'Sorry Mummy, Papa…:’ What Suicide Letters Recovered After Student Deaths in Kota Reveal | The Quint

Trigger Warning: Descriptions of suicide. If you feel suicidal or know someone in distress, please reach out to them with kindness. You can reach out to local emergency services, helplines, and mental health NGOs here: healthcollectiv...
In 2023, at least 29 students, who were either NEET or JEE aspirants, allegedly died by suicide in Rajasthan’s coaching hub Kota. This was the highest number of student deaths in the city since 2015. In just over a month in 2024, at least four more students have reportedly died by suicide in Kota, in what seems like one tragic loop.
For the last few months, The Quint through its consistent coverage on student suicides in Kota has tried to raise awareness about the problem as well as question the role of the coaching institutes, hostels and PGs, parents, the administration, and the society in pushing students to the brink.
As part of our coverage, we decided to read out excerpts from suicide letters left by young aspirants in the past few years to give an insight into what these students felt - and how they were wronged by the system.
If you'd like to make any suggestions on how we can shed more light on this persistent problem, reach out to us. You can also check out the rest of our coverage here and support us in our endeavour here: 'Suicide Mat Karna Bas': Inside The Kota Crisis (www.thequint.c...)
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[@phanikiran9826]

Why don’t we have these entrance exams for politicians to qualify for their roles?

[@itsaditichoudhary]

woahhh so underrated with no likes and no comments. let me change that

[@ADARSHSENGUPTA]

Then frauds like modi shah rahul gandhi mamata wouldn't come to power.

[@CanaElishaColaco]

exactly... u dont need education to run the govt but need education to work for it???

[@notarya_]

@@itsaditichoudhary lol found u again

[@itsaditichoudhary]

@@notarya_ heyy i have no clue who you areee

[@itsaditichoudhary]

"One day after my suicide" The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, hugging my clothes with my photos scattered around her, I saw so much love past the tears in her eyes. The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard it was, in the midst of so much sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me. The day after my suicide, I saw Tumble (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could imagine. Everytime someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, and seeing that it was not me, would lay down in front of the door and continue waiting for me. The day after my suicide, I felt the love of my sister when I saw her sitting in her room with eyes full of tears. She remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. Treasured moments. The day after my suicide, I felt how important I was to my best friends. They were looking at all our pictures together...remembering the laughs we shared. The day after my suicide, I felt the sorrow in my teachers. They blamed themselves for not noticing. At night I went to the morgue to look for myself and said: "So many dreams we had", "So many loved ones", "So many people to meet", "You had so many people that loved you, yet you threw it all away?", "You have to have a lot of courage to take your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win?" Thank goodness that was just a vision. Remember: You are still here and can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. Prettier, smarter and stronger. Make this yours. Save it to notes and read it later. Disclaimer: This is not my story I just wanted to spread it because maybe it helps

[@curiousshoonya]

ok you made me cry.

[@Abdulkalaam-mw4tg]

Great writer.

[@sharma28-eq2ef]

Best comment . God bless

[@Army-bf1ct]

God bless you 😇

[@rishmitarajith8302]

omg being a jee 2025 aspirant the video itself was very depressing but i didnt cry ... but this comment my god .. soo much deapth and reality in it .. i couldnt hold my tears back

[@lakshya5023]

The fact that 18 years old feels like woh kisi ke layak nhi h shows how high expectations society keeps from teens.

[@rbh9191]

mera situation is very bad ,my jee is exam in 29 days.

[@harmanpreetthandi5314]

​@@rbh9191haar ni man na hai bhai , Jo aapke Naseeb mai hai aapko Mil jayega Bas Mehnat kijiye

[@kaushik_12]

everything is gonna be ok . I also have my jee exam in april but kabhi give up matt karna or agar jee clear nhi bhi hua to kya farak padta h . it's ok kuchh saal baad tumhe apna koi failure yaad bhi nhi rahega ...... @@rbh9191

[@UnknownPerson-cl9di]

best of luck....@@rbh9191

[@aashibhardwaj3491]

​@@rbh9191 Heyy don't worry bro Don't do anything like this you will succeed

[@hasansaifi1271]

“13 lakh me se kuch 100 bache chale jayange toh kya farak padega “ ~ society/government/ coaching institutes

[@krishgaming9080]

I think yes don't let you down by society we need to be more of like strong minded jee is best exam we can't remove this business for some students whicre weakling

[@tanishqchhabra590]

Come on Get some life ​@@krishgaming9080

[@sunitaagrawal6921]

@@krishgaming9080 bhai pehle thoda proper likhna aur punctuation use karna sikh lo phir english me likhna yahan aapka koi test nhi hai .

[@aditya69106]

suicide kar rhe hai students uska Matlab ye nhii hota ki weak hai and all. pressure hi itna zyada hojata hai top par pohonchne ka jisko vo log face nhi kar paate jinko shuru se har chiz me force kiya ho, tere jaisa nhi smjhega@@krishgaming9080

[@dog_backward]

Doing suicide is dumb, i was also in kota, get very bad marks, not get selected to iit or nit but i love my parents enough to not give up on my life, we don't live for ourself, we live for our loved ones.

[@dhirajgawande007]

There are some parents who blame kids even for suicide

[@adbs10]

True!

[@aditirokade2725]

Its actually true and not only parents but the whole society

[@meloncool332]

Mine does they called those kid coward

[@meloncool332]

@@dhirajgawande007 brother i am very less sensitive towards other's emotions....when i was young i saw my parents arguing over mony cause we were broke and it was very tough for me and it gave me mental scars ......i can't tell you how much it affected me ....and when everything was becoming happy i have to leave home to study .......just imagine a little 6th grade boy ....with traumatic past had to live alone without parents or anyone to say that they love me .....i always felt a piece Missing when everyone is studying i was the one who felt helpless and couldn't control what to do and my parents did knew what i was going through and they told me that i am just being influence by my phone and social media.....i still feel i am missing someone to tell me that they love me ......hug me or just give me my emotions 💔

[@Shaggybangs]

​​@@meloncool332 this comment was so hard to read for me because it reminded me of my past. I had a really similar backstory as you. My childhood was filled with a lot of family drama and I was so used to listening to my parents arguing almost everyday to the point of considering it ok. I too never really had any friends or anyone with whom i could share my woes to neither there was anyone who genuinely cared enough to even ask if everything's fine. Time passed and so do the phase but it really affected my mental health in more than just one way that even now i feel as if something is lacking. I don't know who you are, but whoever and wherever you are. I just wanna say that i am glad that you are still here. You're a lot more stronger than you give yourself credit for and i care for you. I really wanna comfort you and say it to you, thankyou for not giving up,!

[@d.Boi-ii]

"A Dying Man Never Lies" ~Ann Kerperien

[@Sggjfb]

Partially true.

[@alien3200]

Not always

[@gamingnation4628]

Terrorist and patriotism entered the chat

[@coolfreaks68]

What if the dying man is ignorant? Ann Kerperien lacks experience.

[@user-he2pf1sz3u]

Only when they value life and are held at gunpoint, im sorry but the same may not apply for someone who is suicidal

[@ladeeeedah]

My father took me out for a celebratory dinner when I scored handsomely in 10th boards and he also took me out for a celebratory dinner when I barely cleared my 12th science. This was 25 years back! I am a successful artist today, credit to my exceptional father who never judged me along the way. He wanted me to excel but in whatever I chose for myself. 🙂

[@motionscanner3533]

You had a great father

[@Aditichandrakar]

greetings to uncle ! may god bless him good health 😊

[@owl234]

Can i be your step sister lmao

[@ladeeeedah]

@@motionscanner3533 Indeed! Thank you for your kind words, he was a great man and an exceptional human being.

[@ladeeeedah]

@@Aditichandrakar Thank you for your kind words. 😊 He passed away in 2005 but continues to inspire me every step of the way.

[@souhardosaha]

I heard a line somewhere that says " Every suicide is a murder " . And probably that's absolutely true.

[@nara9404]

3 idiots

[@rahulpittala4944]

3 idiots

[@Lena_Joseph]

3 idiots

[@exceptionallyriso]

3 idiots

[@swayamprabhadikshit2258]

The way NTA is conducting JEE it feels like its more of a joke than an actual national examination in India. The discrepancies in different shifts are unbelievable.

[@rawdogger34]

Lol bhai, same. Had a really good score in 27shift1, like the typpa score which would have got me above 99ile+,. But guess what? Got 95.xx%ile. like fxucking 99%ile at 240 marks.

[@sksksksksk7458]

​​​@@rawdogger34bhai 180 aane pe regret hoga kabhi socha nahi tha. 23 attempt m bhi isse zyada percentile aayi thi

[@lakshya6909]

@@rawdogger34 165 marks 92.7%ile hahaha, idk what should i do

[@XD-ls7dl]

​@@rawdogger34 I got 99.86 at 270 so many students in between 40 marks

[@sumitlegendsk]

I am a neet aspirant but I got 97 percentile in 169 marks

[@radha_the_flute_girl]

Stop producing kids if u don't know how to raise them

[@Hijhiuhijhi]

Radhe Radhe,so true😭

[@chatgpt4135]

Not marrying, love-marrying, family planning or NOT wanting kids is ALSO NOT AN OPTION for many Indians, they are made to meet a suitor, stand on wedding place amd 'Married off' by their elders the same way they were sent to Kota, one day unbeknownst to them or not caring abt one's own wish , i.e. WITHOUT THEIR CONSENT, and they were forced or made to consummate by guiltripping or social conditioning, culture and give grandkids the same way, they were once sent to Kota against encouraging them to be able to find own choice and their personal decision making ability I mean , in India, the start of a new family system itself start from 'NO AUTONOMY of self choosing to the actual doer of marriage or actual spouse whether to marry, whether to have child or when to', their body rights were disrespected and not cared , how would they know what is encouragement in the first place

[@chatgpt4135]

The whole system in family in India, is like dictatorian system, where a married patent is seen as superior, children inferior, in that too, father is seen more superior, a mother even one who has her own livelihood is seen placed lower to man, son below them and daughter last, amd trans child not imp at all, that is how family decisions are made for each member without taking consent of that member ie. The most superior patriarch take decision, and lower ranks have to accept it.

[@Delululuu]

This is what I feel

[@Shiv-h5q]

+Respect You showed courage for writing our thoughts in your words.

[@theshillonggirl]

Asking them to pass exam on gunpoint pressure ! Parent’s expectations - societal norms ! Govt’s system of using exams as a significant factor for success or failure in life !!! I will never ever let my future kids ever face this.

[@kalyansapsd1]

My nephew and niece suffer the same from their parents…their father is doing two big mistakes at the same time…he is pressuring my nephew to crack IIT and he always feeds this fear and expectations in his mind…my nephew is just 13 and is still in 7th grade. Secondly, he always puts my niece down by constantly telling her that she would amount to nothing…she is in her 9th grade and is an average student but that doesn’t mean she deserves to be put down that way. I try to tell them but he doesn’t change his behavior. He himself didn’t do well in life nor did he do good in his own studies or career. It’s people like these who put their children under such heavy pressure rubbing their expectations on them. Honestly such things by parents should be a punishable offense and should be deemed as criminal act

[@HATCH5T]

How? You will own a company? And give them employment?

[@Ark.AI.]

No you are wrong it's all because of parents and teachers who pressurize students that exams are everything. They are just a thing to test you, it's the most efficient system. Moreover if you know what the thing is and you have studied exams are easy. It's your fault that you are taking stress.

[@bsn90]

After living all the city, rat race life, I realize that the best life is to buy a small Hut in mountains and live peacefully ever after... Thats the only healthy way of true life. Entrance exam, Bank PO exam, Govt. exam, JEE, NEET, CET, CAT, SAT, MAT, CSAT, 'Main bada hoke ye Officer/Doctor, IAS, IPS, IRS, IFS, banna chahta/chahti hun', etc. is a life torturing game which only remote vision & conscious humans realize that all this ultimately and only leads to depresion, stress and finally a vicious death trap. 10 Lakhon mein ek banta hai Officer/Doctor, etc a stark reality that all of us need to accept... Hum dusro jaise, TV Serial main jo actor ka Officer ka role hai, ya Bollywood film star ke Officer/Doctor/Engg ka role played hai, hum unn jaise banna chahte hai. Hum khud khud jaisa nahi banna chahte. Nobody thinks ki main bade hoke happy and peaceful life jeena chahta hun unfortunately'...

[@Neodoesedits.]

@@HATCH5T have you not seen somebody get a good job without jee or neet?

[@shivangighosal]

to anyone reading this, treat these exams as just another thing in life and not something that decides your worth. theres so much more to you than clearing these exams.

[@motionscanner3533]

But unfortunately when we prepare for these exams we couldn't think beyond this, the media, our society even friends glorify the winners like its a game, if you cannot win there is nothing you can do, you feel like a loser. Also the parental pressure is very high, if we can't crack exams then it feels burden to them when they spends lakhs of rupees for our preparation and we couldn't give them a best result. 😢. All these together captured a little immature 17,18 year of brain, when no one seems beside us so it's make sense to eliminate yourself as a loser in this world 💔

[@shivangighosal]

@@motionscanner3533 i understand , but the best thing you can do is take decisions as fast as you can, see working hard is inevitable you have to work hard no matter what path you choose but working hard for something you genuinely want to is far easier than something than you don't want to do. Whatever you GENUINELY LIKE do that make money in that, be successful in that path, and the whole parents thing , they just want us to be successful and support them and ourselves majorly financially so be it some other way, THERES so many WAYSSS. The media and freinds WHO EVEN ARE THEY, cut off and work hard for something you want to.

[@motionscanner3533]

@@shivangighosal Thanks for understanding. Yes I will definitely make it or make it in another way, but never give up. Just a bad phase, not a bad life. Blessings to you also, hope all of us achieve what we want. 🤍

[@adbs10]

True!👍

[@hrudu]

Finally found someone who thinks like a wise person

[@Runawannabe]

"sorry mummy, papa" breaks my heart every time.

[@Tina-Supra]

Indeed, possibly Not even my friends can endure them

[@lumbinishill3028]

They’ll do nothing about coaching institutes. Look at the question papers that the government institutions set themselves

[@mazinmansoormohammad2006]

Will you pls elaborate ma'am.?

[@pawansinghairee4050]

@@mazinmansoormohammad2006 I am not sure but I think, she is saying the difficulty of the question papers is too hard. (again, I am not sure, but this is what i interpreted)

[@Ayush-mg6xw]

If we want to compete against china then surely it should be hard ​@@pawansinghairee4050

[@PiyushKanwat]

nope she meant this year there was a lot of difference between result at different days it was completely dependent on your luck a person with good luck and just 150 marks can get same rank which you get after 240 marks .

[@ccpbats9348]

a unproven nexus exists between the government and the coaching industry@@mazinmansoormohammad2006

[@sriram181]

The oldies would just put it down as the generation being weak but there used to be a time when only a bachelor's or a simple masters would guarantee a good paying job and here we are in this economy where not even top school graduates are able to find employment, and people are having to add an array of qualifications making it a paragraph of Abbreviations in front of their names .

[@Harbringer443]

And guess what ? We've awarded ourselves with this trouble. Not like old generation didn't mess things up but we just increased it. Too much development requires too much skills from people. There'll expectations and there'll be failure because of large amount of people. At this point anything is better than the insane competition presented before us. Sure, toppers won't have a problem with competition because they're benefitting from this.

[@aguywithastethoscope]

​@@Harbringer443bro it's the population and corruption, development isn't the problem

[@Shabssaif]

Agreed boss. This is very accurate, the pressure coupled with population growth and competition is killing the fragile minds of young folks.

[@okworld.____2187]

True

[@abhasker6673]

I am a Psychiatrist and I see lots of students from all fields for their problems. One thing I have noticed is Indian parenting style needs to change! Most indians practice authoritarian parenting which leaves no room for mistake. The child blames self for things out of his control and that guilt is immense. Also in our upbringing we aren't raised to have a problem solving attitude or good coping skills at home or school. All these factors lead to these kids falling into Depression under stress.

[@chatgpt4135]

Not just these, Parents never 'HEAR' their child and often dismiss the child's opinion, decision or problems as 'FAKE'. But when, the same thing is felt by parent itself, they often force kid to accept their views, making child emotionaly dependant to not have own set of ideology ever. Eg. A young marriageable aged girl asked her dad how come is it safe to send a girl aline to 'Someone else's suitor man's house or to meet him or his family alone in a distant hotel chosen solely by them, which area the girl is not acquainted with during arranged marriage meetup'?, Just because the man is of same catse, high package and on marriage bureau diesn't mean he always have good intention? But her dad storms in anger saying 'Nobody thinks dirty when it ckmes to fixing an arranged marriage, women should do what pleases their male suitor otherwise who will marry them?, Fun fact is "IN DAD TIMES, these arranged marriage formal DATES or online matrimony did not exist, so today's ONLINE generation may know more abt FRAUD that take place on such places, so he should have had a mature discussion with an adult daughter. But he dismiss her, accusing of speaking disrespectfully against CULTURE and parents experienced school of belief of authenticuty of INSTITUTION of arranged matches being something heaven designed. But one day he reads an article of harassment that occurs during arranfed marriage dates on online marriage bureau and then suddenly START giving 'ELDER ADVISE LIKE SPEECH' to daughter on how to safeguard herself in this sytems and fix marriage safely. She ask abt why he didn't believe her eaelier, he gets angry again saying 'YOU NEVER SAID THAT, IT NEVER HAPPENED YOU MIGHT BE JOKING.

[@chatgpt4135]

This clearly shows , THe title PARENT does not mean whatever they feel is always correct It only means ONLY THEY SHOULD DELIVER, amd CHILD SHOULD JUST RECEIVE in India

[@shashikiransundi]

Yes ma'am. 100% agree. Unfortunately I do not see a radical change happening in the Indian parenting style in the future. There are too many narcissistic people who in the name of culture will continue to abuse their children.

[@PritamDas-jz2nu]

@@chatgpt4135 Totally agree with you. PARENTS often think they know more than their child. This mentality keeps them in an illusion that they have to take authority of their child and that their every decision will always be beneficial for that child,even though they don't know anything about that topic. Example:- Most parents send their children to prepare for JEE or NEET because they have either seen IIT graduates claiming crores of packages or have a relative who had cleared this exam. Those parents have never prepared for any entrance exam nor they understand how entrance exams are conducted and the sheer amount of competition. They simply think it's like board exam with pass and fail outcomes.

[@Wishtelle]

i had good parents but still faced certain expectations and pressure as i had a very high achieving sister. I struggled all throughout school and discovered i had a learning disability after 12th board exams finished. I didn't know if i should be relieved it wasnt fully my fault i was so stupid or feel bad I couldn't handle this problem earlier in life. If we knew when I was young, would I have been happier and better in school?

[@adityap.m7158]

Let's admit atleast for a fu**ng second that the parents are responsible too.

[@abhijeet4544]

no they are not responsible

[@missmemer5787]

@@abhijeet4544 yes they are. they put pressure on their kids and don't let the kids have a choice on what to do with their lives. they force the kids to get good marks without asking them about their mental health.

[@chatgpt4135]

​@soultune908Beacause of social conditioning that pointing mistake of parent is sin

[@cliprimate_EXtinted]

Its called marketing, parents always want the best for their child, and you know who does the mrketing?

[@chatgpt4135]

​​@@cliprimate_EXtintedBut do they have evidence, that what they plan for child is the only 'Best' way to do that thing in life Do they have a properly researched conclusion , not general one okay, but proper study of their child's ability versus the path parents choose and whether the combination is actual good? Do parents have this 'Proper research proof and evidence' that whatever they say should be considered 'Best', what if they make a plannjng which is actually worse? How to trust that their declaration is best way only?

[@notarya_]

"Suicide doesn't take away the pain, it gives it to someone else" - Hatake Kakashi

[@AnonymousAlien2099]

This holds true only if someone is emotionally, financially, physically or mentally dependent on you. What if there's no one who really cares or is dependent on you?

[@Brainrot476]

That is one ignorant statement

[@Moa_deb]

Someone who was suffering the most, are they supposed to think about others even in death? Kid don't just quote a Naruto quote it's real life

[@notarya_]

@@Moa_deb 95% of time parents will understand that this happens. Nothing is more precious to them than their child. There are thousands of opportunities other than jee neet. Suicide should never be an option

[@tabasco6834]

Serious video hai naruto kyu jhhad rahe ho?

[@Ishitaraj27688]

I also went to Kota and believe me it's very stressfull there to live n not getting result.... I was in depression there in last months.... My parents took me away from that place.... ! I'm not a doctor today but will do surely more above just being doctor for society......! Thank you God for saving me.... That coaching institutes sucks....! It's a just a business hub... Not a education hub....

[@DobyTheElf]

Happy for you. Wht r u pursuing now ? Private?

[@Ishitaraj27688]

@@DobyTheElf I'm preparing for UPSC.... Done btech in biotechnology (GGSIPU)

[@infinixgaming1791]

upsc kar rahi hai. Still another exam prep only @@Ishitaraj27688

[@shwetachate]

Life is more precious than an exam. Hope you're doing good.

[@DobyTheElf]

@@Ishitaraj27688 Good lk to youu

[@soya-chaap]

ladke se tha par pyar sacha tha,” i am so sorry. please i hope wherever you are i hope you find someone to fall in love with again, i hope god grants you a beautiful afterlife

[@shreyboss256]

TRUE 👍

[@soloistwolfen]

That part broke me double

[@soloistwolfen]

That part broke me double

[@moon_shine.]

I'm a 17 year old student. I haven't realised the amount of times I've said "mujhse nahi hoga" or "me nahi kar paungi" but at the end always came up with a solution. My best friend and my parents have supported me a lot throughout the process of 11th and 12th. I took science just because it made my father happy and not because I could do it and yet I'm preparing for my boards this year. Listening to these letters made me cry. I wish they had someone to talk to or cry to instead they were surrounded with competitors who made them feel even worse.

[@kawaiisoo]

I'm currently in the same situation as you. Was the top student in 10th , took science because of my parents and also because I liked it to a extend. Started 11th grade felt miserable with the competitive surrounding couldn't focus or study. Was always told "Science kyu liya fir" exploring is never an option. Giving my boards in a few days barely knowing anything failed my preboards. I don't like what am studying I don't have the courage either.

[@moon_shine.]

@@kawaiisoo it's alright we can get through this together sweetheart. Doesn't necessarily have to be doctors or engineers life is so much more than just that! Well wishes for the future 🍀

[@kawaiisoo]

@@moon_shine. All the best to you too! Hope things work out 🤞

[@bhargabdeka9139]

The whole system is so messed up why do we force our kids to take a stream which do don't prefer stop putting pressure on students not everyone is a topper

[@kawaiisoo]

@@bhargabdeka9139 one word - PRIDE. Parents want to brag about their kids and their kids want to brag about their achievements to their peers. We live in a generation where you have to constantly prove your worth otherwise you become a nobody.

[@aarushkamdar]

This needs to be shown to every parent pushing their kid down the JEE or NEET route, especially when the kid doesn't want to

[@AnkitSingh-qk4eo]

Govt also responsible bcoz of more students but less seats availability

[@saminasayed6272]

Exactly

[@arpitbanka767]

@@saminasayed6272 the govt isnt responsible for this. increase the seats and the suicides will only be delayed when we will be unemployeed the main problem is of the coaching institutes which should be precise about what the students target and to keep the qp within limits of the students because l'opital cant be applied in real life

[@AnkitSingh-qk4eo]

And when many students pass out degree but didn't gets job then who is responsible and many students apply for exams but there are no fullfill seats for students while they have good score.

[@anonymous-i8w]

but this is what makes that few seats more precious , these is nature , lesser the quantity more the quality.

[@Keespresso]

Then everyone shouldn't be applying for those seats. It's not government's fault, it's our fault. Only the ones who are passionate enough should go behind those seats. Those seats are limited cuz that's how many people of those professions are required! You see so many engineers unemployed today. Why? That's because of how many graduates we are getting every year, there's no job opportunities. You guys have to blame government for everything. And ofc, you need to work hard for achieving smth in life, ofc there are a few seats. Nothing new.

[@TheKlore]

Today was the Jee result of the session 1 and sadly I couldn't get the expected percentile but my parents are more than supportive but still I can tell many students must've unalived themselves by now.

[@supriyo7303]

I do not think unalive is a word at all

[@TheKlore]

@@supriyo7303 KZbin delete those comments related to self harming so many people use unalive as a substitute of that word.

[@rantipole.perhaps]

Stay strong and you'll get through it one day... but please dont even think abt committing that...

[@TheKlore]

@@rantipole.perhaps Even tho I had several thoughts about ending things, I was struggling so badly but my parents were always there for me. 2023 was the year I realized my parents love, support and care. And thank you for the concern!

[@zerogravityoverhere]

​​@@TheKloreyeah, me too. My shift was on 29 jan, shift second and well, it was all a game of luck because of that. I do feel sad about it, but eh we will get through this, just fine and good.

[@Nottheone480]

These institutes should be shut down. They do more harm then good for the youth.

[@Gelvesforever]

They already have been

[@alien3200]

Till 16 only ig

[@nikissaltedwatermelon]

like always, the govt never adresses the root cause of the problem, why do children go to institutes? they are not taught enough in school, there should be some check on the teachers and they should teach properly, most teachers in schools think that already students go to tutions,and dont teach properly (i have faced this, and ik that i am not the only one)

[@cliprimate_EXtinted]

There should be a weekly hour limit for coaching institutes and also the concept of Kota has to be abolished

[@idk-what-bruh]

​@@nikissaltedwatermelon That's so true,the thing is i had tutions for 11th 12th jee, and then again for clearing board exams cuz college wasn't very interested in teaching

[@ti_tas]

there was an article on this in the newspaper we take. it was put out just a few months back. my dad gave me the paper and asked me to read it. i read through the whole thing. it spoke about how jee and neet prep is very hard and about how many students take their own lives. it also said how the number of suicide cases has significantly increased in the second half of the last decade. once i was done reading it, my dad told me that a lot of money was being spent on me and that i should be glad that i was being allowed to stay at home while preparing for the exams. he also warned me against making too many friends in my new school(i've been forced to change schools as i'm going to be in 11th) and said that i should not even think about embarrassing them by trying to take my own life. i could not speak to my parents for a little while after that. just goes to show how parents need to start caring a little more about their kids and not just their kids' achievements.

[@Seaa200]

"And how we will be considered a coward if we attempt this"

[@Geetakhr]

I hope you are okay no one deserves to listen to these things You matter

[@nehawaghmare3283]

This is too cruel. Don't be hard on yourself. You are precious

[@zeansiie]

it's disheartening how they care more bout their societal image

[@nehawaghmare3283]

As a 18 year old science student I can't even count the times I have imagined ending my life due to pressure of expectations. The times I said 'mujhse nahi hoga' is uncountable. But whenever I found myself on verge of destroying myself due to competition, family pressure, coaching institutes,fear about future the only string that pulled me back was the pale look on the face my parents would have after I disappear. Hence I decided to hang in there. And still I am. Please don't ignore your child when they say it's getting tough cause most of the time it's more than that....

[@mithulohar5442]

I blame Media and social media because they always show the success stories not the failure (which is reality for the majority students )

[@bahohhblah]

I wrote a letter too but some people saved me But the scars are still there

[@unfiltered.talkss]

Hope you are doing well, stay strong god bless.

[@Hijhiuhijhi]

Don't give up.F jee Plz take care of yourself brother/sis , plz😭 Hari bol 😭

[@n31x]

@@Hijhiuhijhi the words "JEE" or "NEET" want me to go to toilet for number 2. I am going, meet you after 10 minutes.

[@Hijhiuhijhi]

@@n31x not done yet?

[@n31x]

@@Hijhiuhijhi I guess I am... OH NO.

[@pragatisingh8718]

I used to study a lot in class 10th and I myself don't know what has happened to me since the start of my 11th standard. I've almost wasted my year and it's quite frightening for me that these thoughts quite a bit match with mine which means they match up with a lot people as well... Just the thing is we try to kill the thoughts instead of killing ourselves.

[@WWEverse-w5y]

Go for life unplugged at KZbin u will find solution

[@keertithakur701]

Don't worry buddy same happened with me during 11 class right now I am in 12 ... don't worry things may seem unclear right now but you'll surely survive through it beleive me

[@harshsurwade3048]

Bro I also wasted my whole 11th class😢 do they fail you in 11th ??

[@MonikaTak-m8y]

Check bro maybe you are depressed

[@vivekb2886]

the same is with me too. the problem here is we dont know what we truely are intrested in. its the society which brought us to this situation and brainwashed our indian parents.. iska matlab nahi he ki hamara parents ki galthi he if we truely have supportive parents then it means they just hope us to be well settled in life. but brother all i could say is we have much more life to explore lets not allow this so called shitty entrances to take our lives.. there will definitely be another way to survive.. we just have to search for it.

[@tonmoydeka3983]

The best way to live life is to not take it seriously. Carefree people live the best lives.

[@Aditichandrakar]

after being in depression for almost 1.5 year(actually i didnt know i was in ) i screwed up my focus and scored 60% in 12th and ruined me jee mains i was alone depressed but no one asked me why this happened every1 just blamed me i was suicidal but never lose hope on myself i went through all hardships alone it made me mentally stronger in life .

[@Prakashh627]

you have got mental strength !! all the very best for future ahead

[@abhishekanand4548]

where are u now ? i had the same story ..scored 72% in 12th and ruined jee mains ..i m gonna take up bsc computer science or btech cs in some private college i can understand how it feels

[@Mohit_Yadav168]

After hvng spent a few years in corporate, I can tell u noone even gives a shit about what u scored in ur school or clg, it's all about ur skills, hardwork and confidence so I would say 60% is good enough, don't let it demotivate u. Once u start applying for jobs, u'll see 60% and 90% fall in the same bracket lol.

[@electrowizard2658]

same got 67% in 12th didnt gave jee mains i belong to west ebngal and gave wbjee got rank about 22k out of 100k not a good rank but got avergae private college but honestly thier are lot of stuffs u can do today to improve ur skills and dedication !!@@abhishekanand4548

[@pranjalisurve2516]

Appreciated👏👏🙏

[@myraarora4809]

Somethings i want to share:- 1- 'Scucide will not end the pain it will simply pass on to someone else' 2- 'It's crazy how in our childhood we were scared to talk to strangers and in teenage and adulthood we are scared to talk to our family' 3- 'To be honest Teenage is the most painful phase of a person's life cus we are thrown inside the REAL WORLD.' 4- 'Most of the emotional wounds come from a person's TEENAGEHOOD, cus in Childhood we have our family and in Adulthood we have a few people , but in Teenage WE FIGHT ALL ALONE' 5- 'I smile doesn't mean I'm happy, I ignore your words doesn't mean I'm disrespectful, I'm on my phone doesn't mean I'm addict, if i don't talk doesn't mean i have attitude, if I'm smiling at my phone doesn't mean I'm charecterless, AND IF I'M ALIVE DOESN'T MEAN I WANT TO LIVE'. 6- 'It's insane how easily parents say 'Why are you sad, you din't got anything to be sad about we should be sad we handle so much and still we are keeping you guys happy what do you want from us more than that' without knowing our ACTUAL LIFE BEHING THE CURTAINS OF SMILE' 7- 'It's peaceful to live alone but it's killing difficult WHEN YOUR HEART AND BRAIN OUR IN A WAR TOGHTHER'. 8- 'Its insane how parents care more about our grades, career and money rather than OUR MENTAL HEALTH'. 9- 'Parents- We should die she/he doesn't care about us' 'Thier Child- DON'T DIE THEY WILL CRY'. 🗣YOUR FAMILY IS SOO GOOD MANNN, I WISH MY FAMILY WAS LIKE YOUR 10- 'It's all your fault' 'I wish you were like those toppers in your class' 'It's just a phase focus on your studies, nothing will happen after that' 'Your a red flag to be honest, your so toxic always get angry on stupid things' 'You don't care about us' 'Why you need safety and security for her, she's so fat no one will able to pick her, kidnap her and do things with her' 'Your butt is so big 🤣🤣🤣' 'Girls of your age are so fit, and look at you do something or else you will not be able to do anything with it once you become an adult' 'My ears are open, tell me what's your problem (while busy on the phone) Me- 'don't touch me unnecessarily i dont like it' The boys- 'what if you say NO, i will do it if i want to' 'I will not see her face in the future' 'Everything was so good before you were born' 'The problem is your phone switch it off and keep in the almirah' 'Your just too much' ' Me- hello They- hmm ,did you completed your work ,change your clothes, comb your hairs and please do some studies............................... Me- i just wanted to talk 'You are irritating' 'You speak irrelevant things' 'You have lack of patience' 'Why are you in pressure, you have everything in spoonfeeding' 'I DONT KNOW WHAT BAD DEEDS I DID IN MY PAST LIFE TO GET DAUGHTER LIKE THIS' 'WHERE IS MY OLD DAUGHTER, I WANT HER BACK' ME:- My family is the best 🤐 A little message to all the broken souls reading this:- Everyone is in pain your not alone , and please love yourself don't give up on yourself remember you are prettier, smarter and stronger than you actually think. And God will give you a person who adores you the most, loves you the most and respects you the most, AND EXCEPTS YOUR FLAWS AND READY TO DO ANYTHING TO FOR YOU. God will unite you both on the perfect time, so dont give up and remember *THE BEST IS YET TO COME* ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@gojoxrizzz]

Oh my god, bless you sister, you comforted me🌟🩷

[@svm_236]

Umm sorry sis but you need to understand that once a mind is disturbed, it will never be the same again like before. thats why most people end their lives, because they cant bear that much in this phase of life where a person just starting living his/her life. Btw Thanks for your comment, everything you typed is correct and understandable, maybe relatable too in every teenager's life. God bless you. Peace...

[@justa9424]

"ladke se hua that, lekin sacha tha ekdum." Parents, and mostly Indian parents, are openly homophobic and that takes a toll on so many children's mental health. Please parents, try and understand.

[@ritikaabhagat7197]

It's our responsibility to set a society where doing is more important than results, where students get appreciation for participating.

[@potato_111]

I remember when i failed physics in my preboard exams, my mother did not scold me or be upset about it. She motivated me to work harder. The other time when i didnt do very good in an entrance exam, she told me there's always a next time, and that i can always get another opportunity and its not the end of the world. She always tells me "Beta, jahan bhi jaoge, bas khush rehna aur zyada stress ka kaam mat karna" ..i'm rrally grateful to have such a motivating and encouraging mother❤

[@Moonlight-kt3lw]

My mummy says the same thing ❤❤❤

[@hey-mu5jn]

I cry seeing story like these, i wish so hard that i could relate. For me ppl like u are the luckiest!!

[@Someone_2406]

@@hey-mu5jn me too brother, me too 😔😔

[@samrat7289]

Being in kota and after the heart wrenching jee result today, I feel am such a failure that I am not having even enough courage to suicide, I did hold the knife to cut the wrist but cannot. Not having enough courage to recieve dad's call .

[@user-hk1nn6qe5l]

We are with you, stay strong.. i know it hurts a lot but we NEVER GIVE UP.

[@shwetachate]

Please keep strong, your life is precious and people care about you

[@anusham837]

Hey, anchor yourself to the future version of you who is happy. Don't let this moment determine the beautiful life you're destined to have. World doesn't end with results. You'll realise it gets easier with each passing day. Stay strong, talk to your parents

[@Idkwhattosay242]

Bhaii more power to youu.. don't so that!

[@venugopalchinnakar3146]

Life is alot bigger then this jee and iit...and parents r not going to be with u till end....only u will be with ur self till end ...stop worrying about wht parents will think about u ...I have seen many who r not iitians or doesn't come from big educational backgrounds but have become a lot successful and alot rich that most iit graduates don't even earn in 10 years which they earn in an year...chill out leave this b.s and go for next part of ur life.....

[@neilnavalakha5568]

100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶.❤❤🧡🧡💛💛

[@prithika2710]

Thank you so much ❤...

[@divyanshiverma7291]

Your comment honestly gave me goosebumps and tears at the same time......The fact that I realised there are so many reasons to live my Life and your comment brought back my will to live it to it's fullest.....Thank You 🙏🏻

[@AayushiSingh-gd5ev]

Thank u very much to give us new hope,

[@VanshikaKaushik-qu1jl]

Parenting is not a joy!

[@rupalisawant1278]

The biggest burden in life is the burden of someone else's expectations.

[@ana._537]

Why is this shit on my feed in the morning when i feel like I'll not clear my neet wtf🙂

[@DobyTheElf]

Same abhi JEE ka result dekhkr aaya ;)

[@realnikolatesla]

😭😭👍🏻

[@thevegancupid77]

SAME OMG

[@realnikolatesla]

@@thevegancupid77 kitne aaye???👀

[@thevegancupid77]

@@realnikolatesla 82 but general ab neet pe hi rely karna padega

[@candi1001]

Please add suicide helpline number at end of the vid, create awareness not money from such a sensitive topic.

[@rubyroy7777]

Suicide helplines never help tbh

[@Aditya_S04]

@@rubyroy7777 yup! why would someone call if he/she already made a decision

[@tapasyasuvarna3668]

@@Aditya_S04that’s not how it works. Wanting to die isn’t a happy decision. If someone can help one change their mind then its worth it

[@Aditya_S04]

@@tapasyasuvarna3668 Chill buddy I am not against it, why would I want someone to not get help we were just discussing something practical that's it.

[@tapasyasuvarna3668]

@@Aditya_S04 im also sharing something practical! And its that even if you don’t think suicide helplines work, which could be true some times, they also do help those who just want someone to talk to them:> and it would be a good idea to add it to this or any other related video so people know where everyone stands

[@Electric_Coconut18]

Do you know what sucks even more? No matter how much effort you put in, the tremendous role that luck plays in the results...

[@CharlieWade-qc3kc]

Fuck the luck ...... I was this close to end my life.... But as a true warrior I never quit

[@jagatsingh1060]

I don't know these kids. May their soul rest in peace. Don't ever do this please You deserve all the good things.

[@zarcoworld3276]

"happy birthday papa "

[@ItadoriYuji-sh5on]

KZbin comments are also getting darker like instagram now a days

[@d.Boi-ii]

​Stop being skeptical,it is possible that his intentions are not meant to mock​@@ItadoriYuji-sh5on

[@exKGBagent]

Thank you beta

[@zarcoworld3276]

@@venugopalchinnakar3146 i was emphasizing on the line she said ... dont be dumb

[@stratasphorte]

@@venugopalchinnakar3146 why u talk like dumb?? he just stressing on that depressing line

[@FactsCountdown]

I'm in tears😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@redmightyt5331]

As a kota student I can understand the pain behind these letters 😢

[@Simmiiiii456]

It hurts more when you don't know how to share your thoughts with someone and you live with it forever which slowly kills you from inside.

[@visheshagrahari6044]

I'm in kota and fucked up. But beleive the core problem isn't the coachings, it's the modern mythos , the myths of modernity that have sculpted the minds of teens for a particular roadmap of success. I mean it's a very societal level problem and i myself just can identify the problem but I think I would work for it in future to somehow bring a bit of a change atleast.

[@RamSharma-ov4lt]

All the best if you really do something about it it can be very helpful

[@keerth573D]

literally every indian student but i'm tired now, no strength left.

[@shreyboss256]

Same dude 😢

[@RamSharma-ov4lt]

Bro that sound depressing don't do anything

[@keerth573D]

@@RamSharma-ov4lt after months of not feeling loved, undeserving to live, and all those stuff, now i am good and have enough hope to keep me going. Hopefully things are going to get better. Thank you so much for taking concern.Seriously, it means a lot.🥺❤

[@nayaradeleon]

hope you're doing well

[@RamSharma-ov4lt]

@@keerth573D no probs man live a long and happy life

[@kingbeastko761]

i am also having really bad thoughts ,, but its good that i fear death so i wont take exttreme step but i am completely devastated,, i gave exam on 29 jan s2 and got 115 marks but only 86 percentile which is unreal ,,i am broken but all relatives/parents who will see this result will just say YE PADHA NHI HOGA which is so disturbing

[@sanyamsharma134]

real! btw i got 85.8 on 120 in 27 jan S2

[@Evarabg]

Same Where as I my friend with 80 marks got 92.4%ile

[@tejasshirsath485]

I feel for you

[@tejasshirsath485]

@@Evarabg shift pe depend karta hai ! Some shifts were relatively tough

[@Evarabg]

@@tejasshirsath485 toh wahi hai na itna jayda difference kyun? Humari kya galti ismein? Ab tak mehnat dekhna padta tha par ab luck bhi accha hona chahiye

[@anushkayadav2402]

mental health is so important !

[@architrajput9029]

Thanking you Quint for this presentation,

[@ujanmahaptra3389]

I am one of the causualities of 27 s1. Don't feel like crying, only disappointment. Knew there would be inflation. Had a foolish hope for 99.7+ nonetheless. Kitne par 99 banegi? 200? 210? 220? usse zyada to kisi duniya mai possible hi nahi, not even last year in april was it ever above 200. 235/40! Am I having a bad dream? The past 2 years of hard work has led to this? 99.5 in AYJR. Consistently 210+ in coaching mocks. Oh hell, how would I have gotten 99.7+ in later shifts goddamnit, difficult papers are more of my type anyways. A date with death on Valentine's day, huh. Slept at 1 with a alarm for 4. Woke up to this absolute monstrosity. Can't go back to sleep. Will post this in the morning, however. It's all about fucking LUCK. All your efforts mean NOTHING. I repeat, NOTHING. You are a product of the system, and if that system deems you worthless, you sure as well are worthless, you dumb piece of shit. Will I be able to move on and piece myself together after this? Probably not, even though this is the beginning, yet it is the end. How am I supposed to move forward knowing that my luck is more important than my knowledge? It always has been the technicalities huh. Let me tell you an anecdote from the story of a man who has never achieved a single thing in his life. Now that same boy has been dumbstruck by the mother of all technicalities: normalisation. He was never the kind to give excuses. But now he wanted to shout at the top of his lungs, he wanted everyone to know the technicalities, it wasn't an excuse, he did not fail, it was always the system that likes to conspire against him. The massacre of 27 January 2024 AD (9AM-12PM) will forever be etched in history. A battlefield where dreams died, nay, they were murdered in cold blood, by a sadistic boogeyman who probably enjoys what they are doing. Always wanted to be a history maker, turned into an exceptional statistic, studied and feared by students of the future. A hope that they never encounter such a day when they look at our misery. I was there. I was there. I was a victim. I couldn't be better. Please understand. Please understand. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. No one gives a shit, do they? Signing off, An overachieving failure

[@manjari1217]

Someone always does give a shit. Your parents care, even if it doesn't seem like it at a moment. The ONLY solution is to keep going, nothing else. Please take care.

[@Curio737]

🥺🫂

[@boringmemes5718]

seriously you can become writer if not jee

[@itsaditichoudhary]

man let jee go to hell, with your talent I, as a stranger can tell you that you were made for literature! your writing has given me goosebumps!

[@boringmemes5718]

@@itsaditichoudhary isnt it ? most of the people in jee are putting efforts against their talent

[@Dimuk1984]

Have never appeared for JEE but have heard about it and Kota also. JEE and UPSC are the toughest exams out there and it takes a toll on you but you didn't see such thing happening among UPSC aspirants and I think it is because most of them are already grown up. Well on the other side, JEE is conducted for 10+2 which tells you that most of the aspirants are youngsters and they didn't know how to manage their emotions and failures. I hope govt will take note of it and do something about it. We are losing many talented students

[@foodwood001]

Any Neet aspirant here? Like here...

[@sanyamsharma134]

RIP JEE 27 SHIFT STUDENTS

[@Subhamce1yb]

😢😢😢😢

[@afnankhan3653]

@@Subhamce1yb 31 jan shift 2 ka paper dekha hai

[@AMGAMGAMG1]

Why?

[@sanyamsharma134]

because cutoffs went over the roof@@AMGAMGAMG1

[@sanyamsharma134]

because cutoffs went overt the roof @@AMGAMGAMG1

[@bob-vf2xf]

Rest in peace to all the students who passed away from all the mental pressure 🙏🕊

[@rsingh2083]

Man i blasted in tears !!! Sorry for all you guys 😢 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@ojaspandey56]

Just imagine how peaceful it sounds- "I slept and never woke up " 😢

[@Lifeisbeautifulisntit]

I have been in severe depression for 4 years...because of that lost all my hopes and will to do anything. But because of my family expectations i had to give upsc exams ( tho it was my dream too but depression killed my confidence to sit for exam that year)....Failed 2 attempts....That was a tought time. I could tell nobody what i was going thru all these 4 to 5 years. But i am healing now because i have prioritize myself over any damn exam. 6 months back i told everything to my parents that this time i will first choose to heal myself before sitting for any exam. To my suprise my parents supported me. I just wanted to tell everyone please no exam is bigger than you. No society is bigger than you. After you will die no one in the society will even remember you for whom you are giving up your life because child think his failure will embarrass their parents who are indirectly getting pressurized by the society.

[@Adwiita_]

"Happy Birthday Papa" broke my heart 🥺💔

[@shwetaRshekhar]

I know the pain of losing someone to suicide. It is extremely traumatic and triggering. I feel a part of my life is gone with my dad.

[@S7VEN5HEAVEN]

im so sorry for your loss , om shanti to the soul

[@phibangashnga4868]

Sad..the world have become a very sad place!! Sometimes i think to myself, what can we do to make it a happy place !!

[@MonikaDaddarwal]

you will indeed make it a happy place, love. having this curiosity is the first step. have a good day:)

[@s.r301]

Never make JEE your life's mission. Did you know its easier to get into Stanford, Harvard, MIT and the likes than IIT/IIM? There are so many ways to be successful. Some of the most successful people in the world don't even have a degree. Focus on finding the right career for your skillset and spend most your time enjoying your chosen field. Learn communication skills, social skills, networking skills and entrepreneurship skills. Try to do innovative projects that solves real problems where you live and independent work even before you get into college. Those skills mean more than degrees in the long run. You will be very successful later at work.

[@s.r301]

Universities abroad may seem super expensive, but you have the opportunity to get a full scholarship covering ALL your expenses if you have good SAT/GRE/GMAT scores and impactful independent projects under your belt. You will receive the best quality education, graduate without debt and have a high starting salary.

[@ProfitSnipper]

Bhai life is precious jaane Dene se life khatam hoti hai probelm nahi 😢

[@Itoofaheem]

I know the pain i got rejected in neet 4 times everytime i was only 10 to 20 marks behind cutoff marks but giving your life is not a wise decision. We should understand that pressure is the part of life in this stressful country😢😢.

[@MDDynamo]

🤯 How much your Age??

[@supriyadev8484]

What are you doing now?

[@Itoofaheem]

@@MDDynamo 22

[@Itoofaheem]

@@supriyadev8484 bsc AGRICULTURE

[@baldsoobinhair]

​@@Itoofaheemyou are great for trying so far, I'm pretty sure you have similar knowledge to a neet qualified student

[@somachattopadhyay5000]

I think these people are so brave ro read these letters with a straight face. Its not easy to read the last words of a child not even adult who killed themselves. The words themselves are heartbreaking.

[@PaperHandTrader]

This is beyond sad

[@drarunaj]

If they dont value their life.... Why should we??

[@shrutisharma4586]

I understand the level of competition in India, but the pressure families put on these children is just suffocating. As a parent I could never imagine forcing my expectations on my children. Of course I want what’s best for them, but there are so many routes to success and if all else fails I’m here to support my children forever if needed. Sadly my family were very pushy and when I was struggling at university I did contemplate an extreme step at one point. 20 years on, I’m a successful career women with two children. Anyone even contemplating such an extreme step, find your cheerleaders and support (even if it’s virtual) and try to see that things do get better with time.

[@vavakunju17]

My parents had put a lot of pressure on me during neet. I would hace died by suicide but a friehd saved me. Today i am topper of my law school. I thank my friend for this

[@saaa.aaa.]

so happy for you :) i wish you success and happiness always Aameen

[@ArshiAnsari-f2e]

No matter what happens bhaad mei jae sab just live your life. And be happy

[@shreyaupadhyay2415]

I myself had gone through this and am still going through this pressure as whenever I speak about my success there is another person judging me for not been selected for IIT. Engineers and doctors can be built without iits and nits . Dear society please Stop murdering children like this.

[@PalakNamdev-l4i]

Keep carrying on ok you are strong. Fuck society and these exams your life is more important. Please live.

[@akshatdon4439]

It's heart breaking😢

[@kogiereddy2938]

Why is engineering and doctor degrees forced unpo kids, parents must take responsibility

[@harshit_sharma_79]

aur kya kare aap hi bata do

[@Neodoesedits.]

@@harshit_sharma_79 what world are you living in? have you seriously not seen any other job other than engineering and medical?

[@Neodoesedits.]

@@harshit_sharma_79 tuu tho kamal kii ho beta

[@BraddysReagent]

​@@harshit_sharma_79 wah bhai kya baat boli tune👏👏 Kabhi apne ghar ke aaspas uncle logo se puchna woh kya krte hai More than 80% will have any other background other than engg, doctor

[@thatonerandomguy9764]

@@BraddysReagent bath yahi hai, phele number of applicants bhi kam the seats utni hi tha, aur abh bhi seats kuch khas badhi nahi hai aur number of aplicants 10 times hogaya hai, baath ye nahi hai ki yaha engineerinng k alava option hai ki nahi, mera sapna hai aerospace engineer banne ka, and the only top college in india where aeropsca is offered is iit, agar main waha nahi pohonch paya toh mera sapna toh toot gaya na, mere ghar walo k paas paise bhi nahi ki abroad bhej sake.

[@modernwarrior-bf4ut]

last one was just really heart breaking 💔Manipulating her own child like this is so fucked up i have watched a anime called Your Lie in April and the kid was traumatized till his teenage even when her mother died. The guy's life had been a living hell😔

[@aashimasaini]

This video breaks my heart. I am a dentist now but in Canada because I knew I won’t be able to do anything with my Indian BDS degree. I was a topper since 10th class and then I joined an institution in 11th class and I started having anxiety and got depressed. It’s been many years now and I still take pills to calm myself down and have a good nights sleep . Nobody was there to understand me. I had to do it because “log kya kahenge” . RIP to all the kids who lost their precious lives .

[@shreyboss256]

Hope you are doing good now 😭

[@aashimasaini]

@@shreyboss256 yup . Much better ♥️

[@shreyboss256]

@@aashimasaini Glad to hear that ❤️!!!

[@user.23349]

very competitive world why don't people understand that a 16-17 year child is not mentally prepared for this much hardwork

[@xThePHINIXx]

the fear for failure to meet expectations , to face your parents , to tell them you werent smart enough no matter how hard you tried is something no one should ever face , i myself was depressed for a long long while with myself , not because i didnt have the capablity or anything but because the pressure was so overwelmhing that it could suck the soul out of any teen , you are forced to do nothing but study for 2 years like a mad person being completely disconnected from the world and what do you get after that? no world knowledge or social skills or any skills that you actually need but just some dumb numerical or theoretical data that you aint ever gonna use in your life i wish this burden wasnt put on such young souls and not to mention they are doing this now to kids as young as in 6th

[@Someones.khasam]

2:14 I felt that. It's so sad that some homophobes could be so disgusting that they won't get their meals digested if they won't abuse people like us, just because we are unlike them? Who wants be like them? Who actually choosed to be straight or otherwise? Please let everyone and anyone decide with whom they have to live with, whom they have to love. We are humans. Please commit the audacity to believe and let us live. None to be vilified, demons are demons, no matter what. 😔

[@arpitgupta91]

😐

[@Someones.khasam]

@@arpitgupta91 ?

[@arpitgupta91]

@@Someones.khasam nothing much, my friend is a lesbian and i found ur comment relatable for her (Ignore my grammar")

[@bhaavyasingh611]

"jo mehnat krte h , sb chor kr padhte h unka to ho hi jata h" "ye aajkl k bache padhna likhna chor dia h inhone phone pr lge rhte h bahane banate h bs" "professional degree jaruri h , engineering medical law yhi sb me scope h wrna graduation krke banking or ssc k exam dete reh jaogi" "baki bacho se to ho ja rha h, wo to hr exam de rhe h ache marks bhi la rhe h, tm kyu nhi dene ja skti hafte me 4 din exams" "topper ko to nhi ho rha coaching k pressure tmhe kyu ho rha h" "tmhare dost padhne m kharab h islie tm bhi khrb hote ja rhi ho" "serious students web series nhi dekhte, dost nhi banate, bahar nhi jaate- duniya se kat kr padhne pr focus krte h" "TM KAMZOR HO, DUNIYA ME JEE NHI PAOGI AISE, ISSE ACHA MARR JAO" The last line came from my mother last month when I told her I feel really stressed, can't focus and need professional help. She said that NEET preperation is not stressful (ABC bhaiya did it so calmly he did not get stressed), boards exams are not stressful (millions of people do it every year), I was mentally struggling because I do not study and have a male friend with whom she caught me talking at night- yeah thats what giving me stress (I am in the topper's batch of aakash and always in the top 3 at my school- yeah as my mother said I do not study) It gets worst everyday- coaching really sucks those people do not care about the students at all, I have seen it they ignore everyone else and if you are the topper they put heavenly expectations and tremendous burden on you just so than they can print your half dead face in their misleading banners . I chose the medical field cause I loved biology but now this rat race is driving me so crazy, I work like hell these two years of my life to get a government college, with broken infrastructure and academics , and join some coaching for pg and study from there all my mbbs then get almost harrassed by seniors in residency with irrational working hours and stressed life in India's dirty govt. hospitals and prepare for yet another rat race that is super specialisation and still no garuntee of sucess. I love studying and yes doctor is a noble profession, but not at the cost of my mental health. I want to study microbiology and genetics , but my parents think that a B.S/M.S degree = unemployment . The whole system sucks.

[@Sakshi-yq4xe]

Hey bhavya! Don't think so much please take care of urself

[@shankarbudhe]

Atleast you are aware of your mental health. Please seek help.

[@shankarbudhe]

*professional help

[@TCoOKshop]

I know these words , be strong girl nd always remember , nobody in this world will love you more than you!! Its a harsh reality , just be yourself , you are important & unique !! 😊😊

[@unboxingtaste8941]

Even India is the most populated country in the world, we have no one to listen us when we are going through tough time. Even parents they just want to listen good things. It's so painful to see that we have to write our problems in comments.

[@violenaaa]

What amount of pressure would the kids have felt from the "society" to take this step. My heart goes out to all the students who lost their lives due to the expectations of this society/

[@ArshiAnsari-f2e]

Even girls are forced into marriage they can't tell they wish to marry someone. That kills inside. Parents just don't understand how one feels.

[@violenaaa]

@ArshiAnsari-f2e So true. Often people are put in a situation in which they are forced to do something against their will. Regardless of whether that thing will effect them in a positive or negative way.

[@omkarkulkarni9197]

Aaj bhi result aane ke baad meri shift 27 Jan ko thi.. it's my first year but thinking dropper I can feel the pain of such things.. this time cuttoff are going 230 marks for 99.. just crying in cornor now.. and now no one fucking cares.. all will just see our result and declare one thing that we didn't study properly..

[@Iamnotwhatyousee876]

Have faith bro

[@oxomist]

I’m also from open category, I’ve already dealt with the pain you going through, man I’m eagerly waiting to leave this country.

[@Harbringer443]

It doesn't matter how well you study. This system is flawed to core. If anyone believes that hyping up such an examination is a wise idea then I beg to differ. Plenty of people giving this examination with hard work but at the last moment it'll boil down to how talented you are. You must have some amount of talent no matter how hard you work. People around us has lied to us. Hard work can only bring improvement but it won't necessarily make you a topper.

[@nanditasen94]

No matter what don't drop another year ..it's not worth it

[@meloncool332]

Why are you so mad bro chill you are a human being and these exam results is nothing.....you don't need any degree to be what you wanted to be ......and if you ever feel alone just go to you nearby temple and chat with god you will find a solution.... he is the only one who loves all of us and gave us a purpose ♥️

[@hehe_rya]

Rest in peace to all these students who are not with us anymore

[@MRUTYUNJAYBEHERA-lw5vg]

0:58 just imagine the situation of student and parents 😢😢😢

[@Yk.anakie]

They are right...I don't think there's any reason of mine to live 😭

[@True-me-1]

Life is precious ❤,Don't think u are a looser .,Just give ur best

[@ManishaPurkait139]

Hey stranger, I don't know if you get to read this but pls don't think like that. I don't know what actually you are going through. But whatever it is, hold on a lil bit on life. It's all gonna be alright. Have faith in yourself and God❤

[@Yk.anakie]

@@ManishaPurkait139 I actually want to die today coz I failed as a daughter my parents are sad my relatives are taunting me and I don't have any will to live anymore 😭

[@loveyourself2807]

​​@@Yk.anakie 🙏 RIP. I hope you live your afterlife peacefully

[@aradieya]

"lekin mera pyaar jhootha nahi tha. ladke se hua tha, lekin sacha tha ekdum" oh my god

[@ROY_7202]

Living in kota was not hell as well as not heaven, if anybody living in kota and without parents like me sometimes its really very difficult to handle the situations like right now i am just unable to pick my parents calls after seeing my today's jee result, I don't have any courage to face them...i don't know what i gonna do. Everything seems like dark right now and i too want to disappear in this darkness. Right now i can feel the student's mental status before suicide but yeah i can tell at some point they were right

[@Hijhiuhijhi]

Bhai tu kich aisa naa kriyo plz🙏🙏🙏

[@adwakadabra]

Sending you love and support, and a reminder that a single exam does not define your talent or worth.

[@palak9896]

Exactly bro

[@itsMohak]

OMG! Very heart touching.

[@kritidas7344]

Being a NEET aspirant myself... I could feel each and every word of pain which were written on the note... Sorry fellow aspirants I hope you all are in a peaceful place now ❤

[@___mr_daydream]

2:07 I want to know more about this suicide

[@danielle-bi3tk]

same

[@Invisible_soul.2005]

yeah same here

[@Its_huda2006]

Same bro

[@smellofoldbooksandrain]

Yeah..as a gay person,I already felt a connection with the letter. It's heartbreaking.

[@___mr_daydream]

@@smellofoldbooksandrain yep👐

[@haveyoumetmeet]

This is very Heartbreaking. It literally made me cry. As someone currently enrolled in NIT, I hope I can tell the aspirants in kota/anywhere in India that, NO academic pursuit, including IIT, is worth sacrificing life for. Nothing in the world is. I hope the Parents Institutions & Government would take mental health more seriously. The fact that Kota is reduced to such a mess that it is now is a collectice failure of Institutions, Government and Parents. Thoughts & Prayers for those who went too soon🙏 Om shanti🙏

[@rcrvlogs8349]

I have failed 12 th four years after that I have passed and had as degree currently working from home not 10 digits salary but what is learned is success is only for satisfying self not the whole society

[@voovvoov2586]

This is so heart-wrenchingly terrible. Nobody deserves to outlive their children.

[@syedafrr]

I feel the same..my heart aches..After seeing this I feel extremely broken…but I know it’s not a solution..I don’t know what to do… don’t worry guys…I won’t take my life…I will be strong.

[@seaweedbrain2933]

Yeah just stay strong. It is tough but try to remain positive and give some time to your mental health. Your health is far more important than these exams Give your best efforts but one exam is not the end and there will be many other opportunities too

[@vaidikshah1922]

it's easy for parents to taunt their child and giving excuse that whatever we are doing is for your good career but to all the childrens it hearts a lot when we do a lot of hard work but didn't get the desired result and gets taunted that u didn't do your work properly

[@ADARSHSENGUPTA]

I will never pressurize my kids i promise.

[@monarchy_piano]

3:14 the child mentioned his parents, i just cant imagine how much the mother would be cussing herself that her child suicided blaming her

[@ancilpinto6653]

She should cuss at herself for raising her like that. If u don’t know how to parent a child, don’t produce them. Kids are not some kind of investment, they can and should choose whatever they want in life.

[@just_a-guy69]

Can we do something,anything to ensure no child die in the name of this factory ,the so called education system​@@ancilpinto6653

[@MovieNucleus]

our generation will be the best parents.....

[@ifthingswerenotthesame]

Why do parents feel that their children are some kind of installment.... If you can't love them, use protection naaa!!!!

[@seaweedbrain2933]

Yeah. All parents don't know how to raise children. Some are just ridiculous abusers

[@deepalikoli4021]

I am 25 years old girl, preparing for UPSC. IN last 4 attempts i coulndt ever cleared even prelims....along with it i failed in CGL, RBI, EPFO and many one day exams....I want to make my own identity but couldnt succeed till now...I too thought of sucide but recent demise of my loving mother i totally shooked up...i cry daily for not making her proud of what she always dreamt of...and now these failures are just killing me.

[@PalakNamdev-l4i]

r.May you have the strength to march through to a better mental and emotional place after going through the pain of losing your ma. I don't know man just try to survive . I am sorry for this weird reply but you reminded me of my sister .