I've haven't seen artists make this much effort to listen to the stories and feelings of a fan and make songs for them to relate to . And I feel like the fact that all their songs are deeply emotional is what sets The Rose apart. I'm proud to be a Black Rose. 🖤🌹
@ThisisSahar2 жыл бұрын
Woosung saying "we borrowed this whole restaurant just for you" felt like a fleeting Kdrama moment 😂 I love it! And I love this band so much!! 🖤🌹
@sovimohammedsaeed78022 жыл бұрын
fyaz
@gipsybengtzon24522 жыл бұрын
Being vulnerable in front of others is probably one of the hardest and yet bravest things someone can do. Thanks for sharing this with us!
@maelynneschneider29182 жыл бұрын
I am proud to be a Black Rose. Thank you for your effort and hardwork. 4 years ago, I heard, "She's in the Rain" and that was my way into stanning The rose. That song helped me get through many hard times. It makes me happy that you have an album dedicated to healing. Even today, you guys are helping me heal. I appreciate you all❤
@paulettewaldorf66592 жыл бұрын
I can’t say thank you enough for this. I’m a nurse and have been going through such a rough time with people dying. I didn’t want to burden my family as I know they have their own burdens with Covid and other things. Your music has really helped with my struggles and I love you all for it. Thank you. 💞💞💞💞
@risap.83392 жыл бұрын
Thank you for your service. I know being a front line person could have never prepare you or any one for what covid did. I hope you find some comfort knowing people like me do appreciate all your hard work and efforts even if I don’t know you. I know from experience being in a healthcare profession is not an easy job. Music is healing and comfort itself when you think you have no one to confide in or concerned about sharing so I am glad you found The Rose their music. 🫶🏻
@mugglepuff Жыл бұрын
I feel you there. I worked in the ER when covid started and on medsurg for a year. Three years in healthcare with covid going on is hard, especially with patients dying. It takes a toll on your mental health for sure, especially in the beginning when there were no visitors allowed and families couldn't be there if their loved ones passed away. It's hard, but I love helping others.
@Roseevelvet__ Жыл бұрын
couldn't relate more 😔
@tintontin06124 ай бұрын
I just see this episode, the girl talked about what happens to her father, and Woosung played “shift” that moment I reminded my parents and then I was cried. I miss my parents so blue. I guess No one would ever love me as they do in this world.(except myself ).
@nmbat50362 жыл бұрын
Change is inevitable. The way we adapt or “shift” is within our own hands. It’s beautiful when you have someone next to you in these moments.
@brunaamerico84826 ай бұрын
Thank you very much for the subtitles in Portuguese 🇧🇷 Please continue translating. The Rose has a special place in my heart. ❤
@jiminsfunknsoul Жыл бұрын
I cant express how much this album and this series you made means to me. Heal came out in October, a time when I thought I would already be living my dream just-graduated-college real-adult life with a shiny new job in a shiny new city because that’s what everyone else was up to at that point,, but i felt like an odd one out because i wasn’t there yet. This time of not being in a structured life like it was being in school is showing me that literally nobody knows what theyre doing and everyone is winging it in life while pretending that they have it together. These types of feelings of feeling behind and feeling like i don’t want to do what everyone else is doing-while at the same timing figuring out what i even want to do in the first place- has been isolating to say the least,, but your music and the stories of the fans in this series helped me feel understood. The album also helped me think of other past feelings of hardship too and helped me cry some tears that i didn’t know I still needed to cry. This was a long way of saying,, im so thankful for you and your music and im glad this album allowed me and thousands of others to heal. I 🥀 you. 🖤
@elleny_br_ws2 жыл бұрын
같이 감정을 공유해주시고 좋은 음악 만들어주셔서 감사해요 더로즈 최고다 ❤️❤️❤️
@sovimohammedsaeed78022 жыл бұрын
fyaz
@Julie-zr1iz2 жыл бұрын
I never regret stanning this amazing band 🖤 thank you so much The Rose! Because of your songs, I am healed 🖤
@xfranczeskax2 жыл бұрын
The lockdown period was a period of happiness for me - the whole family suddenly together again for one last time and lots of walks around our rather green city. I cannot even phantom how hard it was for those in confined living circumstances, those not allowed outside at all, those alone or dealing with hardship such as Meliassa. It's seems the world has gone on, but people are not over it. It's a wonderful project that the Rose is doing.
@leizzieduff2 жыл бұрын
Not everybody are ready to open up to what they are going through…and most listens to MUSIC as their comfort..this heal album really state a lot of things and it takes the deepest soul of our own. Thank you The Rose for sharing and making it known around the world. Please continue to spread this healing project because at this moment, this generation is really tough. 🥺 proud of THE ROSE a.k.a baby black rose 🥀
@MN-dw2li Жыл бұрын
One of the coolest project I've ever seen
@ela3109 Жыл бұрын
One thing I can say with conviction, listening to The Rose, the songs with their deep lyrics, has become part of my daily dose of "being happy". Thank you for that
@hevacat2 жыл бұрын
Shift really hits home, as someone who lost a brother 1 1/2 years ago (cancer). There are so many emotions that surround such an event, that take people around you and time to heal from, its a never ending battle. Thank you Melissa, for sharing your story and the rose for creating such healing music, its truly beautiful.
@alva16893 ай бұрын
Thank you guys for making this heal series it really makes me feel seen and not alone, I hope you’re doing well. Love you ❤
@irmab83542 жыл бұрын
I’m here for my weekly therapy session.
@_A.A_ Жыл бұрын
I have never seen Kpop artists put so much detail and thought into making their music. The Rose are truly one of a kind and they deserve all the recognition.
@sophiagtan2 жыл бұрын
i hope the members will always know how much they changed a lot of people's lives through their music. what they're doing is absolutely amazing and the fact that they put in so much effort and dedication into making sure they get their message, that everyone could relate to, across through music is incredible. it fills my heart with so much happiness. the rose, your music makes everyone feel less alone, and above us, makes us feel healed. we're very grateful :(
@legna49122 жыл бұрын
This whole album and docuseries is beautiful beyond words. The theme ‘heal’ is a message many people need even when they may not know it themselves. Thank you The Rose for conveying that message so accurately and powerfully. 🥰🥰
@gizurde722 жыл бұрын
We finally got to see The Rose live on Wednesday in SFO. My Husband finally put faces on the songs I listen to and play on our trips. You were part of my healing as a Frontline Nurse. At the height of the pandemic I often found myself holding a dying patient's hand since no one was allowed to visit during the lockdown. We are strong but at the end of our shifts, we cannot show our families we are broken. We do it all over again the next shift. Please know how much comfort your songs bring to so many. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. - Your Frontline Black Rose ❤🙏🖤
@Si.23-e4y2 жыл бұрын
와.. 진짜 너무 감동스럽다. 근데 이전 곡들도 다 뭔가 공감되고 위로가 되었다ㅠㅠ. Sorry 도 그렇고 레드고 가사가 희망을 주는 그런 느낌이 강해서 다 너무 좋아요. 앞으로도 진짜 좋은곡 하고 샆은곡 다 보여주고 들려주세요!!!
@iremozsurucu32752 жыл бұрын
‘No matter what style or sound of music we make, ‘’Music is Healing’’ thought/feeling will always be a part of it.’ So much thought, so much effort & so many emotions have been put into creating this wonderful album. Knowing all the meanings behind the creation of the songs makes them even more special. Thank you for your sincerity, your uniqueness & opening your hearts as not only as artists but also as human beings. Love u guys so much❤️🫰🏼
@xboomie5902 жыл бұрын
It takes strength to share stories like this. Cyber-hugs to Melissa.
@bluerain_y Жыл бұрын
더로즈의 음악들로 항상 위로받고 힘을 얻어요. 좋은 노래 만들고 들려주셔서 짜루짜루 진짜루 감사드려요! 세계 어디에있던 한국에서도 늘 응원합니다🇰🇷❤️
@ibtihalnoor10582 жыл бұрын
how I wish the heal series to never end. Every time an episode upload my day gets better, my mood is uplifted. It''s comforting to know that you aren't the only one feeling a certain way and it's okay to feel all this. The hope that eventually we'll move on and things will change cuz everything change. The only thing that's constant is the change itself.
@Aileenlf12 жыл бұрын
I'm old enough to be your grandmother and have had to go through so much healing over the last few years. You are fabulous wonderful humans that are giving the world what it needs. God bless you for your beautiful hearts.
@anaFMM Жыл бұрын
I have never seen a band include the fans in their creative process as much as The Rose, it is so heart-warming, it makes me appreciate their music even more. Thank you for letting us heal with you 💕🌹
@haruharu41942 жыл бұрын
I'm not a big fan or anything, but I've been listening to this band since 2020, and this album has been my favorite album of the year, my grandmother died this year and it has been a very difficult time for me, plus my mental health for a while now has not been the best, this album is like a hug and fulfills its role of healing, I can not describe what I felt seeing how the process of creation was, it was something wonderful... I think now I'll become black rose
@myllolebiroll2 жыл бұрын
Safe to say I couldn't hold back the river that was about to burst. I'm a really new fan but I'm glad I joined before this journey of HEAL. I can't entirely express how grateful I am for every one of you guys and your music. I also have to put in a worthy mention of fellow Black roses for making the fandom a safe place and a loving community 🖤🌹
@navyegier88812 жыл бұрын
This Heal Project episode touched me the most. I lost my dad when I was 16, that was year 2016 due to pneumonia and just this year, Feb of 2022- we lost our eldest brother while he's on board his ship. And the reason is the same to Melissa's father's situation... That's why "shift" tugs something inside me because the message it delivers is the same message I am currently experiencing. To all people with the same situation as mine and Melissa, hope we heal together in the calmest way possible. Thank you The Rose for the comfort you always give. 🥀 Hope I could hear you play music in person soon... ❤️
@just_mengie93718 ай бұрын
I AM OFFICIALLY A BLACK ROSE FROM NOW ON! I am gonna support this group no matter what. What they did is soooo impressive. They are not like typical Korean group or band or artist. They are definitely more than just a band. Thanks for making it special for your fans.
@kristiturningthepage3202 жыл бұрын
So Jae made me cry.. when he said that not everyone will want to hurt you. And to hopefully trust again.. that’s very hard for me right now. I have just recently been so hurt by someone I trusted. And I’m finding I don’t trust anyone anymore.. keeping to myself.. so that definitely hit me hard.. maybe one day with The Roses help, I can heal… maybe
@Kro94 Жыл бұрын
What a nice message 🤩. Sharing rather than keeping in yourself is not always easy but today this video gave me the courage to do so. Thank you boys for who you are. I’m so proud to be a black rose 🫶🏻
@jhoiiilaaa7212 жыл бұрын
I also lost my dad during pandemic.. And I know how it felt. To Melissa, Wifi hug for you..♥️♥️
@intothestorm_132 жыл бұрын
it takes a lot of courage to hold urself together like this after going thru such an exp. Hugs to Mellissa & so thankful to her for sharing her story & to The Rose for listening & treating the stories/ experiences so respectfully & thoughtfully & creating such meaningful songs 🥀
@RosyAlgerie2 жыл бұрын
Ustedes son la mejor compañía en todo tiempo, alegría, tristeza, enfermedad y en los mejores momentos, dan paz y armonía. Sus voces , su talento. The Rose por siempre
@deb49082 жыл бұрын
I have so much to say about the shifts in my life that have happened in the last six years since my soulmate died and my daughters have all grown up and left home. And now I am leaving the house that was our family home for 22 years. But still I keep living. Listening to her story I think of my daughters and how they lost their dad too young. Thank you for this beautiful album and especially for the stories behind it and also connecting with your fans to hear their stories too. It is so precious.
@cmgordillor2 жыл бұрын
I really want to go to their concert 😢😭
@btsdancestudio5691 Жыл бұрын
Sammy Woosung from my local high school in CA-USA. I just love how he told music CEO's he is never leaving the Rose. When he was at his lowest mental health stage the me,hers really help him ''heal''.!
@kimannemista49992 жыл бұрын
This HEAL Album hits different!! The 🌹 💚💚💚
@ponelequesi92722 жыл бұрын
Contando los días para verlos en el show que van a dar en Argentina.. Los esperamos con los brazos abiertos!!💕
@sovimohammedsaeed78022 жыл бұрын
fyaz
@noeliagauna27282 жыл бұрын
Que cuando vienen a la Argentina,donde saco las entradas , información Por Favor!!!!
@josumi88.miller2 жыл бұрын
😍😍The Rose 🥀… The best!! ❤❤
@AyrichAlisa2 жыл бұрын
Прекрасно,что вы так глубоко задумываетесь о смысле своих песен и проделываете такую серьезную работу.я горжусь вами,ребята🖤🖤🖤🥰
@jeannoona6723 Жыл бұрын
I’m new for the rose and i just know now that this album were made together by fans. And based on fans’s true story. I personally really like and touched by the song titled “Shift” like, it feels so comfort and calm down my pain. And i just realized this song is made by the fan’s story that lost her dad. I’m crying so loud, that we have EXACTLY the same story. I have to go through mental illness bcs i lost my dad, he’s the only one who understand and know me well, i really miss him every single time. I’m hurting my self everytime i miss him and feeling down. So this song makes me feels like “no. Don’t worry too much, don’t think about bad things, there’s someone beside me, i know i’m not suffering alone.” Thank you the rose. You guys saved me.
@dayraalonso98962 жыл бұрын
Me alegro mucho que por fin los están apreciando cada vez más su talento es incomparable ellos se lo merecen gracias por compartir su original y hermoso trabajo son maravillosos y me encantan mucho sigan cosechando más y más triunfos lindos todos THE Rose beautiful
@pipoo.o1518 Жыл бұрын
This album has been life changing for me! I´ve waited patiently on your comeback and as I´ve never seen you live I also waited for my chance to come. And little did I know that that as we say in Sweden: "The one who waits for something good, never waits too long". I was so happy when it was official that THE ROSE would comeback and even though the period between me buying tickets till today is short it´s crazy how the time has past. I Rose You and I´m proud of you Melissa for being so brave.🌹
@AJE-zd2hs2 жыл бұрын
When you’re already liking it 👍 before even watching coz you know how meaningful the content is ..#lovingtherosebigtime
@theteacherspet Жыл бұрын
From the first track I heard on the album it was obvious that they had reached their goal. The whole album is healing. Watching the effort they put in to write it from the fan's perspective is just more proof of why they are worth following.
@wildflowerframe60512 жыл бұрын
I can definitely relate and appreciate what was shared in this episode. Our family suffered loss by suicide as well. When I heard the word Heal I immediately thought of what we went through. How music helped us I encouraged that as much as possible. Our youngest brother started playing guitar I think we all found that soothing and Our nights of Rockband. It was a dark time like a dark tunnel until I found myself out on the other side in the sunlight. You are not alone. "When your feeling down stay by my side" I did
@evagolldwing26232 жыл бұрын
My dear The Rose Diamond boy's 💎💎💎💎 absolutely TOP ⭐ FANTASTIC ⭐ singer's musicans ⭐⭐⭐⭐ and absolutely gorgeous boy's ♥️♥️♥️♥️ LOVE YOU ♥️😘
@ytb74182 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much, you guys really saved me🖤
@liadhan3602 жыл бұрын
El hecho de mostrarse tan vulnerables y abrirse en canal, frente a los propios miedos, las críticas u opiniones ajenas es lo más valiente y precioso que he visto hacer a ningún artista antes; pero además el hacerlo para así también ayudar a otres por el camino, insuperable. De verdad, gracias.
@tosia41982 жыл бұрын
and shift is literally my favourite song from the album
@rumd00dle2 жыл бұрын
Thank you to Melissa for sharing your story. Losing anyone is hard, but especially a parent. I'm so glad friends were able to help. Keep going! There will be good days and bad days and, as time passes, you'll get to know the things that give comfort on those hard days
@jaquelinedjt2 жыл бұрын
The way I feel connected with “Shift”… and now everything make sense ❤🤧🌹
@itsnahomii2 жыл бұрын
We are so proud of you guys!
@aminicodemus4686 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this album, The Rose. You touched our lives and somewhat comfort us. Thank you so much. It meant a lot.
@raquelhelene Жыл бұрын
It may sound clichéd, but I'm going through some tough times and yesterday I had an anxiety meltdown again and today I woke up and remembered your healing project and decided to watch it and listen to the album again. I feel so grateful to meet such incredible people who help me at so many times through music. you guys also help me to understand that it's okay to be vulnerable and I can ask for help when I need it, cause this is something very difficult for me cause I always keep in mind that I'm hurting someone by being vulnerable and not being well. you guys teach me so much about being an adult and living. thank you so much for helping me get on with life, The Rose. I'm really proud to be a Black Rose. 🥀🖤
@i-.-c Жыл бұрын
I was literally healed by this album. It's so beautiful.❤️The special moment is always the happiest of them all. Even if i'll go through ups & down again in the future, I'll always be reminded that I was once healed. And being broken again is okay. I just need to figure out how to get healed again and again and again. 🙏Thank you for this album! 🥀❤️
@leizzieduff2 жыл бұрын
🥹🥹🥹 That’s when they realized their purpose. This is what I think of. I am so happy that “THE ROSE” existed because through the process of making music they are healing as well. And that, they are ready to share that healing and making it not only for themselves but for everybody who is feeling or going a tough moment in their own lives. Thank you again THE ROSE for making it possible and a chance to have this HEAL TOGETHER project. It really helps. 🥹🥹🥹 We ROSE you! a.k.a baby black rose 🥀
@ТатьянаУварова-л8ь7 ай бұрын
Я всегда буду поддерживать The Rose ❤🎉❤ Любите и будьте любимы ,🎉🎉🎉это то что толкает вас продвигаются ❤❤❤
@megank28 Жыл бұрын
I’m just now seeing this, but I wanted to take a minute to say thank you so much to Melissa for sharing her story. I, too, lost my dad during COVID. And ironically, I also have a necklace of his thumb print. Her story resonated so much with me. I felt understood, so I wanted to let her know in case she may read these comments that there is someone who understands her, too.
@mastershisho51622 жыл бұрын
This episode had me crying. It feels so similar to my story and for me too, my friends are the most important thing in my life. They keep me going everyday. I live them so much. Thank you for this wonderful song and the whole album. It means a lot to Black Roses.
@sovimohammedsaeed78022 жыл бұрын
fyaz
@serithainkinkaew7731 Жыл бұрын
WooSung ; I'm so glade I'm making music. Me ; I'm full of happiness listen to music you've made. . Music made you happy , me too.🌹
@pusasalak28672 жыл бұрын
From the Hidden stories in our Hearts, it takes courage to open up with someone. But it's time to heal and be healed! This's so meaningful & wonderful project....Precious album. I ROSE YOU.
@codemoon-light2 жыл бұрын
I'd love to tell my story and have it written into song, I think my life would feel some what complete. I think also listening to music in a different language speaks to me alot more than most especially relatable ones (i don't listen kpop/ music in general unless it has genuine meaning) because when i play it out loud know one understands it, know one knows what they're saying (thats how i felt when i lived with my parents) you can just sit there and listen to it without reading eng subs and you know whats being said because you can feel it in your heart, it's like being taken to a different universe for awhile and know one needs to understand me.
@cassiakoltum4111 Жыл бұрын
This song is perfect, tight hug, expressed affection, shared love, warmth to the heart. Thanks The Rose my life.🌹🌹🌹
@뚜루룽룽 Жыл бұрын
진짜 더 로즈는 힐링이다..... 힐링 그자체.....ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
@oddinaryluna2 жыл бұрын
The Rose is special. Truly special.
@pemayangzom3635 Жыл бұрын
Please continue making songs for you for us for everyone. The rawness and pureness always shows in your music and trust me when I say these Rose fans are always appreciating your every hard work and your love towards your own music. Thank You for healing me as one of your Black Rose. I got so worried for Jaehyeong in the middle please do take care and be happy. The Rose, Sarangheo ❣
@ibelucharico95752 жыл бұрын
Hicieron un trabajo increíble, gracias.
@ksenj.v54702 жыл бұрын
Спасибо за всю вашу работу, мы очень сильно вас любим ❤️
@sovimohammedsaeed78022 жыл бұрын
fyaz
@dianerobinson5757 Жыл бұрын
Not everyone can open up they try to manage on their own and music can help love the way they write things that are related to a lot of people and they seem to care for their fans and all the emotions they are going through that's why I love this band because they are so in touch with what people go through ❤❤❤
@risap.83392 жыл бұрын
The Rose, you gentlemen are absolutely a breathe of fresh air. I loved your music when you I first heard Sorry and this healing project is just the perfect album and continues to be amazing. I wish you all the best on your tour and journeys. May you continue to make beautiful music and be happy and healthy. Saranghaeyo 🫶🏻
@soukaina9752 жыл бұрын
My eyes are swollen from crying so much..wow it's been a while since last time i cried like this..the rose.. truly a bless
@barrufetalila8 ай бұрын
this girl was in a bad place i could feel it through the screen. I hope she is getting help and also getting better. I think the rose made a beautiful thing here. well done!
@deisyde6822 жыл бұрын
thanks for your hard work! we love you so much
@sooteven Жыл бұрын
최고. 더로즈 노래의 탄생에 대한 에피소드 앞으로도 종종 들려주세요
@wildflowerframe60512 жыл бұрын
Time Heals isn't just cliche. The bandaids inside the album ♡... I broke down and needed those so many times. It's not your fault I know I had to say that about a million times and I know it's truth.
@kimberlyquiej21632 жыл бұрын
THE ROSE IT'S AMAZING AND TALENTED MAN ,I LOVE YOU THEM ❤️
@user-bg8ps4ys1x2 жыл бұрын
Love you Melissa, you're as strong as you're sweet and admirable because of that, you deserve the world
@sabinacini93572 жыл бұрын
I am so thankful for those precious sharing. It makes me feel so close to you, feeling the same happiness that you share waiting for the dawn to come. Open heart full of wondering.
@solanaalmentero2 жыл бұрын
Gracias por permitirme curarme junto a ustedes. Entiendo que no es un camino fácil o que alguien más pueda saber lo que realmente siente, pero les agradezco con todo mi corazón compartir esas debilidades y esas fortalezas que ayudan a que la vida sea un poco menos dolorosa. Agradezco a la vida que los haya cruzado en mi camino en el momento en que mas lo necesito. Y los espero en Argentina con todo el amor que les pueda dar.
@Roseevelvet__ Жыл бұрын
인생이 나를 넘어뜨릴 때, 너는 나를 일으켜 주죠
@陳欣-p3e Жыл бұрын
thanks you guys really did it I'm from Taiwan, and I feel healed because of your music and frank.
@just_nadja12172 жыл бұрын
I can’t express in words how much this series is making me cry every single time. I love how they take to time to listen to story’s from fans. As someone who is bipolar and tried to end it I feel so sorry for her that she had to go through this. Even this songs is making me tear up a lot. I can’t explain it but every song if touching me in a different kind of way. So thank you so much for all that you do and I’m proud to be a black rose.
@anacarolinatoro9289 Жыл бұрын
La vibra de su música realmente es sanadora! Me lleva a un lugar seguro dentro de mi cuando los escucho..
@나야-x3z2 жыл бұрын
Sometimes, someone's words heal so well that we can walk the world a little longer, even if it's difficult .like the part " when you are felling down stand by myside""
@ivanacamacho4548 Жыл бұрын
너무 감사합니다 ❤
@Nostalgia__404 Жыл бұрын
I would say that you guys really did it, if someone feel be healed when listening the album. I really got a huge recovery from these songs, and hope that you all can be healed mutually from doing such things. Last but not least, please come to Taiwan for concert! Plzzzzzz
@rachellesavard60692 жыл бұрын
I really want to give Melissa a hug 🥺❤️
@reverie6034 Жыл бұрын
It’s so moving to see love and truth and beauty are still in the world. Thank you
@betjak_12 Жыл бұрын
Music really heals ❤ Thank you guys for make music 🥀🥀🥀🥀
@michellehong47772 жыл бұрын
🥲매번 이 볼 때 마다 마음이 몽글몽글 해지는 듯.. 이 과정들이 있었기에 이번 Heal 앨범이 최고일 수 밖에 없네요:) 개인적으로 올해 최고의 앨범이라고 생각함! 얼른 서울콘에서 만나자!!
@arantxagonzalez562 жыл бұрын
How brave she is!!! I just listened "I think I need you" and I was tears... I lost my father too and this song is everything that's I wanna tell him.
@IvyDoubleNegativeArt2 жыл бұрын
I was at a very bad State in my life and literally, I found The Rose because, Music was and is beside art my things to go through life. I am thankful for it and it saved my life! Thank you for listen our stories and for making such thoughtful great music! See you in February… this song makes me always cry as much as She is in the rain
@bezimiennyanioek60082 жыл бұрын
I can fully understand this girl, I also lost my dad during pandemic, but I never talk about it with anyone and this just make it worse