSMel]

imagine killing someone and then blaming it on the grieving girlfriend... wtf

[@evandykes5473]

Perception is wild man. Objective reality is fading. Trans women , ARE women

[@Juneebug18]

Wasn't it the mom? The man's mom blames her.

[@KHGSMel]

@@Juneebug18 the other woman in the accident said rose hadn't stopped at the stop sign, which is why the collision happened

[@JLYT2024]

​@KHGSMel have conflicted feelings about this one because if it's the truth then it's the truth 🤷‍♀️

[@KHGSMel]

@@JLYT2024 I understand what you mean. however, all we have to go by is rose's words. and sadly, stuff like this does happen.

[@jackandlill]

I can't believe her mom would let her go back to Mexico knowing her lunatic father would be waiting to do her unspeakable harm?!!

[@sharonhutchins5784]

My mother and 11 year old niece were killed when the driver of the other car fell asleep and hit them head on. His vehicle had drifted across the road and his foot had gone dead on the gas pedal causing him to hit them at 80 mph in a 30mph zone. He hit them so hard, the frame behind the front seat was broken. He survive with a couple broken ribs. My mom died on the scene. My niece died two days later. When we went to see the vehicle, the salvage yard worker thought we were just oglers. We were actually there to retrieve personal items from the trunk. But the salvage worker just started casually saying how, oh yeh, she was going over 80mph…making it her fault. I said, “Shut up! Just. Shut. Up! My mother NEVER broke the speed limit. She had her GRANDBABY in that car! A grandbaby that she loved DEARLY! So SHUT UP ABOUT THINGS YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT!” He slunk off somewhere. It’s disgusting how people will just assume. Or hear rumors without knowing facts and spread them.

[@Nina-dy8cm]

Im sorry for your loss

[@RobertMajor-jq2ke]

That's truly horrific I lost my wife and 2sons life is truly unpredictable I can't stand being alone with my thoughts I have been alone for the past 6years since losing them my friends say get over it and I say you never truly get over something like that you carry it with you Forever and always I am Dead inside a shell of a person

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

​@@RobertMajor-jq2ke😢

[@sharonhutchins5784]

@@RobertMajor-jq2ke Unless they’ve experienced a loss of this magnitude, there’s no understanding it. I had people tell me I should seek help three months after it happened!! Get out of here with that! I will always grieve their loss!

[@christinerussell1132]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💔

[@surfer19541]

That psychiatrist who shamed her at the facility should loose his license...geeze

[@jjkatz]

She was in the wrong bringing drugs in.

[@Maxcat22]

@@jjkatz and giving them to someone there

[@LAan0201]

I question this. I’ve worked with several psychiatrists and none have ever spoke to a person like this. This likely her interpretation of what he said….not reality.

[@surfer19541]

@@LAan0201 kzbin.info/www/bejne/oICcn62nbt2ZgqMsi=_uKu7nGBHTnJtLTB

[@millenniumtowerskelton5143]

You are taking one side of the story… of course. Purple tattoo girl has the greatest memory. She just wants money. I know you all think the hospital and paramedics did her dirty. Typical.

[@oceanstaiga5928]

I survived childhood cancer. But many of the friends I made in hospital didn’t. Survivors guilt comes in many forms no matter how unreasonable it is when you think about it rationally. I don’t think I’ll ever forget the faces of my friends and still wonder sometimes why I was allowed to live and they weren’t.

[@nyahgirl4105]

Very deep.

[@jamiemelissa7762]

So true ❤

[@blessedbythebest1003]

Live your life to the fullest!! For you and memory of them! Gods plan is real. You’re here for a grand purpose. Don’t waste it feeling shame, those feelings don’t come from the Lord. Live laugh and love!!!💗

[@oceanstaiga5928]

@@blessedbythebest1003 I hate when people say it’s gods plan to have children suffer and die. How is that supposed to make anybody feel better? I’ve heard it often as a kid too that it was meant to be and that just made me mad towards a god who’d let that happen. Rather than say god somehow thinks it’s good to have kids suffer, I’d love if people just accept that terrible things happen and you can lean on god DESPITE that to get through the tough times. Not everything has to be rosy and not everything has a simple explanation, it’s better to say we don’t know why terrible things happen to innocent people but if god gives you strength to survive that then I’d rather say that is his plan.

[@RebeKeys]

@@oceanstaiga5928 Amen.

[@G_Widdicombe]

12:52 this resonated. I held the hand of my wife nearly 10 years ago as she took her last breath. She was 38. Awful. This is a brave lady telling her story like this.

[@thatpart]

Sorry you had to experience that. And sorry for your loss. 🙏

[@Alaska-me5jc]

I am so sorry for your loss

[@michaelcampbell296]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I couldn't imagine

[@RobertMajor-jq2ke]

Yes lost my wife to in 2018 it's been a struggle

[@Juneebug18]

​@@RobertMajor-jq2keto you and the OP. I am sorry for your loss!

[@Walkingwithjordan214]

I’m so sorry that you were treated this way. Please everyone, the ONLY word you ever have to say to the cops is LAWYER!

[@brookebowers1229]

I tried that in Ireland they broke my fingers and illegally beat and detained me same as the U$ ..you have the right not if you are handicapped or a woman-but in the states at protest always write down the number of a pro bono lawyer whom is backing the protest whom will you bail you out and bring a sharpie with you to copy it- why i left the U$ 20 yrs ago wtoseattle and tanks in my neighbourhood - prophetic but Ireland is BADD if you ar e an immigrant or not a white man

[@SherryM1702]

Absolutely. Do not talk to the police they will they always seem to mess something up and make it worse for people.

[@douglassnell408]

L

[@beastinshow2362]

@@douglassnell408 press F to L. also, original poster is absolutely correct. alternate versions; "Lawyer me.", "Lawyer me now", "Me needing lawyer a lot now", and.. oh, para-rephlecting as I am, you and your ingenous ways, go wild with those facts in contemplative form.

[@brookebowers1229]

NOT IN THE REPUBLIC OF IRELAND and ARE A WOMAN WHOM IS HANDICAPPED in County of Cork Cork Cty Garda Station bridewell garda station and Bantry town gardai if you - anyone were to ring and ask why i am denied these rights feel free - thee are huge race issues happening here immigration hate ... really there are no safeguards in place on paper yes bt really if you are not from here even if for 20yrs ... you will be denied basic rights - the gardai are vigilantes here since Covid we had the strictest lockdown in Europe and longest which gave the gardai too much power - plus my husband has family on the local force nepotism rules rural ireland - i am trying to get legal aid but am fighting to live daily

[@WENCHintheTINFOILhat]

Rose, before you told us what you do for a living, I noticed how beautiful your hair & nails are. Then, I noticed the candles on your arm. Ma’am, I’m in Texas. And proud to share my state with you. You are the opitome of survival beauty. I thought ptsd & then you said bipolar and I realized that someone could have both. Your strength is remarkable. To see you not only survive, but thrive is inspiring. Remember, it’s ok to have bad moments, hours, days sometimes. That’s part of grief and there is nothing abnormal about it. All the things you feel about the tragedy, is valid and completely natural. And there is no time limit on it. You process how you process and frankly, it was fantastic to hear your story to the end. Bravo.

[@Litigator-4-life]

❤❤❤

[@vsmith4710]

Thats a beautiful thing to say ❤❤

[@lesbianslipknotfan]

this is such a beautifully written comment. i hope she sees it

[@jaetracy8539]

Fellow sufferer of survivors guilt. Your story resonates deeply. Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities, strength, and story.

[@tammic2016]

Rose was failed by so many people especially the professionals whose care she was in. A psychiatrist calling her a junkie?!?! Wtf. I’m so glad she survived all this and is thriving. Good for you Rose. Proud of you!

[@bruce274]

do you really think the Psychiatrist said that to her? You don't have to believe everything you hear....

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

​@@bruce274wow....just.. Wow

[@Natalieeesch]

And prescribing her a shoebox full of medication right off the bat including xanax?? Wtf is that. Statistically speaking, people who are in poverty or are the most vulnerable get prescribed for the most drugs. This medical system needs to change

[@l.obrien8341]

he could have said it differently but that was the meaning

[@Blu64oh]

Psychiatrist absolutely say that type of shit to people. And if you think they don't, you're part of the blind population that also thinks facilities are more helpful than hurtful.

[@lynnmarieanderson1744]

I’ve become so addicted to this channel, new subscriber here! This woman’s story tugs at my heart. I’m older but someone who was my significant other for a very long time died not long ago and I still beat myself up because I always wished I could have done more for him. It’s the same kind of feeling. I have bipolar disorder myself. I’d honestly be willing to send her a card and some money to try to help her out in some way. This has also made me realize how judgmental I can be, because when I first saw her with the purple hair and tattoos I felt dismissive of her, but then when I listened to what happened I just want to give her a hug and let her know how much I care. This kind of thing could happen to anyone.

[@cstorres8243]

I lost 2 of my loved ones to a drunk driver. He ended up going to prison, but I felt such hatred for him. He never admitted or owned what he had done. Later we learned he had led a terrible life, left his children and a spouse - no reasons for driving drunk but gave us a bit of insight or reason for something that makes no sense at the time (if that makes sense). You never know what's going on in someone's life. I thank you for recognizing the part you had in these events. I wish you a good life, Rose.

[@chiken__]

I can’t imagine how terrifying it would of been to experience a car crash like that☹️

[@Saer-s9u]

it's one of the most surreal experiances_ traumas one can have. It happens in the blink of an eye but feels like it's slow motion,time almost stands still..

[@cindygandara1059]

I really hope that woman who hit them gets what's coming honestly...she destroyed so many lives and couldn't be accountable for it....thats frustrating...so sorry for your loss and I pray you have so many blessings coming to you ♡

[@originalbluebuddha]

Only one woman was driving under the influence, and it wasn't the woman who hit them - who was also the woman with the right of way.

[@_roshi]

@@originalbluebuddhacould you reference any proof

[@maryreynolds5310]

I couldn’t finish watching, I was so mad that I know it’s not her fault and they blamed her. Please tell me, how was it found it wasn’t her fault..how did she find out? Thank you!

[@AJ-hz3tx]

In all fairness, she admitted to driving drunk many times after the accident.

[@bonniemiller4041]

Shame on these entitled people who inflict this type of pain on others. What a horrendous and egregious act on another human being. This young woman just lost ten years of her life. I hope that she now really knows that she deserves to be happy and at peace. Her resilience is incredulous, but it’s also a beautiful thing. I would like to give her a piece of advice: Don’t let ANYONE play their movie on your screen. It’s all projection on their part. Please know that you are loved. Many thanks to Mark for letting you tell your story.

[@patjones5723]

Well said....Ty 💖

[@meggrim5993]

I relate to staying alive for your pets. Not too long ago I was in a really dark place. I kept reaching out for help and I wasn’t getting it. No one took me seriously. Anyway, one night I was screaming in my bed and sobbing about certain ideations KZbin doesn’t like. My dog came in the room, jumped on the bed, and licked my teary face and cuddled up on my lap. It was in that moment that I realized if anything happened to me, she would be so confused and sad. Her love for me knows no bounds. That’s what I needed. I owe my life to my Sunbeam💖

[@MicheleOverton]

Honey💖💖I pray if the same dark place ever happens to me I remember you and your story. You're brave, really brave for sharing and it's people like you we remember, and maybe you save lives and souls and you'll probably never know it. I'll remember you, with so much regard.

[@meggrim5993]

@@MicheleOverton this comment meant more to me than you’ll ever know. Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💖

[@MicheleOverton]

@@meggrim5993 I'm so glad you feel that way! Because it's very true and I hope we stay in touch. We are friends now and this is exactly why I love KZbin 💖🍫 here is a Choco candy bar for you to enjoy and please give Sunbeam a kiss from me as long as she doesn't mind if I smell like kitties😻

[@julianastarlight5097]

I have a rescue/ex racer greyhound who literally changed my life/rescued me...

[@yolandaponkers1581]

No child should ever have to live with the fear that her own dad will find her and SA her. I wish I could give her a hug ❤❤❤

[@Saer-s9u]

didn't she say her father died?

[@carolseven3802]

Exactly. Her pattern of anxiety was set in early life.

[@nataliehulbert7096]

Mine had threatened to SA when I turned 16....haunted me til 17.....that part of her story killed me. So grateful you are still here luv. So grateful❤

[@moni1404]

What about her brilliant mom who sends her for the summer straight to where he was?

[@Litigator-4-life]

You're right. That chronic anxiety and childhood trauma could have affected her response to therapy. So glad she made it through to share her story...

[@latoyangawhika4506]

Rose, your story has left me speechless and in awe of your courage and strength. Oscar would be so incredibly proud of how far you’ve come, even though you stumbled, you continued to get up and fight. An inspiration if I ever saw one.

[@CarlosRivera-si2ut]

I am so happy for you Rose. You 1000 percent deserve to do well.

[@NickPappapetru]

I am so sorry for your pain. When I lost my husband he was 28 and I was 24. Talk about trauma. No one can truly understand unless they have lived through it. Head up and try to stay strong. Sending love and prayers ❤❤❤❤ Lisa Las Vegas

[@JBE608]

Hugs

[@TherealHRF]

Most people will not have to experience one of these traumatic events in their lifetime, yet she’s been able to survive multiple and also be clear, calm and articulate while reliving them to relay her story. She’s stronger and more resilient than most will ever be.

[@LoloO42]

"Survivor" being the operative word in this title! Good for you, Rose. I hope you live a long, happy life.

[@SatyaKaliYam]

Perfect example of how a survivor’s journey turned thriver in life. Surrendering to what is the truth and letting go of the self blame for one’s actions takes strong grit and determination to know how you serve a purpose. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us and being alive today witnessing your presence that which gives us hope. Grateful and no longer hateful of life. Bless you on your journey as you have blossomed into the Rose you are. 🙌❤️☯️☮️💟✝️🕉️☸️💯

[@mavisspringer2780]

Mark, thank you for sharing this inspiring story of survival.

[@JeffWallaceSpeaks]

Life is a delicate balance, where each moment holds the power to change everything in an instant. It can be unpredictable, leaving us questioning the reasons behind it all. But amidst the uncertainty, there is one thing that shines through - resilience. This story is a testament to the strength and courage it takes to share our experiences with the world. Thank you for sharing your story. 🙏🏾

[@JuliaPelio]

this❤

[@stacielewis4912]

Beautifully written 🫶🏼😥

[@jwallscott]

@@stacielewis4912 Thank you for the kind words! We need more of those on this internet!!! ❤

[@SocketSilver]

What a freaking strong woman! These types of testimonies help me in my own struggles. I wish she would’ve showed off her tats and their stories. YOU GO GIRL! RIP Oscar. Big Ups to Fiancée for being strong for you also.

[@heidi190]

Some people are so incredibly cruel when they pass moral judgement. Rose, you deserve to be loved and alive on this earth without so much pain. You will feel whole again one day

[@reneelibby4885]

It's just inflicting more wounds.

[@EmEm872]

Rose, thankyou for sharing your story and telling us about the loss of Oscar. You have overcome gigantic obstacles and finally are putting yourself and your health first. Your fiance sounds like an incredible and loving man and you deserve ALL of the good things that are happening. Congratulations on your upcoming wedding. ❤❤❤❤

[@Citrinelink9]

To be 21 years old an experiencing a traumatic devastating event such as she describes is unimaginable; to even try figure out how you would have handled it & cast judgement is uncalled for. All of her actions after the crash was her way of trying to cope & deal with the emotional turmoil. Anyone that blamed & shamed her would not have been as strong as she was to get to where she is now today. She’s a beautiful strong wise intelligent smart woman who got through a nightmare that wouldn’t be wished on anyone. Thanks for sharing Rose you are a genuine caring person keep shining. 🌹

[@originalbluebuddha]

She was loaded when the accident happened, she stayed loaded for years afterward. Your laughable attempt to justify a fatal DUI reveal your character, or lack thereof.

[@blessedbythebest1003]

Her voice transitions later in the video. Lighter,free, proud of sharing this story to the world. ❤ Sorry that happened but happy you’re alive! Use your life to help others through your testimony.

[@cardura99]

We are looking forward to hearing how your next chapter goes. Truth be told, I don't think it would be possible to feel any other way than how you felt. What a horrible time for you to have to endure. Keep moving forward Rose.

[@sharonherzog5740]

the police get the driver that hit her, and her husband (that was not at the scene of the crash as her witness) and blame her. priceless. no actual work done. The family lashing out is their way of grieving but totally not ok. She had a concussion, that goes with not remembering it. The truama of the entire thing....goes with blocking it out. Just wow, HUGS Rose

[@KoalaBeer.]

My thoughts also , is there not CCTV from a building?. She should find out may help her, but end of the day an accident is an accident they happen. She wasn’t driving drunk. Living with it is punishment enough.

[@AJ-hz3tx]

They have accident investigators that use measurements to ascertain who was at fault and the speed of each vehicle. If the other lady was speeding, they would have known. It’s math, nothing personal.

[@bruklinw1]

I can relate to Rose so much. My first love also died in March of 2014 and my life spiraled out of control. His family treated me so bad and I wasn't even allowed to attend his funeral. Every year, I feel bad because I've managed to make it to 27 (I'll be 28 on Friday) and he died at 21. Life has a crazy way of teaching us lessons and revealing things to us. I'm so glad she's doing better and she took control of her life. I'm sure he's so proud of her ❤

[@Rainorshine004]

🌈 🙏

[@Toonces666]

Rose, I am so glad you have Carlos. He sounds like a good man and a keeper! You should be proud of yourself to have come so far and to have overcome so much. Oscar would want you to live a happy life. Keep going! Many, many blessings.

[@surfer19541]

Mark...more up lifting stories lie this...she's incredible, and it's such pleasure to hear her story and how it came together for her. Best of everything Rose!!

[@Vis4vendetaaa]

I lost my boyfriend in a motorcycle accident that we were in. My boyfriend didn’t make it and I did I definitely feel survivors guilt about it and I can’t even wrap my head around what happened but this video helped me so much to get a glimpse into the future of this grief that I’m going through! I admire you and I send you a big hug 🫂🫂❤️

[@Callitout-kl1uq]

I just want to give her the biggest hug. She has had such a hard life at such a young age.

[@Monikquar]

Thanks Rose! You showed us how resilient & strong you are, even with such adversities you've been through. Wishing you the best of a happy & healthy life.

[@davidbanner9344]

Though I don't know you personally Rose, still I'm so very happy for you and extremely proud of you. It brings joy to my heart to see you overcome loss and found redemption. You deserve everything great thing that life has to offer. Godspeed to you Rose! 🙏

[@imzachwithanh]

Incredible story. Very well told. Congrats on all your progress, Rose, and rest in peace, Oscar.

[@beckykee8196]

I feel for you. I'm so proud of you and don't even know you. My fiance shot himself in front of me . Soon after his ex started rumors that either his friend and I did it or that I did it myself. Drugs and alcohol was what caused it...not him or me. Thank you for sharing and encouraging me to make better choices and make something better out of my life.

[@christinerussell1132]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💔

[@LimoneneDaddy]

Cathartic watch.. my best friend in college hung himself and his girlfriend found him, she was calling me all night that night to come over and help her/not be alone. I remember her describing the color he was when she found him. I told her i was coming, id be there soon. I just couldnt bring myself to go there and see that whole scene. I still have so much pain and guilt from that situation, and thinking i somehow could have prevented it. even though i know he would have wanted the same thing - and she holds no grudges either. I know he was already gone but i still feel so badly sometimes. This was 10 years ago this year and im still undertanding it all. He was supposed to come over and hang out the day he passed and stopped answering everyone, it took me so many years of misdirected anger and selfishness, that eventually turned into empathy, and finally into compassion that i try and practice now. It didnt help that he was isolating a lot there at the end, and i was one of the few people he wanted to be around 😢. Some looked to me for answers or some type of sign as to why it happened - but i know thats not my weight to bare. Im an only child and always wanted a brother - he was like that to me. Its taken me this long just to understand how much he loved me. Love you, Patrick. When he passed was when my life transitioned from partying and having fun to using to fill a void that i had it was a very shifting moment, il never forget that night and how it changed the trajectory of my life. Better now, but it does take a long time to heal. I wouldnt say it gets "easier" as much as the pain becomes more familiar 🤔 and can be dealt w in that way. Just sharing my story. Thank you to anyone who reads for letting me share that, the 10 year anniversary of his death was a few weeks ago

[@JLYT2024]

Appreciate you sharing 🙏 R.I.P Patrick- til you meet again

[@Rainorshine004]

Hi there, hope u are holding up okay. My neighbors name is Patrick. I think ur friend is with you, watchingout 4 you. 🙏 🌈 ❤

[@LimoneneDaddy]

@GardenHomie thank you this means a lot!

[@Msellasempiricalexperiences51]

It’s So Crazy how you can be going through something and hear someone else’s story and Realize just how Blessed and Protected You Really Are. Thank you Rose for your Courage and Strength. For telling the Truth about your Poor Choices and Owning up to the Decisions you made whether good or bad. I feel so much better about what is happening in my life right now after hearing how you fought against your addiction and are continuing to push through No Matter What. You’re Truly an Inspiration ❤

[@la3800]

Random capitalization detracts from your statement.

[@Mr-Angelo0U812]

​@@la3800no it doesn't😂 but so glad you are perfect.

[@CatherineMassey-mr6pl]

I'm so happy to see that you succeeded in life after all of the trauma. Keep up the good work!

[@Pkh1187]

I can relate to so much of your story rose, thanks for sharing. You're not alone.

[@kennyblaha9620]

This interview is probably the one which hit me the hardest emotionally. Rose deserves to be happy and proud of what she has accomplished.

[@bioweapon4425]

This one was a hard watch, poor thing.

[@katherinetreiman9480]

Thank you for sharing your story. I think this will help others who experience survivors guilt. You deserve this happiness. Congratulations on your upcoming wedding!

[@rhacindadouglas3069]

Thank you for your story. You were failed by so many people that are supposed to make sure that you are okay. I am so glad that you came thru the other side. You are a beautiful soul, inside and out.

[@aquilinaciamacco2410]

"failed by so many people".....this says a MOUTHFUL. Once people "make the connection" that there are VERY SPECIFIC PEOPLE in their lives who are bringing them to their knees and destroying their chances for happiness? That's when they can make BETTER CHOICES by ending contact with those people and cultivating relationships with people who positively impact their lives❤.

[@jill1988]

Can we just stop for a second and say how gorgeous her hair is!

[@julianastarlight5097]

She is very beautiful

[@Newpb77]

First thing I noticed. On my way to my hairdresser made me consider making my hair purple 😅

[@teriripley-ki3mg]

You have an amazing story and you tell it beautifully. You’ve been thru so much - thank you for sharing your very personal story.

[@leneo1731]

What an amazing story about survival, courage and strength! You are so unbelievably strong, Rose! I thought I had it rough but your story really put things in perspective! Thank you so much for telling your story and being so honest ❤️ I'm so sorry for the loss of your boyfriend. I can't even imagine losing the person you love the most so sudden and the way it happened.

[@taylorslikklewifeeeyyy]

Seeing that it’s the 28th of March today..I hope Rose is doing better🥹

[@janiceanderson8731]

She deserves the world...she's worked hard thru terrible times- addiction- death- too much- she is strong- I pray for her peace of mind- you're doing the right thing.... much love and happiness always ✌️ ❤

[@JBE608]

Agree 💯

[@StylinProfilin3889]

She “deserves” nothing.

[@janiceanderson8731]

@@StylinProfilin3889 oh my- such bitterness- you must be broken and I will pray for you-

[@StylinProfilin3889]

@@janiceanderson8731 Don’t bother I’m agnostic, thanks anyway.

[@DivaAlethia]

I’m so sorry for everything that you went through. I hope you have complete healing. 🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@rosalind442]

You’re an amazing woman, Rose. You have the strength to get your life back and you did! I wish you all the best of luck.

[@patriciawilson6978]

Thanks for sharing your story, Rose.

[@ellengarcia4041]

This is a very heartfelt and moving story the pain Rose has endured from a young age, the rejection, the pain, humiliation but then the accusations, injustice, the horrific treatment and throughout she keeps her composure and suffers in silence. She has been blessed. A true survivor.

[@brandimyhren6317]

Yes closing chapters in your life is the greatest feeling of freedom. You’re ready to elevate above the past and thank goodness for the little sister giving her that blessing to move on. So happy for her and proof work is therapeutic and when you work you achieve goals and have money to support yourself. Rose you are so strong and thank you for sharing your story with me and us. Also thank you to your fiancé for understanding you and allowing you to grieve in your own way and just being there because he cared. Beautiful.

[@anned192]

We hope all these people will pull through their situations. And here she is, beautiful. I’m so sorry, but very proud of you.

[@jessicamerrell7192]

Thank you Rose for sharing your story 🩵 Survivors guilt is so hard to explain to others, but you did such a great job at conveying it to people who may not understand. Don't stop being you, don't stop living❤

[@brendarobinson1723]

This episode was so sad. I cried at the end because I'm so happy for her. To be treated the way she was and her strength to come back from it all ❤

[@TheKendallBABY]

I’m so proud of her. I relate to a lot of her story and this video really helped me come to terms with what I’m feeling. I now know what I need to do in order to have a long happy life her. Keep going girl, you’re doing great at this life thing.

[@leasha356]

You’re such a strong person for enduring all that heartache and sadness and still being able to pull yourself up and push forward. You do deserve happiness. Congratulations on your engagement, and on the new chapter in your life.

[@rebeccastuck7414]

Good Morning Mark from Sunny San Diego! I just recently purchased and received your signed book and i cannot tell you how super pleased i am with it- gorgeous photos!!!! Also whoever does your packing foe shipping- hats off. It was impecable and ao carefully and thoughtfully done. I thank you Sir- it will be a cherished part of our collection 🌈🥰

[@reneelibby4885]

oh cool ! I purchased one a couple of weeks ago. can't wait to get it. thanks for the feedback.

[@rebeccastuck7414]

Hey Rene!! Trust me your book will arrive in mint condition!! It would be an amazing coffee table display and ice breaker/conversation starter!! Mark is a genius and we are all indebted to him for all these eye opening life lessons and for bridging the gaps of humanity. God Bless you Rene & Mark L.🌈💚🥰

[@reneelibby4885]

Blessings to you as well!@@rebeccastuck7414

[@fearless79]

Rose, thank you so much for sharing. When you said “I am not ashamed of what I did, was it the best thing? No, but I did what I needed to do at the time to survive.” you don’t know how healing that was for me. Thank you 🤍

[@anna7276]

All of this tragedy from one ACCIDENT. An accident… it doesn’t matter whose fault it was, an accident is just that - something that happens then you don’t mean to happen. As someone who works in the smash repair industry I repair 60 cars per week in my shop..: they all happen “not on purpose”. Drunk people, sober people it doesn’t matter, they are accidents! People who blamed this poor girl deserve to go to hell. Best wishes to you Rose and thanks for this story Mark!

[@shayl3098]

never had the urge to comment on a youtube video but this.... im a psychologist whos recently found an interest studying the phenomenon of something called post-traumatic growth and this woman is the epitome of that term. as a survivor myself seeing the genuineness of her smile near the end of the video made me incredibly proud. no story can ever be lost to despair.

[@exsecror78]

Damn that was a bad one. Poor Rose. I’m glad she has mostly recovered from that nightmare. Sounds like she got the Texas treatment through the help she was getting. Kudos to you Rose. You do deserve to be happy and healthy. Big hug.

[@friskysoftpaws2412]

This hit me so hard. I felt her pain through the screen. Rosy we wish you the best in your healing and journey in life. You deserve the whole wide world

[@autumnwest2169]

So happy Rose has turned her life for the better. I believe our loved ones that have passed want the best of life for us, they want us to have love and happiness and success. They want us to live our best lives and keep their memory alive in our hearts with joy. Keep living Rose!

[@Gemini_blue]

I lost my soul mate 9.22.23 I just turned 32 on 3.28, he was only 46, together for almost 11 years. He had a heart attack while driving his dump truck. They couldn’t save him. I miss him so much. I’m soooooo lost. My family just doesn’t understand my grief, doesn’t help that my mom and brother are both narcissistic. I’m super depressed & also just lost my job. I’m really having a hard time. This world can be so cruel.

[@alessandroorru2165]

Sending you much love and blessings

[@aquilinaciamacco2410]

Don't lose hope. Keep getting up everyday! Keep practicing "self care" and make yourself and your "healing" your number one priority in life. You are enough. You are worth it. You deserve healing and happiness and a blessed future ❤. One day at a time, you can do this ❤.

[@brittaniereed5031]

Praying for you. I’m so sorry

[@elisiacleland446]

Take care of you like he would. Oxoxo

[@marlismueller4496]

Sending you love and healing

[@kimberlypainter5169]

You are such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for everything that has happened to you.

[@leahrobinson9800]

Such a healing video not only for herself but I’m sure plenty of others… one of my favorites and I’ve never felt happier for a stranger 💜

[@conniehanses]

You are a brave, strong woman. And you are not only honoring but yourself too. You deserve it. You are brave and a warrior for going through all of that, and going to get help is huge! Brave to come on here as well... peace and love to you, my dear. 💙🌎 You are inspiring...

[@karenblair3058]

Thank you Mark for letting Rose tell her story. I have similar issues and can't find a way to be normal. I had a car accident that wasn't my fault but the two people in the other car died. I still feel something over this. I've had a lot of bad things happen and I always blame myself. I've gone down to the bottom and don't know how to be normal again. I'm now homeless. Friend less. And no family. I have no support system. I'm on the bottom and anything I try to do doesn't move me up or forward. It was good to hear her story that she could be happy again.

[@kirstenbrownrigg5370]

Because Rose was made to feel unsafe/terrified as a child and because Psych medications take weeks to be effective, I believe that she slept 17 hrs straight straight after consuming Latuda is because she felt safe. Proof of this is she has remained sober. Clean to me is living drug and alcohol free. Sober is living a sober lifestyle, which she is, even whilst drinking and smoking socially, owning multiple businesses, having a fiance, a home and managing this all is a God thing.

[@faithfullmess]

Thank you for sharing Rose 🌹 Keep moving forward ❤

[@carynmartin6053]

Carlos sounds like such a great boyfriend for you! 🎉❤ I can relate to a lot of your story, having lost my soul mate to HIV and me not ever even contracting it myself. Then turning to self destructive behaviors and in and out of rehabs, on meds, and getting arrested in NY for having a loose pill in my purse after a traffic stop. My mother left me there overnight and then told me on the ride home that I should have just offed myself years ago bc all I am is an embarrassment to her😮😢. You are such a strong willed successful survivor, and thank you for sharing your journey with us 🎉❤😊 You look a lot like my beautiful Mexican soon to be daughter in law🎉😊

[@Rainorshine004]

🙏 🌈 ❤ hang in there. They r always with you.

[@InternetPersond]

It is so nice that this video came out on the anniversary of Oscar’s death because it helps a bereaved person to memorialize their loved ones. I’m so sorry for your loss Rose. Thank you Mark.

[@filsolano5465]

Never expect any type of privacy, on personal stuff posted on social media. I’m glad that Rose finally got her act together and is finally for once truly happy

[@sarahbear343]

The Phoenix who rose from the ashes. Rose you're a brave woman ❤ I wish you all the good in this life.

[@bradleyozbun1012]

Thank you for sharing your recovery with me ! 💯 ❤

[@Rainorshine004]

Hi Rose, thank you for sharing your story. You know, ive seen so many things that are not mere coincidences. Seeing the name Mark recently. I went to a creative writting workshop, and was thinking of the playwright Oscar Wilde. I went to the library, and a young man that looks like him points me in the directionof the meeting.. Today i wear a purple pony tail holder. I see your hair is a pretty purple. I too had ptsd., and i know what thats like. Survivors guilt, i know alot of people that have had that over a passing of a childhood friend. I had it too. I think your story will help so many people feel that they are not alone. I think you are brave and courageous, and you give alot of hope to others. I think Oscar is a guardian angel for you, watching out for you always. ❤ 🌈 And a very special thank you to Mark for letting us hear your story. 🙏

[@SuzyQ1129]

Ugh this was so painful to watch, I can only imagine how painful it was to live it and retell the story. Thank you for sharing, Rose

[@aimeealyse3115]

Bless the program and bless this woman. Keep going on day at a time 🤍 you deserve all good things. Thank you for sharing.

[@celestialcircledance]

It's crazy that the sister goes to you for nails and I'm glad that his mother finally let go of whatever ill feeling she was holding inside and offered you her blessing . That must have been some very powerful closure . You are definitely living proof that it is never too late to turn your life around ♥

[@marshamccarthy2054]

Congratulations. This is the best story I've heard on this channel. You do deserve to be happy. I'm glad you chose to live.

[@mike-kellydutkiewicz5991]

I have survivors guilt... I made it out of my heroin addiction 9.5 yrs ago My daughter started using 4 years ago and passed away last January... We now help other addicts get help ❤

[@MicheleOverton]

Thank you thank you thank you for your incredible honesty. Let's always pay it forward shall we? 💖

[@OnwardChristianSoldiers.]

Rose you are absolutely beautiful inside and out. You deserve happiness and peace. I can see you are a very kind and caring person. Don’t ever give up.

[@PsychonauticalSiren]

❤ Thank you for sharing your story. ❤ I hope the good samaritan guy that drove you home sees this and reaches out to you. What a trip that would be! 😊

[@jenk101]

Amazing story Rose …. you have such a strong and beautiful soul💜💜💜 I’m so happy for you having the strength and mindset to turn your life around and take charge💪🙌🙌