Experiencing Derealization while Living with Complex PTSD (Dissociation)

Luna is diagnosed with Complex PTSD (C_PTSD). Throughout her life she has felt outside of her body and not human. After seeking help Luna’s therapist explained that this is known as derealization and sometimes occurs in people who have faced trauma. Luna is now ready to share her story with the world but fears many won’t believe her.
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[@maggiepanning356]

“Sometimes I need people to not let me push them away.” We all need to hear these words. Whether we are friends, or parents or siblings or teachers, etc., so many people push people away (for various reasons) even though that is 100% not what they actually want.

[@Retrofire-47]

i relate to this hardcore A lifetime of experience, actually... i'd probably be a very different person if i was afforded this by my parents or family. I will try to remember that when i have children, if i have children :)

[@mrsmjj81]

The part about feeling nostalgic during happy moments.... THAT hit me hard because I do this so much. I relate to so much of her story.... Wow.... Just, wow.

[@bibliotekarin]

Yes, that resonated with me as well. Hearing her say that, and other observations, helped to validate what I have been experiencing for much of my life.

[@existentialcrisis8321]

Yep. I get what she's saying, even when I understand that it's hard to put into words. That nostalgic, longing, bittersweet melancholic feeling that you get when you experiencing a happy moment is something I feel frequently, because I know how fleeting the happiness is. It's hard not to think about how fleeting it is when you don't get to experience that happiness very often in any genuine sense.

[@edward5247]

my therapyst just told me i have cptsd and i'm discovering people with my SAME experiences... that is awesome

[@heidiswimmer6759]

@@edward5247 Same here!

[@isimonsez]

That’s tragic. Must suck that even in happiness you can’t truly enjoy it

[@storydates]

"Fawning" is such a difficult symptom to deal with. In my experience people who don't understand will use it to victim blame--to wonder why someone "puts up" with behavior, or why they didn't turn someone in or tell them off. When you experience trauma as a young child, you are completely dependent and you just don't have control over your life, so fighting doesn't do much good, whereas people pleasing can be a means of survival. I've had people say "why didn't she report X Y Z or tell anyone what was going on" when older people in my life were abusive, even though I was a child, and how do you explain that to someone? I was dependent on the various adults around me, and I coped by people pleasing.

[@Holy-Rowlo88]

Older people seem to not be as accountable as we youngsters

[@Peanuts76]

same

[@bunnygirl2448]

Same. You feel like you can’t tell people what you are struggling with, or your situation, because they eventually start asking questions like “if it’s so bad, why don’t you leave” So you stop telling people. It keeps you from making any kind of meaningful connections to others or friendships, because you have to hide what you feel or are dealing with

[@belindamoore3518]

Yeah this resonated with me......

[@LaylaMuse]

I also fawned all my life and it ruined my life. :(

[@britrowland6148]

I just want this girl to know she isn't alone. I relate to every word she said and thought it was really brave to explain and express all these things that so many of us don't have words for. Thank you. I'm walking this road too. You're not alone.

[@isabella4450]

For me, dissociation is like being on autopilot. I had it alot in school and just relied on my muscle memory to get my from class to class. I often went to the wrong class or lunch and not even notice for a minute or two.

[@balllord3546]

same and zoning out extremely easily

[@marycrowley1442]

I have drove to places and then got a ride home or walked home forgetting that I drove there. Then I would have to walk back to my car. I would not let my family know because I would be criticized. I have experienced being “spaced out” a lot.

[@psychicstylist]

Omg when she talks about that “space” that no person or thing can fill, I totally felt that. The world just feels… empty

[@hannagrace55]

Invite Jesus into this space and you will experience His presence right there ❤

[@enuffsnuff]

This is great to see. Psychiatry and Clinical Psychology have been grotesquely AWOL for decades regarding dissociation/Dp/Dr. I’ve spent decades in these states and was repeatedly told by irritated clinicians that I merely had “OCD” because I kept trying to explain what she’s talking about. I call Dp/Dr “zero person perspective”, to distinguish it from 1st, 2nd, and 3rd. It’s psychological devastation and it’s totally invisible and incomprehensible to people who haven’t experienced it.

[@marcydarcie5884]

Same!!! I was told I was 'overthinking' and sent away. Turns out I've been experiencing secondary structural dissociation and C-Ptsd and just couldn't explain properly because, of the dissociation. It's been nearly 10 years since that nurse told me that and I'm only now just getting therapy for it

[@JamieHitt]

Receiving an accurate diagnosis can be a double edged sword. You research it, you learn about it, you study it. And in the process, you are learning about yourself. The problem is, this process can lead to acknowledging this illness as being a new major part of your identity. And that can backfire by setting it in concrete rather than walking a path toward recovery. Because it feels like you’re walking away from your identity. A part of you that you just learned about,… And you are being asked to give it up.

[@chrisreeves4110]

Very well said Jamie. I recently received a double diagnosis at 31 after having a reasonably successful working life and now i struggle to go to the shops. Having already been that person for so long it's hard to change to make things better for youself.

[@oohily]

Oh wow. You’re describing me and my diagnosis with BPD perfectly.

[@jshillkiller2262]

Yeah man for real! Not that ignorance is bliss but struggling and then realising looking back how ingrained it is and then looking forward can be harrowing..great comment

[@theemeraldking6180]

This is exactly where I'm at with my handling of it. I honestly felt like I had to end a few relationships because I didn't like how my past self treated them due to the truama. I now feel like I have to teach myself new words or the real definitions of words because I felt like the way I used them before was manipulative. So I completely agree with this comment.

[@CheezhOfficial]

You just said something so smart!

[@GothClassics]

I've been crying through this whole video because I can feel the pain in Lunas voice and I recognize how hard it is to maintain relationships with people. I've been diagnosed with CPTSD and i experience Depersonalization from time to time. It is so hard to explain what it feels like but imagine living in a very vivid dream and seeing yourself from the outside. You are so strong Luna. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@simonastolpner]

I have been experiencing dissociation a lot lately. I feel like I am floating above myself and watching myself go through life.

[@loremipsum54321]

I think this is what I'm going through.

[@ariasvixen]

i have been diagnosed with psychosis and that is the exact feeling i have. i call it “floating” like i’m not there but going through the motions

[@dookybooty-oz8dl]

i envy how easy she’s able to express the way the unwritten feels. i have gotten ptsd diagnosis recently and this is so beneficial to hear someone put words to the feelings I’m finding everyday. Sometimes it’s good to remember I’m not the only mentally ill person when I feels like I’m the sole one lol.

[@xlovingxxlifex]

Wow. What an intelligent, beautiful woman. I relate to every word she spoke. Derealization is so so hard to describe. Luna you have done such an incredible job of putting words to this confusing, painful experience. You are so well-spoken and just radiant. I hope you have found since this interview that you are in no way alone. It’s very lonely but you are not alone. There are many, many people who see the world through this lens. Thank you for sharing your story and for being a role model for others who are struggling. I took some helpful tips from you and you’ve given me some strength today to keep going.

[@rachellaird6667]

You may not believe this bit you're beautiful

[@blackalchemy222]

Only 4 mintues in and already crying because everything you’re saying resonates so strongly. I’ve recently been diagnosed and it’s been affecting everything. Ability to keep jobs, go outside, do simple tasks. It’s so alienating but I’m grateful for finding this video. There’s so many words to describe what we’re all experiencing but you put it beautifully

[@rosepainting1]

I’ve been in counseling since 1997 for CPTSD , major depression recurrent and anxiety. I really don’t know anyone who has similar diagnosis. It was very good to hear you put things into words that I have felt.

[@philerbuni]

I just wanted to thank her for sharing her story. I'm not even half way through and im sobbing. I was diagnosed with complex ptsd almost a year ago. She is completely validating my feelings down to a T. The part about "fawning" set a light bulb off in my head. Thank you with all my heart.

[@hannahhakes542]

I’m really glad that her dogs are able to help her become present. That they can bring her back to reality, and stay close to her whenever she feels like she is trapped inside of herself. I remember experiencing those feelings of derealization and depersonalization when I was at the height of my depression. They were horrible. I’m glad that she has a good therapist who can help her come up with good coping mechanisms.

[@CuriousCatAtHome]

My dog is my lifeline.

[@slimey143]

my cat helps keep me present too :-) animals are truly a blessing

[@reisilva2940]

I've watched lots of sbsk videos and this is the one I identified the most. Such a touching story. Thank you Luna

[@pamdaniels8243]

I relate- I had derealization occasionally all my life and just now learned it’s a thing. I thought it was just me and ignored it. Thanks for the video- wow- I learned something new about myself! You’re not alone!

[@heysaucemikehere1804]

I came down to say the same thing! As for helping with CPTSD symptoms, as mentioned in the video, grounding techniques have helped me so so much. You should check them out and/or talk to your psychiatrist/therapist about them if you haven’t tried it!

[@rong2912]

Same

[@thatruthrebelution]

Same. I like how she said she found out her illness has a name. This explains a lot for me.

[@amandaslaven4574]

Yep. Same here. I have someone like Luna does who has changed my life. But I understand so much of this

[@bluejetlightning8427]

She is intensely intelligent and sometimes I think that is a big factor in the life of someone with mental health issues. The constant thoughts trickling out of control, even the actions to take to get to those thoughts can be detrimental in the end.

[@nicolenunes3739]

The last part of your sentence doesn't make sense. The actions it took to get to those thoughts? Thoughts don't need actions..they are just thoughts...and can happen without action...it is the actions that can come from those thoughts that can be detrimental

[@mel-tooqueertokaren]

Me, too, how can we all be friends?

[@mel-tooqueertokaren]

@@nicolenunes3739 I'm really confused right now but I think may the actions taken, steps needed to try to reach a different feeling in a certain moment?

[@zeldan64fan50]

I’m so happy comments are back.. I’ve been wanting to comment on this video for some time now.. I really feel for Luna and anyone else that’s going through this. DPDR is something that I know very well. I want to assure others that they are NOT alone. I’m really proud of all who are still pushing on through this and continuing to live, even when you don’t feel “alive”. I appreciate you. 😊

[@lpotato2654]

Very glad to know that other ppl are out there with cptsd also trying to live the lives they deserve - always reassuring. ❤️❤️❤️

[@laurenambrico5461]

😭😭😭 I can relate so much. The worst is when loved ones don't understand. When you have CPTSD and/or ADHD and/or Depression/Anxiety etc, they see your struggle to do "the things" to pretend to be "neurotypical" or any failure in your performance as laziness... or carelessness... when it couldn't be more far from the truth. I wish people could understand. It is incredibly isolating. I'm grateful that Jesus doesn't see me the way they do. His Love, and my children are the only things on this earth that carry me through.

[@helengalligan9590]

Hugs, I relate too. I wonder if there is an online support group or something. Maybe we should start something? I tried to send you a message but not sure youtube offers that, so I followed your channel.

[@chrisrose375]

As I read your comment I started wondering if i had written it & forgot.....all that to say I relate and even though i dont know you, knowing you get it gives me such a sense of relief. Too many important people in my life believe im making excuses.....sometimes I start wondering if I am.

[@jik3905]

@@Amber4 there are Christian support groups i have heard if my sister if you would like to know about them❤️

[@jik3905]

@@Amber4 ik it sounds funny but there is some on discord and ive heard some on Facebook

[@jik3905]

@@Amber4 im in a sever called alivebecausehedied but its with younger people but there is another called The lighthouse that i reach out to for you❤️(if you would like ofc)

[@valeriej291]

Virtual hugs for Luna. She seems like a sweet soul. So sorry she had so much trauma. I hope she knows her life is valuable and she is worthy. I hope she feels better and better each day.

[@danijeljovic2270]

I wanted to ask SBSK if they have something on this topic but this video poped up. So depersonalisation or derealisation is something I started feeling too after a series of depression episodes in my life. Last time it got worse and got caused by a drug use. So I'm now stuck in this state of being "high" all the time and perceiving reality differently. Once a week I go to therapist and I'm taking antidepresant, antipsychotic and some medicine for relaxing my nerves. I'm from Serbia and saying hello to everybody and I'm liking this channel more and more.

[@agirlalone5720]

I’ve been desperate to find someone who understood since diagnosed. I’m so grateful for you to share your story rawly. Thank you.

[@victoriatorres6056]

Hello ❤️ just here to say that I admire her a lot, I deal with C- PTSD and similar symptoms as disrealization and depersonalization, and Dissociative amnesia, seeing people like her gives me motivation to keep it up ! Thanks for this kind of videos, sometimes when you have a mental illness ( specially if you don't have an specialized therapist) we feel really misunderstood and lost, but now I know that I am not alone anymore. ( Sorry for my bad English ) ❤️

[@yarr0]

Your English is perfectly fine! Nothing bad about it!

[@ayeshaameermaliha]

Could you continue your studies?:(

[@victoriatorres6056]

@@ayeshaameermaliha yes! but sometimes I got triggered for something ( when something reminds me of the traumatic experience, in my case my trauma is related to men ), sometimes I get frustrated, but I'm doing my best...

[@fortyoddyears5295]

So I knew I had CPTSD but just learning that dissociation comes with it and it’s such a relief to define the rest of that! I never knew! My psychiatrist and therapists never explained it to me. Thank you for sharing. Glad you have pets and a friend.

[@cuttlefishagain]

"Like maybe my brain is trying to give me a break from feeling so intensely".... yes that's EXACTLY it!! Worded so well. I related to a lot in this video, maybe more than any others on this channel. My childhood caregiver was the opposite though, the harassment would only cease if I would give in to their baiting and fight back. So that primed me to always be defensive and ready to fight, which is not good either. But yeah, the depression, the dissociative states.....pushing people away, only feeling like a burden, wanting to connect yet afraid to. One thing that I'll say as far as perspective. While there's truth to the fact that the good times are fleeting, in reality the bad times are fleeting, too. All things are fleeting. So just because one good thing goes, doesn't mean there'll never be another. And if a bad time feels endless, it'll pass too. Won't be the last time, but, lol. It's not like only the good times are fleeting, the bad times are too. And they both come and go. Anyway, hang in there, I relate to so much of that. Including having the pets that ground me and keep me going because they rely on me (and it's not their fault if I'm depressed, they still need to be fed/cared for) so it keeps me going.

[@Whitewolf-xx6qu]

I have depression, anxiety, adhd and ptsd. I really connect with most of what she explains. She is so lucky to have that person as a friend. I really need that closeness and love. It is super difficult living with these mental illnesses. Take care all 🤗

[@naynay7220]

She is wonderful ❤ I've been told so many times I'm being dramatic with my feelings.. some people just do not understand that low feeling.. 😕

[@OrriG]

When I dissociate I feel like I can't get back into my body, I try to shake my head but it doesn't help me snap out of it anymore. My boyfriend will ask me questions and I just give 1 word answers and I just stare off. He asks what I'm thinking about but I don't know. Nothing and also everything?

[@jessicanordstrom8816]

Same here, I have cptsd and I just can’t get out of it

[@sjb5169]

Has this caused you to go through worries that you may have parkinsons or a neurological condition? Because I've been experiencing this too and sometimes it feels as if I can't express emotions I'll just stare at a wall and completely zone out, I feel very lethargic and drained? Would you say you feel like that ever? I'm just now seeing a doctor about all this stuff. And only just recently found out about this. And trying to get to the bottom of it.

[@yolopokecarp4408]

like your brain feels so full but also so completely empty at the same time

[@OrriG]

@@yolopokecarp4408 yes!

[@Ale-uf7id]

@@yolopokecarp4408 yes! So perfectly described

[@bakielh229]

I've never wanted to reach out and give someone a hug more than I did watching this and hearing about her experience and what she had to go through. You're a beautiful sensitive human being, you have all my love and support

[@carmiecat]

I've watched this particular video so many times, as I feel I identify with Luna a lot. And every time I watch it, I wish I could give her a hug and let her know she is amazing. I hope she sees all the lovely comments here.

[@lucianaandrade6628]

I have never heard such an exact description of what CPTSD does to us. Thank you, Luna! I hope you are doing well

[@bucketfriend297]

Hi Luna! My wife and I are both ARMY with CTPSD (among many other physical and mental health challenges). I like your Chimmy pillow. :D

[@miapdx503]

I'm diagnosed with complex ptsd, complex trauma, depression and anxiety disorders. I so appreciate that you made this video. You gave voice eloquently. I noticed that this interview was in your room. That's where I'm most comfortable, where I am as I write this. I also have agoraphobia. And a small dog. 😏

[@Rabbitique58]

Luna does such a great job of explaining her feelings. I wish she could know (I hope she does) that she’s not alone in her feelings and that she still a likable person. I found her very likable, insightful and a very deep thinker. She really has a lot to give and I hope she finds a niche where she can do that because I sense that would make her very happy and fulfilled. ❤

[@karenfitzpatrick6256]

Wow. She just put into words what I've never been able to say. Thank you Luna ❤️

[@krrowthemyuii]

Other than the physical violence she experienced, I relate to everything else she said; the parts about depression (the black hole/ space), anxiety, C-PTSD, dissociation, derealization/ depersonalization. I know what she's talking about because I've experienced all of those symptoms and feelings, too. I've experienced a lot of traumas from medical/ dental, to almost drowning, to bullying, emotional abuse/ neglect, psychological/ verbal abuse, various losses, chronic illness, etc. I've been through a lot of therapy but I still feel as if progress is very, very slow and I wonder if I'll ever truly heal from all of this.

[@Necrophon]

I was only recently diagnosed with Complex PTSD, I've been experiencing depression and O.C.D. for most of my life but learning about CPTSD, I feel like I'm finally starting to understand more about how I work, why I do certain things. When Luna spoke of "fawning" and explained her reasoning for it something "clicked" for me. I do the same thing as she does. I too worry about being a burden on my spouse and son. I often wonder if their lives would be better if I were not holding them down. To hear Luna express the same feelings helps me to feel a little more "normal". Or at least, not alone in how I'm experiencing things. God bless you Luna, you will be in my prayers.

[@kayla72714]

It almost seems as though Luna is telling my story. I hear you girl, and I'm right in that trench with you. The out of body experiences and everything you experience I also experience. If you ever want to talk reach out to talk let me know. I appreciate your honesty and just know that you telling your story is helping people!

[@retrohillzone1267]

Can't express how much this video means to me. I've experienced DPDR for about 18 years now, and it's a constant fight to keep myself grounded. Hope you talk to more people with DPDR.

[@YugeYun]

I relate to every word she said and it feels such a relief to me to realize I'm not alone. I've been diagnosed only with depression for 5 years and my progress has been slow. My friend who had PTSD realized I might have C-PTSD and now I've told about it to my psychiatrist and seems like I'm getting the diagnosis finally. I'm a little mad that it took this long for it to happen because none of my caretakers were trauma informed.

[@katrinat.3032]

I’m glad I watched this. I have a close friend with c ptsd. But she barely ever talks about it. This helps me to understand

[@kaidevaleria2531]

I have CPTSD, Autism, anxiety and depression. My two dogs are literally my life line. My ESD Diesel changed my life and gave me control over my overstimulation

[@BrokeTheInterweb]

This is so relatable. You just hope every day you’ll wake up and the episode will be over. Thank you for talking about this, Luna.

[@sarar941]

Wow- so many people feel how Luna does. I hope she knows she is not alone.

[@thevloggingdweeb3558]

This is really inspiring and she’s so strong. I’m obsessed with the way she talks with her hands.

[@richardlitchfield1387]

I was going to comment on this. There is such a raw sincerity to her and I find she almost has this sort of "unintentional charisma". I got more from this one video than I have from the dozens of clinical professional clips.

[@theemeraldking6180]

I love this video so much. For a long time I felt I was alone with how I think, and how I dealt with things. But watching this videos, I kept catching myself finishing her sentences. I strongly believe that people with complex ptsd are highly intelligent people. The way our mind process, tend to think for the greater good at the expense of us. Which I feel like as a child it was easier because we was told our responsibilities but now that we are adults, picking and choosing our responsibilities and relationships, we find it hard to give in fully because we was taught one way and unfortunately it work! I'm at the point now in my healing where I feel like I need to start all the way over. Even thinking about changing my name. This video really help me, and I hope it's does with other that have this problem.

[@joemama.9770]

I feel that weight on my chest every day all day I 32 now and I’ve never opened up about it or my depression or anxiety because I feel like people will think the same oh she just wants attention or someone to feel sorry for her … and in reality that’s the last th8ng I want … that’s exactly why I don’t talk about my issues with anyone …. I can completely relate to her though on so many levels. It’s good she has a good friend to lean on!! I’ve always pushed people away even when I didn’t want them to leave because I don’t wanna put them through anything Or ever hurt them or burden them. If u have good friend they will stay no matter how many times u try to push them away it seems like that’s her friend even when she has tried.

[@leitasi2896]

This lovely lady is so brave. I hope she knows that her sharing her experience really helps people with PTSD and also helps family and friends to understand. Blessings

[@Spooknie]

I am so glad the comments are back! For the longest time I've wanted to thank SBSK for this video and thank Luna for bringing awareness to these topics. This video has truly saved me, more than once. I am so appreciative of the work you do and the people who courageously share these details about their life Thank you

[@jshillkiller2262]

Thankyou for putting cptsd in the spotlight..i teared up hard relating..we are the most damaged and yet beautiful people alive imho

[@victoriajeanleslie3116]

This is so close my my experience. I have a bunch of diagnosis, anxiety, depression, c-ptsd, high functioning asd, and an autoimmune disease with a host of further complications its caused and still the hardest thing to live with is derealisation and dissociation. It took years of therapy and medication and I'm finally in a better place but stressors can still trigger it *hugs*

[@sefa4722]

What are your autistic traits?

[@melissaaldosari8024]

This was very helpful for me. Thank you for putting yourself out there and doing this interview! We are not alone!

[@dollyandsandy]

I can't tell you how much this interview means to me. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

[@bruschettagal3437]

I as well struggle with cptsd and chronic derealization.. it feels very lonely. So hearing about other that struggle with the same stuff as I do, helps me feel less alone.. thank u

[@lovelyella]

I believe her… I’m living it… so relate to this, I was answering a lot of the questions the same in my head before she did thanks for the courage to share

[@Kyushu111]

That hits very close to home. You are very brave person to speak so honestly about what you are going through. Trauma is a devious beast and it is good to see people discussing trauma openly. I wish you all the friendship and acceptance in the world.

[@xKevmachinex]

She already seems very inteligent and has great communcation skills, all this while she is struggling internally! pretty amazing if you ask me! imagine when she finally, I don't wanna say fixes her promblems, but finds a solution that helps her grow and conqure her issues she will be a force to recon with.

[@yarr0]

I relate to your story so much, Luna. Please know you are absolutely NOT alone 💕💕

[@CuriousCatAtHome]

My dog and cats are my lifeline, most days. After really bad days and/or a lot of stressful and -ridden days, I go into what I call "hibernation". Mentally and physically removing myself from interactions and actions, really. For days or weeks. You aren't alone. It's corny but I always remind myself that "it's temporary". For better or worse. It'll always change and that's the only thing I can rely on. Change.

[@arlettineharpy86]

I am so glad there is a video about my diagnose!

[@VyvienneEaux]

She was so educated about this and so articulate.

[@yootoob1001001]

Many thanks to Luna for sharing her story.

[@annasanders8401]

Someone I love very much has these same diagnoses. Spravato treatments have helped them so much. Praying for you, Luna ❤️

[@delaneyfayce]

Thank you Luna for being so vulnerable and sharing your challenges with us

[@bairsbeets]

This video makes me feel so validated. She is explaining so much of what I also experience.

[@ludovicaiorio3269]

Luna, you are an amazing warrior! Thank you for sharing a piece of your story with us. Since I'm an ARMY too, I couldn't help but smile seeing your T-shirts and Chimmy pillow, and that BTS was the first link between you and your dear friend. As BTS say in Mikrokosmos: "Don't disappear, 'cause you're a big existence". Take care, sending my good vibes from Italy :) Fighting!

[@fighttheevilrobots3417]

Luna, thank you for being so brave and vulnerable. I can't tell you how much I appreciated this.

[@4estdweller4ever]

You’ve done an excellent job explaining your feelings and how cptsd affects you. I have it too and your explanation could help so many people. I think of myself as “shattered” into a million pieces and most of my energy goes to crawling around trying to pick up pieces and fit them together again. Yes, it’s so hard when people don’t have the patience to stick with you when you’re struggling. That’s probably the biggest question you have about real friends. Will you abandon me when I’m struggling. So many do. I loved how well you expressed yourself and your clear explanations. Thank you, fellow soldier.

[@coltcobain0090]

I’m dealing with many different mental health diagnoses and I’m also in the process of being diagnosed for a multitude of physical/neurological disorders. I’m just getting help @27 years old and rely heavily on these videos to help me navigate through this process. So I’ll forever be eternally grateful for SBSK and the ppl they interview. I NEED THIS. GOD BLESS EVERYONE INVOLVED.❤️❤️🤟💯open to tips or general advice. Thanks 😊

[@kalinabozhkova5655]

Omg I’m not able to enjoy happy moments sometimes because I go somewhere and by the time I’m back it’s over Like it’s so intense and important to experience this and I’m so sad that it will be over that I miss actually enjoying it Also what you said feeling like a ghost, doing the motions but not really being there I get like that when something is too intense. After my husband exploding and having an argument for example it takes me a few days to land back on the ground. I can’t even concentrate to read a book to our child than…. It feels so helpless like waiting for it to pass and not being able to do anything

[@snesable]

described depression so well, amazing

[@deathritual4009]

I live with this every single day. It can feel like every aspect of life is bizarre and unable to experience life.

[@sara-rc2hr]

I came here after the comments were switched on. I feel like a brat I hope I am not. I get anxious and sad so it is hard. More than anything me cancelling things or not doing anything is a way to protect myself. But I am working on it now.

[@Scilla-be5hr]

Thank you, i love her. Im so thankful for everything she said. 💜😑

[@gabrielledepalo1082]

Hi Luna. I just wanted to tell you that every word you said, it felt like it was coming from me. You're definitely not alone and thank you for helping remind us of the same!

[@tanqdacheva]

Girl, I feel that I can relate to every single word that you said. You'r not alone! And thank you for reminding me that I'm not alone too and somebody's feeling like me.

[@kellizee1363]

I just saw your video today and appreciate your courage to share. Many of the feelings you shared are relatable and you did a very good job of articulating what it's like to experience the world as you (and many others) do. I hope you are doing well.

[@Scottrose3]

Great interview! Great questions and great answers. Yes this is what living with this affliction is like.

[@shadia2000]

She just helped me so much by describing what I'm going through right now inside. It was hard to even believe myself and I struggled with even being "here" and I wanted to be, I wasn't choosing not to be, but it happens daily.

[@rowenaringer6727]

Thank you for sharing. Wishing you all the best. You are not alone.

[@kaitlincox9714]

I completely understand everything you describe. I wish I had a friend to talk to about what's going on but I don't feel safe enough to do so. When you've opened up and they took every vulnerability you have and use it against you, it's almost more traumatizing.

[@Ale-uf7id]

Thank you so much Luna. I love your interview and I can relate to it a lot. It has helped me and I sometime link it to my friend, when I tried to explain what it feels like, but it’s too hard by my own words.

[@LizaPersson]

I believe it! I live with what Luna puts into words far better than I can.

[@Blindsyde5762]

Thank you for sharing I feel so much of what you are explaining, but you're explaining much better than I feel like I ever could.

[@sarahdermody6665]

What a wonderful woman you are! Thank you for sharing your story, it's so helpful that you've put some of my reality my feelings into words xx

[@CarolynZaikowski]

She is amazing. Thank you for this, Luna.

[@lilin5716]

Saving this forever. This really made me feel seen, and I'm always going to send this to people when they ask how to understand this thing I'm struggling with

[@jiminiediminie7292]

Thank you Luna for sharing your experience and raising awareness 💜 you're such a strong human being. and I love your shirt and chimmy pillow! Sending so much love and support to my fellow ARMY~

[@cazza6113]

Love your interview!! 👋 Hey friend; you are incredible. So patient the way you explain.

[@nicolawillson]

Thank you so much for sharing. Someone I love also has these diagnoses and some others. You explained it really well. I wish you the best in life.

[@sable4492]

This is one diagnosis i have that I struggle with alot and it hurts so so much. I'm so glad you make videos with people I understand and it helps others learn about us. And they get to learn without skewed info. It's info from actual people with the diagnosis.

[@politicafem]

I really, really felt the quote "I'm not being melodramatic, I feel like I'm drowning and can't breathe". I feel this deeply, and have always had my family tell me I was being melodramatic. Thanks for this video ♡

[@liesjelualockse6377]

You ARE a trooper, I... have been there. The CPTSD ánd the black hole .. to step out with all of this tremendously couragious. I really really really hope you give yourself that. And secondly, I hope you got good reactions. Health and happiness to you and your dogs lady

[@mega_bega390]

Thank you so much, i have identified with this video more than any videos or podcasts. 🙏

[@alittlebitnat]

She sounds lovely. Makes me realise how many walls and parts I have protecting myself from even being seen like that. But she is me. I’m comforted seeing how I function in someone else. I can never find the right words to explain how I feel and when I do it’s told to the wrong people who don’t get it.

[@rekaberegi2511]

I learned so much about myself today, thank you for this video!

[@znowicotton5176]

Thank you for being open about this. There are others like you. We are out here ❤️

[@barbaralamoreaux328]

Thank you for sharing your story. Hearing you describe how you feel helps me understand my loved one who has depression better so that I can be better and more helpful and supportive. You are an amazing and brave person, Luna.