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[@webgirl]

Judy….it may get harder before it gets easier. The shock and adrenaline of what’s happened thins out, others get distracted with their own lives, and we are left feeling so alone since no one, I repeat NO ONE understands what’s it’s like to lose YOUR mom. It’s a personal experience and sometimes feels so lonely. But the strength that is produced from that pain is immense. Your mama is most definitely with you on this journey of self healing. Trust she taught you exactly what you need. ❤ I love you so much and I hope you know that. I hope you know that you’re seen, in all forms of your healing. We love you. We support you. Even when you feel so alone that you could scream and no one would flinch, know that there are some of us across the world who heard that internal scream and are screaming with you. Some of us are silent support and when you close your eyes I hope you feel us. With mama. ❤

[@webgirl]

Also, Benji, if you’re reading this… I know it’s so hard on you. I know you are trying to be “strong” for the girls and hold it together even tho I can feel the wheels in your head turning from everything that’s happened. It’s okay to cry too. It’s okay to be hurt too and to admit that you’re hurt. That’s the most strong thing anyone can do. Is admit they need time to heal and actually give themselves that time TO heal. It’s easy to drive ourselves into the ground it’s harder and takes more to lift it up. You are all doing amazing. Thank you for loving your girls the way you do. Thank you for loving mama. And thank you for sharing with us, because I know you share your life with us just as much. You’re our girls knight in shining armor. Thank you for saving her❤

[@jolintito]

I love you ❤

[@ErinBooms]

Beautiful comment

[@MiSsHuntah]

Wow. I needed to read this aswell. After losing my dad I felt super alone even tho I have siblings and my mom lost the love of her life 😢

[@nigmoblack4351]

Beautiful comment and so very true. It most definitely gets harder before it gets easier.

[@petals1000]

What a gift from mama…Material gifts left behind can last forever, but to be fed by your mother for the very last time in this special way is the most bittersweet experience.

[@rubynninnhimkeo]

🥺 aww the moment when Judy says white butterfly, you see Bella giving flying kisses 😘. That one is for you Mama! ❤️😇

[@louselman]

I too got emotional when you showed us the lumpias prepared by Momma……much love ❤️❤️❤️

[@barista148]

I really hope that Auntie Mel gets a lot of credit for all that she does behind the scenes. I can only imagine what an awesome Auntie she is. And she is sooo pretty. Shout out to her! ❤️

[@itsJudysLife]

She is the best Auntie!!! 🥰

[@lovewashfam]

My dad was diagnosed with brain cancer this past week. Every second means the world now. Hugs to your beautiful family. ❤

[@zb5186]

The lumpia looks delicious. Every time I see lumpia, I think of mama. We love and miss you mama🩵

[@nanyobiz]

Those tears were held back so strong after that first bite... I can feel it. 😢 We miss you, Mama.

[@AngelaLValenzuela]

I held on to my dad’s last frozen batch of lumpia for as long as I could too. My husband and I were just as emotional to cook and eat it one last time. Sending our love to you and your family ♥️

[@ANA.sees.the.World12]

4:37 What a coincidence… Mama’s last lumpia and seeing a white butterfly ❤ A sign from heaven.

[@christinavipinosa8829]

11 years ago, I learned how to cook the best lumpia from Mama from this channel and I'm still using the same recipe and method every time I make lumpia. The water chestnuts are a game changer! Thank you Mama!!

[@shepfam6799]

Me too!! We call it Mama’s Lumpia ❤

[@christinavipinosa8829]

@@shepfam6799 Mama did really touch a lot of families hearts through her food/recipes. ❤

[@susangilchrist781]

Bella was able to eat something Mama made for the first and only time! So special. 9:35

[@petals1000]

6:00 JB sounding like a wholeeee grown adult 😂 I feel you girl I’m on that reuse the same plate vibe too

[@nicolemarie3]

I can’t take JB the practically a teenager looking so grown and beautiful 💗

[@kristennoelle9447]

She's so pretty..time flies!🙏💜

[@annanguyen345]

She’s not a teen, she’s 11

[@mahinapapaia7848]

I just can't believe how grown up jb and Miya and keira are!!!! Ive been watching before jb! Judy and benji are raising such good girls!!!! Love you guys!

[@nicolemarie3]

@@annanguyen345 I said practically

[@j-n-y]

@@annanguyen345 No, she's 10, soon to be 11.

[@curlygurl43]

I lost my Mom on 7/13/23- so I know Judy, what you’re feeling. Keeping you and the family lifted up in prayer 🙏🏽

[@lilianahogan6314]

I'm sending my condolences and love to you and your family ❤ May your mother rest in peace with Jesus. X

[@CarolsThoughts]

Judy, your vulnerability is so much appreciated. You loved your mom so much and your kids were so blessed to have such one of a kind grandma. I was lucky enough to have a grandma like yours who did anything and everything for those she loved. And I miss her every single day. It’s been two years and still it doesn’t feel real to me that she’s gone. Since her passing, I’ve had a daughter and bought a house & wish so badly that she could be around to meet her great granddaughter and stay at my house. ❤ Sending so much love and praying for God’s goodness to come your way.

[@sameerahkhan5042]

Crying with you Judy cant even imagine your pain but mama lives in you remember that❤

[@SandyLi89]

I can’t help but tear up with you while watching this video. Mama has touched so many of us. We love you.

[@tanishar.5267]

when Judy cries I always cry too. Love you guys.

[@JGold-oy2dr]

Judy-as I sit here pregnant with my first (a daughter) I get more and more fulfilled. I have 7 weeks left and dream I can be a role model and mom to my girl just like you emulate for yours. You are so blessed and I know Mama is in that kitchen with you all the time. 😇

[@barrire83]

Losing a loved one is never easy over time. You "move on" with your life, but then there are days where you miss them, and all you wish is to see the once again. You have that feeling inside of you, the pain of not being able to. I've been going through this lately 😢

[@mandynguyen8983]

Been watching since the wedding vlogs and honestly it makes me so happy to see a genuine healthy family i was in middle school and now I’ve graduated college figuring out my life still

[@itslili3]

Thank you Judy for being so vulnerable with all of us!

[@janlouisemakiling3474]

When benjie is saying.. so quiet then there’s leah 😂 exception to the rule Loveee the fam always ❤

[@niecybaby1960]

I wish I could have tasted Mama’s lumpia. She was such a bright light for us. You loved her so much Judy and I know she loved you. Those kisses from Bella at the end were priceless and just what I needed. I threw some right back. Much 💕

[@d8bn]

"Mama is still feeding us" 💞💞

[@Emily_h736]

Judy, my friends died one week after mama died, it’s been seven months and it’s hard. It gets harder every day I miss them so much, I think about them everyday, and the littlest thing cans just bring you to tears. I feel you girl.

[@sofiejosefsen242]

Tears come by you mentioned mama...oh I miss her 😢🧡

[@vydagarcia251]

I didn’t think i would ever cry so much over lumpia 🥺😭😭 Mama must be smiling from ear to ear seeing you guys enjoy her lumpia one last time.

[@darettablack3794]

Judy,it truly overwhelmed my heart seeing you being able to enjoy your mama’s food ♥️and your sweet family too 😊. God’s many blessings sweet family……🍃🧡🍃

[@anuja.v]

I related to this video so much, lost my mom 2 years ago and my sisters and I cried when we saved and eventually ate this homemade indian pickle she had made. I cherished every last bite of it 😢

[@AguaAbigail]

I know Mama is smiling down on her family as you all enjoy her lumpia❤🌺

[@nanyobiz]

I just lost my dad 2 months ago and while I think I'm ok most days, some days will just hit you so hard out of the blue. I'm happy you are surrounded by your family 24/7 so it makes it just a bit easier. I don't think the pain will ever go away. We just make a room for it in our hearts to remember them by forever. Also, mama coming to the lumpia party as a white butterfly was so magical!

[@TheCullen191]

Sending hugs Judy. I lost my mom 21 years ago and making something she made or even my grandmother who passed 11years ago always makes me emotional! ❤❤

[@JTlovesAD]

I strongly believe that white butterfly was sent by mama as a sign that she's watching over you and to comfort you knowing that you are sad. Its like, "pls know that im just ok, no need to be sad because Im just here with you guys!" It's always what matt fraser the psychic medium reminds us, our departed loved ones are not really gone, they are just on the other side watching over us, they can send signs..and one day we gonna be reunited with them. There really is an after life..stay strong, judy!

[@GingerChung2014]

Judy Mama blessed you with love, cooking skills,etc. she is with you every day. Sending hugs.

[@AlexisBelon]

That’s how ppl live forever. Btw if you’re into nyc vlogs but if so, you might like mine. Swing by, take a peek and stick around if you like. I’d be sooo grateful. 🙏

[@hellojennifer520]

Mama will always be with us in all the memories we have with her and her legacy of cooking and laughters too!!

[@katrinadollman7058]

That white butterfly on the day you decide to cook your momma's special food is not an accident. Momma is with you. xx

[@Ria_n_Brian_93]

A huge warm hug to you Judy. 🤗 And oh my goodness, Julianna Bear is a grown little lady. And absolutely beautiful. 🌼

[@EmmyTato-sn1kf]

Yea I totally tested up with mamas lumpia 😢 I never even knew what a lumpia was before mama , she will be missed and loved always ❤

[@Haley_Marie]

Shedding so many tears watching you guys enjoy that lumpia, how special and beautiful♥️♥️

[@karenyu3640]

I could not make out any words Kiera said.

[@curlieQ671]

I've been watching old vlogs and Mama will be in some of them. She is definitely missed. Praying for you Judy🙏

[@denicevee]

Reminds me of that one Big Bang theory episode where her mom also left frozen stew in the fridge, and it was a bawler episode too. It was his last taste of his mom cooking. HUGS JUDY ❤

[@shanerocelle]

Same here, reminds me of Mrs. Wolowitz last batch of brisket in the freezer 😢

[@maggiep4225]

Re that door you were just not ready to close, I totally understand.🙏🏼💞 I love how these wonderful memories live on in you & your girls, even something so simple as lumpia.

[@armaniblanco8166]

I love the fact that you guy's believe in the simple things in life!!!! Yesss that's what it's all about!!!!

[@brieestar0307]

This was so emotional 🥺❤️ momma is the best and always will be remembered

[@designereats3661]

This made cry. I’m glad that you were able to eat the food she made after she passed.

[@misscriss80]

It's so crazy how the smallest or most simplest of things trigger memories and emotions once a loved one has passed on!! Just shows us not to take our loved ones for granted. We miss mama Nini so much, warm hugs to you and the family Judy!!❤😮

[@zandraechan5394]

Aww it’s okay. I totally understand. I think about the stuff and memories about my aunt and uncle and still cry. It’s good you have a supportive husband and great kids ❤❤

[@fiona1589]

Hi Judy.. I am a big fan of your family.. Specially of Mama.. When Mama passed away I felt your heartbreak.. To a point that I had a realization that as long as my mom is still with me I will treat her like the queen she is.. I am taking her and my sisters to Malaysia and Thailand this december.. Because like you and Mama, I want to have those memories I can hold on to with my mom.. Mama's and your relationship is something I aspire to have with my mom.. You both are my inspiration.. Love lots from Lipa City, Batangas.. ❤

[@MYSHELL0907]

It's been 3 years since my dad passed & it doesn't necessarily get easier, but you learn how to cope. Things trigger me in my everyday life some happy some sad but always wonderful to have those cherished memories. Asking my dad to continue to guide us & be with us & that brings so much peace. Bella giving kisses when you mentioned the butterfly just shows momma is surrounding you guys. 🥰 Hugs to you Judy. ❤

[@vane200009]

Benji with the dad bod 😭

[@sameerahkhan5042]

LOL Bella's excited face 😥 hahaha awwhh booga

[@michelletran1185]

Aww mama will forever be in your hearts through all the memories 💞

[@raecat90]

I was tearing up with you Judy. I lost my mom at 19 and there are days it is still very hard. Sending a big hug. Mama was such a wonderful person 💕

[@Allah_knows_your_heart]

„Thank you Mama!“ 😭

[@sameerahkhan5042]

Hey Judy so random but you inspired me to do a middle part in my hair and add some layers ❤ feel like a new women today, i know today was hard on you but youre such a light to millions of us 🌟

[@CozyCorysCorner]

I started crying watching her moms lumpia. My grandmother passed when I was 6 months pregnant with my daughter (she’s 9 now) and she would call me giggles. My now boyfriend when we started dating and talking on the phone and I would giggle sometimes. He remarked “it’s cute how giggly you are when talking on the phone” I started crying but explained how my grandma called me giggles for that reason. He on occasion calls me giggles… makes me smile

[@Msangiewow]

Much love Judy💙💙💙

[@IKM218]

Judy, I cried a lot while watching the family enjoy the lumpia mama made….food is a precious expression of love I think many of us forget at times. It reminded me of when I was still in school, and lived a few hours away from my parents…my mom insisted on making food for me every now and then, one time I had gotten extremely sick but found comfort in the soup my mom had packed for me, because it was the soup she normally made for me as a little girl. Even well into my 20s, states away, my mom was still taking care of me. Mama is showing she is still here and loves you all very much 💖💖💖

[@leahortiz82]

I lost my oldest brother unexpectedly 5 years ago , so I feel for you Judy bear ❤ I don't want to say it gets easier because I still have moments where I just break down. But you can & will get through it and smile thinking about the good times you had 🙏💓 sending lots of hugs

[@trishasegura3184]

Sending lots of love and prayers for your beautiful family Judy 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@Novemberbaby333]

Your kids are such great healthy eaters cuz you brought them up on good goods! Lucky you have so much drawer space in your kitchen! Kiera is a future chef. Bella is a good little eater! Glad that you can make lumpia yourself!

[@LTian-so4td]

Oh Judy , I’m crying with you!! Love you all ❤

[@katinakelley6492]

Liquid band aid works wonders for a paper cut. I had one last month and after a few days my cut, which was deep closed up

[@daniellebrown2208]

I always get a lump in my throat when you share memories of Mama. I wish we could have all tried Mamas Lumpia. I know for a fact that I would have loved it 🩷

[@Anew1008]

Aww mama I was wondering if u had any of her food left! That’s so special! 💐❤️

[@cocobear8490]

I can’t stop crying when I saw MAMAS lumpia. I lost my Dad 3 years ago, but the pain? It never goes aways. I miss him even more & more each day. I feel you Judy. Your feelings are valid. We love you!

[@reverlindi23]

It’s a chapter that will never be closed… 🥹🥺 Mama’s memories will always be with you 🫶🏻 virtual hugs ate Judy!

[@G13542]

I cried as I watched you guys eat Mama's last batch of lumpia. The bitter-sweetness of that moment was palpable. Your mom was very special person, Judy. I think that white butterfly was a hello from heaven💕

[@jenniferliu4852]

I miss you mama. Rest in peace ❤

[@Lanaslife247]

Much love and hugs Judy ❤

[@pL1inkable]

"wheres miya!?" LOL

[@brittneyyy08]

We all miss her so much praying for you Judy💖💖💖

[@belue79]

So amazing you have her cooking videos and even in your daily vlogs those are priceless vids for you and the kids. Her food recipes will live on in your home your families homes and the KZbin fam’s homes ❤

[@sameerahkhan5042]

Sending all my love to you Judy ❤

[@mani49950]

Judy I lost my mother 8 years ago to cancer... I've had random moment when I've seen beautiful butterflies either sit on my lap or fly close I believe it's my mom coming to say Hi 💝 when you said we're cooking mom's lupia and in the next clip you said we saw a white butterfly 💖 it totally made sense 😭💖

[@iAmLoveTaja]

God is so good, I’ve been watching you since I was a young girl. 27 now with one of my own. Your family inspires me everyday, thank you. Mama is always with us🦋

[@lolliguab]

My Mom was sick for a long time too. I miss her cooking the most. She makes the best leche flan. She taught me how she makes it but hers taste different. You’re right, even the simplest things can make us emotional. I lost my mom last October and the grief doesn’t go away.

[@armaniblanco8166]

Yess girls smile with the cheese pull!!!

[@jluv7397]

Judy , look into your local library. They have free toddler / preschool classes . I have a 3 year old and a son who is in school. So my little was very read to go to school as well. She loves the toddler class and calls it her library school

[@indie1885]

This school year was actually my two oldest first year back since covid lockdown. They're dad wanted to home-school them. It was a fight to get them back in public school, I think they flourish in that setting more so than being stuck at home. So then going back has been pretty exciting for me & them too.

[@leticiacurumaco8487]

Something on a moms loss is so deep and hurts everyday i lost my grandma who raised me what felt so sudden and small reminders make me burst into tears.

[@sayleenikam7428]

Love you mama❤

[@edwardleecaliforniausa]

Good morning Judy happy Sunday morning and I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter and I'm proud of you

[@mahinapapaia7848]

Aww keira following daddies foot steps!!! Its ok its still ok to cry girl!!! Mama will forever be in your hearts!!!! Little miss Leah will always ask for her mama!!!! Love you mama!!

[@jessdurlo3194]

I have been watching old vlogs and I just watched one where mama Sal came to see your place and you were talking about your backsplash lol then today I watched this one - Juliana was so tiny and now your family has doubled and your home is well seasoned with memories and love ❤️❤️❤️

[@hugsuniverse]

Been watching forever… a silent observer. Until today. Mama’s lumpia. Made me cry happy/sad. ❤

[@nicolemarie3]

Bella is so adorable 🩷🩷

[@shelbyg97]

Judy my heart hurts for you. My dad is also a cook & I know when that time comes & I’ll have his last meal I would feel the same way as you! Mama will forever be there w you guys, I truly think that white butterfly was her visiting ❤

[@lillianagarcia7187]

I absolutely love you guys. Have been watching since before Benji proposed! My heart and hugs go out to you Judy! ❤️❤️ Also, Benji’s face when he tries the mozzarella stick is priceless! That man LOVES his food 😂.

[@cherry88]

I’m crying already. Mama we love and miss you

[@dms_25]

What a coincidence… I just finished rolling and frying egg rolls 3 hrs before watching this. Egg rolls reminds me of my heavenly mom also. I have my mom throw blanket that my 16 months old uses to nap. It’s never ending cycle when it comes to things remind of our mama. Grieving never ends. 🙏🏻❤

[@soappiethestrange]

I totally understand when you cooked mama’s lumpia. I recently ate my late mother’s Cambodian sausage and teared up while eating cause who would’ve known that would be the last time I’d eat something she made. But I’m happy u share these moments cause not everyone can. ❤

[@jorjiloumedenilla7424]

hugs to the fam and you Judy, i remember when my mom unexpectedly passed, i kept her tumbler in the fridge from where she lastly filled water with, kept how she made her bed and so on

[@sameerahkhan5042]

Keira those cheesesticks looks amazing!!

[@warreng5394]

Keira is quite the cook! 🧀

[@joybenko2826]

Omg Judy! Before my mom passed away I had a freezed lumpia’s my mom prepared! I CAN TOTALLY RELATE 🧡

[@breanne892]

I remember feeling that exact way with my grandmas perogies. It was six months after but it was emotional. After that I felt like everything of her was really gone.