The Cold Reality Of Cancer

So, the reality now is I won't get better. I have tried so damn hard. All we can do now is prolong my life as much as possible. Without chemo they expect a few months, with they expect a few more if the tumours respond.
I am going to continue to document this as I always have, the ups, the downs and try show just how bad it's getting.
It's not easy to understand or cope with and where as most tumours grow over months, years, mine grow in days, weeks and spread at such an exponential rate.
What I do know is that life is precious and not to waste a single moment that you feel well. That's exactly what I feel now. I'm not going to waste a single day I feel just ok because I never know when my next will be.
Much love and check for updates on my instagram / peeweetoms

[@badplatano]

This is hard to watch. But like you said it's not over until is over, keep fighting. Love you brother!

[@ShannonShenanigans79]

Bad Platano same it's very hard for me to watch Bec we're around the same age. I feel horrible. Even though I don't know him personally it makes me cry. But I am here to support.

[@ARES.PRODICTION]

Bad Platano word it is :(

[@terrielsayed8395]

This is also hard for me to watch, I am praying for you. I hope the chemo works you really deserve it. You are a good person.

[@aprilinjuly]

Couldn’t have been put any better

[@missydebby]

feel the exact same way

[@flowerlm47]

Dan, I’m so sorry to hear that your cancer is continuing to spread. I agree, it is like a horrible dream! Even a 20% chance is a chance. I would take it too in your shoes. For sure! Thank you again, for taking the time to update and educate us through such severe fatigue. You’re the best!😊😊😊

[@slavicroulette270]

Lez Moore he’s got less than a ten thousandth of a chance. Let’s just hope he’s the one in the 10000

[@flowerlm47]

Slavic Roulette I sure hope he does! I feel so bad for him!☹️

[@brandondenver4331]

Hang in there, man. Your fight isn't over yet. Not yet, I tell you! Cling on to hope even when reality stares you directly in the eyes. Fight, fight, fight!

[@Ken0604]

Dan I was with my Grandfather during his last few weeks of life. He also had cancer and was suffering so bad the last few weeks. He slept most of the time at the end. He said it was the only time he wasn't feeling sick.I hope they are giving pain meds to keep you some what comfortable. I know it doesn't completely take the pain away but let them know if its not working at all so they can give you something else. Praying for you and your family.

[@AT-er9iy]

All 74,600 of us love you ❤️ and are praying for you.

[@LisaMaryification]

Now, he's praying for all of us. Think of it that way.

[@weavethehawk]

@@LisaMaryification Praying? fucking praying? This god of yours really does work in mysterious ways, doesn't he? If he really does exist, which, of course, is an impossibility, he has nothing to learn about sadism. This "god" really does lay it down to his "flock" just how ready he is to exact his demands for his pounds of flesh. I hate religion, I hate the sentiments of "thoughts and prayers", prayers that never, ever have the desired effect. It's time that the human race woke up. Your god is not there. If he is there, he is completely devoid of any kindly thoughts toward his "sheep". Let the scientific community continue the great work they do, and if there is any "faith" to be applied, let the faith be directed to the great work carried out by scientists and research workers, who are the ONLY people who can give us any hope at all of seeing a complete resolution to any of the medical problems that continue to haunt the human race. Give up the appeals to the supernatural, they never ever work.

[@bethmoloney6825]

This is even harder to watch now that it is September. You have fought so hard and tried so hard to live long. Watching this today it brings home how much you have struggled these previous few months. You deserved longer. I didn't anticipate how quick your decline would be once the liver was hit. I think you have been extremely brave in sharing your journey and thoughtful of those who care about you even if we are strangers all over the globe. You are still with us, so it isn't over yet. God Bless

[@Tehnodinaroid]

Hold tight man, dont give up, i truly mean it! Keep your mentality strong dont give up please!

[@ulubilointikamtugaylar7202]

I think he passed away buddy

[@kylemurphy195]

Dan I would still have the same amount of respect for you if you decided to Monetise this channel, if you need to I'm sure all of those people who've pressed subscribe wouldn't mind

[@ChoraNym]

I know you feel like shit. I'm sure it's daunting, but just know from a viewers perspective...your eyes are just as bright and clear. Your will to live is still so present. I hear what you are saying, and I know it's going so fast, but your outward projection of life and vitality is still as 'in your face' as it was a few months ago when I first saw your channel. Hang on to that. With everything. I know the scientific reality of the disease, but the theatre of the mind when it comes to treatment and outlook is just as important. And if it be your last journey, then it will be a great one. Defiantly...and at top volume. Sending all the good vibes I can muster.

[@jessicawilkerson2417]

I just found your channel by chance really, and I've essentially been binge watching your vlogs just to catch up! I began watching these types of videos when my mom was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer! I was so desperate to find away to cope with the knowledge that my mom was given 3 to 6 months to live.. she died 6 months ago today! What Ive found along the way, is how amazing this community of cancer patients, friends, family, and strangers really are! There are people who will love you through your darkest moments, and support you in anyway possible! I began searching for an outlet to cope with what was about to happen and what ultimately did happen, not thinking I could ever be emotionally strong enough when someone else got the same news, to be their rock and support, but did, and I will continue to be! I just wanted to say, I appreciate your courage to tell your story and do it without holding back! You're going to help alot of people by having the strength and willpower to record these videos even when at your weakest, sickest moments! I will pray for you and ask God to give you strength, energy, and comfort, when only he can! God bless🙏💕

[@MrBlueboy41]

I only found your videos recently and Iam deeply touched and upset by your circumstances. I don't think any words I could say would would make a difference. However I would just like to say keep fighting my friend, you are such a strong person. We are all with you on this, peace and love to you my friend. Sending prayers and healing your way. God bless

[@MayimHastings]

Love the crap out of you, Brother! My heart and prayers are with you. Thank you so much for letting us know how you are feeling when it must very difficult to do so. I know it’s easy for me to say, but try to laugh at something everyday. That always makes me feel like I’m beating “it’s” agenda. I have a crumbling skeleton, so nothing like what you are going through of course, but I am no stranger to pain, and it does feel like a beast, but I’ll be damned if I let it win my spirit. Kick it’s ass, even if it’s just by your attitude! 💛

[@maryhelen1011]

You look like you don't feel good. I'm so sorry you're so sick. Sending lots of love to you dear Dan.

[@CUNOWINS]

Mary Helen I was about to chew you up. When I read the first line i thought you were making an Infinity War joke.

[@maryhelen1011]

Bear Mcbearface I don't know what that means but I know sometimes when you are chronically ill people will say 'you look fine', I just wanted to acknowledge that he doesn't look like his normal happy self. He looks like he's in pain and so sad. All the best to you and thank you for not chewing me out!

[@nateharris7447]

there’s always hope man. Commented a lot of love and support on your announcement of having cancer winning over you.❤️

[@beckyjones5099]

Morning handsome your still looking amazing 😚 Wish i could hug u your vlogs are so good but just lately i feel your heart ache when u speak i know u are holding it together for us. I know u wont give up much love to u and your family ❤❤❤❤

[@miaombak655]

Sending more love to you Dan. Your openess and raw honesty touches deeply. You have always kept it real, that's who you are. There is still hope and still life and a ton of love beaming your way from many around the world and your beautuful family and friends.. Let it touch you and envelope you. xx

[@shantellem.6011]

Hugs, if it's weeks , months ,years . Enjoy every moment you can. Don't give up, be strong . You are constantly in my prayers and many church's are praying for you. Much love

[@tarapunch5059]

You are the strongest man I know, I've watched a few of your videos and it's just so sad. I'm battling stage 4 colorectal cancer and in so much pain almost everyday, with the cancer spreading through your whole body I can't imagine the pain you go through... You are very brave, God bless you champion.. 🙏

[@daniellemisin4049]

As someone said, there are no words that seem meaningful or adequate at this point. I’ve followed you since the beginning of your vlog. I have grown to love you and respect you so much. Watching you...hate this word...deteriorate is really heartbreaking. Please take solace in the fact that you have touched THOUSANDS of people with your journey and your will to live and to bring light to this horrific disease. I will not leave your side. Sending love, positivity and prayers to you and your family Dan. 😢❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🤗🤗🤗🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@hortesalem4277]

You are strong Dan!!!! Don't give up. All our energy and our love to your healing. Nothing is impossible.

[@itsvarengan5042]

The hardest thing ever... every (ex) cancer patient’s worst nightmare. I hated the chemo but if it’s the only option.... You are so in my thoughts.... 🍀🍀🍀🍀 I wish you strength 🌻

[@lesleysmith6821]

This is just so sad, why does it always happen to the nicest people. I am glad you have palliative home care because they really can make a difference. I don't think you can get any better than Marsden so I hope so much that this treatment does a lot better than even they think it will. I am sending as much positive energy as I possibly can to you and your family from a former Britisher in Connecticut.

[@marlo9380]

God be with you 🙏 Praying for you! Stay strong!

[@arthick6466]

Momo I'd love to toss your salad

[@Mmyytt95]

The same "God" that gave him this cancer. I suppose it's "God's" doing when it suits eh......SMH..........................

[@zaxonite2991]

MrNlwt *tips fedora*

[@MaggotAddict21]

zac yurkanin *fat neckbeard athiest tips fedora*

[@MyLast2Braincells84]

Andrey Ivashin there are fat people in all groups of people including christians, so your unkind comment is dumb asf.

[@tuts351]

Stay strong, we are praying for you ❤️ love from India

[@BettyJBarr]

We've watched via your videos how fast this has progressed. We are all praying and hoping that you respond well to the chemo. It's disheartening that you are already so sick and adding chemo may very well cause even more sickness. I pray you come out the other side and have well days.

[@ClarenceC101762]

We care about you and in the deepest, most sincere and basic human meaning of the word, we love you and we send our thoughts, hugs and prayers to you from all over the world! Please know that, although it’s hard to not feel that way, but you are not alone! From across the pond, I send you hugz and every positive vibe that I can muster, my brother! 🇺🇸🤗🇬🇧

[@preciousonejewel]

I have no idea how i came across your videos but I am now praying for you.. praying you find glimmers of peace and joy in your last moments

[@TOPCLASSGAMER44]

Keep fighting buddy total warrior you got this 👊👊👊👊#cancersucks

[@luigiperrone8169]

You are the coolest guy. I could only wish I had your courage and demeanour. You're gonna be around and we are going to be with you!

[@Musical_Stitches]

You are lovely, kind, warm, funny, wise, and so strong. My love to you. Wishing you calm and comfort. Thank you for sharing what a wonderful person you are.

[@lewissquire740]

Lots of love man don't let it get you down even though it may seem impossible because I believe you will win head held high you can and will beat it and come out of it a much stronger and better person who will help others stay strong all of us will be here every step of the way and if you need money raising or anything of that sort don't hesitate we will be honoured to help a good man spend time with loved ones have fun and stay strong.

[@makeyourself1988]

You are an incredible person. I am glued to your videos and I think what your doing is amazing. You are going to help so so many people. You are incredible and I wish you all the luck in the world

[@lrdenn73]

Dan, you are such a great person, we all care for you so much.

[@marilynwatson4802]

Sending you much love Dan. I pray the chemo works for you. It's not over til its over and i pray God will supernaturally heal you. Please rest and take care!!

[@androidangel787]

I have been so worried about you Daniel for the past few days. We all are supporting you.

[@glibshchur4506]

Man,never stop fighting! It may sound strange, but I still confident that you will live! You WILL BEAT CANCER! We are with you,brother!

[@sweetpeasugarplum1237]

This has now become very hard to watch ☹️. Watching someone so young, so full of life and potential, so beautiful and pleasing to the eye, basically dying on cam ☹️. Life is cruel! Love ya Dan ❤️ xxx

[@Sharonlee334]

I saw where your Go fund me was turned off. Please turn it back on so we can help. 💔

[@ap4702]

I don't understand. Whats money gonna do?

[@kalen3719]

A P he says in the video his insurance isn’t going to cover what he needs to have done. I imagine that’s where money would be helpful.

[@meganlovesdisneyandcrafts4780]

Stop thinking about YOU ( yes in the end its about you because YOU give money)He said in his last video, he's too ill to continue with it.

[@aislingof81]

NHS aren't paying for medication, as mentioned in the video, and I'm sure it's extremely costly to finance. The gofundme would help ease somewhat the financial costs of treatment. Nobody was obliged to donate when the gofundme was running and i'm sure noone would be obliged to if it were reopened

[@meganlovesdisneyandcrafts4780]

LISTEN...…. HE'S TOO ILL TO KEEP IT GOING! SOMEONE HAS TO PHYSICALLY MANAGE IT AND AGAIN, GIVE YOU PERKS! NOTHINGS MAGIC!

[@fluffykitten8108]

Dan.....you are an inspiration, ive not been into church for years but am going tomorrow to light a candle and say a prayer for you, it can't hurt to try for a miracle....love & hugs for you all x

[@brittanylynne7794]

Praying for you and sending positive thoughts and positive energy your way. So sorry you are going through this. May God bless you and heal you. You are a kind and genuine man.

[@payli3777]

Anyone think its time we made a gofundme for him? If people are willin to help donate id love to help him pay his medical expenses

[@lesleysmith6821]

I really want to help him, this is why I keep telling other people the NHS does not always provide everything free. It can be difficult sending money from USA to England. The banks over there have gotten a lot more wary of foreign money and are not cashing and changing things like traveller's checks. The best way is from one bank account to an English one preferably his or his parents. Bank fees can be variable. Also the exchange rate gets very flexible at times so that needs to be taken into consideration. It can be really annoying giving in my dollars and not getting very many pounds back. I do think it is a great idea and they have something similar over there. I feel so terrible for him, why is it always the nice people.

[@meralgulfidan1916]

Let us help you

[@throwawaychant9396]

I would be more reliant to, although we dont want to accept the end, begin to fundraise for a funeral fund so that his family are not laden with the large sum that will come with it

[@doracotterell2863]

Payton Ruff, YES! Can you start up a "Go Fund Me" page for him? Obviously he has only to energy to fight the cancer and rest and then rest some more. I will also donate. Anyone out there that will set the page up for him and his parents? LET'S DO THIS, folks. My email address is: [e-mail]

[@TheTruthContestt]

Yesss

[@scottinglis6456]

Good luck with the chemo mate. The fact you're still putting yourself through this to help others through research is a testament to the person you are. It may sound corny but it'll be your legacy.

[@xiongmu1]

Stay strong. A friend of mine had cancer of the prick, but with some therapy, and a small amputation, he's doing okay now.

[@ryansweeney1661]

Rip in peace Dan you have helped so many people appreciate what they have and you will always help people, You may of lost your life but the goal is achieved of helping thousands of people with or without illness Easy for me to say but thank you 😊 🙏

[@goofytuber9011]

man i think ive never seen a cancer this aggressive.. the fact that he survived as long is insane

[@kaasirose24]

It’s good you’re not giving up . Really hoping the chemo gives you more time and strength to battle on . Like you said it’s not over yet! Best wishes💕

[@UGSimplistic]

Gods with you! Have faith, I’m praying for you!🙏🏼 Things will get better, trust him! He’s always there to talk with you and to look over you!❤️❤️❤️

[@Synicizm]

Your videos are a gift. there is no need to not monetize them, really. To us, who have lost or almost lost someone we love, courtesy of cancer, your honesty and eloquence give us insight into what your struggle is really like. I can only imagine those who work in healthcare can benefit too. 20% isn't as high as we'd like it to be, but it's still something. I hope chemo extends your life, whether we get to see that or not (you and your loved ones are infinitely more important, so don't feel bad about taking breaks from posting, if needed). You have many people thinking about you and pulling for the best possible outcome. I'm just one.

[@robinright825]

I'm new to your videos. I'm sorry that your prognosis is so poor. I am impressed by your determination to make the most of your remaining time. I pray your journey is as pain free as possible and you are surrounded by loving family & friends.

[@Funoh123]

We are all praying for you to live

[@Krygeryo]

I wish you the very best. You can tell that you're tired but you're still a good looking guy and I honestly wouldn't have guessed you have cancer.

[@martinhollyer7110]

Wishing you the best. My mother died at 56 five years after initial diagnosis -- a slow decline into old age.

[@bexbot]

This is so hard to watch but I'm making myself because however hard it is for me, it must be 1000 times harder for you. I'm so happy that you haven't lost that faith. God bless

[@geraldeanie]

Praying for you Pee Wee! Don't give up, something will come along. I've heard that vitamin c infusions help tremendously.

[@fracturedlegs3633]

I wish you the best of luck

[@piawolfrum2774]

Dan, all fingers and toes I have are crossed for you! Lots of hugs from Germany!

[@ohyikes7104]

I have no idea who you are, but damn man, I hope you make it through a little longer, you deserve it so much oml ❤️

[@priscillaridley2242]

It's not over and cancer won't win.. u have impacted so many of us.. I talk about your journey with my mom and we pray for you sweet soul.. all of us here have become like a FAMILY..we are your family!!! We love you !!!!!! it's not over and fuck cancer!!!! sorry for my words .. :/

[@queenjulianalovesherfatban2064]

Don't understand how you can be this strong and composed on camera if I was in your place id be sobbing uncontrollably . You are so strong 🙌🙌

[@2strelizia]

Young man have a bit of hope because the Doctors don't have a cristal ball. I have stage 4 cancer and on the 1 of June of this year when I was at the cancer centre Sunrise for my appointment I got to chat to a lady who was there with her husband who doctors Last September gave him 2 months to live is now June and he stills around. See? This is a fact don't lose your hope. Best of luck for all especially for us cancer patients. God bless.

[@marcosandrawes3641]

I will pray for you mate! Please keep fighting...

[@Jessica1998]

I’m so sorry you had to go through this, cancer is cruel. Rest In Peace Dan. 🖤

[@HP-lx5ih]

Can see the panic in your eyes, like it has properly hit you now :( But please don't give up, stay strong. There is always hope! XO

[@samuelbrown2750]

Stay strong dude if u want someone to talk to am always here even though u dont know me am here for u my guy

[@vernvandam8956]

Prayers from Connecticut my brother!

[@ikahn7422]

I really hope that a miracle can happen and you can get freed of this terrible jail cell called cancer. I joined your journey late but I’ll really be thinking about you.

[@kinnazoid5144]

Stay Strong You can win it ;) we are with you my bro 78 Thousand people are with you

[@dawnferguson3542]

I am so sorry I didn't know you 'sooner I would have loved to support you. I already feel like I know you through your cancer treatment videos

[@yasminvillanueva3141]

I'm so very sad that you had to go through this hortible disease but I just wanted to say that I'm glad I came across this video and got the chance to know what a wonderful soul you are. Thanks to you I'll have a different outlook in life.

[@jcq4sure]

Lots of courage !! Sending hugs and good vibes good luck on Monday !

[@MrThemenace1]

Keep up the fight man, you’ll make it through definitely

[@vladmakarov7971]

You are a true warrior. God bless ur soul.

[@milaben6089]

Praying for you.. God is with you don't give up!

[@BigGRIGinc]

Please monetize it man any money will help for treatments

[@onepurpleflower8910]

Sebastien Levesque They have national health cate but for meds, yes, good idea!

[@lorettankelly]

Completely agree .... monetize it to help your treatments. Or if you don't want the money monetize for other cancer patients??

[@AlfieThe1st]

Hes British our health service is free. I'm assuming he doesn't work too because of his illness so he won't have to pay for meds either.

[@adam7802]

The law actually gives some allowances for cancer patients and I'm fairly sure perscriptions are one of those things.

[@bigboy123-9]

Adam prescription medication is free in the UK off the NHS

[@deborahcraven6435]

Dan you are such a lovely brave man , stay strong and do what makes you happy. X

[@tunerimpala5658]

I’m so sorry about your situation. I have high hopes and prayers for you. Stay strong man

[@james._w2502]

i just got tested for lung cancer

[@dancingfirefly7761]

James._w Praying for you.

[@Conorize]

Hold on, stay positive.

[@kayantoinette]

Daniel, you are an amazingly brave young man. You don’t have to do these vlogs but you choose to, to help others. I thank you for that. For showing your scar on camera, for sharing your deep feelings of what you are going through. Your day to day struggles. Your legacy will be a positive one. One of selflessness and compassion. Hang in there. You are right when you say it’s not over till it’s over. There could be a miraculous healing for you. I wish you well lovely one.

[@mustwereallydothis]

I certainly respect your choice to not run adds. I do want you to know, however, were you to change your mind, it would, in a small way at least, make many of us feel better. Seeing you struggle and not being able to help you is hard. Of course, you are going through something harder than we, God willing, will ever even come close to. Obviously, what you want to do should be all that matters right now. I just want you to know that when we watch blogs about people going through difficult times we feel a small sense of accomplishment from simply watching those ads without skipping, even though they earn only a tiny bit of money. It's nice to know we can help someone when we don't have anything else to offer beyond thoughts and prayers.

[@michaelmatherne5086]

This seems like a horrible nightmare. I keep waiting for you to say "just kidding guys", but I suppose thats not going to happen. I think about you all day. I don't like to think that I may someday soon not see your handsome face with a new video. in 2018 this shit shouldn't be happening. 'm by no means a church person here, but I pray for you everyday . I will always think of you. You touched me in a way that I could never forget you. You have become part of me. I've laughed, I've cried, but mostly I cry like a big grown baby. I can't imagine how your mum and dad are taking this. It breaks my heart. A young handsome boy shouldn't have to deal with this fucking shit. I'm so angry. I love you dan!!!!

[@jkd1381]

A Beautiful Compassionate Selfless ANGEL He Is!!!

[@gavinsaunders3539]

Prayers for you pal, heart breaking what your going through ❤️

[@ResidentEvil2860]

fuck cancer. keeping you in my thoughts. may you find peace wherever you go. blessings.

[@pauladonnelly3367]

God Bless You and your videos for who you are as a person and for what you have given back.

[@KwabenaL.]

You're living and thriving on the outside!

[@giselecomeans2091]

Sending lots of hugs and prayers for your comfort Dan; I hope you have a special someone in your life to be with along your journey.

[@5555-b7w]

You are loved, Dan!

[@himatsamra3485]

man in life you never give up i believe in you we all do

[@nrkilla14]

stay strong, praying for you!

[@peejthompson]

good luck with the chemo Dan I am very shocked your treatment is not NHS funded. WOW mind bending.

[@Elbaz8]

I want you to get better from this. Keep fighting.

[@tonyd7300]

You are very strong ! Love you brother ! xxx

[@zacdesormeaux4446]

God plz bless this beautiful man with a miracle

[@omnicoreinc]

Power to you brother!

[@internationalmagic3993]

Only YOU understood 100% the real situation,the real life,the real world.I am so,so sorry for YOU and for your entire family.Be YOU,THE ANGEL FOR YOUR WIFE. RIP.

[@2StrokeTARD]

best of luck mate, i hope for your sake something takes a turn for the positive in the next week. You seem like a great guy and a really genuine person, if all else fails you will have left behind an everlasting set of videos that will continue to help people in the future!

[@chikabolitaful]

Buddy im so sorry you gotta go through this especially so early in life. And right.!!.."its not over till its over"

[@karynahern970]

Keep fighting Dan!! Thinking and praying for you always.

[@ladywhitefalcon]

Hugs you with big warm comfy hugs. In my prayers.

[@diorgaming8332]

Stay strong bro💪🏾 I hope your right with god

[@FondaMusic]

PRAYING FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!