THE ULTIMATE 2022 GLOW UP TRANSFORMATION❤️‍🔥

[@daytimewithyou222]

you hype me up all the time and make me feel confident even when I’m feeling worse. That’s the perfect feeling you create

[@recreatingcontents5795]

Use overtone in the shade black. Get the complete set in my opinion it's the cheaper option rather than buying each item separately. You get a rich black coloring conditioner ( tub form for weekly touch-ups (much intense pigment), you get a daily conditioner for every day after shampoo usage (less pigmented used to color back what you shampooed out), and another mini version of the daily conditioner. Altogether $39. $35 for free shipping so getting the set already qualifies, wait for sales, they always have sales, then you can try other colors for a cheaper price. But sets are cheaper than purchasing individually!!!

[@mariahjewelg]

Yay Sandy uploaded! I just finished my first week of nursing school which was stressful and this made me feel so much better 💛💛

[@annisamdyusoff6963]

Yep nursing school is definitely something I'm surviving tho

[@mariahjewelg]

@@annisamdyusoff6963 we got this !!

[@yxumi]

Black hair really suits your look and the overall vibe

[@trinabeller8126]

You would look SO good with shoulder length hair!

[@atarahmary6222]

9:16 THE LIGHTIING

[@SliceOfRice_]

She feels the girl everyone wants to be friends with cuz she’s just so pretty and cute and nice ☺️

[@daytimewithyou222]

i love the black hair on you

[@princesssolomon8258]

She always upload glow up vids. I STAN HER SM 😍🥰 SO PRETTY!

[@oceana311]

know the day is gonna be good when there’s a new sandy video period

[@sandydianabang]

AWW🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️

[@Julien-zm3np]

@@sandydianabang juilen

[@miki5688]

Ahhh, this makes my day so much better seeing you post another video. We're basically the same, sometimes I really have good skin and sometimes just not good. Looking forward to the clutter vid! Love you Sandy, you make me feel good about myself and gives me inspiration ❤

[@beepoarch]

I love how she did everything at home cause I do that a lot I am way to broke to spend money on dis and I love how realistic she is with dis!!😄💖 btw am a new subbie!!

[@stacycha]

First time commenting. I’ve been watching your videos, and I enjoy them so much! I always look forward to your next videos. 💕

[@rochelinee858]

Omgg Yass you posted another glow up I love this series,love you Sandy hope you had/have an amazing day ❤️❤️😘

[@renesmethrone]

Girl you are STUNNING

[@wapangaienn]

Came right away to KZbin after seeing your Instagram story. 🥺

[@estephanyaperez7010]

I highly recommend the Crest 3D Whitestrips Sensitive since they’re great for beginners!

[@user-vy2hz6fl6x]

She’s so pretty omg 😭😭❤️

[@jinnie7796]

Sandy ure so gorgeous. Please stay this happy forever. Love u 😊

[@sabrinatphan]

Yay!! I was missing you girl 🥺

[@taejinbin12]

u're so pretty!!😭🤍

[@jamir758]

Like seriously you are just the living angel ..Sandy .. love you ❣️

[@smiiley8934]

Low key love the transformation..loose the jeans thou ..love u san-san♡

[@senna4968]

You glow gurl 💖😩🙌🏻

[@madizondelavega6619]

girl you're so beautiful omg ilysm !! ❤❤❤

[@Rae_lynn69]

Hii girl I literally like you alot!!! Gonna keep supporting you even tho you don't know me but you are 🥰 cute ..

[@Nobslobsnobs]

Which lenses do you use? Brand and model?

[@jaylaamyers]

omg your closet is a DREAM btw love your videos !!

[@okay9736]

Girl have you used benzoyl peroxide? Its pretty drying but it SAVED my skin nd im pretty sure helped with my scars.

[@velencypires3521]

Been waiting for the vlog from long time u just make my day love u sandy 🥰😇 stay blessed

[@maixuexiong6042]

Where did you get your necklace??? It's so cute!!

[@hanasdrafts]

I’ve been loving the content

[@samliu5503]

Cute bangs.....🌼

[@mommygrant2049]

where did you get those white sleeves!!!?

[@igotfeathers1447]

Aaaaa I love glow up videos, just admiring your beauty

[@myrahvalenciano]

GOSH❤️😍 the nails tho✨✨ love it every time you post a glow up vid 😅❤️😍 makes me wanna do it but i don't have the tools so. just watching yours😂 gettin' some ideas ya know😍be safe

[@bitna2002]

omg she is really cute

[@themoonismyloverr]

How do you remove press ons? I always hurt myself😭

[@Hannah-mx9lw]

SO PRETTY!

[@lily-ti5hy]

hey i love you,you are inspiration to me

[@ohhnawwww5224]

I just love watching you ❤️☺️ love you ❤️❤️

[@riafayard6089]

Updated workout routine and diet please!!!!!!

[@f1elda]

love your videos! what tripod do you use?

[@sandylikewut]

So if I haven’t dyed my hair at all does it still dye my hair?

[@Aly.68]

Omg if only my bangs would style like yours 😭

[@hannawgln5120]

I love your videos so much 💓🥹🫶🏼 u motivate meeeee🤍

[@niffaniy8511]

Cambio hasta de personalidad :0

[@tablerock]

AHH i need to try this gloss tbh😍

[@noralynmacawali7514]

Yay!

[@pepelongwayy5254]

high key the after with the hat looked sooo cute 😭

[@inokali_chophy]

Beautiful sandy🥺❤️

[@dfernandez3482]

2:24 "BoBaHsOo OyL" is the word of the day 📖💪🧠 3:31 so clean and clear, ayluvit 👍 4:22 nice 😊 12:02 beautiful 💘😍 ILYSMB 😘💨💞

[@suzy988]

What kind of bra are you wearing? They look comfy

[@Maayyaaaa]

What did you put on lips?^^

[@kiaragibson2738]

Love you Queen

[@thaliarizettesegura7151]

What curler iron did u use? 🤎

[@angelroak7685]

Girl I just cut my hair yesterday and did a new me just wanted too switch it up

[@brendaliong6920]

They don’t ship to Canada sandy have u tried any other glaze brands 🥺

[@triciajannen1436]

You help me so much i hope you know that

[@demiiwatson2081]

Bedroom makeover video soon?? 🤩

[@koouyou8228]

So cute 😭🤧💕

[@pihoisingsit9775]

Soo pretteyyyy 😍

[@prajinaghising981]

Sending love from Nepal 🇳🇵

[@fknjyanna5692]

What glasses are these? :o

[@sammynicole5987]

We need house tour!!!

[@jessicadelay6013]

like ittttt😍

[@elliereidy]

wth ur body is stunning, makes me think my body must be bad lol

[@cherryblossom1134]

You look like a baddie queen sandy😍😍😍😍

[@xtiahjzumaiahdaureengonzal1001]

gorg

[@twiish]

FIRST LIKE OMG 😩😩💕

[@twiish]

and comment!!

[@smritithakuri3061]

We need more content 🙄❤

[@jermainelindo6944]

power of (5) ethnicity varieties of women

[@joymae]

Nobody talks about when an Asian baddie goes back to her black hair

[@Beautywatch7586]

🔥

[@Christinae128]

I’ve been feeling a bit insecure, but I gotta remind myself that I’m a badass bich. Aspiring to give off the same vibes as Sandy! 💗

[@ruchikagurung8129]

Wanna see your apartment tour 😢

[@sippy_potato4373]

For some reason i want to glow up but Im to lazy

[@dfernandez3482]

Last 🤗💗

[@upasikarai]

😍😍😍

[@danicalopez9422]

Totally random: Your face without makeup lowkey looks like the main character on the book cover of Six Crimson Cranes lol

[@francheskar.7090]

[@angelamehesen7488]

This is the first time she dyes her hair ( i mean this is the first time her mom doesnt dye her hair)

[@jadedeticio9207]

sheesh 58 minutes ago

[@ashlisarang5381]

THATS A CLOSET???????

[@zai2594]

I love you but i just dont like where you wear your glasses only in the before idk it just feels wrong I’ve noticed that in all your glowup videos i mean people with glasses are beautiful

[@larissas6195]

You looked like a bratz doll tho!

[@devinj-np7dd]

Oink Oink.. I am sitting on the Floor.. there is this Album book.. full of pictures and I am flipping through One page at a time.. looking at the many pictures I have taken of YOU through the Years.. I am smiling as I am missing YOU.. I just came from the back yard.. and I just could not stand out there because I keep on missing YOU.. when you called me on the Phone.. hearing your voice.. I know that I could not tell you how much I loved You.. I know if I asked YOU now.. and what would you say to Me.. I think the time right now is Not.. I am waiting for the perfect timing to ask YOU.. and I would be struggling deep inside when would that time be.. what would happen if I asked YOU and YOU would say.. the Time is Not right.. maybe you are telling me YOU only like my friendship.. but what If I want more than just Your Friendship.. I want more.. I want Your Heart.. I would be looking at the Book of Album.. flipping to the next page.. all these pictures of YOU.. I have pasted so that I can see the different times of your many expressions.. some with a Big smile.. Others with a different smiles.. One or two with tears in your eyes.. and I am just looking.. thinking about the days.. thinking about those days when we use to smile a lot.. I am truly missing YOU right Now.. I keep on wanting to call YOU.. but I know that YOU are busy at this Point.. hearing your voice.. I want to call YOU so I can hear your voice again and I would try to dial but I would pause.. and I turn too look up.. and I see my Bed.. and I see the Pillow.. and I look at it.. did Not think about the Shape of this Pillow.. but.. is it a Heart.. I am wondering.. when did this Pillow came from.. I don't have a Pillow looking or having the Shape of this Heart.. and I am fond of the Shape.. does this means that this is How your Heart has its shape.. and I am wondering.. can I have this Shape of Heart.. I don't need this pillow.. what am I going to do with a Pillow that can not even make the sound of the Beating of your Heart.. I want this Shape of Heart.. not a Pillow but Your Heart.. and I look down looking at a Picture of YOU.. and I am wondering.. if YOU could hear me here in my room.. and I would open my Mouth.. can YOU Please hear me.. why did YOU have to go.. telling me YOU are going some where far and YOU are going on a vacation.. why did YOU not ask me if I wanted to come.. to join you on this vacation.. YOU know in a Heart beat I would gone with YOU.. when I flip the Next page.. and the pages down.. it is blank sheets.. there is NO more pictures after this One Page.. My eyes have stopped on this One Picture.. the Most favorite one.. with a Big Smile.. YOU are holding a Pillow.. the One that is a Shape of a Heart.. when I turn to look at the wall.. and next to the wall is my bed.. I see something that I have Not seen before.. I see a Pillow.. it is a Shape of the Heart.. color is Pink and Baby Blue.. I am looking at my bed.. the Heart shape pillow is sitting on top of the Bed.. Not sure if the Pillow can make the sound of the beating.. but seems like the Pillow Heart shape knows me.. I turn to look down at the Page.. I have pasted a Picture on this Sheet of Page with YOU.. YOU are smiling real big.. arms are holding and wrapping around this Pillow but has a Shape of a Heart.. I am wondering.. are you posing to show me that This is How your Heart looks.. why didn't you tell me that This is Your Heart.. I remember I walked in the room.. and YOU told me that YOU got something.. YOU would sit on the top of my bed and I remember clearly.. telling me to bring the Camera.. Of course I knew what YOU mean.. I left the room.. and Got the camera.. and walked back into the room.. YOU were smiling.. I have never seen such a Beautiful great smile.. and you will telling me to take a picture.. only I thought about at that time was just to take a Picture of YOU because I just love taking pictures when YOU smile.. makes my Stomach.. My Heart jumps with Joy inside when I see YOU smile.. I see the arms wrapping and pressing down on the Pillow.. the Heart shape.. I did not think much of it at that time because all YOU wanted was me to take picture of YOU.. I would press and it clicks few times.. Now.. I am looking at the Pictures.. there are few pictures of YOU holding.. arms wrapped around this Pillow.. of the Shape of a Heart.. I did not know you wanted to tell me something.. show me something.. Now I am noticing everything after YOU are gone.. YOU know that when YOU told me you are going on a long trip.. on a vacation.. I was waiting for YOU to ask me if I could go.. or was it me who was suppose to ask YOU if I was invited to go with YOU.. because I really wanted to go with YOU.. do YOU know why.. If I went with YOU.. I be bringing my Camera.. and I could of taken more pictures of YOU.. there are many empty spaces that needs to be covered by your pictures.. I want to cover this Whole Book Album with YOUR pictures.. think about many places where I can stop to take YOU more pictures.. and I could of collected all the pictures.. and Start too fill in the empty spaces of this Album of Your pictures.. Now.. I just have to wait for you to come back.. But How long will this trip be because I am missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to show YOU and ask about this Pillow that is in the top of the Bed.. is this suppose to be here with Me.. because if you are going to leave something behind.. I don't need the pillow One.. the Shape of a Heart.. I wanted to ask YOU.. if this is your Heart.. or the Shape of this Heart is what YOU are trying to tell Me.. at least let me have the Real One.. I don't need a Fake Heart.. I can't even tell this Fake Heart anything.. what am I suppose to do.. Hold this Pillow.. this Shape of Your Heart and cry on it because I be missing YOU.. to tell YOU how Much I love YOU.. and How much I need YOU still.. but I need YOU here.. so that I want to trade this One for the real One.. the One that I need the Most.. I want to ask YOU.. I want Your Heart.. Because I need YOU close.. I want Your Heart so that I can lay my Head of the Heart and ask if It can beat for Me.. can I hear the sound of the beating of your Heart.. if My Head is able to lay on top of Your Heart.. I know for sure I can hear something.. I want to hear Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. and I want to spend the rest of my life just loving YOU and telling YOU how much I missed you.. to whisper to Your Heart.. do YOU love me too.. will you please give me an answer if YOU can love me too.. I want to hear you say Yes YOU can love me too.. the way I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU but always kept on missing YOU.. as I am looking up and at the Pillow.. I would get UP slowly.. walking toward the Bed.. My Hands grabs and holds.. my arms wraps around this Pillow.. the Shape of a Heart.. why is this Heart here.. I want the Real one.. Your Real Heart.. and My arms would squeeze this Pillow softly and gently.. Why did YOU not take this Pillow with YOU.. why did you leave this Pillow behind.. the shape of a Heart.. what are you trying to tell me.. no matter How many times I ask this Heart.. this Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart.. I can ask million times of words.. will it answer me if I ask that much.. that is why I wanted to know are you trying to tell me something because it already hurts me too much unable to tell YOU how much I want to be with YOU.. it hurts me more than YOU that I can't tell you right Now even though YOU know my Heart.. How much more do I must needs to wait for YOU to know how much I need YOU.. I really need you tonight because My Arms.. My arms wants to hold YOU close.. this Pillow cannot say a Word.. the Shape of this Heart can't tell me NO words but I know that YOU can.. if YOU just leave Your Heart.. your real Heart with me.. I know that I can tell YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. do YOU know How much I love YOU.. can you please tell me that YOU know my Heart.. as I am Holding the Shape of the Heart.. the Pillow YOU have left behind.. I am walking Out of the room holding this Shape of the Heart.. I really want to hold YOU.. if I can only see your Real Heart.. and let it falls into my Hands.. I will gently wrap my around your Heart and I will say to Your Heart.. do YOU know how long my arms been waiting for a day like this.. to tell YOU.. Not just by words but even through my eyes and my arms.. Holding your Heart.. as my hand grab the door knob to turn.. opening the Back door and I walk out side as the door closes behind me.. My arms are holding.. wrapped around this Pillow.. the shape of Heart.. as I look Up.. I am standing out side as I turn to look up the Moon.. the Can of Beer is on top of the table.. and I am looking at the MOON again.. Do you see this.. Look at my arms Please.. LOOK what I am holding.. It is a shape of a Heart.. I never thought it be in my room.. the Pillow.. the Shape of the Heart came to the room.. sitting on top of the Bed.. I never expected it be a Shape of a Heart.. I looked at the Pillow closely and I paused.. My Heart jumped within me saying.. I see a Heart.. the Shape of a Heart.. which YOU have left behind.. why didn't you tell me that YOU wanted to leave this Shape of Heart behind.. are you trying to tell me to catch it.. to hold It.. to Love It.. to take care of It until YOU come back.. I wanted to tell YOU.. confess how much I love YOU.. instead I see a Pillow.. a shape of a Heart sitting on top of my bed waiting for me to see it.. I just drank few beers tonight.. I began to miss YOU and wanted to see YOU.. the Pain of missing YOU really hurts me inside.. so I had to open few cans of beer to ease UP my mind.. I know that even tomorrow

[@devinj-np7dd]

I will again start to miss you all over again.. If YOU can see me tonight.. if YOU can come outside.. only if this MOON can show you the reflection.. a Shadow of Me even can be enough.. you will see me Holding a Pillow.. but this Is not just any kind of Pillow.. this Pillow has a shape.. a Shape of a Heart.. and It came from YOU.. so Please come outside.. if YOU can look at the same MOON I am seeing tonight.. I am sure the MOON can tell YOU.. LOOK.. ON the Other side there is a Man who loves YOU.. who is missing YOU just too much.. even a Pillow shape Heart.. only to want to trade with Your Real Heart.. I will be holding it just the way YOU see my arms on it because I want to say I love YOU..I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now.. because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By..

[@devinj-np7dd]

It does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because

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I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. Your chair YOU sat.. I would watch YOU smile as you would eat.. we would talk about the day.. the day YOU would spend time at work.. about Your co workers.. But Now.. I only see the Empty Chair.. and it feels so different because of YOU are Not sitting in it.. I cannot go to that kitchen.. because ALL I see is You.. How you love to make food.. brings such a true joy and blessings in my stomach.. every food YOU make.. it tastes so good and really touches my soul.. and I just cannot forget when YOU tell me.. How do I like it or Not.. I would say.. I love it because.. I know that I am eating from Your hands.. your hands which would be busy making.. Your Heart which YOU put in so much.. of how tasty you wanted to make.. my hand would touch my chest knowing that YOU have touched my Heart.. and I would be smiling as I watch YOU sit on that Chair.. I would look at Your eyes and would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. delicate flower.. The Most beautiful delicate flower I ever saw.. So beautiful.. Not because of the food.. because It is only being YOU.. Now.. all I see is YOU.. but I don't see YOU anywhere Now.. I have been sitting on this Chair.. on this same spot for few hours.. but I here nothing from YOU.. I would send a Message.. There is No word Back.. I would also call YOU on the Phone.. YOU would not pick Up on the Other side.. just leaving me wondering.. is it that Bad what I have said to YOU.. is it because YOU never loved me from the first Place.. I know you left few times.. But.. YOU would tell me YOU are going out for a walk and needed some fresh of air.. YOU needed your Own time and space and wanted to spend alone.. of course I would agree with YOU and let you have Your Time and space.. to think about what I have done.. but this Time.. it feels so different.. YOU would send Word and would reply back.. and also you would answer the call and Let me speak and YOU would speak back.. I would say I am so Sorry.. I would lead out my apology.. Now.. I feel like this has to be something I really done something bad.. because NO words.. No replies.. So Please.. give me YOUR HEART.. Let me love YOU.. help me to Love YOU.. I need YOUR HEART.. because I love YOU.. I just can't wait until YOU come Home.. I am wondering why are YOU not coming Home.. it has been days.. as I am wondering.. I just can't believe you are gone.. Please tell me.. are you ever going to come Home.. because I can't sleep.. as I would walk into the Room.. I look at the open door.. your picture.. it the back pocket of my jeans.. I would reach to take the picture Out.. and Looking into the Picture.. I start to cry.. as I looking on the floor.. I see my tears falling and hitting the Floor.. if this was going to happen to Me.. WHY would I cause this kind of problem in the first Place.. why did I said the words I should Not say.. if It is going to hurt me this Much.. and I feel like dying.. even maybe drowning inside.. I can't even apologize to YOU because YOU would not even answer ANY of the calls.. I have been calling YOU on your Phone but YOU never pick UP.. I don't hear your voice on the Other side.. only to leave the message.. and even I did say something on the Message.. Now days goes By.. I still can't believe YOU are Not coming Home.. when will you return my call.. if I would call you on your Phone.. would you please pick UP on the Other side.. so that I know that YOU are doing alright at least.. tell me something so that I can move On.. am I suppose to move on without YOU.. but what If I refuse to let Go.. what if I just can't let YOU go.. I did not ask YOU to be Mine if forever was Not on my mind in the first place.. there is a reason why I told YOU I love YOU.. I just did not tell you that for YOU to feel good at all.. I meant it from the Bottom of my Heart.. I told you I love YOU because it meant that I want to say it to you for the rest of My Life.. did you not accept when I told you that the first time.. I told you those words because I knew that IN my Heart.. you were the one for Me.. that I meant I was asking YOU.. will you die with me.. will you grow old together with Me.. can I die in your arms if this means It can really means to come true.. I just did not make it up so that YOU can smile.. why would I want to see YOU smile when I meant it true from my Heart.. I wanted to tell you the three words so that I wanted to hear.. YOU are going to accept me.. through the good times.. through the bad times.. even hard and difficult times.. even at the lowest points and rock bottom of any given day.. of course I don't want to take you to those darker days.. I don't like to see YOU cry.. I hate it when YOU are sad and Heart broken.. But not all the days are going to be sun shine and rain bow like in the sky.. you will see cloudy days.. even rains will pour down Hard.. and yes.. I would walk in the rain and I will cry while I am walking through the rain when I am hurting.. when I am dealing with What makes me love YOU from the first place.. I would not tell you these words.. I just can't say it without knowing the meanings of these words I am telling YOU.. But.. I told you the three words because I meant it for Life.. until death to us.. until it all ends.. but I can see that YOU don't want to pick up the Phone.. why are you hurting me.. why do I feel so much pain and sorrow.. I keep on missing YOU.. and I feel like dying right now.. my Heart feels like bleeding indeed.. WHY don't you pick up the Phone.. or why don't you ever call me.. tell me something so that I can say I am so sorry.. But if YOU can't tell me words.. what am I suppose to do right now.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. DO you know that I am facing the Rain.. I can hear my Heart be crying.. because I am so sad.. I feel so gloomy right Now because I can't even hear YOUR voice.. I know I called you several times.. but the same response.. only going to the voice box to leave the message.. I have left YOU my voice message.. if I left it few more times.. would YOU not want to hear me what I has to say.. if YOU can only hear the Voice messages I left behind.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I am deeply hurt.. wounded in my Heart too.. but YOU just can't forgive me.. YOU told me before that YOU could.. YOU told me that YOU loved me enough that YOU can forgive me.. then.. are you telling me that YOU have never loved me in the first place.. why did you say that YOU love Me.. do you know how that felt when I heard those words Out of your mouth.. you told me that YOU love me and WILL never stop loving me.. But look at right now.. do you still feel the same way or did YOUR heart changed.. How can I get Your Heart back.. I want YOU to love me.. if YOUR heart has changed on me.. then please tell me.. HOW do I get Your Heart back to love me again.. then if YOU can give me the answer.. would you answer the call.. I will call you again to see if YOU would answer YOUR Phone.. as I would look into the room and I step in.. I have the Phone and I would dial YOUR number and I would stand in the dark Room.. hearing it ring few times.. But I stand alone not able to hear your Voice.. I would walk with my Head looking down.. and I stop by the Bed.. I look.. there is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. leaning on the wall.. I am looking at Your Picture.. I want to see YOU again.. but.. if I can't hear Your voice and YOU don't answer your Phone.. How am I suppose to tell YOU my Heart.. so that YOU can come Back.. and I am looking at the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and I start to cry More looking at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I gave YOU this Bear.. but WHY is it here with me.. why didn't YOU take this GIANT TEDDY BEAR with YOU.. what am I suppose to do when this Belongs to YOU.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would sit next and I would grab this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. my arms wrap around It.. I am holding it around my arms.. only thing is NOW.. I am wishing that if it was YOU.. but YOU are Not here.. so How can I hold you close.. as I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. my arms tights.. and I squeeze it.. as I am crying.. my tears just won't stop.. and I can see that I am getting this Giant TEDDY BEAR to be wet on top of the Head.. I just can't let YOU GO.. I just can't say good bye.. why did YOU have to leave and make me feel so Cold.. I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my Life.. Now YOU are gone.. leaving me with Nothing but memories.. and My Heart keeps breaking because I only think of YOU.. I only see YOU.. as I am looking across.. I see the CHAIR..

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Now that Chair across in the ROOM.. I would see YOU sitting ON it.. WHY.. I only see YOU everywhere.. even though YOU are not here with me.. why do I keep on seeing YOU here.. It must be my mind must be missing YOU.. It must be My Heart be missing YOU.. as My arms wraps around the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. and my Arms squeezes it.. I would close both of my eyes.. thinking when YOU came into this ROOM.. I would watch YOU walk into the room.. the Chair across the bed.. in the room.. I would be sitting on top of this Bed.. and I see YOU smile walking in and YOU sat on the Chair.. as YOU would look at me asking me WHY to sit.. I tell YOU to close both Eyes.. behind me is the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I did not want to show YOU but to surprise YOU and YOU sat there.. with a Big Smile and I see your two eyes close.. and I would move forward.. reaching back to grab the Giant Teddy Bear and pulling it forward.. I also have the camera with Me.. just to show YOU I wanted to take a Picture.. this picture that I am looking too.. I just can't stop.. it hurts so Much that YOU are not here.. I can't believe you are gone.. look what YOU are putting me through.. I am hurting so much right now because I am only thinking of it.. but unable to be with YOU right Now.. look what YOU have done to Me.. I am so Hurt.. I wish that YOU can be hurt.. maybe more Hurt then me because I love YOU.. YOU are now wondering.. why do I want to see YOU hurt if I truly Love you.. because YOU will think of me More if YOU do.. so that YOU can answer the call.. YOU can answer the Phone when I call YOU.. It sucks to be me when I call YOU but YOU never answer Back.. it hurts that I wish YOU be Hurt.. Please be hurt so that YOU can answer the Phone.. I want to say something.. I needs to hear so that I can say something to you.. as I would Have the GIANT TEDDY BEAR in front of me.. has a Pink RIBBON on the neck.. to show YOU that it is a SHE.. and I ask YOU.. Please Open Your eyes for me.. and I would look across.. the CHAIR you are sitting.. and I see both eyes Opens.. my both Hands.. my arms are holding the Center of this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU smile.. and I tell YOU.. this is Your Bear.. I have bought this Bear for YOU.. so soft fuzzy and tender.. if I give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. would you hold it like this.. I want to show YOU another Thing.. Please.. so that I can have something more closer to me.. if YOU are to go far.. I know that I can feel you so Near.. as I would open my arms.. and My hands reach to give YOU this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I see YOU stand UP and walk over.. I watch YOU grab and Hold.. as YOU go back to the CHAIR.. YOU sit on that chair.. and I see Your Hands.. I see Your Arms.. wrapping around the CENTER of the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. My Heart.. I can feel my Heart just beats so Fast.. I wish that I can trade places.. If the Giant Teddy Bear sits on TOP of the Bed and I be the One to be in Your Arms.. the way YOU are holding.. your Arms are holding.. wrapped around the Teddy Bear.. takes my Breathe away.. Can I hold YOU.. would you let me Hold YOU.. the way YOU are holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I showed YOU.. the way I wanted to be held by YOU.. and I can feel my Heart.. it keeps on beating so Fast because I want to come Close.. Can I get close to YOU.. so that I can be in your Arms.. be wrapped in your Arms.. I would watch YOU as I am sitting on the top of this Bed.. I am leaning on the WALL.. as my hand grabs the Camera.. and I wanted to take a picture of YOU.. so that I know I can always look at Your Picture.. even though YOU are sitting on that Chair.. I am always wanting to be with YOU.. to be close to YOU.. to be near YOU.. I put the Camera UP.. and my eye looks Into the Lens.. and I tell YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would zoom in to get a closer view.. DO YOU know that YOU are so Beautiful.. Holding that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. the way YOU are holding it so Close.. Your Arms around It.. and I see YOU smile.. But WHY.. but WHY do you hurt me Now.. I just can't believe that YOU are doing this to Me.. WHY are you hurting me.. as I turn to LOOK at the window.. I see Light rain.. it is hitting against the window of the room.. I just feel so SICK right Now.. I am missing YOU.. I need YOU.. why did YOU have to leave me like this.. I am here all alone.. sitting on top of this Bed.. and as My eyes looking through the Lens.. Across.. I see the Empty Chair.. My Other arm.. wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. the Other.. my hand holding the Camera.. I am looking through the Lens.. my tears.. it starts to fall again.. over and over I am feeling only the Heart break.. and my tears keeps dropping.. as I am only seeing the Empty Chair.. I would say.. Where are YOU my Love.. Where are YOU.. why can't you be here with me.. why are you hurting Me.. Now my Heart is breaking so much because I am missing YOU.. Only I see is that Chair.. now the Chair looks so lonely with out you.. Now.. it is only an Empty Chair.. Please come Home.. My Love.. will you come Home.. then WHY don't you pick UP the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU so that I know YOU are doing good.. I need YOU because I am missing YOU.. Now.. I know that I love YOU.. Now I know how much I love YOU.. so please come Home.. I am only seeing the Chair.. it is only an Empty chair.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across..

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Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this Chair to sit here because of Knowing the memories of YOU.. I just can't take it any more.. I just can't see this Chair.. I can't because I am hurting too.. aching and wishing that YOU can come back.. WHY do you have to leave and Not tell me where YOU are going to go.. Look at me now.. I just feel like I want to break my Heart.. I need YOU because I love YOU.. Please.. Come home and tell me.. Come Home so at least you can hear me tell YOU that I was wrong.. that It was me.. my fault and that I am so sorry for the pain which I caused.. if you can only return and let me know I still have this chance to love YOU.. but.. Are you coming Home.. I would stop.. I would still be looking at the Moon.. just staring.. my tears are filled in my eyes.. why did I let it go so far that Now.. YOU just don't want to come Home.. was it that bad of words I said to YOU.. I mean.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. is Not these words Not enough to say to You.. am I this bad of a person that Now you just don't want to see me anymore.. what can I do to change your mind.. Please tell me.. what must I do so that YOU know that I am so sorry and that you will receive these words.. how can Your Heart change for me.. Please tell me so that I can change too.. so that I can love YOU once again.. but.. if you stay away and Not come Home.. How can I tell you anything.. if you want to be far from me.. YOU know I will not get the chance to apologize of the words and actions I cause to Hurt you.. tell me so that I can be a better man.. a Better person.. as I would look at the Moon.. a hour goes By and I know that it is time for me to Go inside.. so I turn to go back inside.. and I stop.. I am not sure what it is but I would turn around to Look.. I am not sure who it is but I am hearing foot steps walking.. and I can see someone walking and the figure is getting Bigger and Bigger.. Is it YOU.. and I see the figure stops.. and I look.. is it really YOU.. did YOU made up your Mind to return.. to come back Home to me.. and I am still looking.. and I see the figure starts to walk again.. and as I am standing there.. I know it has to be YOU.. I know that it is YOU for sure.. and this Time.. YOUR Plate is still on the Table with Your Food.. I have not toss it in the trash.. but decided to wait and as I see YOU approach.. I see YOU come closer.. my tears fills my eyes once again.. and I point my finger to the MOON..I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. and I just can't take my eyes off.. just wondering when are YOU coming Home.. I been calling you on the Phone.. Do you not here the Phone ringing.. I know that the number is correct because I can hear YOUR voice.. I can here you saying to leave the voice on the message.. I been wondering.. why aren't you picking up the Phone.. you know that this is killing me when YOU do this.. I been thinking a lot lately.. and I even left you a voice message.. telling YOU that I am so sorry.. how many times Must I tell YOU that what I did was wrong.. and I told you that I am so sorry.. will you please give me another chance.. I know that I can do better this time.. of course YOU heard me telling YOU this before.. so what do you want me to do.. So do you want me to stop calling YOU.. I know that I am the one who did fault.. and I even plead and even begged YOU.. I left you a Message on the Phone.. I am still calling you.. because we needs to talk.. YOU needs to tell me something so that I know what Not to do.. so please Pick up the Phone.. as I am dialing Your number.. I am putting my Phone on the ear.. I hear the ringing going through.. as I am standing on the living room.. I walk to the diner room.. standing there.. I see Your Empty chair.. I just can't believe YOU are doing this to Me.. why are YOU hurting me.. I know that it is me who shouted at YOU.. and I was angry.. but.. does it means YOU have to hate me like this.. DO you really Hate Me.. YOU told me that you will Never hate me.. then why are YOU not answering the Phone.. it is getting late.. few days.. Now weeks went by.. I am still here waiting for YOU.. just wondering How you are doing.. Please.. Baby.. Please answer the Phone.. tell me something so that I know.. I can let go.. I can let go of this frustration that is in me.. I know.. I told you already.. I am so sorry.. as I am looking at the empty Chair.. I have set another Plate.. it is by Your Chair.. I would place a cup of water.. with utensils.. with napkin on the side.. I made YOU a steak.. green beans and mash potatoes.. next to the cup of water is another cup of wine.. I have set it.. maybe YOU will come tonight.. Maybe you will stop by later tonight.. but.. just in case you are hungry.. I have placed Your Plate.. Your food on the table by the Chair.. Your Empty Chair.. as I would walk to the front door and I open.. looking outside.. I would walk out with a jacket.. it is pretty cold and I can see the Moon.. as I am walking.. and I stop.. I see the light rain falling from the sky.. I am wondering are you close by.. Can you see the rain.. I know that I am getting hit by the rain.. it does not matter now because I am sick.. My Heart is sick because I am missing YOU.. its been weeks.. and each night.. I would be waiting by the empty Chair.. I would be in the kitchen cooking a meal.. each time I would eat dinner.. I am always looking for YOU.. I would be thinking of YOU.. as I would be sitting down on my side.. I would get back UP.. going back into the kitchen.. I know that I have to bring out another Plate.. I know that you may not come tonight.. maybe Not.. but still.. I am thinking what if YOU would show UP.. what if YOU come.. I would always make a meal for two.. Just in case YOU may show UP later deep in the night.. when I am asleep.. who knows when and I would put Your Plate.. Your dinner on the top of the table.. if I sleep and I don't see you for that day.. at least YOU can come into the night.. late if you want too.. the Meal is ready for YOU.. come and eat if You are hungry.. it has been all prepared and done.. what you love the most.. your favorites I would ask.. and I would watch YOU taking the picture of each plates YOU love and would remind me this is what you like and dislike.. and I would put the picture of the plates YOU love.. in my room.. and from time to time I would take a look at it.. and I would make those meals just for you.. as I am outside in the cold.. with my jacket on.. I am getting wet.. light rain hitting me.. and I would stop.. My Heart hurts Now.. I would go into my room.. and day to day.. I would pull out the picture of the Plate.. each Night I would be in the kitchen.. cooking each of the Meals YOU love.. every night comes.. One Plate.. the Next Night Another Plate YOU love.. your favorite dishes.. and I would sit on my Chair.. waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I would wait.. it becomes late.. and yes.. I would feel so sleepy.. getting UP out of the Chair.. I am looking at the Plate.. and Looking at the Empty Chair.. I can feel my Heart crying inside.. as I would wait for YOU and YOU do not show UP.. I would turn the Other way and walk into the room.. closing the Door behind.. and I lay on the bed.. and I start to cry.. crying a lot because I would miss YOU.. calling YOU on the Phone.. I would sit still just to hear Your Voice.. I would hear the Phone be ringing.. asking myself.. why is it this Hard to love YOU.. why are you making it so Hard for me to get closer.. am I that evil person.. why Hurt me.. I feel only tears in my eyes.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I told YOU that I missed YOU and that I love YOU.. but why don't you pick up the Phone.. why don't you even show UP to the House.. YOU don't miss me at all.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. I call you every day.. I only want to listen to Your Voice.. I want to hear YOU.. but only at the end to leave the Message YOU tell me too.. it breaks my Heart when YOU do this to Me.. it breaks my heart when YOU stop caring about me.. it breaks my Heart when YOU don't answer.. I even would leave in the Night.. I have prepared YOU a Meal.. a Dinner I made to eat.. I have already eaten.. If you don't want to see me.. I am Not going to force YOU to come to see me.. But Please.. if YOU get hungry and YOU are near by.. Please stop by.. I am ready to sleep for the night.. so Please come tonight.. by the time you get this message.. when YOU come.. I am sure I am already at bed by then.. if YOU ever feel

[@christinawong1141]

Jesus is coming soon please share and repent

[@kpop_sucker.numerouno9977]

He really is!! I keep on having dreams about the end of the world but i can also feel that its not that far. Idk...its scary

[@bbysquad9260]

I am here after the cheating video 😅

[@devinjo-c5j]

Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Many Bottles.. the empty bottles are on the sands.. and I am trying to look for One.. if there is a Note written back to Me.. so many empty bottles are laying all around.. hoping that YOU have received the Message in the Bottle.. the Letter.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU when I was in the Room.. sitting by the desk.. I would be looking at Your Picture.. for the first time in my life.. I have never felt the way I do now.. waiting for YOU by the Beach.. so many days passed by.. which became weeks down the Line.. and Now.. I been waiting for Your Answer.. hoping that YOU wrote me something back.. as I am standing around.. the Last time I came to this same beach.. Not even ONE bottle.. an empty Bottle was here.. but at this very Night.. there are just too many empty bottles laying around.. which I am thinking.. at least there must be One.. but My Heart would sank as I would be looking at each empty Bottle.. I don't see any of it with any notes or Letters coming back.. I feel so Sad.. maybe the Bottle.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU.. putting inside the empty Bottle.. I am feeling.. and losing hope.. what if the Message in the Bottle has went to the wrong location.. what if YOU have never received it.. maybe it is still in the Ocean Waters floating through the Water.. unable to reach YOU.. what if it went to the Other side.. to someone else who I never wrote too.. I am just confused at this Point because I have written the Letter.. Love Letter to YOU.. I even looked UP to the Sky.. I looked at the MOON.. asking in prayers to guide the Message in the Bottle.. if that MOON has an ear.. and able to hear my voice and can listen to my words.. would IT help to guide the Message in the Bottle and send it to Your direction.. I would ask.. will you please Help me.. because YOU know that I am in love.. I want to share this open Heart.. My Heart has been opened to share and to tell YOU what is in me.. hoping that YOU feel the same as what I feel right NOW.. I been looking UP to the Moon.. asking.. Looking at it.. I would say to the MOON.. would you lend me Your Hand.. if YOU have a Hand.. If YOU have an ear.. can YOU please listen to my words.. Can you hear my voice because I really Need something from YOU.. it is YOUR Help.. as YOU can see.. I have written a Letter.. a Love Letter and I have PUT the Letter.. rolled into and put into this An Empty Bottle and I would show the MOON.. the Empty Bottle.. Love Letter rolled up and stick it into the An empty Bottle and I would walk up closer to the waves of Water coming into the Beach sand and I would toss the Message in the Bottle IN to the Water.. as I would stand still in the Night.. I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. finger pointing to the Message in the Bottle.. IF you can hear me this very night.. If YOU can hear my Voice.. if you hear my words.. Please do me a favor.. Guide that Message IN the Bottle.. Please.. Help that Message in the Bottle to travel to the right Place.. and I have a Picture of YOU and I would pull it out and I would SHOW the Face.. the Picture of YOU up to the MOON.. if you have eyes.. Please Open Your eyes wide and take a LOOK.. take a good Look of this Picture.. I am asking YOU.. LOOKING UP to the MOON.. I am asking YOU.. this Message in the Bottle belongs TO the One I am showing you the Picture.. Please Help me.. guide it through so it can go carefully to the right person which is YOU.. It took me a long hours of thinking.. picking UP a Pencil.. finding a clean sheet of Paper.. trying to brain storm at first.. trying to find the right words to write.. thinking over and over what to write.. as I would be staring at the Blank Sheet of Paper.. I would sit alone.. but cannot put the Words to write on that Blank sheet piece of Paper.. I would sit alone by the desk.. trying to pick and choose the right Words to share from my Heart.. ideas would Not come so fast and I had to write and stop.. try to write again and I would stop.. I would be angry with myself because I would write on that Clean Blank sheet of paper.. I would try to read it.. re read it over and over.. did NOT sound right.. grab the paper which been written and I would roll into the Ball with that Paper and toss it into the Trash can in the room.. I would be struggling through the Night.. struggling with Hours what to write.. as I would look at the Time.. looking at the watch in the room.. only thing I see is the TIME ticks so fast.. One hour goes by.. another clean blank sheet of paper I would pull out to write YOU.. a Letter.. a Love Letter.. only thing that I can think in that night is the TIME.. the Time flies so fast.. but I am sitting alone by the desk.. Unable to fulfill what I wanted to do by telling YOU.. sharing YOU.. writing YOU.. the first three letter Hits and I would write.. I LOVE YOU.. and trying to fill in the Blank.. asking myself.. what am I doing.. so much time is passing BY.. making my Heart to skip.. making it skip twice and three times.. because only the Three Letter words I am able to tell YOU and Nothing More.. am I getting Old.. am I losing memories.. what is happening to myself.. and I would open the Bottle.. and starts to Pour into the Shot Glass.. as I place the Bottle Down.. I would pick up the shot Glass and take a Shot.. I want to cry because I know there are so much words I want to say to YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU so much but.. sitting by the desk Alone for about the Hour that went by.. I feel like I just can't write.. I can't write but My Heart has so much to say.. because I know that deep inside.. I love YOU.. I would grab the Bottle and pour more into the Shot Glass.. putting the Bottle Down.. grabbing the Shot Glass.. I open my mouth and take a shot.. slamming into me.. I feel so stressful now.. I want to tell YOU.. but what am I suppose to say.. I can't just put I love YOU on this Big Pieces of Blank Paper.. I know that I needs to fill in the Blank as much as Possible so that YOU Know my Heart.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I just don't want to say three little words and put the period at the end.. I want to tell you much more than Just the three words I love YOU or I miss YOU.. just too vague and makes me feel like I have NO words to say.. and I turn around.. LOOKING behind me is the Bed.. and there is something that is sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. and Next to the Giant Teddy Bear is the Pillow.. the shape of the Heart color Pink.. before I would turn to look back again to look.. I would pull the Picture of YOU.. and Place it right next to the Blank Sheet piece of Paper.. and I would take a closer LOOK at your Picture and my words would say looking at your picture.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. why do I keep on looking at your Picture.. why can I just stop everything.. it would not hurt me this Much.. the pain and the ache of Missing YOU.. the More I miss YOU the more I think of YOU.. the More I think of YOU.. I just want to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would turn around to look back again.. the Wall and the bed next to the Wall.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. I would close Both eyes and tried to imagine.. tries to envision YOU sitting on the TOP of the Bed and your Arms.. arms.. YOUR arms Holding.. wrapping around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I open both eyes.. Are you there.. I am trying to ask if I see YOU.. are you there yet.. and I can feel my Heart.. so I turn around.. facing the Piece of paper.. my hand grabs the Pencil and I start to write YOU a letter.. a Love Letter that only can comes from My Heart.. can I feel my Heart crying.. can I feel my eyes wants to shed some tears because I begin to write.. I see my hand.. as the pencil starts to write on the Paper.. I would tell YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and YOU have left behind the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. many nights when I sit alone and I would be sitting by the Desk.. I would turn to look back.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear which brings so much memories to me.. even though for the Hour went by.. I sat alone.. could not put any words on the Pieces of Paper.. only thing is that My Hand grabs and holds unto the pencil tightly.. I would tell my hand to write.. I want to see the Words written on the Paper.. but it is My Brain.. the thought stops and locks up.. even though my hand wants to move and to write.. My thoughts seems like it just wants to stop.. holding it still.. even though I feel it in my heart and has so much to say to YOU.. I wonder why I can't write on this Very night.. I would open the Bottle of a Whiskey I bought and started to pour on the shot glass.. the pain and the ache in my Heart and my soul.. just killing me because I miss YOU so Much and only words that was stuck and has been written was the three letter words.. I love YOU.. I wanted to scream.. I wanted to cry because I know that in my Heart.. I needs to say something.. I needs to tell YOU what is really going on in me.. to tell YOU that I love YOU and how much I miss YOU.. when I started to take some more Shot from the Shot glass.. I started to Miss YOU.. all over again I started to miss YOU more as I would pour and taking shot from the Whiskey Bottle.. as I would watch the Bottle being emptied.. missing YOU started to Hurt me more.. as I would pull out and place Your Picture in front of Me.. as I would look at YOU through this Picture.. two lines of tears.. tear drops starts to run down my eyes because I wanted to be with YOU.. just missing YOU and unable to do anything.. that is when I turn to LOOK back.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted YOU to be there.. Your Presences.. even I turn to LOOK back.. I found nothing but the Giant Teddy Bear sitting alone.. just like me sitting here alone.. I even had to try to close.. I even closed my both eyes because I wanted to see YOU..

[@devinjo-c5j]

I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never let YOU GO.. I decided to go and get my Heart check.. if something is wrong with me.. is it My Heart who has the Problem.. or is it just Me.. I came to the Clinic.. just to check my Heart.. I feel so ill.. I feel so Sick.. because I been thinking about YOU too much lately.. I wanted to forget.. I wanted to erase YOU off my Mind so I called to make an Appointment.. so that I can get a Heart surgery.. and I been sitting down on this chair.. waiting for the Doctor to call my Name.. for the Doctor to see me.. I wanted the Doctor to Know that I want to get rid of this Heart.. I put my name on the List.. had many people waiting in the line sitting on the chairs.. the assistant calls My name to go into a room.. NOW.. I go into the Room.. waiting for the doctor.. and as I sit patiently waiting for the Doctor.. I am looking at your Picture.. Looking at YOU holding the flower in your hand.. standing by the wall.. Before I came to this Clinic Office.. I went over this Moring to the Flower Work Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.. can we please go back to

[@devinjo-c5j]

the Flower Work Shop.. do YOU know that I am still there.. I just could Not move on because I would think about.. what If.. Just in case YOU show UP one day.. what If you come.. what if YOU change your Mind.. what if I come across Your Mind one night.. One Day.. what If you miss Me.. how about if YOU love me.. Not sure why I would think of it that Way but what if you show UP.. I had many chances to leave that Flower work shop.. My friends came.. trying to convince me.. telling me to leave it behind me.. let it be my History.. and I would try to leave that Flower Work Shop.. but always in the back of my Head.. I would be thinking of YOU.. if I do leave.. what if YOU show UP when I do really leave.. then I know that I can't never see YOU again.. I don't want that to ever happen because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. that is why I just can't let it go now.. because I love YOU just too much.. I have been there.. just waiting for the Door to be opened.. for YOU to knock on the door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart

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I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.. but I did come here so that I can remove my Heart.. I have made an appointment and have given a date for the Heart surgery.. will you be the doctor who can do the Heart surgery for Me.. YOU can at least see my Heart.. can touch my Heart and pull away this Heart from me.. I am much more happier if it is YOU.. because I know that I can give YOU MY Heart.. I know you are telling me that I can die if I get this surgery.. but I need this surgery.. I do not want this Heart any more.. it is killing me Now so Please.. get rid of this Heart which is killing me.. I rather die with YOU holding my Heart then to live without you when I keep on loving YOU.. why can't you be the doctor for me.. YOU know that I have been loving you just too long.. see the Heart who loves YOU.. and then I can finally let go.. because I can't live when YOU are gone and out of my life.. so please let me speak to the one who is in charge of this surgery.. because I can't live without you.. LOOK how you have made me cry.. as the two lines of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. I am walking through the Field.. as I am thinking of YOU.. only thing I can say is that YOU make me smile.. even though I am walking and I would stop.. I am wondering do you think of Me.. Do I ever cross Your Mind.. and I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and I only see the work Shop.. the work Shop where YOU and I use to be.. but I am Not at the Work shop but Out side.. the Open field.. I do see flowers everywhere.. a sign that shows me Your Beauty.. I want to know why are YOU so Beautiful.. WHAT am I doing here.. why am I keep on waiting for YOU even though I know that YOU are long gone.. and I know that we are miles apart.. and I am walking here all alone.. I know that I should Not be here.. because YOU are with some one else.. WHY do you have to be with someone else.. if It is ME who be loving YOU.. I know that I loved YOU first.. the first time I saw YOU.. when we were YOUNG.. as I stop.. and I see the flowers across the field.. and has spread Out.. I just want YOU to come here.. even I was inside the Work Shop.. I did Not see You there.. so I am thinking if I come Out here.. in the field.. may be YOU would come here.. as I would walk down.. and there is the Field.. in the Middle of the field is the Tree.. and I would look.. this Tree.. I remember I would stand there.. waiting for YOU.. telling me that YOU will come to meet me at this Tree.. I would walk through the field and for some reason I stop by this Tree.. This tree has been standing here for a Long time.. when we were once YOUNG.. playing Hide N Go seek.. as I stop next to this tree.. my hand touch the Tree.. I wish that you can come over here.. there was so much laughter.. we did not care about anything else.. but just knowing in my Heart how much I loved YOU.. Do you remember when I first confessed My Heart to YOU.. telling YOU that I needed to say something.. Not to be surprised because I wanted to reveal.. what is IN MY HEART and I told YOU.. I truly loved YOU.. of course.. YOU did not say a word to Me.. we were Both working in the Work Shop.. and of course.. When I did not hear any words Back.. I knew that Maybe YOU did Not feel the same way.. because I would see your Face turning away.. I be asking YOU.. is it wrong for me to tell YOU My Heart.. revealing that I just couldn't hold back anymore.. that I needed to tell YOU.. because If I don't... I may regret for the rest of my Life before it is too Late.. but only thing I saw is that YOU just did not want to tell me anything.. and I saw YOU start to walk off from this Tree.. My Heart.. I felt like what is wrong with my Heart Now.. is this means that YOU are rejecting Me.. telling me to back Off.. are you telling me that YOU have no feelings for Me.. I became so Sad.. because I thought that YOU knew.. I would give YOU signs that I wanted more than just friends and I member YOU telling me Not to cross the Line.. YOU only liked me as friends but not more than That.. as I saw YOU walk off.. I would ask myself.. why can't I be more than just friends.. what is wrong with me.. as I stood by this tree.. I saw YOU going into the work shop.. I was hurt and did Not want to see YOU because I felt like I thought something More could be made.. but when YOU told me that only friends is enough for YOU.. I stood by this Tree.. WHY was my Heart hurting.. it felt so crushed.. I just felt like I could Not breathe that well.. I watched the Sun setting.. as the Sun goes Down.. I knew that it is not going to be the same anymore.. and I would ask myself.. if this was to happen.. I should of kept it to myself.. I should of Not told YOU anything because LOOK at what I am feeling Now.. I was torn.. felt like my Heart tearing from the Inside.. as I stood by the Tree.. I was shaken and Now what.. what am I suppose to do Now.. I have made it known to YOU.. and I have told YOU my Heart.. what I felt.. How am I suppose to face YOU as friends if I am starting to Love YOU.. I can't take the words Back because I already confessed to YOU.. as I would turn back to look at the work Shop.. I see the lights turned Off and it was pitched dark.. means I know that YOU left.. so.. Do you love someone else.. does the man loves YOU more than I do.. I mean if that man can treat YOU well and can make you the most happiest.. gives YOU joy and can share his Love to YOU.. then I know that I should back Off.. but.. YOU don't give me any chance.. why don't you see me.. YOU do not know unless you can give me the chance too.. WHY can't I be close to Your Heart.. why can't YOU give me the chance.. why are YOU giving the Other man the chance but Not Me.. is it really only friendship YOU want.. but what if I don't want to be just friends.. what if I want more.. that is why I have made this known to YOU.. I want more than just friends.. I know that if YOU just give me a chance.. there is a better chance that YOU can love Me.. I don't want YOU to be with someone who will Not love YOU.. what If He does not love YOU.. or cannot tell YOU how much He loves You.. but YOU know that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How much I need YOU.. how much I need you close in my life that I can keep on loving YOU.. Why can't Your Heart be open to Me.. Please tell me.. so that I would know.. I know that I can love you where YOU will know that YOU are being loved.. only if YOU can open Your Heart.. let me IN so I can show YOU.. tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I stood.. looking at the work shop being pitch dark.. I can see the MOON.. as I would star to walk away from the tree.. and I would head to the work Shop.. I do open the door to go inside.. it is dark.. and it is empty inside this room.. only the window I can see.. as I turn to look through the Window.. I am inside the Work Shop.. only thing that I feel is that I am missing YOU now.. even though I don't want to be here.. but for some reason.. it is because I started to Miss YOU lead me back here.. I get closer to the Window.. I see a Picture.. I am wondering.. WHY is this Picture here.. and I get closer and closer to the window.. as My hand grabs the Picture.. I take a LOOK.. and I look.. the Picture belongs to YOU.. it is YOU.. the Work shop is dark.. the room is empty.. but only thing that is here is Your Picture.. I put my hand on the chest.. missing YOU like crazy.. and looking at this Picture does Not help me at ALL.. I know that this Picture was not here.. I remember coming to this Work shop before I went to Outside.. in the back.. the tree and the field.. I came here first.. when it was day time.. I looked at the same window.. but I did not see it.. as I look through the Window.. I see someone.. in a beautiful dress.. and I am thinking.. it is the same dress in this picture of YOU.. and I see the person walking towards the Tree.. and I am thinking.. is it really YOU.. YOU told me that YOU never loved Me.. that YOU told me that YOU only wanted to be friends.. and I remember you telling me.. YOU started to love someone else.. and that he treats you well.. and he tells YOU how much he loves YOU.. when I hear those words as

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YOU would smile telling me about Him.. My Heart.. it felt like sharp pains into my chest.. I wanted YOU to stop telling me about another man loving You.. but.. I would only listen to Your words and like YOU said.. I had to be Your friend.. I remember that Day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work here anymore.. that YOU are going to leave this work shop.. I felt so hurt.. Now.. YOU are pushing me off.. I thought that YOU wanted to be friends.. I wanted to ask YOU.. maybe I can adjust and try to be Your friend.. losing YOU would be the most painful in my Heart.. as long as YOU are close.. I know I had to accept even though I did not want too.. but I knew to be close to YOU.. to love YOU distance even though I am close.. maybe I can still put up a fight.. maybe when YOU are near even just to be friends.. I can try to convince YOU.. that I be waiting for YOU.. not as friends but as someone who Loves YOU.. just has to be patient by being YOUR FRIEND.. but I would hear you tell me.. That YOU are now leaving work.. why then did YOU say let us be friends.. I guess YOU Just knew that it be the hardest part for me because I loved YOU.. but if I truly love YOU.. even being a friend can be good as long as someday will come.. just hoping that day be sooner and never be later.. and I wanted to try.. and I told YOU.. then let us be friends since YOU wanted it that way.. and when I saw YOU turn away from the tree.. heading back to the work shop.. I would hear.. YOU are leaving work and has decided to move on.. I just can't believe those words.. why you be telling me be friends.. I guess YOU knew that it was Not going to work.. maybe because YOU know that my Heart is stronger.. My feelings and emotions are stronger to love YOU.. because I know that I can love YOU.. as much as YOU can open Your Heart to me.. I know I will tell YOU.. keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but Now.. leaving me.. telling me you wanted to be friends.. rejecting me that YOU don't love me.. that YOU love someone else.. it hurts to feel this UP and Down.. because I want YOU for myself.. So I had to let YOU go.. I watched YOU go into the Work Shop.. the lights were On.. I saw the Lights turn Off.. I just knew this was the end for me.. false Hope and wishes.. as I walked back alone.. I went into the Work Shop.. I stood all alone in the pitch dark room.. I started to cry.. as I would look out the window.. what made it worse is that the rain started to fall.. I saw the rain pouring down.. and I would sit on the ground.. leaning on the wall.. I just could not take this pain any more.. I was loving YOU just too long.. I did not even confessed too you because I did not want to feel this way.. which for some reason it did hit me harder.. I sat in the Work shop.. dark room.. I would raise my head UP too look at the window.. watching the rain shower down waters.. but I kept on hurting.. My Heart kept on feeling this Pain.. this ache of eating me deep inside.. and I would tell myself.. what if I kept it to myself.. what if I did not tell YOU anything at ALL.. then YOU would still be here.. YOU would not leave the work shop.. am I so foolish.. I should not say anything at all.. but to kept to myself.. then I can still love YOU being near.. but it has been so long I was hiding this feeling inside.. I was so scared to tell YOU because of this.. YOU give me memories of many joy and laughter.. I would smile More.. Looking at the mirror looking at my face.. trying to dress better to impress you.. Now.. there is NO ONE here.. and I see just the rain falling down.. can hear the sound of the rain hitting on the window glass.. WHY did I tell YOU.. I should Not say anything to YOU.. then YOU be close to me.. but I begin to want more.. want you closer than just.. wanted to say I love YOU.. and was hoping for YOU to accept my Heart so that I can tell YOU these words.. telling YOU how much I wanted YOU.. needed you and to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my Life with YOU.. holding YOU close in my arms.. as I am standing in the dark room.. of the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I am standing.. looking at your Picture.. looking at Your Dress.. as I would look through the window.. I see someone who is wearing the same dress.. and by the tree.. I see the hand touch the tree.. I am wondering.. Is that YOU.. Is it really YOU there.. I was over there.. for hours waiting for YOU.. I was there when the Sun was UP.. Now the Sun comes down and the MOON comes UP.. I am here.. inside the work Shop.. if it is YOU.. can you please turn around.. I am here.. inside the work shop.. I have Your Picture with me.. if it is YOU who has put the picture.. I have Your picture.. if it is YOU.. Please turn around and YOU will see me looking through the window.. I want to show YOU that I got Your Picture.. did YOU put this picture by the window inside the Work shop.. if YOU have placed it inside and knew that It is I who was Out there by the tree.. Please tell me that it was YOU who placed it here.. I want it to be YOU.. it has been so long since I have seen YOU.. but.. I want to Know.. do YOU know that I never stopped loving YOU.. I am here waiting.. for a long time I came here wondering.. maybe one day.. some day YOU be here too.. I am looking through the Window.. In the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I remember I grabbed your wrist.. and I told YOU.. I love YOU.. for a Long time.. I just could Not take my Mind Off of YOU.. asking YOU.. can I be the One who can Love you for the rest of My Life.. will you let me.. I know that I made the situation worst when I grabbed your wrist.. I just wanted to express my Heart but did not mean to come out that strong to You.. I saw you turning your Head away from Me.. and Looking towards another direction.. I knew that I had to let Go.. YOU told me that YOU did not want to work here any more.. of course I knew the answer clearly.. as I open my hand and let go of your wrist.. you wanted to tell me something.. and told me that YOU were seeing someone else.. but I knew that person well.. and my Heart.. I just knew that My confession of telling you came too late.. But I was holding in for so long.. why did YOU not wait.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to be loved by someone else.. But.. I know that I bee here all along.. YOU knew that I felt something towards YOU.. even though I did Not have to say the words.. by the smile and my actions should of told YOU already.. but Now.. is it really late for me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. can you please receive My Love.. can you please open your heart just a little for Me.. I need to know.. I need a chance you know.. if I am the One for YOU.. did YOU not ever think about that.. I can really be the One who can love you for so long.. but if you do not give me that Chance.. you will never know How far I can truly love YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. are you really going to let this Chance go.. and I would turn.. trying to look at YOU.. but.. I see that YOU are moving and pushing me away.. but.. I know I can too love YOU.. WHY can't you just reconsider.. and please give a time for yourself.. Let me know that I can too love YOU.. is it that Hard for you to know.. I know that I can Love YOU too.. maybe I can be a Better Lover.. I can love you more because YOU brought this Inspiring of Love to Me.. will you please consider and think about what I have said to YOU.. I see you turning away and telling me you have already made it known and made it clear to me that YOU love another man.. and I would watch you walking away.. and I would turn away toward your Direction.. wait.. do you have to end it like this.. can you not give me a Chance too.. if you do not open your heart.. if you keep it close.. you will know that I have loved you More.. so Please.. open your heart.. I know I can Love you better.. I can Love you More.. only please.. stop and wait.. I watch the Door open.. and I see you walk out the Door and the door closes.. I am thinking about the day you left me.. I was building this work Shop just for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU loved Flowers.. I asked you what is your Interest.. what makes you smile.. what do you like to see.. what makes you cry.. what makes you happy and as a friend you told me many things.. I collected and gathered.. YOU told me that YOU wanted to see a lot of Flowers.. Out of the woods.. some of the trees had to be cut Down.. and the builders came and helped me to build this Work Shop out of the woods.. and I would ask what kinds of seed would bring Flowers to Life in the Garden.. and I asked few of the Plant specialists and they helped me to get these seeds and started to help me to plant.. Once these things were established I remember I asked you if you wanted to work.. and YOU told me where.. and I gave you the address.. it is a Flower Shop.. and I work there too.. and I do remember you did take the offer and started to work.. I would show you different flowers.. I would think about the flowers you loved.. when we were young.. when YOU came to the Orphan House.. I do remember you coming with your parents.. and they would always bring you Flowers.. and share to the children who had NO Parents.. I member I would see the kinds of flowers in your Hands.. each time you would bring a New Flower in your hand.. I would look at the flower.. going into my room.. I have me a Note Book.. and start to write down flowers you would bring.. it be so different.. and I have kept the Note Book for a Long time.. from Page to page.. I would smile.. as I would feel my tears roll down.. my hand touch the words of the Names of each Flower.. and I would ask the Specialist can any of these Flowers.. do you have

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the seeds of these flowers so that I can plant in the garden too.. I do remember some of the farmers who lived around the Area comes to help.. I would be asking if they can help me to Plant these seeds and help me to grow.. and the older People started to help as I would watch the Plants.. I saw Flowers blossom time after time.. and when the Flowers would grow.. I would think of YOU.. each has a special place in my Heart.. I would touch my Chest looking at each Unique Flowers and I wanted to show YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. But I was afraid to ever tell YOU.. Just like what has happened.. YOU told me that YOU love someone else.. YOU telling me that I am Not the One.. that I am Not allowed to Love YOU.. how can YOU tell me this when I been thinking of you all this TIME.. you brought so much tears in my eyes.. My Heart was breaking.. I could not see you from the distance.. I could not believe you would say.. and just walked away.. Now I am here.. back at the Work Shop.. I have left the work Shop because of these memories causing me to Die inside.. but.. what am I suppose to do what YOU are the Love of my Life who brings me back here.. and I would stand here.. the room is dark.. I know that It is time to start over.. I am going to build this Shop again.. this Flower shop because I know that I love YOU.. does Not matter if you ever return back to me or Not.. But.. I know that I love this Place.. why because I always loved YOU.. your scent still is here.. I can still smell your scent.. and I just wanted to hold YOU near when I smell you.. so sweet and so beautiful.. as I am looking at the Window.. and I look through.. I see the tree I was standing.. and I am not sure.. but I see someone.. I am hoping it is YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. but Not YOU who breaks my Heart.. YOU who is coming back to Me.. YOU who knows how much I love YOU.. YOU who knows that I have build this work Shop.. this Flower Shop because I was inspired by Loving YOU.. to show you how much I love YOU.. and as I am getting closer toward the window and I look through.. I see YOU.. but.. is it YOU who loves another man.. because YOU should always know that I love you first.. I watch YOU turning around and I see you looking.. I am standing by the window.. YOU are standing by the tree and My tears.. it starts to flow down.. two lines.. I know I missed YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU.. and YOU should now that this whole place.. It is because of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. LOOK at the flower Shop.. Look at the farmers who and helping the flowers to grow.. look at the each Flowers which has been planted.. if YOU can go back.. Do you not remember when we were young.. YOU came to a house like this.. I was at the Orphan House.. YOU came with your parents.. but you brought flowers.. different times YOU came to visit.. I would stand there.. I see you smile so Big and YOU would tell me.. too look at the Flower.. and YOU would run straight direction toward me and with a BIG SMILE.. showing me the name of the Flower.. where YOU got it.. and you be moving the Flower around.. telling me that Some day YOU are going to have your Own garden.. and In that garden grow Your flowers.. and begin to show me the different kinds of flowers you wanted to plant to grow.. of course.. I would run to the room.. and would write that on the Note Book.. and I would tell myself.. One Day I want to give you a Garden with full of flowers YOU showed me.. and give you the gift of this Garden and that is WHY I am here.. so that I can give YOU the Garden with my Heart inside.. too tell YOU I love YOU.. and I have missed you so Much.. that I have remembered that Promise.. I wanted to run away.. go as far as I could.. I try to run.. go to a different country.. different place.. but.. I could not GO.. and I ended up coming back here because I have made a Promise to myself to YOU.. I wanted to keep my Promise of giving you this Garden First.. as I would be looking through the window and YOU are standing by the tree.. I am wondering.. why are you just standing there.. YOU told me that YOU love some other.. I came here to keep my Promise I have made to YOU.. but YOU told me that YOU have some where to go.. to be loved by another.. are you still thinking about the chance.. are you going to open your heart for Me.. are you going to see if I can be a Better Lover.. who can Love you more.. are you giving me a Chance.. and I would close my eyes.. and when I open.. I look through the window across.. I don't see you any more.. I would look one more time.. and I see that YOU are gone.. as I look at your Picture.. I would smile.. I know that YOU are happy.. of course who don't want to love YOU.. I know that you have many young men who wants to love YOU.. but.. I know that I can love YOU more.. I can love you better.. because I know my Heart.. I understand my Heart knowing what Love truly is.. and to Let YOU know how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to share and tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. Only YOU who I love.. YOU are the Only One who I think of the Most.. always on my mind.. and always loving YOU first.. I just wanted to say I love you.. and always I will love YOU..I work at this Flower Shop.. and told me he has found someone WHO he truly admires.. WHO he truly adores and thinks like he is going to fall.. He tells me He loves someone.. and wanted to give.. and I wanted to know who this Woman is.. and He showed me a Picture.. I have never seen such a Great big Smile from his Face.. always He was sad and depressed.. when he showed me the Picture.. I looked.. WHY does it has to be YOU.. from ALL of the women in this World.. WHY does he show me the Same Picture.. I was Lost.. I was confused.. I was shocked in my heart.. I have never seen this Friend of Mine being so Happy.. but.. I begin to feel so Sad.. He looks at me and asked me WHY am I not celebrating with HIM.. I told HIM.. I was.. but.. How could I.. I have always loved YOU.. but Never thought YOU be with another man.. Of course.. He ordered some Flowers and Told me that the Woman is going to pick it UP tomorrow.. and He paid for the flowers and He left.. of course.. I am so happy for HIM.. HE is very smart and truly successful.. has a Good job and makes good Money.. I work at this Flower Shop.. I can I think about loving YOU.. if I don't have Anything to Give YOU.. as I am making the Flowers for the Friend.. setting off Different flowers and putting into this Box.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. HE told Me all the Good things about YOU.. How he wanted to marry YOU.. He wanted to raise a Good family.. He wanted to give YOU everything He had.. wanted to take YOU to nice places to eat and traveling was a part of the Plan.. I started to Look at the picture of YOU.. I wanted to cry.. I wanted to cry and Just needed to pour Out this Angry inside of me unable to Love YOU.. As I would cut the petals off.. One by One flower goes into the Box and I put the Lid over.. and Just started to wait for YOU.. I remember going into this House.. Many Children who were like Me.. watching many kids at my own age at that Time.. Crying in the Night.. wishing to be with the family we lost.. I am not sure if YOU remember me at the Orphan House.. I am Not sure if YOU remember Me.. of Course YOU were not a part of the children who lost the Family but I remember YOU.. YOU had a red dress.. Do you remember when YOU first came.. My mind got lost.. Looking at YOU for the first time.. I was lost in Your Beauty.. I hope you remember the Boy who was wearing a white shirt.. I was playing outside in the rain.. as I was running down the dirty road.. I fell from tripping a Rock.. The lady who cared for the Orphan children at that Home told us.. a Special family was coming over.. and the Children all gathered.. I saw YOU.. When I saw YOU.. I wondered.. If you were going to be a part of the Children.. I saw the Door opened.. A Man and a Woman.. comes in the Orphan House.. and I saw YOU walk in.. Your Smile.. I just could not help it.. But.. I haven't seen anyone so Happy.. only if YOU were closer.. Can I smile TOO.. what was it about YOU.. SO Beautiful.. SO true.. I wanted to ask YOU.. can YOU please stay with Us.. and I wanted to ask.. to be a Part because I felt that YOU were so Different.. I know that YOU are so Special.. so Unique.. that Smile.. I wanted to smile too.. I wanted to have the Joy that was in YOUR Heart.. I wanted you to be a friend.. but even much more closer.. I am Not sure if YOU remember me.. I am Not sure and that is why I am asking YOU.. DO you remember ever going to the Orphan House.. I remember Your Father would be sharing.. How He wanted to Help us.. that Your Father had a mission for the Lost children.. to Help us.. to know what is Love.. to be closer.. to have a real family.. I remember your Father would be sharing.. How much he loved the Children.. Not because He had one daughter.. But.. because He knew we were loved too.. I sat down.. I wanted if YOU would come around again.. I remember YOU left with Your parents.. I wonder why YOU are so Happy.. filled with Peace Joy and Love.. coming from a Good family who loves YOU.. I see why YOU are so Different.. I remember that Night..

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No offense but thus ain't a glow up.. Glow up takes long time!

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These kinds of videos are deff my fav that you do!

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Glace doesn't ship to Canada :/

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Love you Queen