The truth about what happened to me | New Year New Me

[@tooniyeoni]

Nikki, I found your account when i was 13 and i’m 22 now. Just wanted to say, I’m so glad you’re still as bubbly and lively as i’ve always known you to be. Still so beautiful and loveable. Have a great new years 💕

[@yamilet7933]

same girl i found her when i was like 15 of 16, i think 16, and now i’m 19 omg 😭

[@kamryncraig05]

I found her when I was 11 and I’m now 19😭 I love her I so get it

[@BelenPeralta1]

@@tooniyeonilol im 25 now I feel old 😂😂 I think I found her at 14. I love Nikki dude like that’s fr my sister

[@Nali73199]

Ahh me too! I think i was 13/14? Im now 25 going on 26 😂❤❤

[@BelenPeralta1]

@ her being in that shitty shitty apartment? Bro tbtttt

[@amari4832]

girl i did a DOUBLE TAKE when you said Mila was 5 now!!! that would make ezra like 6 and julian like almost 17, i could cry right now 😭🩷

[@isabellarodriguez1279]

Let me move my bang and read that again. SEVENTEEN?! Nah

[@dashealynnez7015]

what Julian's not 12 still???

[@hawtyzz]

@@dashealynnez7015 JEEEEZ OMG

[@meryl6270]

You're kidding, no way they're all grown up now 🥲😭

[@ItzelAnahi]

RIGHTT

[@lexximacon]

Julian being 17 and Mila just turning 5 makes me feel old af omg I been watching you since high-school I'll be 28 this year

[@Brieyonce]

I'll be 29 and my sons 7, I always watched Nikki on and off but I really started binging her , Paris, & boe (two other story time tubers) videos when I got pregnant and wanted to stop watching true crime. so its really wild to think about how us adults and fav KZbin, plus now our kids have all virtually grown up together. 😂❤

[@danihelie3938]

GIRL TWINS

[@nicole.your.museee]

“MY SHAYLA 😭😭” i missed you!!!

[@Dee2Jaay]

3:49 you know i stopped using the words "i would never" or "i could never" because the things that i thought i would never i did eventually. God humbled me! And im glad he did!

[@yen_xo]

This is so true I don’t use the word never anymore for this reason.

[@basic_m3033]

Now, girl, I did not think I'd be sitting up here crying at 12am, but this just hit something in me. I was drawn to your content since I was a little girl, and now I'm turning 21, and I'm feeling the hurt and loneliness you speak of, especially because it is rooted in the same trauma of daddy issues and other factors. This made me feel like I was not alone. Thank you.

[@kylieve2]

I’ve been watching Nikki since I believe was sixth grade. My 21st birthday is today. From the second I opened my eyes this morning I felt alone and full of hurt. I can tell I’m entering just another chapter of hurt and loneliness. This being said for you to know you’re not alone. Your comment helped me feel not so alone. So I wanted to return the favor. We got this, right? We have to. Nikki would be ashamed if we gave up.

[@basic_m3033]

@@kylieve2 yes, she would be disappointed❤️. Thank you🫶🏽

[@hennasofia]

Nikki I can tell that you have the joy of the Lord within you and there’s a lot of peace. Missed you so much!! 🫶🏼❤️🕊️

[@Beccachz]

Sorry but cussing isn’t really of the Lord.

[@lindsayceara]

@@BeccachzI’ve been wanting to comment about this but I feel like she only recently started talking about God, so I’m hoping that she keeps seeking Him and allowing the Holy Spirit to work in her. One step at a time :)

[@hennasofia]

@@Beccachz I completely agree with that. I’m sure that’s something she’ll be convicted about in the future. We’re all struggling with something and sometimes it takes longer than others. In 2024, I stopped listening to secular music and started only listening to worship because I felt the conviction from the Lord. I finally realized that when I listened to secular music, it was taking my focus away from Jesus. It also reminds about when George Janko used to cuss all the time in his podcast even though he’s a Christian. In one of his episodes, Girls Gone Bible had called him out on it. Angela had explained to him we don’t cuss at Christian’s and he finally stopped. Sometimes it’s takes awhile to realize parts of our sins that we struggle with the most. From this video, it sounds like Nikki rededicated her life to Christ and she’s a baby Christian right now. I do hope in the future she’ll stop cussing.

[@sierrarei722]

She does!!! Praise Jesus ❤

[@jonellawoods888]

MY GIRL IS BACK

[@MelodyMami1489]

That is exactly what I was about to comment like yassssss🎉

[@anaelisaballesteros8903]

I’m speechless.. hearing your testimony made me check myself.Our pain is so heavy we become angry and bitter with those around us.. I couldn’t be more grateful for you being genuine with all your followers. May you have a blessed year girl! ❤

[@alliyahhernandez9819]

Yess!! We love Jesus over here!! 🙌❤️ I absolutely can not wait for your Christian content! It is also a goal of mine to get baptized! I recommend making a prayer board, it’s an amazing way to worship and spend time with God and throughout the year see how God moves and answers our prayers 🥰

[@biancam9578]

Hey, love this comment! Can you share a bit more about the Prayer Board please? I’ve never heard of this before but it sounds like something I wanna get involved in x

[@sahyaa]

hi nikki, 8 year silent subscriber here! i just wanna say i’m very proud of you for pulling yourself out of the pit and trekking on, despite the year you had. we love you and are looking forward to your channel endeavors, cheering you on from the sidelines! 💗💗

[@eclispearose2764]

I found you when I was freshly 11 YEARS OLD. Lil crazy when I think about it now that I’m grown. As the older sister I had no one to go to, no older cousin, friend, aunt, nothing. Watching your videos and these life stories and lessons you provide genuinely shaped me. I can tell authenticity, and your honesty helped me a lot. Coming out of that anxious shell I was in was hard but you showed my little self of was possible. Life happens girl but we’ll always be here supporting you though thick and thin, if Nikki has no supporters I’m dead.

[@Astoldbykenz]

Nikki, I’ve commented the same thing so many times but I’ll say it again lol. I’ve watched you since I was about 16 or 17- I’m about to be 26! Although this is a parasocial relationship and I know that I don’t actually know you; you have helped shape me so much as I’ve grown. You really truly are everyone’s bestie, big sister, and auntie all in one. Thank you for being so honest and upfront and REAL while being so gentle and kind at the same time. I just really loved this video intro and I could listen to you talk about life for hours. I’m always rooting for you! Love you girl 🩷

[@Melissaetihw338]

Hearing you talk about God pursuing you specifically by humbling you gave me chills. I went through exactly that the last couple of years. A huge part of my testimony is the pride I had and my judgement of others. God took so much away from me to force me to realize I’m not in control. Everything I’m given is a gift from him and not something to take pride in. I had to learn about my vulnerability and forced out of my delusion of security and strength. I have been watching you since I was 19 and now I’m 28. After my spiritual journey I started watching you less often because I found it took me back to a mindset that I was trying to overcome. I have a similar tendency to lean into anger to avoid deeper feelings of vulnerability and powerlessness. But I saw you posted this and couldn’t be more overjoyed. I’m so happy for you and so thankful for your relationship with God. Thank you for your bravery, speaking publicly about this. I know all of Heaven is cheering you on. You will be a warrior for his kingdom.

[@kp98]

Its crazy how you had memory loss when you have such good memory when retelling your stories

[@adorableneurotic]

Wow, what a rude and uneducated comment. The only person you managed to humiliate with that little comment- is yourself. I hope your embarrassed

[@Glorielluh]

Some ppl block out trauma

[@kp98]

@Glorielluh yea i know that

[@kayleelove4309]

I have a very good memory but I’m also that person who blocks out trauma, so it’s not really that crazy

[@Jdp129]

I think this comment was to point out how bad the trauma must have been that her brain blocked it out, which is the complete opposite of her normal self.

[@EmberGW]

My 2024 sucked too, I got baptised back in 2019 and God chased me down for years and oooft he got me on the floor for 45 minutes. Praying for you. God is good.

[@sadieecheverria3677]

Amen sista!! Seeing you come to Christ made me tear up! I have been praying this for you for so long. We love you but Jesus loves you more! 🥰❤️

[@isabellora6478]

girl you have raised me i’ve even watching you since i was a child and now im 18 and watching this is making me so proud of you 🥹❤️ this is so vulnerable and being able to acknowledge something like this is so big especially on the internet to double take and go back to your old self and genuinely reflect just shows how much you’ve grown

[@kathleen6300]

You will NEVER fall off to me 🥺 been watching since I was in middle or high school and now I’m 26!

[@ashantic3611]

This was so real. I’ve been watching you for yeaaars. I’m about to be 23 and am just going through this phase of being tired of being angry. Tired of being silently spiteful. Tired of wanting them to see me. I resonate with your story so much and it’s no coincidence I came across this video as I’m entering this phase.

[@ashleygonzales3397]

Nikki girl I missed you! 2024 has been the hardest year of my life. My little brother passed away recently and I’ve been going through so much pain and grief. This video really resonated with me and reminded me that’s it’s okay not to be okay. I’m so grateful for you and your content, always getting me through these though times. ❤️

[@emilyrodriguez2004]

NIKKI ! I been watching you since I was 15 & I’m 22 now …. YOU MADE MY WHOLE DAY seeing / answering my question hermanaaa !!! I had to text my sister 🤣 Can’t wait to see more of what Jesus is doing in your life sis !! We are so happy to have you back !! Love you manaa 🥹🤍🤍

[@alleyreeder2292]

We love you! The real ones understand you’re a mom and a person with your own real life. Make sure you take care of yourself first always ❤

[@alleyreeder2292]

And I relate to this video so much, 3 years ago I went through some super bad stuff and I ended up in therapy getting diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. It’s been a rough long journey but 3 yrs later I’m still here, still learning and healing everyday! I hope anyone reading my comments knows you matter, your life matters, make sure you take care of yourself too❤

[@katkat7828]

I'm an atheist but I'm so happy that faith is bringing you comfort. So happy to see you back. Missed you!

[@nhills505]

I hope you're able to encounter The Father, Son and Holy Spirit, for yourself :) 💛 His Love is really wonderful x

[@peekaboocharlie8502]

@@nhills505pls don’t do that lol let people believe in what they believe in. SMH.

[@nhills505]

@@peekaboocharlie8502 no, we are called to share the Good News of Christ. Irrespective of knowing my neighbour, if their house was on fire, the right thing to do is alert them to the dangers and call the appropriate authority for help. Well living and dying without Christ is beyond a major danger and the only authority that can help is God himself. God bless and draw you near to Him. None of us are without flaw and sin, and there's only one that takes away the sin of man, Jesus.

[@cortinalilley5961]

I needed this I’ve been watching you since 16 and I’m 22 and I feel like all I can say is thank you.

[@katiechisholm]

I lost my mom, dad, and grandmother in 2024. It was rough. I started clearing my shit in 2022, thank GOD; otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to make it through last year.

[@kh-di7pu]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@joselynh8159]

This video was yet another confirmation from God that He has always and will always be in every aspect of my life. When I first came across your channel like ten years ago now, I never thought this video was coming. I am happy you’re getting closer to God bc I know how good it feels as I too am getting close to Him for two months now. Happy to see you back ❤️

[@sh6rlyn._746]

this is why you’ll always be Big Sister, Auntie Nikki. You’re always popping out with advice and I don’t think you realize how much you’ve inspired me to become THAT WOMAN. I came across your channel when I was about 14 yrs old, I literally just turned 20, thank you for staying true to yourself, taking the steps to heal yourself, and putting up content that allows us to see YOU. Social media is such a small part in life, but you’ve played a big roll in my upbringing. Thank youuu and we love you Nikki🫶🏽🫶🏽

[@alliyahhernandez9819]

Yes!! Nikki this is exactly what I went through this past year! God really humbled me in a number of ways and I truly appreciate you for being so vulnerable and real and bringing God and your faith to it! Praying for blessings this year for you and your family 🙌❤️

[@ariahv]

We always got your back girly no matter when 🥰

[@erikaflores-b2w]

Praise God, I love your testimony. God knocks you down to come back 10 times better and healed! I love you Nikki! I was 22 when I found you I’m now 32 and finding the power of God as well. I love this for you!! ❤❤❤

[@danigaleano-sh3uq]

I have been watching you for YEARSSSS now, and seeing your growth is so beautiful. God bless you nikki🩷 thank you for always being like a big sister to us

[@ElizabethLilac23]

I have been praying for you for 3 years Nikki (watching you for 8). I knew the Lord was gonna get ahold of your heart!!! 🙏🏽💜 I can’t even explain the emotion I felt when you said you’re gonna get baptized. God is such a good good father!

[@naomilinette5485]

Girl 2024 was a YEARRRR for mental health struggles. Lowest I had ever seen myself. Glad to see us all still here tho. Strong as a MOTHER 💜

[@Skizuify]

Nikki, you have no idea how much I needed to hear you say this. You're not the one I needed to hear it from yet you're here saying the things that help me heal. Thank you for healing and helping us heal 💜

[@Shestatigee]

Nikki this was the ONE. This was me in 2022/2023. By the Grace of GOD. He gave me those two years to shed, slow down & rebuild. My heart posture has changed so much. Thank you for sharing 🤍

[@America.Sarabia]

This is the realest thing I’ve ever heard because I feel like we lived the same thing. Everything came flooding back to me last year. And it made me realize how much healing I have left to do. Thank you for being so vulnerable. It makes me feel like I’m not alone. We missed you!! But we want what’s best for you, so girl YOU HEAL❤️

[@yasminesierra9785]

I used to watch your story times as I did my makeup and got ready for high school 😭 I’m now 24, and a mom. It’s crazy how fast I ran to the comments! I’m literally 0:05 in and I’m already smiling!! We love you!!! 🥹💕

[@victoriastefano5546]

I can not wait for this next chapter! My husband and I moved closer to God I'm 2024 ✝️ Sending love and prayers ❤❤❤❤

[@yadiralaxamana3794]

Girl! Ive been watching you since I was 21. I just turned 30!! Your videos helped get me through some dark times. Thank you!!! ❤

[@2Stonie]

Yess story time!! I clicked so quick girl! Happy new year!❤

[@aubriejohnson3806]

i love how you’re so genuine with us. i’ve been watching your videos for years and i’ve always been able to resonate with them. It’s such a breath of fresh air 🩷.

[@magestik10]

This definitely came at the perfect time. I have been watching your videos since I was around 16-17 and now I’m 26. I just had my first baby and he’s 10 months old and I am struggling with PPD. I definitely feel a shift coming with myself and changing the way I view things. I also don’t remember much of my childhood and I notice it happening even with recent events. This was my sign and I appreciate you! ❤️

[@hongkongrat900]

I'm only 1 minute and 44 seconds in and I feel seen and heard. Girl, you are not alone. I'm going through the absolute ringer. Thank-you for posting and for being vulnerable. You won't ever know much you help the world

[@ashleyvillasenor5703]

I can’t finish this video because girlllll. I feel like I’m gunna cry and I gotta go to work but I’m definitely gunna come back to this. You are definitely speaking to me . I love you Nikki I’ve been watching you for a longggg time and absolutely love your mentality and you as a person. You are so real and I respect you for it.❤❤❤

[@sundancedavenport657]

I’m sitting in my car on my break crying, I’ve missed you so much, and this has been the hardest year of my life . I am also someone who has open perpetually 'okay' and I really really trying to come out of this in tact . I needed to see this video today .

[@chantellhotchkins9065]

i’ve been following you since i was in high school.. i’m 25 now… you inspire me and kept me going. i lost my big sister last year and your videos kept me by in my weak moments ❤

[@gracehinton9922]

Im so glad you’re back!!! Perfect timing as Iam going though a very rough time in my life.i was having to re watch videos that I already have watched 😭❤️

[@trinistar1930]

I love this about you ❤ you're just so open to check yourself when you figure out you've done wrong or that you could change for the better and thats very mature of you. God knows we need more people like this in this world.

[@keriganle4539]

Thank you for being transparent Nikki. I also had to hit rock bottom to see what needed to be worked on. 2024 was really amazing because of all the growth and becoming closer to God. I commend you for checking yourself and choosing better. We love you!!!!!

[@Yeakeepgoing]

I needed this video right now. I'm going through my healing journey and it's rough but I'm taking it day by day. I'm 25 and have been watching you for who knows how long. I can't believe Julian is 17 now. Thanks for the video.

[@brasiliangirlthatluv]

Good god Nikki. I feel like we’ve grown up together. I’ve been here for over 10 years and I watch every single video. But this video? Has me in absolute tears. As a (too) young teen to college/early corporate girly to now a mother in the element of growing a family that is working through long life (forgotten) trauma, your videos always seemed to come at the right time. You are only human and we can always rely on you for that. ❤️thank you for being you Nikki!! We love and appreciate your transparency on this channel. Thank you x100000!!

[@maylynramos3415]

I love you Nikki !!! I was a young teen when I started watching your videos ! You in a way really helped guide me through the rough years of being a teen and into my young adult life. I’m now a 23 yr old young mom. I’m so proud of you , the person you’ve grown into over the years. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing. I for certain do not take it for granted. Thank you Nikki.

[@autumnb2775]

Nikki words can't explain how much you've helped me through life. Thank you for being a bright light in this world. ❤

[@shailynngalvin4625]

I wanna say I really recognize this experience. I used to watch you as a teen and I’m 25 now. I’m with you girl I see you and thank you for making me think a little more about the way I’m seeing the world and the people around me ❤

[@stephanieduran6924]

I trust you! You've literally been a light for me when I was at my darkest point in my life. Watching you with whatever storytimes or any content you put out literally helped crawl out of that darkness! So thank you, you have no idea how inspirational you really are! I'm excited to see what 2025 has in store for us girl!!

[@Izabel-x5s]

Omg nikki everything that you said about memory blockage is what I’ve been trying to explain to everyone for years but didn’t know how too I finally don’t feel alone. Thank you for sharing your story , You are such an inspiration and you’re such a beautiful soul. We love u sm ❤️

[@whitneywilliams6463]

I love you so much. Praying for your healing and everyone here. GOD is so amazing when he humbles us and even though it hurts just know it’s so much brighter on the other side. When you can truly move on from the past and not let it come up and interfere or interrupt your peace, honestly such a blessing. Stay strong by GOD’S grace. You are healed in Jesus name. Always here for you

[@simonehoule7062]

Yess girl!! Ive been watching since i was in highschool now im about to be 24 and honestly this video hit me so deeply, you wouldn't believe how much I needed this! Glad your back! Sending you lots of love!

[@issanikki7994]

Girllll I been watching you since I was a freshman in high school and im now about to be 24, you’ve helped me soo much and i see so much of you in me. Thank you for subconsciously always being there🫶🏽

[@MaryHatake97]

So glad you’re back! 2024 was really hard for me too. I lost a loved one, lost a lot of money bc my job was taken over by AI and I struggled to find a new job, I stayed inside all summer studying for a new certification, and now I’m learning this difficult new job. It’s been a rough one but I know 2025 is gonna be better!

[@laceynicole8668]

I'm sorry to hear that, and I hope 2025 is better for you! If you don't mind sharing, what was your job before? I'm currently contemplating my future because of AI. No worries if you'd prefer not to discuss it. Have a great Sunday! 🤍

[@ashleyrodriguez4141]

Thank you for putting this out in the world. Thank you for providing us your story and struggles. Thank you for giving us hope and empowerment to look within ourselves and be better. I found your channel when I was around 19. I’m about to be 27 and I am so grateful to see your journey and feeling like I had a virtual sister to “chit chat” with. You have taught me many things throughout the years. This current upload made it more real for me that I need to deal with my childhood traumas and how it’s affecting me today when I’m alone and in my thoughts. Thank you for inspiring thought and progression to be introspective with our own growth.

[@PeterParker-di1io]

been a silent follower for awhile. you deserve all of this. you do good. you are light. i’m right there with you mamas. thank you.

[@goldilokss]

NIKKI BABE YOU WILL NEVERRRR FALL OFF girl that throne youre on is fit to YOU! we love you sm ❤ ive been watching since the stepsister storytimed began youre my favorite creator because youre so real and you have remained the sweetest and funniest throughout your whole yt journey! love you Nikki 🥰

[@LolNotDarian]

I completely understand! 2024 was honestly great for me, but the last month whooped my behind girl. I started therapy in October and by mid December, I started remembering things from my teen years that happened and it was like getting hit by a truck. I would LOVE to do story times on my channel but I literally cannot remember anything because everything was so traumatic for me up until 2023! I resonate so much with your memory suppression. It sucks but it’s also so freeing to remember.

[@ranadagivens5476]

I just had a baby 3 months ago and even though he doesn't give hugs just his little touches are so heartwarming, or when he holds my finger or just snuggles into me. It's the best and watching him grow, it just really does something to you on the inside!!!

[@JustNikki822]

Nikki, I think I started watching you when i was 12 or 13 and i am now 21 and girl lemme say, you have gotten me through some HARD times with just making me laugh, giving us that tough love advice, or just making it a safe place to relax. Nikki, we are all human and I hope the absolute best and blessed year for you and your beautiful family. will forever support my HOME SKILLET BISCUIT! luv ya girl!

[@remiahward1504]

I started my therapy journey in 2023. I gained 60 pounds starting off. Some of it was my medication, but a lot of it was just trying to suppress. Early 2024 I exploded. Everything is a meltdown. Everything is me being a failure, the end of the world. I’m trying to reign it all in. Trying to get rid of the depression weight. Trying to have new beginnings. Thank you for being vulnerable and making me feel less alone. Love you 💜💜💜

[@karlacastillo9601]

Nikki! I been a Christian for so long and recently this past year hit me like a truck as allot of building up unresolved trauma hit me in the face. I because angry, dry , sad & empty. I’m trying so hard to keep pushing through because I feel so lonely & hurt. Your video helped me really understand that I’m not alone , and that even if I have a walk with the Lord and love the Lord I’m not the only one. Thanks for posting this 🤍

[@mine.grauuu]

i am happy you made this video nikki, but im also sad that i didnt see how you really felt. but that brings me to another topic; we can never guess what anyone is going through and this video clarified this. and its ok not to be ok. no one said we need to go through life without sorror or sadness. we all experience meaningful things and not all of them are meant to be good and even if its hard, that is life and we all find ways to keep going. we feel alone with our feelings but we arent, there will always be someone that will understand what you went through. i hope you will heal from everything and even if it takes decades, the journey in itself will make you grow. im praying for you and for your family and everyone else that has hardships right now. bless you, dear.

[@laelae9388]

thank you so much for sharing this! in a place of darkness where pain is deeply rooted yet you know ur own strength is something next level and i’m so happy you touched on that and i’m not alone going thru this same situation sometimes you just need to hear it! i’ve been watching you since i was 10/11 years old and i’ll be 21 next month its been such a beautiful journey seeing your growth and everything you are even doing now thank you nikki love you sm!🩷🫶🏽

[@clementinemaria4045]

Ayeee my girl Nikki is back I LOVE U!❤❤

[@rachelvolpe7326]

This video is so crazy to me because I’ve been watching you since I was in middle school (I’m 23 now), your videos got me through a lot of bad experiences through my teen years. Now I’m 23 going through quite possibly the lowest point in my life, finding myself, feeling all the HARD feelings, leaning towards God. It’s so nice to hear that one of my favorite creators is also human, has also gone through dark stuff, AND got past it. I can do it too. I’m so glad I found you 10+ years ago from storyyytimeeeees to life advice I’ve never disliked a video. Keep being you Nikki we LOVE you🩷

[@aaliyahjoseph9763]

It’s crazy how many of us have been watching Nikki since teens and we all here in our 20s now 😂 Love you Nikki glad your back 💜💜💜

[@katherine2437]

Girl you got me crying, I really needed to hear this. Thank you for being my bigger sister since I was 16. I love and appreciate you. 🤍

[@juliiebluee]

7:15 stopppp because ive been dealing with memory loss !! i just turned 21 & ive been dealing with that & derealization since i was 18. my health was so bad physically & mentally, i was at my lowest of lows. over time little by little ive gotten better tho & im going to therapy soon. but it was so hard, i literally wanted to give up on all my goals because it seemed too far out of reach

[@dreamchasin6926]

Im proud of you 💜 & happy late birthday I also turn 21 in the next few days :,)

[@bahja2928]

I was tearing up about hearing your story a lot of what you said resonated and I’m so happy you found your way. I’m so happy you’re back and thankful to be here

[@jennifermartinez4518]

You explaining not remembering childhood hits hard I don’t remember alottttttttt and remembering me comes to me as if it was a dream

[@gracew.2506]

The way I haven’t watched you in years and I’ve been watching since the 8th grade and I’m 21 now…. And I definitely needed to hear the first 1:31 seconds of this video 😭😭💗

[@Dmendoza22]

Nikki you were here through the hardest times in my life and I’m positive it’s the same among us, so we will always be here for you through the ups AND downs

[@kenializ51609]

Giiirl this video hit me. I found your account when I was pregnant almost 8yrs ago, freshly moved out & adjusting to what was my new life. I was here for the chaos but I was always here for the growth. I love your videos! I hope God sees all the good you do & repays you x10. Here’s to an amazing 2025!🎉

[@bguerra1017]

Girl that is the most humbling experience you’re ever gonna go through … you can ask and ask and ask and when your time comes to actually go thru it - you get caught like a dear in a headlights … like what in the world is thisss .. but then the “ this is what you asked for “ kicks in .. I’m proud of you for going thru it and getting thru it! Love you Nikki

[@EST-19xx]

Oh gosh that is wild because I went through the exact same thing girl. I’m still having to deal with a lot, it is a journey but I’m here… we’re here blessed and healthy. I thought I knew myself too but girl everything hit me all at once and I felt like God did that as well to humble me and be like woah girl let’s take a step back and look at this. I am so happy your back! I have missed you and glad you are healthy and let’s have a great year! 🎉 🤍

[@xochitlesquivel6499]

Not you bringing me to tears 🙈🙈 I’ve been riding with you for years and I feel like this was exactly what I needed to see in this moment. I am so proud of you and so happy for you! Te Quiero muncho hermana ❤️‍🔥

[@winchester4life-815]

Thank you for being your authentic and honest self❤. I subscribed to you years ago because I could relate to you on such a deep level. Honestly, I feel like the walking, talking, glamorous Canadian version of you (like it's creepy, girl). Once again, you’ve managed to put into words exactly what I’ve been feeling, making me feel seen, heard, and less alone. I’m so happy to hear you've done some soul healing, and I can’t wait to see more from you this year!❤

[@ryliemitchell8677]

I will get on my knees and pray for you. Thank you for sharing, being vulnerable, and helping me remember that life is hard, God is good, and to just have faith and lean on him. I really appreciate you. I hope to meet you someday, because you’re someone I admire and would love to have a conversation or two with you. God bless ❤

[@adrianacelayaa]

I’ve been watching you since I was around 14-15? I’m turning 24 this year 😮 I also have my journey with the Lord , and I have my kids now and you’re the ONE creator that has been real since day 1 and hearing you talk about God makes me even happier!! I’m also on 1 kings too lol. Keep doing you girl.

[@deec3746]

i started watching u when i had just moved to mexico at 20, it was the worst time everrrrrr and i would always watch ur videos at night and i swear ur videos were the highlight of my night 🩷.

[@ReadingWheNeva]

Been watching since the beginning!! And won’t be leaving anytime soon!! I love your content and always have!

[@jennabroyles4]

i’ve been watching you since i was in middle school probably like 12 years old and i’m now almost 20 this video was exactly what i needed i also had the hardest and worst year of my life in 2024 and ive started to take some steps to make sure this year is better but there’s certain goals that im having trouble achieving due to my lack of healthy coping i’m gonna try that bingo card for sure! and thank you sharing i felt so alone i thought i was the only one who got knocked down this past year we love you Niki and can’t wait to see you grow even more!

[@makeupforevero9]

I’m listening to this as I was sitting in my thoughts of all the anger I have towards my sister and how she ruined my childhood and it leaked into my adulthood and affected how anti social I am now. I am in so much pain and I don’t know what to do.

[@christiekhan9179]

I’m so glad you made your comeback with this video. You literally explained everything I’m going through and trying to get through right now. This gives me hope that there is a way through. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@Amina-wn7cf]

Nikki your content has been helping me get through so many dark times since I was 17. I’m almost 26 and still battling depression and cptsd but your words have always resonated with my soul, you make me feel like I can face my shit and still come out strong. I hope you never stop fighting, sending you so much love and strength for your healing journey 💙

[@jj_gg9971]

I'm so happy to see you doing so much better and growing into an amazing person:) ilysm nikki! i remember seeing a video on your OF about you not feeling well which really broke my heart to see you this way but as you said there's always light at the end of the tunnel:) i wish all you & you family all the best! i'll continue to support you 100% !!!!

[@shellytamara]

Nikkiiii!!!!!! I’ve been watching you for years!! I haven’t even watched this video fully yet I’m about to but the caption alone! I know you grew up in Church and knew the Lord but to see the joy of the Lord growing in you know, the boldness of your faith shining through I’M SO HAPPY! The Lord is truly pouring out His spirit on all and I am HERE for it!

[@lizlimon4423]

So sooo glad that you're back. And thank you for sharing your struggles with us. I can definitely relate to suppression of memories and dealing with all of it when they finally come back is a whirlwind. glad you've been able to work through it while allowing yourself to feel all of the emotions and coming to terms with and accepting your full story. Proud of you momma!

[@elizabethcornejo8258]

I have been watching your vids since I was 15 now I’m 25 and it’s amazing to see your growth 💗. Welcome back queen 🫶🏻

[@jennierushing3715]

I’m so glad to see you!!!!! I’m glad you are ok. Can’t wait to see your growth. Don’t be afraid. We are all out here growing along with you.

[@gerberadaisyluver]

Girl I’m glad you are doing ok! Mental health can take such a toll on you, and getting help is a big hurdle to cross. Hoping we all feel much better.

[@geistgleason4891]

Very happy for you and your growth ❤ everything you said- it’s so hard to get it across to others! You did great at your interpretations of growth and what it means