The Dark Side of Benadryl -My Experience-

[@funnybone_fuxia]

That weird knocking at one point in the video made me think I'm on benadryl myself, great job!

[@JC-rs3bs]

I found your channel after an attempt at ending my life with Benadryl (like 50-60 pills) when I was visiting my aunt in Houston with my mom. I haven’t shared this with anyone and have done dph several times instead of cutting for self harm since my first attempt. I got help now but I can’t talk to my doctor about this. Your channel makes it seem like I’m less alone. I have my trip report if anyone wants to know what it’s like: Was sitting outside and Leaves on small palm started wiggling in a scratching motion. Went inside to sit on couch. Limbs started feeling heavy. Streaks of soft light started appearing in corners of my vision. Pastel blue purple green. Aunt and sisters voice was normal but it was loud almost like they were shouting. Moms voice was not hers. Her voice was under a deep voice, more guttural and vibrating and deep. I started sweating a lot. I also had on long sleeve shirt and joggers so I was even more hot. I started getting scared because I really thought I was going to die and ruin it for everybody. Kept playing scenario in my head of what would happen if I told them what I did and wanted to do. They would be mad and upset. Breath started feeling shallow. I would breathe but my mouth just felt like a bottomless vacuum hole. I could suck in the air but I couldn’t breath, like I felt air wasn’t going into my lungs. Sometimes I’d catch a full breath and felt normal/sober for a few seconds. Went to the bathroom but couldn’t walk straight. Body kept making purging motion but no movement from my stomach to vomit. It only came from my chest. I peed too at some point but I just remember getting up off the toilet to pick up my pants while facing the toilet and realized my underwear was wet and cold. I still put them on even though they felt really cold. Confused a sponge for my phone. Then realized it was a sponge. Walked back to couch and stayed still. Started feeling regret because I hate when I have no control over my body. Felt sick again headed to bathroom and thought maybe if I stuck my fingers in to tickle the flap I could vomit the second pills I took. Tickled the flap even tried to look up to get a better reflex but nothing happened. Stayed staring at wall with fingers in mymouth. Started biting down on the first knuckles and didn’t even realize it. It didn’t hurt and I couldn’t feel it. I think I could have bit off my fingers if I didn’t snap out of it. Looked myself in the mirror to try to make me snap out of it. Said “you will be ok, you will be ok” over and my reflection started smiling and looked normal but my eyes were dark black in the color part. I was scared but my reflection was happy. Walked out of bathroom and was looking at pictures of my uncle that were hung up in the hallway. Saw him smiling and I got sad thinking I cannot die in his happy home. Sat on couch Hands were really shaky I couldn’t hold my styrofoam cup from circle k. Kept my mouth open unconsciously and mouth started getting dry and sticky. It’s like I could feel all the moisture get sucked out of my mouth. My voice started feeling heavy and wouldn’t come out. I couldn’t find the keys in my bag when aunt asked for them. I kept fumbling through the bag but couldn’t concentrate to find them. I handed her the bag instead. Mouth was really dry and I was thirsty so I got my cup and struggled to open it. Was in kitchen and thought maybe I could flush it out my system by chugging water. Tried to fill the whole XL cup with tap water from the sink. Felt like it was taking too long and only filled the bottom part. Thought the sooner I drank it the faster the flushing would take efect so I stood at the counter to drink it. Mom, aunt and Sister were at the table. When I took a small sip of it, felt a slight burn in my mouth throat and then stomach like if it was bleach. It started to taste like pure bleach. Made me feel sick. Reminded me of the time I drank bleach. Aunt, mom and Sister kept talking and I needed to ask them if the tap had bleach so I blurted it out. I remember aunt answered and I was so confused and kept pointing at the sink because I could swear it had bleach. I remember she said to drink from the fridge so I went to it and couldn’t figure out how to get water. Finally got water a little bit in my cup and tasted it. Tasted like cold bleach. I think I dumped it and threw cup in trash. Sat back at couch. Someone of the three said let’s go upstairs to get ready to sleep. Sat by the stairs while they got things ready. Tried to walk but kept looking down at the foyer and wanted to fall. The rails felt really light and fragile. Sat back down on the step. Remember aunt and Sister asking me what cushion I wanted. Picked the thicker one because aunt said it was better I think. I didn’t really care. Aunt asked me to help lay it down and I had no idea how to move my hands. Laid down and don’t remember much other than aunt asking if I wanted the fan on. Lights out. Fell asleep. Woke up after what felt like 4hrs. Had only been an hour or less. 11 something (11:37 I think) couldn’t believe it. Felt someone in the room with me. I was alone though. Went to the restroom, felt groggy but thought the trip ended. Couldn’t figure out who was in the room so left bathroom light on and opened room door to look in. Pile of stuff looked like a body but I couldn’t figure out who. Walked into dark room and kept reaching for the string to the light but couldn’t find or grasp it. Turned on light, no body. Fell back asleep. Woke up in the morning still out of it. Eyes felt so dry that no drops were helping. I was so blind too. Kept trying to be normal but I was still out of it. Mom wanted me to drive and car was going slow but I felt it was going too fast. My voice kept giving out. My limbs kept feeling heavy. Started panicking in my head because mom always wants me to drive but I didn’t feel safe enough to since I kept drifting into nothingness in my head. She drove. She made me mad when she wouldn’t listen to the gps and I felt static tingles all over my body to my hands and legs. She made me upset twice because she doesn’t listen. Tried to cry but couldn’t because eyes dry

[@phanx0m924]

stay strong!

[@aystino224]

@@phanx0m924 what kind creatures did you see, say what’s up to the “Hatman”?!

[@zanziboi]

my heart dropped at 3:50 with my headphones on, that was like a benadryl hallucination

[@schism7066]

SAME WTF😭

[@rabbishekelstein]

omg i thought it was someone knocking at my door 😱

[@Eric-gv4di]

That tapping at 3:50 almost made me shit myself lmao. I'm coming down from a stimulant and I thought someone was tapping on my living room window and I went looking around outside and everything 😂

[@weliveinasusciety1279]

Same dude I'm just watching this video now and that knocking almost made me piss. I was looking inside my closet and other places after I heard it.

[@Eric-gv4di]

@@weliveinasusciety1279 he got us good

[@oskariuljas9752]

Same man i thought someone was just tapping on my bedroom window im also on vyvanse right now so it made me little bit jumpy😂

[@darbylyndawid3775]

Glad you're talking more about this! Benadryl is no joke

[@calebfuller8414]

For sure your 100% right benadryl is NO joke I was addicted to the shit for like 5 years even though I NEVER had a GOOD experience on it it's crazy

[@Moqally]

3:50 scared the shit out of me, I got headphones on, sounded like someone was knocking on my walls

[@Trippy_Times]

:P Gotem

[@veecee8699]

Lmaooo same

[@timmythicc5724]

Made me think I had schizophrenia 👍

[@LukeDaPandaII]

Lol I thought my mom was at my bedroom door

[@elproff007]

I was watching in my garage with Sonos sound system. Thought someone was at the door, 😂.

[@P_A_R_A_L_L_E_L]

0:37 I feel the same way. For me it was just how crazy and mind bending the trips were

[@ryanmorgan4306]

I spent probably 6-9 months abusing benadryl. I worked 5pm-1am as a dishwasher at a casino. I would come home and pop 600mg and lie in bed for a bit completely disassociating and then play diablo 3 with a nice numbness. I was lucky because I never had to deal with the super scary shit that comes with deliriant abuse. I also spent some time abusing dextromethorphan while I was living in an apartment by myself. I have vivid memories of the fucked up shit I saw. Looking back I can't believe I did this shit because it absolutely should've broken me. I would never recommend either of these. I appreciate you sharing your story, and I'm glad you got clean. This helps me truly appreciate how lucky I was to avoid addiction.

[@JayThe0]

The anxiety on this stuff is unreal and it’s not even bc the hallucinations are that scary the heart rate increase and sweating/shaking alone makes it not worth it. It’s also a great way to ruin your brain, heart, kidneys, and liver. I went through a year and a half of continuous use- till the magic (visuals and audio hallucinations) ran out. It’s not worth it. Smoking weed is >. And even dxm is better but that can fuck with your mental health and memory as well as your kidneys with long term use. Thanks for the video

[@domonickmatheson5080]

Who has had urinary retention from Benadryl use

[@Sk8nkhunt42]

If I could I would. benadryl was easy to get, especially after I stole so many bottles from walmart. I was so uncomfortable, my anxiety was so high. It was terrible but the nostalgia hallucinations were why I kept going back. But the burning feeling in my chest and stomach weren't worth it.

[@insidemotheruniverses9-cha886]

The demonic voice in your head that you heard reminds me of a Benadryl trip I had early on in my days of deliriant usage. I was drawing what I thought was just a skinless person (yeah it was kinda creepy) I found myself drawing random shapes around it and the drawing itself manifested itself into my thoughts and I became my own drawing of a skinless man while the shapes behind the person formed into a geometric looking snake that I could feel whispering in my ear over my shoulder and the moment I caught on I turned around so fast thinking something was there and it sent my heart racing and I had to immediately stop drawing (one of my favorite past times while tripping). For sure one of the most unsettling experiences I’ve had with drugs across the board and I still have that drawing today but it gives me so much anxiety to look at it.

[@SlNLESS]

Yes bro I’ve been waiting for you to post🔥🔥

[@rivencleftofstars4592]

I was hooked on this for about 8 years. It was cheap. Available anywhere. Took me away from reality. I downplayed my Benadryl addiction for years. It's only Benadryl so I just kept taking it.

[@tylerhunt2182]

I was hooked on the shit for along time to because you can buy it almost everywhere it's crazy I've been off it for 2 years now thank God when I first gave it up tho I couldn't sleep for like 2 weeks

[@Bouncyboizes]

i think its good it isnt available otc in finlad

[@stinji_97]

I'm so glad I found your channel! I'm an addict myself and I'm struggling every day and you give me hope! I also really like your content and on top of that you're handsome too!

[@Trippy_Times]

Keep your head up

[@titusbozeman5348]

I was addicted to it for close to 5 years , and after a scary overdose I've been clean since I was 20. I'm 25 now and I'm doing great !

[@michaeldoubleday9985]

Its been a bit, glad to see your doing well. Keep up the great job :)

[@LukeDaPandaII]

Hey, I used to be addicted to Adderall and I tried benadryl before and I took your advice in a previous video and I tried kratom. And this stuff is amazing, if I had this when I was depressed it would have instantly fixed it. But it's also helped me with addiction, especially from Oxy. Kratom is a miracle, now if you want to try something new with it, go for pretty small doses like around a gram to 2 grams and let me tell ya it helps me through my day. But that's just me its definitely pretty different for everyone. God bless you, I'll be praying for you to keep your sobriety and you are such an inspiration. And kratom makes me very talkative and I'm on about 7 grams so ya 😁

[@gollasolo5814]

U back bro, i like your vids

[@andrewbatchelor5488]

3:50 that nock scared tf outta me bro

[@elproff007]

Good to see you. Grats on your continued sobriety and thanks for your commentary. As always, enjoy the content and subtleties and touches in your producing, the background music, the lighting, the editing, the evil voiceover (whoa). Also, that chair, it reminds me of a race car seat.

[@scubue]

benadryl made me scared of sleeping in the dark; to this day im anxious, there has to be some tv show on working as a light and noise.

[@TheBigTripper420]

Same here man

[@scubue]

@@TheBigTripper420 hows your life going

[@TheBigTripper420]

@tey8875 alright happy to be off that garbage left a lot of nasty long term side effects though how about you

[@scubue]

@@TheBigTripper420 quit benadryl than replaced it with harder drugs than hit bottom and now I'm sober even off weed and nicotine

[@psilocybincookies7026]

Missed your videos! Glad your back

[@sybersyrup]

finally another video! I love your channel man, has such a chill vibe and your story telling is great.

[@Sk8nkhunt42]

Bro 1 day of sobriety ill keep it on though, im sure im not gonna go back after what happened yesterday 💀

[@yeerkals]

Facts man i was heavily addicted to dph and dxm and honestly its a miracle i survived my couple of ods on dph. Its really shitty and horrifying man. U almost have to mix it with dxm to not get freaked out, ive literally never had a pleasant time on it.

[@yeerkals]

Yeah man i have liver damage from it, it fucking sucks dude.

[@dylandisconnected]

@@yeerkals same dxm dph addict liver damadge gang I got that fatty liver how bad did your shit get

[@yeerkals]

@@dylandisconnected thankfully not too bad and in due time itll go away, but im just happy im not dead.

[@thaspacegoatae3419]

Been there done that. Gnarly dxm and benadryl phase, it's so crazy how much I relate man. I was exactly the same with benadryl, everytime I took it I just regretted it but for some reason kept doing it, the fap and music enhancement was really the only decent part. I was on probation so abused dxm and dph heavily, I was brain dead and crazy as fuck. My brain is mostly recovered now I'd say. I'm just using Kratom like you nowadays and sometimes weed. Also went through a bad alcohol addiction.

[@42choppa_benzxfn54]

me and my friends going through a lot of this shit glad to see there can be an end to dph cuz it’s not looking good rn

[@hahuded2122]

love your vids, makes me want to be sober for longer, knowing that I'm young makes me want to stay sober even more, especially since I'm away from things that made me want to use like toxic family and such, thanks for making vids, I love them all

[@DoubleJeryPie]

Yeah man 10 months!!! Keep it up bro 🥳

[@Lusidius]

3:50 scared the living jesus outta me with that knock dude

[@masonvosburg2546]

Man I hated that stuff, I took about 600-650mg one night and 4 days later ended up in the hospital for unrelated issues but they basically told me my liver enzymes are threw the roof. It’s scary how terrible it is both mentally and physically

[@user-ue2lx6py9j]

Bro that knock killed me whyyy lmao

[@morgan5324]

Your describing how I am with benadryl at the moment , I had that pain you was on about today while I was out on my bike

[@scubue]

same same same, my left arm would hurt and go all tingly and i was convinced i was gonna have a heart attack and i would have panic attacks. i went to the doctor and of coarse my heart was fine but now im sober, everytime my arm hurts or is tingly in convinced its a heart attack

[@diphenhydramine6072]

I could never lay in bed on Benadryl. Every time I lay in bed on Benadryl, I start seeing mice crawling all over me and coming inside my clothes.

[@lactosetucker1027]

Benadryl is fucked man I thought I was getting dementia

[@DPH_ghosts]

I love your videos

[@brandonriggs1808]

Love your story man

[@chroniclecobalt338]

3:50 hold on I gotta pause the video they are knocking again

[@documentofchange]

I DONT GET HOW TF THAT KNOCKING SOUND AT 3:50 IS SO FUCKING REAL I KEEP LISTENING TO IT AND IT'S TRIPPING ME THE FUCK OUT. I am so high that I can feel the vibrations and it creeps me the fuck out even after playing it multiple times what the FUCK.

[@niikkyp]

already commented this on a different one of your videos but over the summer one of my buddies took 850 mg of dph and ended up having a major seizure, he was unconscious for near a half an hour, i was there by his side the whole time and watching his eyes roll back and him stop breathing for periods of time was scaring, thankfully i was in emt school at the time and knew exactly how to handle the situation. either way with all of us being 17 and 17 in high school and all fearing he was gonna die, i think it’s safe to say none of us will be doing thag again, but in the end please stay safe y’all, thanks for reading this:)

[@cassieb841]

i don’t know why or how people build a relationship with this drug or how I did. I take this almost everyday to go to school or just any event really.. and I hate that I depend on it.. I like feeling like I could die and how red and jittery I get. I never experienced as much anxiety as you described even on higher doses. I’ve also never seen people or had any visual hallucinations, only auditorial. But yeah there’s so many things I hate about this stuff and I don’t even know why I like taking it. I guess it’s just there and easy to access.

[@tylerhunt2182]

Yo man I HIGHLY SUGGEST getting off that crap because I was on it for like 5 years and I have severe long term problems man with my liver and kidneys and just mental thinking to so if I was you I would get off that crap ASAP

[@cassieb841]

@@tylerhunt2182 thank you. I quit a few days ago after viewing this persons profile on Reddit who took like 6gs and died from it. It’s been a little hard without it so far but I know that quitting is what’s best for me. Thank you for this comment:)

[@tylerhunt2182]

@@cassieb841 No problem man I'll tell you how bad this drug is I took 900mg of it once and was almost arrested for trying to walk into a random person's house I was hospitalized and when I was in the hospital they told me that my liver emzimes were like crazy high the stuff is NO joke you can get through it man I've been clean off it for a year and a half I know it's hard but you can do it I believe in you 👍

[@maxhoefoe3462]

it slows your entire body basically even mentally. it makes you forget and you fall asleep, the next day you can barely function i.e extremely bad motor skills. I've taken 1500mg a few times. a lot of hallucinations too

[@shykiddx]

I have hppd from DPH

[@shykiddx]

@Lincoln Orcutt not really but it's light I just gotten used to it

[@leakdagoon]

the first time i tried bennys my friend said i put salt on my phone insted of my food

[@dylandisconnected]

Bruh the liver shit is me i had the same thing and my blood tests were normal but the ultrasound showed fatty liver

[@smittyflufferson1299]

Love your intro music

[@actingchief2850]

Another banger

[@ryanxeo4849]

I have to check and shake out all my blankets now from 1 scary trip were I thought bugs were in my blanket and crawling under my skin been that way every night for like 3 years now fuck Benadryl

[@lightbeingpontifex]

Actually we're all covered with bugs,,, hundreds of them,,, but you can't see them , they're like ghosts,,,

[@fifthavenuegirl]

Wow I only took one pill last night and also a few nights back and had horrible dreams. Like horrible. I think also a few months back same thing one time. Does it make you go to a lower realm? It was not me in the dream - I wish I would have had the werewithal to pray to Jesus Christ in the dream and do some spiritual warfare. I will only

[@Velaar]

Hiw much did u used to take?

[@Trippy_Times]

Anywhere from 200-700mg usually

[@Gelato41_]

your videos helped me relax after i recently tripped on benadryl (NOT on purpose, it was 109mg for sleep and yeah might be too much but i didn't know how much was in a pill) i felt like i got traumatized by the event, even during the following days after when i smoked weed i got anxiety and paranoia and all that happened was that i just remembered what occured during my trip and it just wasnt fun. But as i said your videos have helped me calm down and relate to someone who has gone thru this fucking awful shit i still hallucinated astral spiders like 3 days later

[@jordanvaughn1946]

Bro I’d be super down to collab I took dph for about a year and I had seizures and on one instance I had a heart attack seizures cardiac arrest at a friends house and was “dead” for a bit I had to be revived. I had kidney failure and severe rhabdomyalasis and was put in a psych ward. I dealt with major addiction. At my peak I was taking 50 pills a day or 1.25 grams. Like you I lost the psychedelic like effects and it was just a strange alteration and sexual pleasure enhancer. I’d still have major shakes dialated pupils and tachycardia but mentally the only effect was paranoia and anxiety. Like I said I’d love to collab and go into more detail about my extensive and extreme experience with this substance

[@Trippy_Times]

I do want to collab with a few people, waiting for alot of chaos to pass by, 2020s rough, haven't been very social with anybody at all, but it'll pass eventually. feel free to email me or add me on discord. Trippytimesyt@gmail or A Psy#8074

[@PaulTheAlien]

Holy shit, I thought my otc drug problem was among the worst. Glad you’re still with us.

[@KetamineReview1159]

@@PaulTheAlien straight bussin off that tussin

[@yeerkals]

Same man

[@jordanvaughn1946]

@@PaulTheAlien appreciate it 👊🏼

[@wizardmaster1218]

I just wanted to share this cuz it scared the shit out of me but i messed around a couple days ago for the first time in a little over a month but i tried 300 mg of dph for music and gaming enhancement but about 1 hour into the trip i got the usual body load and for some reason i get a slow motion effect and then about 3 hours later i heard that if you look at a tv that is off you will get dph cartoons and when i stared into the screen this pale faced man with black eyes was staring back at me and i got the sense it was a shadow like person but got a very demonic feeling as he was looking back at me and then right next to his head on the other side of the screen i saw what looked like an ouji board and got the feeling he wanted me to use the board to communicate with him i dont have an ouji board nor would i ever mess with one sense its a bad idea all around but then about 10 minutes after that i started hearing knocking on my door and was sitting on my bed in pure fear and was scared to open it and never did and then shortly after fell asleep. I have to say this was my second scariest experience on dph and even 300 mg can produce hallucinations of that caliber. my intention from the beginning was actually to just enhance music as i was gaming but now i dont know if i will ever go back to it. I probably shouldnt anyways because its bad nuerologically. Have any of you ever seen demonic figures on dph or the iconic hatman?

[@Thats_me190]

300 is to much to enhance music and gaming do 150 mg

[@residentsleeper7368]

ay u back

[@wenisbrothers]

I've had that weird shock feeling in my right side. i think it might be some type of temporary kidney problems.

[@Trippy_Times]

Same man

[@wenisbrothers]

@@Trippy_Times Glad to hear you quit though. there was a few time I had the same feeling on high doses that felt fatal.

[@homelessman3483]

Isn't the dark side the only side lol

[@Trippy_Times]

the 'bright side' I imagine is just benadryl by itself in a normal dose for allergies lol

[@noose6213]

Glad your back

[@DaveSmith-pc4ul]

This is why I want synthetic weed w

[@ChrisMFlorida]

You're a handsome dude 👌

[@EduardoGonzalez-du4yv]

3:50 if your on Benadryl this will scare the shot out you

[@lightbeingpontifex]

Not really,,,

[@idiedinmysleep4380]

Took Xanax once and that was more than enough to scare me and show me what stronger shit can do lol

[@PaulTheAlien]

Trippyy aye good shit. About everything you have said, I relate to exactly, holy shit. Spot on. I’ve been having issues with otc drugs since I was 13 in 2015. Shit gets out of hand

[@hooligang4eva619]

10 months strong let's goooo💪💪 stay up big homie u can beat that shit💯💯

[@ioiaxopanel3652]

we early

[@apostrophes1052]

Well all your experiences bad or good was slowly turning in to nightmares

[@basedbari6680]

Got tempted to buy a bottle and I'm using your videos to talk myself out of it lmao

[@tylerhunt2182]

Dude you did the right thing DONT use that crap man it's SUPER bad for you

[@Gelato41_]

this will make you feel like your organs are in fucking pain the entire time and like your heart could just suddenly stop, any moment you could die atleast thats what i felt, that was enough to make me stay the fuck away from this shit

[@Dev-fc9ir]

hey another upload lol

[@theGman402]

First

[@jamescapb3795]

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13 :)

[@shykiddx]

Yeah dph is an shitty drug idk why I got addicted to it