@melancholymelon5316 Ай бұрын
I adore the city cause of how diverse and messy it is. It has a very rebellious atmosphere, especially places like Haus Schwartzenberg with all the Graffiti. The contrast in the architecture of the different eras surprisingly fit together. It also has so much history. Hard to sum up what I think about it cause there is so much to love.
@Lilablaublassgruen Ай бұрын
It really is that kind of 'door to the world' feeling, I always loved when staying in berlin for a longer period of time or lets say, as you also said, you can find everything and everyone in berlin. Thats amazing. Are the dutch in love with 'saving money'? Like the german 'Schwaben'?! Never realised or heard that before. (I know, its kinda exaggeration). And - good and bad maybe - no one really cares about you - you just can easyly be and express yourself without being seen tooo much ;) (like 'running under the radar' as I like to say and often love to do) or if you like to be seen and get attention, its easily possible too. It just depend on where you go or your intention ;). Yeah, I don't know... its just reeeeally big .. I am happy (just for myself and my health - I really am) I did not go to berlin for my university degree (did study a little later than usual) and stayed where I just was (for someone cheating on me 😅 and wasting my time - 'Karma' will get him or already did, I think. And still it is not the chilliest and healthiest :P place to live. And the winter and darkness, are even colder, harsher (tje ostwind) and darker than somewhere else :P ... It's still my love but I don't know ... for me personally it really makes a place my place if I feel right there AND it really depends on the people you have in your life. This has a big influence on the experience of a place as well. I also guess, I have to hearts beating in my cheest!!! One for nature and calmness and connection to earth so to say and the other one beats for the options and opportunities you just can have and experirnce in a big city and I also do miss!!! Still living in a big city 🤔😅 but compared to berlin it really is a village. I ll see where I might end up in some years! Maybe its a great option to find a beautiful and an affordable place to live next to berlin, so you 'easily' (hahaha) can get there whenever you want to ... I just cannot say yet. Too many influences and questionmarks ;) and I just cannot (not yet ;)) look into the future. And as we know: it comes like it had to come ;). I am just a little silly today. Sorry. (Answered a comment of you as well, but the answer got lost before I was able to press the send button and I just couldn't push myself to write it again but I read your answers! (and I do not need to mention that I always could write and say something more, but there is a limit, I guess ;)). Have a great weekend
@post.mischa Ай бұрын
That is definitely true, it can be anything to find or also lonely and to hide! Well, I wouldn't say in love with 'saving money' but it a dutch sentiment, and compared to the dutch prices, it's just cheap (although secretly I barely go out for food cause of my diet haha). I do honestly get you though, I think once I got my 'career' in order, then I will probably also move to a more nature like place. I do like the city for inspiration, but that could also be an illusion. The thing is now, that for the first time in years I feel home in a place (apartment) where I am and for now I really enjoy that, but I would love to love in a region with more mountains, lakes and overall more nature. hahaha so funny to read, I also started studying later on, and grew up in a village as well, I always told myself I would be more fitting to be a city person. How I came back to that though, I love my peace! Are you currently living in a smaller village or city? Btw I just remembered! What were the texts of your two tattoos? Have a great weekend
@Lilablaublassgruen Ай бұрын
@@post.mischa hahaha, that's too 'funny', indeed :). Yeah, I guess, I get you! I am often not sure which side ia my true one. Souds weird, I guess. I mean, I know that our f.e.our surounding definitely has an impact on us. As many others things have, too. But where I live, definitely also has an impact on me. Aa said, mamy others things, too. I find it hard to explain what I mean. Hm. Of course I am always the same person. Its not like a switch in personality hehe. In a city other parts are activated than in nature or a village. Which one the reflections of my true self? I feel a greater connection to nature and animals than to the options of citylife (especially I wouldn't go out all the time and really just be happy if I had a 'safe, quiet, calm, cosy and green' space at home if I loved f.e.in Berlin) but on the other hand .... I loose track 😅. Too much in my mind I cannot express properly what the 'thing' is ... maybe its just all part of myself and it ll show by time. I also asked myself if city life might put some aspects of myself more prominent and active just because of the citylife - in a way of adapting ?! - but its not my true nature?! There just is too much distraction for me, so to say. I enjoy being out, having great conversation or enjoy some cultural events but well, I DEFINITELY need my time to rest and again connect to myself afterwards and I am not the one who loves to be or wants to be with people aaaall the time. Big events suck my energy. Time just is over where I went out all the time (note: against my true nature and more for 'bad coping'. Does it make sense? At least a little bit? Or maybe I am just socially phobic and that is my problem and covering my true nature ;) ... its not soooo easy ... and, I have to say it again (hehe) more complex. Or maybe I just think too much and just ignore to listen to my needs and feelings ENOUGH (including following them!!!). Its more complex ;). WHATEVA :) To answer your questions: (Didn't you read my answer :p?) It is alright! Well, I am currently living in a bigger city. Moved to hanover two years ago. Its a 'nice' city. Much green, which is important to me. But hm, I am not sure if this is the place where I ll grow old. I am much happier here than I was before, I kind of feel home and ... but if I have had free choice, I guess I would have picked it differently.. .. I don't truely feel it to be my place. But maybe there is no such feeling for me or its still in progress or home might be something for me personally I put together with other things as well. Yeah, always a lot thpughts and questions in my mind. Some call it: intellectual defense mechanisms ;)... The two letterings I also have (berlin also is part of my sleeve, in which, of course 😅, everything has its meaning). The berlim thing - of course, is not the letters 🤭). Ok. I am talking to much 'nonsens', so I try to just put it in simple meanings and easy questions: easy said, its like: 'be the one you want to be and you truely are in your nature (its not: be yourself 😉) or like, hm, the one you are, should be the one you truely feel you are meant to be ' ... and the other on is not sooo clear, but like 'love, compassion and empathy cannot be (=shouldn't be) seperatet from wisedom. They belong together as a union. Only the connection from method/ action/ characteristic (love, compassion, empathie) with wisdom makes it possible to use the energy of the universe for your (right) actions or for me it also means that I treat everything with respect - people, animals, nature - because there is no difference in rights and also you just feel truely connected to tje universe and its energy if you do so. This also is wisdom. So to say.' But its just vage and it means alot more. It also not clearly ttranslated in its meaning. Its old tibetian buddhism. I am not religious but I just do believe in the energy of the universe and 'something more or higher' than we can simply understand or explain and I try to 'progress' through my actual path of life by following some 'rules or believes'. That also was a process for me, of course and it ll be my whole life. And yeah, I often fail. But I am not a monk ;) and that's part of the path, I think. I think it all might sound too big and inflated. I tried to explain it but of course its not these exact meanings. I feel a little embarassed and ... little :) now. But its ok. I know what it means for myself I why I did chose to get them 'into my skin' many years ago. The one of them was my first tattoo. I think 16 years ago... not quite sure anymore. That is enough writing, right? I am terrible in keeping it short. Might be too much information. My apologies. How did you choose your tattoos? Is there any meaning in them - for you personally or did you just like the look of it? I would like to have some parts done differently today. But well, techniques also changed and I did too, of course and I feel more sad, that I believe I cannot get what I like. I am happy for you that you just got what you wanted to get :). I am always lucky to see people like you! It also reminds me of myself and also of the fact that I might be okay the way I am and I just should follow my intuition and my 'expetoences and knowledge' and also that I could do 'whatever I want with my apperance and m body' - even straight in my face. I mean, by 'watching you', not just to see you (cause appearance is just the 'shell' or the covering and can be wgat you expect or not) but to hear you talking about your experiences, thoughts, believes and perspectives on different topics and often feel you. I mean, it is the internet. I am not a fool but still guess I am able to see someones authenticity and honesty or the opposite. Of course we all have our dark sides and white lies but I feel you are really someone I might like if I had met you in real life. Better we should not have met in berghain ;). And I would also have said these sentences if you were any gender or non binary. Hope you know what I mean and no, I am not a silly or weird bean 😄. Today I might be a little silly. Maybe. But its just meant authentically. Always enjoy your words and apperance, just tje way you show yourself, and am glad, you came back after that break - 8 month - even that it is youtube. I am happy to see you here. Haha, what else to say? That is the only place I see you. Silly, I know. So, enough words and talk and its already late. My brain consequently slowed down ;) and its time for a brainbreak (= stop thinking and try to completely relax). Enjoy your sleep and weekend!