Study Abroad Diaries Ep. 3 - "the one about homesickness"

[@merlinnab]

Since I was 17, I left my hometown to go to another city to study. And despite the fact that 3 years have passed, each time it feels worse, I don't think it will ever go. I feel so lonely here, I only made a real friend and she goes back to her city on vacation so I'm alone again, and I can't talk about it with anyone because my parents would worry and and I don't want them to believe that all the effort and money they spend for me to be here is in vain. But I miss my home so much, my pets, my siblings and my parents. When school starts it's a little better just because I'm too busy to feel sad about home, but when I have nothing to do the sadness hits me and I need to go back home but I can't. I feel such like a baby because I'm crying and the worst thing is that I have social anxiety so I'm locked in my apartment all the time if I have to go out it's torture but I go crazy locked up with my thoughts all the time. It helps a bit to see that I'm not alone in this and there are several people going through the same thing, I send a hug to all of you. Possibly no one will read this but I needed to get it out of my system.

[@jhopesspriteee]

Your not alone 🫂

[@merlinnab]

@@jhopesspriteee Thank u🥺💕

[@biinyah]

U are not alone sweetheart I know how it feels to do something for your parents efforts for u to study spending so many expenses but at the same time seeking all those familiarities you r use to 🫂💗

[@comebackkid8881]

Hope everything gets better ❤

[@Blueroseq8]

go to your college and talk to others, I know social anxiety can make it bad but its better to go through that phase of being anxious when you're first time talking to someone over being alone at your apartment. and once you're over that phase, you're gonna have really great friends so cheer up. :)

[@amandazuanella7652]

I’m having a really hard time trying to adapt to life in Canada. It’s been 9 months and I feel like i’m not enjoying as I should, I feel sad most of the time and miss home so much, it’s literally all I think about all day long. I’m trying to overcome it but it’s so hardd, it seems like I’m stuck in the past. How to let go of the past and enjoy the present is the question I’m trying to answer. Anyways, just wanted to leave this here if anyone else can relate, you’re not alone :) But thanks so much for this video, it gives me hope🫶🏻

[@minnaidriss9766]

Hey r u in Waterloo/kitchener? I’m from there if u are I can be ur friend! Ik that sounds creepy lol but um I was born in Canada and I gotta tell u Canada is such a boring country you’re not alone, try to use this time to focus on yourself and self improvement remember there will be a time when this is all just a memory.

[@avabennett3243]

I go to a boarding school in scotland, and only 15, i get homesick all the time, but things do get better!! Thanks for the advice!

[@viiyaxyz]

Im all alone. Idk the language that well. Idk anyone here. I live with 2 strangers. Im gonna manage everything on my own. I miss everyone and everything back at home. I miss the little things and big things. Idk when itll get better for me if itever will. It hurts to much i cant stop crying nor can i sleep. I miss my cat so much. I just miss the comfort and safety of home so much. Im so scared.

[@morganflusche8641]

i’m living this reality right now! i’ve only been here a couple of days, but my anxiety has made me sick to my stomach each day so far. im hoping things got better for you!

[@viiyaxyz]

@morganflusche8641 hey.. things are better for me. I found 3 good friends who are the legit reason ive made it through some hard days recently. And yeah, i still feel like an alien here sometimes but i am doing a lot better than my first 2 weeks which i thought would never happen.

[@madalenaalves2422]

Same

[@sennahmaria3495]

your videos feel so cozy and this couldn't come at a better time. i'm struggling with home sickness right now, and it feels nice to know i'm not alone in this feeling

[@katieblake]

It can be such a struggle sometimes!! Hang in there ♥️

[@amihumphreys3937]

I’m only on my first day of exchange and am already struggling… this video is so helpful and has already started to change my perspective. And thank you for the tough love, I will embrace where I am and appreciate my surroundings without relying on calling people back home!

[@aeliavallance2987]

It's being 1 year that I left my country my friends family to go and live with only my dad in France, I miss my mom and my friends, I just get diagnostiqued by depression or homesickness... idk when I'm going to return but I know that I will see everyone again, in my experience homesick it's one of the worst feeling it can make u enter in depression and being isolating yourself from everyone and not wanting to meet new people. If you fell into depression for being away from home, I want to tell you that you are not alone in this, there are several people who are going through it, I know you can handle this, you will return home one day and you will see all your special people. Katie thank u for the video it made me feel better

[@mojuito.m689]

seeing this now really helps me a lot as a first year in uni/college

[@meganb1725]

Katie this video is literally so good!!! I really love your channel, it is helping me feel so prepared for going abroad at the University of Edinburgh in the fall

[@ambermariartist]

hey! i'm also going to Uni of Edinburgh in the fall!!!

[@katieblake]

Ah I’m so glad!! :) best of luck to you next year you’ll have a blast 🥳

[@viiyaxyz]

Here i am. Just reached to the new country. Everything feels like a huge mistake yet i know i need all this. I don't know anyone here and im already so inaccessible but feeling like this is making me even more inaccessible. I didn't really have the good first few days since i couldnt,roam around but definitely at the good cry stage rn. Thank you for this video i desperately need this right now.

[@khadidjaghanem9169]

Me too I’m definitely at the good cry stage 🥲

[@viiyaxyz]

@@khadidjaghanem9169 :( i hope things get a lot better for us both soon.

[@broad.daylight]

Hey, just checking in... Did it get any better?

[@viiyaxyz]

@broad.daylight hey. it did get better.. i know the place more, i have 3 good and true friends at this point and many other acquaintances. ive accomplished plenty already and there are many days n nights i enjoy outtings and such but there are still nights i feel low n heavy and miss my mom and cat till i break down. i guess that'll always come and go naturally. thanks for checking up tho

[@lovebaruela]

im so glad i found your account cause im planning to move abroad for university next year and im so excited yet nervous !!

[@mrcatsam]

Whilst I love the rest of your videos which are very playful and showcase your adventures, you've really made this particular series honest, heartfelt, and wonderfully expressive. It's great to see another side of someone I thought I knew through their other videos. Stay in the uk as we'd love to have you 😊

[@katieblake]

Oh my goodness thank you so much! It’s always a little stressful to try out something new so I really appreciate it :)

[@yeongshyuan]

Thank you so much. I really needed this, especially during the festive months where I couldn't go back home to celebrate due to not having enough money.

[@ЙоаннаИванова-п5ы]

I moved abroad and now I am starting my second semester. Please people that have experience or already feel better comment below. I thought that everything is fine the first semester otherwise I had hard times. But the moment I went home for Christmas the goodbyes were so difficult. I feel strange like everything is hitting again. I compare myself to others and I feel so stupid.

[@kalinapetkova5785]

im going trough the absolute same thing right now, so i cannot really give you any comfort, but i relate to you so much. Its like i have moments when i ask myself if its even worth it and i genuinely feel so lost.

[@هتانالعتيبي-ظ1ث]

You know I've moved to a a different far city 8hr drive. It's really far, I just miss the climate of my city, the accent, the food, my family everything literally!!!! But the thing is I can't leave because this is once in a life time opportunity, I'm gonna start work on Sun after 3 days. I just hope I can make some friends

[@eriemeraldlenne2183]

Well my story is a bit stupid 😂 I left my home to go study in another city (i didn't leave the country)my home city is 3hrs drive away .i am at my 3rd year in college so it's been a while here . I go home for holidays , winter and spring breaks(usual holidays in my country)for some weekends. However, i feel a terrible homesickness, eventhough they speak the same language here the same culture the same damn country but feel homesick . I just feel it when i went back to college after holidays, after spending a while with my family. now it's almost the end of holidays and I'll be back there in few days and believe me i am having this terrible sensation this thing called homesickness. I hugged my mum and cried like a baby in her arms and i just can't take this feeling away of me.

[@PIXTO_]

this deserves millions of views

[@susannah7862]

your videos are so therapeutic to me atm ! I am taking a gap year to live in Germany before college, and while i am very excited, i am also very very nervous. the experiences may not be exactly the same, but your advice and commentary have been calming my nerves for the past few days, so I wanted to say thank you :) keep up the good work !

[@katieblake]

Oh I’m so glad! I hope you have the best time in Germany!! ❤️

[@orhildurhelga5525]

Im on my Exchange in Germany and its all so new to me and i have cried everyday since i got here. And this helped alot, thank you❤️

[@katiestandfield9149]

How are you doing now?

[@orhildurhelga5525]

@@katiestandfield9149 Since i wrote that it was my first 2 weeks on my exchange, now its been 4 months since and i have never gotten homesick ever since. I love it here, had to change familys tho but its ok. I know how to speak to people now in another language and i have traveled to so many new places. 🕺❤️😁

[@orhildurhelga5525]

But ofc its different for everyone and feeling homesick its totally normal

[@creatrotera]

Moving to Scotland in September! I'm at that stage where I'm anxious because it's less than a month away

[@K-oj4lb]

Omg i was in London 🇬🇧 for school break for like 2 weeks in my best friend’s house ( I live in France) it was so good I came back in France for school again and I started feeling sad I don’t have any appetite I miss her so much I cry every day I’m starting to take some distance with my friends at school every night I’m in my bed thinking about her she’s my best friend a love her so much she’s so kind and the fact that we can’t see each other because she live in another country just breaks my heart I know her since we’re kids I would give the world just to be with her she’s the most kind person I’ve ever seen in my life and I keep thinking about it I tried to told myself that it’s temporary and I’m gonna forget this feeling about missing her but without her I feel so lonely I consider her like my sister she my family and idk I want to book I flight just to see her but because of school I can’t …

[@ChrisJohnsonChannel]

Yea it’s gotta be tough to be 21, 22 and maybe away from home for the first time for as much as a year.. I mean, ok UK culture is cool and exciting but I really just want some of Grandmas pecan pie right now.. I moved to Germany when I was 16 for 3 years so I can relate ✨ Also really liking your music choices on your vlogs⭐️

[@katieblake]

Thank you!! Haha I can totally relate to the pie thing thanksgiving really hurt this year 😂🥲

[@kategrundfast]

love these videos. I like to be prepared before jumping into something so here I am watching other people study abroad before I do

[@notnigward531]

I really appreciate this video a lot. I've been looking into a lot of schools across the UK and Edinburgh has stuck out the most for me but I'm also scared of getting there and regretting it and wanting to go back home from missing it so much

[@katieblake]

It can be really hard but worth it 🥲

[@ambermariartist]

thank you katie, i've been watching your content for a while, and my study abroad semester in edinburgh is coming up quickly, so, thank you for this. i know i'll need it :p

[@katieblake]

Amazing!! Thank you :) you’ll have the best time

[@wandluung]

Moving to Leeds in September (from Texas) for a 1year post-grad program & your videos are helping me so much rn 😭Thank you for making them and for all of your wonderful insights ~ 🙏 💓 🙏

[@katieblake]

Ah so exciting!! Wishing you the best for next year :) and thank you for your kind worlds they mean a lot 😊

[@billding2418]

I love this series!! Thank you so much! I am going to study abroad in wales for a year this fall and I feel so encouraged and equipped from you videos, thank you !!!

[@katieblake]

Thank you for watching!! :) best of luck to you!

[@sharifazamjonov3100]

The video is so informative. Thank you so much. I'm on my fourth stage and really feeling homesick 😞. But after this video, I hope I'll get better

[@phully7696]

2:20 Same feeling, but my problem is that the place I consider as home is not actually my home, and I can't live there anymore. But the place (I hate) is supposed to be my home, so am I stuck here forever? Every day (4 years till now), I feel so uncomfortable when I meet most of the people her .I feel like one day I will get back to my childhood place, but it's impossible. I wish I had been born in my real home 😞

[@Vanshikacx]

Thank you for this video! I was feeling homesick but I’m feeling much much better now💗

[@adhithyawijesekara7506]

This is gold!

[@suhaniverma9545]

wow! absolutely loved this!!! needed this, thanks a lot!!

[@anyonesmind]

This is such an amazing video 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[@rukaidomingcil8416]

Can I lurk in your channel? I just need to find people feeling the same deep murk I am starting to drown into... which is homesickness and reality.

[@johanzaidoonsalim9683]

New comment here. Im going to study abroad for the first time at age 18 and I am pissing scared and I have anxiety!!! Im going to live with 2 other guys and oh my god IM SCARED...

[@viiyaxyz]

Im currently also new to a country for study all alone for the first time. I know how youfeel and how u will feel.. i just wish you luck and keep hope with you, let yourself feel ur emotions and take ur time adjusting.

[@Sony-zu1fs]

It was inspiring I needed it❤

[@АдамБреннан]

Thank you very much

[@blackpearl5031]

U explained it perfectly

[@luckyfriend82]

You are my favorite human

[@katieblake]

HHahah oh my goodness 🥲 thanks for watching!! ♥️

[@shannazie]

Why do your videos make me so emotional 🥺 I haven't even done a study abroad lol

[@katieblake]

HHah oh my gosh 😂 it’s the royalty free music 🤌

[@shannazie]

@@katieblake bahahaha 😂

[@Ohrealiyy]

Inspiring!

[@katrena457]

I think my homesickness is permanent because i stay away from home for 5 years and again stayed in home for 5 years and now again I'm staying away from home to study and feeling so bad

[@MinaO2]

i love your videos

[@hamzamohammed8697]

YOU SHOULD WRITE A BOOK!

[@saigegilroy7751]

Hi Katie! I love your videos... what camera do you use?

[@nausiac]

That’s why everybody loves Mexico

[@cheyennesullivan2839]

Hey Katie, I was wondering if you are going to be studying abroad for the 22-23 year as well?

[@katieblake]

Just this year!

[@melisatel]

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