The Caretaker - Everywhere, an empty bliss (FULL ALBUM)

'Everywhere, an empty bliss' is available for free at Bandcamp.
thecaretaker.bandcamp.com/alb...
Audio remembered and disfigured by The Caretaker.
Compiled from unreleased archival works by Leyland Kirby.
Cover artwork by Ivan Seal - carlfreedman.com/artists/ivan...
Aural mastering by Stephan Mathieu - www.schwebung-mastering.com/
Released on History Always Favours The Winners.
An altered edition will appear on Compact-Disc which is
included in the catalogue for The Caretaker and Ivan Seal
exhibition at FRAC Auvergne in Clermont-Ferrand, France.
Running from April the 7th until the 16th of June, 2019.
www.frac-auvergne.fr/evenemen...
00:00:00 - Loss of want back there
00:05:20 - I might be vanishing
00:05:30 - Empty beyond beyond beyond
00:06:52 - Losing battle of loss
00:09:33 - Advanced plaque camaraderie
00:12:38 - All eyes bewildered
00:16:04 - Glimpses of life denial
00:18:40 - Equinox eyes will stop
00:21:40 - Losing loss of battle
00:24:18 - Plaque advanced despair
00:27:13 - Benjamin beyond bliss
00:28:20 - Drifting sublime hope
00:31:55 - Minimal all you are
00:35:33 - Internal unravel
00:39:12 - Dusk memory fraction
00:42:12 - Entanglement synapse ache
00:45:36 - And bliss everywhere bliss

[@vvmtest]

Thank you for The Caretaker support through the years. This one is compliments of the house xxx

[@metatron7515]

thank you and congratulations

[@twistncrawl23]

Thank you so much. I just bought Stage 6 exactly an hour ago on 2x blue vinyl. so I now have the complete set. What an amazing journey from The Caretaker: exhausting, joyous, terrifying, sad, uplifting and ultimately incredible. Thanks for all the extremely hard work you put into this project, Jim, it's VERY much appreciated, as is this parting gift. Peace-Out x

[@felipehugz4029]

Haven't heard music that's this thought provoking without any lyrics before now. We should be thanking you!

[@CulturedThugPoster]

C:\YTDL> .\youtube-dl -i -f bestaudio --extract-audio --embed-thumbnail --add-metadata "kzbin.info/www/bejne/e3qak5mFbsqNq6c" -v

[@okrum]

Well, thanks a lot.

[@joelontong7449]

Where an 'Empty Bliss Beyond This World' felt incredibly sad, this on the other hand is totally depressing. There is no fond reminiscence, no hopeful undertone, no warmth. It's distorted and fragmented to the point of no recognition, all those memories are all nearly eviscerated. It's like putting your ear against the door to the abyss and hearing it cry.

[@DarkBear]

Do you mind if I use this comment for a book?

[@DarkBear]

I'll quote you

[@Aladayle]

I feel like this is the Caretaker's life flashing before his eyes in the last minutes/moments of EATEOT. It feels like a capsulized version of the whole thing, in a way, but darker.

[@joelontong7449]

@@DarkBear This is probably way too late I'm sorry, but definitely go for it.

[@daddy4sharx]

I believe the abyss doesn't cry. That gives it consciousness. The abyss is a state of non-existence - it can not and does not care. It's just "not" beyond our ability to comprehend "not".

[@PadChennington]

that intro track is something else... feels like the world ended and broadcast was sent out to every television in the world with instructions on the screen of what to do next all while different images of mountains and forests shuffle through the background to give it some sort've comforting vibe.. hard to explain the picture in my head but i think y'all get it.

[@stoneinfocusfilms3297]

Reminds me a bit of the background music of local 58s “contingency”

[@PadChennington]

@@stoneinfocusfilms3297 EXACTLY

[@sansung4189]

It feels like it’s being played on a record player as the buildings and mountains collapse all around and everyone says their farewells

[@gambe96]

I see exactly this, except the world has already ended, and everyone has already died, leaving the world on an open page, and stopping time for a brief moment. Nature very, very slowly takes its place back, but it’ll never be the same, ruins will always be there

[@Nooahtroll19]

the song is "just before the battle mother" its a civil war song

[@sabinarydstrom5805]

This feels like the end to something I've never experienced the beginning of.

[@deviantsemicolon618]

Have you listened to the Caretaker’s earlier albums?

[@ClownFromTheYear9998]

That’s happened to me before.

[@TechTehScience]

@@deviantsemicolon618 Pretty sure the thought behind the comment is the "Caretaker" can't remember anything, so it's "like the end to something he's never experienced the beginning of".

[@dumbdannia6326]

The end of time.

[@savedroknapp1926]

... or you just forgot how it all began.

[@Sveta-zx7fo]

The last song makes me picture an elderly lady at the end of her life sitting on the front porch of her farm house. She looks back on her days with the love of her life before he was killed in action in Europe many decades ago in WWII. She remembers a US Army vehicle pulling up to the house to deliver the grim news. At the end of her life, she watches a similar 1940s-era vehicle pull up to the house. It’s the youthful phantom of her husband, still in uniform, coming to take her home. He walks up to her, takes her arthritic hand, and her youthful soul finally leaves her tired body. The phantom couple joins each other in a euphoric dance in the fields, laughing and crying. The couple have finally reunited in a bliss absent of time, and free of worry.

[@marotvorec]

this fits a lot knowing the sample is called "Solitude Of The Shepherdess"

[@DarthInsomnis]

Fuck dude you gonna make me cry. But very well done.

[@americovespucio8089]

? Alzehimer

[@spungboy]

the first few seconds of the song sound like hawaiian cocktail, does that make me a dumbass

[@RafaDellTM]

Ok you get me i actually cried reading this while listening to the last track

[@robertcornhole5197]

There's something about this flavor of nostalgia that hits me. This isn't music any of us remember fondly. It's not normal stuff that appeared in our lives. It's not even music our old boomer folks grew up with. It's a generation older, from before World War II. The first generation of people to grow up with recorded music on phonographs, and "talkies" at the cinema. And then they got thrown into a war so huge it's hard to encompass at a glance, that killed tens of millions. And there they were after the war, retreating into habits and sentimentality, leaving their kids to figure everything out themselves. And now almost none of them are left.

[@MrChristoffer46]

Really well said, your description fits the tone of this perfectly

[@notisaac8367]

An armistice... what for? What's an armistice?

[@Detronomis]

Excellent observation. Works very well into The Caretaker's themes of memory degradation and I'd even go deeper, the eventual decline and degradation all things must go through. So glad I found this artist.

[@kaiserredgamer8943]

Most of the songs sampled here were published before the First World War/The Great War.

[@kaiserredgamer8943]

There's a reason they're called the "Lost Generation"

[@ghostshark680]

There’s something chilling about the titles, how they slowly get more and more jumbled as the person’s grasp of syntax and logic slips further and further

[@gabimurray5955]

It's called aphasia I think

[@notisaac8367]

Sometimes they're scarier than the songs themselves.

[@whyis2plus2]

Honestly I think "Everywhere, An Empty Beyond Beyond Beyond" has like infinite beyonds after beyond #1.

[@upanddowntwice1]

What I think makes them chilling is that a lot of them still make sense, even in their broken state. Like, you understand why that word is there, even if it makes little grammatical sense for it to be written that way.

[@john-us4zw]

Loss of want back there is the worst, most haunting title for me. It sounds like a toddler who doesnt know grammar yet trying to say "i have lost all hope and will to live and couldn't care less"

[@jonaha502]

This painting is called "p m, why bees are very silent". Which is an anagram of "everywhere, an empty bliss". The cd version of this painting has a floor with dead bees beneath this version.

[@mobius8675]

Oh wow I didnt realise it was an anagram. Thanks.

[@DudeMan8543]

No it isn’t

[@jonaha502]

@@DudeMan8543 it isnt?

[@rattfish]

I checked on discogs, it does actually have dead bees on the ground

[@michalvicha7384]

@@rattfish It has

[@theohmguy]

This just feels like a bonus level that you get from getting the bad ending 10 times

[@pedestrian_overkill]

This interpretation sums up younger generations

[@carloambrosio6726]

What does this album represent? I didn't get it. Is it like before stage 1?

[@theohmguy]

@@carloambrosio6726 unused tracks for eateot

[@Scullgaming962]

@@pedestrian_overkill im assuming he's talking about those backroom ending videos

[@Hazen4247]

@@Scullgaming962 that's sad, people just interpret this album with memes, but well, almost everyone found this album for the memes

[@asiangr1626]

I was listening this at 5 am, it was almost complete dark, and i was getting sleepy. Then, at the end, the music sudenly stoped and i swear a emotionless face appeared in my mind, one that i have never seen before, it wasn't like a ghost or something, just a face that looked like an old painting. It was really really weird.

[@StateOfTheMind11225]

TheAsian that’s absolutely terrifying.

[@ninadunwoody8338]

Was it a 5:30? If so I know exactly how you feel. I felt flushed and empty.

[@D3LTATRAX]

I'm literally listening to this at 5 am right now please no don't do this to me dude I cannot handle an old painting face right now ahhhhh

[@nukeshine]

TheAsian Can you explain it? That would make this comment very interesting.

[@asiangr1626]

@@nukeshine The only thing that i can think of right now is that it was some kind of hallucination due to my sleepy state. I've had those before, for example: One time i was sleeping normally and then suddenly woke up for no reason, i looked around and saw a giant baby (I'm not joking) sitting in a dressing table that was in the corner. I jumped out the bed and turned on the lights but it was gone. Fun fact, everytime one of my dogs enters that room it always stops and stares at that corner where that dressing table used to be. Anyway, about that face, it freaked me out because it looked like when you stare at a source of light, like a lightbulb or something, and then close your eyes and the silhouette stays in your eyes for a while, but that night when i opened my eyes i did not see the face anymore, also the music just stoped and my cellphone was still on (I was listening the video in my cellphone and laying in bed). Maybe there's a song in the album that suddenly stops but i haven't checked it out yet.

[@ninadunwoody8338]

When the second song ended and “I might be Vanishing” started and abruptly stopped it felt like a feeling of total disparity. When you daydream back to when everything was was great, but are quickly reminded of the doom and sadness that is now your reality. That you will never have those memories again.

[@zippy66666]

Empty beyond beyond beyond

[@rafaelvelasquesmendes933]

Losing battle of loss

[@zippy66666]

@@rafaelvelasquesmendes933 I love the names of these tracks.

[@rafaelvelasquesmendes933]

@@zippy66666 Same.

[@redshuttleredacted6422]

@@rafaelvelasquesmendes933 ^^

[@autumnmissepic8498]

16:04 has lyrics! NOW children, listen to my tale - Believe me, it is true ; When Santa Claus to Holland goes He looks 'round for a shoe. He finds it near the chimney, wide, Where you a stocking hang ; And when the house is dark and still Old Santa, with a bang, Comes tumbling down into the room Where Hans and Gretchen lie, And looks 'round for the wooden shoes; Soon as they meet his eye, If Gretchen's words have gentle been Through all the long year past ; If Hans has been a thoughtful boy, Then Santa Claus will cast Into each little wooden shoe Knives, marbles, dolls and toys ; For, don't you see, he knows right well What pleases girls and boys. But if their words have angry been, With quarrels not a few, Ah, then old Santa leaves a whip Within each wooden shoe ! So little Hans and Gretchen try To be so good and kind, That they shall never in their shoes A whip, on Christmas, find. Helen M. Richardson

[@superguy9834]

Any idea the "lyrics" (or source/sample) of Benjamin Beyond Bliss?

[@autumnmissepic8498]

@@superguy9834 absolutely no idea! but i hope u can find it ^_^

[@boomertery7791]

i remember on my 5th or so go of listening to the album suddenly being able to make out the words "Santa Claus" occasionally but that was all

[@vollithe]

@@superguy9834 Birth Of the blues by layton and johnstone

[@vollithe]

Sample kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHrIhKxjbqyFla8

[@sean..L]

This whole album has the same aura as an old broken clock at your grandparents house chiming at midnight.

[@goodshowmanythanks]

Not quite broken if it chimes, no?

[@sean..L]

@@goodshowmanythanks I was referring to electric clocks which would sound distorted when either broken or running out of battery. I used the word chime because it's more specific to clocks than saying the clock went off, even if battery operated clocks don’t technically have chimes.

[@goodshowmanythanks]

@@sean..L I see your point, I was just being a smartass.

[@sean..L]

@@goodshowmanythanks oh ok right yeah cool

[@bensfractals43]

18:40 is like being tied in a chair and having to watch your childhood possessions get destroyed in front of your very eyes

[@fletchqc9900]

That's pretty much what dementia is, ironically. Your most precious childhood possessions are your memories. You described it perfectly!

[@vinnytheplayer5500]

Your childhood memories are usually the last ones to go before you start forgetting yourself

[@epos.nephilo]

jesus christ man

[@XxDevGlitcherxX]

Hi, ben's fractals

[@Gras_Sho_Pper]

That sounds so f*cking sad

[@ameliawright6947]

The 'singing' in Glimpses of Life Denial remind of HAL's failed attempt at singing Daisybell in 2001, a space Odyssey.

[@vollithe]

The Sample is kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHrIhKxjbqyFla8 Btw

[@saltybean9302]

"It's very beautiful over there". I don't know where there is, but I believe it's somewhere, and I hope it's beautiful.”- Thomas Edison

[@charlesdeschamps9315]

@Gabe Davis Edison actually sponsored the wax recording used for the final track in this album. "ole bull, the herd-girl's sunday".

[@walterbennetandthebennette3579]

@Gabe Davis warren de la rue did invent the light bulb lol

[@demonyckscreations9990]

@Gabe Davis there are tesla stans??

[@tetsuoumezawa5833]

the cover art looks like the six everywhere at the end of time covers thrown together in a bowl and stirred with an egg-beater

[@fletchqc9900]

Now you made me notices that the painting looks like it has all the colors of previous paintings

[@Musical_gamer69]

@@fletchqc9900 it also looks like stage 3’s album cover is behind it when you look around the edges

[@AnnaSue81]

yes

[@fletchqc9900]

@@Agvazela_Vega stage 1 and 4 share a lot of similarities in colors

[@ortherner]

where’s stage 1?

[@blackraptormoses6838]

Miscellaneous observation, but "And Bliss Everywhere Bliss" sounds like how crying feels.

[@spiderg4mer861]

Yeah you're right

[@bensfractals43]

That’s literally every song.

[@vinnytheplayer5500]

Its like you're trying to hold back on accepting you're forgetting what you're doing

[@rhubarbdude3347]

The last track must be one of the saddest and most beautiful things I've ever heard. The title just makes me picture this figure, lonely, up some hill facing the sunset. He is all alone, has been left alone long ago, and will be until the end of his days. And there's nothing he can do. So he just sits on the top of the hill, watching the sun rise and fall, day after day. And he cries.

[@owen2333]

The fool on the hill...

[@jonathonclass3556]

Thinking the same thing

[@skyfallyt2578]

True that person is have friends 1 by 1 because the friends is us when we joined too

[@jonathansefcik473]

This would've been the perfect end of Stage 3. It's simultaneously the happiest and saddest song ever. Super exhausted but has just enough juice left for one last taste of triumph and joy before the sonic hellscapes of stages 4 and 5.

[@ch3e5eburglvr]

45:35 X BLISS EVERYWHERE BLISS

[@AriaPosting]

How to make sounds like these: Start collecting 78 rpm records for no discernible reason until half of your house is now a compete archive of pre-1950s music. Get a record changer. Find an abandoned warehouse or mall. Stack up a bunch of 78's and play them at 45 or 33 rpm. Allow the natural reverb of the empty building to let the sounds mix. postpone your inevitable demise for 30-45 minutes. record and then upload the sounds to youtube for thousands of strangers to enjoy.

[@argonize]

@@generationhome7005 Eat Everywhere Of Thiccness

[@morgankasper5227]

@@Zawmbbeh and name the album Space And Time Collisions , Fade out A1 Frequencys Beyong UNderstanding A2 The Earth Does Not Turn A3 ITs All For Nought B2 Existing WIthout Feeling and other weird posibly edgy names

[@Guhadeen]

@@morgankasper5227 ´´B3 The Earth isn't Flat´´

[@Leo-rl7qi]

@@morgankasper5227 C3 - Frequencys Beyond Breaks And Breaks

[@Binx_Official]

ClosedOnMonday? Interesting to see you here

[@Kotifilosofi]

I've worked at a house of demented people. It's sad that everyone was always so busy to take care of them, that they really couldn't take care of them. They would have needed people who had time to sit down and help them, if not making sense of things wasn't possible anymore, at least to make them feel they weren't alone going trough that scary irrational experience. It's crazy to think that some people who had slowly proceeding end stage of dementia, spent years on that house, not understanding anything that happened around them. Oh, and if you didn't know, this art work is about the stages of dementia.

[@baggebeats7226]

Kotifilosofi damn😢

[@squirrelcoom]

Wrong album

[@Kotifilosofi]

@@squirrelcoom ?

[@kurtka8720]

@Liam Durr to be fair, this album basically is a bunch of outtakes from EATEOT

[@hellonokay1925]

@Liam Durr well techically this is some what part to it.

[@germainfraisse4763]

It feels like this one is actually the missing link between part 3 & 4.

[@bubcentral23]

It does make sense because with dementia in the final stages it's not so much mental noise but empty vacuous spaces in your memory, often for the patient the last stages are a relief after all the previous confusion.

[@turtlewaffle3635]

I saw a review on band camp that said this was supposed to be after the person with dementia died and this is supposed to be the funeral or something

[@Nexmury]

@@turtlewaffle3635 Yes, this album comes right after Everywhere at the End of Time, so it would be safe to assume this is the funeral, or at least a transition from life to death.

[@user-vh7qu8hf2f]

Nexmury no no no if it was a transition from life to death it wouldn’t have music as composed as this and then deteriorate it’s definitely supposed to go in between 3&4

[@Nexmury]

@@user-vh7qu8hf2f This comment was made when I didn't know any better. On the bandcamp page of this album (the last album of the Caretaker project), it just said this album was made to celebrate the completion of the project. It doesn't have any place within the actual series, just a little side project.

[@dweezildee]

For me, "Glimpses of life denial" sounds like trying to pay attention to something, like watching a bonding moment between your younger sibling and your great uncle at a family reunion, but a really bad intrusive thought keeps bugging you as you do, resulting in you focusing on it instead of the speech and the sounds in the real world. You can barely focus on anything else because the thought muffles and distorts everything else...there are moments of clarity, where you can focus on the present a little bit, but that wretched humming in the back of your head is the most prominent thing taking up your attention because it's so shocking or shameful.

[@sean..L]

Well that’s very specific.

[@channelname9256]

Yeah, and in Benjamin beyond bliss the Uncle noticed and is trying to get your attention. Maybe this whole thing is just some party and music in all eyes bewildered and what you kind of hear at the end of Benjamin beyond bliss is the music playing, and all the rest is just memories slowly fading.

[@RattusScattus]

i always perceived the beginning as some senile person, with dementia or without, asking for help with maybe some daily task, but then recieving no answer. then it loops back with a disturbing track that maybe is a representation of what is in their head, before once again cutting back into reality.

[@lcdream4213]

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[@dg-jf8zp]

sounded like something off of buyer's market to me it's really upsetting

[@blmn564]

Glimpses of life denial is such a cursed-sounding track

[@danestambaugh255]

Literally the only caretaker song that makes me feel legitimately uneasy

[@holycrapsnacks7915]

yeah this makes me feel really uneasy and i just see a face popping up over and over again

[@vollithe]

Its Pretty old Actually kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHrIhKxjbqyFla8 Sample

[@blazingtrs6348]

the distorted lady accompanied with the demonic thing man

[@ChrisPoindexter98]

This amazing PFP and username just completes this, like, OMG, but I super agree and thanks to another reply I heard the equally interesting source that seems little modified from this.

[@noahthegosling]

A graveyard for tracks who failed to get into the main stage.

[@eggsbenedict96]

Yeah I think these are scrapped tracks from stages 2-5

[@spark8752]

@@Agvazela_Vega i believe it's an unused version of Sudden time regression into isolation Section D. It uses almost the same samples, but the difference is that "Internal unravel" has an adittional sample that can't be heard in N1 Section D

[@DiegoDoodle]

Entanglements Synapse Ache is literally an extension of that part on Stage 4 which is about 6 and a half minutes into H1

[@insertnamehere7090]

it's actually the aftermath of eateot, like the family grieving the death

[@spark8752]

@@insertnamehere7090 it's just a bunch of unused tracks and sections of post awareness stages

[@matthewlopez4664]

The first song is a sample of a civil war song called "Just Before the Battle Mother" if anyone is curious

[@TheGamingMotionTGM]

At first I thought that the first song is like when going home from a civil war

[@gavocrazy]

Its got the same melody as John Prines "souvenirs"

[@DarthInsomnis]

That last track….. I thought the original ending to EATEOT was masterful and tear jerking, but this one absolutely crushed me. Very well done. Thank you caretaker.

[@TheSpadeStealer_98]

Yes indeed. I didn't cry at the end, but ouch, that ending track hit hard. And I mean HARD. it's like somebody has accepted their fate, like they know can't do anything about it, so they sit on the bed, waiting for the moment, while being depressed and heartbroken. But at the same time, they aren't ready to move on. Like they might never get to see their friends, wife/husband, children, and great grandchildren ever again. Like they are stuck. Honestly, one of the saddest songs that Kirby has made.

[@albireothestarthebacklight2990]

add some reverb and delay to this and this becomes f9

[@ezekielproctor7858]

Most of the songs, yet depressing, are slightly comforting. That's why 'Glimpses of life denial' is horrifying to me, there is zero music, just talking and some singing. It's anxiety fuel. Edit: And Benjamin beyond bliss!

[@Thorin-MattfromGO]

I’m pretty sure glimpses of life denial’s sample is actually a Christmas song

[@vollithe]

@@Thorin-MattfromGO Your Right kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHrIhKxjbqyFla8

[@vollithe]

Glimpses of life denial's sample is kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHrIhKxjbqyFla8

[@user-yq6hg1rh7b]

Glimpses of life denial actually made me cry of despair for a very personal reason. My late grandmother made wire recordings as a child. After she passed and we went through her things, we found them and we got to listen to them. She was still a little girl, like the girl in the recording, and sounded just like her too. It made me cry because I missed her and I wish I could hear her again, but the wire is frayed and worn and cannot be played again

[@haru.2336]

I dont really understand why people see GOLD horrifying. I just see it as a clear memory, and i like it for it.

[@user-yq6hg1rh7b]

00:18:40 made me feel almost as melancholy as the end of stage 6 and It's hard to describe why. It's almost like a final childhood memory being played over and over to savor it one last time before it too eventually fades into the abyss. There's something so bittersweet about it. Sure it's repetitive, but definitely an underrated track!

[@kingbonelesslive]

The track gives me a guttural feeling of despair and melancholy. Truly beautiful work.

[@bensfractals43]

It’s like some 5 year old kid dropped his ice cream

[@catalinagonzalez4213]

Its Basically All Eyes Bewilder But More distorted and doesnt Sound the same

[@gavocrazy]

I find myself whistling it all the time. Used to listen to this album a lot when I was drinking heavy. That track was one of my favorites.

[@stupidcupid8960]

It's like some 6 year old kid earned his plaque and all of a sudden it got damaged.

[@generationhome7005]

This seems like a condensed, yet shuffled version of Everywhere at The End of Time. With the ending track being more of a clear version of the funeral or some last memory. this album is quite interesting and I know that it's up to interpretation.

[@danielmacias2097]

Excuse me. Is this part of Everywhere At the End Of Time? Or is apart?

[@pc31754]

@@danielmacias2097 It's not, but it's about the same character whose memories are in Everywhere at the End of Time.

[@NuclearDuckie02]

@@danielmacias2097 it's a collection of out-takes. Kirby cut down hundreds of hours of material to make Everywhere At The End Of Time; these are some other bits and pieces that he liked enough to release for free

[@redshuttleredacted6422]

@@danielmacias2097 I think this is apart, because the first song is a sample of a Civil War song (Just Before The Battle, Mother) from 1864 and the "Glimpses of life denial" track is an 1890s brown wax recording of a man and a child from the Netherlands praying the Lord's prayer and waiting for Santa in Christmas I think that the persona of this album might have been alive in the late Victorian era.

[@graceanderson8731]

The titles of this album... every word is taken from the titles of Everywhere at the End of Time.

[@jargbon]

seems a lot more decayed now, as if Kirby's recreation of memory and time is truly coming to fruition as the Caretaker series wages in. Perhaps the implication is that these are relative memories between the albums, yet further decayed.

[@samcolvett6752]

The same thing happened in stage 3, too, with a mix of Empty Bliss and Everywhere titles Back There Benjamin- All you are going to want to do is get *back there* + Libet's Delay (the man the song is named after is *Benjamin* Libet) Sublime beyond loss- A relationship with the *Sublime* + an empty Bliss *beyond* this world + Tiny Gradations of *Loss* Etc.

[@brickballyt]

and empty bliss beyond this world

[@potato1907]

@@samcolvett6752 *Heart* aches + What does it matter how my heart *breaks* = And Heart breaks. Heart *ache* s = Burning Despair does ache

[@hydrodoxxed2]

@@potato1907 Mournful cameradie?

[@luckyotter623]

To me, this sounds like a transitional stage that should be between Stages 3 and 4 from EATEOT. On that album, the transition from the still mostly musical (though distorted, full of reverb, and staticky) Stage 3 to the utterly chaotic post awareness confusions of Stage 4 was jarring. The transition was too sudden. This album sounds like the missing transitional stage. Also, by the end of this, the last coherent memories of Stage 3 are self destructing. Their actual destruction can be heard in Internal Unravel and again in Entanglement Synapse Ache (the neurons and connections between them are being destroyed by accumulated plaque and tangled proteins). While neuron and synapse destruction happens at all stages of Alzheimer's, at this juncture it results in the loss of the person's self awareness, setting the stage for the chaotic Post Awareness Stages (4 through 6). Moving to the last piece, And Bliss Everywhere Bliss, the patient, no longer self aware, no longer thinks they have a problem and therefore the struggle with emotions of terror (of what's to come), frustration with themselves (and others), and grief over having lost so much of their past, begins to abate and be replaced with a kind of calm or "bliss" that comes to those who aren't consciously battling a losing war with their own minds. An unknowingness, and therefore a kind of acceptance, settles in. Of course, this is only the beginning of their internal hell, but for the moment, they are blissfully unaware of the hellish chaos and confusion that is coming. This dark reality is reflected in the fact that this "bliss" is actually anything but, and in fact is the saddest piece on this album. On a purely emotional level, they know what's coming and are terrified and grief stricken. It's just no longer readily accessible to their conscious awareness. I hope that made sense.

[@vinnytheplayer5500]

Its just some of the songs in this album seem a bit too organized for even stage 3 also the way the songs are arranged would need to change and stage 4 should start with temporary bliss state

[@bradguysmallfry]

Very well put.

[@youwerethere]

I feel like you could mix up the tracks in Stage 2, Stage 3 and EAEB to get the "perfect transition".

[@bovineking8927]

@@vinnytheplayer5500 Honestly I think putting I1 and J1 before G1 and H1 would do wonders for bridging the 3-4 divide in EATEOT

[@etesprk69]

@@bovineking8927 I feel G1 is like waking up without knowing what is happening, thats why the track is called post awareness confusions, we are no longer aware of our condition. The horns from "Misplaced in Time" sound like we are asking for help, and at some point of the track, a reversed version of "The way ahead feels lonely" starts playing, which makes me think that the patient remembered he/she was diagnosed with dementia. This lucidity state doesn't last very long and we get pushed back into the horrors of post awareness confusions, we have forgotten something that was recently remebered. In the last section of G1, the music sounds like the patient is starting to get frustrated by not being able to remember, that frustration increasingly grows on H1, where we have the Hell Sirens. After this horrible segment, we have the Temporary Bliss State, that sounds like we are taking a break of the uneffective attemps to remember, but that peace is interrupted by J1, that sounds like the patient feels defeated and hopeless. And then we have the true horror in K1

[@masawashy6843]

The vocals in dusk memory fraction are in french, when you understand what he says it's actually quite funny, the narrator talks about animals and their resective noises.

[@averageloser8749]

Is there a full transcript of that track? I don't really know much french and I certainly don't understand it when it's an early recording that's been dragged through the caretaker meat grinder. I heard "oiseau" and that's about it. But I'd love to know what he's *actually saying* .

[@atomrules1012]

shazoo

[@whyis2plus2]

ah ok

[@whyis2plus2]

I think the whistling is supposed to be the description of how a songbird sounds but I don't know a word of French so I can't be sure.

[@fletchqc9900]

French is my first language, but i cannot for the life of me understand what the hell he's saying, even in the original version. All i can decipher is "la salade russe!"

[@rayfan9876]

The Plaque tracks are the tracks that really make me feel sick and uncomfortable. These hardened bricks in your brain slowly growing in size, invading, coveting, devouring all of your mind... you're already half eaten... I almost feel like I'm eternally stuck getting my teeth drilled at the dentist and there's no such thing as tomorrow or yesterday.

[@ortherner]

damn

[@viagrabuffalo5141]

Every song with the word “plaque” in them are custom engineered to f*** you up

[@royps6687]

It should go An empty bliss beyond this world Stage 1 Stage 2 Stage 3 Everywhere an empty bliss Stage 4 Stage 5 Stage 6 Take care, its a desert out there

[@danestambaugh255]

I feel like a final album could also be "A Stairway to the Stars" but rather than it being the perspective of the individual weve been living through its the people around that individual coping with the loss of them

[@Yottifferent]

RoyPS I agree with almost everything but I think an empty bliss beyond this world should be in between stage 1 & 2 because in an empty bliss there is more vinyl crackling than in stage 1 and there is even a track on an empty bliss that appears twice with a brief track in between, which is pretty similar to the very early experiences of Alzheimer’s

[@Yottifferent]

An empty bliss might even go in between stage 2 & 3 because of the amount of vinyl crackling. The first few tracks should be before stage 1 though

[@RattusScattus]

i feel like take care, its a desert out there should be swapped with stage 6. stage 6 wraps it up with the (presumed) death of the patient

[@Yottifferent]

Rattus Scattus the reason why take care, it’s a desert out there is after stage 6 is because it’s the afterlife

[@otterboy1452]

This feels like trying to reminisce on a broken childhood. The first song is remembering the fun times of the good memory, but as soon as it was over, all you're stuck with is all the bad things that happened. The pain and guilt. The pressure and anxiety. The loneliness. Especially when no one else remembers it.

[@shasher4738]

The actual song itself is just plain depressing as it’s a drummer boy from the civil war writing his last letter to his mother essentially stating that he will die

[@TheSpadeStealer_98]

@@shasher4738 Damn. :(

[@dumptruck3591]

Loving your Louis Wain pfp

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

*Internal unravel* was my favorite track on the album. It made me like I just walked into a room with an eldritch being hanging from the ceiling, twitching and convulsing like someone trying to get up, who has broken almost even single bone in there body (including the earbones). the being asks me nonsense questions and when I fail to answer the way it wants me to answer them it just as more that make slightly more and slightly less sense at the same time. I am frustrated and then it tells me to not turn around. When I turn around to leave anyways and politely say goodbye, the entrance and walls disappear. I am now standing in an inch deep lake that surrounds me for miles and I can here the creature thud to the ground

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

@cubearenice i was merely followingn't orders

[@jackpijjin4088]

*the creature was your MIND* :o

[@jackaltroy5050]

That sounds like a cutscene before a bloodborne boss

[@catsnchess]

My first thought was Chrissy wake up 💀

[@duckinacup]

My emotions immediately swell the moment this begins. I get a feeling of nostalgia, for my childhood as well as my parents and grandparents childhood; a time that I never knew. Many of my family members suffer from Alzheimer’s and dementia and The Caretaker projects have been a mirror into that world for me. The emotions that overcome me are like nothing else I’ve experienced. I can’t express what these albums mean to me.

[@pax5296]

With you. I just discovered The Caretaker today. I’m crying, yet is it sadness I feel? Beauty? Vulnerability, as the music itself peers into facets of my mind I cannot otherwise reflect on? What is certain, I cannot pull away, nor do I want to, despite the subtle pain.

[@LunaExpiX]

As the outcome look, please pay attention to your health. I know i sounded broken there, is cause i also have a nearlike outcome, with amnesia-quality levels of forgetfulness

[@thecarnew5334]

This is the funeral of the caretaker

[@BlackFlagHeathen]

That’s the vaporwave aesthetic; being nostalgic or feeling like you remember or lived in a time or situation you never have. The Caretaker may not be a vaporwave project but it sure does often give off the same vibes.

[@dreyishere]

​@@BlackFlagHeathenThe unofficial word for this is anemoia

[@juniorzmen748]

Stage 1 - Original samples Stage 1.5 - An Empty Bliss Beyond this world Stage 2 - First stage of EATEOT Stage 3 - Second stage of EATEOT Stage 4 - Third stage of EATEOT Stage 4.5 - Everywhere, an empty bliss Stage 5 - Fourth stage of EATEOT Stage 6 - Fifth stage of EATEOT Stage 7 - Sixth stage of EATEOT Post-Dementia (death) - Take care it's a desert out there

[@victorcremades6876]

In my opinion, AEBBTW takes place between stage 2 and 3. It seems like a perfect transition from the melancholic music of stage 2 to the chaotic and distorted music in stage 3. The songs are quite coherent and calm, but a couple of them just sound quite distorted (a good example is A relationship with the sublime, where you can clearly make out a melody, but it has been distorted where its harder to comprehend it.)

[@rexperverziff]

EAEB IS NOT STAGE 4.5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S SPREAD OUT THROUGHOUT THE STAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@zendio6882]

i'm pretty sure AEBBTW is supposed to be medical stage 4 (EATEOT stage 3), so you can insert ttack in there. for EAEB, you can put different tracks into every stage, and overlay some of the PA with stage 4 and 5

[@Gardengap]

thats a really cool profile picture. yes i agree this should go between eateot stage 3 and 4 since the transition between the two stages seem oh so abrupt.

[@zendio6882]

@@Gardengapit's actually better to sort the tracks throughout the album, since some tracks are better in other stages (Loss Of Want Back There sounds like stage 2, APC stage 5, you know the drill) and An Empty Bliss Beyond This World was supposed to represent clinical stage 4 of this kind of dementia (as in EATEOT stage 3), so it's track would be spread out in stage 3

[@kiwutgc9544]

Since the last track was the exclusive ending to those who were granted the special vinyl at Ivan and Kirby’s art exhibition, that makes it kind of a “true ending” so to speak. The track puts a much more bright image in my head, as opposed to the more common ending, Place in the World Fades Away. Like you’re watching the sun rise as you die, instead of a far more gloomy, depressing mood. When the strings fade ever so gently at the end, it’s almost hard to notice it’s so gradual. I want to hear that playing in my head as I fade away and pass on from this world. it’s just so beautiful...It’s like the whole rest of the album was a dark, rainy night, and when the storm clears, all the dew and fog remains, and the sun begins to rise above the horizon as you look back on your life and question what it all meant.

[@bgfilms64]

The very first track made me cry the night before I had thyroid surgery. I thought I was going to die, but thankfully, everything turned out just fine. The best part is I don't have thyroid cancer and that's awesome. The first track was also what got me into the Caretaker's music. I love it and I will love it till the day I pass away.

[@lordroy88]

I’m glad you’re doing better!

[@devlinorsomething854]

i’m so fucking glad you’re okay now

[@sonicelchorizoconuntoquede4871]

I hope you are well.

[@thenamesellen6383]

While analyzing this painting, I actually forgot what certain features of it looked like or lost sight of something I saw. What replaced them was something new. I think that is brilliant for something tackling dementia.

[@froggie610]

To me it looks like a bunch of cars parked together.

[@thenamesellen6383]

Lol Interesting.

[@Thorin-MattfromGO]

The full painting has dead bees and wasps on the ground under the painting

[@xPowerKittyx]

it looks like water ripples to me

[@jackpijjin4088]

Looks like formica or mother-of-pearl to me

[@kevinlowercase]

It sounds like "I Feel As If Might Be Vanishing " at 5:20 is the unadulterated version of the track that appears on Empty Bliss.

[@Emper0rH0rde]

It is. I just wonder what the sample is from.

[@Thorin-MattfromGO]

@@Emper0rH0rde Isn't it from The Caretaker himself?

[@superguy9834]

@@Thorin-MattfromGO 👎 ⛔ 📵 🔞 🚭 🚯 no

[@theununtrium]

@@superguy9834 were these emojis really necessary

[@superguy9834]

@@theununtrium yes 😑🤯💢💥💯🖐✋🤝🤚

[@blehh_mae]

the rock aint smokin anymore :(

[@badtoxxin7909]

Damn :’(

[@Noahser]

The rock died of lung cancer :(

[@pearls925]

The bees are fucking dead because of the smoke

[@tulikaslt490]

The boulder exploded

[@kitsune630]

AEBBTW rock fucking died of lung disease :(

[@upanddowntwice1]

There's something really powerful about some of The Caretaker's track names, particularly how they often reference previous tracks, but in more jumbled fashion, whilst still making a lot of sense for the track itself.

[@chillman3606]

The track names for this and stage 3 are supposed to represent the caretaker not knowing the original titles of the songs anymore

[@bensfractals43]

24:18 has a sick beat

[@aesthetic1448]

45:36 , I’ve never heard something so depressing before ? Its like memories reaching out to be heard but are still silenced by the mind , so they continue to rot

[@kasteman1]

The first track sounds like a wax cylinder recording. It gives me a visual of people in London sifting through rubble for possessions, survivors, and bodies in the aftermath of WW1. Slow, somber, coupled with a faint sense of hope.

[@juicyd9233]

Glimpses of life denial is the song that has horrified me the most, not only from the caretaker, but in anything. Legit wanted to cry in fear specially through the end.

[@Derpy_fish63]

Most of it doesnt even sound like a song. It just sounds like a conversation you cant make anything out of. I imagine the patient just zoning out while they're family visits them, staying further from recognition

[@jinxmybeloved6930]

@@Derpy_fish63 it has lyrics you can find in comments

[@albamomo8324]

@@Derpy_fish63 it’s actually a 17th century recording of a christmas poem if I remember correctly

[@awesomemancam5758]

Whats even better is that the whistling and woman singing are heard in the Mess of stage 5 Sounds like a distant meow, and a fading whistle

[@bensfractals43]

@@albamomo8324 actually it’s from 1890.

[@Disregardedinc]

I love how the caretaker uses voices in this one they feel like you can almost understand what they are saying but you can’t make out the words then they suddenly become distorted beyond recognition

[@g4_61]

Many, if not all, of these tracks were scrapped from Everywhere at the End of Time. Too entropic for Stage 3, but too coherent for Stage 4. And we can see that in the titles. In the first three stages, the titles are often lyrics from the songs they sample, as though they have been named by the patient themselves, struggling to remember the names, only a part of the lyrics. While Stages 4 and 5 use medical terms, as though they have been named by a doctor, or someone else. And here, we can see what happens in between them. The names are grammatically incoherent, just jumbles of words from songs. Eventually, the patient can't name the songs at all, and the substitution of them for medical terms possibly represents the patient being transferred to a medical facility or nursing home, unable to medically sustain himself.

[@albamomo8324]

This is like a sadder version of An Empty Bliss Beyond this World: there’s no more hope, there’s no more joy, no more reason to keep going, it’s all just so... cold and distorted. It’s like giving all up once and for all. Also, “Glimpses of Life Denial” is genuinely disturbing, I listened to that at 2AM yesterday and it genuinely freaked me out.

[@naansoos798]

*A BEE!*

[@viagrabuffalo5141]

@@naansoos798 *nuclear explosion*

[@Dementia-Gaming938]

S̸̨̨̭̥͈̪̗͈̻͙͕̝͖̺͈̪͕͍̺̟̞͊̈̋̀̉̓̾́͒͛̅͌̾͜͜͜͠͠ͅa̵̰͔͌͐͛̀̋͑̈́͆͒̑̀͋̔̐̏͊̈̐̄̓̉͆̂n̶͓͓̯͛̌̎̋̈͛́̒̋́̈̆̄̓̏̌͛͋̀̅͌̍͘͝͠t̵̡̢̛͓̦̯͚̺̝̳̤̯̹̺̗̣̱͙̾͗͛͗̓̇̈́̈̊̋̕͘͘͝ͅa̸̬͇̔́̊̽̐̒̏̀̀̃̽͒̄̉̏̾͐̈̒͂̅̀͑̿̓̀̉̚͝͝ ̸̨̢̡̨̛̯͎̥̜̟͔͙͎̩̬̫͕͚̙̳̰̜͈̲͇̟̰̞̱̒͂̓̅͠Ç̴̛̺̯͍̯̖̱̰͎̺̳̣͎̲̹̘̗̠̺̜̦̦̮̌͑̈́͆̀́͋̋̽͗̒͌͘l̷͉̱̖͍̣͔͈̫̣͇̥̠̥̭̤̱͕̼̍̿̋́̋͋͜ą̸̨̰̦͉̟̭̪͕͇̮̜̫̰͓̠̱̪̟͎̤̖̫̘̜̦̌͌͌͆̀̓̂͛̉́̈́̄͘͜ư̴̛̛̞̲̥̩̱̲͎̟̱̖̽̅̆̈́͌́͑̄̊͌̾͑̉̑͂̓̋͋̂͘͘̚̚͜͝͠s̸̳͉̞̘̩̳̘̳͆̂̋̀̀̈͛͊͗͋̀̚̕͘͝ ̶̨̛̥̦̜͎̝͇͍̳̩̯͕̝̩̰̖͚̹̲͓̬̟̊̉͆͌̽̋͊̾͋͛͠ͅͅͅȋ̸̡̜͕̹̗͈͇̞̞̬͇̜͉̺̠̩̱̠̩͉̦͔̪̯̄̍̈́̌̑͂̊͌̏̆̅̕͜͝ͅņ̶̨̢̛̖͉͉̣͕̟͕͖̺͓͈̤̮̰̰̞͉͇̤̯͔͈͎͊̌̏̏͑͊̈͒̍͌͛͌̑̓͗̎̓̾̈́̌̚̕̚͜͜͝͝͠͠͝ͅͅ ̷̛͙͕̀͋́̌̓̿̆̆͗̾̓̂́̄̒̚̕͝͝Ḥ̵̡̟̞̣̼̙̺̳̞̩͍́́̍̿̈́̃̊́̀͊͆̐̎̈́̑̾̋̄̑̓͋̾͘͜͜o̴̧̢̢͈̹̝̜̺̻̺͕̯̬̮͕̼̹̤̪̯͙̻͜͜͠ͅl̴̠͔͕̫̯̜̊̇͆̾̋͑͐̾̽̓̀̆͛͒̂͘͘͘͘͝l̵̡̨̡̢̡̛̛̫̦̱͇̬͔̗͉͈̟͚̲̖̱̰͕̤̤̋͗͗̎̾͌͊̇̆̂̀̈́̆̈́̐͛͒͑̕͜͜͠ą̵̢̤̝̬̳̠͚̞͇̻͈̮̙̻̺̫̐͛̀̋̐̍̾̐̈́͗̋̽͌̽̇͆̆̈́͘̕ņ̷͚̞͕͙͎͖͖̳͎͉̳̣̻̬͍͇̺͆̈̎̈͂̅̈́̕̕͜͜͜d̷̢̢̛̺̱͎̪̺͍̝̣͓̗̪͔̼͎̝̗̫͓͖͖͉̞̪̘̘͍̄̈̎̽͂̍́̔́̃̀͒̎̈́̽̇̔̅̿̃͐̈́́́̚ͅ

[@kitbash475]

But don’t you want to hear about Santa Claus in Holland?

[@NexRad88]

​@@naansoos798pm, why are bees very silent?

[@fletchqc9900]

Equinox eyes will stop is the only song in this entire album that manages to consistently make me cry every time. It reminds me of my father. He is very ill and might die anytime soon. I've spent so much time with him as a kid, i remember him pushing me on the swinging set making jokes and me laughing hysterically. I remember my time at his house, playing pokemon and eating chips. I remember setting some coins on fire in his backyard so that it would make blue and green fire. The song reminds me of all of those innocent childhood memories being crushed and stripped away from me as he is getting more and more ill. The track just feels like a kid crying for help, but no one can help him. My dad's disease is incurable and he is suffering a lot. It feels like a part of my childhood being murdered slowly in front of me as i can't help it, as if someone set my childhood toys on fire.

[@Zookzies]

i’m so sorry dear, if by the time i’m reading this he’s gone, then i’m terribly sorry for your loss.. and if he’s still pushing onwards, then i hope you two are okay.

[@fletchqc9900]

@@Zookzies no worries. He's still very much so alive. Hope he has many years to go. Thanks so much for your concern

[@albireothestarthebacklight2990]

none of them make me actually cry, but the last one just pulls a tear or two out of me.

[@TobyConger]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you'll be okay even after your dad passes away.

[@Gardengap]

@@fletchqc9900 what about now?

[@lordroy88]

That final track is just other worldly. Sounds like a funeral for the caretaker himself.

[@albireothestarthebacklight2990]

Which it essentially is. This is the last thing that has and will ever be released under the Caretaker moniker.

[@Miss_Argent]

00:45:36 Contrary to a lot of others, I hear a certain tone of acceptance to this one -- As if our proverbial patient has made their peace and is ready to face what's waiting for them. "Leaving this world is not as scary as it seems."

[@jinxmybeloved6930]

leaving this world is not scary as it seems *IT'S SCARIER*

[@bensfractals43]

He says goodbye as all of his possessions get fried and he has to watch it all happen while in space. All his hard worked items,lost.

[@arrowtongue]

Hotline Miami 2's ending is a trip

[@dankybankey6541]

hehehe chicken

[@ricky.t.1658]

This sounds like the meeting after a funeral, remembering the relative and accepting he is no longer here, sometimes it’s sad, sometimes it’s just noise and two people talking like a discussion about where the chairs should go, sometimes it’s scary like when they remember all the time in the hospital not knowing what to do, sometimes it’s happy like when they hear a song that person enjoyed the most. It’s depressing and sad but it has something that makes you glad all the pain has ended and there’s hope for the future, it’s kinda like what you feel a couple of weeks after your relative with dementia died.

[@Zookzies]

i feel this, especially with the track “and bliss everywhere bliss”

[@sonicelchorizoconuntoquede4871]

You are not wrong

[@filmsoundtrack]

I might be in a small minority here but I honestly think this might be one of the best in series. I wish it was one of the stages.

[@nocaptainmatt3771]

I completely agree

[@TunaminV1]

Treat this like Stage 7.

[@nuttynoah5342]

I treat it like a stage between 3 and 4.

[@VenomFrogPwned]

It is, it’s the post last stage

[@ippy9269]

stage 3.5

[@fries5849]

The song “i might be vanishing” scares me the most I don’t know if it’s the title or because it’s so quick or what but it scares me the most out of all of them

[@kayleighwyatt8737]

One of my relatives was diagnosed with dementia two weeks ago. I keep this music even deeper within my heart and mind now. Thank you, beyond words.

[@selenemoon2832]

How's it going?

[@SetanTolli]

How's it going?

[@kayleighwyatt8737]

So, it was my dear great-aunt. Turns out that she was dehydrated due to a medication she was taking after breaking her hip. Once she was at home and off the medication, she made a full recovery mentally. I'd never seen or heard of anything like that occurring. I still can't believe it. However, she did pass away last month. She was 94. She lived a full, amazing life, and I'm so glad that I'm related to her. What a remarkable woman. I love you, Wilma!

[@BlueSavior25]

@@kayleighwyatt8737 That almost sounds like Terminal Lucidity right there. It's a phenomenon where a person with mental degrading disease suddenly regain themselves (hence the lucidity), the only downside of Terminal Lucidity, it sometimes appears near the end of the person's life from what I heard.

[@kayleighwyatt8737]

@@BlueSavior25 Not quite, she was lucid once she was rehydrated, and she remained lucid for the last two years of her life. Terminal lucidity does occur, but this was just terrible dehydration in her case.

[@villageperson6633]

I was listening to this while walking in the morning, in the cold light just before the sun comes over the horizon. It was cold, and the road I was walking on was completely deserted. I don’t know why, but, especially with the first track, it almost felt to me like the world was ending, or had already ended. Similar to the morning loudspeakers in Pyongyang. Creepy shit man.

[@wolfandraven891]

I always thought that about Internal bewildered world that it sounded like the loudspeakers in Pyongyang

[@rabiesbiter5681]

The very last track makes me think of someone sitting alone in a hospital bed, knowing he'll probably never leave that bed again, at least alive. All the while, he's surrounded by total strangers who are emotionally detached from him in every possible way. The thought of dying without a loved one present stings, but the thought of dying in front of a loved one would hurt even more, so he takes comfort in his solitude, and takes the time to dig through scattered memories, trying to find some meaning in them, some solace. To recall, perhaps, a life he has touched or a work he's left behind, anything that would remain to prove he ever existed. Anything to show that part of him would be dead. A better part than the one slowly rotting in a cold, uncomfortable bed. But the morphine drip makes it harder to recall such memories, but harder still to care about them. And in those last moments, nothing but horrifying bliss.

[@iamjustKiko]

"and bliss everywhere bliss", just this track alone has made me cry so much from it's sound alone

[@GodofWeird]

I’m pretty sure it was meant to be the terminal lucidity part.

[@fujicakes_]

I would say if this album takes place between stages 3-4 of EATEOT, my grandmother is in this stage of Dementia. She forgets minor events that happened a day or two before, she might need help bathing, and she is starting to forget names of distant friends/family members. Her dementia is developing so quickly it’s scary. I love you Grammy.

[@insertnamehere7090]

it's actually the aftermath of everywhere at the end of time, it's the family grieving the patient

[@fujicakes_]

@@insertnamehere7090 Oh. Thank you so much for telling me :)

[@insertnamehere7090]

@@fujicakes_ Good luck with your grandma as well

[@fujicakes_]

@@insertnamehere7090 thank you sm :)

[@unoriginalcharacter]

@@insertnamehere7090 i've heard that this was a compilation of unused EATEOT tracks

[@bensfractals43]

42:12 sounds like the patient is drowning in the void, gasping for memories.

[@ScaredyBones]

Loss of Want Back There honestly sounds like a song that would play at a very old friend's funeral. You know that they would want you to remember the good times with them, and not dwell too much on the fact that they are gone forever, and yet you cant shake the constant ache of visceral sadness in your heart. All of your other friends have taken the heartbreak reasonably well. They too are stricken with grief, but they are able to see the light in the situation, knowing your friend is at peace. They constantly remind you that "It was their time." and "They passed away peacefully.", but for some reason, you are the only one who can't get past the initial shock and sadness. You can't help but feel slightly guilty, as though you are making the deceased themsekves upset by not remaining optimistic.

[@bensfractals43]

This album really sounds like it want to be put out of it’s misery. The looping, distortion, lack of warmth and overall sadness, fear and confusion packed into each piece.

[@techdeckdudes_]

Chilling, and horrific, and moving beyond words. This entire album series. Thank you.

[@walterbennetandthebennette3579]

oh hi

[@spungboy]

@@walterbennetandthebennette3579 hi ..lt.r!

[@baconboi6211]

wait intill you hear about eateot

[@Hazen4247]

@@baconboi6211 my man, he was into this kind of albums until the begining, look at his channel

[@baconboi6211]

@@Hazen4247 my bad i didn't know lmao

[@fluffy-hellhound]

All Eyes Bewildered sounds like a haunted version of the Happy Birthday song.

[@zippy66666]

There is one called "bewildered in other eyes" in the everywhere at the end of time stage 3 album. It's like the same track but even more messed up...

[@davidholmes2932]

The sample is a 1910 cylinder playing the song 'the prettiest little song of all'.

[@snowyfolfskyroo2739]

Unlike Everywhere at the End Of Time, this album isn't emotional, it doesn't hurt, it's just downright terrifying

[@sonicelchorizoconuntoquede4871]

I agree

[@keithmorrison8373]

Yeah this personally feels like the instruments just completely forgot what music sounds like it doesn't even sound like dementia anymore it just sounds like hallucinations everything is super lofi even more show then on everywhere at the end of time and alot of the songs don't even have record scratching but completely degraded unidentifiable sounds

[@keithmorrison8373]

And some are just messes like even in stage 5 there is still instruments just completely degraded and horrifying sounding but here no alot of the tracks you can't even tell and a lot of them no longer sound like instruments even the really beautiful ones still feel unreal

[@Thesnakerox]

This album feels like the last moment of recall before the path to the true end. The long decline is over and The Caretaker's place in the world has faded away, but he's receiving one final reminder of everything and taking one final moment to reflect as a sendoff.

[@cubit404]

A detail I noticed is that the song titles in the description are scrambled ones from Everywhere at the End of Time. Pretty interesting, if you ask me.

[@lyndseyuwu5168]

probably my favourite tracks are "Loss of want back there", "Equinox eyes will stop", "drifting sublime hope" and "and bliss everywhere bliss"

[@JoseGonzalez-jz3qp]

You were the start of a spiral down great music since I first heard you, so; despite this being goodbye, I will forever hold our time dearly and remember it until the end of my days. Thank you, Leyland.

[@sephyowns]

Yo is this dude dead^?

[@twodee4368]

Curt Plumber no, he just didn’t make any more music under the name The Caretaker

[@gameworld0612]

@@twodee4368 also eateot was his way of saying “ instead of retiring the caretaker character I will just kill it off” ( this album are outtakes of eateot)

[@Lesyeuxouverts]

it makes me think real hard about how I've lost my grand-aunt and my grand-mother from dementia. how my father may have it himself (don't know exactly how it runs in the family). How my father might become sick before finding ways to reconcile with my mother. maybe both of them will die hating each other. I still haven't really taken a side, which would make my life much easier. it's comforting having these old tunes.

[@juicyd9233]

Im so sorry for your loss of your grand mother and aunt, but just wanted to tell you that every moment is valuable and just take care. Hope you family gets better ❤

[@Eli-7528]

It’s sad to know that this is his last album for now and probably his last album ever but my guy deserves a break. Best of luck to you, The Caretaker.

[@that1toad64]

Kirby released a video on this channel a few weeks ago, but it is now since privated. It was called "We are in the shadow of a distant fire." So this wasn't his very last work.

[@Eli-7528]

@@that1toad64 That’s very interesting to know! I actually didn’t know that, But none-the-less, I don’t think he’s making anything after that.

[@dianaburn2474]

@@Eli-7528 Keep in mind "The Caretaker" is basically an alias. Kirby, in an interview, basically said he couldn't keep making early 1900's ballroom music forever, and decided to end The Caretaker. It was influenced by his own observations of dementia (relatives I believe) as well as his own fascination with the subject. Or so, that's how I understand it, from what I've read. (I am by no means an expert!)

[@Eli-7528]

@@dianaburn2474 Yeah I meant Leyland Kirby, My mistake!

[@Gardengap]

@@Eli-7528 GD profile picture

[@ThePandemonium]

The last song made me cry. It’s so much more beautiful than the last 5 minutes of stage 6 in my opinion

[@KnellMortem]

16:04 Okay, people in the Caretaker Cinematic Universe have learned how to speak Charlie Brown. Okay, we’re getting somewhere.

[@smlinarcik]

Thank you, Leyland, for everything.

[@TimSlee1]

27:14 Is like when you're half way asleep and you hear a random incoherent voice, sometimes you swear it calls your name.

[@JohnDoe-xf8ew]

this reminds me of my grandparents for some reason and it makes me cry. I don't know why. Thank you caretaker, I'll never forget you.

[@XxDevGlitcherxX]

He will forget you

[@bubcentral23]

So the ultimate rarity from The Caretaker will be the art exhibition catalogue with the CD.

[@vvmtest]

Actually no, V/Vm Test releases are all rarer in the number available.

[@ortherner]

@@vvmtest ah

[@abejorros88]

​@@vvmtestomg a caretaker reply

[@tensixtyoclock]

The last song sounds like you have just accepted that you are gonna die and you know that these are your last "living" moments before slipping into madness.

[@charonsferryold]

The ending of this album truly feels like the end of a long life, full of both joy and sorrow. It truly fits the end of this beautiful, beautiful project.

[@revolutionstudios5052]

Everywhere, an empty bliss, as most people know, is cut tracks from EATEOT. But where would they fall? These are my guesses: Loss of want back there - Stage 2, possibly in the C1 slot. I might be vanishing - Late Stage 2 Empty beyond beyond beyond - Stage 3, possibly in the E3 slot? Losing battle of loss - Not sure, feels like a Stage 5 clarity based off the relatively strange static, but could be a Stage 2 track considering the instrumental. Advanced plaque camaraderie - Stage 5, probably in either M1 or N1. All eyes bewildered: Stage 2 Glimpses of life denial: Actually plays in Stage 5, whistling only. Equinox eyes will stop: Stage 3, probably in the E7 slot. Losing loss of battle - Not sure, much like Losing battle of loss. Plaque advanced despair - Plays in K1 and L1. Benjamin beyond bliss - Stage 3, probably F-side. Drifting sublime hope - Stage 3, probably in the E6 slot due to somewhat similar edits during the opening. Minimal all you are - Stage 3 Internal unravel - Sounds like Stage 5. Dusk memory fraction - I think this is actually sampled as the birds in K1. Entanglement synapse ache - Sounds like a cut part of M1 or N1. And bliss everywhere bliss - Replacement for Friends Past Reunited in Stage 6, or possibly the last track of Stage 2.

[@TunaminV1]

After finishing this, I officially decided on this: I am no longer listening to mainstream music. Update (9/14/2021 / 14/9/2021): i take everything above back, as i found some neat stuff from there. I feel pretty stupid typing stuff like that back in the day.

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

So what's wrong with taking the back streets? Just listen to smash ups instead.

[@TunaminV1]

Deigo Quixotwry alright. Thanks for the suggestion!

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

@@TunaminV1 I said yep, what a concept and we could all use a little change

[@TunaminV1]

Deigo Quixotwry We could use a LOT of change.

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

@@TunaminV1 you should actually listen to the mouth trilogy but neil cicierega. its basically the mirror universe of the caretaker's work.

[@filenotfound7471]

If you listen very carefully in glimpses of life denial you can hear “santa clause in holland” and in benjamin beyond loss you can barely make out a conversation between someone and layton and jhonston (sorry if i butchered those names)

[@strunkus_mcchungus1373]

Johnstone,there i hope it helped you👍

[@trentonujig7453]

Oh my heck! Love of!

[@revery2reality]

everywhere at the end of time is scary, chaotic, and disturbing to listen to. this album is one of the saddest, most depressing albums i’ve ever listened to. this is harder to listen to and i dread coming here more than EATEOT.

[@ToasterSoy]

The last track gives me the feeling I get when I get nostalgia for someone’s who’s passed on

[@thestargazer679]

god, this hits so much harder for me now that my mom has passed she passed back in august 2021, and whenever i hear this i just think about her all the times she'd play with me stuck me in to sleep make me breakfast and pack my lunch before going to school ramble about nothing with me for hours i miss her so fucking badly im 17 it's unfair how young she died

[@runnininthe80s84]

Depressionwave

[@diegodankquixote-wry3242]

Nurglewave

[@juicyd9233]

Dementiawave

[@aurorusborealis4656]

it’s interesting how glimpses of life denial has modulation that almost sounds like bees given the extended album artwork

[@MG-iy4gw]

it still carries that vibe of "ooh no this isnt right at all what am i doing here" same as everywhere at the end of time, but without context (eateot was described as being about dementia) this only leaves me to think about what it could be about, if, at this point it is about anything in the real world anymore.

[@silverizepp]

I dont know why but last songs title " and bliss everywhere bliss " sends chills down my spine.

[@null_dan]

empty beyound beyound beyound is something else from the title itself to the odd feeling from the piano melody

[@nukeshine]

I barely had anything to imagine in this album but the first thought was at 5:29. It felt like I was going up an endless spiral staircase made of quartz with a black rail, and there was red carpet all the way up. The location I was in just felt like I was in a very fancy hotel that also looked like it was made of quartz with plants but it was all blurry while going up the stairs. There was no people around me and with the music going on in the background I felt like I didn’t know what to do. I felt small and If I were to go down it would just also be endless and overall a waste of time.

[@suclox12yearsago56]

Hmm, try and continue up the stairs, if you encounter a roof just continue though the roof and enter whatever rooms you see on your way to the top. If it’s hard doing this with your imagination then listen to this part before you go to sleep

[@chemems135]

All though the name of the first song "loss of want back there" may just be jumbled words, i feel like it has a meaning. As if the patient is so far in, they are losing the ability to want anything, that wants and needs are slowly becoming one and the same as the minds degrades to the point they can't think of anything other than basic human needs

[@jackpijjin4088]

It makes me think that they, with the few short coherent phrases they have left, are admitting defeat. They lost already, they have no desire to fight it anymore.

[@dwn21top-man95]

I’m I’ve seeing a lot of people who want a link between stages 3 and 4 but the sudden shift between the two stages isn’t as sudden when the description for stage three is read, the memories that the songs in stage three represent are the very last memories that are being held onto, there’s nothing left besides the few moments that are being fixated on and looped. It’s still sudden and my interpretation might be incorrect but I think that it’s the best way of viewing the transition, and I believe that adding a stage 3.5 takes away from what stage three represents, the last few remaining memories being held onto

[@conquestanddeath4406]

I dunno man I think the really fit the last few memories being held onto decaying apart pretty well.

[@ortherner]

the stage 2 transition to 3 is 100x more sudden then the stage 3 to 4 transition in my opinion.

[@scottycampbell4690]

I like to think that the reason why tracks like "equinox eyes will stop" and "Minimal all you are" Repeat so much is because these memories are highly degraded and the patient can only remember only a small snippet of the song. I also think the reason why "Glimpses of life Denial" Is the way it sounds is because the patient might've either done and recorded a recording or it's one of the wax cylinders that the patient brought. Overall, this and the CD version are really worth a listen.

[@rexperverziff]

do you know how to edit comments?

[@scottycampbell4690]

Yes, I just added a some new information about my guess on the track.

[@qk7x]

Every one of The Caretakers songs has a different feel than the last, there are creepy songs, confusing songs, songs that start off happy and deteriorates, this one is depressing the whole way through.

[@pkwithbear9549]

Equinox eyes will stop was the one that broke me. I kept picturing me as a baby in my crib, with my smiling parents looking down at me, but they kept disappearing and I was left alone, forgetting them.

[@Derpy_fish63]

*tears streaming down my face* Bubba...