The Life, Death, And Resurrection Of Anthony Rigby - Social Anxiety Vlog

[@conorg9316]

Dear Anthony, Don't get too down on yourself, even though you have every right to be (and I know I would). I don't feel normal/fit in alot of the time myself. Sometimes I say: "I'm different, I'm not normal to everyone else," and other times I say: "who cares if i'm not normal, I don't care what others think, what even defines normal?" It's constant battle with the negative self talk with give ourselves. But don't feel too down, your doing great and don't feed that negative self talk because your anxious unconscious will respond to those suggestions, making you feel worse. I haven't had any dates yet in my life, but the fact that your doing them is great, and even if things don't work out, everyone is a learning experience, though it'll feel like crap at first. I really love the Vlogs, so I hope you don't cancel them (even though I understand if you don't feel like recording them). I wish you the best and am praying for you and your success in life. Conor.

[@anthonyrigbyisdead4937]

Connor thanks so much for your comment! Sorry you came to the channel at kind of a weird time. I will keep making vlogs once a week I think I'm glad you like watching them! I do feel better now. it's been a week since I recorded this I think and I always get kind of embarrassed when I record a dramatic video like this and watch it back later. :) I'll keep trying to figure out what the right thing to do is that's all we can do right? And btw you seem like a super awesome person for how young you are, I feel like you said you were 22? When I was that young I was super lonely and also a horrible person haha! So by the time you're my age you'll be space president or something awesome like that. You are totally right about the self talk that's basically exactly what my therapist says. I think now I have a better handle on not spiraling downward forever, I can kind of stop the thoughts eventually by recording videos or talking to people. And thanks for praying for me that means a lot I'll pray for you too!! :)

[@conorg9316]

@@anthonyrigbyisdead4937 Thanks, you're very kind Anthony. I don't know about space president 😂🤣 but I'll settle for being able to live my life happy and doing something I love and am passionate about. Hope your having a blessed day :)

[@arielthompkins427]

I hope you're okay. I, too, feel very [not] normal...

[@anthonyrigbyisdead4937]

Im so sorry ariel! I know how much that sucks. But we’ll get there! I promise not to give up if you dont!

[@metalechoes1]

I commend you for posting this update my friend. Rough circumstances for sure. I’m sorry to hear about everything that happened and how quickly the plans changed. And yeah, random vacation for a month that wasn’t mentioned sounds kind of . . . Off. I mean if she’s super impulsive and has zero commitments maybe. But that just sounds strange. HOWEVER. I disagree with the assessment at the end that you haven’t gotten any better since the dates started. You’ve both had people tell you you’re not right for them and also been honest with others and told them you didn’t see them romantically. I know those are both “negatives” in a sense, but it’s also experience you’re gaining and things that will help you in the future even if it doesn’t seem like it right now. All the ups and downs with the dating has resulted in a while new world being opened for you. So far it hasn’t been great - but every step is a challenge. Keep going my man. Get knocked down 8 times, get up 9. You got this. You’re a great dude and even though it may seem like a waste of time sometimes, you’re working towards building that better future you want for yourself! You deserve it.

[@anthonyrigbyisdead4937]

Thanks Dalton. I don't know if I can ever properly convey how awesome you are. And how lucky I am to have someone like you to encourage me. I hope you're not too disappointed that I'm not making videos everyday but I will still try to do a vlog every week to help me process things. You're right that I've been getting more experience and that's a good thing. I guess one of the problems with only doing a vlog once a week is that if I'm feeling really bad on the day I record it seems like I'm feeling bad for the whole week. But after reading your comment and getting some time I do feel better. I don't know if I would've gotten this far without your encouragement! I really mean that! Thank you so much, I'll keep trying my best to figure out who I am :)