Living With DID | Ask An Alter 2024

[@thechickenskeptic]

"Well, I didn't exist, and then I did. So that's a pretty damn good indication." I love Blitzø so much

[@Quizzicalsystem]

literally just came here to type this

[@benbaker2965]

Thank you, everyone, for answering these questions. Was great to see Daniel again. Also, i wanted to especially thank Oz because i know fronting is not his thing.

[@ScurrySquirrel]

Blitzø, we love your bluntness.

[@EVOSYS_YT]

Yees. His snippets were hilarious and also just. Feeling more safe that an introject is being themselves

[@Melodysys.]

possessive vs nonpossessive switches i love it, one of the things we struggle with invalidating ourselves is our switches feel like becoming other people instead of "ah yes. i have left the front and now i am inside and i am eating lunch inside on a log" and for 7:00 our system is polyfrag and we have a lot of trait holders. for example: Jon is a paranoia and anxiety holder, Corinthian has a higher pain tolerance and a lower 'bullshit' (his words) tolerance. the system as a whole has crippling anxiety but if Jon fronts for a long period of time we're going to be in a paranoia episode. Corinthian is our host and ive seen him look at a pretty bad scape on our arm and go "....ouch. thats unfortunate' liKE SIR-

[@froggy-tq6xk]

Whoever edited the video is on point, there were some particularly funny cuts! Special thanks to Oz for being out since that's so uncomfy for him.

[@bucketfan4life]

This is Fishlegs from The Pizza Brigade system. Watching this is SO fascinating! I love hearing what experiences from other systems is like and the parallels between those systems and ours is such a fascinating view. It's been a pleasure hearing from all of you! And yes, I'm the Fishlegs from How To Train Your Dragon. We've been watching a LOT of that stuff lately, both from the movies and the shows and me, along with the Twins, just kind of ended up splitting off and becoming our own thing! ^^

[@j.o.1262]

omg the way you describe other alters having their own energy and the sensation before you guys switch is exactly how we experience it. it's so hard to describe, we usually just say it's a "vibe" but as you were talking about it, i was like ik exactly what you mean!

[@kellahanna-wayne4191]

I totally understand what Daniel was saying about the feeling just before crying, or other similar sensations that bridge the gap between emotion and a physical sensation, and how each alter has a different feeling to them. Sometimes when we're figuring out who is fronting, it's a little bit like holding up different color swatches to a wall until we find the one that matches most closely, except instead of color, it's those physiological sensations.

[@marq6929]

11:20 - We call it an "energy signature" and think of it like an intangible fingerprint sorta. You feel the unique vibes 🤷‍♂️ It is hard to explain

[@olympicsys]

Thanks for answering all these questions! We discovered your channel back before your hiatus, and your journey helped us to discover that we're a system too. This video was a great way for us to look back on our progress too! Thank you for all the time and energy you put in to educating and creating a community

[@jaxfrater8318]

This was amazingly well done guys! It must have taken such a long time to put it together so cohesively.

[@nyssalynn5216]

Before we knew we were a system, we felt incredibly drawn to your videos. Psychology and mental health has always been a big special interest of mine. Idk I just appreciate all the education I've gotten from all of yall, throughout our discovery journey. 💛 much love yall. Also Daniel I laughed out loud at the wattpad comment bc same dude same

[@emmam9954]

Seeing you all again has warmed my soul. Sending good energy to everyone!

[@elliwesishawkins4799]

“I don’t know if I look masc or if a cis teen girl wrote me on wattpad” starting off with bangers this is gonna be so good

[@paradox13]

"we each have our own unique energy" I've always described this as, y'know the feeling when you know someone is standing over your shoulder, or when you feel someone looking at you? just the "sense" that someone is there/looking? it's just like that, only more.. internal.

[@AzraelsCarmen]

I'm glad to hear y'all are doing so well and that Andrew has been supportive! I'd not want to ask how the relationship aspects are going but hearing y'all volunteer what you feel comfortable sharing is nice.

[@youtubeuniversity3638]

Guess if I were to ask a thing, I'd prolly ask som.e question like "Any y'all think the "official definition" of DID (like in the DSM used for diagnosing) could be improved any?"

[@Ayumi669]

Our Stolas missed Blitzo so much we split one. To see them without each other is so weird for us. But we very much work in pairs (always split as twos great I know)

[@TheAzureSystem]

Same

[@CrowGarroway]

I’m so happy your back! We have grown as a system and are about to get back into therapy. We aren’t as alone as when we first found your channel since we have a best friend who is my brother by choice. He and I spend almost our entire day together and we share a room. He is learning about DID and I’ve been showing him some videos from your channel to help explain things when he is doing his researching about DID so he can learn more about us in turn. I’m so glad y’all are posting again. Keep being true to you! To all of you! -Masquerade system

[@LittlePrincess96]

Letting everyone stile them self is awesome ^^ Also, I must imagine it made editing way easier! Haha

[@Patch-lz9yi]

It's good to see Daniel and Oz again! Thanks to all of you for making these videos!

[@keetyalexx]

I love Kim Kim’s style in this! Such a cute, put together look 🥰 Thanks as always for answering questions and sharing yourselves with us!

[@RialVestro]

Oh my gawd, the movie question... I literally had the experience of just watching a movie, trying to describe a scene I saw in the movie literally the same day I just got done watching it, and then being told "What are you talking about? That didn't happen." I had a bunch of other people describing the exact same scene I was talking about but with completely different details. I went back to rewatch that scene and found out they were right and I was literally remembering something that didn't even actually happen. At least not the way I remembered it happening. It was in one of the Transformers movies, and I'm going to remember this even worse now because I haven't seen it recently but I think it was in Age of Extinction or The Last Knight, there's a scene where I thought Bumblebee was in the back of a line of cars and one of the Decepticons shot a tracking device on his rear bumper as they were driving away. But it didn't make sense to me because later in the movie Drift finds the tracking device and removes it but he finds it attached to a completely different location of a completely different vehicle. Where I was corrected is that Bumblebee was actually in the front of that line of cars and the rear bumper was for a regular car that wasn't even a Transformer, it never attached to Bumblebee at all. The vehicle it actually attached to doesn't even look like Bumblebee. Apparently I was just dissociating during the movie and my brain will some times make up shit to fill in gaps in my memory so that I don't notice.

[@didyoujust7810]

Thanks for the update. I cant remember if ive watched your channel before many years ago, but i appreictae the transparency amd honesty. :)

[@youtubeuniversity3638]

I like the editing. Good work.

[@nerdyvalkyrie9230]

Hey Oz and Daniel! Haven't seen y'all in a while! Hope you're doing well

[@Holly-tw6bt]

Thank you all for doing this! As a pretty newly discovered system, we really enjoyed hearing your perspectives on a lot of aspects of day to day life (and we feel so much better about having a shit memory for movies.) Also, one of us kept looking at Daniel's overshirt and being like 'I want one like that.'

[@brigitterolens]

I was just thinking of y'all today! Great to see you!!! ❤😊

[@Senfree]

About EMDR, how were you able to find one that worked? Because I know with DID I need to be careful with EMDR.

[@tlwf.system]

Can’t wait for more of these. I wish we’d seen the questions. We are in a constant state of blendy atm. I’d love to have asked a few questions. One main one about therapy ❤ Love seeing yall back. We missed ya on yt

[@ruralrebeltory7474]

I love hearing from all the alters!!! These are so insightful!!! Thank you for doing these and for promoting self care!!!

[@darkfae420]

amazing to see you all again!! thank you for showing and providing such amazing representation and destigmatization sending light hope and healing from one system to another 💚💜🖤💙💖

[@maggied1709]

Unrelated to video but I wanna say I love your background! (Especially all the monster high dolls!)

[@brinashiloff3439]

It’s nice to see you all again. Hope you’re doing well.

[@h0ctApmoingay]

Thank you for the update

[@alittlespacetime]

Thank you for sharing this. 😊❤

[@KyahTheAuthor]

You definitely would never be forgotten Kim Kim! I always look forward to videos from you. You're a cool person ❤

[@Brooke_Corbyn]

fun video idea, was cool to see everyones answers all at once! id love to try video journalling/answering questions with my own system.

[@enigmaticethos]

EEEEYYYYYY i was wondering when these "ask an alter" episodes would be back!!

[@lydiakies9053]

The "whoosh before you cry" thing!! Yup. I get that.

[@midwinter78]

Does the cat react differently, or have favourites?

[@TheEntropySystem]

We actually answer this in the next one! -Wyn

[@midwinter78]

​@@TheEntropySystemLooking forwards to it!

[@ruralrebeltory7474]

I so want to hear this one!!! I have always wondered how the animals react to each person in your system!!!!

[@parrotdoesasploot2381]

Didn't know you guys also had an Oswald. We discovered an alter named Oswald like last year

[@jessicab7059]

Are there any of you who really don't get along with each other? Or just get annoyed with each other and fight in the inner world? I could see it sometimes maybe being like when siblings or friends fight in a TV show. I've never really fought with anyone or had disagreements with anyone like that so I was curious if anything like that goes on in the inner world. (I'm a singlet but I found out a few months ago someone I'm close to has DID so I try to learn a lot about it.)

[@sleepyote]

It does happen to our system. It can be weird when we have arguments inside when we're with a singlet, because they don't understand what's going on. To them, we just seem quiet and distant.

[@JeniJustJeni]

Anyways nice to see you in my subscriptions

[@DJCosmicLatte]

"...how to cope with overwhelm--" *face full of tail* 😐😑😐😑😐 Perfectly timed kitty lmao

[@KateCantDraw]

YES!!!! THE QNA'S ARE RIGHT FUCK YEA!!! You look great Dan! Aaaa the ears are so cute! Ok the "making self care easier because its taking care of us and not just me" makes so much sense, I'm the exact same way. Can I do stuff to take care of myself, nope, can I do stuff to take care of others, absolutely. "Blitz existing really threw us off"- Oz 2024 "Wyn doesn't have a gender anymore" mood Now I'm really curious to see how everyone walks different. Oz really isn't used to having a body this man is just like "things are touching me and it's WEIRD!" Idk why but when Oz said "At night we sorta keep an eye" I thought he was gonna say like y'all just go around the headspace and see who's there, like "ok it's bedtime time for evening headcount!" Wyn feeling a split happen like"I feel a disturbance in the force." Poor Blitz trying to split off during that week just like "aaaaaaaAAAAA!" "As alters that tend to be more protective, lol can't relate." Blitz being slightly salty about how he was greeted is hilarious, this poor man.

[@TheAzureSystem]

This is really random but one of our littles thinks its very important to say that we have one of the same pig plushies in our room as you guys.

[@tlwf.system]

I’m struggling a lot with EMDR. We have Aphantasia, and wondering if that’s why we are having no progress a year later 😢 feeling very down about EMDR not working. That’s the only thing we can think of. About to bring it up to our psych. But I’m scared she’ll take it personally as it’s her main favourite type of healing. But it’s just not working. I’m scared to lose this psych as she saved our life. But idk what to do! How long did EMDR take for yall to see a difference. We see difference with grounding but nothing else. Our parts won’t even come into the session. Ugh and I’m front stuck blendy. Any advice would help? Just from your experience with therapy and EMDR mainly. ❤ thank you

[@JeniJustJeni]

Are splits usually/always "born" to deal with a problem?

[@cosplaymistake]

No, Sometimes split can even happen for a bunch of different reasons, Sometimes it’s from an external problem sometimes it’s from an internal one sometimes splits just happens

[@castaway2850]

technically there’s always a reason for a split, even if the system doesn’t know what that reason is. it’s usually done in response to new trauma or a stressor that the brain perceives as needing a split to deal with (and sometimes a brain’s perception doesn’t exactly match reality).

[@JeniJustJeni]

@@castaway2850 @cosplaymistake Would a split ever happen in response to some desirable station? Or perhaps what is desirable or undesirable might vary within the system. Wyn seems to view splitting as negative, is this because it represents emotional labor or because it's associated with something negative happening and the existing system was unable to handle it? Like, fusion make Wyn more "typical" so a split feels like they are getting farther from typical? Or some kind of setback? Please understand that I have no opinions regarding a split or fusion in general (although I miss Lito). I'm just trying to understand. I know fusions aren't just absorbed into the system, but rather into specific pats. Is it the same with splits, like a split off of Daniel? Or maybe whoever is in control of the body is the one who splits? It's all so intersecting.

[@TheEntropySystem]

Splits can only happen in response to trauma or extreme stress. It is a coping mechanism that the brain develops in childhood and maintains throughout the life of the system. Splitting isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but it never occurs for happy reasons. -Wyn

[@JeniJustJeni]

@TheEntropySystem thanks for your answer, ❤️ Sorry for misspelling your name. I'll remember for next time because we both have solitary Na

[@pardalote]

Thanks ❤

[@QueerUnstableAnarchist]

Hello all!

[@Appleloucious]

BGM waaay too loud : (

[@TheEntropySystem]

Thank you for the feedback! We’ll make sure to lower the volume in the next one

[@CuriosityRocks]

I’m sorry about what I said on the Doom Patrol video, I was really excited to see what you thought and I felt quite disappointed and angry at your interpretation, I explained things wrong but having said that I do hope you give the rest of the show a chance and do another video when you’ve seen Jane’s whole journey. This video was really interesting and where did you get the hoody with the pierced ears?

[@TheEntropySystem]

Thank you for your sweet and genuine comment. I do want to continue watching Doom Patrol and see how Jane’s story evolves. Many people have told me it gets much better since I posted that video. We got the hoodie on one of our trips to Japan! It was one of the only things that fit us in Harajuku haha -Wyn

[@SoTenshi]

hi i'm kevin and i want to pet the kitty. sometimes when im out i get to pet our kitty. We tried EMDR....yeah it didn't go the way our therapist hoped it would. Hi from Kevin and Sam!

[@GuyBelievesInWorldPeace]

That was so interesting! I am also a Dissociative Plural System and I also have autism, which actually, makes my memory VERY VERY STRONG, stoopedly, undeniably, sometimes distressing, exceptional memory (I think we also practice lots of daily and momentary reflection, that helps a lot with integrating memories in a way that no one is too distressed !), it wasn’t always that way though - when I was a teen/going through 💩, my memory had lots of wholes, I would loose huge amounts of information- days and weeks, I also live in a war zone atm, and I have been experiencing lots more Memory dysfunction, yet still, somehow, my brain remembers SO MUCH, it is not always so good, often times, it makes me suffer a lot. I wonder if there are other Plurals out there that have an exceptional memory, even though they do definitely have lots of dissociative symptoms.

[@kinashy8863]

I'm curious if the whole system have autism or just one or a few alters. You don't have to answer that if you don't want or don't know

[@GuyBelievesInWorldPeace]

@@kinashy8863 such a good question, I am still yet to have a formal diagnosis, so I grew up habing one alter hyper aware of their autism (I am talking young young ages, 5 or so), since that alter has experienced a lot of discrimination and ableism, they were the “autistic” alter for lonnnng. However, almost in the way that Wyn described becoming gender fluid, the more we got educated both on ourselves and what autism is, what masking is, and how PTSD (and specifically Devlopmental trauma, Dissociative disorders) correspond, and how often girls on the spectrum and other “lower support need” folks also develop high high masking levels, and how it also affects the sense of self, slowly, all of me became autistic, even the Alters who were “neurotypical” in the way they communicate, has discovered their autistic identity. Different alters have different abilities though, sometimes. But the more I grow, the more we get together, the more the Autistic identity becomes more accessible and accepted by different alters.

[@GuyBelievesInWorldPeace]

I mean, I only truly discovered myself at age 22ish, as a trans I can describe it very similarly, I always were, and parts in me always knew and were very very aware and much more educated about Autism in general yet kept is in secret, not just from my close circle, but also from myself, my other Alters, and on.

[@GuyBelievesInWorldPeace]

I am sharing this because I actually know multiple folks irl who experienced similar stuff, and I know how I really did feel validated, when I heard some people had just a specific Alter taking care of the autistic identity, and how others developed high masking mechanism, and how much it impacted their mental health, and often trauma disorders. The Rates of trauma in the Autistic Community is significant, its not wonder how different folks experience unique Self-Awareness. Even if you were to have an Autistic alter, just one, it is very likely, many folks who experienced Developmental Adversity may relate to the autistic experience in their own unique way, at the end of the day, neurodivergent individuals have unique experiences.

[@GuyBelievesInWorldPeace]

But I do also advise getting involved with the autistic community, never tell yourself you are or are not autistic if you relate to autistic experiences, if you feel like a core experience of yours is Autistic Related, you may as well be, and I will suggest to find a way to reclaim your autistic experience and identity if you have it. No one can take it away from you, even if they claim that they know you and that you don’t seem autistic enough to them, they may as well be uneducated or under denial. Never let stereotypes. Keep you down.

[@xxbean._jellyxx5105]

Do you and your husband have issues with communication and emotional support or is everything okay all the time my wife and I have issues with communication and emotional support please help

[@themoonlit-wolf3773]

*hacks up our lungs laughing at a blitz joke* /pos

[@nerudaad]

Interesting! Thank you for your answers ❤

[@Hayden-rc1ru]

You have a Blitzø alter now? I feel like I wanna say that's unfortunate, but that's not nice. Awkward then, isn't awkward? Or it's me. Yeah, I think it's _me._ I don't know why a Blitzø alter of all things is suddenly making me feel this way. I do know what fictives are, and why they exist, etc. just to be clear, and I am not judging. I think I just never fully realized that you could absolutely get a fictive from _any_ piece of fiction. Even if, intellectually, I did understand.

[@jessicab7059]

They made a video to introduce him before and if I remember correctly said he became one of their alters after they watched the first episode of the show he's from.

[@Hayden-rc1ru]

@@jessicab7059 The first one? Well, _that's_ unfortunate. Hey, let's start a new show. _SPLIT A FICTIVE_

[@TheEntropySystem]

After DID is developed in childhood, the brain maintains the ability to split for the rest of the system’s life. We often cling to a specific tv show to help us get through a very difficult time and this time our brain used that as a springboard to create a new alter. It’s not awkward. We appreciate Blitzø and everything he’s brought to our system balance. -Wyn

[@sleepyote]

You can't choose fictives, they just happen. You seem ignorant and ableist.

[@sleepyote]

What's unfortunate is that you think you can police what fictives systems have. IT'S NOT A CHOICE.

[@kellsbabey]

its always nice to hear from yall 🫶 its great to see yall doing these kinds of videos again!!! if i could ask a question; how do people irl notice ur switches? ive experienced plenty of good And bad experiences with those who i told abt my situation, nd im thankful that nowadays my current partner is Very aware of my situation, nd it leaves for some instances that i dont even realize i switch, but HE does lmao

[@TheEntropySystem]

People who know us really well hear the difference in our tone of voice or see our change in posture and know who is out. Most people can’t tell at all. -Wyn

[@3six9_eye_am]

I just can't with the costume changes. Is it 2020 again?

[@TheEntropySystem]

1. Each of these parts were filmed on different days so of course we’re all wearing different clothes. Do you wear the same outfit or even the same style every day? 2. We’ve discussed many times on our channel that KZbin is one of the few safe places we are able to truly express ourselves and not hide our differences. If that makes you uncomfortable there are plenty of other channels you could watch instead.