Tears Streaming Down My Face | Let's Be Honest with Kristin Cavallari

Join me from Cabo for my most emotional episode yet as I discuss bufo (what is it, what you can expect), my personal experience from being in a kaleidoscope to emotion literally trying to leave my body, then losing my brother, dealing with grief, and getting signs from a love one who's past.
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[@lalae2023]

Oh Kristin this level of vulnerability and sharing is amazing. Keep on doing this ❤

[@shariemami4029]

I lost my cat a year ago and it felt like I lost my child. I was utterly devastated and completely heartbroken . My heart was hurting soooo much. In addition my good friend that I loved dearly got murdered in Vegas outside a club after getting mugged. My heart shattered into so many pieces and the physical symptoms of grief and so hard to deal with. Stomach aches, chest pain, back aches. She’s right about everything in how we process this and heal.

[@ArielCunningham127]

Girl, your killing it! Don’t stop loving and living it up exactly the way you are doing it! Love you ❤

[@MissJNadine]

I felt the exact same way about grieving when my mom passed. I remember feeling so angry with people saying “Thinking of you” “shes in a better place” “ be strong” even though I obviously know it was coming from a good place but all I kept thinking was you have no idea how I feel and that will never bring her back. Now that I know that feeling my conversations are different. First off I never tell people to be strong when they just lost a loved one. You shouldn’t be strong you should be grieving.

[@brittanyb5942]

Thank you for saying this! Sometimes I truly don’t know what to say when someone has lost someone. Most of the time I can only hug them without words and say I’m so sorry 😞

[@NatalieSWS94]

As someone who doesn’t know what you’re going through, What would be the right thing to say? Say we aren’t that close but I want you to know I’m thinking of you and I’m sorry for your loss, would it not be okay to say “thinking of you” as part of a message? genuinely asking for advice as that would be something I would say but wouldn’t want to upset/annoy someone grieving.

[@RainbowwRach]

Don’t be sorry for showing emotion 💛 it’s a strength

[@sydneykingshaw7646]

I have had this same dream Kristin. We lost my brother 12-16-22 to a Fentanyl overdose. My brother was always known for his big bear hugs. I dreamt that I opened my bedroom door and he was standing right there. And just hugged me so tight. It shook me out of my sleep when he touched me. I felt him. It was so powerful. You telling this story confirms that it actually happened. He was there! He was real. And your brother was too. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@jazzyg530]

Your comment gave me full body chills!

[@riannabustamante5677]

Even if you have the chance to say goodbye it’s so hard… you just start to grieve earlier because you know what’s to come…. Wishing everyone out there to be surrounded with love and positivity. I love this podcast ❤

[@BowsandRibbons824]

Our spirit is having a human experience! ❤❤❤

[@fishfooood]

I say this all the time

[@nicholedoughty9344]

Thank you for talking about your brother and your grief. It will be 6 years without my big brother. I can feel your pain. It's nice to know we aren't alone with this battle.

[@catherinehuynh7068]

I went through the same thing when my 12 year old dog died. I cried so hard saying i wish i could hold you one more time. And in my dream, i physically held her and when i woke i literally felt as if i actually did feel and held her. Ill never forget it and this was 4 years ago. That was the craziest realest thing i have experienced in a dream state.

[@jlo2474]

Tears streaming down my face listening to this. I lost my Mom 5 years ago this May, and it’s changed me. One of the hardest parts of life is experiencing loss from the passing of a loved one.💔

[@racinevperez]

I can relate, I lost my Mom a year ago and in one of the worst ways. Loss and grief change you as a person.

[@tracilord4854]

I lost my Mum 12 years ago & it's one of the hardest. I always wished I could have had one last hug & conversation. 😭❤

[@kandiramirez3548]

Kristin when you talked about hugging your brother in the “dream state” it punched me in the gut. I had a similar experience with my grandpa who passed years ago. I never told anyone knowing that my experience was special and held so close to my heart . I finally told my mom about it almost 20 years later. I am no longer fearful of death and know there is more than this.

[@EllenFoley-j5o]

In tears listening to your opinion on grief and losing your brother. I lost my beautiful baby during labour and I pray every day that we will find each other in another lifetime and cuddle.

[@isabellesender]

When the conscious is let go, the subconscious can surface and it is extremely emotional and can feel like another dimension. 💕💕💕

[@jillkubitschek2145]

This is probably my favorite of your podcasts so far❤

[@DKIkard]

Same ❤

[@ky-yx8po]

Same 💓🕊

[@yvonne3678]

Thank you for sharing. I have the same spiritual beliefs. I lost my Brother when I was 15, in 54 now, but had a VERY vivid dream of him visiting me & taking me to the place he is now. He was showing me he was ok and in a good place. And I knew it was real. Unless it’s happened to you, you couldn’t understand.

[@Shellsea22]

We are conscious of being conscious. We definitely go on after this earth life. ❤ I received lots of signs from my sister after she passed as well.

[@NatNat4Tally]

Omg I loved this entire episode. That dream you had of hugging your brother, was 1000% a visitation. I get them from my mom from time to time. I feel like it happens when she knows I need her most. And it's exactly how you described it. The feeling of it being so real, the emotions when you wake up. It's powerful. ❤

[@acsquared5533]

This episode is so good!! I resonate and feel the same way. Thank you for opening up and sharing with the world. We need more good hearted people like you in this world in the spot light. Much love to you Kristin 🧑‍🎓💕

[@melissaj_cochran5638]

You showing your emotions like this and being vulnerable is so meaningful and powerful. I just went through a divorce two years ago and can relate on that feeling of relief you had when it was finalized!

[@tabithalehner5713]

This is probably the only podcast I’ve most resonated with. 😊 Perfect episode and well done. Thank you for sharing. ❤

[@gretchenparker1491]

Loved hearing you be vulnerable and sharing a different side/perspective to you! It shows you truly never know what someone’s been through. Thank you for being open and so deeply sorry ❤

[@amye8733]

Please don't throw puffer fish back and forth .

[@thisismetoday]

Gee, yes, what’s that about!

[@KyraSchaeffer]

I can listen to you talk for hours Kristin ❤

[@patriciagoodwin1922]

Thank you Kristin, please never apologize for feeling emotional, it's necessary to let those feelings surface. I'm dealing (as I know many are) with grief, I lost my Dad to cancer when I was 17 years old. At our home the day Dad passed away, he called out to me and reached out for me but my brother grabbed me and rushed me out of the room. My brother's girlfriend came and took me to her house, I never got to say good bye to my Dad but had been taking care of him so I had time with him. So yeah like so many of us, I struggle, have had so many dreams about him. Same with my soul Beagle, Dustin, so many dreams where he can come through a door but I can't go through the door when he goes back through and he is with my childhood Beagle and my parents. Your words gave me so much comfort, I do believe in life after death. Big hugs to you Kristin and thank you again.

[@marissasalomon2709]

Love this. Went through my spiritual awakening around 2018 after seeing ALL the signs. Your beliefs are very similar to what I discovered as well. It’s very rewarding to be on this side of it now, after being on the journey for 6 years and continuing to learn all along the way. Wishing you all the best (and Justin) he cracks me up.

[@oliviajofficial]

Wow I wasn’t expecting this episode to jump in talking about psychedelic experiences but what an awesome topic, thank you for sharing with us Kristin 🖤

[@jessicasmith1292]

Amazing episode! Got so much out of this and love hearing people talk about these kind of experiences. I actually believe the same about this being the "dream". To me it feels like we will wake up from this and everything will make so much sense and then eventually we will be ready to "dream" again. It can be hard to talk about this stuff where I am from. Your pod was a much needed escape from that today. Thank you!

[@Pudgie-y4i]

Kristin I lost my daughter at two i know what grief is and I will never get over the loss thank you people don’t understand the grief i don’t talk about it to anyone so thank you it brings tears to me everyday

[@annehopkins513]

Hi Kristin. I've heard that when we have 'dreams' of our loved ones who've past, it's actual contact. We are on their realm. Now.. I'm going back to listen to you describe it. I'm happy you feel him around through signs, I lost my Dad 36 years ago.. those signs bring me peace also.

[@captainofmysoul6162]

A comforting word from the Bible regarding your brother. Scripture says, "I am a God of the living". Your brother is living(not on Earth, obviously)Spirit does not die.

[@biancacordova-sapien8441]

I absolutely relate to you with the unexpected loss of my brother. Thank you for sharing I feel you with the addictions and grief. That helped me. I just lost him so this is so helpful. ❤

[@Brittany-0919]

I lost my 36 yr old brother last Tuesday. I wish I could give you a big warm hug!

[@ShaylaShar]

I'm kinda nervous about saying this. I think certain people might be careful. Unfortunately I know that their are other realms. I'm trying to figure out how to say this. Things can follow you back. Evil things. It's hard to fight what you can't see. You just can't go. I'm sorry now go away. Here I am 2 years later dealing with this stuff all because I was curious about the spirit world. It's only by the grace of God and his love for me. That I'm here telling this story. May God bless you and your family ❤

[@adriennerinehart]

I related so much to everything you have said in this! Its so nice to see this side of you and i love hearing your opinion on life and afterlife. Iv thought aboutball this for years and its always refreshing to hear someone elses thoughts and feelings on the subject.

[@KristiAllureBeauty]

Thank you for being so vulnerable Kristin! Grief is just brutal! I lost both my parents back to back and it's just the worst feeling in the entire world and nobody understands that pain unless they've lost! I'm still waiting for those types of dreams! I feel like even at 4yrs now I still can't accept my mom's passing. Thank you for the book recommendation! I will definitely check it out! I moved away from Sacramento to Newport Beach after my mom passed and just being away from all those memories just helped me get through the days. I couldn't stomach being in that area without them! My parents will never see my biggest days ahead but I know like you said just keeping the faith is all we can do through the grief! ❤

[@lamblingelser1110]

Ive done DMT and it changed my perspective on life after death and life itself.....my own spiritual journey... im excited for you! Life changing.

[@JeNn0mic0n]

The title of this video and your experience in Cabo remind me of the song “Fix You” by Coldplay. Such a powerful song that brings me to tears every time. We love you, Kristin!

[@jdoerr69]

have never listened to your podcast. I really enjoyed your show. I lost my son 3 years ago and I completely get what you are saying a 10000%.

[@heatherhellier1995]

This has helped me. My mom died a year ago. I see hearts everywhere. I believe they are signs from her. ❤

[@Des-Laine]

TY for sharing this experience. I have been a long time fan from the beginning. I understand exactly,I lost my little sister in 2012. Sending love, peace, and joy.🦋🧡

[@mandaxxiwx]

Thank you so much for having this podcast. You are just such an awesome, down to earth person. I can't believe how closely our beliefs are and just how cool it is to hear someone of your status being so relatable. 🖤

[@Sabrinnaaa7]

I really admire you for talking about this with all of us. I cant even imagine the pain of losing a sibling.

[@graphicgrunt]

You are becoming a natural speaking one on one to the audience. Love it! Also thank you for sharing. Keep it up!

[@nikihzsd]

suuuuuuch a good episode and love the vibe of being in cabo while you explain your experience

[@renabateman9703]

I think she’s able to really describe this and feel so vulnerable and connected because she had that psychedelic experience.

[@francescavillanueva1911]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I lost my dad back in 2013, and have experienced similar experiences. Sending you much love! 💕

[@jcollora8634]

Loved this episode on so many levels! As someone who is grieving, I truly appreciate you and this podcast. Thank you for sharing honestly (def made a list of your recommendations). ❤

[@kirstenpierce8437]

Oh girl. I just started bawling at my desk when you said you had your daughter on Monday and your brother went missing on Friday. Post partum emotions / hormones on top of that trauma must have been so hard. Shows a true testament to your strength. ❤️

[@Wistner2154]

Omg I loved this episode so much. And cannot wait for the episode with the medium!!

[@sunblazn]

Thank you for talking about grief! I lost my fiance October 2023. I helped him to cross over, hardest thing I ever had to do. It’s ok, I realize I can’t bring you back. The delusion I was living in for those days after his passing was surreal. He was unconscious and able to speak, I asked him to please send me signs that he is always with me. His last name was Penny and he is forever sending me pennies! I really appreciate you validating everything that we know .. this is temporary and one day we will be reunited again. Firmly believe I. A soul tribe, too! 💝👼🏻💝

[@janiceg7661]

Grief is soul crushing. I lost my husband unexpectedly after the most beautiful vacation. It was so sudden. Alcohol related cardiac event. I didn't see it coming. I thought he was sober and doing well. Very painful.

[@sarahb_]

I do feel for you with what happened to your brother. I’m sorry that happened to him.

[@michelleruddy1969]

I love this episode. I have all of the same beliefs, which is comforting. I don’t know a lot of people that I can relate to and have these spiritually thought provoking conversations with, so thank you for this topic and your vulnerability. ❤

[@alexandramaitlen5426]

i love all of this for you. definitely in a healing era right now ✨ this was beautiful to listen to!

[@yeahumok]

you’ve been having my heart for more than half my life ❤

[@karlimakrina2538]

Thank you for sharing, this was a beautiful conversation and loved that you can be so raw and real and humble. THIS is what we need more of in the world. Relatable, relevant, authentic, real, profound and deep conversations with ourselves and others. I totally remember that kaleidoscope feeling on dmt at a festival once, it was such an intense and eye opening experience. It can definitely be overwhelming to have so much emotion, color, vibrance, information blowing your mind all so fast. Cabo sounds beautiful, hugs to you on your healing journey. It's not easy to lose someone but I love this perspective, it helps 🤍💫🫂

[@sairahsultan8028]

Erin Lyons and Sara Landon are two incredible ladies who channel higher dimension beings (of love and light) and I think this experience you've had really is just the beginning of your awakening ❤ Joe Dispenza is also INCREDIBLE when it comes to the quantum field of reality x

[@cheyykenny2324]

I love this and how open you were. I think that I died and I’m living a new life. I can’t explain it. I know how I died but I can’t explain how I’m still here and how it’s different.

[@funnyfam7305]

Love this honesty girl, thank you so much for sharing ❤ the shack is also another amazing book/movie on spirituality and losing loves ones.

[@kelleysullivan8250]

Grief is a cloud that hangs over us.

[@hippyheartlove]

I’ve lost my mommy and sister within a year of each other. 2021. It was nice to hear your signs. I have not asked for any yet…. Makes it’s to real. 😞

[@StephsGC]

My husband lost his father last yr in a tragic, traumatic, unexpected accident here at my house. My husband still says he feels like he's living a dream because he still feels like his dad is coming back from a long trip. What you said about it finally hitting you after 3 yrs, that your brother isn't coming back is so scary and heartbreaking because my husband is in this state of numbness that I feel like when the 3 yr anniversary comes, he's either going to break or be at peace with it. Thanks for sharing.

[@lizkellogg8519]

It was WILD to hear you talk about your bufo experience. I've taken "magic" mushrooms before, but never more than 1 gram. One night I told my hubby I wanted to have my first trip. Him and his friend were my trip buddies. I took about 3 grams while sitting on a chair on our patio. When I came out of it, I swore I had traveled to different places in the world and other dimensions. Come to find out, I never left that chair. It was wild and opened my mind to what else is out there.

[@sierraparker8374]

Thank you for this episode 🥹

[@MamaLama1920]

I love watching and listening to you. Great episode!

[@michelle67310]

What a powerful episode 😢 Thank you so much for sharing your experience and story. ❤

[@Brittany-0919]

Kristin, I am SO SORRY for your loss! I just lost my brother last Tuesday, 3/5/24. He has struggled with drugs and was actually doing good at this point but he was really sick from the damage done to his body and he didnt realize it. He went to sleep thinking he was sick with like a regular flu or covid. He had blood in his mouth when he died, so we think he was bleeding internally. Waiting for autopsy results, he was just 36. I am grateful that he passed peacefully, but I feel it might've been preventable if he went to a doctor.

[@ManifestingInclinations]

We have such parallel in this dream , what we call life. I just finished a two year divorce (I have three kids as well), I had the same exact hug with my mom. Cabo was the first trip I took for myself during my first year in divorce. Now I just have to try Bufo. Ayahuasca would be way too much for me too. Thank you for sharing!! Xx

[@debi1018]

I've lost 2 siblings and that shit sucks. I often think about doing an ayahuasca type ceremony to release my trauma from it. But I'm scared. Hearing about this less intense treatment may be something to look into. Thank you for opening up and sharing.

[@kerrydonovan2052]

Beautiful podcast! Thank you Kristin! I Can so relate to loosing a brother...... I had the same hugging dream and it was so special and freeing. xo

[@psychedelicaltar]

I am a psychedelic facilitator/ practitioner who serves Bufo, it changed my life, and holding space for people to experience this medicine and the incredible healing experience it provides, love this for you so much, love the emotion behind it as well, yasssss you beautiful brave soul you- thanks for sharing your experience !!!!! 🐸🤍🌵✨

[@christie8197]

Loved 🥰 this episode!! I think this is the most vulnerable I have ever seen you get ❤ And I have been following you since LB ! Thanks for opening up and sharing !!!

[@albanian_anisa]

I love you I’ve been following you from Laguna days just had my 35th birthday yesterday and I always looked up to you and your strength. You were more beautiful than you know. I love you more today as the woman you are and I always knew your story about your brother And we will all see each other again🕊️🕊️🕊️🕊️🪦💔😘

[@PearlTower45]

My mom died 20 years ago, I was 17 and yes I agree with you, I hear her around me alllllllll the time. She was my best friend and now my daughter who was born 10 years during the same month as my mother. They are both kind hearted, feisty Leo's.

[@BeautyXXBrittany]

THE SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME WIT MY OLDER BROTHER, BUT HE DROWNED in the Susquhanna river and they didn't find his body for 3 or 4 days and he was 24 I was 15, my mom had to go identify his body. It really sucked!!

[@jesschmess0hmy698]

Wow that's really intense. I'm so sorry for your loss and that you had to go through that ❤

[@harlequinn27]

I lost my dad last year and went through a very similar spiritual experience -still am going through it - where you are just trying to figure out what it all means. Part of this podcast really spoke to me, but on the other hand it's hard for me to think that a truly spiritual experience can be had from taking a substance that effects the brain and brain chemicals. You took a substance that makes your brain do all this crazy stuff. Can you explain a little more how you know your experience wasn't just the effects of the drug?

[@jillianmartin6335]

💯 agree with your idea of the afterlife. I also have had really vivid dreams. Tangible. Felt air, stones under my feet, birds. I woke up knowing I had been somewhere else. Thank you for sharing BTW that's tough to do. ❤

[@Takemetothepines]

Loved this episode!! Thank you for sharing your experience

[@brittanyknol]

I love seeing this side of you 🩷

[@nadiaabdella4401]

I read many lives when I lost my BF … it helped me cope in some way. Knowing that it’s a possibility

[@moreadventure3627]

I did Ayahuasca and still feeling traumatized I wish I had a better experience

[@HH-gv8mx]

In the wake of everything going on with Wendy Williams, I was listening to Joy Behar, say that Wendy Williams had the gift of being able to talk to anyone, even herself just continuously talk and make it entertaining. Not many people have this gift. Kristin is able to talk about any subject and you can just listen to her for hours.

[@ericah7040]

It’s almost 5 years since I lost my mom. My aunt finds dimes and the years on the dimes are always significant to my mom.

[@Gymgirly356]

I can relate to this episode because my Grandpa, my former co worker, and my mom’s aunt died and they all three were in my dream and my former co worker actually talked to me in my dream and told me why he passed! I also had dreams about my mom’s aunt that my sister and I were dancing in this house downstairs and my mom’s aunt was looking down on us watching us and I’ll never forget that dream! Gives me chills just thinking about it because we know our loved ones are safe and looking down on us! 🕊️🕊️🕊️🪽🪽🪽🪽

[@Lohinh]

I needed this conversation. Love you Kristin

[@rosab6952]

Great episode Kristin!! I’ve lost a sister and my father, I relate a ton to what you’re saying and feeling, so thank you for sharing!! My mom also read the book ‘Many lives many masters’ and recommended it to me as well. Thank you for sharing your bufo experience, I’m interested in seeing how it could help me. Keep killin it girlfriend! ♥️✨

[@Wistner2154]

Thank you for telling us about that book too!! Love this all and sooo resonated with it!

[@kschoeck]

More topics like this! Would love to hear your take on other drugs, plant medicines, and spirituality

[@harmoonize-zj7lh]

So happy to see this type of content from you!

[@kyled1201]

Awesome story.. Hope to see more like this. Thanks

[@debbieparcells367]

I've read Many Lives Many Masters. quite a few years ago, It is very inspiring,. Thank you for being so honest and sharing your thoughts. I was having a difficult few days and you helped me put things in perspective

[@PeaceMatters5]

I get this philosophical too, I'd love to try this spiritual ceremony. Thank you for being so authentic ❤

[@captainofmysoul6162]

that stuff puts you in the spirit realm with no protection from entities

[@trueblue3997]

Best podcast episode yet!!!! Keep ‘Em Coming girl! 🙌🏼🤍

[@sogiki]

I will say that I drove from California to CO through Utah and almost ran out of gas, and it truly is in the middle of nowhere. It was HOT, and all I could think about was that there was no one on the road to help and it truly was the middle of nowhere. It's a dangerous part of the journey.

[@JeNn0mic0n]

Not Kristin telling me to do some pineapple frog drug 😂 Honestly I want to now tho 🙋‍♀️

[@staceyphillips2922]

Beautiful! Thank you!

[@shawntingelhoff8167]

You are so spot on!! We are all souls here having a human experience. We are here to learn and we live many lives. Thank you for the book recommendation. Another great book to read is “At The Stroke of Eternity” by Amber Cavanagh.

[@styledbyollie2417]

this helps!!! it definitely helps me. THANK YOU. I’m for sure just one additional comment in i’m sure a lot but This helps and is so relatable 😊

[@heidiglasson7688]

I’m so here for the spiritual stuff 🙌 loved this