7 Signs of AUTISM In Women YOU NEED To Know (AUTISM In Females)

[@TheAspieWorld]

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[@KxNOxUTA]

I will check the video tomorrow. But I'll say ahead: Please never refer to women as "females". It's objectifying and derogatory way of addressing women if it is used outside of very narrow scientific/medical context and it mostly appears in documentation, not when speaking to and about people. It's all across the internet these days in which sexistic people specifically say "female" to women (or they misgender trans men and non-binary ppl in this manner) in order to objectify and disrespect. It is OK to write "Autism in women" and then clarify "this can include trans men and non-binary people" in the video. A medically inclusive term often used is "people with uterus" but this is likely not a case where the differences are due to sex, but rather due to gender norms affecting how we're socialised and allowed to express ourselves. You can avoid the whole ordeal by using a title like "How sexism affects Autism diagnosis" or "Gender gap in autism diagnosis", too. I might adjust what I wrote after watching the video tomorrow, to some extent. I just needed this clarified in general first, so I can calmly go to sleep.

[@Venomskye00]

How do I get my partner to understand autism they seem to not understand it and I don't know what to do. I'm so frustrated cause I feel like I have to change for them or hide myself in a way so they accept me. Because they say autism is just an excuse. I don't like masking all the time it's exhausting. I'm not sure what to do I need some help getting them to understand.

[@ChasingHopeVlog]

I can sense that someone is mad at me before I visually see their anger just by the tone in their voice.

[@maricaplasmans6061]

@Venomskye00 Please stop masking and adjusting. You deserve a partner that is willing and working to understand the limitations your autism gives you in daily life. Only be with people that make you happy and only do things that make you happy. You deserve a joyfull and loved life. Lots of love, me

[@sheilaali]

Note about melt downs, highly sensitive people also feel deeply.

[@neuroqueercoach]

What's weird is that between autism, adhd, and complex trauma, I pretty much don't know how to unmask or relax. It's really stressful and exhausting.

[@TheAspieWorld]

Aw man that must be so hard

[@mariannastahl4174]

I thought I was the only one who does that. I was talking to my counselor about that and how I'm constantly masking even at home when I'm alone. It is like I don't even know who I am without some mask on and so many people around me know I'm not capable of relaxing.

[@lauragadille3384]

Me too

[@v3ru586]

Same. Except, I don't get a diagnosis for autism, as a multilingual upbringing can cause autistic symptoms (according to the autism expert in my area)

[@neuroqueercoach]

@@v3ru586 iiiiinteresting. I suppose it makes sense on the social rules thing and possible difficulty on reading the body language cross-culturally. I know there can be a lot of overlap between autism and trauma. Perhaps you're struggling with cptsd. I know a lot of my lack of sense of self and constant hypervigilence stems from childhood abuse. Dunno if that'll help or not, but I hope we can all figure out how to be as healthy as possible.

[@BrendaGross-li7pf]

People thought I was crazy that I can hear the lights humming and flickering. The texture thing is so prevalent.

[@kathybrem880]

Oh I can too

[@TheKrispyfort]

That's because they do hum and flicker. Most people don't have a brain that zaps frequently enough to perceive it. Science!

[@donnahilton471]

I have a problem with points. They HURT my eyes. My sister said years ago that I had a phobia. I told her that I'm not scared of them!

[@AdelTheForsaken]

I have a roommate that can't eat most Foods due to texture issues it also doesn't help that he was born smell blind. He can't taste more complex flavors so things such as Umami freaks him out.

[@kimsherlock8969]

@@BrendaGross-li7pf Hahaha Hahaha exactly 💯

[@cellis1066]

I think the propensity for females with autism to excel at social masking as opposed to autistic males is due to our cultures demand that women do more of the "social" work.

[@maricampari3970]

Not only that but females' brains and physiology are predisposed to excel in social interaction. It's true of every woman, it's genetic and doesn't have that much to do with culture. There aren't many extreme antisocial women because they genetically have a bonus-boost into socializing behavior that men do not have. So even when a woman is antisocial she is still more social than a majority of antisocial men.

[@babsbunny_]

In my family, my brother was allowed meltdowns and his sensory issues catered to, while if I was to show any emotion or have a negative reaction to something as the oldest girl, I was punished. So my lived experience agrees with your assessment lol

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@babsbunny_ Sooooooo.......what are you saying? That it was unfair that your brother's neurological differences were acknowledged and allowances were made for the behaviors that he could not control?

[@BiancamellaSays]

@@kristinedoty7876 She's saying that her brother was allowed to express his autistic needs, while she was not. I'm assuming from context here that they're both autistic or at the very least ND. However it's hard to say if it's a male/female expectation divide, or possibly due to being the oldest child. "Oldest" children tend to be held to stricter and tighter standards than younger siblings, particularly the youngest. The age difference between children matters, the age of the parents matters (were they young, inexperienced? how much did they know about mental illness?), the individual behaviors matter (ability to mask, coping skills, stims & triggers, level of care needed), as well as how much parenting experience the parents had.. I'm rambling at this point; Basically there's a lot of factors involved so we can't really make any clear-cut judgement calls from the outside. We've learned so much about neurodivergence even in just the past 10 years, a lot of information was not nearly as readily available especially if somebody has/had older parents or those who perhaps weren't so understanding. Something that a lot of people don't consider is that perhaps.. their parents struggle too but these things "didn't exist" when they were kids or they were shrugged off and so they experienced a lot of negative reinforcement to sit down, shut up, do what everyone else is doing. These doesn't absolve them of poor behavior, we are all responsible for our own actions regardless of our level of ability, mental or physical. But just some food for thought. :)

[@persephone342]

It is. Women are conditioned from an early age to put up with invasive boundary violations. I got in trouble for fighting back against intrusive boundary crossers. I didn’t care. I beat up a PE teacher that was forcing girls to change in front of her, going as far to have the bathroom stall doors removed. That was the final straw for me. I was late to her first period class, so she decided to punish me in Gym. She made me run for an 1 1/2. I was a long distance runner. I decided to start running backwards and calling her homophobic slurs (I have nothing against LGBTQ people) because I knew it would provoke her. She took the bait and hit me. I drug her across the asphalt and kicked her ass. I was permanently removed from public schools, even though the principals and my teachers stood up for me and demanded the firing of the teacher. I lost. I went on to Christian schools. They had zero problems with how I handled the situation. Go figure. They weren’t so thrilled when I turned that righteous anger on them for the same crimes. I never finished high school. I made near perfect scores on my ACT’s and every college was calling and offering me admission afterwards. I have 2 BS, a MBA, and a MD, but I don’t have a GED or a HS Diploma. I used to walk on my tippy toes and still do sometimes😂.

[@TaurusMoon-hu3pd]

1. Lack of eye contact 2. Monotone voice 3. Obsessive interests 4. Masking 5. Meltdowns 6. Sensory issues 7. Tip toe walking

[@Karlathibeau]

@Clara-ow6wzI’m curious , because only 2 apply to me as well, how did you get diagnosed? Like how can you tell u have autism?

[@Fezzerz]

Was looking for the break down. Thank you!

[@MrStellateWaffle]

It's kinda annoying how people will say that autistic females and autistic males have different traits, because that's simply not true. Some traits are slightly more prominent or slightly more common in males or females, but there are no traits that are specifically in males or females.

[@celticphoenix2579]

I spent 20 years in physical therapy to "fix my shortened tendons". I was born with arthrogryposis so it was assumed my tiptoe walking was from that. I was taught to mask from the moment I could stand up. I have been tested three times that I can recall for autism but it kept coming up as inconclusive because my silly brain assumed that they gave me the same test again because I got the answers wrong...so I changed them. My mom told the doctors I was doing this but they didn't believe her. I have a ton of autism traits that I know I mask daily, a few I can't mask and yet can't get a diagnosis. I also have CPTSD and diagnosed ADHD.

[@erinn5842]

​@celticphoenix2579 I feel your frustration. It is common and so frustrating to be told you aren't something you know darn well you are. We do the research on our own circumstances so much that we know more than most doctors do. Obsessively researching our own diagnosis should be one of the traits mentioned.😅😂😂

[@kimsherlock8969]

If we have to pay for rent ,food ,car, we need to work. Masking helps sometimes to keep employment. How else can one survive 😮

[@deborahmahon5451]

Exactly. I started masking in order to not get beat up in school, and now I mask to stay employed.

[@vykyr]

Absolutely. Sadly the mask has been slipping more and more as time goes on though, and I've been having issues at work, mostly because of it. It's really frustrating and stressful. I'm hoping I can get diagnosed and get help with getting into classes so I can get a different job. Goodness knows I can't keep going with what I have now, especially since they keep throwing me in front of customers.

[@rmrmlcy8906]

@@deborahmahon5451THIS!!!! YES!!!!

[@AnonymousPerson0182]

“Masking” is done by everyone to do their job! This video is nothing but bullshit.

[@haplo_84]

Yeah exactly, survive, not really live your life, 'survive' summarizes my experience pretty well lol

[@JessicaandtheMoon]

‘You go but everything inside you is dying’ 😂 perfect description 👌🏻

[@SonFlowrDayz]

😂😂😂❤

[@MawdyDev]

It is important to note that it's not just an aversion to eye contact, but also an issue of "I don't know how much eye contact is the 'correct' amount" so autistic women, who are under a ton of pressure to mask their autism without even knowing they're autistic, will learn to "make eye contact" despite the discomfort, but may have no idea how much is the correct amount and may actually stare directly into someone's eyes for "too long," making allistic people feel uncomfortable anyway.

[@sarahjensen2473]

And triggering sexual predators, which is one reason so many of us have been SA victims.

[@LilChuunosuke]

​@@sarahjensen2473I've had SO many creepy dudes say they could tell I was attracted to them & their "proof" was all masking! I'd only done those things because I was trying to appear polite and neurotypical.

[@diarmuidkuhle8181]

​@@LilChuunosuke yes, 'standard' eye contact is more intermittent, you flick your gaze back and forth. In general you more look at someone's overall face than literally the eyes. Intent and prolonged eye-to-eye contact is only a thing either in a personal confrontation (trying to assert dominance by 'staring down' the other person), or in intimate situations. If a woman makes direct eye contact with a man for more than a few seconds, it will be perceived as a sign of sexual interest.

[@LilLadyAy]

Yep, many of us grew up with being aggressively ordered to look at people when they talk to us and they believe not doing so equals not listening, you then get people mad at you for staring, then you get those who see you being 'polite and listening' as hanging on to their every word and being in awe of them, many of these people are creeps.

[@jjbud3124]

I have always had difficulty with eye contact. I've trained myself in eye contact. I remember as a child in school, the teachers would aways write on my report cards that I did not pay attention - but I absolutely did pay attention and had the grades to prove it. As far as how long I now make eye contact, not long. I hold it as long as I can and then look away. As long as I can may be a few or several seconds at a time. When meeting people, I've trained myself to do proper eye contact and greetings. People know me as friendly and outgoing, but I make the effort.

[@FootballFanLeanne]

I literally just burst into tears when I heard you talking about masking. When I come home at the end of the day, I have just enough energy to feed my cats, and then I have to go decompress, alone, laying down, sometimes crying, before going to grab dinner for myself. I don't tip toe walk, I don't talk monotone, I'm slightly obsessed with crochet and knitting, but making eye contact has always been hard for me, and I hear humming everywhere, I just thought I was an introvert that preferred animals and nature to people, and noise. Hmmmm.

[@patmanchester8045]

Masking is something I have expelled at. My parents had a small retail shop. When I had to start waiting on people at age 12, I nearly died every time. My mom explained it was just acting and that I was to make "meaningful transient relationships" to make people want to buy more and return. I worked in retail off and on over my lifetime ( I am in my 70's) and have always been tops in sales.but eventually, it would fall apart and I needed to hide out for a time. Hours to days. I am perceived as a very outgoing person but really I am not but know how to act that way.

[@briannadickson2884]

*excelled

[@BiancamellaSays]

That's exactly what I do! I learned to treat going out in public, jobs, college, etc like playing a role, or "wearing many hats". I started behaving in ways that I perceived most people would like or find endearing (since I'm a woman). Which is why it would be awful when something came up that I wasn't prepared for, because it's like I could feel myself floundering and I'd freeze up, sirens going off like "ABORT! ABORT! ABORT!". Unfortunately if it was a situation that pushed me or I couldn't escape easily from I'd end up behaving reactively in my instinctive fight/flight/freeze response. In customer service it would take everything I had to not cry on the spot (I'm an angry crier, but also struggle to handle anger/disapproval directed at myself due to childhood trauma). Luckily though, most jobs I've had have been understanding and let me take 15-30 mins to cool down and get the emotions out. I've had people describe me as "ditzy and friendly" which I suppose is far from the worst thing I could be called. :)

[@jujutrini8412]

I honestly thought everyone did this! I just used to call it “work mode” or “school mode” and “home mode”!

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@patmanchester8045 I have also found sales to be fulfilling. It is a role with established parameters where the salesperson is in charge. It's not the customers that are a problem for me, it's the coworkers.

[@JKThom-59]

I relate to your comment. Follows my job path, I worked as a waitress and then sales, but I'm very introverted. Everything I learned about getting on w people, I learned from watching TV.

[@aflood3446]

Every time I hear someone say "autistic," I hear "artistic." Don't know why I felt the need to share, but it makes me happy.

[@Lupachiotto904]

That makes me happy too. Thanks 😊

[@DoubleGoat9Cap-Gem-Sag]

That's been a big joke in my family because we're both. 😁 Also, "Did you say you need more meditation, or medication?" LOL 😝

[@DoubleGoat9Cap-Gem-Sag]

​@Clara-ow6wzOh wow... never thought of that... maybe I better clarify my post 🤔 I never realized that Neuro Divergent and North Dakota has the same abbreviation. LOL 🤣

[@aflood3446]

@MattsonJean the answer to that question is unequivocally, "yes." 🤣

[@tretower57]

That reminds me of when I was at university, people would ask,”What’s your major?” And I would answer,”Fine Arts.” and they would inevitably think I had said,”Finance.”

[@alphooey]

I suspect one of the reasons less females diagnosed with ASD is that girls traits don’t cause as many issues in class for teachers.

[@vzburns1]

That is an excellent point.

[@Adhdorwhatever22]

They usually daydream and stay silent. But in certain situations teachers do see this as an issue

[@alphooey]

@@Adhdorwhatever22 hopefully things will keep improving

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@Adhdorwhatever22 I remember being called up to write the days of the week on the chalkboard. I think I was in the fifth grade. I had never really learned them and the teacher needed to guide me through them. Same with telling time, I just had never absorbed it. So one day I sat down in front of a clock and taught myself.

[@tealkerberus748]

Autism is literally only a "disorder" when someone has a problem with it. The rest of the time it's just a minority genetic trait like blue eyes. So if that girl is Autistic but the teacher doesn't have a problem with her behaviour and nobody cares how much stress the girl herself is experiencing in that environment, can you even diagnose a disorder there?

[@AIRL-asteroid]

I was diagnosed at age 57 after feeling so calm working from home during covid. I’m 60 now. Lost another job and I have been through enough hell to last me the rest of my life. I’m jobless, homeless, alone and hopeless. I have been living in a dark quiet room in bed for ages. I can still stand on my toes for ages. Thank you for your video.

[@tismverse]

I've recently been diagnosed with Autism (aged 35) and eye contact is very difficult for me because, on a sensory level, it is very 'intimate'. I can hold better eye contact with people I've known (and trusted) for a long time, as long as I don't 'think' about it too much (lol). As the old saying goes, "eyes are the windows to the soul", and I actually find it unusual that neurotypicals would be so trusting and careless in letting strangers into their souls. It's essentially a defence mechanism for protection.

[@recoveringsoul755]

Yes!! I have to know someone for a long time and trust them to look into their eyes On my end, if I really look into someone's eyes, I feel like I get distracted, sucked in, lose my train of thought and can't think or speak coherently anymore. I'm swimming around in them. Which is ok in the bedroom, but that's about the only place So if it's a stressful situation, or random stranger, or anyone I KNOW is trying to hurt me, forget the eye contact. I need to keep my wits about me. And I don't want to look into evil And if I feel like that, I wonder if THEY can see deeply into me too. I don't want to let just anyone in. It's like the line from Avatar, I see you.

[@Faesharlyn]

Its intimate because I can see that they're not telling the truth, sometimes it's fine but usually its just exhausting.

[@_SummerBumble]

I'm exactly the same. "Very intimate," that's the perfect explanation of how eye contact feels with strangers! For so long, I've felt that something is wrong with me because I get so uncomfortable with eye contact, especially with men, for some reason.

[@copiouscat]

Yall perfectly described my situation

[@sharoncowart2206]

Diagnosed at 65! I am so ackward, and never know how long or short I should look into someones eyes! Its always either too much and I make the person uncomfortable, or its too short, and I don't know where to look after.

[@Bellenickna]

Retired nurse here. This is the same across all healthcare sectors with women. It’s only because of women becoming doctors that this has changed. They used to lock us up for “hysteria” which was period related. These are the types of things that the women’s movement was about, equality.❤

[@amywert8088]

Yes, hormone related to be specific.

[@barbyoungberg]

This female AuDHDer does not like true crime drama because it's too intense! Give me fantasy - witches, mermaids or anything mythical.

[@Cosmo29777]

Oh how I resonate with this 😍

[@susanhemmingway6707]

I hate tense anything. I have to look up spoilers, I have to know if something ends happy, I have to fast forward people being mean to each other. I would prefer to see someone get shot in a movie, than to see people be mean and vicious to each other.

[@Kokose]

@@susanhemmingway6707 I really thought I am the only one who reads spoilers or skips ahead just so the shows etc become more predictable

[@lisalasers]

same. i hate real and personal violence

[@happyzombiikitti]

I'm an autistic female and I'm obsessed with horror. We are not a monolith 😂

[@J.Soffer]

I know a girl who went to see about a diagnosis but the doctor dismissed her concerns because she was supposedly making good eye contact. What the doctor didn't understand is she was forcing herself to make eye contact for the sake of "normalcy".

[@sleeplesstime]

One would think that a doctor whose job is supposed to be diagnosing people with autism would be aware of masking. Guess not.

[@J.Soffer]

@@sleeplesstime it's a small republican town, so there's only so much to expect. 🤷‍♀️

[@suzilindblad5207]

​@J.Soffer well, i live in a state completely run by democrats and, my child wasn't diagnosed until he was 10 years old! Despite taking him to the University of Washington autism center and putting him through extensive testing, seeing multiple developmental pediatric specialists. No one would give him a diagnosis! So you can't always blame a specific party.

[@amychampagne4161]

Being that women are an important and large part of the customer service workforce, autistic women will indeed mask their aversion to eye contact. I did, and I realized I was when I found myself silently counting the seconds I would keep eye contact before I felt it okay to break it. That, and my mother screaming, "You'd better look at me, young lady!" whenever she was scolding me, which was constant.

[@PotentEpiphany]

That's really horrid for her, because autistic people are feeling pretty absolutely desperate, and have often researched to 99.9pc certainty before they would actually have the confidence to approach their GP (okay I'm talking about me, but also I've read a lot of social media threads on this too, and have spectrum friends who were both diagnosed loooooong before me). I've still "only" got GP and initial screening diagnosis. Final appt soon.

[@tjs0067]

I was diagnosed at 50. I can look people in the eye. Don't have a monotone voice. Love true crime dominates my podcast. Masking is exhausting. I have learnt to let meltdowns happen. Music calms me down. Really loud music causes me to curl up and cover me ears. I don’t tiptoe walk.

[@fionaanderson5796]

I'm early 50s, still not diagnosed but began suspecting I was autistic and adhd a few years ago. I'm almost the same, but my reading material tends to historical romance and actual history (ordinary peoples lives, not so much kings and wars). I also do medieval re-enactment. Yes to music, but not the 150 beats per minute metal my ex liked.

[@chrissyod1]

Highly recommend morbid podcast.

[@CiaoFooTanks4AllTheFish]

If you don't mind, please, do you let yourself have meltdowns in a house, or an apartment, where strangers can hear?

[@prettypuppy6752]

@@CiaoFooTanks4AllTheFishwhat if you just can’t help it though… meltdowns in autism are so overwhelming and we don’t deliberately intend to upset others like our neighbours when they happen… they just happen and it’s so very scary 😢😢

[@prettypuppy6752]

@@CiaoFooTanks4AllTheFishplease don’t condemn us for our autistic traits and the way that we express them… we truly do not mean any malicious intent. It’s incredibly challenging to be autistic and the very last thing we need is to feel like others are condemning us

[@HannahLyon-g8y]

I was just diagnosed with type 1 autism. My whole life I’ve masked my symptoms. Everyone thinks I don’t have it and I think that’s just the stigma with autism. I’ve struggled with communication and it’s hard for me to connect with people. I really want friends but because of lack of trust and judgement of being “rude” it’s hard so I avoid people.

[@caroltharpmcgrath1533]

I find it harder as I age to communicate without being rude. I had a friend as an adult who loved my “ one liner spot on comments.” Now at 74 I work more at being me and have dropped a lot of masking thus reducing anxiety and antidepressants .

[@sharchannel1836]

Omg agreed

[@tommyheron464]

This hit my bulls eye. 😢

[@hannahdeclerck256]

I can relate. It feels like a bit homecoming to read you all about the rude part..

[@grabbelton]

Wait .. the light flickering is not a thing everybody sees????? 🤨

[@Lifeletnothingholdudown]

@@grabbelton I know right.

[@gloriabarberi1292]

Obviously lights flicker, especially old neon lights.

[@gloriabarberi1292]

I have meltdowns when I hurt myself, kicking my small toe in a door, for example. I can start punching walls, picking at my hair while screaming... It's terrible.

[@gloriabarberi1292]

You walk on eggs, so used to tell me my schoolmates.

[@holeymcsockpuppet]

I see it, and I'm not autistic in any way. I notice when different electrical motors fall into the same key. I just notice "stuff." Most of the time, it's really WEIRD stuff. I do have bipolar disorder. When the brain doesn't filter properly due to wiring issues (mental illness), we notice more stuff. We aren't supposed to be processing all the info we do.

[@SoberOKMoments]

Masking in social settings for me makes me be "on." I chatter, make people laugh (I'm a good story teller), connect with their experiences by offering some of my own, etc. I enjoy myself, but afterwards I am exhausted and don't want any social interactions for as long as I can decently avoid them. In my lifetime I've only had one or two friends that I felt I could just be with and not have to perform. With everyone else, when I don't switch on the mask, I am always asked "What's wrong?" - or - "Are you OK?" or worst of all - "Have I offended you?"

[@allmyedgesaresharp]

Oh my god me too!!!!! Totally

[@burns_o_matic]

Soooo much this.

[@karinwetzel1773]

How does this differ from being an introvert?

[@burns_o_matic]

@@karinwetzel1773 there are videos about the differences between introversion and Autism. I think Dan actually has one, but if not, I know other Autistic creators have made some. It might be worth a search if you're curious.

[@shannonp1656]

I am a woman in my 60. I have not been diagnosed as on the spectrum, but this really makes me want to follow up with a professional. I was diagnosed with OCD in my 40s, and treatment has been life-changing. It was at that time a friend suggested I may have autism. I call daytime masking operating under an assumed personality. Autism would explain my entire life.

[@ritarevell7195]

I took some of the self tests available online. At 68, I figured out that I'm autistic. Which explained so much to me. I don't plan on getting an official diagnosis. I know who I am. 99% of people I know don't believe me. They know I'm weird. One friend said I just like labels. Whatever!! 🙄

[@shannonp1656]

@@ritarevell7195 Embrace the weird! I was called eccentric in my 20s. I am also introverted but at this point it has become easier to engage in conversation with strangers. I have a job that uses my strengths and co-workers who are also a little weird in their own ways.

[@evelynwilson1566]

I got an OCD diagnosis in my thirties. Medication made a great deal of difference straight away, but I was burning out by that time. I think girls were less expected to act out when we were young. I can remember making myself sick with worry when I was invited to a party because I didn't want to go. + it was out of my routine and I wouldn't know how to interact with the kids at a party. Used to cry in front of the whole class if the teacher told me off, less because I was wrong about something but because everyone was looking at me, and the teacher would call me ' pathetic'. Yet I worked ( and generally) loved, working as a tour guide at major attractions - but that was a performance, I was very aware of putting on a ' tour guide's hat'. I don't know if I am autistic but I do have some traits, especially in the sensory issues

[@shannonp1656]

@@evelynwilson1566 This sounds so familiar. I was fortunate to have a few really good teachers who knew how to handle the differences. One in particular stands out when a classmate laughed at me for not answering a question. The teacher simply said everyone can miss something sometimes. As for the OCD, medication helps me recognize what is happening so I can handle it and reign in my response. Meds don't stop it, but help me reason it through.

[@ritarevell7195]

@evelynwilson1566 I worked in nursing for years. So I learned to make eye contact, and I picked up a great deal of information about my patients by using intuition and skills of being able to walk into the room of a complete stranger and conducting examinations and interviewing people--like you said it was a role or a performance that I was doing. Otherwise, I would have been too uncomfortable if the autistic me was doing this.

[@TattooedPink]

I'm 35f. I've struggled my whole life with anxiety/depression/ocd/ptsd/bpd/adhd. Doctors never bothered looking beyond depression when I was first diagnosed. THANK YOU ♡ I hit myself in the head when I can't handle things any more. I really thought I was just fucked on the head. This is such a relief. I've hated myself my whole life and struggled terribly. Thank you for describing this ❤ I'm so glad this video was suggested.

[@MaryKDayPetrano]

Another problem in the past, in misdiagnosing women, at least in the U.S., is what i call the 2 minute psych eval where the psych pops her head in the door for 2 minutes and looks you up and down head to foot and pronounces you have anxiety or OCD and takes no childhood history, uses no ASD diagnostic instruments, and the only thing that natters to the psych is clocking as many 2 minute evals as possible in one day, every day to afford her mega mansion. This is a real problem.

[@bunnyboo6295]

lol the behavior carries into everything in life

[@802sti]

This is why I took my son to an actual neuropsychologist. The regular psychiatrist at the local mental health clinic wouldn't even see him unless we were there to get medication. The Nurse practitioner there just gave a simple diagnosis of social anxiety without even talking directly to him.

[@bunnyboo6295]

@@802sti yeah how they would know what meds he needs. Sounds like the just want to see as many people as possible and push any drug to earn profits. You can't tell from a few second glance

[@stoverboo]

@@802sti I've been trying to get a diagnosis, and the questions the psychiatrist keeps asking indicates to me that she wants to call this social anxiety. I see the social anxiety as only one part of a broad matrix of unusual behaviour/experience.

[@joyful_tanya]

💯💯💯

[@nancycurtis7315]

Good grief. I have been fighting for a diagnosis for 15 years. Constantly being told that pills would cure my depression. Or, just go to a psychologist. 15 years later. On a pension. Every time I asked whether I was autistic, told, nah. Women don't get it. The doctors certainly hadn't gotten it! Your list floored me. I have every single thing ,including the tip toe walking! I was so happy. Thank you for me! ❤

[@homesteadgamer1257]

I am currently in this position right now. I have been told my whole life that girls and women don't get things like ADHD and autism or anything, and that those that do have stuff like that are literally insane and need to go into a mental hospital.

[@MissingRaptor]

As a woman with ASD and currently looking for an ADHD diagnosis, I find that the ASD can naturally hide some of the ADHD symptoms and tendencies (and vice versa). I've been watching ADHD content and I'm loosing track of the number of times I think to myself "Thank goodness for the autism, otherwise this would be much, MUCH worse!".

[@NicoBlue10.22]

I have a child on the spectrum and now believe I should be on it also. I’m a 45 yr old woman and can complete relate to my son in almost every way.

[@MrsD1980]

I'm 44 and feel the same. My son is diagnosed. Seeing him AND seeing teachers accept and work with him, was so revealing to me. My teachers gave up on me. My brother was classic autistic but got labeled "Learning disabled" and very little help. So sad. Movies like Rain Man and Whats Eating Gilbert Grape only added to confusion. I am so glad our ASD kids have it better than we did.

[@bonniemonaco2052]

Same. I always felt different, like an outsider. I always had trouble making eye contact, I had meltdowns, toe walked, etc. Nobody thought anything of it. Just said I was shy, and they actually thought it was cute. When my son started showing signs, and someone mentioned it to me, I didn't know what to think at first. He seemed perfectly fine to me. When I started learning more I realized that maybe we were both autistic. He presents in a more female way - soft spoken, toe walking, super compliant, etc. My daughter is also autistic, but presents more as a male - acting out, perceived rudeness, a lot of stimming, not masking as much. I don't have a diagnosis, but it's a pretty sure bet considering the family history.

[@annetteloliver78]

It is genetic and I have an 8 yr old son who was officially diagnosed. After trying to understand what it actually is, as i was clueless at first...I did alot of research on the subject (as i hyper fixate on alot of my interests lol) and broke down crying because all of a sudden my entire life made sense like a puzzle coming together. I just turned 46 last week and I can't get my Dr to diagnose or refer me to anyone. Said it's too late and what's the point, they don't make drugs for autism. Can you believe she actually said that!?! So I can't do anything about it but move on. But I struggle with everything in life especially relationships...personal & professional. It's draining me dealing with situation.

[@texasinkedgrandma5366]

Most back in the day undiagnosed with latent symptoms in adulthood. Parents just figured out how to deal. No pill needed

[@jenr2180]

Same, but I'm much older. I think I had 4 of the 7 characteristics . I apparently look beyond people a lot when talking to them, because people often look over their shoulder to see what I'm looking at 😂😂😂😂

[@carrienails3242]

Meltdowns - debilitating attacks - turned into PNES (Conversion disorder/functional neurological) Late diagnosed Autistic woman. I've burned out. Thanks for the vid.

[@taghiabiri3489]

I am a flea market freak. I find the weardest, amazing things you can imagine. And I never have just one of them.. ..oh dear! I love old things, good material, nice handcraft, quality and also funny things. I made a Konmari round six years ago, that was good. Gave myself the promise just to let a thing in when another one goes, I fail quite often. 😂 I love to sit at home and look at them, nicely arranged. They all have a soul.

[@lsmith992]

They have a soul because they are handmade. Machine made mass produced things have no soul. It's in the aura. Soul has colour. Mass produced have an extended auric field of some sort but no colour.

[@faeline8623]

I totally get you

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@taghiabiri3489 Native Americans call it Manitou, a spiritual force that inhabits all things.

[@KeePenne]

​@@kristinedoty7876 It's like an energy emitting from the object. Love it. 😊

[@reneedevry4361]

Diagnosed at 62. I can do eye contact if necessary but no longer force myself often. Excellent masker 24/7. Takes at least 7 days all alone in a cabin out in the middle of nowhere before I can relax. Have relaxed at least 4 times in my life. Was a heavy tip toe walker that used to spring with every step. Years of not being able to afford custom footware (quad E wide duck feet🙄) has destroyed toe walking as every step is always painful but I have years of practise at ignoring it. I cannot do intense movies or books. I prefer fantasy which I read my favorites over and over to relax. Excellent video. Thank you❤

[@InterDivergent]

As a child I remember hearing someone say Autistic children cannot make eye contact and from that point on I made additional effort to do so. Mostly I focus on a point between the eyes, or an eyebrow, or an eyeball. Often i'll get lost in thought at what I'm looking at. And I find direct eye contact incredibly intimate. I've often been accused of staring. I'm I cannot hear expression, nor can I replicate it. When I'm excited about something, my volume increases. My younger self was right into Dean Koontz - I had to buy every book, and know everything inside out. Now it's cars, weather real or remote. Often told I go on and on and on about my special interests, often bore people to death about it.

[@gippywhite]

I’m a 47 year old female… it’s only been in the last couple of years that I have been looking into this on my own and I truly think I’m a “high functioning” autistic adult. And that really pisses me off to no end because I have been labeled with just about everything else EXCEPT autism. 90+% of everything I hear about it tracks with me. I guess it’s better late than never… but over four decades of my life was wasted with ignorance that caused this long lasting and life altering trauma. My life could have been VERY different if any one person would/could have spoken up. It’s extremely upsetting but I am also appreciative for the justification. Thank you so much for your help. 🙏🏻

[@EliW95]

the rates may actually be closer to 1:1 because there has been a historic bias in identifying autism in males; females tend to have what would be considered more 'socially acceptable' special interests, mask more, and their traits aren't as apparent to the rest of society as it is in males

[@Faesharlyn]

It's not socially acceptable, it's that we've been groomed to be good little servants

[@meechiebaby493]

​@@Faesharlynand that's just terrible.

[@vzburns1]

I think part of it is that traditionally women stayed at home and unless she wanted to, wasn't expected to interact with others where men were expected to work hense having to interact with others even when it wasn't a public facing position, they still had to interact with the boss and co-workers, vendors,etc.

[@gardeninginthedesert]

And our meltdowns were hysteria, she's having a bad period, anything but the truth.

[@emilyblossom7]

Omg. Thank you for explaining this. Eye contact feels so intimate. People try to look me in the eyes and I'm like, "Bro, I don't know you like that."

[@Sunshineandhydrangeas]

I used to be obsessed with crime shows, but stopped watching television over a decade ago. I actually experience anxiety when things go wrong for the characters in shows or movies, which is why I despise rom-coms. I can’t stand pranks and find them cruel or not funny at all. April Fools Day is my least favorite day of the year. Whoever came up with it was a sadist. A whole day of trying to figure out when everyone around you is lying and trying to trick you for fun is absolutely horrendous to me. I am obsessed with books, though. Imagining the story in my head is somehow different from watching a show and I love it. It relaxes me. I also feel like it’s given me a bit of insight into how people think and why they might do certain things. The line of thinking is just laid out there for you. It made me better at masking because I would come across examples of things I was doing that were considered wrong and the author explained why, and also alternate examples of what was considered right that I could understand and emulate. I’m pretty good at masking now, but that also means that no one believes that I am really neurodivergent. I felt that shudder regarding phone calls. I hate them! I only recently realized that it’s because face to face communication is hard enough, but I super can’t tell when it’s time for me to speak or be quiet and let the other person speak when I can’t see them. I can’t figure out the flow of conversation over the phone, so I end up stumbling and accidentally talking over the other person when they’ve started to speak. It’s hideously uncomfortable.

[@donnahilton471]

I can read tons of true crime books, but I can stand suspense shows or movies.

[@michellekay223]

Oh wow, I have the same issue with the phone. I developed a phobia (at least that's the only thing others understand as description). One of my friends told me she noticed I would read her lips. I hate the phone bc like you said, you don't know when to speak and get nervous.

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@Sunshineandhydrangeas That's me in a nutshell also! I was notorious for not wanting to talk on the phone, for those exact reasons.

[@Sunshineandhydrangeas]

@@michellekay223 I get the reading lips thing! I never realized that I was reading lips to help me understand people until everyone was wearing masks during Covid. Turns out, I was pretty dependent on it and didn’t even know I was doing it.

[@BendyLilZebraBabe]

You. Are. Me! 🫶🏾

[@TriciaStewart84]

I love how fast you talk. It’s on par with how fast I talk. It’s nice bc the faster the data is presented, the quicker I can process it. Plus it’s just a comforting vocal speed for me.

[@TheAspieWorld]

Thank you so much for the comment! Make sure you are subscribed and have the notifications turned on :).

[@kerrishying8722]

yes, same

[@milkywayranchsc]

@@TriciaStewart84 same here. I saw someone else mention that they adjust the video speed on slower talkers. I didn't know that was possible until I read that.

[@mindymorgan8479]

Same!

[@jenr2180]

​@@milkywayranchscI listen to a ton of videos on Bible prophecy and depending on the speaker I listen at 1.25 to 1.50 x speed. It's so helpful! I lose interest if they are super slow talkers

[@KimDsmom]

Almost 60. Undiagnosed. As a child: Tip-toe walking, rhythmic movement (swaying, rocking), very flexible (undiagnosed hEDS)… so, was put in ballet at age five… danced for fifteen years, and socially into thirties for fun. (Little did I know it was a form of stimming for me.) When I began wearing high heels, it was like second nature, because I had been walking/dancing on my toes for years. Lol (The secret to walking in high heels is to walk on the balls of your feet; “toe-heel”, not “heel-toe”.) My son is on The Spectrum, and also tip-toe walked… up until middle school, when peer pressure caused him to be more aware, and walk flat footed; though he still kind of bounced (“heel strike” was not strong/barely there; I Guess a girl could just “mask” with high heels! Lol) Shoes did help my son, since it’s harder to walk on your toes in stiff shoes. But, when he got home, and shoes came off, he was right up on his toes again. We also noticed, that even in shoes, if he became stressed, he would rise up on his toes (when his mind was diverted/distracted to something else, it was like a switch was thrown, and he’d go up); It’s like how I shift my weight back and forth, from one leg to the other, when I’m trying to figure out a problem… it helps me think. My son also paces… it helps him think. He was diagnosed at eight years old, and is twenty-three now… and, still walks on his tip-toes sometimes, at home.

[@hazelfrond1830]

Dance was a stim for me too! No wonder I was obsessed with it!

[@fionaanderson5796]

I learnt belly dance in my 20s. I would shimmy, do figure 8s, hip lifts etc as I stood chatting.

[@SoberOKMoments]

I think you are totally right about high heels meeting that tip-toe need while being socially acceptable! I couldn't wait to start wearing them as a teen and can almost count the number of times I chose flats over heels in my whole lifetime! I'm now 80 and can't wear them because of balance issues, but I sure still miss them!

[@nightmaresturningoftendejavue]

Like more than 80% of girls prefer to use their front part of foot to walk before teen ossification (bio study), eye watching is stroopy rude in many cultures (japan, korea, malaysia…common knowledge), flickering can annoy migreniacs also. Basically you can say you are proper autist is if you go into emotional episodes for change of space (moving, holidaying- overly cleaning or abandonment, banging things while packing and unpacking for ages), routine, favourite product missing at home (corn/water/.. from spec.company) or time-table expectations (never entertaining quest you do not expect for ages or get ballistic before they come inside if they let you know only day/hours prior). If you like destroy New-years for whole family because you make salat and in pantry is missing can of corn of your choice (like there are 3 types, but not your favourite) so you became so behaviourally foul you find yourself alone because everyone vacated house to not listen to your pantry door banging, threatening tone, accusing of not compliance of your simple wishes and not remembering your preferences, but have at same time no prob. at work or with friends face-to face, just letting it out whenever you feel overwhelmed at home making your closest ones only ones who know- that is one which is called functional autism (my sibling).

[@KimDsmom]

@@nightmaresturningoftendejavue Yeah. I have a lot more going on than what I listed above. Have probably been masking for so long that it’s hard to remember what I’m really like; also, have learned to adjust my environment, and avoid triggering stimuli, situations, and stressors… which makes for a “small world”, and limited life. Personality type: INTP; very introverted… prefer to be and live alone (but, did/would sometime feel a little lonely; more like that my life was slipping away from me, as I wanted a family of my own). My son (on The Spectrum) get along/live very well together. He’s a blessing to me! We help each other out a great deal. Motherhood has made me a better person, and has taught me so much! I do worry about his future; socially/marriage and family, and career/the ability to support himself. Time will tell. I also have chronic health issues; have for decades. Neither of us are on SSI (welfare). Is “over-sharing” a sign of ASD??! Lol Take care and Best Wishes!🙏🏼

[@leonerose1715]

Know 4 women who are now diagnosed autistic. You are absolutely correct. Thanks, Dan. ❤

[@cathy-annemannix8898]

Dan.... You are describing me! I am obsessed with true crime, books. I am that obsessed with books, I started writing books!! So awesome!

[@JulieTulley-gy7pf]

As an autistic/ adhd person , my WHOLE LIFE was masking ! As a Genxr you were expected to follow rules and my PDA was evident then . I was just trying to " stay out of trouble" and not get bullied for just being me ! I wanna see the stats on sexual abuse of autistic women and mate crime ! Narcissists love us , socially , romantically . We are eager to please and forgiving , like dogs , which is why I live with dogs , normies scare me :)

[@LaurArt_UK]

On the particular theme of 'social norms are difficult' - this is so much more helpful than people saying we 'can't' do those things. We can, we just have to learn them manually. It doesn't come naturally or automatically. We literally need to observe the difference, notice the impact of when people do it right, then spend time trying to do the thing on purpose. Some things that neurotypical people aren't even aware that they do.

[@LaurArt_UK]

While I'm at it, I'll say that for me, (Hi, diagnosed at 30), rather than true crime, its anything with a mystery. I much prefer mysteries that need solving in fiction rather than true crime because there's more of a crafted puzzle.

[@FlamingCockatiel]

And then they expect you to learn without being explicitly taught what is needed. If you mess up, the price is high. I often wish society didn't place such importance on social skills. Sometimes I would love to treat people's difficulty with math/science with as little compassion as they have for those with social struggles.

[@Commonsenseisnotcommon8]

As a female who is on the spectrum and ADHD myself. And also a Reiki practitioner it’s very common for people on the spectrum to be light workers and gravitate towards energy work. Also to be empathic so making eye contact with someone in case you don’t know activates your kundalini energy in the body. That’s why you can start to feel them. You’re literally connecting with them energetically. And autistic people are more sensitive to this.. Also, is someone who used to be into true crime when I was younger, but once I started to understand the impact of media that you consume a music, you listen to and how it affects your body and your chakra system I would definitely recommend anybody that’s into that to please find a new Interest. It’s not healthy for you to indulge in that type of media. It makes people fearful anxiety ridden, and it’s just not good for the psych.. it makes you think that the world is a bad place, and when in reality it’s not.

[@perspectiveiseverything1694]

🙌yes! Well put. ❤️ Thank you.

[@heatherwood6446]

For me, watching true crime stuff is a way to process & better understand all the trauma that I've endured. I tend to exhaust a specific dynamic, & once I "get it," move on to a different aspect of true crime. Ironically, this has actually helped me with my cPTSD because full understanding of why/how/when/what has happened to me actually allows me to finally let it go. But the rest of my world is full of healthy stimuli. 🤓

[@Commonsenseisnotcommon8]

@@heatherwood6446 oh that’s interesting, I never thought about that but I’ve never experienced that type of trauma. Thank you for sharing that.

[@sharnag6968]

Thank you I so needed that

[@bygraceonly182]

Please get out of reiki 😢 it will turn on you. Only Jesus Christ, Yahweh is the true Healer and Rescuer of souls. ❤

[@demrelli]

😊 57, late diagnosis!! My family often say i should get an oscar, my masking is A++, just like my perfectionism, overachieving, etc etc. However i have had to take 2 yrs away from employment due to massive meltdown. Now trying the unmasking thing.. problem is after being such a good actor , i am having issues working out who i really am 😮🤔.. it's a process but it's also an interesting journey 👍🇦🇺🙃🥴🤪

[@playfulpuffinstudio]

You talk as fast as my brain thinks and it’s refreshing!

[@Suxipumpkin]

Wow, I walk on my tiptoes a lot but not as much as I used to. My mum always told me to walk heel first so I learned to do that when I walked outside the house but inside I still walk on tiptoes. And I didn't even realise that could be an autistic trait. Of course, I have so many more traits but I definately relate to the book reading and collecting. I've always been obsessed with learning as much as I can. I used to borrow my mums library cards when I was a kid so I could borrow non-fiction books on history and archaeology. I loved myth and legends too. I've combined the two now and love learning about the cultures of the people who wrote the legends and how the stories they told changed alongside the society.

[@Faesharlyn]

I walk on the sides of my feet, toward my toes in a "glide" thats almost silent lol

[@deniseharris5233]

😂 I use to annoy my Stepmother because I supposedly snuck up on her all the time, by tiptoeing, was forced to walk on the heels.

[@AngelaEAwesome]

I feel like tiptoe walking is less noisy and more calm. I used to sit in a W shape (I still can) and in elementary school everyone would point out that it was weird. But cross leg was uncomfortable. W feels more stable. But because I was told it's weird I forced myself to do cross legs. It's still uncomfortable, but no one questions it. And I think W sitting also makes your legs wonky too. But I still sometimes sit like that at the table.

[@Faesharlyn]

@@AngelaEAwesome have you ever been evaluated for ASD or a connective tissue disorder?

[@kristinedoty7876]

@@AngelaEAwesome What is the W sitting position?

[@lesiapersimmon7547]

The light flicker is overwhelming. A day of too much sensory, triggers horrible migraines. It's like the nervous system can't handle it and short cicuits.

[@MJ-hc3jp]

while doing research into bipolar disorder I came across several articles that say people with bipolar disorder, depression, autism, and sometimes other neurological disorders such as seizures often get migraines and its due to having too much or abnormal neural activity. Also the reason some individual medicines can help with treating depression, bipolar, migraine and even seizures

[@TheMsbs1986]

I always thought everybody heard those long lights buzzing and flickering!!??

[@80sHeavymetalchick9]

I'm so happy to have found your channel!!! Gosh I took a test online for autism not too long ago not doctor diagnosed yet but it made alot of sense looking back over my life. I remb things very well.. and I realize now that I was overstimulated when I had meltdowns etc. I can be obsessive about alot of things but I try to break it up with concentrating on other things I enjoy doing. . which is alot of so many diff things. My family don't believe there's anything wrong with me I'm just lazy etc. I was abused and I seem to attract narcissistic people. There is just so much wrong with me now and doctor's don't help. There's so much more that I could say but I am overwhelmed right now. Been looking for work as my narcissistic mom is just terrible. Then I look back on how she was and I realize how much of a issue that has always been there.. thank y'all so much 💜💜💜

[@moxiemcmahon]

All the signs were there, I didn't talk until almost 3, they wanted my parents to get special shoes because I walked exclusively on my tip toes...etc, etc, and I also have diagnosed C-PTSD from severe child abuse( it made me just cry to realize how much abuse from my siblings came because of my undiagnosed weirdness😢), so I'm a proper adult mess; I've masked so hard my whole life to fit in, I've even been masking from myself, realizing SO much of my 'weirdness' is undiagnosed autism, and challenges from unresolved trauma. I've been in recovery for almost 8 years for C-PTSD and have made tremendous progress, but I've hit a wall....I believe it's the autism I'm trying to overcome. It's only in my mid 50's that it seems impossible to mask anymore, all my work-arounds no longer work😅. I'll check out the link but sadly, people with C-PTSD( diagnosed or not,) are chronic under-earners and these things always seem to be insurmountable for ppl like me. But keep up the great work a lot of ppl need what you do( even if they don't know it lol or maybe😢, it's hard to tell with the autistic😂) I'll sub for sure and look forward to more videos! Thanks!

[@Faesharlyn]

I started by stimming at home whenever i felt the urge... little beeps, leg bounces, finger taps and tiny lip pops when I was feeling "too full" blossomed into beep boops, fun rhythms, dances and big pops that dispel "little tension" before it could add up into a meltdown *at home*, where I was "safe" Now I sing in the car with the windows down and whoop in parking garages to hear the echo, allow myself to straighten some cans on the grocery shelf and step on the red tiles on the floor. Or the blue ones.. or only the cracks lol.. My brain is stimulated by little things that help it focus on the big things, it feels like letting the squirrels be feral when they're not working keeps them sorting nuts when they're clocked in

[@LQOTW]

Oh, my dear, you are writing my story. I'm 61 and a recent widow. I've now realized that my husband handled many things I found too overwhelming for whatever reason. With him gone, I am just coming to understand things about myself that would not have been diagnosed when I was a kid.

[@MomoSaysHii]

as an autistic woman with aspergers and adhd I feel called out by this video.....very accurate information

[@CaffeinatedCutie]

Thank you for sharing. I’m 24 and trying to articulate my struggles to my doctor. I’ve felt so isolated by my condition because my symptoms have always just been diagnosed as anxiety/depression. The sensory overload has been most challenging.

[@Faesharlyn]

It helped me to make a list of things I do that get me through the day.. like the way I put on my socks and the special lace tie that keeps my shoes comfortable, the specific temperature i like my tomato soup and the specific way I make my grilled cheese sandwiches so they're perfectly crispy and the 15 pillows I sleep with lol

[@CaffeinatedCutie]

@@Faesharlyn That’s a really good idea! Thank you for sharing 🥰

[@Faesharlyn]

@@CaffeinatedCutie I hope it helps and that your doc is able to understand you when you're there

[@candaceberman1448]

I'm obsessed with documentaries

[@AIRL-asteroid]

Same. Non fiction everything.

[@MarinaMandarinaWoolyWorld]

I've never been diagnosed, but after finding out my son has ASD I started to educate myself, and the more I know, the more I realise I also on a spectrum. And masking was a huge annoying part of my life. I got so happy when my husband asked me if I'd prefer to be a stay at home mum. Ugh, such pressure was lifted off my shoulders. Now, twice a month gathering with my few besties for coffee hour is more than enough of socialising for me. The rest of my time is a mum/wife duty, dog care, and preferably all of it with a cosy mystery audiobook in my ear 😂

[@kathartness5219]

I was diagnosed autistic in my early 50's. So many pieces fell into place when I had new lenses to look back into my past with. I ping most of the seven on this video. # 7 was a mind blower for me as I still tip toe at 59; though not as much due to foot pain and lower back issues, likely stemming from being a lifetime tip toe-er. I could even run as fast in heels as with trainers, made no difference to me. Much better at looking people in the eye than I used to be and definitely a true crime person among other obsessive topics.

[@carmensavu5122]

I have issues with sunlight. I would rather stay away from it if I can. It's too bright, overpowering, and makes my eyes hurt. My eyes water and it makes me sleepy. When I was a kid the adults were like "why are you squinting?" and I'd be like "why aren't you?!". Being in a room trying to use sunlight is horrible, I don't understand how people love to work by sunlight. It's constantly changing intensity because of clouds and time of day, the angle keeps changing. For me, it's tin foil on the windows and a nice source of artificial light that is steady and I have control. My ideal room would actually be in a basement, and these days people are building their homes to take in more and more sun light. I want a burrow to hide in, not live in a friggin' greenhouse. Last time I checked, humans were animals, not plants. I don't tiptoe walk, but I will worm walk, especially if I'm feeling low energy that day.

[@MissingRaptor]

I don't have the intensity of problems with sunlight that you do, however I get migraines often and sunlight makes them *so much worse*, so I, too, try to avoid it. I keep wanting to move to different country where it's cloudy most of the year because my ideal day is cloud covered and chilly. I usually find firelight tends to be the gentlest on my eyes 🔥

[@BlinkTink903]

I can relate. I also squinted as a child due to the intensity of sunlight. I always wondered why no one else did when it was obvious to me the sun was way too bright. I tend to leave mot of the lights off in the house as well, which people seem to find really odd. I also hate the way the setting sun flashes through rows of trees when I'm driving in a car; it straight up makes me feel rage.

[@angelalinderman9985]

You sound exactly like me!!! I live in sunglasses 😎 I don't like windows/ natural light, only artificial light. I could totally live in a basement, no problem...😅

[@kreationsbykimber]

I'm the same way. Every outdoor pic of me is squinting, especially as a child. Florescent lights also bother me.

[@neveralone1498]

What does "worm walk" mean? I've not heard that term before?

[@lindasharp927]

Its the hum that does my head in from strip lighting.

[@laurachow8150]

Whenever I think I might not be autistic I watch a video like this one and go "ooooohhhh...ok, yah, I'm definitely autistic." Thank god for my bff getting diagnosed and letting me know (not suggesting, flat out telling me, I had to be). And I am, and proud of it! It's a struggle but having a community that understands has made all the difference. I've healed a lot in the past year and I'm doing better tha ever (and saying NO to situations I know will not benefit me or my sensory issues). I also carry ear plugs and fidget spinners everywhere. 🎉

[@oshifish2]

I am undiagnosed yet I feel in my soul I have ADHD and am on the spectrum in some measure. I have also dealt with complex PSTD. What you said about coming down from "masking" really hit home. I used to deal with this by self medicating and I still do sometimes. I just wanted to give my love out to anyone who does this and let you know you are understood. I also want to say there are better ways to cope. xo

[@lankakaaos]

I’ve had meltdown only three times in my life. I have daily shutdowns. In my opinion shutdowns are more draining because it takes a lot of time to get over it. Mainly I just sit quiet with my headphones on acting llike I’m listening to something. Even my partner doesn’t know that I otfen just wear my headphones to be left alone. Oh and most of my female autistic friends also do this. I know that for me having shutdowns instead of meltdowns is kind of masking. It is more accepted to just zone out and have shutdown than have meltdown. Oh and I usually knit or crochet while having shutdown. I knit lot as a form of stimming. It is more acceptable to knit or crochet than stim in other visible ways. Ps. I still have my trex hands. I just hold my project in them. 😂

[@Galactic-Witch]

Thank you for this video. It makes so much sense out of so many "oddities" that I have had my entire life. Being born in 1970 has meant that I have never been clinically diagnosed even though it is clear to me now that this fits with my experience totally and that my two children also display many of the traits as well, one male and one female.

[@DizzKola3]

Omg True Crime fanatic here. You called it! Never considered this. It’s very comfortable for me.

[@Random_847]

My young adult daughter is on the spectrum and wow this was a great video! Literally everything you said was spot on so much so I laughed and cried because so many people just don’t get it and it’s such a struggle and as a parent sometimes you feel so helpless and I also have a ton of regret from before we knew and even after diagnosis and a lot of therapy I still have guilt for not handling certain situations with more “patience”. I hope I can get her to fill out info to try and get into this program! I’ve been searching for things for her as she is facing so so many changes and new challenges right now…. Did I say the word changes?? 😅 one of the things I was laughing about was the “hoarding stuff”…. She’s not a boy but she hoarded a lot when she was little and still does!! Candy and money mainly and then the serious book and manga collections, and one big extra special interest…I don’t want to say too much but let’s just say…absolutely I get it and she also has a true crime show or series playing almost always 😂 I cried through you talking about masking and I’ve seen and heard it with my own eyes and the feeling of helplessness watching her suffer after a long day or come home early from a get together just breaks my heart. I can’t fix it. I don’t want to write a book but this video was emotionally draining but refreshing. I’m subscribing and I am hoping she will too. Thank you!!!!!!!

[@heavymetaljess_]

Other people can't see the flicker?! Can they hear the hum?!

[@alisanewman9785]

I've been told I make that up. Glad to know others hear the hum, too!

[@jvsVideoSamples]

Me too…the lights drive me crazy

[@JoanneStreet-r1o]

I can hear it & see the flicker 😮

[@jlaurelc]

I know...this was jaw dropping to me. I had no idea they didn't see it. I just thought they didn't care. 😮

[@epicnamepwns1242]

It's demonstrably there, audio and video equipment can pick it up. I'm probably not autistic (or far to the low end of the spectrum) but I notice it. Sometimes I can observe that I perceive it, decide it's irrelevant, and tune it out. Other times it's exceedingly irritating, and may abruptly switch from ignorable to intolerable. Sometimes I can even hear sonic pest-repellent devices (though perhaps they are mistuned/malfunctioning.)

[@lifelessonswithnoma]

Your definition Of masking is so accurate. My whole life ive felt odd in situations and feel like i have to play a character each time i interact with people. Im undiagnosed btw

[@Jordan8x]

I didn’t know that it wasn’t a common thing for people to see flickering in fluorescent light! I’m really sensitive to it, and it makes me particularly uncomfortable in big box stores where there’s stacks on stacks of bright packaging. I sometimes wear sunglasses in stores just to avoid that.

[@elizabethbrauer1118]

store lights are the worse!

[@ittybittyADHDcommittee]

This just helped my husband and I so much! Thank you! I've been saying for years that my husband, myself, and our son have autism. It's so obvious we do when you look at how we behave and react to life.

[@AngelaEAwesome]

What about having no interest in other people? When I was a kid i didn't have much interest in interacting with peers, no interest in adults, and i just wanted to play with my toys and do my own thing. I loved animals though. As an adult i am also not really interested in other people unless they like the same things or we can talk about something we both like. I can't relate to the conversations most people have together because it is not interesting for me. And sometimes i have no idea what people are talking about. Even in movies and videos i don't understand what people are getting at. But i understand and have a lot of empathy. Even if not interested in others, i don't want people to suffer.

[@michellewilson1657]

Omg yes so me. Not diagnosed with autism just adhd BUT have started to consider I am autistic with kid 3 just turning 3. I cant get a break and the things I could mask and tolerate before I cannot any longer. The noise, the store, sounds, my anxiety is over the top. Doing one thing outside the house brings me to tears. There is no break and no down time, no quiet time and I'm just compounding and getting worse day after day. Because the release, the little break during a nap doesn't exist anymore.

[@taylorm1690]

Level 2 (Prof.Dxed) ASD woman here and I've been tiptoeing since I was toddler! I think I mostly do this now to avoid feeling unwanted textures on the floor!

[@katrenacanaday4992]

I'd always wondered why I speak in monotone even when excited- its usually something logic and reasoning based

[@helenmohammed2518]

I got diagnosed this year at 41!

[@BendyLilZebraBabe]

Oh, and you're spot on about the gathering of knowledge and information. I have been called everything from a walking encyclopedia, dictionary, to thesaurus, pretty much all of my life; was even called human computer by some teachers for a period when I was a kid...

[@SanctuaryGoodLife]

Excellent video 😊 the thing with girls / women masking more socially is important, something I started observing in jr high school, the boys with autism traits in my environment especially who were labeled smart or talented were generally included and supported, regardless of quirks and personality traits, while the girls with similar traits were not . They were mostly only treated decently by both adults and kids if they masked, trying to please others. If they didn’t , they were ignored, excluded, bullied, undermined, and again not just by other kids. Some boys were picked on but even most of them were at least given due credit and acknowledgement by some of the people in the school or community, and on their own , not because of who they were associated with. Unlike most girls, especially on the spectrum. And girls with “gifted talented” label tended to get extra bullied unless they were part of a clique, or their parents were part of a local clique. Girls mask for survival anyway in toxic environments, and autistic girls often mask more , for survival.

[@avagoings635]

Ooooh MY GOODNESS! My jaw literally dropped when you explained exactly how I feel when I look someone in the eye. I'm shook ! Was literally trying to Google information about it the other day but couldn't figure out how to explain the feeling .

[@user-pp9tk2ze9v]

Hah. I tiptoe walked through my entire childhood. And flat out refused to wear shoes much of the time. No clue until now that there’s a tribe of toe-walking, light-flicker-seeing, tv-hearing folks like me. Still not self-diagnosing. Just working on figuring myself out. Thanks again for the insight.

[@marlenebutler7233]

I am autistic as an adult. I also raised my autistic transdaughter. Glad a friend sent me this video. Thank you!

[@Better-na-better]

I am Autistic/ADHD It is what it is. I enjoy your videos.

[@PEARLPediatricTherapyPLLC]

Late diagnosed @38 y/o, entrepreneur small business owner, wife, momma of 3. Finding out this info was life changing and affirmed my strengths and gave me a break to relax on the “performing/masking” that was my whole life and I didn’t realize it.

[@lunamay4019]

There are a lot of these things that fit on me, but since I can hold eye contact for a long time (though it makes me uncomfortable, and I tend to 'take breaks' from it by pretending to look off to the side to remember something), and I can hold a conversation well enough, I am not considered autistic by my therapist. I have sensory issues (all senses), I didn't know the separating your food on a plate was a sign of it, but I do that, and I read a lot and am interested in true crime. I also have meltdowns and anxiety and mask often, when I am out and about. I also regularly tip toe walk, but only when home alone, never in places where people can see me. My son, who professionals suspect has a degree of autism, always tip toe walks. He also has a lot of repeated actions he does, and has to complete things before going onto something new (I have the same feeling, I hate stopping in the middle of something). He has sensory issues as well, but not to the degree I have. But since professionals brought it up for him, it just made sense for me that it must be me he has it from. I still feel like I might be autistic. My older brother is autistic, so it is in the family.

[@HollyDixson]

Thank you for this. It really spoke to me as I have every one of these traits. My whole life I felt out of place and I have even been diagnosed with bipolar 20 years ago. I accepted the diagnosis even though it didn't feel completely true to me. Now hearing this video is like I finally feel like I understand myself a lot better all of a sudden. Thank you so much

[@TheDuddelle]

Thanks for bringing up the flickering lights.

[@TheAspieWorld]

Right!?

[@CookieSinner]

I got diagnosed with Autism not long ago. Before I got diagnosed, I had an obsession of researching Autism. Like, spectrums, signs, behavior and stuff like that. It started when a "check if you have Autism" quiz popped up on my Pinterest home page. Obviously, I did it for fun. It said that I'm most likely Autistic. That's when my obsession started. Also the reason why I decided to visit a therapist. I was diagnosed with ADHD, autism, OCD, depression and psychopathic disorder. My jaw was on the floor, because that was unexpected. Well, to me, at least.

[@gaines1119]

Thus was very helpful. I have always been aware that I had certain traits but my mother refused to diagnose me so I struggled majority of my life. Now as an adult I'm trying to navigate life a bit better. Some traits have gotten worse

[@lauramattinglylove]

I think my veteran husband might be autistic. He's been diagnosed with having ADHD, Bipolar and schizophrenic. However, I think he's been misdiagnosed. I think a lot of times, these mental health issues look manifest the same symptoms. Thanks for sharing this information.

[@jeweledthrone2850]

They do! My baby brother has ADHD and I was diagnosed with clinical depression and we have a lot in common.

[@TemplePriestess]

I have not been officially diagnosed. But I resonate with lots of what you have shared… -Flickering light and sensitivity to them -Sensitive to loud noises or repetitive ones -Sensitive to certain colors. Can’t have certain bright paint colors on my walls. Especially bright blue or yellow. -Hate lingering food smells -Meltdowns from being overloaded and stretched too thin. I just curl up in a ball and cry…. Sometimes resulting in anxiety and panic attacks. -My book collection is insane. -Obsessed with all my hobbies and hyper focus upon them until I get bored and move on to the next thing that stirs my passion. I should probably go get a diagnosis.

[@AKayfabe]

I have huge problems with eye contact. I don’t feel like it’s necessary and also I can’t speak if I look in eyes. I forget what I’m saying. I only want to stare into someone’s eyes during intimacy, not during casual situations at all. I don’t talk monotone, but I do talk very quietly because everything sounds extremely loud to me. Including my own voice. I have sensory issues very badly. The only time I use volume is when I’m singing. I am obsessed with true crime also, and I watch interrogations also. and German language and horror films and rats. I love rats. I pretend that my life is a movie and each action is a role. And I also do the avoid thing too. It depends on the situation. When I get home alone, that is when I can be myself, I don’t melt down, because the sensory stuff is exactly what I decide finally. I absorb myself with what I love like metal music or crime videos, instead of having to be anyone for anyone.

[@Lightingale-qr8fy]

I have both, and this is a great and empathic take, since autisim in women isn't really taken seriously. Subscribed! I relate to masking and the hoarding tendencies. For me, it's old first edition books and crafting supplies for pretty much any hobby you can think of. One request I have for future videos (this is the first time I've seen one of yours) is that you don't use the word "females" when referring to humans (girls and women is fine). You were fair in using "males" too, but the term feels derogatory due to how it's used in some online cultures.

[@TheAspieWorld]

Thank you so much for the comment! I hear you! Thanks for the sub x

[@MuffinKat-ve2qe]

Wearing slippers and flip flops indoors reduces so many sensory triggers

[@carocaro1272]

I did not like shoes growing up. And I wanted to feel the cold floor at all times, by walking bearfoot (tiptoe, yes) but also by lying on the floor and literally trying to spend the most of the time there while resting, playing, reading, etc.

[@brianneml2979]

Flip flops not the best for those sensitive to noise.

[@Pais13yCat316]

Birkenstock’s with thick wool socks are a good option instead of slippers in private and public. My feet are so sensitive. Can’t have just any thing touching them.

[@gardeninginthedesert]

I can't stand them. I have to be barefoot indoors and in the garden. I only wear shoes out to be socially acceptable. 😂

[@rowenameyer296]

I was just diagnosed in my sixties and I always walked on my tiptoes as a child. You’re the first person who has mentioned this trait! I wore high heels all through adulthood, not for fashion but because they felt more like walking tiptoe.

[@Mrs.Milkins23]

When I make eye contact I feel like crying… it has happened since I was a child.

[@howareyou857]

Fascinating. My daughter when she was a baby cried if I looked at her but stopped if I looked away.

[@babybatxo47]

me too it’s a deep feeling and actually wanting to cry. so glad i’m not alone ❤

[@askwhateverlol]

It's scary and intense

[@JandorLusk]

Hello. I struggled my whole life inside with anxiety depression and something I could just put my finger on...UNTIL I WATCHED YOUR VIDEO! everything makes complete sense. An extreme life changing epiphany!!!🤝

[@jsmith317]

The light flickering! Yes. I remember dreading certain stores because of those. I'd hide under racks of clothes or just close my eyes to get away from the brain-pounding of the lights. They'd seem to get louder and louder, and I'm not talking about just the sound.

[@Wendymarino]

I’m obsessed with medical series… TBI, 20 years nurse and retired..

[@Wendymarino]

Disabled by a teen texting on the highway… TBI… smoldering ember it stripped me of my identity

[@maryamp1867]

Masking is about breathing, I trained my breathing and self awareness in a clinic specialising in the pain of the nerve systems and I have so much ease to deal with masking. Everything you talk about is just the same in many men too 😅

[@lizacastillo4665]

I KNOW that I have autism because of this video. Thank you so much! 🙏🏽 Now I can go ahead and get diagnosed properly. Thankfully I've already got a therapist and a meds prescriber. I truly wished more people would get help.

[@DetraDearmas]

You nailed me right down to the flickering lights. I thought everyone could see them. Lately, my mask is falling. I can't hang in like I used to. My crashes are getting worse. I obsess watching ncis and criminal minds before I can sleep. Your right, people don't look for it in females. I was always described as weird but gifted. Oh well. That comedian said "there's your sign!"

[@Elinthealien]

Great video! Masking and depression is not a great combo. I've been on sick leave for almost 3 years because of mental illness and overall exhaustion from very simple tasks. It's comforting to feel understood and knowing that I'm not alone in all this!

[@spinningpersonintheworld4767]

Haha watching this as I read about forensic evidence and autopsies because why not 😅 nothing like a good bedtime story.

[@heatherwilliams3748]

a good bedtime story indeed!

[@CaptRennard]

"You've had to have a phone call with somebody.........I know right." I had to pause the video and laugh my ass off for a bit because.........that is so real!!!! That will ruin my day. I've been fighting so many doubts about whether I was or was not on the spectrum, but after this video, I think I can accept that I am, and that is why my life has been so exhausting and hard. I love all of you.

[@kerriniemi9525]

Thank you, i have never had the opportunity to be tested, but alot of what you said was very helpful ✌🌼💞

[@daniellerinkavage3082]

Thank you. This is a very well done explanation. I was never diagnosed, but my mom told me finally as an adult that she figured it out with research that I have Asperger’s - now ASD and I took the adhd text which basically reiterated that they did classify me as borderline add as a kid. It sucks though, I didn’t get the help I needed over the years in school and have struggled a lot. I have had chronic migraines and pressure headaches since 2005 and they will help to spiral into an emotional meltdown. I’m on depression and anxiety meds and when they happens I feel like I can’t be helped and worthless.