Strangers Read People's Darkest Fantasies

[@MIA_MlA]

remember you are NOT your intrusive thoughts and/or dreams. if u know they dont represent who u truly sre and what u believe in, dont worry ab it too much.

[@Pedro.Soares]

Who are you if not your inner thoughts and dreams tho? Let's be real

[@notnotapipe496]

Pedro Soares intrusive thoughts should not be taken seriously, you have millions of thoughts floating around everyday, but you don’t have to act upon every thought

[@lukeklo]

Thanks

[@Christinacw19]

Pedro Soares you’re your soul, just existing in the universe. Your mind creates a whole world of who you perceive yourself and others as but we forget that we’re all parts of the universe in different forms and have the same thing at the core, those are just mine and some others beliefs

[@abhi-wi2mj]

@@Pedro.Soares true... I wonder about it too

[@neromh]

The person who fantasized about having cancer so their mother could hug them... that’s horrible :(

[@imlost3708]

It’s horrible but it’s so relatable 😞 I haven’t hugged my mother in about 5 years now and I know people who have parents that consider their existence a burden. Very sad

[@AxxLAfriku]

HOLY HOLY!!! I can proudly say that I have the two HOTTEST women on this planet as MY GIRLFRIENDS! I am the unprettiest KZbinr ever, but they love me for what's inside! Thanks for listening alex

[@neromh]

Art Space I’m so sorry about that 😔

[@stellabella3490]

@@AxxLAfriku Du hier! Omg hahah

[@CrqazyIWasCrazyOnce]

I fantasize about my mom loving me-

[@rosemaryngugi6328]

Pillows don't get the credit they deserve. They are literally a shoulder to lean on.

[@tierk4328]

Pillows really go through a lot. Imagine if they could talk.

[@trashcant6499]

Stuffed animals too, my Hegde hog plushie has seen some stuff

[@liinliin7128]

I literally talk to a teddy bear and I call her Bearnetta. Yeah... and I’m 20 mind you...

[@Helinat]

I literally bought a pillow during covid-19 so that I can feel comforted

[@marleyteee9617]

They’re also your first kiss...

[@lionaroseberg1568]

i fantasize about having a serious illness just so someone could see how much i struggle internally...

[@eliza91d]

girl r u alright?

[@No-jc8dx]

I've been there...

[@missak1365]

Relatable

[@gee1917]

Honestly I wish I couldn’t relate ...

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

Sorry

[@taeheerose6511]

I fantasize about things like death, rape, loss and grief too. I understand where she's coming from. The desir to be seem, to be watched and cared about. Having "real" reasons for our pain instead of "weak" one. It's relatable in so many level, and the guilt that comes after that eat you because you feel like you're a bad person for ever thinking that way.

[@luvbug1237]

Is there like a Meaning behind those fantasies you’ve mentioned cause I well have this fantasy

[@sedra4237]

same here, i always fantasize about these things, i can only fall asleep if i think about things like that, i do feel bad tho bc there are people out there who really have suffered / suffer from these things but i j cant stop these thoughts

[@taeheerose6511]

@@luvbug1237 Hm, in my opinion, it's because we almost always lessen our experiences, our pains. We put sort of degrees to it, and when we think it's not enough, it hurt us ever more. Because why would people care if that problems in not as important as someone who has been raped, or lost a family member? So we fantasize about loss and death and all of those stuffs. But most importantly we fantasize the reaction, the idea that if we go through those sort of pain then our pain will finally matters otherwise it won't, it doesn't. But, the trick is to understand that we do not need to go though experience as these one, after all if people didn't care of your pain before that, for the pain that we degree as "weak" then why are they even on my life? Because they are not such pain that is more acceptable than anothers.

[@kaylarukab5073]

me too

[@maddiedrummond5712]

I always think about these as something to fall asleep too, I thought i was crazy or a bad person for thinking these things.

[@sinchanagowda3143]

Every day for about 3-4hrs, I fantasize about living a life that I wish I had. I wish I could stop but I just can't, it makes me very happy living in that world.

[@twilightsparkle3073]

Ahh me too eyy . Everyday. Gosh it's so perfect in that world

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

Sameeee

[@R1dhaa]

That's the perfect world. I wish I could stop fantasizing.

[@grim5s895]

your comment is already 2 months old but i want to ask you if you have ever heard of maladaptive daydreaming maybe you can identify with this i do this myself as well and i think i have finally found a name for it

[@sinchanagowda3143]

@@grim5s895 Wow. I did read and research about it. It seems pretty interesting. Looks like a symptom of OCDs

[@evelyncortus1274]

This just gave me the words to describe how I was feeling 6 years ago. I wasn’t suicidal, I fantasized about being dead to see how others may have reacted to it.

[@theobnoxiousgamer9624]

I think about that too, but then I realize I’ll never know if I’m dead.

[@Noneyo222]

Me too. I sometimes fantasize that I’ll go out saving someone else just to know I did something with my life and that I made an impact.

[@shijutu]

I don't know if I am suicidal because I am way too scared to do it but if I could chose I'd choose death over life to end it this constant pain, I feel this. I am pretty much depressed. Ever since I was 7 I've been thinking of what people will do if I die. Will people finally care? Will people finally love me? Will I finally be appreciated? Last year and the beginning of this year, every single day when I was going home I would always think about me dying young and imagining people's reactions. I still imagine me dying every single day but not to that extended.

[@twilightsparkle3073]

@@shijutu same here . Dont worry you're not alone. All I can say is try to make your life better .. it will be hard to stop thinking about death but we have to be strong

[@kaylgp]

same here, i just want someone to realize how hurt i actually am

[@rosemaryngugi6328]

That person who talks to the pillow just reminded me of the quote “It was a hot sunny day, but the pillow could predict it will rain at night.”

[@commander1suv492]

Where is that quote from. It would be cool to sample if it was recorded.

[@abs.11.11]

Commander1SUV it’s by saumya sinha:)

[@identity2257]

@Uri Leppard no one cares kid

[@hobos7491]

gus V So what if nobody cares? Not everyone just comments for attention

[@Floaty8008]

@@identity2257 hey just because you don't get the quote it doesnt mean you have to act like an ass

[@marleyteee9617]

To the person who thinks about hurting people... Although your thoughts are terrifying, the fact that you’re concerned and afraid of hurting people, shows that you’re experiencing normal and rational emotions. This is your silver lining, my friend... You’re still a normal and sound minded person. I know it may feel as though you can’t reach out for help, but scheduling an appointment would probably require just as much courage as it took for you to send in your confession. I wish only the best for you.

[@Svddvze]

Right I get the same feelings my therapist told me that it’s because you’re afraid of doing those things

[@isabellapalacio4631]

Yes or he could just be curious. Like a part of us all want to be the Disney villain for a day until we remember that hurting anything sentient intentionally is morally wrong in all ways - compassion and empathy aswell as basic morals is deep rooted in our subconscious just like survival

[@Svddvze]

un known me too I almost killed myself because I was afraid of hurting my nephew

[@marleyteee9617]

We just have to remember that our thoughts don’t define us, but our actions will.

[@genesisseyer7730]

that type of thinking is definitely not normal nor rational. but i agree with everything else you said :)

[@MNJGaGa]

Who else hates having a secret that can absolutely destroy them??

[@shapeshiftinq]

@@RealRad10 you are literally replying to everyone, get a life lmao

[@thewarhammerguy5995]

Rocky Rider why tear someone down there’s no need for that

[@RealRad10]

Clerique Ward is it illegal??

[@RealRad10]

The Warhammer Guy explain how that is tearing someone down lmao calm down mate

[@hannahvincent7119]

Rocky Rider Its a comment section nobody needs your permission babygirl

[@_autobiographer]

My knee jerk reaction was to say “these are maddd,” but after taking a step back, most of these are relatable on some scale. People either want help, want to help, or want to feel loved.

[@afm4075]

Miguel Hernandez I’ve seen you reply with these same insensitive sentiments on multiple comments now but saying they need a “violent reality check” really takes the cake. I hope that you find peace within yourself, stop going out of your way to attack others and make better use of your time in the future.

[@annaairahala9462]

The talking to pillows felt so relatable even though I haven't done the exact same thing. I feel as if I've had the same feelings eat away at me

[@zwebackshyper9307]

relatable? these are weird and disturbing af if this is the kind of stuff you relate to you need help as well

[@annaairahala9462]

@@zwebackshyper9307 half of these are literally the result of having no one to love or who shows love to you. Only a couple are problematic to others. That's why it's relatable to others. Many of these sorts of people do seek help, but that doesn't magically make the right people appear in their lives

[@JL-zo1wd]

zwebackshyper well people can't help how they feel, what matters is that they don't act on their urges

[@torih2619]

So I actually was really surprised when I watched this to find that mine was read out loud. I won’t say which one it was, but hearing these strangers’ responses and even reading some of these comments made me cry and have brought me such comfort. Like this is the kind of stuff you never feel like you can tell people. This kind of discussion is so important. What you guys do is so important.

[@lolokikok3368]

❤❤❤

[@LV-mo6xs]

@@lolokikok3368 I have a hunch for which one it is coz I felt the same way after I heard one

[@endedera9758]

Aye bro you better not be one of those weirdo serial killer ones

[@stephenstephenson790]

@@endedera9758 DUDE I-

[@stephenstephenson790]

@@endedera9758 WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT-

[@danielleperson6541]

"I keep replaying the day i let my kid go to the concert with his friends. I wish I had gone with him I wish I had forced his friends mom to go with him I wish he had never bought the tickets I wish he was not standing in the spot where he was. I wish the shooter was short the moment he was seen with the gun I wish there was no guns sales." This one got me the most. I couldn't imagine going through something like that with one of my siblings or future kids. It's heartbreaking

[@AisforArtemis]

Yeah me too

[@identity2257]

lmao what a snowflake you dont even have kids yet

[@AisforArtemis]

@@identity2257 LMAOO WHY U SO PRESSED- we're allowed too sympathize with the vicim and their parents.. we're allowed too worry about our future children..it doesn't matter if we have kids or not..I really don't know why ur calling us snowflakes

[@identity2257]

@@AisforArtemis no one cares kid

[@AisforArtemis]

@@identity2257 then why did u comment 💀 u obviously care then

[@ifyoureboored]

a random person who likes this will have a massive glowup

[@sacrificiallamb3637]

thank you.

[@J11_boohoo]

Where is it?

[@RealRad10]

If you are bored stop begging for likes ffs

[@0Iive]

I don’t like this comment

[@mysterymfc4758]

I wish having a massive glowup was as easy as pushing the like button:):(

[@dove1554]

Reminder: you don’t need to be sick to be loved. If someone isn’t capable of showing you affection, it’s not your fault.

[@skyza2777]

Thanks for saying this...

[@ilikebrownies5529]

@@skyza2777 i'd hug you if i met you

[@sabrina-pz8dl]

this.

[@savagesalvage9449]

Idk I seem to be the common denominator.

[@nathanielhenriquelazaro3728]

I wish I could believe in that. I feel like I will only be loved when I'm dead.

[@myheartwillstopinjoy8142]

I fantasized about getting in a car accident, being in a coma, becoming paralyzed, becoming seriously ill... I wanted pity, I wanted people to care about me, I wanted to have someone, anyone worry about me.

[@user-youdontknowme]

I care about you random stranger. I hope your scars heal soon.

[@myheartwillstopinjoy8142]

@@user-youdontknowme Thank you, random stranger. It means a lot to me 🥺

[@selmitoons]

i hope that you get better.

[@myheartwillstopinjoy8142]

@@selmitoons thank you 😊 I am taking medication now and it's been helpful so far

[@user-youdontknowme]

@@myheartwillstopinjoy8142 It's probably not the best idea, but imma do say it anyways. I kindof fantasized the same things, I wanted to be in pain, to be sick, so that others would see and care about me. And I got something along the lines of a psychosomatic disorder at a young age. But the thing is, I do suffer, every day, every night, but no one really sees my suffering. They don't understand, and they don't really care either. And you'd probably know, psychosomatic pain is very real, yet it doesn't show even if a doctor checks you. Thus, I got the suffering part, but not the rest of my wish. I may still fantasize that. But what I'm trying to say is, don't wish for suffering, cz you'll definitely get it, but in the worst way possible. And then there will just be more suffering than yesterday. He who does not care about you when you're not suffering wouldn't really care when you're suffering either.

[@Mol-ff3qe]

This video makes me feel better about my secrets. So dark.

[@nicolemoore3600]

Same here 👍🏻🔥✨

[@iCupcakeMelaniex3]

Luck you

[@patricktsai2303]

Same man.

[@Lizzyvallesrodriguez]

For real though 🤣

[@jones2277]

None of these are as dark as Armie Hammer's fantasies.

[@ashiraestrada9114]

I really felt the pillow one. It's hard for me to imagine someone loving me romantically, and it's hard for me to love someone also. My logic is that I can't say I love someone because I can't even say it about myself.

[@SakshiSingh-zf5ls]

Haha🙋‍♀️ Same here 🤣😢🥺 I'm yet trying to love myself and be happy Selflove may help

[@tierk4328]

My philosophy of when going into a relationship is that the person you are with shouldn't make you happy. They should make you happier. Otherwise, you become completely dependent on that person and lose self-worth. Learn to make yourself happy and find worth in yourself. Then you will find the right person.

[@tillygrant8564]

just rember you are loved :)

[@emilie6781]

I feel that. I really feel this.

[@zainabahmed10]

I felt this on a personal level. I swear if this isn't me

[@hanna-tk9bw]

What the dude says at 4:03 is really accurate. I also fantasise about loss, rape, grief etc and it's a really dark secret that I find really hard to talk about since it makes you seem like a crazy person. It really just comes from a place of wanting to be loved and cared for, especially since tragedy is usually the thing that draws care and attention from others. People who fantasise about such scenarios are just lacking and craving love in their real lives.

[@ellacockrum6473]

I’m at also the same way. I didn’t realize other people did this but it’s nice and sad to know I’m not the only one

[@maviyakounain649]

i relate to you . but it's not the same in real world . nobody saves you , you gotta deal with it all your own . it feels as if they will care atleast in my fantasies

[@carlwheezer2808]

i thought i was the only one. when I feel at my most low I do this too

[@ooexo21]

@@maviyakounain649 agreed

[@petscopkid]

@@chikenleg9549 really hits hard for me especially since I have maladaptive daydreaming

[@liekereuvekamp6779]

Turns out that my fantasies aren't that bad

[@rd9526]

Literally nobody asked

[@iliketooffend4424]

Arthi .M.P no one asked for your comment either

[@kiefcam]

Arthi .M.P I asked :)

[@saveen9266]

Arthi .M.P technically no one asked for anything to be said. no one asked for u to say “literally no one asked”. no one needs consent from anyone to say something

[@identity2257]

@@saveen9266 no one asked for your reply kid

[@dee1946]

i fantasize about being in relationship to know what it’s like to be in love bc i know i will never fall in love someone but if i did i know i’ll get bored of them and want to leave them…

[@Sara-hz3fm]

I totally understand.

[@joshuagcwong734]

I told my best friend this EXACT same statement weeks ago. He laughed it off and was trying to cheer me up because I was "on a downer". I wasn't, I still feel that way. Never been in a relationship; but I feel I know myself too well and that feeling of love once I have felt it will bore me to death.

[@esther6664]

22 here and never fell in love... I don't think I'm attractive enough for someone to fall in love with me either and I have a hard time making emotional connection with ppl around me... Like I'll cry watching bambi, but I don't feel anything when my friend tell me her grandma who i met passed away or when my mom friend who I saw very often died. I think something is wrong with me...

[@alexaur3747]

Esther same sometimes i feel like i can't feel anything for anyone. i had a boyfriend for over 2 years and i still don't think i was actually in love cause that "feeling" was so short and not like idk intense? and i feel like i just physically can't feel it and no one can really feel anything for me either and really care for me in a romantic way. and i don't tell it anyone because i know they'll say "oh you're just 20 you'll experience it" but i genuinely feel like i won't and i can't but on the other hand i want it so bad and really need someone to just hug to and to have someone that would actually care about me

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

I getchu

[@0Iive]

Day 6 of asking Jubilee to do a - ‘do all Karen’s think the same?’

[@RealRad10]

Day 5 of me not caring

[@0Iive]

Rocky Rider 😂

[@TMcB23]

Why would people named Karen have anything in common except, perhaps, their generation?

[@shenbapiro9048]

@@TMcB23 they are referring to the Karen personality

[@TMcB23]

Shen Bapiro And how can that be defined?

[@xraye_]

I sometimes fantasize about having a burnout or a mental breakdown just so I don't have to take the step of actually confessing to someone that I'm in pain and struggling with life. But I always manage to rest peacefully with the fact that I could never actually physically harm myself because I still do have some love and care for myself.

[@Belo9606]

This year I had burnout and I was just so tired and I had a bunch of other feelings and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I don’t know what it was but it was horrible I had nightmares I was always stressed and a bunch of other stuff. I tried telling my parents many times but they never really understood that I wasn’t ok because I kind of hid it a little. But one time my brother asked if I was ok and I just started crying a bunch and I started laughing and crying and I couldn’t breath and it was kinda relieving because they could finally actually see that I was struggling with and that I was actually struggling

[@shikhashaw6393]

You know why I don't harm myself? Because I don't have an excuse to give to my mother.

[@ooexo21]

literally same I want people like us to like make a group chat and talk about that sort of stuff Because Im pretty sure therapy doesn’t work

[@mr.platanito3770]

Believe me it's not worth hurting yourself, someone who has been living with self-harm for 9 years tells you this, and surprisingly people don't care about you even if they are physically seeing you're hurting yourself, I say it from my personal experience, I know it's sad, but I never heard someone ask me if I was ok, not even now, So yeah even if people see that you are literally screaming for help they don't do anything. Sorry for my English.

[@lucaamigoni6282]

I'm in a good mood KZbin: i'm gonna end this man all career

[@evanf309]

Idkr i get so depressed watching these I don’t know why I keep watching them 😂😂

[@suhani551]

Ikr man. Same

[@zebracakez2168]

Literally as I’m watching I’m like “do I really feel like being depressed rn?”

[@DeeRayOfSunshine]

Most of these secrets stem from feelings of unworthiness. YOU ARE ENOUGH. You are worth a fight, sacrifice, love and everything else you desire. If the people around you make you feel like your not, get away as soon as possible. Even if it’s your mother. You don’t want those voices to become your own.

[@samuel-ux4gy]

what if ur a kid or teen? dont have as much freedom to get away

[@skyza2777]

Thankyou for saying this...

[@puneetkaur9875]

@@samuel-ux4gy Keep reminding yourself that you're enough. It's tough, I know because I believed in myself when I had no choice except practicing self-love/faith. It's gonna get better. I'm not really far but I'm trying. Same with every individual out there, you don't have to get results immediately but you can always try. You can always make efforts to love and improve yourself. Ofcourse, take professional help if you feel you need to(try your best even if you're under someone's care).

[@samuel-ux4gy]

@@puneetkaur9875🙏🙏🙏

[@LifeisaBeautifulting]

You're pretty

[@sophiawang3798]

I really want to become friends with the guy in the blue shirt and cap

[@petrauhrakova]

I know this is off topic, but you’re so beautiful!

[@fraist1]

read the last word you wrote

[@sophiawang3798]

@@petrauhrakova girl says you

[@expelumos]

jubilee: secret fantasies people with maladaptive daydreaming: honey at this point nothing can surprise me

[@haileyhopkins1252]

SAME omg

[@somewhereinbetween]

facts

[@rbarber]

I never knew what maladaptive dreaming was until I read this comment a month ago. Then I researched it and realised I had it. I have it still but more under control. Thanks.

[@aliza6984]

That was my first thought when I saw the title of the video-- hoping that this will bring more awareness about maladaptive daydreaming.

[@youregonnahatewhatyouvedone]

literally

[@lebean1291]

I fantasise about going to a mental hospital so people can finally see my struggle which I hide so well. I hide it so much, that no one would ever expect what i really think to come from me. I am not myself. But I dont know if I wish I could be my true self?

[@tolka4560]

same...

[@hotshots149]

Why is this relatable?

[@najah1819]

This used to be me. Then I got really mentally ill and actually went to one for 4 months. 0/100 would not recommend, it is overly romanticized and not at all like you probably expect it to be. I still fantasize about it to this day, but like you said, it’s not because you/I actually want to be in one, it’s because we want others to realize how bad we are struggling.

[@maybehere_]

okay but who hasn't fantasised about one of their teachers

[@thegrimsbaby5085]

JoeyIsKing me

[@jatintripathi9030]

@M. Fadli Rabbani yes baby, if you're hot consider being my prof!

[@QuincyIsCrispy]

Most people wouldn't fantasise about people 2x+ their age lol. That said, I do sometimes

[@urbestamericanboy6457]

I haven't

[@xoxosalma6303]

i understand that you cannot control what you fantasise about but I NEVERRRR do that. But I will not judge you because my mind is pretty odd lmao.

[@mamtakhosla6904]

It's sad that I relate to some of them because I fantasize about bad things happening to me so that at least someone would care I'm sorry Just wanted to get it out

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

Nice u did

[@sarahdodd4633]

this is late but same i have fantasies about hurting myself or someone hurting me so that someone would care for me

[@giraffedoesabackflip3564]

​@@sarahdodd4633Me too.

[@karinashirley4236]

I really don’t think I’m suicidal, but sometimes I fantasize about killing myself and leaving behind notes to my siblings about how their harsh treatment affected me. I guess I want them to realize what they’re doing or smth like that…

[@fabplays6559]

Hey... Thinking about suicide or thinking about dying are both suicidal thoughts, even if you have no actual plans. I strongly recommend you reach out to someone, Karina.

[@kdilli6426]

We humans are so much more complex than we will ever understand...

[@fishnchips4241]

This is slightly disturbing but I wont judge

[@ds4933]

Nope I’m judging the first one hard asf

[@CrqazyIWasCrazyOnce]

Tyl Baby So, you are judging me. I didn’t submit the first one btw. Just watched it and found mine-

[@LouisK.]

@@ds4933 I do the first one and I sleep with a knife under my pillow. Go ahead judge me

[@divyak9980]

@@ds4933 Many people have intrusive thoughts, about hurting themselves or others, for some they are more frequent or nagging then others, and for this person the thoughts are obviously unwanted, they are afraid of them. I am worried about the mental state of the person , its very hard to escape your own thoughts. Try not to judge.

[@chickennugget4879]

@@divyak9980 So its obvioylsy somethng that needs to be dealt with...but some of us are unable to blow of steam or let out anger. So the anger begins to build up. When someone makes you mad its hard not to think about rainbows and sunshine

[@solanadelrey]

how heartbreaking. among us are people who have been so deprived of patient, nurturing and attentive care to the point where they want to experience trauma so that they may be loved afterwards. i hope they find the healing they need & deserve. 🖤

[@swag05]

AMONG US!!!!!1!2!1!1! SUS!!1!1!1!1! ITS RED VOTE RED!!!1!1!1!1!!

[@sos2530]

Is it really that sad? I’ve been like that for as long as I can remember.

[@catenjoyer76]

amogus

[@juliepp3646]

I can really relate to some of these, I also sometimes fantasize/wish bad things would happen to me so that someone would care

[@saturn1811]

JuliePP k

[@kaurenmomin9995]

i hope u r doing okay now 🥺❤️

[@araoa4578]

YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE SPECIAL NO MATTER WHAT ❤️

[@larie27]

Thanks i am not the only one

[@Jills.]

SAME

[@mxxxn]

I see some comments that talk about how we are not our intrusive thoughts & it's important to cultivate our thought processes but no solutions, so here's what helped me. You can work on changing your thoughts. I used to have really negative self-talk but I started adding in a second "voice" to counteract those. In the moments I was caught beating myself up, that voice made sure I knew those weren't kind things to say & instead used loving words to refer to myself. It helped immensely. It also works when you have thoughts about hurting others, tragedies, etc. Just start implementing a dialogue in your head that knows it's not something you really want to happen & processes why you have that thought to begin with, ie past trauma or events. We're all deserving of love; the first steps come from within ❤️

[@raspy__]

[@identity2257]

what lol

[@sirenuls]

Plot twist: those are jubilee team fantasies.

[@harperandrea4462]

Oppssyy

[@bettyroseville]

Me: About to fall asleep Jubilee: 👁👄👁

[@RealRad10]

Me not caring or asking 👁👄👁

[@mollyrpm]

Rocky Rider no❤️

[@incharak1927]

@@RealRad10 get out

[@RealRad10]

inchara k lmao

[@rayraygaleva9493]

@@RealRad10 your mother must of not cared about you so composite by insulting people in youtube comments continuously

[@kittyfairy662]

There really needs to be more education and knowledge about OCD specifically pure o and intrusive thoughts. Many of these "fantasies" especially the unwanted ones about murder, rape etc are actually pure o. I've suffered from it and i had no idea until i started researching it. It's such a huge part of mental illness but it's avoided and not talked about. If you have it, or just have unwanted intrusive thoughts, you are NOT alone it's more common than you think, you are NOT a bad person, in fact you are a good person because it is what you DON'T want to do. It is not your fault and it is not what you want. Don't blame yourself, or feel guilt or shame (i know it's hard). And the only thing you can do is ignore the thoughts, don't fight them, that makes it worse. Just let them be and ignore them

[@beyoncebop198]

ive never been raped or abused but i fantasize about that stuff

[@user-venusgemini]

yes!! i wish more people would recognize the fact that they DONT want to act on these thoughts can be a form of ocd

[@armygirl-hi7jw]

thank you......for ur valuable words.....which made me feel better💜

[@hanna3684]

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[@mushroom9600]

@@beyoncebop198 same but while fantasizing it feels normal but afterwards i feel disguster or thought why i think about that

[@sinabonz8108]

Damn I expected some kinda naughty dirty secrets typa thing but now I’m just sad

[@fulmae755]

I fantasize that my mom and friends would accept me for being a lesbian, and that I would stop hating myself for it

[@ovig8917]

Yup...same here (bisexual) and I also wish that I would stop hating myself for it. Unfortunately it's easier said than done...!😢

[@fulmae755]

OVI G yeah, sometimes I try to be straight and it doesn’t work

[@ovig8917]

@@fulmae755 of course not. That would never work.

[@SillyParasaurolophus]

I accept you! If you ever feel like someone doesn’t love you know I do. I know I’m a stranger but I still care. I hope you’re doing well. :)

[@twilightsparkle3073]

I think this is the same reason why I'm on a destructive path of anger right now cos it feels like my fam and parents wont accept me for being gay cos they ask me to get married ,have kids and a gf and I'm only 20 .

[@wellleleiguess9264]

I fantasize about finally not regretting my existence and living without overthinking myself into sadness or feeling like a burden

[@shadowoftheday5736]

Hey there, I hope you are fine rn. You have the willpower to do it, don't sell yourself short and take action to do what you need to do to reach that state of well-being

[@joaskabuya7341]

No one: That one guy: i wish to torture people The Joker as entered the chat

[@NoOne-bp4oe]

Real life psycho 😨

[@ike2938]

more like Dexter Morgan.

[@wholesomekeanureeves9466]

HAS

[@zac7790]

No One Cares About It or it could just be ocd

[@Tom-ck3io]

Come on don't make a joke about this

[@laurenj432]

If mental conditions and states like being homicidal, pedophilic, or having rape urges weren’t so stigmatized, people would be able to get treatment and there would be far less abuse in the world

[@convitthoi]

Sometime I fantasize being a guy so I can ask my staight crush out. Then I feel so freaking pathetic.

[@twilightsparkle3073]

Convitthoi I had those same exact thoughts a million times in high school and now and I guess that's what makes me sad . I would love to be openly gay and happy or be transgender so I can be a woman and have a bf but that's just my dark secret that my parents would die if I told them .. stay strong

[@Laniya.]

Stay strong find someone that you truly feel like you trust. and be who you want. Because I love you and many others do too💖💖💖💖🤗

[@vincentwaterson3480]

If you’re gay you can still be with a guy. It’s easier that way. I with I were a gay guy, but I’m not. I think it’s easier for them to get a guy

[@VolfMoved]

@@vincentwaterson3480 it’s actually harder, or it feels like it is. Nearly every crush I’ve had is homophobic. Or every time you get a crush, they end up straight. Or you both mutually like each other, but cant go out because one of you hasn’t come out of the closet. Or parents don’t support it.

[@RobynJoyShaw]

The poor person who lost their son 😭😭😭 my heart aches for you and your loss as a parent, myself.

[@ExcellentEf]

I fantasize about passing out, or having a seizure so that my damage would be visible.

[@irissagar1080]

People need more education on intrusive thoughts. They're more common than most know.

[@Shedgie]

I always feel so messed up for fantasizing about certain things because I know people have suffered because of it and that its a problem, but I just can’t help myself from dreaming about too and stuff. Uhhh

[@TheDhammaHub]

People have really no idea how important it is to cultivate your own thought processes! Thoughts are the basis for every word, deed an habit and in the end your character!

[@funlife3494]

That pillow one hit me close to home. Thats how i feel everyday of my life

[@maartenvandijk3629]

Me to...

[@J11_boohoo]

Sometimes, even if you know how to help yourself, you still can’t help yourself

[@jvstAsYouAre]

There is a big difference between a fantasy and a desire.

[@answers_for_all4379]

Acctually not that big of a difference. Cause' they all desire these things too, that's why they fantasize in the first place.

[@cheems408]

@@answers_for_all4379 That's not entirely true.

[@answers_for_all4379]

@@cheems408 elaborate please...

[@fabplays6559]

@@answers_for_all4379 A desire is a fantasy that you want to happen. But you can have fantasies about things you DON'T want to happen. These types of fantasies are usually called "intrusive thoughts" and are unwanted and not based on desire. For example, some people have intrusive thoughts of hurting others, but they are not psychopaths as their intrusive thoughts make them feel guilty and awful, and though they would never act upon them they fear their thoughts. Meanwhile, there might be someone who has violent fantasies that is NOT horrified by said fantasies and enjoys fantasizing about them.

[@answers_for_all4379]

@@fabplays6559 A lot of people, including myself experience desires of doing something or being in some type of situation etc ...but they dont acctualy want that to happen cuz of who knows what reason maybe they think they acctually wouldn't be able to handle it. Its the same with fantasies. The only difference I see between fantasy and a desire is that fantasy is this whole type of situation you created in your head, which is what? Its based on your desires.

[@Robin-2350]

The one of the mom and her son that was shot gave me chills .. so sad

[@evanf309]

How do you know it was a mum?

[@Robin-2350]

@@evanf309 good point , probably because he / she said : '' I wish i forced his friend's Mom ''

[@evanf309]

Robin guess it could be either, for some reason I thought it as the dad, maybe because a man was reading it out?

[@Robin-2350]

@@evanf309 we can't really know it's just our brain making assumptions

[@neethisrineethi5183]

12 years ago I fantasize of becoming a doctor now I am surgeon.

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

Sooo good for uuu✨I do too. Hope I'll make it🤞

[@neethisrineethi5183]

@@humphreyndeeri5705 you definitely will make it .

[@neethisrineethi5183]

@@humphreyndeeri5705 we hope for good . And I wish you and your family have a good health and happiness.

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

@@neethisrineethi5183 Thank you, u too.

[@pvnk.v4mp]

Sometimes I fantasize about collapsing at school or just something terrible happening to me in public just so someone can notice me struggling or just being worried about me, sometimes I even imagine me making myself collapse by overdosing...

[@Amzzfr]

same

[@catgums]

the shooter one gave me so much chills. guilt for something you didn’t know you could prevent before hand is the worse.

[@PatsliTV]

I heard people have these intrusive thoughts often have OCD or anxiety

[@shijutu]

Yes. I have bad anxiety and the thought of me doing any of these makes me almost have a panic attack.

[@JustADioWhosAHeroForFun]

"It appeals the male fantasy" *Shows Ricardo Milos*

[@wholesomekeanureeves9466]

To the male fantacy

[@treemane0]

*moans*

[@KevinNormalManPerson]

Big funny i go hahaha at the moment

[@dallaslott4278]

to who ever is reading this your skin is not paper don't cut it your body is not a book don't judge it you great your pretty stay safe love you

[@kore.o]

I fantasize about wanting to become an animal in a zoo because their lives seem so much easier and less stressful

[@mxxxn]

why in a zoo, why not free animals ? animals in the wild

[@kore.o]

@@mxxxn because in the wild I could get eaten and looking for food can be hard but in a zoo I'll be protected and i'll get food

[@SakshiSingh-zf5ls]

@@kore.o should I laugh or ...

[@jinjunliu2401]

@@kore.o Being a free raven in a suburban area seems like a cool thing tbh

[@evanf309]

Yh or a pet dog, no responsiblities, pressure, stress ect

[@user-by7qw4vq6o]

I still think the people reading the confessions are the ones making them

[@thesamuraiman]

"When her husband beats her up"? Nah, dude, my sister's husband would be dead. SMH

[@miyiagawd5993]

Get a hitman on that Mf

[@miyiagawd5993]

@Solomaster. Anti.Jublieetards You Right You Right

[@LastLivingR0se]

This may be bad, but my darkest fantasies is about multiply ways I could die or get hurt and how people would react to it..... I don’t think I should be thinking like that.

[@Soso-ce4op]

I think that way too and I wonder how people would react and if anyone would even recognize me or acted like they knew me. Idk why I think this way but I do

[@aureolinthemango7993]

I fantasize about having a terminal illness so my parents would cherish me more too.....is that not normal?

[@IcedTeaMain1]

Today I learned Portland was named by a coin flip. Had the coin landed the other way, the city would be Boston, Oregon.

[@sameenahmed2823]

🤣

[@dariengauthier577]

I call cap 🧢

[@Helpmegetsubswithnovideo-nn6oq]

@@dariengauthier577 it aint cap I just searched and it and it said it was true someone correct me if Im wrong

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

@@Helpmegetsubswithnovideo-nn6oq Nice username😂

[@emilyashton3739]

I fantasize that my attempt was successful, so people would finally understand how much they hurt me, and maybe that it would teach them to be more kind to others. I understand suicide is a selfish thing, and I feel bad for desiring to pass the pain to someone else.

[@cl4za]

I’m crying because I feel so connected to everyone in this video. I feel less alone. Even about that guy saying “it takes something bad to happen in your life to make people notice you or notice you’re hurting”. I’ve struggled with this for 12 years. I struggle with feeling seen and heard. It’s hard. But thanks for understanding where that person was coming from and in turn making me feel less alone.

[@hannahclarke9902]

I fantasise about death, loss, abuse and such also mainly because I’m constantly depressed but have no reason to be. I don’t accept other people’s comfort because I feel selfish when I have this wonderful life but always feel so sad. I need a reason

[@jimmyvanilla5285]

👌

[@nallyaaaaaa]

the one about cancer tho. that makes me feel sad, i have a friend who sometimes wishes that she could just leave so her family would care about her and regret that they didn't give her much love. this hurts.

[@felixssausage4995]

I fantasize about death, rape, loss, and grief myself. It feels like if something bad happens to me, people will see how much I struggle. How unhappy I am. I feel like they will be at my side no matter what, even if it's just out of pity. I fantasize about becoming a ghost, so I can watch my own funeral to see if people will actually cry after me. Not just my family, my friends too. It doesn't disturb me.

[@darkcat9855]

I used to wish that bad things would happen to myself so my family and friends would show me some love and concern...until bad things happened to me and I discovered that it doesn't change anything, If the people around you have never been interested in you, it doesn't matter what happens, their disinterest will probably not change and you will only suffer twice as much, I say this from experience.

[@Chocobi._._.]

I fantasize about having cancer as well. Maybe it’s me wanting something significant to happen in my life for me to feel something?? I don’t really understand my feelings as well does anyone get it lol

[@yuridisi]

or maybe it is rooting from a desire to be taken care of, to be valued more or just to be appreciated. I fantasize about having cancer, too or being terminally ill. lol I got issues to be taken care of wassup.

[@quackquack2436]

Me too! Not just cancer, any terminal disease lol. But I don't have them as much now, maybe it's because I've wanted to die for so many years and now death kind of scares me so it doesn't look as appealing as before.

[@Chocobi._._.]

I totally agree lol maybe it’s a two in one wish for dying and getting the attention

[@Chocobi._._.]

Wanting to be valued is a good one. Maybe I just want people around me to feel sad for losing me

[@yuridisi]

@@Chocobi._._. perhaps. I do think these feelings are valid though, of course you wouldn't ask for something that's already given. It's more than just getting attention. 😢

[@Mostacs]

Jubilee if you want to do like an episode of middle ground: "Do African and African Americans think the same" hmu. I'm down for a zoom video call🇿🇦

[@tumedisobree3811]

😭😂😂co.!!!

[@mhillis8086]

That would be an awesome haven’t seen any like that

[@enhypenluvs9295]

aww the mother whos son died at a concert, I feel bad for her.

[@RushMyPancake]

Why did his shirt move like that? 0:04

[@quackquack2436]

Ghosts 👻

[@AJSketches]

To all the people who have thoughts similar, please take your time to read this. It will help you. Unwanted intrusive thoughts are stuck thoughts that cause great distress. They seem to come from out of nowhere, arrive with a whoosh, and cause a great deal of anxiety. The content of unwanted intrusive thoughts often focuses on sexual or violent or socially unacceptable images. People who experience unwanted intrusive thoughts are afraid that they might commit the acts they picture in their mind. They also fear that the thoughts mean something terrible about them. Some unwanted intrusive thoughts consist of repetitive doubts about relationships, decisions small and large, sexual orientation or identity, intrusions of thoughts about safety, religion, death or worries about questions that cannot be answered with certainty. Some are just weird thoughts that make no apparent sense. Unwanted Intrusive thoughts can be very explicit, and many people are ashamed and worried about them, and therefore keep them secret. Anyone can experience intrusive thoughts. More than 6 million people in the United States may experience them. Many more people may not report them to their doctors or therapists. Intrusive thoughts aren't always the result of an underlying condition.

[@goofy2112]

I can relate to the Fantasizing about cancer too..But in a different way..I just wished i was the one who got cancer instead of my mom 3 years ago , my mom said this to me when she was in the ER , she said "I wished for anything to happen except the fact that you get sick. Instead pass it to me." And recently this 2020 she died and i feel like im a curse to my family now.

[@Missraeraeruru]

I don't think ur mom intended for u to feel that way, you're not a curse.

[@Missraeraeruru]

It's not your fault & wishes aren't real.

[@victoriahorner2471]

I wish we lived in a society that prioritized mental health and normalized seeking help. These people need support! Just know that you are loved and are never alone in this world.

[@savagesalvage9449]

I mean that's a damn lie but nice sentiment I guess.

[@user-ws7qf1ej2z]

i’m going to be extra honest here, i fantasize about death or being extremely injured because i want someone to care for me, to worry a lot about me, i just want someone to care and be there.

[@orbunn5595]

You don't need to be injured to have someone that for you or worries about you. Maybe it doesn't mean nothing for you bc you don't know me but I'm sure a lot of people care about you.

[@zebracakez2168]

Hey you’re not alone in that feeling. I have thoughts like that almost every other day. We just gotta keep trying to remind ourselves that we are loved and cared for without having to go through some type of tragedy ❤️

[@beyondviolet]

I fantasize about being found injured and alone in an alley at night by nice people that just want to help. It actually calms me down and helps me fall asleep.

[@teutonicorder9531]

I feel the same way

[@blithesome1365]

1:23 - 1:36 Anybody that feels that way?

[@joet5901]

Literally all the time

[@ayetnoor4845]

I am not used to being loved so every time when somebody says they love me it's difficult accepting recently somebody made me believe that he loves me and after few days he broke my heart. I feel like I am cursed.

[@twilightsparkle3073]

@@darthvader1793 dont worry , I've went through the same thing but the future will bring someone better in your life

[@davidbatugon2177]

"I Fantasize about having cancer" I'm such an attention seeker.. Once, i pretended having prostate cancer. It's scary but it was my only way to feel special and for people to notice and care for me. I was Happy even if it was just for a while. But guilt kills me every night.

[@cheems408]

Trust me, I understand. The guilt that I get from lying about some things keeps me up too.

[@jpengamen]

That concert one hit, got tears in my eyes

[@AisforArtemis]

Me too

[@STICKS5]

No. Rape is taboo for a reason and should stay deep within the realm of taboos. Don’t make rape fantasies normal, get therapy quickly.

[@xoliag8524]

Have you ever heard of Purely Obsessive OCD? It's a condition where people think of distressing images due to an intense repulsion to said images. Those who suffer it don't get therapy to protect the people around them, but to protect themselves from their own mind. The word fantasy isn't really correct, because it makes out as if people create the thoughts, when they are actually victims of them. If I told you to think about molesting a child or your mother being tortured, it wouldn't be your fault that you did think about it. This is how it works for those with purely obsessive OCD, only the thoughts are created out of nowhere. Generally those who suffer from distressing mental images have been exposed to that sort of content before. They actually have a lower chance of committing a crime if they had obsessive thoughts about it before. It's hard to explain. The point is that people who think about themselves raping others don't have the mind of a rapist, but are victims of a mental disorder.

[@mayf4iriez]

some people cant help it. please understand.

[@w1nnfield]

Ryan Ferry well if they can afford therapy they should get it. That’s what therapy is for. This shouldn’t be normalized beyond acknowledging that people have it and being able to get help for it. Same thing goes for any other mental illness. Shouldn’t be normalized or romanticized.

[@f.k6920]

I agree with you just because we should help people like this and worse dose not mean we should make these kinds of thoughts normal.

[@xoliag8524]

@@w1nnfield People shouldn't be considered freaks or pedophiles for a condition affecting the individual only which actually makes one less likely to commit heinous crimes. My point is that we shouldn't act like these people have a mental illness like pedophilia when really all they have is an anxiety disorder. We shouldn't even be calling it a mental illness; it's not.

[@daisydaisy7873]

I came here because I thought i was the only one who fantasized about having cancer so i could experience at least some form of affection from my family, the things abuse makes you wanna wish for, sigh

[@cg02tx]

I’m ngl but some of these are more or less the exact fantasies I have. I’m too insecure to say which ones but it’s true what some people are saying in this comment section. Yes it’s quite sad because I realize at the end of it all that I just want not someone random but someone specifically to notice me, to tell me they love me. To even just talk casually in a period where it’s hard to even see them face to face, it’s difficult. I almost tear up but I stop myself and I don’t really know why because I do want to cry. I want to let the pain out so that I can either move forward or just in general approach my situations better. What I find funny are those sexual fantasies where someone wants to be abused, choked, etc. because I find that experience potentially really intimate in so many ways. I imagine the act of sex not necessarily sacred just as personal as I’ve always wanted it to be with someone specifically. The only times I can imagine being in pain are when I think about the aftermath, where maybe just maybe, people will finally give me the attention I’ve wanted. Maybe I’m denying being an attention whore but I’ve even written a script about a scenario like that just to have a therapeutic process. It’s all really weird but whomever takes the time to read this comment, thank you and I hope you understand.

[@Tharealsasha]

‭‭“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” ‭‭John‬ ‭3:16‬ ‭ ROMANS 10:9💘That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:” ‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:8‬ ‭💕 .

[@mhillis8086]

Well versed

[@humphreyndeeri5705]

Thank you ✨

[@pedroh8915]

ok, but this video is about fantasy, not grief… the shooting thing is sad but doesn’t belong here, it belongs to a regrets video

[@valentinavanja1306]

My mum has cancer and trust me, you don't wanna have it. I get where this person is coming from but that is the last thing you should want for yourself or anybody else.

[@catfanciermonthly]

i just need to get this off my chest i guess- i often play and replay my own suicide happening in my head just as i would do it. but i mostly like to think about what my relatives would do, i think about their guilt for using me, or calling me names, or insulting my appearance. sometimes i just want to be seriously injured so i can feel like i’m worth the guilt they may feel.

[@beforeelstho]

I totally understand where you’re coming from, I’ve been neglected and abused by my family but at the same time, getting seriously hurt or attempting suicide won’t solve the issue you know, because even if they finally see how you need help, once it’s over they will again fall back into the same pattern of behavior. I feel like trying to move out and find your own place to call home, find people that will treat you right is the best. That’s what I’m attempting right now at least.

[@catfanciermonthly]

@@beforeelstho yeah, you’re right. and i’m sorry to hear that, i really hope you can get yourself into a comfortable situation, i believe in you

[@arcanawho5636]

I lay my pillow against my back, wrap my arms around myself, put my hand on my face, and talk to my pillow to feel as if he’s here. I feel bad about it because I talk to my pillow as if it’s Negan from the walking dead who is much older than me and crazy. Am I insane?

[@IcedTeaMain1]

Me: **sees notification clicks right when it pops up* KZbin: nope you're staying here lmao.. :)

[@RealRad10]

Remind me to laugh

[@RealRad10]

ImAPotato532 Hehe cheers mate

[@radiantsana]

Damn Jubilee. I fantasize about Bakugou being real... this is dark :(

[@nithi9638]

The secret: I talk to my pillow and cuddle with it like its my bf.... Me: Wait, isn't that like...normal.

[@twilightsparkle3073]

Ohhhhh I did during the lockdown but then I realised that theres only so much it cant do ..I also hold the pillow and sleep -it makes me feel better

[@__JDB__]

the one about cancer, i fellt that. i fantasize alot about getting in a serious accident with my motorcycle just to know who would care about me.

[@bestbirdbuds6746]

Huh this is actually a really interesting topic for one

[@maybe.yellow]

I maladaptive daydream (basically having really vivid daydreams for hours a day) so I've experienced a few of these "fantasies" myself, and I just want to let everyone know that you aren't alone and you aren't a horrible person for your thoughts. As long as you know that you should never act upon certain thoughts, you're not a danger to anybody and you're not a terrible person. It's okay, I know because I've been there. Love you m8 :)

[@melissawaters7405]

I relate to the very first one I have so much anger and hate and those are the only emotions I have failed to numb and I always see myself doing bad things to people to make them feel what I feel especially if they've provoked me too many times