The Hero's Journey aka My Life aka The Caleb Johnston Story (I'm Caleb)

I made this while going through some stuff - c.
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‪@TrentLenkarski‬
Elizabeth Boudreau
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Dylan Dexter
Steven O'Brien
Jim Croteau
Audrey Duhaime
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[@TrentLenkarski]

Amazing movie dude!! Caleb is such a great and tragic character Thanks for letting me bring Kevin to life in this! : )

[@MattyKiel]

Kevin is an icon, Trent is an amazing actor

[@BerretSO4]

Trent, what an excellent job. You were Caleb's best friend and foil. You absolutely nailed it and amplified Caleb. It is so hard to do that well.

[@RamenDenominator]

Everything is better with Trent.

[@AvengeTheThrone]

Hope your thesis paper on tree frogs got finished in time!

[@AnEnemySpy456]

You reminded me of my friend Mik from high school. He was a 4.0 student while I could barely scrape together a passing grade and I honestly don't even know why he hung out with me sometimes. I don't know what he's doing now but I assume he's living a way more fulfilling life than I am.

[@BepisQueen]

Kevin seems like the most supportive friend of all time. Caleb draws his KDR on his face, and not only does he recognize what it is, but he also follows up by saying “that’s sick, thank you” not to mention all of the times he said “that’s awesome” to the dumb shit Caleb was showing him. We all need a guy like Kevin. We could all stand to be a little like Kevin too

[@masonnasty3293]

I think I cried, reading this.

[@ignitionnight]

Kevin was most supportive when he drew a boundary for Caleb. That was the reality check that Caleb needed. Without that reality check he doesn't get closure with Stacey, and doesn't listen to his sister when she tells him to go home. We don't know where he goes from here, but I have a feeling Caleb's island looks a lot more like Kevin's than Jack's.

[@enward_hardar]

I'm not sure if Kevin is supportive or just a push over.

[@Pilpup]

Kevin made me tear up "I got you"

[@xanderseier6659]

I have not spoken to my mother by voice for over 30 years. My mother is a whole new pevel most.

[@Patriotic_Eagle1995]

I can't believe I'm going to actually get my shit together, really put my mind to something, put in the work and actually watch 12 feature films in a year. I'm so proud of myself

[@8lec_R]

Lmao😂 But it's true tho. Sometimes people find it hard to make time for art. Just taking time to let art influence you, not going out and picking something one feels like watching but sitting and putting something on and observing and understanding what it's trying to say

[@RobertEOSPEEDWAGON1]

​@@ethanduman2228 no

[@LiquidDemocracyNH]

Every scene is painful in its own way. The whole thing is beautiful. And i like that at no point did anything get too heated. Like his girlfriend could have been cheating on him, but instead she was just describing how he was a fine but underwhelming partner. He could have been confronted by Jack about spending all his money but instead he was just left to feel guilty about it. Even his "hustle." He could have gotten caught stealing and chased out of the house, but instead he just had to shamefully, awkwardly leave the house with no food. This movie managed to be a great drama that did away with scenes that usually make dramas too intense for me. I loved it🐴

[@JaxontheOkay]

the most heartbreaking part of the hustle scene was that the man OFFERED caleb some free food if he'd like it. when given generosity, caleb refuses, for the second time. first when he ripped up kevin's money.

[@oliverkinsella]

Caleb is everything I fear I'll be. Like him I fear stepping into the adult world, and I fear I'd struggle without the safety net of my mum. Watching as friends grow and evolve leaving me behind scares me. I'm terrified of having to take care of myself. The last 10mins of this film were blurred by tears. You're too good at what you do Joel.

[@katback1678]

I was typing things out again and again. You touched on something so real about this movie. It's cutting in how grounded it is.

[@user-ql3yj3zm2y]

When you finally fail, you begin to see that it's not the end of the world, and it's kinda easier to go up from that point, when that fear fades away.

[@KarlOlofsson]

Anything daunting (like adulthood) is probably best to deal with step by step, day by day. Just make a list of shit that scares you specifically, and pick one to try to deal with. Preferably something you are a bit excited about as well if you could get it done 😅

[@earlbilbrey8058]

My 2 cents: Take things seriously, and put your maximum effort into everything you do. You’ll make it!

[@SamBeck6090]

Tbh when ur starting off as adult no one actually knows what they are doing. But as long as you have some community, friends or family that have got your back you should do ok

[@walrusbyte263]

When he said he was finding cheap or free stuff on Craigslist, I was like "Oh, that's actually smart. He could try selling it for a higher price or fixing it up". Then I laughed super hard when his actual plan was revealed. 😂

[@videodaniel8945]

One gotta think -why would he steal snacks instead of something more valuable, and seeing the character it's gotta be because he thinks it would be too unethical to take money or anything he could sell.

[@charliebeareuwu]

Caleb Johnson is a person rarely seen on film; someone who, through not very much fault of his own, is incompetent, yet tries his best everyday regardless. There are many people like that on earth, and their voices often go unheard and unrepresented, so I appreciate it shown here. I myself am schizophrenic, and so struggle everyday to maintain my job. I’m lucky enough to have a loving and supportive wife, but nonetheless, through little fault of my own, I find myself challenged to do what many others find fairly easy

[@phoenixgirl70]

I really hope things level off or get a bit easier. I know it’s not in your control though. But I hope these things all the same. I guess just stay on your meds and maybe there’s an online support group that helps. I’m really happy you have a loving supportive wife. I wish everyone found a person like that. It’s the greatest gift. Joel is just an amazing film maker and actor. He pulls me into every character, I become fully invested. He’s just a really sensitive person who has payed attention to people and instead of making fun makes us care about them plus any other characters. Nobody looks bad. Stacey isn’t vilified, the parents of his friends aren’t vilified. Because you know just enough, that what Caleb did was pretty bad. Even if Caleb didn’t mean it to be. Ok I’m writing a book here, 😅. But Joel always makes these incredible films and I love seeing others appreciate what he does and not just the animations. Im really tired, I hope this makes sense.

[@charliebeareuwu]

@@phoenixgirl70 I’m doing my best to go back to college and get my psychology degree. I want to either work in research, do cognitive behavioral therapy, or if I get my doctorate work as a research lead or clinical psychologist. I want to make life better for people with my family of disorders. Joel Haver’s a good director, and his films talk about perspectives and subjects that feel real and grounded, rather than an idealized fantasy a lot of media depicts

[@katback1678]

I really like the way you write.

[@charliebeareuwu]

@@katback1678 Ty, I write novels uwu

[@phoenixgirl70]

@@charliebeareuwu Well you know your good when you get questions and compliments in YT comments! Wishing you a very successful, prosperous life you have time to enjoy!

[@ringo2715]

Shout out to all of the Kevin's who have a Caleb in their lives.

[@bardanmcguire]

Congratulations Joel on the first of many feature film uploads of the year!

[@agingerbeard]

Let's go!! ❤

[@nickchambers3935]

I love how Joel is completely immersed in a character that's so different from himself, and Trent is just Trent

[@jordan11752]

We love Trent 🫶

[@Gridironwarplans]

Trent is always Trent. He’s doing his best and we love him

[@slippyjiggler1192]

Most mainstream films focus on grandiose dramatic sadness. Joel has such a way to capture everyday subtle sadness that a lot of us live through. This made me emotional and one of his older films made me bawl like a baby. This is great man. Keep doing what you’re doing. I’m looking forward to the next one. Thank you.

[@AlexGorskov]

Well said. Joel is the man!

[@toddbuttshine]

It's too sad for mainstream, it lingers

[@lotrdude13]

Pretend That You Love Me did that for me, so good

[@soiboisixtnine8848]

Kevin insisting on joining Caleb for his final interaction with Stacy fucked me up. Also great use of Checkov's broken microphone.

[@jakenorth4811]

yeah that was a great turn, when Kevin demanded to join him

[@moonknight6088]

Don't forget Chekov's piss jug lol. But seriously, great film

[@Pilpup]

I know that was so heartwarming. Just a theory but do you think Stacy and Kev might be dating? she picked up the phone right away when he called but that might also be just because they are friends.

[@akiravelicka8363]

this movie perfectly replicates the very specific feeling of being left home-alone in a foggy afternoon while having a growing undiagnosed depression and a complete inability to think about where is your life going for the next years. It's this crippling loneliness that makes you feel like your existence is a unseen stain in the universe. This hit a very nasty spot to me and I feel kinda heartbroken. Very excited to see the next 11 movies. You're very talented Joel and you're one of my favorite film-makers of this generation. Your work means a lot to me

[@oddtom]

I think that's the point, though. So many people have this stage of life or are in it, but are afraid to say anything about it because of that self-diagnosed unimportance and this culture that discourages expressing those particular emotions. Brought back a lot of memories for me too that I forgot I had, but I think it's important to remember what it was like to be there if only to put what life is like now into perspective. I like that he does it to show us- and those that watch this that are still there- that we aren't alone.

[@haerfgvbag7050]

Fucking cringe

[@50stressballs58]

1:14:15 “I’m not happy right now but I feel like I’m gonna be soon” hit me really hard for some reason. I don’t know man. It all hit me hard. Damn.

[@gvantsasakaruli9900]

Me, I'm studying and working and going to the gym all the time and I feel like I'm skipping my 20' but then again, I hope I'm going to be happy soon

[@Trenz0]

​@@gvantsasakaruli9900 As someone who just left their 20s a couple months ago: the addage "never put off for tomorrow what you can do today" is true with things beyond being productive. Do what you want to do. If you want success, work towards it, but don't sacrifice your life for it. You could get sick or die at any time and the last thing you want is to feel like you wasted your life. Be honest with what you want and realize that you'll never have as much energy as you do now.

[@orangelove478]

Wow.. having seen a few of your feature films now, this one hit me the hardest. Caleb reminds me a lot of my ex, just one of those people that wasn't quite made for this world - kind of spiraled out further and further from life circumstances, mental health issues, substance abuse, etc. The ending where he moves back home and talks about "floating back to the mainland" brought some tears, because my ex never did. He passed away 3 years ago and I still think of him often, and it's nice to imagine he's out there somewhere as the beautiful island he didn't get to become here.

[@alcohosh]

You should add a spoiler warning bruh 😭

[@alexlambson8273]

After observing your ex do you have any advice for someone who feels like there in a similar situation?

[@inscription8099]

This comment ❤

[@__KNOX__]

@@alexlambson8273 when you feel lost, hopeless, or just flat out down on yourself or what situation you’re in… remember this will pass. You can change your situation, not all at once though. Take Small steps in the direction you Want to go, each step you take no matter how small will make you feel Good and it will energize you to make more small steps. To the point that one day you’re no longer in that situation and now it’s time.. your time. I wrote this already but I am writing it again. Never let your review mirror become larger than your windshield. There are people who love and care for you, become one of those people by making a small step in the rite direction everyday. You are worth it!!!

[@That-KidDo]

Am I… right for this world

[@EngeltheMage]

Jack's acting is so good. I was genuinely uncomfortable every time he peered over his sunglasses at me

[@iansrife5107]

Acting?

[@trixsisdead]

@@iansrife5107 no. It's art at its purest form.

[@Checker222]

Jack was 100% that burnout- I've known a few people like that, and he nailed it!

[@nickswope2848]

This movie is a great reminder to check in on your friends. Life is hard. No one needs to go through it alone. The hug in the driveway and the oatmeal scene are such powerful moments. Both acts that seem very small, but show the depth of their love for Caleb. Very powerful.

[@Quathryn]

I can't think of another movie, or even another piece of media, that captures small town life quite like this does. I grew up with kids like Caleb. The transition into adulthood in places like this is rough, especially for them. They either escape or become a townie. I feel for Caleb as the place he calls home becomes less and less inviting; outgrowing it but with nowhere else to go.

[@Ziedrak]

Never felt so much like I was watching a coming of age movie from the perspective of a depressed jobless homeless adult It was super entertaining and engaging to watch, just when I'm gathering enough sympathy for Caleb as he fumbles through life, he does or says one thing that makes that sympathy evaporate in a millisecond, this certainly took me through some very tense bits where i was wondering "is this it for Caleb? will he finally get caught by the owner of the house while he's stealing their granola bars?" Loved to see how despite all though, Kevin is still supportive and there for his talk after being taken for a wild ride, even being there for Caleb on his talk w Stacey, a true bro too. Same with Debby asking him to come home with the groceries from his ma's end. The ending was so sweet, even if it's seen in today's standards as a "defeated coming back to the coop", it feels like after almost losing a finger to frostbite from sleeping in a car, returning home to worrying folks is better than toughing it out alone on stolen granolas lol. Some of those moments felt too real and emotional in their awkwardness, and I'm not talking abt the piss jug talk lol. I also didn't know Quaker had granola dino eggs! I'm going to be buying some next time for sure :) Really enjoyed this first film and i can't wait to see more from you Joel!!

[@nathanandbear]

It felt like an out of control train speeding across mountain railways. Tunnels and cliffs, ups and mostly downs. The train is out of the mountains by the end, but it's still going to be a long ride

[@RamenDenominator]

This is the second time Joel went hard on the unhatched dino eggs, so we now know it's a sincerely held belief.

[@gabriel.casellas]

"The groceries are from mom" That is the moment that brought tears to my eyes.

[@DrAmazing]

I'm really glad I read this comment. I heard it as "The groceries are FOR mom." and thought it was a passive aggressive way of forcing him to go home and talk to his mother.

[@Billionth_Kevin]

My eyes teared up on "the groceries are from mom", then full on cried on "I always have this oatmeal". Realized she isn't just humoring him, but genuinely interacting. Our hero got the girl back in the end, just not the one he expected

[@MattH039]

"I've been playing life on legendary difficulty" is by far my favorite line of the movie. Many other great ones too!

[@StrongBadger]

This thing is jammed with hilarious lines from start to finish. "That's like if James Bond was parked outside McDonald's." I was losing it.

[@LuckyLucyHi]

"You could be hit by a truck, or crushed by a...falling...truck."

[@timmiller1]

“Your money is no good here”

[@timmiller1]

I do sometimes wonder if we are all playing on different difficulty levels. Like, how in the world do a lot of people I know accomplish so much each day? It feels like they must be working with more hours in a day than I am or something.

[@jimjamjerry]

All skulls on bro

[@mickster965]

"I like skipping rocks." Jesus dude. 4 words never hit so hard. This is such a powerful film ❤

[@spydric]

On my second viewing, I caught that Stacy talks about him being really into rocks and even good at identifying them as her example of his intelligence while on the phone. Now that line stings even more.

[@ericnstuff]

I'm also living the "manic depression to the point where I won't get my cell phone fixed" stage in my life and this film has started off fantastically.

[@ebutblues]

me too... All I need to do is change the screen protector. Oh well!

[@humanman4152]

I hope you’re doing well

[@samathum4711]

Been there my friend. You gotta start small and change some things.

[@berenmccormack8767]

Been there as well, it's a constant battle but it's doable if you just focus on little victories everyday, they add up even if they're small the effect they have on your brain is the most important part

[@guilhermeviolin]

The scene where Kev and Caleb had a talk outside of the motel room was so good, so natural. And then Kev offered to go with Caleb when he went to talk with Stacey... it really moved me.

[@oldboyplays900]

Okay, I'll admit it: I was impressed by the Taco Bell frostbite triage. This man is a survivor.

[@timmiller1]

I like how he left it on his foot long after the heat was transferred, as if the contents of the burrito were a poultice against frostbite.

[@Vahamedus]

"Some pepper and shit, might as well be hot" though Caleb

[@katback1678]

he was still polite to the staff

[@caramella2103]

I wasn't crying until I heard the line "The groceries are from Mom" That one hit very close to home I also love how seemingly "meaningless" things always have meaning in your works - like the dinosaur eggs. Because they may not have meaning to an outsider, but they had meaning to Caleb. It was important for HIM. I loved that.

[@QoyYT]

you're makin me cry and shit bro

[@Joel-Haver]

it happens bro, just think about something funny like pineaple express - c.

[@danielthehuman107]

of course Caleb finds that film funny 😂 @@Joel-Haver

[@RobertEOSPEEDWAGON1]

Wait is he making you cry and shit as in stuff or cry and shit as in....well shit

[@GiuseppeCasey]

Same, man. Went to take a dump and an hour later I'm still here on the can.

[@brunodangelo1146]

I was diagnosed with MS on January and I'm disabled now. I still try my best every day, but Calebs hopelessness was just too relatable. I haven't yet finished watching the movie, but I will. I just had to stop to cry and write this comment. Connecting with art, even on places that don't make us happy, makes one feel seen. And that is valuable. Thank you, Joel.

[@brunodangelo1146]

Finished watching. There's so many things I could say about this movie, but I will just go with this: Thank you for making this film!

[@sambeery8873]

My headcanon for Caleb is that his filming of his life is him desperately trying to overcome his perceived lack of intelligence by keeping a record for him to review later for insight since the insight doesn't come to him naturally. This position is symbolized in the significance he gives the deer/wolves. He may not be able to tell in the moment what he's looking at, but through reviewing the footage the truth will become apparent to him. This motivation is what drives him to go to such lengths to break into his mom's house to steal his external hard-drive and agonize over all those memories/films.

[@nathanandbear]

He was really hoping it was wolves. He would rather have not looked at the footage. Knowledge is power for Caleb, but knowledge takes wolves away from us. What did he see in his old footage? Deer, wolves, both, none? I imagine he was hoping for wolves again.

[@tshepherd8145]

My headcannon is a laser. Pew pew pew nyyyooooom

[@ralek592]

​@@tshepherd8145 Lasers dont go nyoom. You wish it did, but its really just a pew.

[@Dave_the_Dave]

I don't know if that's "headcanon" or just a good interpretation. Somehow Caleb's instinctual drive to relive good times past resulted in him gaining a glimmer of insight into himself. And though he may not be there yet, I think Caleb is at least on the path to self-awareness. He'll probably always be a well-meaning fuckup, but ultimately there's hope he will be OK.

[@cashwarior]

wow i didn't even think about that :o

[@EayuProuxm]

"It can't always be fun dude. You got to have boring days" That's an epiphany. Sounds like something Jake from Adventure Time would say

[@zeno9962]

Man, this film had me on the edge of my seat throughout. A single vision, executed with unrelenting precision and consistence. Like a horror movie with a deep sense of foreboding and unease baked into every. single. frame. Feels like we really know Caleb at this point. Such a relief at the end to see him return home safely with Dino eggs and Dominos. Bravo! It's amazing how a "low-budget" feature film can produce so much more emotion than the latest Blockbuster. Big respect and kudos to Joel and team.

[@cenciende9401]

Last I checked blockbusters aren't Drama films, so that makes sense to me.

[@lauren3568]

The transition from 'some day you and me we might be able to make it work in a beautiful Nissan Sentra together' to 'I'm not used to this car' was so poetic and the reveal of that beautiful shot of his mom was heart-breaking.

[@Wyattinous]

“Jack how do you have 7 Candy Crushes” laughed my ass off with that 😂 Edit: That end scene where he turns the camera to face his mom was so beautiful. It introduces the kind of warmth and certainty which was completely deprived through Caleb’s homelessness and struggle with old friends and romance. 💘 Outstanding ❤

[@nathanandbear]

It perfectly encapsulates what Stacy said about him never changing! He is changing in so many subtle ways, but his enthusiasm and personality hasn't faltered at all. His mom appreciates his unchanging aspects, and he knows it. She would have bought pizza whether or not it had snowed

[@taylorschoenhofer9251]

I have a soft spot for Caleb, and this movie really emphasizes fears and feelings I think so many of us have. fear of others being better off without you, falling behind, being gossiped about, being outgrown by your friends (or the other way around), and taking steps backwards (“failure”). We’re right on time, here and now, and that relationship that didn’t work out, moving back into your parents home, losing your car/money, pissing in jugs are important chapters of the modern hero’s journey. at the end of the day, we’re a bunch of adults that feel like children trying to convince ourselves and others that we’re on our way to figuring things out. taking our time and making mistakes are not optional

[@GoldenBoyProductions]

absolutely jumping for joy at the prospect of an entire Caleb Johnson feature film since the entire Caleb saga is hilarious but Confronting My Middle School Bully/My Ex-Girlfriend's New Lover (Jack Stevens) is specifically such a banger of a video that it always felt like it could easily be expanded into something feature length, I'm also v excited to watch a new feature of yours shot in Massachusetts, it's old Joel Haver scenery with new Joel Haver style and skill

[@lordofamerica]

I loved the caleb streams

[@ComedyBros5]

It's good to see that Caleb and Jack have figured things out after that hit and run from Caleb confronting him!

[@danielthehuman107]

I cannot express how cool I think it is that Joel made this for his first feature of the 12. I think most people would have felt the need to make something overly conventionally cinematic to live up to the hype from all month, and appeal to more general audiences that might have expected a typically formatted film. The original hero's journey Caleb video (the first one I saw at least) was always one of my favorite sketches on the channel just because I always wanted to know more about the character. I'm glad he seems to have reached a natural conclusion to his arch, but also part of me hopes we see him again someday, even if it's just to stream an epic gaming challenge with Kevin. If any of Joel's sketch characters deserved a feature film it's this guy and shit. (Reviewed by Daniel)

[@MattH039]

I feel like at different points in my life, I have played the role of Jack, Caleb, and Kevin.

[@nathanandbear]

Every character is incredibly relatable in very tiny ways, like lighting an already lit cigarette after each puff. Symbolic somehow

[@internetdirigible]

It's incredible how human this story is. I know these characters completely. The fact that caleb thinks Jack Stevens fried his brain from cigarettes says a lot about his naive he really is. Such a sad and innocent character, but not blameless. Looking forward to the next 11 features!

[@cenciende9401]

Very true, the fried brain comes BEFORE deciding to do something as stupid as smoke, it is the symptom not the cause

[@yuxian20]

23 mins in and I'm depressed as hell. This is so painful. Also Taco bell heals all wounds

[@Joel-Haver]

maybe get a arizona with peach (if u can find one i havne't been able to) and watch the rest, that crap always help me - c. (caleb)

[@yuxian20]

​@@Joel-Haver Got myself an AZ Raspberry at the end. My dude you have captured that awkward zone between absurdist comedy, melancholy and cringe perfectly. If this is the first feature, I'm excited for the next 11. Knit hats off to you

[@peppercrack5211]

AZ Raspberries are healthy as shit bro@@yuxian20

[@tophergrallison]

Yeah this is a rough watch.

[@TheTHKCxCLAN]

this almost sounds drunk

[@robaire5505]

I'm not one to normally have an emotional reaction to a video but ( and I mean this with full sincerety) this was the first video to bring me to tears in a very long time. Having lived out of my car for about a year there was so much in Caleb story that seemed so genuine. From the little stuff like McDonald parking lots and libraries for internet to bigger things like the rift that forms when your childhood friends progress in their lives and you don't know how ( or are unwilling) to do the same. I'm quite a few years out from that time but this film brought up so many emotions and resonated in ways that I rarely have known art to do. TLDR:Amazing work Joel!

[@feanor7080]

Officially found my new ‘literally me’ character that will define my life for next two months or so.

[@ed273.17]

I can't think of any piece of media that has ever, ever made me feel as intensely as this one. I feel privileged to not identify with any particular aspect of the story, but somehow watching Caleb's life gave me the same deep feelings of anxiety and hopelessness that I used to get when I had problems with procrastination in school growing up. Obviously nothing *at all* like the magnitude of the struggles Caleb is facing in this film, but the dread I felt then when an assignment loomed near and the dread I felt watching this film were equally painful. I think maybe both come from some deep seated lack of control of the situation, facing down some unclear yet definitely dark future that you feel like you have no power to avoid. I haven't felt this way in many years, and it was definitely not fun to feel it again. But I also think it's important to remember that this world is insanely difficult for many people and a lot of others may be feeling this way on a regular basis, especially these days with economic opportunity shrinking and mental health struggles growing. Thank you for making something that challenged me to expand my awareness of what life in this world can be like. I hope your next 11 films don't make me feel so shitty, but I'm looking forward to them regardless.

[@smilleur]

I see myself in this character a lot. I empathize with him and I have hope for him because I have hope for myself

[@nathanandbear]

I believe there is a bit of every aspect of Caleb in everyone, even the smallest amount for the shortest time. Horrifyingly relatable

[@dust9307]

That's interesting, 'cause it's kind of the inverse for me: I have hope for myself because I have hope for him. If caleb can return as a prodigal son, and slowly learn to grow up from his past mistakes, then maybe we can do that too. Honestly, one of my favourite movies now.

[@themword2722]

The character Caleb is exactly what I'm afraid of becoming and able to relate to, Love the movie from the beginning till the end, Amazing work!

[@liv8827]

Wow 150 bucks! Also enjoyed it thoroughly!

[@MoeSzyslak20]

​@liv8827 not sure what currency this is but its likely much less than 150 American dollars.

[@DungeonSoup]

Oh my god the first movie of the year features Caleb? Amazing.

[@Joel-Haver]

bro i made it - c.

[@jimjamthepizzaman2723]

It's deeply worrying watching this. I see so much of myself in Caleb's lack of drive, his contentness in "making due" with what he has, and how it's led him into further destitution. His oddly stunted inability to convey his thoughts through speech. I keep a journal of every day's events for future reference. Seeing my awesome intellectual friend work towards his scholarly pursuits while I'm taking baby steps in every direction. It's also relieving to see other people being able to relate, probably none moreso than the creator of the character himself. This is a beautiful video to start off the year my good Joel, very pleased to be able to see your work :')

[@that_guy_standing5754]

It occured to me a couple days after watching this that joel played his character so well, that i actually stopped seeing joel, and saw caleb. Even after seeing so many of joel's videos, he was able to play a character so well that the immersion wasnt broken. This goes for trent as well. These guys are underrated actors, and i havent realized that until now, because i thought they were just talented writers and comedians.

[@TwelveGallonBee]

Without going into too much detail, I feel like this movie really gave a voice to the voiceless. Caleb is a very normal guy in today's world, and it really spoke to how hard that can be

[@erievhs]

Exactly

[@redumbum]

This made me cry for the first time in a while.

[@Joel-Haver]

hope ur doing okay, thanks for watching - c.

[@underadesk]

I like that kevin is doing his thesis on tree frogs, I love tree frogs, Its lovely that his wallpaper is a treefrog

[@DRAG0N_FIRE]

You can't help feeling bad for Caleb. He's not the sharpest tool in the shed, but he has a good heart. He wanted to stay a kid while the rest of the world and his friends grew into adulthood, which I feel we can all relate to a little bit, growing up. His coming to terms with the fact that he needs to let go of the past and take up the responsibility of being an adult is also something I can relate to, even if on a much smaller scale. Yeah, this is a funny film on the surface level, but past that is a touching and deep story of dealing with adulthood, moving on from past events, and persevering through our hardest times. Thank you for the lovely feature film, Joel.

[@TheFreshestPineapple]

This is...something else entirely. I don't think I've watched anything in the past ten years that's made me more emotions than this movie. Everyone felt so real, so genuine, it was almost too hard to watch sometimes. I can't tell you how excited I am for 11 more of these, but man, I know it's only get better, and probably even more emotionally draining to watch, but I'm here for every second of it

[@AlexGorskov]

Every.second...!

[@justsierraok]

Fuck this feels like my hometown. I feel like you've embodied people close to me who society has written off, and yet they still go on any way they can and idk I wasn't expecting to watch this all rn 😭

[@gglegenday]

Hey Caleb, thanks for recording your journey and standing tall through it all. Here is some Arizona Tea money. Hugs from Brazil, brother.

[@boredjason8748]

Was scared Danny was a forgotten part of the lore the whole time thank god for the cod zombies explanation

[@Joel-Haver]

dude came in clutch with the quick revive but mostly been busy cause he in high school or whatever - c.

[@garrisonpartridge5838]

Not sure if this is 100% correct, but I think the “no man is an island” quote might be the only one Caleb didn’t mangle in some way or another. I found that to be a very touching detail in that magnificent monologue.

[@jamesatherton1853]

When he rips the money up that Kevin gave him, that was so hard to watch. Its like Caleb is trying to make a nice gesture like "you're my friend, don't worry about giving me money", but it's just done in the worst way possible. It shows how Caleb is a nice person but there's just a disconnect between him and other people

[@Nick-Iles]

Caleb perfectly embodies someone we've all known. Lives outside their means. Wastes any money they can scrape together. Refuses to take responsibility for their actions. Takes advantage of the generosity of others. Burns bridges at every corner. Believes everything is the result of external forces. Self-destructive. Unwilling to change. Always looking to their adolescence as the highpoint in their life, and constantly trying to relive the high of a carefree childhood. It's hard to watch, but important. Kevin's rebuke outside the hotel is a standout scene in this movie. When confronted by the truth, Caleb seeks to maintain his innocence by convincing himself that it was all just a mistake. Kevin's advice stands as the last thing that could save him, and yet Caleb seems resolute in his decision to continue in his downward spiral. Incredible movie, Joel. Thank you.

[@matriarch3706]

I was literally eating dinosaur egg oatmeal while watching this, it was like a jump-scare hearing it mentioned

[@Joel-Haver]

that stuff so good did u hatch the eggs or nah? - c.

[@matriarch3706]

@Joel-Haver yeah but I always add a second packet a little after so there are some o them whole eggs

[@Sillychaz3]

What the hell man. Stop making me cry like this. So many of your films start off as funny awkward silly time then by the end have me thinking about my whole existence. The scene that got me the most was the big hug shared between Caleb and Kevin. It felt so utterly true to life. The long pauses, awkward timing, the soft spoken dialogue, and the clear unsureness of their relationship going forward. It felt like the film had boiled to that point where Caleb was willing to accept that he was in a horrible place despite his optimism, and was willing to accept anything he could get ,which was crushing. I’m sure this will not be the last time we see Caleb. I’m sure later on you’ll just keep seeing more and more amazing things in life down this film path you’ve taken, and your positivity will shine on Caleb. Keep going Joel and Keep your head up C. My hopes are high. Great start to the year of films. You’re philosophy has been such an inspiration for me.

[@cartersgoofsandgaffs]

Jack Stevens will go down as one of the most tragic characters in all of cinema

[@timmiller1]

If only his dad hadn’t made him smoke the whole pack

[@alexmartens]

"Is that your KDR?" "Yeah" "Thank you" Amazing moment

[@alexmartens]

But I gotta say it's pretty fricked up that you implicated Jack in laying a monster turd in that toilet without flushing. I had to leave the room I was so freaking angry

[@Joel-Haver]

bro we didn’t impicate him in anything we were jus trying to do a funny video and his brain didnt get it - c.

[@TrentLenkarski]

@@alexmartens I don't think he knew it was a video, but we told him it was few times... -Kev

[@BlakeRosier]

This turned out amazing and shit. Can’t wait to see februarys 😊

[@FriendlyTume]

Was this foreshadowing?

[@beacheykeen]

1:21:39 man the way he said "no" and how he was already walking towards the car made me so emotional. Even through it all, there's no way he's letting Caleb go alone

[@ZackarySmigel]

Incredible Joel! Watched this over my lunch. This gives me so many different vibes. Like new KZbin meets old KZbin. I don't know how to describe it but so awesome. Cannot wait for the next 11 movies!

[@damienblair423]

Wow that hug between Caleb and Kevin hit me hard

[@FlakoDaDon-Dada]

This made me tear up Joel. I’ve been in this position lowkey and it hit home bringing back memories; never thought I’d see it from a different pov….

[@AlexGorskov]

Absolutely so!

[@That-KidDo]

The worst part of depression is seeing everyone around you happy. It makes you feel so tiny and unimportant. Like they just moved on without you, and you’re stuck, completely lost in the world.

[@tyegordon]

This is so sad in such an awkward way Edit: I’ve been thinking about this film all day. It’s honestly so well shot and put together while still giving off the amateur vlogging style from Caleb. I’m definitely gonna watch this again with my boyfriend

[@jamesluma4556]

Kevin's uncomfortable laughter and constantly saying "yeah..heh..yeah" really tied the ends of their friendship together. He's saddened from seeing Caleb never grow or change, and it feels all to real. You're a great actor Trent (you too Joel)

[@Ajax_242]

The Hero's journey sketch is such a classic. Very cool that you wanted to work more with this character

[@jaredt.murphy8257]

This was a hard watch. It felt like I was holding my breath for so long, waiting for a punchline, a break. Unrelenting suffering, and yet, he keeps going. I've never really seen the "character" that is the upper east coast (I'm from CT, which might as well be where this is) and how it is simultaneously grim and homey it is at the same time. "No. I got you" is possibly the most impactful line from anything in recent memory Thank you, Joel Haver P.S. I hope you're doing well

[@kevingreene6624]

When you said you were making twelve features I was hoping one of them would be from Caleb. My favourite character of yours. The fact I've rewatched your four hour live streams twice proves how great he is. Thank you, Joel!

[@SaulGMV]

Watching felt like watching a southamerican or australian indie movie. You know where it's going to go, you know it's going to be sad, you know it's not going to end with a finale but with the characters having to keep going after the movie ends; but still, it's a great tale to listen to and that's what makes a good movie, something that lingers with you. I feel like the movie industry have left behind these kind of everyday stories in order to appeal to larger audiences, but it's these specific kind of stories that somehow always manage to reach more people with diverse backgrounds by drawing parallelisms through differences. It's great work and I'm glad it's out there. Cheers!

[@biketickler65]

I thought this was a Joel Haver breakdown video I'm so happy to have discovered it's just a movie

[@scary-goth-mother]

He's makin 12 films in 12 months! This is just the beginning

[@Dave_the_Dave]

What if you found out that Joel Haver was actual a fictional character created by Caleb Johnston?

[@Serialkoala]

​@@Dave_the_Dave👀🤯

[@raccoonboy5864]

'I'm not used to this car' has so much metaphorical resonance for a line that was probably improv. He's lived in the car for months, but if the car represents his independence, then he's certainly not used to/capable of understanding it

[@whyjon2990]

That line hit me the most and I was wondering about it improvness

[@hamfranky]

The wet hand is genius.

[@Joel-Haver]

thank bro, jus something I came up wit when I was thinking - c.

[@Mrslycooper9]

Seeing Caleb hold onto those memories of Kevin and Stacey broke my heart. He loves them; they're his world - he doesn't need anything else. But they do, and so he's left behind. I think he kind of knows he's being a "nuisance", that something's different between them, but he still wants to hang out with them, because, well, what else will he do, right? You have fun with someone and that makes you want to have more fun with them, but it's that feeling that it doesn't go both ways, that it's not reciprocate, that eats away at you, makes you feel like a leech, a parasite. The nervous automatic laughs from them, the old jokes that don't land anymore, the "I don't want to be here, but I don't want to hurt his feelings" - that might be the worst one, the pity. This is the first feature film of yours I've watched - it made me feel uncomfortable, sad, happy and disgusted. That's quite a range! I gotta check out your other features.

[@Androo2]

Joel puts a hold on weekly shorts and now entertains us with monthly longs. Phenomenal work my dude.

[@MrLordZenki]

This made me cry multiple times. This is the kind of real life that Hollywood has literally no clue how to capture.

[@BeBackWhenever]

so excited for more Caleb content

[@Joel-Haver]

thank bro, just tryin make the best stuff - c.

[@calh8209]

This induces the perfect mix of emotions; you can’t help but root for Caleb. He’s definitely not the most intellectual-gifted, and has a stunted view of life and what he believes it should entail, but man, he’s just trying. It’s a journey from a self-created “bottoming out” to an eventual baby step towards improving. There’s two parts that got me really choked up, the hug between Kevin and Caleb in the driveway, and the ending scene of him shoveling snow because he “fucking loves Dominos”. It’s such a beautiful and tragic story of someone that wants to stay young while watching his friends and old lovers “grow up”, and struggling to realize he also has to change. Really good shit Joel, your best.

[@McArRuIzO]

"Tall story short" Lol. Alright, I'm stealing that.

[@SpoonsMcSpooner]

Im from MA I had a friend named Jack Steeves he OD a few years back. This felt to real everytime jack popped up.

[@kallmecate]

I'm so sorry ❤ I hope this movie might help you heal a bit.

[@BerretSO4]

Joel, you took a character that had the smallest beginnings and created a person who connects so deeply. I am struggling to compliment you well enough. You and Trent portrayed a magical relationship on this screen. Caleb is funny for the same reasons he is sad, and for the same reasons he is real. I wept watching this. The metaphor you drove with Caleb viewing himself as his own character in his own life is nothing short of outstanding. Continue making film. This was just so excellently done. I'm proud to follow your work.

[@DinoMomPlays]

I think this is the best use of KZbin as a venue for film that I've seen so far. By portraying Caleb's story through a vlogging series like one we easily could have come across on the site, we are further drawn into the story by virtue of watching the story unfold on KZbin. That's an experience that would suffer in say, the theaters. Caleb's character is also masterfully crafted. Tragic in some ways and relatable in others, but we are kept guessing as to the realities of his situation until the final moments. We want to see him succeed, but we aren't entirely sure how bad things are for Caleb, and I'm not sure Caleb really knew how bad things could get if he continued on his trajectory. That uncertainty helps to align the viewer with Caleb, and to empathize for him I think. Overall I think it's really cool to see Joel tell a story of a Storyteller who didn't succeed, from a perspective that brings empathy. I don't think Caleb is going to reach 1.95 Million subscribers on the platform that he's on (is he even publishing his work?). But it's clear regardless from the film's language that Caleb's work has value no matter the state of his success. That's cool to see. Thanks for the film, cinema man. I enjoyed.

[@Yaddlezap]

dude if u during the nonwinter months just buy like a super cheap metal detector at walmart u could just pay for your own meals and shit from all the coins and scrap metal u find, so many life hacks in life its crazy bro

[@Joel-Haver]

that mad good advice I keep that in mind bro - c.

[@sergiocardoso9554]

Bro, this movie is so relatable in so many levels, it's not the best, it's not magic...it's just real life and showing you limits of real life, like what would a "loser" do, but we're never real losers, are we? I felt like crying in some parts because some characters (Caleb included) remind me of my friends and myself, what a hearty movie!!

[@ethanduman2228]

No, there are losers in the world.

[@sergiocardoso9554]

@@ethanduman2228 that depends on the context

[@ethanduman2228]

​@@sergiocardoso9554No.

[@sergiocardoso9554]

@@ethanduman2228 yeah, it does. That’s my truth and you can have your own, don’t come farting rules at me, go live your own life instead

[@dopaminecloud]

@@ethanduman2228 If there are losers there is a game being played and life isn't a game unless you go out of your way to game-ify it. A process by which you dehumanize the experiences of others to preserve your own feelings. It's a weakness simplifying your outlook on the world, but it can be necessary if you have no mental bandwidth for the weight of others.

[@TheEpicTeatime]

There's this vulnerability that Joel's characters have which I don't see in a lot of other movies, even other slice of life art house stuff. I think it's the realism and the bare necessities production that brings those qualities out. I'm reminded of friends of mine who haven't quite "grown up" yet. I see parts of that in myself. I like skipping rocks too, Caleb. Jack's actor is fantastic. Kevin is a great friend. One critique: I was really hoping Kevin would explain his thesis is about tree frogs a third time. I'm looking forward to the next 11 films!

[@arrownaut6820]

I don't really comment on videos but i have been watching so many of yours from the heartfelt comedy skits, the creative short films and I'm really excited to see more of these movies. This one really struck a chord with me because im almost in Caleb's situation. I hope things turn around but if anything, I'm kinda conforted others feel these struggles. Thank you for making these Joel. I really appreciate them so much

[@synapsomorphy]

This movie shows a few different hard-to-talk-about things really well. Having old friends that want to do stuff with you and you still like them as people but your life has kind of moved on from the stuff you used to do together. The general difficulty of the world for people who maybe aren't the sharpest tool in the shed; gambling is perfectly designed to trick them out of their money. And the unease of being around someone that isn't really "there", for whatever reason.

[@non_brewed_condiment]

Half of me loves this because it's so real the other half doesn't live it because it's so real.

[@marighost_]

Joel, Outstanding film. It was such an interesting and well done character study of a particular type of person, one that I know very well. You and the gang were phenomenal at portraying this small town group of people. I found myself feeling sorry for Caleb, yet horrendously second-hand embarrassed for his antics. I cannot wait to see what else you have in store for us this year fella.

[@denzelk4321]

Joel, truly I had to fight to power through so much of this. Not because it wasn't good, it was great. Too great. Too real, too accurate to a sad life trapped in a slowly dying town. But man, the smile on mom's face when that camera turns after he made the dinosaur oatmeal made everything worth it. Tears to my eyes, rarely feel a heartstring plucked like that. If this is how you're starting, I'm so eager to see where you are after 11 more months of practice and momentum.

[@TroyPepper]

The way you delivered "I like skipping rocks" at the motel absolutely crushed me. An incredible start to your year of filmmaking. I know I speak for so many in saying I am so so excited to see what comes next. Big love.

[@HereIsMySpout]

Joel, I'm blown away. For so many reasons. It's incredible how you bring your characters to life. You said something in your New Year's video about setting out to prove that it doesn't take a whole movie studio to make a film, and you've already succeeded beyond my imagination. You've completely exploded my idea of what a movie is. Thank you.

[@stephenanthony5923]

This movie is more literally-me than Taxi Driver, Fight Club, Falling Down, BladeRunner 2042 and The Joker: The Movie all combined literally into one. So many of Joel's gags punched me right in the funnies and then in the gut.

[@CreepinAtMyDoor]

i really hope more people see this movie, it's genuinely so good. hilarious but also sad, the time just flew by watching it. looking forward to the rest of the films you make this year

[@danisilly]

this made me cry, such a brillant way to show simple sadness and love. Like no other could do it. I did not expected to watch this in just one siting but I did! thanks C

[@Sirrincai]

Caleb is one of my favorite characters that you do. I break out the Dark Souls 3 live stream every so often to watch it all the way through when it's a slow day at work and everything. I was shocked when I saw that your first movie of the year was a Caleb one, and I've rewatched this a few times already too. It really speaks to the small town American child in me. Well done Joel, excited to see what other movies you put out here.