The day my daughter would have turned 10 years old... Video in memory of a loved one

Hello dear friends! We haven't met on this channel for so long. I've been away here again for over two months. I'm so sorry, but sometimes it's so difficult to resist the hardships in life and life within yourself without falling. Unfortunately, I think almost everyone knows what I mean. I don’t want to complain about my life in any way, but the last few years have been the most difficult time for me mentally. Some kind of chaos is going on inside me. I rush between loss of hope and enormous fear, between powerlessness and a huge sense of guilt, between meaninglessness in everything and great responsibility. I understand that I’m very bad at adjusting these feelings, dispelling this chaos, but I’m banging my head like a sheep, trying to cope with this, myself... I hope the time will come soon when there will be peace within me. Knowing that I have here, on this channel, a place with great support, the path to peace and tranquility within myself, which I strive to get even a little closer to, seems less long and difficult.
Today's video was filmed on May 2nd, when my little princess would have turned 10 years old. In memory of my girl, for whom the longing does not subside. With my mind I understand that now she does not suffer , does not suffer from illness, but my heart is very sad. Heart yearns as if she left this world yesterday, but three years have already passed. As I said earlier, as long as I live, whether it makes sense or not... I will try to honor the memory of her and the day when she was born and gave special warmth to my heart, and not only mine....
The video has no description/subtitles or my thoughts, I don’t know why, but for some reason I didn’t want to write/tell anything there. We spent this day, as always, with our family. I did my best to make this day warm the hearts of all members of our family. For me, the easiest way to express my feelings is to write and draw. Unfortunately, I don’t know how to draw at all, just by imagining, I can only copy what I see. But lately, for some reason, I haven’t been able to either. So I ordered a painting by numbers. When I saw this photo on the Internet, it really reminded me of Hannah, how she would look at 10 years old, healthy and in this world... So I wanted to draw such a picture in honor of her, for her birthday. We all called Hannah Princess Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Now watching this cartoon is like a hug during the most difficult time. A cartoon that has now taken on a special meaning for us.
I thank every heart that keeps in itself the memory of my little princess Hanna!
Thank you for everything!
Until next time, here❤️‍🩹
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[@senselian]

Hello dear friends! We haven't met on this channel for so long. I've been away here again for over two months. I'm so sorry, but sometimes it's so difficult to resist the hardships in life and life within yourself without falling. Unfortunately, I think almost everyone knows what I mean. I don’t want to complain about my life in any way, but the last few years have been the most difficult time for me mentally. Some kind of chaos is going on inside me. I rush between loss of hope and enormous fear, between powerlessness and a huge sense of guilt, between meaninglessness in everything and great responsibility. I understand that I’m very bad at adjusting these feelings, dispelling this chaos, but I’m banging my head like a sheep, trying to cope with this, myself... I hope the time will come soon when there will be peace within me. Knowing that I have here, on this channel, a place with great support, the path to peace and tranquility within myself, which I strive to get even a little closer to, seems less long and difficult. Today's video was filmed on May 2nd, when my little princess would have turned 10 years old. In memory of my girl, for whom the longing does not subside. With my mind I understand that now she does not suffer , does not suffer from illness, but my heart is very sad. Heart yearns as if she left this world yesterday, but three years have already passed. As I said earlier, as long as I live, whether it makes sense or not... I will try to honor the memory of her and the day when she was born and gave special warmth to my heart, and not only mine.... The video has no description/subtitles or my thoughts, I don’t know why, but for some reason I didn’t want to write/tell anything there. We spent this day, as always, with our family. I did my best to make this day warm the hearts of all members of our family. For me, the easiest way to express my feelings is to write and draw. Unfortunately, I don’t know how to draw at all, just by imagining, I can only copy what I see. But lately, for some reason, I haven’t been able to either. So I ordered a painting by numbers. When I saw this photo on the Internet, it really reminded me of Hannah, how she would look at 10 years old, healthy and in this world... So I wanted to draw such a picture in honor of her, for her birthday. We all called Hannah Princess Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Now watching this cartoon is like a hug during the most difficult time. A cartoon that has now taken on a special meaning for us. I thank every heart that keeps in itself the memory of my little princess Hanna! Thank you for everything! Until next time, here❤‍🩹

[@user-eg3zu2zm9d]

Вы ни в чём не ВИНОВАТЫ..

[@user-tu2hq6jb8e]

Вы лучшая из матерей Земли! Конечно, бесконечно жаль Вас, что Вы страдаете , и нет утешения в Вашей душе. Но помните, дети Ваши всегда Вам безгранично благодарны, и девочки, и ,особенно, мальчики. Помню то время, когда Ханна была жива, я только познакомилась с Вашей семьёй, и вдруг такая печальная весть. Скорбела вместе с Вами. Пишите свои заметки, мысли, у Вас особый дар излагать, возможно, когда нибудь выйдет в народ Ваша книга , которая кому то поможет преодолеть жизненные трудности.

[@maximus8992]

Through everything you are such an amazing Mother to all your family full of love caring and most of all being there for everyone, getting down is natural but I believe and im sure God will always be there for you during all these times. Take care and love to all your family.

[@user-gl9gv4su1x]

Милая женщина,добрая,нежная. Сил Вам.Дочка красавица,она уже дома....Как жду историю ваших деток.....

[@senselian]

Спасибо Вам огромное !

[@user-vh4nu5hl1c]

Рады вас видеть❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊

[@senselian]

Спасибо большое! ❤❤❤❤

[@rocky_moon]

Скучала по вашим видео. Светлая память нежному цветочку.

[@senselian]

Спасибо Вам большое! ❤❤❤

[@user-fs8hg4bl9o]

Das Video ist sehr schön anzusehen und wahrscheinlich auch schwer wenn ein 10jahre altes Kind im Geist der Familie lebt und der Körper sich im Grab befindet oder die Asche.🎉😢 😢

[@shopofhearts]

Sending lots of loves to you and your sweet family,wishing you all the best..your children are Beautiful.

[@senselian]

Thank You very much ❤❤❤

[@ShinGian]

Tantissimi auguri dolce principessa, sei sempre nei nostri cuori ❤ un abbraccio a tutta la famiglia.

[@senselian]

Grazie mille dal profondo del mio cuore! ❤

[@maximus8992]

Your lovely daughter will be in Heaven with God and full of all the love you gave her with all your family

[@marjanf56]

God only blesses people who are special with these beautiful children..he will never give you more than you can handle

[@senselian]

Thank you so much! ❤

[@SrGemmaRose]

I miss her so much. I can’t even imagine how much your family suffers her loss. Beautiful child. You are all in my prayers.

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤❤ Your support means a lot to me❤

[@marjanf56]

happy birthday in heaven princess hanna

[@glennalemania700]

🙏🙏🙏🌾

[@candicesailsbury1355]

Senselian you are a very sensitive soul and it’s a very beautiful one. You write so beautifully. This is just a thought but why don’t you write a book on the loss of your children? I think it could possibly be healing for you also. I’m so sorry you have to deal with the grief and everything else that comes with it. The children look happy and beautiful. I love the picture you painted. I lost 2 of my grandchildren and I also think about what they would look like now. The birthday cake was beautiful and the flowers 💐 were just as. Take good care of yourself my dear friend. Love y’all ❤ 17:12

[@senselian]

Thank you so much for your great support and kind, warm words. This means a lot to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I'm so sorry you lost your grandchildren. My condolences to you. I wish you great patience and heart-warming hope. I hug you tightly! Take care ! ❤❤❤❤

[@williamfrank7565]

The honesty with which you express what you feel....makes me look forward to experiencing your videos....Proverbs 3:5 says "TRUST in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding".....May GOD grant you peace as you seek HIM....Blessings

[@senselian]

Thank You so much!

[@belindataylor2389]

Happy Birthday sweet baby girl 🩷🩷

[@hanniekeijzer6605]

Een dag die nooit vergeten wordt, en dat moet ook niet. Heb vannacht rustig de video bekeken, had het al verwacht en wat ben jij een schat zo rustig alles klaar gemaakt. Dat roze kamertje met die prachtige mooie foto van Hanna, zo jong en alleen herinneren gemis groot verdriet. Ben je dankbaar voor wat je allemaal deelt met ons, maar een kind verliezen ist ergste wat een ouder kan overkomen veel liefs Hannie ❤❤

[@senselian]

Hartelijk dank! Bedankt voor uw steun, voor uw vriendelijke en warme woorden. Dit betekent veel voor mij. Dankuwel! ❤

[@ludmillakalyashina70]

Только Господь млжет послать внутренний мир, мне очень нравятся Ваши видео, и Ваши мальчики очень дороги мне и аоспоминания о Ханне, у нас тоже полтора года назад ушла дочка в Небесный край.... Благословений вашей семье❤

[@senselian]

Спасибо Вам огромное! Спасибо за Вашу поддержку и добрые слова! Для меня это очень многое значит. Мои соболезнования Вам. Мне очень жаль. Желаю Вам много сил и терпения. Я очень надеюсь что мы когда нибудь снова встретимся с нашими детьми. Крепко Вас обнимаю. Берегите себя.

[@anitawade1790]

So beautiful and so poignant. Shine bright Hana. Sending lots and lots of love to you all ❤ Anita

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤❤

[@Crrly]

We will always remember your sweet, precious Hannah ❤ Lots of love and light to you and your family. ❤

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤

[@saehtex1]

Blessings to your family on the remembrance of Hannah. We all miss her.

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤

[@colleenford5398]

I love how creative you are! I'm so very sorry for the loss of your little princess Hanna. I hope you can take a little comfort from us here on KZbin...we wish only the very best for you. Both of the boys and the princesses looked great as well! I was excited when I saw your post! Sending love and light to you and the children! ❤❤❤❤

[@senselian]

Thank you so much! Your support means a lot to me. ❤❤❤

[@laurawhite1679]

Happy heavenly 10th birthday Hannah you are sadly missed ❤

[@senselian]

Thank you ❤❤❤

[@Морана72]

никакой мерой не измерить горе матери. Никакими словами не дать тебе облегчения, потому что все слова бессмысленны. Каждый проживает горе по своему... Молча обнимаю. Сил тебе, Лейла, и обретения СЕБЯ и смысла в каждом дне.

[@jessaleeturcotte]

My heart ❤️ goes out to you and your family. I can’t imagine how awful it must be losing a child. God bless you.❤❤😊

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤

[@daughteroftheking3018]

Beautiful

[@senselian]

Thank You!

[@nellekemagee2392]

Met liefde. ❤

[@user-go8hd8jv9q]

I'm so sorry for your loss rip sweetie 😢😢

[@diamondheart9268]

What you do for your children is so heartwarming and beautiful. To honor your precious Hanna on her birthday is wonderful. I love that you do this for her and that painting was truly a work of love. It’s amazing to see how much each of your children have grown so much from when you first started this channel!!! I’m so glad all of you are healthy again and thriving. Please, take good care of yourself. You’re an amazing and inspiring person.

[@senselian]

Thank you very much. I'm so glad to see comments from you. Your support is very dear to me. ❤❤❤❤

[@user-ne7ec5jv6z]

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[@meganharrell1021]

Awe my Heart goes out to this family 🥰🥰🥰 your Hanna will always be a princess at heart👸👸👸👸👸👸 I love this Channel and this lovely family as well

[@senselian]

Thank You so so much ❤❤❤

[@francicontu95]

Ciao la mia mamma si chiamava come la tua principessa tanti auguri alla tua piccola principessa un abbraccio grande a te e alla tua famiglia ti ammiro 🙏😘❤️

[@senselian]

Grazie mille dal profondo del mio cuore! ❤❤❤

[@pennymcnaughton5963]

❤❤❤

[@ITsAssain]

We are seeking good 👍 life

[@adelef.7147]

Per Hannah ❤con infinito ed eterno amore ❣️🌹

[@senselian]

Grazie mille dal profondo del mio cuore! ❤

[@debbiewhitman1305]

You are such a kind, caring mother who has had to endure the unbelieveable medical problems to 3 of your beautiful children..My best advice to you is to draw near to God. tell him everything: and God will strengthen you and sustain you through all of this. You are not alone: what happened to you and your husband is not your fault: none of this is your fault. Believe me, God understands what you are going through: and he truly cares about you. If you, an earthly mother, can be so caring and loving towards your children, God Almighty cares for you so much more than that..Pray to God: draw near to him...Read His Holy Word..May God richly bless you, all the days of your life. With God there is hope..please believe this...Big hugs..

[@senselian]

Thank You very much! Thank you for your support, for your kind and warm words. This means a lot to me. Hope will always live in my heart. ❤❤❤❤

[@debbiewhitman1305]

@@senselian Please do not lose hope..Draw near to God and one day you will be reunited with your children: and they will NOT be sick any longer. Just do the best you can now, while you live: and stay close to God.He will richly reward you: and you will be reunited with all your children. God put allot on your plate: I believe he will reward you graetly one day, for sure.

[@dayanaf301]

Iam so sorry for your dughters loss what happend to her i know that shes with god ❤❤❤❤

[@user-uc7fq9gl6x]

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[@senselian]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@adrianalika9199]

Beautiful family, wishing you all the best😊😊😊😊😊

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤❤

[@alyssawynn11]

I always find inspiration in you and your family. I pray for you all and hope that you will continue to have peace and happiness!

[@senselian]

Thank You so much ❤❤❤. Your support means a lot to me.

[@sunjiebejasa6483]

Sending love,God bless...❤🙏

[@senselian]

Thank You ❤❤❤

[@bobijames2072]

❤❤❤❤❤😍💎

[@ranetabatajeva1028]

❤❤❤❤ 😘😘😘😘

[@senselian]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@user-om4vq7yz4c]

Царствия Небесного ангелочку!

[@senselian]

Спасибо Вам огромное!

[@kyleperdue5103]

What happened to your daughter

[@saradaniels]

Did she pass at home or in hospital

[@senselian]

At home

[@saradaniels]

@@senselian good did she celebrate before passing

[@ТимаДЦП]

Здравствуйте , мне искренне жаль что так случилось. Дальше не буду спрашивать. Что произошло. Я понимаю как это больно.я желаю вам счастья пусть у вас всё будет хорошо!!

[@senselian]

Здравствуйте Тима! Спасибо Вам большое. Спасибо за ваши добрые, теплые слова. Ханна скончалась во время тяжелого приступа эпилепсии, у нее остановилось сердце. Врачи установили инфаркт сердца.

[@ТимаДЦП]

@@senselian Мне очень жаль. Простите пожалуйста что спросил об этом лучше бы я не спрашивал. Это очень страшно. Потерять своего ребенка так.я очень сочувствую вам

[@senselian]

Ничего, всё хорошо. Спасибо вам.

[@user-uu2ni8ll1f]

А где Ваш муж?Почему он Вам не помогает?

[@senselian]

Он рядом и всегда помогает.

[@user-uu2ni8ll1f]

@@senselian А почему он себя не показывает,он боится чего то?))

[@senselian]

Нет конечно. Выбор каждого человека.

[@otaku6136]

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@senselian]

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[@mirkaracekova4578]

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[@senselian]

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