THIS IS THE HARDEST VLOG I HAVE EVER MADE.... | BRIAN BARCZYK

[@BrianBarczyk]

Good Morning all... This was by far the hardest vlog I have ever filmed. I wasn't sure I should share my issues with you guys. I know so many want to have positive and uplifting vlogs. Its something I believe in and I was scared to share my struggles. But I also thought that it was important to be real with you guys as well as hopefully help others that are struggling. Mental health is not something we should bee ashamed of, we should be able to talk about it and we should be able to help each other. Also, I want to show that even struggling with anxiety and having such a hard time you can still achieve things that are your dreams. I know I will get better.. It will take time to feel as good as I want, but I know I will get there. I want to share the journey to inspire others that are dealing with similar issues. You guys all mean so much to me and I want all of us to find happiness and inner peace. I hope you will not judge me for being honest and sharing these issues with you. I love you all and I'm wishing you the best day possible. Brian

[@leahellis1246]

So proud of you my friend keep being amazing Brian

[@eliassuorsa9838]

You mean the world to me Brian, I hope you get over the anxiety really soon! I love everything you do!

[@wolfqueen140]

Good morning Brian 🌞 and crew

[@Reyrey2007]

Brian we all love you!

[@Anna94Esdr]

You're the best Brian 💗🐍 I could never breed reptiles better than you ☀️💗

[@CharleeRed]

I found this video in your final days of life. But you did get better mentally. You made it out of this, and even almost made it to see your new facility, the LegaSea, open to the public. I am so proud of you, Brian. Thank you for being such an inspiration to me, and helping me get over my fear of snakes and learn to love them.

[@Grays-Wild-Reptiles]

I've loved reptiles since i was little and i even watched his first video and i cried when i found out about Brian we love you man fly high man goodbye.

[@upnorthvlogs]

I didn’t find it until it’s final days as well 🙏

[@TombBloom13]

As someone who suffers from an anxiety disorder and PTSD, I love seeing influencers use their platform. Talking about it helps others recognize they aren’t alone. Thank you for opening up.

[@BrianBarczyk]

We will get better.. I know we will

[@invisiblecar]

Stay Strong Emily and reach out if you’re feeling overwhelmed 😘

[@invisiblecar]

I’ve been helping my partner going through a rough time as well and we found that breathing exercises have been helping. Wish you feel better soon x

[@reptilegamerplayz5297]

Brian Barczyk we all care about you. Your my daily joy because I care about you.

[@reetakumari1768]

@@BrianBarczyk you will 100%..... WE ARE WITH YOU

[@Pi2.718]

Dear Brian, I am so sorry this is no longer the hardest vlog you have ever done … We love you, man ❤ ❤❤

[@MrMoslof]

"Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about" This is my all-time favorite quote. Keep fighting for what you want man! I appreciate everything you have made/do!

[@yoboyandrew7208]

Yes that is true vary

[@christopherknutsen8684]

I love this quote.

[@andrewsanchez9360]

Its actually “We’re all fighting battles no one knows about ..” heard it over 2 years ago and it’s my favorite quote of all time .

[@MrMoslof]

@@andrewsanchez9360 not true but okay

[@MrMoslof]

@@andrewsanchez9360 different quote

[@dayasingh589]

Brian YOU ARE NOT ALONE I’ve been going through anxiety since I was 13 now I’m 18 and I still have moments when I don’t wanna get out of bed but your videos really helped me. Your positive energy really puts a smile on my face so just wanna say we love you and WE WILL stand with you

[@juliettemedina1358]

I feel tbis

[@justuraveragenobody3322]

Same except I'm 12 and have felt either it and depression since I was 5

[@daddywaddykins]

Me too!!

[@MalcolmCrabbe]

Brian, that took guts... to open up like that in public. Anxiety and Depression can get you anytime in your life, surrounded by friends but so alone. Two year ago I was at a railway station waiting for a train to come and end my pain.... I'm still here... with time you too will get better....

[@kathiegemmell7319]

Early this year I wanted to walk in front of a train. Instead I walked into a Psych ward where I realized for me "death by train" means I'm totally overwhelmed emotionally. My daughter attempted suicide at 13- I never want to inflict that survivor pain on anyone but yet....there I was. Keep talking, it helps. THX

[@jakefitzgerald8541]

I’ll be here for him

[@CharleeRed]

i suffer with anxiety and depression too. and i was in a rough spot during the pandemic as well. i wish i had found this earlier. but I'm glad I've found it today. thank you, Brian.

[@BingeWorthit]

Hey, how are you doing? Imagine the following scenario; you’re going through your life, depressed and anxious, if you know you would die in 3 years, we would not be like this… imagine if Mr. Brian knew.. these bad days would never come.. this is a life lesson for all of us.

[@harryheywood3466]

Huge respect. This affects so many people. You are a great inspiration, keep up the good work, we’re all here for you.

[@owinner8]

ya

[@TobyTW]

You're truly inspiring buddy, take it day by day, I also wasn't able to take medication but talking to my councillors, friends and family got me through it. Continue to share, the more you talk the less it sits on your shoulders. It's always easier to carry something with more people helping you. I PRAY YOU'RE READING THIS BRIAN. My councillors said this to me and it's stuck: "keeping it shut away, will ruin you. Sharing it to the masses, will make you." Real men cry. It's OK to cry. Please continue to share this journey, the more you get out will make your life easier and, just know the entire following you have is here for you. You've got this mate, it's not a sprint it's a marathon and as a previous sufferer I know how tough of a marathon it is. BUT there is light at the end of the tunnel. WE LOVE YOU, WE CHERISH YOU, WE BELIVE IN YOU, WE STAND WITH YOU AND WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. ❤️❤️.

[@justinkerr1612]

I hear you, I struggle with PTSD, severe anxiety, severe depression along with a couple other mental health issues. It got so bad that I hospitalized myself to prevent committing suicide. One thing that my psychiatrist said was if taking it day by day is hard, then try hour by hour, 30 minutes at a time, or whatever increment works. I fight this battle every day, and I pray that you come through this to bright sky and happiness. Me and my family will pray for you and yours. Stay strong and keep your head up. It takes a truly strong individual to even admit they struggle with mental illness, and stronger still to try and do something about it. You are a roll model

[@Earth_ch215]

I love how even though he’s sad and in pain he’s still smiling

[@myfriendbradd8019]

But he’s not…

[@jsharps1000]

yeah I also love fake behaviour especially from entertainers(youtubers to be specific). Like I hate real vlogs ya know. All those real emotions i tune into vlogs to see people acting not being real.

[@AngryBaldCat]

Hang in there Brian. There are so many people out there, myself included, that deal with Anxiety and Depression, and we're all rooting for you.

[@kikukina]

Sending hugs and positive energy and thoughts. Mental health is a scary thing. Your vlogs helped me through my anxiety and depression and suicidal thoughts back in the fall of 2018 into 2019 and I'm so thankful for that. You are amazing and we all love you, Brian.

[@ericpowers5017]

That is true mental health is scary

[@felicitypaterson3139]

It takes a real man to show his emotions like you just did Brian. Virtual hugs coming your way from Australia and from someone who also struggles with depression. It’s tough and I feel your pain ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@corinaswafford6394]

I couldn't have said it any better

[@spoolfishing582]

Love from Australia qld

[@D9K·̊0850]

The "real man" phrase is outdated, how about a real person instead? 😁

[@boarhatfisher9701]

@@D9K·̊0850 real man isn't outdated, the term real man is describing how a man who usually hides his feeling like most men do come out the closest and let it out so others know what's going on.

[@faithnaidoo7647]

Brian.Please do not apologize for your deep suffering.You are so honest and brave.I feel your pain.60 years of suffering like you.I promise you,you we are stronger than you realize.Hang in there.Be kind to yourself.You only humans Learn as much as you can about your illness.Knowledge is power.Stay strong Brian.Will keep you in my prayers.!!!!!!!

[@John--]

I understand where you're coming from Brian. I suffer from awful anxiety too, as well as PTSD. I had a really bad episode for several months recently and watching your vlog every morning helped me get through it. You've always helped me stay positive. We all love you and love your animals and your reptarium! I've been watching since it was only SnakeBytes and I'll keep watching as long as you keep going. Can't wait to meet you in person, it's a dream of mine!

[@pamelaflirtyskunk7698]

Same here John. These videos REALLY help when I'm in a bad place. I have PTSD and anxiety. Panic attacks are absolutely DEBILITATING. I'm extremely stressed right now and it IS related to COVID-19. My husband was furloughed, even though I'm an essential worker, I've lost tons of hours. It's causing so much stress for us. If I didn't have a super supportive husband, I'd be so much worse and would be debilitated. I'm on medication for depression/anxiety, but it just isn't always enough. I hate taking "rescue" anxiety meds but sometimes it's the only thing that breaks the cycle. Sorry you deal with the same. It's hard. I wish others would understand how debilitating it can be at times. Hope you are doing better. I watch the vlogs all the time, so reach out if you ever need to talk!

[@vanessavieux7283]

I understand

[@Mc4King]

Try mdma.

[@pamelaflirtyskunk7698]

@@Mc4King Does is really help?

[@karlrogers7317]

When I was in my cancer battle, I lived the motto “ Be kind to everyone you meet because you never know what they are dealing with.” Outwardly, I looked normal but through treatment, I was a mess. To this day, I can slip into dark days but, Brian, rest, focus on you - especially what you love! I am here, I was you, and I am you! Together, we can all work through this. You and us. ❤️🙏❤️

[@davidrussell8556]

Karl Rogers this right here 💯🙏

[@davidrussell8556]

I’m assuming by this comment you’re in remission and if so congratulations bro 💯

[@karlrogers7317]

David, thankfully, yes. Still waiting to hit the five year mark.

[@nuggettheboxer9556]

God gives his hardest battles to his toughest warriors. Stay strong brother! I will keep you, and anyone going through something similar, in my prayers. God bless you all 🙏

[@bluehearthorse]

I am so glad that you shared your story with all of us Brian. I have suffered with depression since I was about 8 years old. I am now 60. You just find a way to get through those bad days and then you will hit those good days that help you to carry on. I love your honesty and people like you help people like me know that we are not alone with these feelings. Stay strong and stay safe. Know that we all love you and what you do for all the animals we love.

[@sparkdrive2900]

Dont worry bro, you will suffer no more in 10 years.

[@trishbowen6270]

Brian my 11 yr old son looks up to you so much, you've taught him so much with these videos, please don't ever give up, reach out, your a beautiful soul that deserves to be here 💖

[@NateR-pi5ss]

Do some research about him he does bad things

[@barbaracampbell9231]

@@NateR-pi5ss I looked him up and I see what you mean by he is a bad person.

[@NateR-pi5ss]

Barbara Campbell yh

[@dailycringe8835]

I believe that he’s a good person

[@sethgelven187]

Both of you shut up you

[@skylerrowell9406]

I have depression and a little anxiety and we can get thought it together and Brian I’ll pray for you

[@dumbfuksproductions1026]

Well yea I would too if I liked the cowboys

[@dumbfuksproductions1026]

I’m kidding stay strong

[@ProdXash]

ICE_natties ur going to hell😭👎🏾💀

[@wellokay4953]

What’s praying going to do 😂

[@davinci_9032]

I have anxiety as well as depression! You’re not alone Brian! We can go through it together

[@lukeszczesny2007]

The worst part about anxiety and depression is that it doesn’t care who you are, what you do, or what you have in life.

[@maryjo831]

I am just finishing this video. I started it and some reason didn't finish it. It was during this time he kept me going. We cried together and laughed in the same vlogs. I never personally met him, but I know who Brian Barczyk is. I will never stop supporting their dream.

[@corylgray]

*whew* 😢😢😢 Dude, this was a great moment. So glad that you felt comfortable enough to share your feelings with the vlog. I pray that this anxiety will pass quickly, and it won’t return. Wishing nothing but the best for you, and thank you for sharing. This is going to help you, and I’m certain that this will help multiple people as well.

[@america1st964]

THAT took a lot of strength to say. GOD SPEED. GOD BLESS. Your actually helping so many by speaking about it !!

[@jessicahanson2409]

Anxiety and depression isn’t anything to be ashamed of or scared to share or talk about. It affects so many people and sometimes one person is what it takes for someone else to start talking and dealing with what’s going on. I had horrible depression and I still deal with it, and anxiety, but being able to know when you just need a step back and a break is half the battle. Don’t be embarrassed, because there are people who watch you faithfully (myself included) who share in your struggle with you, and who can relate to what you’re going through. Hang in there, and take care of you! That’s the most important thing....self care. Do something for you that you enjoy ❤️

[@shadowcat6567]

Yes, talking is good and no one should have to apologize for having feelings; they are what they are *anaconda hugs all around*

[@setaran.9457]

I’m just now seeing this video two years after it was posted and I want you to know it impacted me on a level I can’t describe. Thank you for your openness. Your strength to persevere no matter what spoke volumes and gave me the nudge I needed. I love your videos. I hope yo be able to come to the reptarium one day! 🙏🏽

[@ThatsWet]

I hate to see him like this I use to love watching him as a kid , get better Bryan your really the 🐐

[@DarkAngel-oc4mb]

Let's just pray for him let God be with him

[@queentita2063]

why my heart so hurt to see Bryan so emotion ☺️🙏❤️❤️❤️

[@coolkid-ex2cv]

He is amazing

[@Kira-cm8zj]

Same I hate seeing you like this u gotta get better

[@troygross5503]

I’ve watch this guy for years and I’ve never seen him like this before

[@CG_GamingChannel]

So badly I wanna hug Brian and just comfort him, I've never seen him like this since his dog got ill

[@sandyc6569]

same

[@MostFurball]

Same here too

[@Anaelien]

I paused the vlog to put in my earbuds... I didn't want to miss a word.

[@Joshua-zn4fe]

3 years ago this video saved my life. My anxiety and depression caused me to try to end it all, watching this video was crazy because I was thinking bad thoughts at the time. This video opened my eyes in a way no one will ever understand. Thank you Brian for sharing your life. R.I.P.

[@charleswashington9023]

Brian....I'm in management at my job and I had one of my team members come to me about seeking help for depression and anxiety. He said he doesn't "believe" in either so I asked him if he believed in stress and he said yes. I said well then he should believe is depression and anxiety if he believes stress is real. I have been open with all my coworkers about my struggles and my treatment...meds, therapist, prayer. He said he would have never imagined one of the most respected employees with the company had the type of struggles I have. I told him it's no shame in it and treatment will help. Like most males, I initially struggled with accepting help but once I did my life changed completely. Happiness, wellness and peice of mind are essential for enjoying life. It makes me proud to see others sharing their struggles publicly and not being ashamed. Stay safe and stay healthy. I'm a fish and turtle (sliders) guy but you really have me considering a ball python. Thanks for your positivity!👍🏽

[@frienddragon7339]

Everyone has their scars, for me it’s severe depression. Mental illness is a war and every day you go through is a battle, so everyday you continue, you win one and you keep going until the war is done and you can live in peace again. So keep going until all is well again.

[@gabrielauto4682]

this is so true ❤️

[@NightshadeWonderland]

You have no idea how much I needed this. You made me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you.

[@carolbooth538]

aww bless you xx

[@jonramboat9680]

I know it’s a minute too late but thank you for sharing this. My son has debilitating anxiety and for a long time I’ve not known how to deal with it. I’m a combat veteran and a former police officer and I suppose I’ve become callous to many things over the years but this is opening my eyes and hopefully will help me change to make a difference in his life. I’m ashamed I didn’t realize things sooner but seeing someone like you talking about this has really made a difference. Thank you for that.

[@sacredswan706]

I struggle with severe anxiety and depression and you help me everyday! We are here for you!

[@jasonmcphee4627]

Stay strong alwaya

[@davetillery7161]

Same

[@AJ-yu9zn]

Same

[@Ethan-qp2sq]

Can we just take a second way from this crazy time to admire how amazing this human is , sharing what he is sharing when so many of us understand how hard it is and still trying to be here for us all, we love you Brian

[@TravE85]

I’ll say a prayer for you brother, never give up

[@missdeboer6366]

I have complex ptsd, severe depression and anxiety. I can feel your pain and sadness. Know you are not alone. You are worthy. You deserve a beautiful, peaceful and rewarding life. ❤️

[@edwingarcia3413]

I'm 18 year old. I have been going through therapy and receabed medication. I have been diagnosed with generelized anxiety and agoraphobia. I have been stroggling to even comunicate with my family since it sometimes seems as if when I try to explain my situation, I'm only hitting the shallow water when I have a whole sea in front of me. I'm scared of what's to come in my life. You are a total hero to me. I just wished that I could show you have grateful I am for the smile you always put on my face. I hope you can get through this and I know I'm not the only person wishing for ur health.

[@N8SAY]

It's because when they aren't going through it, it is hard for them to fully understand. Keep talking to them though. You don't want to stuff that down and let it fester. Find others going through the same and talk about it. And remember, when you are young, your mind is weaker but time will heal you. Its going to be rough but you will get through it. Hang in there man.

[@bmxguy421]

edwin, what it comes down to is are you going to let your disorder control and run your life, or are you going to take hold and try to conquer your fears.

[@dafucksgoinon]

Dude I feel the exact same way... like the people who should be closest to me I can’t even talk to, I almost despise them for being close to me... and I just can’t open up to them

[@Pouncerthecat]

It's devastating. But it gets better and better with time, despite your in the moment agony. I was just like you at your age,and I can assure you that you have wonderful things in store for you. One of them is the happiness you'll feel just knowing it's gone. It's something no one else can ever know. It's the other side of the coin. No one will understand that either but who cares. Your's is a personal journey. Enjoy it.

[@raazberri3636]

we are here for you Brian, take a rest, know that we will be with you every step. We LOVE you!!!

[@gabbyg.3244]

Yes

[@БруноАйКираМиаБела]

🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞 We all want you to get better brian

[@calvinmerrell]

My grandfather once told me, “Where ever you go, there you are.” I have reflected on those words many times. I have come to believe that truly knowing where you are gives you the base to move to the next place. Brian, you with this post know where you are. You will be able to move to the next place, and the place after that. I believe in you.

[@patriciamorton1068]

Thank you. That's a wonderful way to put it into perspective! I can hear my grandmother saying that now, too, and kind of understanding her meaning but not fully until now. Ah, how our elders were so smart...

[@jorgejs2523]

Qué

[@laztKING75]

I NEEDED to hear this today. I’ve been struggling with my anxiety and depression the last few weeks. I can feel the realness in your voice. It hurts me seeing ppl suffer from mental health issues. Love you brother 💜 stay strong we can over come this 1 Day atta time.

[@carlawilson6917]

Thankyou💜

[@batmanjustbatman2342]

Brian, you shouldn’t ever apologize for being real. You’re only human like the rest of us. I know you can get through this bump in the road. You are so so strong even if it doesn’t seem like it now. Your videos have always made rough times for me a bit better because your enthusiasm, energy, happiness and passion for what you do and love just radiate like the sun! Always remember you’re an amazing person!! Love ya! Stay strong! The lockdown has been so hard on everyone, the loneliness is overwhelming but you know what, we will all get through it and it will be okay!

[@mayrondebijl7658]

Ya

[@prathambharti8080]

True

[@sharonj.reeves1630]

True

[@jessicahanson2409]

Exactly 😊😊

[@cadenbruhn1255]

This is amazingly beautiful and true

[@soundlysouth2962]

9 months ago, and you being transparent about this is now, STILL bearing fruit.... because I'm praying for you. I WILL CONTINUE to pray for you. It's been a HECK of a year.... I pray that God's peace blankets every feeling and courses through your veins. You are not alone !

[@carebear-fox]

Never apologise for doing something as brave as opening up such a vunerable side of yourself.

[@splotchy5935]

I know this video was from over a year ago, I appreciate Brian saying this. I have severe depression, severe anxiety, and PTSD all diagnosed. I also love reptiles and they help me get away from reality . Always work hard and be happy with what you do Brian!

[@sheainfinitypaints9533]

I spent 3 years in a deep depression after my mom passed. There was days I truly didn't want to go on. I'm now happy and doing what I love, owning snakes because of you. Your positive attitude helped me more than you know so your in my thoughts. I'm sorry you're going through this but we are all here for you. We love you

[@cathy-annemannix8898]

Sending you lots of love and hugs XxXxXxXxXx

[@ejhbeauty_8221]

That was the bravest thing to do, when you feel this way acknowledging that you are ill and accepting help is the first step to recovery. Super proud of you! I suffer with anxiety and extreme depression and its so tough, ive been on this journey for about 5 years now, and I'm still struggling, your outlook on life is inspiring and I hope you get through this ASAP ❤ sending positivity from the UK 🇬🇧 ❤

[@irisokapal]

i havent watched yet but im scared. edit: i went through to find it. we love you so so so much, bryan. nobody is perfect, and sometimes even though we have everything we want we still aren’t happy. i’m with you here! i love how honest you are and you keep up a brave face, but let your emotions out. whether that’s making vlogs dedicated to you venting, or whatever. we will support you no matter what. just know how many people you have made happy, and i mean genuinely happy. like me! i met you at scott smiths. i wouldn’t shut up about it for weeks i think my mom got annoyed. again, we love you.

[@bvnnyteeth]

I suffered with anxiety since I was eighteen. And it can become so debilitating and everyone will just tell me “nothings wrong everything’s fine” and no one understands it. I’m just seeing this video amongst watching all your other videos. And I didn’t realize we shared something. My anxiety gets so bad that I cannot get out of bed or I’ll obsess over illness or being sick. It can really put you under sometimes and most people think anxiety is something so trivial but it’s not. I’ve had to put myself to sleep so many times to just stop my mind from going. We love you Brian, I love you Brian. Everything you’ve done has had such an impact on me and the way I used to fear certain animals to now wanting to tattoo these animals on me. You’re so strong and brave through everything you have changed so many lives. And helped so many people and coworkers(friends) accomplish or start their dream because YOU BELIEVED IN THEM when probably no one else did. And I can’t even believe there’s people out here who would think it’s good to see you suffer. You are one of the KINDEST SUPPORTIVE LOVING CARING GENUINE KZbinrs I’ve ever seen. I just wanted you to know that I too suffer with anxiety and I know what it’s like and YOU ARENT CRAZY or WRONG to have ever felt this way. I learned when I had anxiety it usually was something going on with my health or stress. You have always been so go go go go so I can see stress being a BIG CAUSE of anxiety. Anyways thank you for being such an amazing human being through your lifetime. I love you Brian!

[@elenasharkey7263]

"In the darkest time hope is somthing you give yourself" - uncle Iroh As long as you have that hope and that determination you can get through anything. It's ok to be not ok . I love that you put this out in the open in a world where mental health is a closed and touchy topic .

[@mongoosejay85]

"It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light" A quote that I have tattooed on my forearm.

[@EmberGore]

I’m diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. I’ve also got adhd. It’s crippling sometimes. It can make you feel so alone when you aren’t. We’re here for you and talking about it is good. We love and appreciate you Brian ❤️

[@barbaradaigeaun4640]

Brian, my heart breaks for you at this moment, I am bipolar, and i know exactly what you speak of. 2 years ago i lost my husband to cancer, it was a long 17 year battle. When he passed, I lost my best friend, the love of my life. I lost my identity, and was in a very dark place. I found you on you tube, by chance, with a vlog about Lucy. Your positive outlook really helped me. I was terrified of snakes, but loved any type of lizard, so i subscribed, and watched you and your family every day.. You dont know how much you have helped me. I look forward to my days now, and my life is in a good place. It does get better. Remember, you have to take care of you first. Please know that many of us go thru similar things. For me consistancy and structure help a great deal. Right now life is anything but consistant . This too shall pass. I love you and all the animals at the reptarium.

[@benperkins7282]

I lost my mom to cancer at age 12

[@judygwen3977]

You are being real. You have much responsibility, working fast, having to act happy when you aren't, and not being able to stop when it might help to stop. SLOW DOWN, don't fake it, be real all the time. Wish you wellness!

[@tyronschwartz950]

Hey Brian, being married to someone who suffers severely from anxiety, this truly rings home with me. Take the time in the day to convince yourself things will be okay. Take your time and take it one day at a time man things will get back to the way they were some day. As for the haters let them hate use them as fuel to the fire man. Those people hating will always do it when they are envious of your situation. Keep fighting Brian 👊🏼keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

[@BrianBarczyk]

Thank you

[@k.r.f.j.b.8144]

@@BrianBarczyk youre a great man Brian. youve brought the love of a new hobby into my life and brought love into so many other peoples lives in this world....now you need to focus on bringing peace and love into your own world, however you have to and whatever that takes....you deserve to wake up happy every day of your life my man. Youve got a lot of support and love to help guide you on your journey to happiness right here in this blog if you so choose to use it. I love ya man....we all do.

[@alexandrarewerts4987]

I could not imagine living with my anxiety without my meds. I’ve been hospitalized 3 times and been in therapy for almost 6 years. I understand completely. You’re a legend for being so strong

[@MrMegadeth73]

I suffer from anxiety and depression also this a really hard thing to talk about I feel you Brian I am in the same deep place in my life rite now and your vlogs are a big thing that helps me through my day alot of people do not understand this it is very hard at times to deal with keep your head Buddy you are a huge inspiration to all of us we have your back PS we will see you soon We love you to Brian

[@therealgigi7838]

I had to come and watch this episode again. To see what I'm forgetting. I've let life get the best of me. I need to step back , assess the situation and see what I'm doing wrong. I know Brian has dealt with this before . He fought this every day. I'm not going to lose this fight. I'm going to take it day by day. And take back my life.

[@marshaphillips782]

I am praying for you. I too still suffer from anxiety and I have ever since my oldest son was killed in 1990 by a drunk driver. I have started with it again after retirement. My anxiety gets worse when things are so perfect. I believe it's because we were experiencing the best time in our lives. Christmas was going to be great, I just got promoted to a job where I didn't have to travel and leave my boys so much and then in one tiny moment, my world was upside down. I lost him on December 22. I buried him on his 18th birthday. This is real and you inspired me to look at myself and realize that the reason I'm going through this is because our life is going perfect and I'm just waiting for something bad to happen. I appreciate your honesty and allowing me to share mine. I feel like I have no one to talk about it with. Please continue talking Please keep us updated. You are my rock.

[@brandoncampbell7274]

Brian I gotta say, honesty is the best policy and I'm glad you opened up and told us how you feel. I want you to know that even a lot of positivity can be overwhelming and sometimes hard to process and in some cases fatal (heartwise), but know this, when you get into the heaviest of feels sometimes it's good to just take a deep breath, hold it in for about 10 seconds and then exhale. Maybe sometimes a second or even third breath depending on your mood and then think deeply about other things that aren't currently on your mind. If it's not a mind thing, then just take a walk around town and get some fresh air. Having trouble with sleep? Just make sure you eat well and sleeping might be easier. I have the worst luck that I know of. I get anxious when I drop things or bump into things which happens more often than I like. I literally cry over spilled milk. Lately I've been exercising myself by instead of screaming at things being dropped, I take the deep breaths and then clean up the mess. You're right, we're in the same boat for the most part. So let's end this comment with some positivity. I subscribed to your KZbin channel and I've been watching for the past several weeks now. Really good stuff, I really like the theme you have going with the egg collecting, it really is a good gig. Just keep doing what you're doing. Because know this, I lost my job recently and I won't lie, I've been depressed about it. Your videos, inspired me to get back on my feet and as I've been watching, I submitted several job applications lately and I just keep moving on. Thanks for all the great content and I hope you can do your best to stay positive as well. Hey Brian, have a good day!!

[@jasonwebb1882]

Brian I have delt with being suicidal for 11 years. Ever since I broke my back in 3 places. Everyday is a struggle for me. Pain is at it's worse when I sleep and wake up. I can't be still due to my back. I understand a little bit of mental health issues. My family has been very understanding but not all the time. I went through doctors left and right trying to find the best way to live life. I used to be a people person when I did alligator swamp tours. Now I stay way from everyone. Man pick your head up and know that your family has your back. I wish you all the best man. I am sorry that you are fighting this and it sucks!!!! Just think about how much your kids and wife loves you. I'm pretty sure that a lot of your fans love you in a way. You have so many people that show up, not to see the animals but to see and meet you. I wish I could make that trip up there with my wife and kids, but I know my body won't be able to take it. God Bless you all and Brian we are praying for you man.

[@Ziona1987]

I am almost a YEAR late on this, but LOVE YOU, BRIAN! I empathize with your feelings. So much. Your vlog helps me so much when I am having horrible times. Thank YOU for being honest and open with your viewers. Because it helps to talk about mental health and break that stigma! Thank YOU! Your viewers love you so much! Always ALWAYS be honest about how you feel!

[@truckercaje2452]

Brian my brother I struggle with anxiety and adhd and there are days that you don't feel like doing anything and you feel like crap but brian please know you are so much more than anxiety you are our family we will never stop loving you and your family on the bad days you just have to get up and say I'm better than this I will defeat this and I will win Brian love you brother ❤

[@shelbymiller491]

I suffer from generalized anxiety, clinical depression and possibly ADHD. NEVER EVER feel sorry for telling those you love how you feel. You may not have "any reason" to feel the way you do. Well you know what, you do, and it is real, it's so hard. Those in your life will understand. I am extremely broken hearted that you cannot take medications because at least for me, my medication has saved my life. It's still hard, but every little victory needs to be stored and remembered because your brain will tell you all mean and nasty things and you then will have evidence that it is wrong. You are amazing. You are worth every moment of love in your life. I haven't been following you very long but even the few short videos I have seen you are full of light and love. I will come visit the reptarium one day and experience all the love in every animal and every enclosure you guys create.

[@heatherg1706]

It takes strength to say how you feel. Impressive that you could both speak up and say how you’re feeling. Life has some really hard times. I hope you are enjoying better times now. Thanks for sharing.

[@pellitabarbie]

I don’t have clinical depression per say but I sure have the GAD and ADHD. Just want to give you a hug. 🤗 No more no less. Xoxo

[@Tommy2shoe811]

Rigorous exercise is the best medicine I’ve ever taken. It literally forces your brain to produce the happy juices your brain lacks when you’re having anxiety problems. The biggest reason why it works is bc you have significantly more control over your heart muscle lungs and diaphragm whereas before you don’t realize your breathing is off until it’s too late and you’re about to have an anxiety attack. I had debilitating anxiety and regularly had severe panic attacks. After starting to work out they went down significantly within a month and haven’t had one at all after around 6 months from starting. Also just taking a walk or gently exercising prolly won’t do it I mean rigorous to where you’re soaked in sweat when you’re done.

[@jerrypaulwhite]

amen

[@pissface9678]

Good job for getting through that man, I hope he can do the same. I personally have social anxiety but I know mine isn’t nearly as bad as yours or his but I just want him and you to know that others at least somewhat know what you’re going through.

[@madusa98]

It’s okay not to be okay, and healing is not linear. My anxiety has almost killed me, and I still struggle with it every day. Allow yourself to feel it, to recognize it. Don’t blame yourself for something you cannot control. Sending positive thoughts! We’ll be out to visit as soon as we can!

[@galwithamal7960]

I discovered this video after your passing. I suffer from the same issues. You were such a wonderful man. Miss you Brian.

[@happyhello5988]

I don’t feel so alone now... God Bless you and you’re in my thoughts and prayers. I’m so scared of snakes but I watch your show anyway!

[@saraj4009]

Wow! It was about 15 years ago now since I was “incapacitated” by my anxiety and depression. The physical pain in my muscles was the most surprising part of it all. There were weeks where all I could handle was getting up and showering. It took 6months to a year before I felt like my mind was “normal”ish again. Thank you so much for sharing your raw feelings and being vulnerable. The world would be a sad place without you. I think of Robin Williams and what a huge loss his passing was to the world. You bring as much light or more to my life every day like Robin Williams did. So hang in there. Thank you so much!

[@craven9949]

You asked if we would like to continue to hear ab your anxiety, of course all of us would, with that being said, only do so if it helps you, we want what is best for you, if these vlogs are truly your therapy and you feel you need to share than by all means continue to express how you feel, but if it helps to take breaks then do that too, take some time to focus on what helps your anxiety and mental well being, all love.

[@littlemrs.fabulous9432]

I think it would be fun if everyone could somehow video chat him or send him a video of a small message of something we like about him, our favorite video he did, and a positive thought or prayer.

[@eribertoornelas9104]

Brian is one of the fewest people I know with anxiety. I have researched it a lot and I I can tell how hard it is. Brian is so brave and strong to share his feelings with us and to keep on going everyday and doing vlogs just for us.....really really shows that he cares about us. Keep on going. Stay strong.❤️💕💗

[@geneeyvanajar6438]

I struggle with anxiety like this every day and you feel as if the world will always fall apart ,with 0 motivation sometimes, I understand how hard this will be. But I've found that the best thing to do is find an activity which has your mind distracted , personally found coloring books as a great way to forget all the bad things going on. Keep your head up and never give up on making yourself find a way out of that anxiety to be happy .

[@alexair9322]

I’ve been watching for over a year now and you have filled with nothing but happiness and joy, now that are in a tough spot we as your audience will do all in our power to help you through this.

[@flimsfilms4755]

Hey man, I doubt you'll see my comment, I don't ever really comment on videos, but I need you to know that this is what I needed to hear, I really really needed to hear this.

[@drakeonayeem8663]

You were my whole childhood. I still love watching you, you don't deserve this anxiety. I've had anxiety my life too, I understand. You're not alone, Brian. We're all here for you. Remember that, bro.

[@gusbun2510]

Brian, I’ve been there. I am sending so much love to you. How you feel is not your fault. Everyone knows you’re grateful for everything. My therapist said to try to set little goals followed by a treat, but there’s no magic cure. I am so touched that you shared this. I am sending as much positivity as I can and gratitude for your wonderful input in my life. I had cancer and watching your VLOGS was so helpful. All blessings to you xxx

[@m19magness]

Brian I want you to know you have helped me through some of my toughest times of anxiety. Positive energy radiates from your vlogs, and I know no matter how I’m feeling, I can watch your videos and feel better even if just for a little while. The past couple years have seen some big changes in my life, including starting a new stressful job in critical care, and getting married. I’ve look forward to your videos because they just make me feel good even when I’m not. I was so ridiculously anxious the night before my wedding, and all I did was watch your videos to calm back down and feel positive. When I have a tough night shift at the hospital, I get excited to watch your videos in the morning because of who you are and the positivity you spread with enthusiasm. You’ve sent countless positive vibes towards me, and now I’m sending some back to you! Wishing you all the best, Brian!

[@johnthreehouse5081]

I think I speak for everyone who watches your vlog daily and saying that we got you Brian and that we all LOVE YOU AND GOT YOUR BACK . Sending Prayers for You and sending positive vibes your way . Hope your day gets Better . Your Family will be there for you. Have a great day Brian and Crew 😎😀😀❤️❤️❤️

[@yolandibruintjies5118]

U being so vulnerable shows that we all have things we go through, mental illness is real bad, i suffer from depression, anxiety and diagnosed with Bipolar and i have to make everyone smile ☺ around me. I salute u for opening up especially because u a man. Keep the faith God has a purpose 4 ur life

[@SorensNightmare93]

Brian, you should NEVER feel like you have to apologize for feeling any negative emotions. You, your staff, family and us here in this community. It is going to be a rough journey, but with the support from everyone that has your back, you will get through it. We know it is hard for you to always stay positive. But, life in general unfortunately does not work that way. There is always going to be a little dark spot to balance out everything. Things happen. I personally, enjoy these REAL talks you have to share. It goes to show that no matter how successful you are in achieving your goals and dreams, there is always that conscience in the back of your mind that will always put negative thoughts into your life. You NEVER have to be afraid to talk about your feelings and I admire that to are not afraid to do so. You make a video, no matter how easy or tough it will be. Over the years that I have been following you, learning from you or turning to you when I need a distraction...it's helped better my life and made me feel better. Whether it is a good or bad vlog. You don't know it but there is a connection when you do these REAL talks to not just me, but EVERYONE that watches your videos. You've come so far in the last few years. This life and this vlog that you love and enjoy doing has had its ups and down but you've stuck through the thick and thins. You've overcome ALL of the obstacles that have come your way not just by yourself, but with the people around you AND your community here. Again, NEVER apologize for showing your feelings and keeping us in the loops of your life. We're all in this together, whether we are around the corner or 6,000 miles away. If you miss a vlog or two, it is not the end of the world. You need some time to be with your loved ones, spend some time with the animals, do what is best for you. We will understand. Those supporting you will always be there if you need to talk. And so will we. Be true to yourself and keep doing what you love. Be as positive as you can be! You will get through this!

[@Juxsu]

I suffer from anxiety, pure o ocd, dysthymic depression and borderline personality disorder - and it's just... hell. It's so painful, it doesn't make any sense, and it's so, so lonely. I am not in a great place myself, and although i don't usually comment - i feel like it's important that i say how grateful i am to you. Your videos helped me so many times and allowed me to take small breaks from the chaos inside my head. The worst thing about having a mental illness is how invisible it is. Even if you are lucky enough to be surrounded with people who love and care about you - it's not something they can understand. You are an amazing person, and even if you don't feel like it - you are strong Brian. I wish i could do something to help, i really do. Fight it, try reminding yourself that you won this battle once, and you can do it again. Stay strong, even if it means allowing yourself to be weak sometimes. I hope your battle will be short as possible, now and in the future.

[@arwenbrimhall3737]

Mintee my sister has borderline personality. VERY difficult to treat, try cognitive behavior therapy and know you aren’t alone😚

[@Juxsu]

@@arwenbrimhall3737 Thank you ♥

[@yolkygaming6905]

Hey, I’m sorry, You don’t deserve that :( I hope you have all the support you need. ❤️

[@Wagonman5900]

Stay strong. The world needs you. Especially now.

[@officalstallion866]

JESUS IS COMING!

[@robertcook9681]

just saw this for the 1st time and 1st you are in my thoughts and my prayers are for you to get better, we have known each other a long time andits been a good time you are a mover and shaker in this industry and for you to be this honest is inspirational. More power to you and good luck my thoughts are with you

[@nafessamohammed6585]

Allah will help you

[@kiblerandothers4658]

@@officalstallion866 very very true

[@drakeonayeem8663]

@@officalstallion866 stop making everything about religion what if i said HAIL SATAN! does that triggeru lol

[@nikobiege7015]

This is the day Brian became my hero. He gave me hope!

[@sophiamarie9378]

There is a plant called lemon balm that if you try it and make it into a tea it might help. It helps with stress, anxiety, depression and a migraines. Hope you get better soon! We all live your channel and you can take a break for how ever long you want. Thank you. Your amazing. Anxiety is hard and sometimes animals are the best medicine. I will keep you in my prayers.

[@Wackthoughts]

I have ocd which is an anxiety disorder, along with adhd. I have always had high anxiety levels, and your explanations on sometimes not understanding what you are anxious about or why is exactly how I feel. I just found you yesterday and already formed so much respect for you. I think I speak for everyone when I say we are all here for you and so blessed that you are willing to share this with us. Just know that we are all here to help you and ourselves fight this battle.

[@diggity0607]

I have these two symptoms also. Stay strong.

[@Wackthoughts]

Krispgray ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Wackthoughts]

diggity0607 ❤️❤️ you too

[@Wackthoughts]

Amaya Brown ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@alexandraheitor2988]

I know exactly how you feel, I’ve been feeling with anxiety for 10 years and it is tough! Hand in there Brian, I promise it will get better! Sending you a big hug

[@teyafaasen5240]

I understand how you feel, the past three years have been a living hell for me and all i can say is that it will get better. You just need to keep going and surviving. I still feel like I’m drowning every day but you just need to keep going. If its not a good ending its not the end. So please, do it for us and keep going.

[@TheDeamien]

Hey Brian. This is the first time I comment on your vlogs. I have been vicariously following along the vlog because my wife and 4 year old loves to follow along with all that is happening in your life. I hadn't followed for a couple of weeks and suddenly my wife says she has a video I have to see. The reason for me commenting now, is because for a big part of my life I have been suppressing my own mental health issues because I felt it wasn't right for a man to admit "weakness". Seeing you in this video had me in tears the minute you opened up because it's only 3 months ago that I admitted to my loved ones that I have been struggling internally with anxiety and depression for most of my adult life. It struck me very hard, as it made me go through all the emotions again, and seeing others deal with this makes it somehow more bearable. Just wanted to say Brian I'm sending you all the good wipes I can muster, love what you do keep safe. Lots of love from a small family in Denmark.

[@noakjellertz1286]

meditate 15 minutes each morning and evening before going to bed. This has helped me a lot and I think it would help you too :) love your videos man much love ❤️

[@Fireyvedel]

I've heard about this and I'm gonna try getting into this thank you for commenting not just for Brian but everyone else that reads this and takes heed.

[@corald3638]

It feels like you're dying, and is so scary. I have been to the ER trying to explain that I am scared, and it won't go away I couldn't imagine not having my medication. I suffer from the same anxiety disorder, and would really benefit from you updating us on how you're dealing with this. It makes it worse when you're surrounded by everything and everyone you love, and you can't appreciate any of it. The guilt can be unbearable, and usually leads me to a period of deep depression where death seems like the only escape from the anxiety.

[@607cmk3]

I've also been to ER for anxiety, I thought I was dying. They said I was having a panic attack which I've had before but this one was different. I felt so guilty wasting everyones time. The staff was so sweet and caring.

[@corald3638]

@@607cmk3 I felt exactly the same. I tried for a couple days not to go, since I've dealt with panic attacks before. But after 2 days of not sleeping and it not going away, that gets to you mentally

[@conniereeme559]

God bless you Brian. I've dealt with depression most of my life, I know how you feel. Surround yourself with people who support you and just have a shoulder to lean on, sometimes you just need an ear and a shoulder. Talking about your situation can help so much.💜

[@lotus9164]

Prayers sent.. we'll get through this together 🙏🏼God bless you Brian

[@chrischase453]

And I deal with a lot of things like that he’s talking about and I pray for you and still will pray for you

[@utahraptorgaming54]

I know it’s late but I have anxiety too and this quote helped me a lot, “ don’t let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace”.

[@jenbileau5073]

I understand. I'm on disability for extreme depression and anxiety, and people don't understand that you can put on a facade while you are falling apart inside. You are a bright spot to me, and I want you to know, it's taken away things that made me happy, and I fought back to create again . But it's never been a straight uphill fight. It's up, down,sideways, but it's NEVER done alone. You help me fight, and If I can help you fight ,too....that helps my heart. I'm sending positive reiki energy to you

[@georgesafc6589]

Bryan, you probably don't feel like this, but your vlogs are giving me something that makes me feel so comfortable. I love how much you care. So thank you. It helps me so much

[@MsPINKANGEL89]

Im glad you shared this because A LOT of ppl deal with this issue. Some of these KZbinrs show false hopes for ppl. I'm praying for you n everyone dealing with it.

[@hamzashaikh1405]

Hey Brian. I’ve been following you for about 2 years now. Straight. Man you make me happy. I’ve dealt with some shit through my life where i forgot what smiling feels like. You’ve really provided us all with the positive energy and vibe. We are all here for you my man. Just have some time off and live life man. Just enjoy all you have achieved. I’ve seen you struggle with stuff. From bhb reptiles till here you’ve come a long long way! Cheer up champ! Nothing can stop you and you’re unstoppable human. Just enjoy your life! And share everytime you feel heavy. With hearts open, we’re here to get through this together like you made me through my bad times. I am atleast, i promise, here for you. Always. Peace my man. Love you. ❤️

[@tanarancipher4429]

You are so strong! I have severe clinical bipolar depression and anxiety as well. It's tough but when I'm down I watch your videos and they cheer me up more than you could understand. Watching your videos has brought me and my 7yr old son closer because we watch together! Thank you for all you do!!!!!