TALKING TO MY ALTERS? The Buddy System Method for Dissociative Identity Disorder | DissociaDID

[@DissociaDID]

BTW! The mindmap software we used to make a system map for our therapist is called Mind Meister. It's a free website we found through google: www.mindmeister.com

[@seroquel.sweetheart]

Tanks !!# Lola

[@TheOracleofWhimsy]

Thank you for doing this, You look so lovely today.

[@ginah8995]

I highly recommend looking into Miro. It's a free online whiteboard, very easy to use, lots of features. For example, you can have different coloured sticky notes so perhaps alters could have their own colour if helpful? You can easily drag things around, there's templates, and it's massive so you won't run out of room. I don't have DID, I actually use it for work but as Kya was talking, it came to mind as a potentially useful and easy tool for those with DID who would like an online space to visually map out and internally communicate

[@chriscastillo2111]

I’m not even joking I actually love you so much and am so glad that you posted this video. Last night I had a dream about you posting a new video, I woke and saw there were no new videos but then when I came home from school I saw you posted a video and I was like “I called it!” Anyway much love and keep doing what you are now doing it is amazing!

[@beverlywithey1347]

This is awesome!🍀💖🙏

[@bunfeng]

Our system has an alter that has a role called the “messenger.” This alter is responsible for interacting and passing messages between alters

[@twinstarssystem2857]

we have a diplomat that has a similar role but carrying messages between sidesystems

[@AzureAsher]

My system has two gatekeepers who also double as messengers of sorts. They help communication. It has been wonderful to have them, compared to when they weren’t split. - Asmodeus, primary sexual protector of the Azure System

[@TheNo1pencil]

I'm imagining Hermes, the Greek god

[@toast3591]

How many times do they get to say ‘don’t shoot the messenger’

[@skeetsmcgrew3282]

Do they look like that mailman from Zelda? Because that would be awesome

[@mael2039]

I 100% percent understand creators taking time off any time or stopping to contribute online, but I really can't put into words how ridiculously happy it makes me to see new videos of yours. Really put a smile on my face and made my day.

[@alwaysanonymous295]

I second this!! 👏🏼

[@amberluppens3292]

I’m thirding!

[@jamescurfman3284]

@@amberluppens3292 Fourthed! lol

[@jaylove9507]

SAME!!!

[@chriscastillo2111]

#Ififththis

[@nylakore3024]

Seraphina is literally Kya as a cat!! She matches you so well!!

[@kittysflowerld7011]

OMG i thought the same!

[@maddieh1353]

I agree, their colors are similar too!

[@megasadcat2871]

I was recently hospitalized and I met someone who struggled with memory loss, blackouts, hearing voices, and other symptoms like those. I'm so thankful that your channel has taught me about did and dissociative disorders because I was able to understand their symptoms, be patient, comforting and treated them with a level of kindness that I probably wouldn't have if I didn't know so much about the disorder. I know it's been hard, but I really thank you for the work you've done in destigmatizing and bringing awareness to dissociative identity disorder. You're all doing a great job :)

[@niroopotsav]

This is so cool!

[@laurapaivab]

Reading this has made my day a little better ☺☺💜

[@Lexi-wi4it]

I totally relate to this. I recently made a friend at my college and her sibling has DID. Because of this channel I not only knew what that was, but could actually understand the context of what she was talking about without her having to explain the disorder to me. Your channel helped me understand my friend and her sibling, and it also helped to guide me in what to say to support her.

[@Asterfeather]

I don’t think I ever realized that not everyone in the system has direct communication with each other. Thank you for making these videos I really have learned a lot from them ❤️

[@alicephoenix5304]

Unfortunately that is one of the most frustrating aspects of DID. The amnesiac divisions between alters often also prevents communication or even being aware that the other alter exists. The process of healing involves building communication between parts which is essentially building new neural pathways in the brain that allow these different parts to communicate and share information.

[@AzureAsher]

@@alicephoenix5304 unfortunately, communication is very hard in a system. Luckily, you can eventually make ways to communicate. I speak from experience. - Asmodeus

[@MellowJelly]

Sometimes even when the host knows they have DID, there are alters who aren't aware that they have DID or that there's any trauma in the body O_O scary but it makes sense as it's all to protect the body in a way

[@kmations4049]

a lot of my alters including me have almost 0 communication, it is super annoying -Alex

[@lacunae5194]

Honestly I’m happy this video exists because it just explains what I’m going through constantly, god you wouldn’t believe how many time I wrote that sentence and deleted it XD

[@madisonm.4535]

I have ADHD and autism so I completely understand the type of dissociation you are talking about. It is really hard to focus and keep a train of thought.

[@allicuddles]

I agree! I have chronic pain so my brain naturally tries to distance itself. I am constantly in the middle of doing something going, "what am I doing?"

[@twinstarssystem2857]

same!! it can be difficult to tell if we're dissociating because DID or brain fogging because dysautonomia or getting looped because autism XD

[@laurenisnothere6173]

I don't have either, but I've felt that too! I have had suspicions if ADHD and autism.... would that be a symptom? Should I be worried?!?!

[@uritje]

@@laurenisnothere6173 It's not necessarily a symptom of ASD/ADHD but it can come from many things, you might not even have enough symptoms of anything to get diagnosed with something because there is no person on this earth that has absolutely no symptoms of any disorder. So maybe you are just a person who has a tendency to dissociate more than the average population and that's totally normal. If you are worried, I would recommend seeing a psychiatrist. I am studying psychology and have ADHD and autism, I also know many different people who have it as well. I'm no expert but if you have any questions about it, I'm here for you.

[@laurenisnothere6173]

@@uritje thank you for explaining! This has helped a lot! Feels good knowing I'm not going crazy and making this all up! Thank you again!

[@SunaAnbu918]

When Kya yelled "what are you doing?" at Seraphina...my cat turned around super guilty 🤣 I love your content and am happy to see more and more creators setting boundaries!

[@callanightshade8079]

My cat did that same thing! 😂 Except he gave me the annoyed look of "What's your problem?" 😂

[@angel_shelly]

I’m epileptic and the way you described the “metal door” is exactly how I feel during a minor seizure or before a full blown seizure. I always described it as a wall in my brain too. It’s probably not related but I just thought that was cool

[@limeshrimp8312]

As an epileptic myself, I completely agree with you. I never was really able to put it into words, but this describes it really well actually and will make it easier to explain to people

[@leahduffy5953]

respectfully, I would love to hear how Sally is doing. however, only if she is comfortable & wanting to share, I found her to be very comforting in her meet the alters video & often find myself wondering how she is doing. If she is not, I hope she is doing amazing & wish her the best!! I also want to thank chloe, now kya, for making this channel, learning from the system has been a blessing & I wish all of you nothing but the best. Much love xx

[@EvilLisa69]

I would love to see Sally, Nadia and Jade. Possibly Omega as well if sh3 is up to it. I really miss Kyle but I still see and hear traces of him in Kya.

[@rose.y22]

@@EvilLisa69 yeah i'd love to see everyone too! though, i don't think nadia's still in the system due to either a split or an integration, i don't remember but i think kya mentioned it in one of their recent videos. no hate btw and take this with a pinch of salt as i'm not sure what i'm saying is right

[@allisonn6056]

@@EvilLisa69 They have a TikTok 😊 Sally appeared with Kya in the hair tutorial video they did. I don't think Jade has in recent ones, I could be wrong though. Omega also appeared in one of the videos on there! 😊 As for Nadia, in one of the comments on a tiktok video, someone in their system said that an alter split from Nadia and that, "Nadia is more of a ghost now. She never recovered."

[@ellahou5872]

@@allisonn6056 Jade was out at the end of their twitch livestream yesterday! Unfortunately it wasn't under the best circumstances (they were triggered by something in the video game), but I believe Kya has said in a recent tiktok livestream that Jade's been doing well generally.

[@allisonn6056]

@@ellahou5872 Ah, I see. I haven't personally watched the live stream yet. I'd just missed it when I first saw the message saying they were streaming. That's unfortunate that it was under those circumstances. I hope she was ok! I'm glad in general she's doing good though!

[@Stringbean0000]

For those who are reading this, dissociation happens which many conditions and there is no one way to dissociate. Dissociative disorders are not the only disorders that cause dissociation. ADHD, autism, sensory processing disorder, anxiety, headaches/migraines, chronic pain, PTSD, and trauma can lead to a person dissociating. The cause can be physical and/or neurological and/or mental. Dissociation can effect sensory input. If you dissociate and have not been diagnosed with any condition, your experiences are valid. If your healthcare provider won’t listen to you, find one who will. Healthcare providers are supposed to help people be healthy in all aspects of there life. You can be healthy and have dissociative episodes.

[@rosenrot234]

Exactly. I don't have DiD but every now and then my borderline personality disorder might cause me to have a bit too extreme of an emotion to the point where its kinda like when you blow a fuse. Just my brain going "Okay that was SPICY let me just put you in Low Power Mode while I work on fixing this." so cue my brain getting really foggy.

[@callanightshade8079]

My psychiatrist (before I stopped going to them) kept saying "that's just autopilot mode" when I tried saying that I was watching myself do these things but it didn't feel like me, or that I didn't remember doing these things but I clearly did them. My therapist, thankfully, understood. And, while she can't diagnose me, she can tell my experiences are clearly more than just "autopilot mode"

[@rosenrot234]

@@callanightshade8079 autopilot is a fitting term. ( I mean for what I go thru. Not saying "No you're wrong YOURE experiencing auto pilot mode." ) Mom says I sound very dull when I'm in this mindset but I can't hear it. It's all strange and fascinating.

[@yukiandkanamekuran]

Hey, that is true but consistent dissociation is a big problem! For DID/OSDD you have to have been formed in childhood, with prolonged trauma (C-PTSD) and a detachment from the primary caregiver. I have both ADHD and OSDD, so before I knew my system, I experienced dissociation/zoning out nearly everyday, conflicted mind and PTSD symptoms. So, everyone experiences dissociation. But 1. Dissociation via understimulation is what ppl with ADHD experience 2. DPDR, constant dissociation and switching (emotional or dissociative amnesia) is what systems experience 3. You can experience DPDR without being a system, like with BPD or DPDR itself.

[@yukiandkanamekuran]

Also trauma disorders who experience dissociation are: All dissociative disorders (DID, OSDD, UDD, DPDR, etc), BPD, C-PTSD and PTSD. (Idk if just C-PTSD and PTSD experience it, but traumatic shock is a thing in those disorders) There's definitely more, probably, but,,, trauma induced dissociation in general is like,,, linked to specific disorders. It's not really trauma by itself. Also, headaches/migraines thing might be linked with switching headaches bc that's what they feel like.

[@mysticphoenix2036]

You and the kitten are so much a perfect pair. Absolutely delighted you have each other.

[@jillianmcgovern9346]

They even have the same color scheme. It's too perfect

[@katethielen3883]

Yeah I'm trying to think back... I've only heard about them out of context

[@Imanioa]

@@katethielen3883 wrong comment?

[@katethielen3883]

@@Imanioa Not quite!! They've mentioned the kitty in passing but it was never quite clear!!

[@Imanioa]

@@katethielen3883 OHH my bad lol

[@GooseBucket-hr1go]

I don't have DID personally, but I'm addicted to these videos. They create a really safe atmosphere and as a Psychology student I'm fascinated by how DID works and as a human, find how alters learn to live with it so inspiring. :D

[@pAwLinNe17]

Same here. It's very inspiring to see that someone w/ such condition can still make the most out of their life and actually grow to become a better and stronger person, instead of spiraling down to negativity because of their trauma.

[@BeckyAngelix]

Agreed

[@asteriamabel2768]

True.. I've been watching her videos non stop and tried to get a better understanding if ever I meet someone who have DID. I also wanted to be a Psychology student in the future too! That's why I'm listening to a lot of serial killer crime podcasts to learn a bit of their Psychological state.

[@madytullis6912]

This video was so informative I would’ve never thought of an internal buddy system Also love how Kya acts very serious in tone and body language when talking to the camera(very helpful when receiving info) and then switches so quickly to a higher pitch and a loving tone when they talk to Seraphina💜💜

[@sari9645]

I’ve heard a lot about Mara but I don’t think she’s ever been formally introduced. Do you think we’ll ever meet her in the future?

[@spiritofthewinds9089]

Good question, had the same thought

[@shep4516]

She fronted for a bit during their first stream on twitch, I'm pretty sure.

[@shiroi201]

Thank you i was about to ask because i for one haven't even heard the name before

[@cynkruse26]

Same

[@o8004]

@@shep4516 she has a twitch?

[@sunflowerkisses6304]

So happy to see you in such a better state of mind and mood, thanks for all of your hard work Kya ♥️

[@katerinabanecourt]

An update on the system would be lovely, I think - obviously just to whichever extent you feel comfortable, that is. And/or maybe just a general update, maybe a kind of cozy "chat" of you talking about anything you would like people to know... But whatever you decide, I'm happy you are back and seem to be doing okay. :) All the best wishes to everyone in the system! ... also, I just can't get over the absolute cuteness that is Seraphina! She looks just so adorable and fluffy, and like a really great companion to you. I'm happy you were able to get her. :)

[@emberronas617]

So, it may sound a bit odd but as someone with severe diagnosed PTSD with long dissociative episodes: Though I wish you had not suffered at all, I thank you for putting this video up and showing the difficulty with everyday thought when dissociating. The way you explain how you feel when you start to switch, or have problems keeping a train of thought, is very relatable for me. The positive methods and acceptance you treat yourself with, and the upbeat attitude you use tackle problems, has helped decrease my anger at my own constant disassociation and given me coping tools that has done wonders in my therapy. Thank you.

[@GGN9NE]

I appreciate how you explain your transitions. That alone helps me feel not alone. I do try to explain to my close friends how I struggle and tumble as I begin to dissociate and hearing you talk about it gives those “exactly,” “that’s it,” moments. I’ve been fighting them for as long as I can remember. Trying to learn how to not fight. I hope you are and thank you for the video.

[@Tirryna]

Ragdolls are the best cat ever! Gentle, chatty, puppy-like, soooooo loving and playful. I'm so happy you have her. Miss my ragdoll kitties 🥰.

[@teoeoiy3220]

We know social medial is exhausting for you all.. but we really appreciate these video's! Thank you for making some content still. We appreciate this so much 🖤🐺

[@Fizz-Pop]

Your videoes opened up a world to me I had no idea existed, or could even exist. I've watched enough videos now to sate or get rid of my skepticism. Now I am almost reeling. The more I understand the more questions I have. I won't ask you for various reasons, but I just want you/your system to know, that you are making a difference. I am WAY more informed than I was, and that can only be a good thing.

[@downp0urr]

“I am ✨making a video!✨” You guys never fail to make me smile, I’m happy you all are back. Thank you for taking the time to make this content for us!

[@Watermelon-2009-uc8he]

We were recently diagnosed with DID and your videos have really helped us. Thank you so much and keep doing what your doing - Ben

[@glea94]

It's so lovely seeing you Kya, I see so much of Chloe, Nina, Nin and Kyle in you. Sending good things to all the system, hope you're all well

[@PezSystem]

Game of Telephone to find the mind map…. That’s an interesting strategy. I agree it’s a good way to try and communicate with the other alters and finding if there’s more alters. Thank you for the idea.

[@rebeccaxo1218]

It's so lovely to see you back and looking as gorgeous as ever! You and your cat really are twinning today too 🤎

[@marisaesquivel1849]

Hey Kya, I'm loving watching your streams recently and I'm glad to see you guys have the time and energy to explain cool things to us here on KZbin! Hope you're all doing well ❤️

[@jadendiaz3615]

Who else is absolutely loving how cool Kya looks with her hair and makeup I could never look that good if I tried that's skills right there.❤️💖😁✌️👌.

[@RoKer13]

They look like a viking rockstar imo lol So cool!

[@mikaelacash3791]

DissociaDID, my kid sister and I are so incredibly thankful for all the videos your System makes! See, my sister has a really good friend who has DID, and your videos (along with the System she's friends with. I think she's managed to make friends with the entire system at this point in time, and she considers each of them to be an individual, different friend) have helped so much with her understanding of her friends. This video specifically actually helped her and the System come up with an idea for a problem she was having. One of the littles likes to talk to her a lot, but they're a very young little and needs supervision, so when my sister saw this video and thought of the idea of having a buddy, she suggested to the System that the primary protector supervise by co-hosting or being right over the little's shoulder whenever the little is fronting, and it has had such a positive effect! So even though it's not the exact "buddy system" you're talking about here, the idea of buddies turns out to be great for other purposes aside from passing messages along, as well. Keep up the great work! You're helping so many people, both affected and not affected by DID alike!

[@helenasouza9196]

Geez, the struggle was real in this video, the dissociation was so strong, that "wow" right at the beginning, I said the same at the exact same time! Because as soon as the video started after Seraphina I was able to tell you were really dissociated, I don't know if anyone else notices it, maybe because I've been watching for so long, but your eyes change when you are in this state, it's almost as if they were a bit clouded, unfocused... It was the same with Chloe and Nin. But that was a really nice and interesting video, I have no idea how you guys were able to record like that, a lot of pauses for grounding I'm guessing, but very interesting subject.

[@libby1977]

I'm so happy to see you guys finding the time and energy to start creating content again after everything that's happened

[@k.theabsoluteheathen8224]

i look forward to meeting (or getting re-acquainted with) those you're comfortable sharing with us. i've missed your conversational videos as well as your educational ones! welcome back and see ya next time!

[@lynnakane]

Not gonna lie, I really need this, so thank you. It's been really rough these past few months. I've been traumatised again and I feel like I've lost contact with everyone from the system that I was close with. Idk if a split happened. I just woke up here. I'm unable to recognize who is close, with whom I'm about to switch etc. Hours pass and I can see that someone attended the online classes, but idk what happened. I'm glad I have some old notes, but it feels like I don't remember anyone. I used to recognize alters either by emotions or the way the posture of the body was changing or the pattern of thinking. I could easily grasp the situation and some thoughts and ideas, so I can continue a conversation, before everything went in the back of the mind. Now when I'm pushed forward, I can feel the emotions, thoughts, but when the switch is completed, I forget everything. I don't identity by the same name. Idk how to act so it doesn't seem weird to people around. Back to the start I guess...

[@JenCatherineTV]

I don’t have DID but I adore your videos and love learning about DID. I’m so happy you’re back to uploading videos and that you’re doing better Kya. 💖💖

[@emma-annepetersen6539]

Thank you for coming back and sharing. Your chanel has been so helpful in so many was. Not only to me but to my family with are mental health. 💕

[@WhatAKlutz]

I’ve been watching you guys since you were at like 10k and I’ve been so happy to see you all grow and develop into the lovely people you are today. Much love!! 💓💓💓

[@MrMarina101000]

I would definitely like to learn about the new alters (when they’re ready) and the fusions that have happened. Also missing Jade a bit, hope she’s well!

[@maritxuc.9971]

im missing jade too!!

[@jade1922]

Me too

[@disneydonnat]

Hi everyone x Kya, thanks for explaining the buddy system . Seraphina is such a sweetheart. I'm so glad you have her for support and cuddles x

[@JennCampbell]

I'm so glad you guys are back!New and old!

[@m.i.a.a259]

Hi Kya, I would really love to learn more about sub systems and why they are created to be separate. Also you talked about different types of dissociation, this is very intriguing as I think alot of people feel isolated because they can't explain what is happening to them in that moment.

[@loanneloring2835]

Thankyou for all that have persevered through in sharing truth with mental health. You have helped me push through regression, depression, addiction and fear surrounding my Borderline Personality Disorder and intense dissociating from trauma, I'm starting to look at self with kindness and love and I'm healing. Thankyou

[@emmawatsonfan131]

You have no idea how happy I was to see you all in my sub box. Your videos feel like we’re sitting in a room together talking. It’s nice.

[@blueriver.]

LOVE THE KITTYYYYY!!! LOVE THE MAKEUP!!!! LOVE THE INTRO! ("Hi it's Kya i think") LOVE EVERYTHINGGGG!!!

[@khloflowers]

I've followed ya'll for a while, and I'm happy that you all are back! On a side note, the makup is hella nice. And I also have a ragdoll name Elara, and Seraphina makes me realize that the chatty nature may just be a ragdoll thing lol

[@SohiHien]

All these breeds of cats are chatty. It's a pointed breed thing. Siamese, birmans, ragdolls, himalayans etc. All blue eyed cat breeds with color points tend to be very chatty with loud meows.

[@paytonmichelle2767]

I’m 100% aware that this is not the topic of your video today but your makeup is on point! Looks absolutely amazing!

[@sxturn2357]

i was recently diagnosed with DID after a few years of being misdiagnosed and it was hard for me as the host to accept that I wasn't the only one, but I was also relieved that now I know I wasn't just faking it and looking for attention and that there was something actually there. this channel has educated me since chloe was the host, so it was helpful to have some sort of knowledge about terminology and stuff like that

[@brunanicolau9634]

I am so happy you didn't give up, I've watching your videos and it have been really good for me. I am glad you found a way to be strong, i am so sorry you had to pass for a such hard time last year and i am happy you are here again. You are helping people here. You all have a unique light!!

[@seal8900]

I was just thinking about how I missed you guys’ videos! I’m so happy that you’re all safe again!

[@jocelynprior1874]

I've got a question for you, Kya. When you integrated, how was Kyle's gender dysphoria? I know he struggled with the skirts and makeup and long hair and stuff so im just curious how that translated into Kya

[@Skywalker8510Too]

I was wondering that too

[@sunsetskye483]

Kya is genderfluid, so I assume it’s less of an issue now since they can wear clothing that fits how they feel.

[@selenamiller3813]

Did their integration occur between Cholë and Kyle into Kya? Making Kya the host as of now?

[@jocelynprior1874]

@@selenamiller3813 Chloe integrated with another alter quite a while ago into Nin. I thought

[@littlemullberry]

I'm so happy your system is back, thank you so much for sharing so much and explaining consepts in a way that integrated personalities can understand, you all are amazing

[@belladonnablack8486]

I LOVE your makeup, hair, and pretty sweater in this video! This was really informative and has really good tips. Thank you for making this video even though some parts were tough because of kitten watching and dissociation. I really enjoyed this video. A lot of love to you, Kya, and the rest of the DissociaDID system! 💕

[@kateelizabeth8436]

Lots of love to Kya and all of the system! Your channel has educated so many people and it’s incredibly brave to share your story. xoxo!!!

[@torismusic]

i've been following your channel for a loong time now and i'm very happy u guys are back and safe! only do what you feel comfortable with and i'm sure everyone's happy to see you again, no expectations ☺️🖤🎉

[@seila9383]

so happy that youre making new videos again 💃💃

[@BreezeLove-jy6eu]

U r all so very sweet and special!! Thank u so much for making these videos!! It makes my day so much brighter everytime i see your precious face and ugh... it's been pretty gloomy for me here lately!! So thank u again so much!! I just need a big hug!! Love u all!!♡♡♡

[@hries05]

All kindness and love from me to you guys! Loving getting to know you more Kya ❤️ P.s you look gorgeous today

[@christinemallen1506]

0:40 "Hi everybody, it's Kya, I think and...." .....relatable honestly

[@katethielen3883]

13:00 I respect the hard work you and your system are putting into this!!! Wow 🙌🏻

[@lilithlynn]

I just wanna note that I really appreciate you doing videos where you actually show the dissociation. I find that very relatable and now I know I'm not alone. I used to think I was forgetful or stressed when this kind of dissociation hit me until I learned what it actually was!

[@VickyViolet]

Love to see the system taking time for themselves and their fur baby, lots of love. 💜

[@alexisr9587]

hey kya! i just wanted to say thank you so much for doing this. for being so open about dissociation, ive been really struggling with it lately, and it's a weird relief to know im not alone. it absolutely brightens my day to see you and seraphina, especially because of how hard my day today was. you're such a role model to me, and you've helped me grow so much over the years. i hope you start to feel better, all my love goes out to you

[@Star-Crash]

“it’s kya, i think” i have never related so hard before

[@ehbepbep2307]

I know you said you weren't sure but I LOVE your makeup! The drawn-on lower lashes look so good, you always have such pretty eye makeup in all your videos 🥰

[@katherinefuentes7497]

God I'm so so happy, you have no idea. I really loved your content and see you again explaining all of this is super helpful. Actually it's perfect timing, considering my husband doesn't know his system yet, and his kind of in denial, so I'll be careful with the information and I'll ask him if he wants to know more, etc. Anyway I'm really happy to see you again, I'm excited that you are starting to upload content again. Just do whatever you feel comfortable uploading. The video about types of dissociation would be very helpful for us, I hope you can do it. And if it's not much to ask, an update of the system would be awesome!!, Just if you can do it. Greetings from Chile ❤️

[@matthewtikka5133]

I just wanted to say thank you! This has been so helpful! Ive been struggling for a long time. I recently realized I have DID, after mapping and figuring out who knows who... I realized there is no host! My wife left me 7 years ago and my host bailed on us! As life crumbles the next host jumped ship, rinse and repeat 5 times! I didn't understand how to communicate that I remember going fishing, I went fishing a lot! And I don't like fishing!!! I rember there was a time I hugged people, but I don't know what it feels like! I'm just the alter that was built for pain!!! The rest of us are all for negative feelings, except for one is a child. That explains why some days my motor skills are that of a toddler! I'm the only one who has communication with the rest. I guess it's my job to figure this out! We are ill equipped, but have the know how to fix this. I'm getting those dummies that left us here because I'm not starting over!

[@choochoo3376]

Tysm for explaining stuff about DID, it’s really helpful for me to understand my online friends with DID and your videos are my comfort videos!

[@elezeiaz]

Super dissociated & still the same worth & awesomeness then when not. With every video you teach me more and more how I can be a better friend to my friend with DID. Their system is so awesome & it is thanks to you that I can be a good friend to them. Thank you Kya & the DissociaDID system!

[@matthewgordon799]

So excited to see a new video! Does Seraphina know who is fronting/can tell the difference between alters?

[@allisonn6056]

I know I'm not them, but I'm betting that she does! Our dogs act out for one of the male alters in the system every single time he comes out. With me, they're perfectly calm. They don't do it for any other alter in our system. Only him. We also have a parakeet and he looks at us like he's curious or something by paying more attention to us if we dissociate near him according to friends. If it's someone he's unfamiliar with, he acts all standoffish

[@briannamillar1216]

I appreciate how candid you are, Kya! No need to apologize for your dissociation, I am happy to watch more of your videos now that you seem to be in a better place!

[@pAwLinNe17]

My ADHD butt relates so much about the distraction and dissociation throughout the whole video. I would also sometimes forget what I'm talking about midsentence, so you didn't need to apologize for it. AND LOVE THE MAKEUP! It fits Kya very much. Also, for some reason you look like your kitten. Or maybe she looks like you? Anyway, I'm not sure if Maya had been introduced yet, do you think she'd like to do a Meet the Alter?

[@CherryFruitSnack]

Same, ADHD here too! Thanks for articulating this👍

[@ciannaperez8754]

I hope Jade is doing ok, and I’m glad that you guys are taking the time you need while still giving the rest of us educational content. Please take care of yourselves.

[@LovePantsu]

I'm so so so happy to see you upload again! Kya is such a lively and lovely speaker, and those unedited "bloopers" only add to the appeal hehe. Wish you guys the best on your journey, can't wait for the system update❤️

[@vannymcelis]

Love your videos, thanks for the hard work Kya tons of love from Venezuela to the system ❤️🤗

[@kamikazi9266]

My friend has DID so I'm just watching a whole bunch of your videos to learn more so I can be the best friend I can be, thank you so much for all of the info! 💛

[@twinstarssystem2857]

We recently instituted a buddy system for ourselves, even though we have fairly good internal communication, and it's been really helpful for making sure everyone feels heard, because someone's buddy is supposed to be something of a representative, who can speak for us when we're voting on something or having a meeting and we're not able to participate for whatever reason (for example, when the front can't be left unattended for an indefinite period). We're able to meet up and make collaborative decisions in a much more efficient way, and we don't have to worry about how to make sure dormant members of the system are considered in major decisions. Of course, this does require that we're able to choose our buddy and trust them completely, which might not work in systems with worse communication.

[@Kamikat86]

when we feel that loss of thoughts it almost feels like we are brushing up against one of the walls its like your headed for a blackout that just doesnt happen. Happy to see a new vid and your kitty is soooooooo cute!

[@海草猫]

Seraphina is so talkative and has so much personality, I just adore her so much omg!!

[@helliwe2761]

This is the perfect video to watch before going to bed ❤️ love that you guys are still making videos. 😊 Also the body of yours looks kinda like a woodland elf with the hair and makeup, because your ears look quite pointy if that makes sense 😂 looks so beautiful. You guys seem quite comfortable and confident 😊 also I love your podcast

[@miriamhappe1066]

thank you kya, for this video. i am proud of you for keeping us updated, you seem really strong. keep doing what best and safest for you all in the system. much love to you all

[@jnbg61584]

You’ve mentioned having relationships and living with DID. I don’t remember if you’ve made a video about having pets and DID. I would think some of the same things can apply, but I’m sure there’s probably plenty of differences. I was just curious what your system thinks about Seraphina, who is just so beautiful. I’m a big fan of cats and Siamese/Ragdoll family is just great

[@GoogleUser-wl7ew]

Glad you made this and glad to see you making content. I have followed you for a very long time before anyone was talking about or showing DID on KZbin. There is a lot of fake content, and it’s sad to see inaccurate depictions. It’s so misunderstood and I think your channel is one of the lone beams of hope in getting real understanding and awareness. 😍 love you, support you always. I had DID more as a child and what’s left now is sort of like a maternal figure that only comes when I’m really really distressed and sick and need help. Almost like hearing my mothers internal voice… in myself? It’s hard to explain but it’s comforting and sometimes makes me a little sad because it barely happens anymore and It can be very lonely in the quiet times once you’ve sort of comet together and healed. I had a very severely traumatic childhood. I remember clearly one of my first memories was an alter who was much much older and protecting being in control and thinking how annoying it was to be talked to like a child by someone who had no idea that they weren’t speaking to me. I couldn’t explain it and I never tried to tell anyone. I just thought everyone had many people inside of them and when you died you woke up inside someone else with different people. When I was very very young. I didn’t understand it was DID until diagnosis, and then when I found mr robot on tv I began to feel less alone and then your channel. Nobody knew what it meant and would think it was the same as schizophrenia which Trisha so incorrectly misinformed people even more confusing the two as somehow the same thing when they aren’t. I appreciate your content and hope you make it even when you’ve healed and you feel like you’ve come together. It’s a weird thing it’s like you integrated all of your into a whole eventually but it gets quieter and quieter with pieces left behind. Like.. things they liked you will find a craving for and remember why. Not everyone is the same but for me… anyway. Or you will find you like some complete different style outfit to what you yourself like and be very attracted to it and then realise it isn’t really you it’s that part of you that was an alter, it’s not like they are gone it’s like you became this whole piece and you feel them but you don’t experience it the same? Sometimes it makes me sad. Sometimes I wish I hadn’t healed because it was less scary to not face things alone or to be able to be numb to things and not experience them if I wasn’t capable. It’s not easy to explain. 🥰😍 this channel will forever be one of my most comforting channels.

[@mollybarker7611]

I hope the system is feeling better after the twitch stream

[@randomniss9470]

Glad you all are back and doing as much as you can you heal yourselves and continue to do what you can to reach out and help others heal too.

[@PudgeySeal]

Given how much work goes into these videos, it would have been really easy to edit out all the dissociating moments and I really appreciate that they chose not to do that. It shows a lot more of the realities of trying to work while having DID, plus it also adds to the culture of the channel, making it feel more casual in a way that makes the information easier to absorb

[@CautiousRabbit]

I have severe adhd and i can completely relate to the metal door 100%. Idk if its exactly the same but based out how u described it, I totally get it. Its extremely frustrating for sure

[@dwarfplanets533]

Hello, Kya! Hope you all have a wonderful day today

[@Bella-sb8fo]

I am so happy to see your channel up and running again!! It was lovely to meet Kya in the last video, I'm glad you have found healing and have your little kitty to comfort you. I love seeing you back and I hope it doesn't become overwhelming to you or at some point feel mandatory. We all care about you and support you!! We only want whats best for you

[@miu3640]

Thank you for your content! You are awesome, but please take care of yourself >-< I love you guys ♡

[@carlyblack42]

Looking forward to meeting new alters! I don't recall Mara from before, but the makeup looks fabulous! Thanks for sharing this info! As always, Serafina is adorable 😍

[@ScarletFlower95]

I can't wait to see how Jade, Omega, and Sally are doing! I hope we get to meet the new alters soon. :) I hear Mara mentioned a lot but I don't think we've met her. I hope we can meet her soon. :)

[@user-wu8fx3wz6g]

i will never get over how eloquently you explain things ,, welcome back!

[@lee-hv1el]

heyyy question from me as an alter in a system- do you (or any other systems reading this) ever have a long patch where only one alter is fronting for days or weeks and everyone else is silent?? those can be kind of frightening for our system and we don’t know how to deal with it yet. thanks!!! 🖤💞✨

[@skeetsmcgrew3282]

I remember Chloe saying sometimes she got tired of fronting for long stretches. It made her feel as though she was responsible for everything, like "OMG will somebody please take a turn taking care of this dang meatbag for awhile" lol. I cant say I remember her specifically saying it was scary for her but Im sure its completely different for everyone

[@lee-hv1el]

@@skeetsmcgrew3282 yeah i totally relate to that HAHAH- the only reason it can be kind of scary is because you’re so used to having that support, hearing other opinions, or hearing advice, that when it goes silent it feels like that support is kinda gone :(

[@yippeeflowers]

yes! i was the only one fronting through a silent period recently, for just over a year. turns out there was a communication jam caused by pregnancy and birth trauma (it started just after i got pregnant and lasted until just last month) as well as various uncontrolled splits and fusions. so glad we're finally back to slowly unpacking it though, and that more alters are getting to meet our baby! -no name yet, previously nen (host of the wildflower system)

[@allisonn6056]

Yes for sure! It happens sometimes and is scary for us too. I can't get away from the things out here to go in for a break, and not hearing them just makes me feel lonely, or like something bad happened to them

[@cutepotato6476]

I have Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue and I totally get what you are talking about when you say a metal door is coming down. When a flare hits, i have such terrible brain fog that I feel someone has put reality in a blender and just made a smoothie out of it. Thank you for making this video anyway. Also, I am so glad for your re uploaded videos, you have helped me so much in dealing with my mental health. I absolutely love Kya.

[@kellanvaskel]

:) happy to see y’all again Love the kitty cat cameows too 🤩

[@rai1879]

The matching of the dark color accents and overall beige/white with Kya and Seraphina are GOALS 💕

[@MykaGhostt]

As someone who doesn't have DID or know anyone personally with it, I'm curious how having two systems in one body works? Maybe I'm not phrasing that correctly, but I'm curious about it

[@lee-hv1el]

i have DID and even i’m curious about that too LOL, i guess we learn new stuff all the time

[@tired2266]

There are different types of systems in systems, or subsystems. U can either have an alter have alters that form a subsystem, or u can have a group of alters with better communication to one another than the rest of the system

[@jamescurfman3284]

That is what this whole channel is about. You could scroll to the bottom and start from the beginning. That's a lot of videos. Some are longer than others. Please remember that every system will be different from every other system so anything said is from very specific points of view and could be completely different when dealing with other channels.

[@kibi7904]

my jaw literally dropped when the video started. this makeup look really suits your features, you guys look absolutely stunning 😭

[@earthariss]

Hearing Seraphina's little pitter-patters in the background is actually the most calming thing to us. Thx for taking the time for making this vid btw 👍🏻 -Chris

[@imlonely8752]

You are GLOWING lovely, we have missed you so much and you seem so much healthier, thank you so much for returning so that we could countinue to learn about DID and your system, BTW Seraphina is such a cutie!!!