the most important song of the new EP (fake ass gold DEMONDICE ANALYSIS)

[@TheAgentGray]

this song really feels like she's sitting in a writing session, tryin to end her vent album, only to realize, amazingly, she's not as angry, sad, or frustrated anymore... stuff can still be shit, but... she got some of it out.. and that made things better.

[@dicequeenDi]

I legitimately love that

[@reasonabledaemonette2958]

Yeah, my interpretation was mostly pretty similar. In my view, the first 3 are written from the perspectives of being 'successful' but still being susceptible to particular negative emotional states (to take a stab, Wanting Getting Wanting = being 'successful' but not satisfied with success, Take the Bait = being 'successful' but still getting frustrated by the same old internet bullshit, Dark hour = being 'successful' but still having depression issues, though I could see other interpretations for all 3), but at least the way I read the lyrics, even from those places of emotion she never seriously talks about giving it up or stopping. That's the main place I diverge from most of the analyses I've seen of the first 3 tracks, they all tend to paint a much darker picture than I think is warranted. And it's understandable, because any of them on their own with no other context are pretty negative, and it's not unreasonable to then wonder if she's close to or on the verge of giving up something. But because she (purposely, I'd have to imagine) never outright talks about giving in to despair and losing her motivation, that makes space for Fake Ass Gold to recontextualize the first 3 tracks. They can all be all real feelings about real struggles, but that doesn't mean she can't win against them, and Fake Ass Gold is her explanation of why she can feel those but still keep going. In this interpretation, she's sort of zooming out, looking at the whole road and not just particular bumps in it, like the first 3 songs topics. Reevaluating her trajectory, reflecting on the struggles of starting out and mistakes she made along the way, and talking about herself from a more holistic and healthy place than when she's deep in the emotions of the first 3 songs. That's why there's so much talk about math at the end of verses and 2+2 makes 5 at the choruses for Fake Ass Gold, it's her looking for a more objective perspective to evaluate where she's been, where she is, and where she's going. And her conclusion after running the calculation then is Verse 3: there will be mistakes, there will be days of sorrow, but there will be learning, there will be tomorrow. There aren't treasures just sitting out on the road waiting to be picked up, but she is able to make real treasure for herself by her own effort instead, and that's why the song is so much more optimistic by contrast.

[@dicequeenDi]

Fuckin great read

[@bishop4144]

I'm really happy she still makes content, this song in particular cheered me up! I've been doing alot of leadership work on this small community that I joined, I'll be honest, sometimes I really feel like I'm not cut out for this, bumping into problems, and unnecessary issues that we encounter with my team, it all felt so heavy, but not losing my way, faking it till I make it, and never giving up, I kept our group intact somehow. This will be the song I'll be playing whenever I'm feeling under the weather from here on out.

[@dicequeenDi]

You got this.

[@Sofa-King6914]

I'm very glad we were able to end on this (relatively) high note for the EP. As you said, this is the morning after. This song is a hype song of sorts, she's talking herself back up. Some other things I noticed and wanted to point out (obviously this is just my opinion) The ends of the verses end in, "it's math, you know?" I think this is her pointing out that she hasn't stumbled upon any mystic solution to her problems. Rather they're formulaic in nature, nothing special. Plug in numbers and you get a solution. So it might be a form of advice to others. Saying, "I haven't done anything grand here, anyone can do it." In the hook is the line, "You had your riches then you kissed 'em goodbye/ for lies and pyrite skies". I think this kind of goes with the whole, "the real treasure was the friends we made along the way" line of thinking. Here she's admonishing herself for the fact that she had this treasure (friends from pre-super fame days) and she threw them away for what turned out to be Fool's Gold: the fame and fortune of hitting it big. Now she's wizened up ("Ragged, reckless, what's your wisdom?") and knows what to pursue. The last line of the hook, "Don't let 'em tell you two and two makes five" is pretty simple, but I think this is just her saying, "Don't let people gaslight you into thinking you did something wrong". Not much to expand on that, just a simple bit of wisdom I think is being imparted there. Thanks for these break downs. I wish we coulda gotten a real analysis of "Take the Bait" but I get it that it's really hard to talk about that song without context, since it appears to be uniquely topical. I mean really, the whole EP is uniquely topical but at least the other songs seem to be easier to apply to a broader lens.

[@dicequeenDi]

Haha I know but I can't and won't do take the bait. Remember and fake ass gold is about moving past your own troubles and we should too

[@ElectricLimeade]

I agree so much with your reading that it's hard for me to add anything! I think fake ass gold is actually so crucial to the EP that the entire project wouldn't even exist without it. More so than not getting the point without it, it just *is* the point. There's no path forward otherwise. This EP speaks to me so hard. I'm still looking for my own fake ass gold, so to speak. But it's kind of nice to hear that there will always be a light up ahead, no matter how many tunnels you go through.

[@saynay302]

Yeah, I love this song. I also saw it as the conclusion to the story being told over the course of the EP, where DDK is telling herself "look, maybe this fame isn't everything I dreamed it would be, but I will keep going forwards, and while it isn't what I was expecting, I still found something of value". I also really respect your sticking to the line you set yourself on what you will and wont talk about. It is a complicated subject, and I don't think there is one right answer, but you have clearly thought about it and come to one for you.

[@MrTheholycole]

Really good job being respectful towards DDK. It really feels like this entire EP is closely tied to her personal life to the point I’m surprised she was allowed to make this. Good job not just outing her personal life her and still being able to talk about it.

[@dicequeenDi]

There are things I want to say but can't or won't out of respect. I want to help people understand her, but not straight up dissect her on a table.

[@stroodlepup]

I sure hope she did not guerilla this

[@drago3036]

Well, it is DemonDice, it is pretty unlikely that anyone *could* restrict her there(as long as it has nothing to do with the 'other persona', of course) Probably the reason she has very little activity as DDK is time constraints.

[@SukunaShinmyoumaru]

As fans we can only support her in some ways, but there is always a part where she has to rise again by herself. Expressing her struggles gives meaning to her music for both her and the listeners who can empathize. In the end this is what defines an artist for me, pouring what you feel in your art. It was probably a risky move to release this, but it was clearly a "must" for her. And I'm delighted that it was released and we can all appreciate it, and I hope this great analysis helps as many people as possible with that, because DD lyrics give so much room for interpretation and reflection.

[@dicequeenDi]

Daaaaaaw you're sweet thank you very much ♡ I just want ppl to understand her just a lil bit more

[@Jeremy-it1ks]

your analysis of the whole EP gave me a whole new perspective to them, Thank You.

[@dicequeenDi]

I'm glad to hear! Lyrical analysis is my jam

[@Fanimati0n]

14:20 I feel like she might be referring to how she never told her friends that she applied for a waitress position at Applebitches as a joke, not thinking she would get it, but took the offer when she got the call back from corporate since y'know, she was broke as hell & needed money, & how she feels like she didn't appreciate them enough while she had them. She's still got some of her old friends, like Fra & Ci from Boogie Voxx, & Milky Queen, but lost a lot of people she didn't wanna lose when she took the waitress position.

[@CrescentSickle]

Honestly before I saw your videos with these deeper analyses, I didn't break down the songs enough as a fan and as listener, and you, being a fan since the OG days, really brought a ton of insight I and so many others were missing. Hope you and your work in general gets more eyes!

[@dicequeenDi]

Thank you ; w ; I worry I'm just flapping my gums and talking out my ass half the time. I'm glad ppl get something out of these.

[@CrescentSickle]

@@dicequeenDi Nah, you've definitely got solid insight, and I went back to watch your older stuff and likewise got into SFJ's reactions and breakdowns from his reactions to her songs! You must have done a crazy deep dive into DDK after that lol. I still need to dig into her albums on bandcamp

[@アポロ-u1w]

DD's music is so good that you can enjoy it in a lot of different ways. Either your just bopping to the rhymes or reading into the lines.

[@dicequeenDi]

God I was jamming so hard. It was whiplash from jamming to trying to be smort

[@アポロ-u1w]

@@dicequeenDi getting whiplash from her songs are a given. I once broke my neck jamming so hard but a certain shinigami gave me a second chance.

[@ChimpiePlays]

Loved the analysis. Definitely subbed

[@andrewyankee5792]

Good video! I actually put a line from you’re an ace kid as my senior quote, and this song immediately stood out to me, i love it. I do have a personal different take on the nickels and dimes line. Instead of what you said, it being about giving up and it having to be living expense, i think it’s more akin to dice of a generation, saying that the nickels and dimes of motivation are being used as living expense because most of us have no other choice, our motivation HAS to go towards just getting to the next month. That’s just my take tho, as you said it’s full of different meanings. Also that’s a cool model!

[@dicequeenDi]

It's a good read! And thanks I love my new model

[@vaendryl]

I like at 1:15 in the song there's that "internet laugh" which is chun li from the snes game street fighter talk about old school >"cuz the proof is in what you put in" hehe. proof of the pudding is in eating it. I really like that line.

[@dicequeenDi]

Hahahahaha she loves the Chun li sample

[@l0kk016]

For me I made a connection between that line and the 'End of a Life "I'll fly, no proof", in that breakdown she did about it she said how she used to believed she'd go high but had no proof, and in this song she addressed the "proof"

[@Dear343i]

I tend to just lurk on this entire platform but wanted to comment this time just to let you know I found your content after listening to the EP for a couple days straight. I love the analyses, I love your energy, and I 100% agree with you about Fake Ass Gold. You're An Ace, Kid is a track that has helped me keep moving no small amount in the past, and I'm happy to slot Fake Ass Gold right there with it. Keep it up, Di! Happy to be here for the ride.

[@dicequeenDi]

Thank you so much ; w ; I'm so so flattered you wanted to comment on here to tell me that

[@FeignJurai]

"the real treasure was the friends we made along the way" but unironically and authoritatively spoken.

[@dicequeenDi]

Oh my God right I love how blatantly corny it is

[@Terralventhe]

For the life of me, I spent almost all of yesterday trying to think of what part of the chorus hook ("ragged, reckless, what's your wisdom?") was driving my brain into knots because it kept reminding me of something else that sounded exactly like it. And it hit me a few hours ago: Panic! At The Disco's 'Emperor's New Clothes' hook ("Finders keepers, losers weepers.") was what I was thinking of. What's especially interesting about that song and this is they both sort of have a similar theme: self-affirming, dusting yourself off and deciding to take ownership of both your success and your failures, and moving forward to something bigger (shutting up and getting happy, in the case of DDK). This EP was a journey and thensome. A kind of 'journey to the underworld and back to the light' of sorts.

[@dicequeenDi]

Ooooooooooh!

[@hydratedgraph2486]

I really like how the track has "stock"-y feeling to it, which was probably what she was going for. It sounds like oldschool rqp but with some modern music elements to it as well.

[@dicequeenDi]

Yeah. It really feels like she's trying to go back to the roots and look at things.

[@synx6272]

Just stumbled upon this after listening to the song, really good breakdown and a lot of things u said actually lined up with what ddk talks about in her stream, pretty neat 👍

[@dicequeenDi]

I wanna guide people to understanding ddk more. It requires I do my best to understand her myself ♡

[@astrel8768]

yow my favorite one is "you're an ace kid" and when I heard "fake ass gold" I fuckin loved it too, now I know why I love fake ass gold it's because those two are tied together damn!!!

[@dicequeenDi]

EXACTLY. I LOVE IT. it's the same sentiment but at two different points in someone's life

[@メシャ]

I loved watching the breakdowns of Calliope Mori and DemonDice's songs months ago! So good to have you back for these! Our boy DD's had it rough with her waitress job and personal issues, but she's looking better now that she got to let things out and drop some fire tracks in the process. PS: The new avatar looks great!

[@dicequeenDi]

I do what I can! I hope you stick arouns

[@merciless972]

I forget how young Ddk is. She's accomplished a lot and has had a crazy journey. And not even in her 30s yet.

[@dicequeenDi]

She's put in mega hard work all this time

[@KaichouClips]

Thanks for your analysis of this EP, you gave me a much better understanding of it 👍

[@dicequeenDi]

Glad I could help! that's always my goal!

[@IshyTanuki]

I enjoy listening to these analysis videos and they help me eat up all the nuanced flavors of DDK and her other personal project. Good insights and almost cried when you started talking about growth insecurities. Thanks Di.

[@dicequeenDi]

Life is tough for small creators. DDK was one herself and you're an ace kid literally saved my life

[@IshyTanuki]

@@dicequeenDi Glad you’re still with us

[@mthestrangepersonontheinte8781]

Thank you for making this. The analysis is really insightful! This song has definitely been my favourite from the EP, so it’s really cool to learn about the song’s meanings.

[@dicequeenDi]

I don't think it's perfect but what read ever is

[@nickmilo932]

I really needed a deep analysis of all the songs. I enjoyed your videos. Thanks!

[@dicequeenDi]

Thank you! I'll always be here so long as someone out there wants to get into it

[@impishlooter1550]

These series of videos were honestly friggin great, keep going strong

[@dicequeenDi]

I'll only move forward

[@A.D.0916]

Love this EP. Thanks for the analysis Di!

[@dicequeenDi]

Of course! I'm glad more people get it

[@anotherwanderingwisp858]

Oh? Well. I've heard people say to leave a comment but I think this is the first time I hear someone granting the permission to hit up the person 😮 It's always amusing about the content that you just find. You think you are viewing work of someone with hundreds of thousands of followers to realise the person has less than a thousand and now I am here ( I've sailed across couple of island like that (^^')). I am really glad that I did decide to watch this clip, and I hope I'll have the chance to share more of my mind as the time goes on 😁

[@dicequeenDi]

I hope you'll stick around!

[@Lamenter_A.G.K.T]

When WGW and TTB came out they where my favorite songs but after listening to dark hour and fake ass a lot their my favorite songs of the album with fake ass gold being the crowning song of the album it’s just so damn good.

[@dicequeenDi]

I'm the same honestly. I think FG is so good as it is because we lost our minds at the spice of the first two songs but FG reminds us we have to be able to let go of the dark parts. Keeping it in is unhealthy.

[@paul2260]

Thanks for the breakdowns, really glad I found your channel.

[@dicequeenDi]

Anytime!

[@veltongrath3429]

She’s talked about going to the US for concerts, and this song I can see being one that the crowd good really getting into, with the “Will” sections

[@dicequeenDi]

IM GOING

[@stroodlepup]

Welcome back dice

[@dicequeenDi]

You mean her or me lol

[@stroodlepup]

​@@dicequeenDi you too

[@lightningstrk1411]

I was thinking about how it reminded me of you’re an ace kid. Nice.

[@dicequeenDi]

Yeah. Same tones different place

[@SpecsWitched]

Really good vid, great to have this out here for everyone that didn't understand everything like me.

[@dicequeenDi]

I'll be there so long as someone needs me

[@ominoussage]

I liked your deep thorough analysis of her songs. I just recently knew her personal problems, her old songs and finally, your analysis. Glad to have discovered you, thanks to the algorithm. I'll be sure to keep an eye on your future content! :D

[@dicequeenDi]

I think I know too much for my own good lol

[@gurderguile9258]

Ngl I found your channel because I tried to Google when Fake Ass Gold was released lol. But I gotta say I find your analysis interesting from an artist's standpoint. I myself saw this in a more religious tone, (I.e. rebuking the "religious kill-switch for the sedentary") with her mentioning how she used to wax satanic, and even asks God for forgiveness in her song in one line. Maybe I'm a paranoid loon, but imma religious weeb, so I'm curious what you think about my theory XD

[@dicequeenDi]

Oh honestly I very much disagree lol. Ddk was noteably raised surrounded by religious folks. That sort of thing can make people either mega devout or atheistic. And most of her songs talk about becoming a God and becoming immortalized. God is certainly not a figure of reverence for her.

[@gurderguile9258]

@@dicequeenDi it might be helpful for me to specify that I am aware precedent very heavily cuts against my case. I did listen to almost all of her songs during the 'Rona years as a bored Walmart cart-pusher lol. I think I was just surprised she would use that verbiage, especially with the slightly biblical imagery of the evil snake.

[@MegaApostel]

doppel happy about DD dropping music again and finding your channel again. Really like your analysis- keep them going! :) Hope you got a T-Shirt as in my timezone there were sold out :( ps: did you get a new modell - looks good

[@dicequeenDi]

I GOT TWO TSHIRTS. also thanks!! It is new!

[@estebanacostaolivera3232]

Oh I haven't checked your channel in a while and now your DDK analysis are popping on my youtube feed, I love the look of this new model! Specially the dice and the arm belts

[@dicequeenDi]

Woah tbh I thought it was out of algorithm now! Thank you btw ; w ;

[@kinowachikisora7215]

The feeling of the song was there when I first listened to it but you opened it up a lot more than I subconsciously understood. My heart sunk, bloated, beat, and thumped as the flashback hits in a few seconds. Years of my life went by in a blink and a tear for each moment. Love, hate, happiness and sorrow and all sorts of feelings rushing down my existence as I sit on my chair early in the morning. You made me remember the dream I broke myself as I rolled in tears from losing control of my life. Making me wish I held onto it... maybe I did, maybe I still do. I'm a crybaby inside and out and that's probably why I ran and hid, a lot have done so and will be doing so, but... You yanked some things I sealed tight. Making me think that maybe I should give it an honest to God second chance. Sorry for the long comment. All I wanted to say was, Thank you. Thank you for getting me to understand that beat I seem to have took for granted. Man, it was hard to click that comment button... haha...

[@dicequeenDi]

I'm glad to have helped in any way!

[@madengineerkyouma]

Impressive how much you got right

[@dicequeenDi]

ddk scholar

[@userdata9511]

I think I’m gonna have to have some agreement here. For me it’s between this song and “Wanting, getting, wanting”.

[@dicequeenDi]

It's tough! Everything is so good. But this song gets better with every listen-- trust fam

[@userdata9511]

@@dicequeenDi it does indeed.

[@windwatcher460]

I took "the horror stories come true unless you got more than intent," to mean that you have to actually get up and do the thing or you really won't get anywhere

[@kakashi1173]

Thank you for the analysis and found myself subscribing to you 💜😈

[@dicequeenDi]

Heheheheheheheh

[@Bobbias]

I think the post of heckling herself is referring to beating herself up over past decisions. You can't please everyone, and no matter what you do, someone losses out. Do you take an opportunity, or stick things out doing what you've always done? Does it matter? Because the gold is fake. No matter the choice everyone losses, because success is its own form of punishment for her.

[@dicequeenDi]

A lot of this song was poking at past decisions but important part was moving on from it

[@xxeed1608]

Well just as you said this is the best of the whole EP

[@dicequeenDi]

♡ more I've indoctrinated

[@sur2823]

spitting facts

[@dicequeenDi]

I always do

[@justinsmith5870]

Just found demondice (or this persona of the artist? Idk again new) through this song so in finding a breakdown I did catch some interesting things I missed.

[@charliebaker1427]

Fake ass gold is definitely my favorite song on this ep

[@dicequeenDi]

Same same same a million times

[@carlosrojas323]

Thanks.

[@dicequeenDi]

Always

[@windwatcher460]

Hopepunk is my jam

[@Kirito_2016]

I like all of them, but as a vibe, Dark Hour is prolly my fav.

[@dicequeenDi]

It's so daaaaark tho

[@Jeff_Saber]

Wait, was the choir in the background singing, *_"You've been... You've been so good to me... I owe it all..."_* this entire time?

[@azkivirus8902]

Yeah i kinda felt the same

[@dicequeenDi]

You and me both

[@azkivirus8902]

@@dicequeenDi it was weirdly familiar, when you pointed it out it hit me haha

[@mrhoneykun7528]

Still singing along. Hehe. Don't give up just because you have less views. You'll become big soon.

[@dicequeenDi]

I've been hearing that for a year and a half ; w ; it can be hard

[@mrhoneykun7528]

@@dicequeenDi Well don't give up. You now have a cute model/avatar. Love the dice on you hair.

[@nightcorereality7348]

@@dicequeenDi listen to "off with their heads" for motivation!

[@navi1372]

real nice her 'hello.' stream is open to everyone, isn't?

[@dicequeenDi]

MMMMhhMmhMhm

[@windwatcher460]

I still think there is more to the use of "hollowed home" instead of "hallowed home." Maybe the emptiness of nostalgia or reinforcing that without a journey there won't be an "along the way" by which to find the treasure that matters

[@AndrewS-vu4ji]

I love the vibing and lip syncing lol, some songs just kinda force that sorta thing outta you lol

[@dan-xl4mg]

I'm just wondering, this is related to the song and not aswel, personally I don't have any dreams or goals I want to achieve, I don't really have any hobbies, what do I do? This may seem typed with no life but honestly I'm really desperate.

[@dicequeenDi]

Hmmm. I think it's fine if you don't have dreams or goals or hobbies. Tbh I've spoken to a lot of people like you actually. They tend to get drawn to idols, vtuber, streamer cultures and the like because there are a lot of people that don't necessarily have dreams, but end up admiring those that do. The world is annoying with gray moralty and it's all constantly telling you dreams don't matter. Meanwhile the idols and vtubers exist with their dreams on their sleeve and people... need that kind of world. Where there ARE dreamers because a world without them is a dark, dark place. If it's not something you're opposed to, there's nothing wrong with living to help support those with dreams. Note I'm certainly biased as a streamer/vtuber myself so take my words with a grain of salt.

[@dan-xl4mg]

@@dicequeenDi I suppose i need or needed a change of perspective, sinds i grew up at a place where people where forced to have dreams and me thinking that i dont have them makes me really confused or rather scared i wil probably keep doing this unconsciously, and its fine with being biased as it adds a new perspective from me to look at, i wil probably keep thinking about what you said just know to really take it in. i suppose i can take my dream in being a viewer and expiriencing there dreams with them, But atleast the words you gave me the right direction to walk towards, Also i believe this is the second time you have gifted me advice, I really am sincerely gratefull towards you. thank you so much

[@lichofthewilds4384]

I don’t really know how true this feels to anyone, but this EP feels almost cyclical. Like this song feeds back into wanting getting wanting, and that feeds into bait and so on. This particular reading makes this song a lot darker. You wake up in the morning feeling good but that night is just going to be exactly the same and then the next day will come and you’ll do the same thing, forever.

[@dicequeenDi]

I don't necessarily agree with the same thing forever sentiment. This feels just like coming out of one REALLY bad night. And they happen.

[@lichofthewilds4384]

@@dicequeenDi I’d have to agree, especially with no references to cycles or anything of that nature in the EP. It’s a bit weak, though I still find it interesting to think about.

[@andrewyankee5792]

the ep gives me big “man who sold the world” vibes

[@MyselfAgain]

I took it more as a series of phases. In the same way grief has its own set of stages, here we have Dice opening up unsatisfied (pseudo denial phase), ranting behind what she wishes she could say as closely as she can without just airing all the laundry (definitely an anger phase), followed by a deep lull (depression), and then just a future word of advice --as many already pointed out as the sequel to You're an Ace, Kid-- on acceptance. I'm sure some would argue that this skips the bartering phase , but shit, how did a record like this get through unchecked?

[@x149te]

I like ur new model

[@karigrandi7]

i fucking know right?

[@dicequeenDi]

It's a mood

[@karigrandi7]

@@dicequeenDi definetly. the first time i listened to this one it stood out alot from the rest.

[@OwGash]

Eh, isnt her OST (BGM) from another tuber..

[@dicequeenDi]

A lot of vtubers share it actually. Japan has thing called DOVA, which is a website/platform where a bunch of people create free music for personal or commercial use.

[@nightcorereality7348]

Totally understand if you don't wanna comment on this but why not referrence Calli as well for more in depth explanations?

[@dragenfire68]

Should listen to gawr gura's reflect its just as deep

[@TheMarionetteZombie]

Wish I could sub to you a second time

[@mikiibaniraprojectkokonats2907]

o. o

[@dicequeenDi]

^ - ^

[@Seranuelian]

I think the title should rather be "Interpretation" rather than "Analysis". On an analysis I rather understand someone going over music theory and rhyme shemes. Good vid tho

[@dicequeenDi]

Analysis: detailed examination of the elements or structure of something. Your move to redefine what I titled it was closer to an Interpretation than the vid.

[@Seranuelian]

@@dicequeenDi Cambridge Dictionary; interpretation: an explanation or opinion of what something means. I suppose you can see how both apply. Regardless of flimsy definitions, when you compare this video to videos you find when you search for song analysis you'd find more about music theory. Whereas you make an opening comment about how this song sounds different than the others and goes very hard and then pretty much only talk about the song line by line and what is/could be ment by it (=> interpretation) or giving it context. I mean I was exited so hopefully see someone go a bit more into the music theory and was a lil disappointed not to find it here. But as I said, still a good video - even if I didn't find what I was looking for. You give a good personal touch of experience and context to the song. I'm not trying to be hating, I'm just saying that I think it's more a interpretation than analysis.

[@u.n.owen1260]

i do agree with your readings but you have to keep in mind DDK is way bigger than a lot of people know (if u know her job) and looking at the company and especially the sometimes extremely aggressive toxicity in the community (or against it), can be a lot to swallow . mot to mention the very strict rules. I very much so see why she would feel like she doesnt deserve it. you would too if you knew what kind of hate she's getting on some forums/comments

[@dicequeenDi]

I don't know how to face palm in text

[@u.n.owen1260]

@@dicequeenDi have i...missed something ?

[@SpecsWitched]

@@u.n.owen1260 Unspoken rule is to not mention the waitress job at applebitches, it can get you banned in the DD channel if you don't speak in code, if you know, leave specifics out, it's like that for a reason.

[@ciapatyciapacz5354]

Well she basically says "I was a 4chan shitposter once but karma is a bitch and now 4chan shitposts about me" so don't feel too sorry.

[@MZRFaith]

too scared to show your face? stop letting your anxiety hide yourself. your content would be 10x more likeable if you were yourself but whatever ig.