This Is Me | ORIGINAL SONG About AUTISM | Holly Allison

Hey guys. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today's video is very special to me. I made a new years resolution this year to write more songs, and within the first 2 weeks I had written 4!! (No idea where they came from lol) This was the first of the 4, and It's a song about my life with autism and mental health - not the whole story, just a glimpse, as the whole story would need a whole film 😂
Thanks to Cliff for playing the guitar for it (The drums are me banging on a chair with my hands for 4 minutes lol)! This song is very special to me (hence why I wanted to upload it on my birthday!), so it would mean the world if you could share it with everyone you know!
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My Autism Awareness video 2022: kzbin.info/www/bejne/d5ubkGudja1kjJo
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LYRICS:
You don't know what it's like to feel so small
In a world where all is new, it's not red and blue
You can't see what it's like for me to have
A hundred billion thoughts go round, I can't stop the sound
I see a bird flying by, I'm wandering off in my mind
I'm singing that piece of music that's in my head all the time
I'm thinking what's 1 + 1 and, that time we were stuck in quicksand
And I don't know what's going on, cause all I know
The world's a scary place, and sometimes I can't face it
And I might seem alright, but inside I'm faking
Cause I just need a little time, just let me be
But I wouldn't change it for the world, this is me
Every time that I go to wave goodbye
I'm stepping into the unknown, I feel all alone
I keep to me all of my anxiety
Cause I'm tryna fit right in, but I won't win, cause
What if I mess up? I think I'm not good enough
I'm indecisive I am trying all I can to not give up
I get overwhelmed, thinking I don't belong in this world
But I keep it to myself, cause all I know
The world's a scary place, and sometimes I can't face it
And I might seem alright, but inside I'm faking
Cause I just need a little time, just let me be
But I wouldn't change it for the world, this is me
Cause all I know, and all I see
Is I can't let this defeat me
Cause all I am, and all I'll be
Is good enough for me
The world's a scary place, but I will try and face it
And I will make mistakes, but I'll learn to embrace it
Cause I just need a little time, just let me be
But I wouldn't change it for the world
I wouldn't change it for the world
This is me!

[@haannguyen4402]

“All that I know and all I see is I can’t let this defeat me” my favorite line

[@raea3588]

Thank you for being you and for validating me ❤ This is amazing! God Bless 🙏

[@Disneyinwakeconc]

Your are really gifted you have beautiful voice

[@EnricoPetersen]

Beautifull! Beautifull! Beautifull! You are a shining star! ⭐

[@HAft26]

Your song is amazing. I have both ADHD and Autism high functioning, ... I will be sharing this Video across all platforms

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you so much!!

[@spmoran4703]

I dedicate this song to a really lovely perfectly imperfect man . Who has this disability. You are so loved Eric . ❤

[@truthonly313]

You have a beautiful voice❤

[@lisakent1979]

Holly you are truly inspirational. I love how you are leading the churches together choir so professionally keep being you we love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@sharonmortimer3843]

You did an absolutely amazing thing with your song. I believe that you probably gave people like you hope, seeing all that you can do. Thank you for sharing this.

[@Keram-chan]

i have no idea how many times i have listened to this song already, but i know for sure i will listen to it "few" more times 🙃

[@primallunatic6554]

This song always helps when im struggling with myself thank you so much

[@verenawalder7430]

That is absolutely beautiful dear Holly and moved us both to tears. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful song, so perfectly sung, expressing your innermost feelings with such honesty. Your voice is an absolute joy to listen to and we could hear every word. Well done! X X X X

[@BlackMoonCove]

Wow, what a fantastic song and so well sung - your voice is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability and talent with the world, you're helping others to do the same. Sending love 💜💜

[@LaurenRichardi]

This is such a great song and you have a beautiful voice!!! This song really shows who you really are. I can relate sometimes, because I have autism too. Keep up the good work!

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you so much! You are amazing🥰

[@LaurenRichardi]

@@HollywoodHRA Aww thank you so much! You're amazing too!🥰

[@marianadave5392]

hello I am autistic too, your song made me cry, very beautifull. I am female, age 42. Had a very hard time until my diagnosis 6 months ago

[@HollywoodHRA]

Aw glad it helped 😊

[@lauracotter-bradley1980]

I have autism it hard for me I do understand but I don’t understand why people Jude me

[@bjrolston]

WOW. I love this. You are amazing.

[@wearesolarfarmers]

I like this song :) you have a great voice, ad speak th truth

[@williamvanderpuye9024]

Can't wait for the première to start

[@caitrinehellenga4434]

Thank you. I smiled at the bird flying. This was very moving.

[@Keram-chan]

🔥

[@jessikay8219]

I love this!!! absolutely amazing!!!! also happy birthday xxxxx

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you 💛💛

[@michelletuddenham]

What a beautiful song 🎵 🎶

[@angels7094]

Holly this is Beautiful and you Girl are Perfect 😇♥️

[@dominicnickel8724]

This is such a great song!

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you!! 🥰

[@williamvanderpuye9024]

👏👏👏👏👏

[@millysalsbury6798]

Holly this is so beautifully written, thank you for sharing a part of your world xxx

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thanks Milly xx

[@emmyp131]

Amazing, thank you so much for this xx

[@RhegedRideOuts]

Outstanding

[@robinpullman1488]

Loved it! ❤

[@palomavonwood3423]

🧡I love this

[@Scientific_me.]

Just awesome! I love ittt

[@stevebaker4812]

I feel this... so how are ya.. 2 years later kid?

[@phantomvampyressshadowkiss4690]

What a wonderful song. You sing so pretty. My 3 yr old just got diagnosed with severe autism in Sept 2022. She doesn't talk only grunts but says numbers and letters. Thank you for being open about yourself. One of my daughters favorite colors is also yellow

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you so much!! 💛 Yellow is awesome! 😆

[@fredwolfy3]

hello holly i’m freddie wolfman your song is beautiful i have williams syndrome this resonates with me a lot i get anxiety and sometimes feel like i do not belong.

[@NevaehZylstra]

Hi I'm autistic and I have hard times in my life this song made me tear up

[@HollywoodHRA]

You are amazing - keep going!! 💛

[@RyanZacharko]

I’m gonna use this to my hazbin hotel x autistic reader story

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thanks so much! 🥰

[@RyanZacharko]

@@HollywoodHRAanytime lass, and I already posted my new chapter on Wattpad with this song at the end.

[@Athenasfairygarden]

I love this you are so talented!! I wish I had the money to get tested for autism doctors keep telling me I most likely am autistic and I have basically all of the signs but it’s so much money to be tested formally

[@HollywoodHRA]

Thank you so much!! 💛 I really hope and pray that you are able to get tested as it opens you up to so much more help! But a lot of places will accommodate for you even without a diagnosis! Love and hugs 🥰

[@Mixleplix]

Me and my autistic 14 yr old daughter just came across your video and she has now added it to her phone and loves it and brings her smiles ty so much very well done amazing voice thank u

[@HollywoodHRA]

Aw thanks so much that means a lot! Glad it makes her smile😊

[@rachelparco751]

This song is beautiful! Holly, you inspire me. I would love to perform this song. Do you have sheet music for sale or is there a way I can get your permission for it?

[@HollywoodHRA]

I don’t have sheet music but I might make some for it! I’ll keep you posted 😊

[@KmNry]

But you don’t mess up Holly and at LEAST you do all the things you put your mind to do ! Tbh I have all those feelings too!

[@haannguyen4402]

I’m also an autistic female (I’m from the US)