Reckful R.I.P (Old Stream that reveals his mentality and thoughts an year ago)

[@princejamalminhas3271]

The worst part about people committing suicide is not that they had people in their lives who trolled them or they became depressed, we all experience this from time to time. However the worst part is actually the fact they had no real close person in their life who could get them out of the negative zone, it's a tendency you see in all suicide cases, they FEEL COMPLETELY ALONE. They all lack a person who truly understands their mental pain and not just someone who says "I'm there for you" but an actual person who can relate to their pain or at least empathize with them. In the first one min of the clip at 00:40, you hear him saying: "Anytime I'm lonely I try to tell myself everything's fine and look past to or whatever but deep down I don't feel so good you know"

[@KidsWithGuns1992]

I suffer very severe bouts of suicidal depression, I actually experience a degree of near psychosis when I’m that fucked up. Honestly the fact I haven’t killed myself is a miracle with how depressed I do get. But the thing is I do have people to talk to, I do have a secure family and people who are there for me. And yet I still feel isolated and alone. Real severe Depression isn’t a logical thingy , you will feel isolated even with people there to help you or not.

[@schigeraXD]

@@KidsWithGuns1992 I'm in the same boat man. Doesn't matter that I have strong support, or that my parents are okay with me living at home at 24 until I can sort things out, I just feel completely alone. I think a lot of us, and definitely reckful too, we seek companionship. In today's world, its seems like its harder and harder to find good, honest and well rounded people who want a serious committed relationship in the first place, let alone with someone who suffers from a severe mental illness. We just need some love from people outside our family, and on a much deeper level. Nobody seems to want to share any of their love for us because we're seen as a burden :(

[@HiThereLindsey]

Even if a suicidal person has someone who understands, there is no way that they can stop the person committing suicide. They have to decide not to by themselves.

[@francisventura1905]

I feel Byron was the only real human on twitch

[@schigeraXD]

@@francisventura1905 same here man. I wish I would've watched him while he was still with us. I was late to the party. I would've been buddies with him 🙁

[@bradd3081]

It’s hard to just believe I’m laughing and having a good time watching him and Ik he’s gone it’s not right man

[@Blackafternoon]

Everyone is a gift from God. Accept the present. He lives forever. He would want us to keep laughing.

[@mehdi2081]

I agree, I feel like he made it his purpose to make people not go through what he did. I literally have so much love and respect for him, and I didn't even know him for that long before he passed away. RIP goat

[@iiied5752]

What's very powerful about people with depression is seeing their good times because you may never know what they're struggling with. Hearing and seeing Reckful smiling reminds us of that. May he rest in peace.

[@dport9563]

Depression is not sadness . Being sad is temporary . Depression is absence of pleasure, joy , ambition, dreams, and sadness anger everything goes . You literally want to sit in a hole a fade to nothing sometimes you want to suffer pain and torment but mostly just want to end for days , weeks months years at a time.

[@BovineIntervention]

Sometimes people mistake depression for simply being ungrateful or having no life. If you push everyone away from you that are good to you and lock yourself in a room how can anyone be there for you ? That's not being depressed that's just asking to self destruct

[@Ajaxx47]

If there is anyone out there suffering from severe depression and thoughts of ending it, please don’t. I come to you as a person who attempted it twice when I was 16 & 17. You can get better I promise. I know it doesn’t feel like it but you can. It will never leave you 100% but 90% of the time you can feel okay. It’s hard work, take it one step at a time and I swear it’s so worth it. Try you best to enjoy the time you do have because life is so short. I know it’s hard being so stretch thin everyday where even the littlest thing will make you feel so horrible inside however you can defeat it. Start by telling your self positive things when the negative comes. Even if you think your lying do it. Exercise as much as you can. Cut out every bad person in your life. You don’t owe them shit and don’t feel bad about it if they treat you horribly cut them our and stop talking to them. I believe in you. I promise you I believe in you. You are not defined by your past. Everyday is a new day to fight the battle and win.

[@Saijiki00]

how can you be mean to this person? i hate my generation. ngl.

[@kizzagaming6523]

I remember checking the average viewer age on some of the people that were massive trolling and it was like 35-50 year olds. LOL! They're some of the biggest culprits isn't that crazy?

[@derbigpr500]

@@kizzagaming6523 Are you stupid? People don't use their real age when they register accounts...

[@flipndip5122]

It's within every generation but this is an odd time. We can't just look at a username and go "oh that's just a kid", "Oh that person is obviously troubled". We focus on the negativity and soon it starts to feel like most people evil.

[@flipndip5122]

@@kizzagaming6523 Where is this statistic? It seems very unlikely just based off the fact that people 20 and under have way more time on their hands.

[@ruthless1129]

Now I know why older people hate our generation so much it’s because our generation has evolved into fucking pussys because people nowadays are too scared to say something to someone else’s face so they do it behind a keyboard because no one will know it’s them and on top of that kids pretend to be grown up by doing adult things which not much kids in the 90s 80s etc did when they was kids I think that’s why

[@MarvinMonroe]

Man he was so cute and funny lol that laugh

[@josephinesaker7230]

Fr he didn't deserve it😭😭🙏🙏

[@zakariadagamer9867]

I feel this man... R.I.P 😭😞🥺

[@SamScottMusic.]

Me: *about to watch the video* Ad: LETS PLAY RAID SHADOW LEGENDS

[@aidss123]

happened to me LOL

[@aldritch_lol]

Can you turn off the ads though, please?

[@ThroughVisionn]

Yes

[@MrNutty-hu4dh]

@@ThroughVisionn Kappa

[@momatotsosrorudodi]

It's disheartening to see someone who despite finding success and being relieved of the regular stress that comes with a 9 to 5 job, he still couldn't escape the emotional pain from his past.

[@grymmd]

We miss your dolphin laugh Reckful.

[@EtherealMarksman]

6 years reminders of his failure... :/ Wow account banned.... his wow arena team... he left to go for blizzcon and get cheesed...

[@tinskull8132]

I just started watching him and I love his personality so much man. I know I don’t know him in real life but yeah I care for him a lot. This fucking sucks. Rest in peace reckful. You’re amazing.

[@Soviecik1]

I miss him so much

[@wise_fool]

what the music's name playing at 1:48 ?

[@malimaru]

orbital - halcyon

[@wise_fool]

@@malimaru nice

[@RandyReviews1990]

rip Reckful i i didn't know of him until i saw his last stream on here sidenote is twich just for gameplayers or can you just livestream like on KZbin?

[@JuanCruz-im8tb]

i shouldn't have seen this men... R.I.P.

[@IML_-dh1ss]

init I can't stop thinking about him

[@ThroughVisionn]

I'm still hoping he replies on Twitter saying everything is alright :(((

[@ffews]

Is he dead??

[@jackfreeman2739]

Yoan1 he’s dead bruh

[@Buugzy]

Love the SynthWave... rip Reckful

[@invasion8318]

Kavinsky - nightcall

[@Buugzy]

@@invasion8318 what about Kavinsky? I already know of them.

[@NewLifeFromTheWayofTruth]

If he had therapeutics that they have in other countries maybe he would be healed and enjoying his life like I have been I used to be like this guy..

[@IronWarrior4Ever]

RIP my dude

[@Camlikesbmxbiks420]

Whats the name of the vert last song in this video.. I know its not sand storm so pleas dont go there. I really wanna find this song pleas help!!

[@GrafPornoLocke]

Its a super old Remix made with a Traktor. I could Not find it in time

[@anderschristiansen6121]

I know your comment is getting old, but if you're talking about the very last song, it's "Madeon - Pop Culture"

[@Wtvr225]

Rest In Peace forever. The world didn’t deserve him❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Torrez_89]

Never liked media or the idea that people can sit behind a screen and write whatever the fuck they want without consequences. In my opinion Internet have made people more depressed.

[@Julesbejulez]

What song is he playing at 5:00 ?

[@7xXSE7ENXx7]

@Hard Candy I'm not a fan of when people ask for something and dont say thank you. so I'll do it for him. cheers mate.

[@berndamlauern]

'Orbital - Halcyon On On' That's like one of my favs since I heard it first in the Mortal Kombat movie in the cinema back in the 90s. Byron allways had such a fine taste in good electronica music.

[@marcq4775]

Has got to be the most forced laugh there is 😂 going to miss that so much.. rip byron

[@thecadeaujournals3980]

Miss you Byron

[@marcussosa3542]

I’m low key depressed watching this might end it

[@ambientnstuff5456]

Don't do it bro.

[@leumasnehpets]

Do nofap. Might help.

[@ThroughVisionn]

Life is good if you make it good , Whenever you feel down remind your self that we all live things we dont want to live but yet we have to face the reality and overcome. Focus dont give up!

[@sashpanov2793]

It is hard, I've been suicidal for about 2 years with proper depression, ups and downs as well, manic disorder and ocd, but I've managed to overcome. As an advice - whatever makes you sad or anxious - stay away from it and just make a change with your life. This mental condition is just telling you - you got to adjust something in your life. Thus is the body alarm telling you, get up and live. I hope I helped some how. Feel free to chat if you need to! Stay safe and don't do something which might get you out of pain but the effect it would have on your relatives/friends will be fatal for the as well. Stay strong buddy!

[@alexk6126]

Hey you guys sound young but as someone who's been living with depression for years. It's important to shift the frame from these dark thoughts from a personal beliefs to the idea that they are an outside force acting on you. Those emotions aren't you. It's okay to respect the feelings and you don't have to act like everything is okay. Think of it like rain, you can't control it but it ends

[@JarthenGreenmeadow]

4k isnt much for streaming 10 hours a day 7 days a week tho People are thinking 40 hour work weeks not 70....

[@KidsWithGuns1992]

I thought he said he earned 40k a month. That’s a years wage for most people

[@hiraprxc.7141]

@@KidsWithGuns1992 that's back when he started

[@BovineIntervention]

4k in donations doing react content when you don't even have a consistent schedule is kinda insane. Notice how he left out the ad revenue numbers. Bro is comparing himself to shroud and others when they really stream

[@fliqpyhtf9862]

RIP you, I feel your pain. I couldn't do anything 😭

[@ULTRA_REM]

I hate people man, byron deserved so much more kindness 😢😭

[@timmyotoole6063]

Don't hate people bruh. He was I'll for a long time

[@BovineIntervention]

Blame everyone else 😂

[@rickrolledtruth5834]

He was definitely leaving clues here and there .... don't hold grudges or hate for someone... in a instance they can be gone.

[@vincente184]

2:08

[@joeycard17]

He watched bald and bankrupt! My boy

[@renikin8656]

... rip

[@jonasmohr4860]

thanks to our system give that guy a tin full of good haze and he would start enjoing the life again fugg of being puplic or something enjoy yourself and play only if you wanna hafe fun and not to compare sometthing sry for my english r.i.p ELECTRONIC MENTAL DESTROYER

[@KidsWithGuns1992]

If only it was that easy

[@1dude.]

Who tf is becca?

[@06nemox]

Bluegoesmew is her handle

[@06nemox]

@리암 흐 yes i fucked up my bad guys. Becca seems great. Blue not so much.

[@Anomalous-One]

Becca is a girl he dated early 2019, NOT Blue.

[@CosmicVisitors]

@@Anomalous-One he started dating her in 2017 new pleb

[@Anomalous-One]

@@CosmicVisitors my bad, got my timeline wrong. Thought he met her a different time

[@yomamasofat5554]

AN year ago

[@skyguy377]

I feel like I'm going down the same path I relate too much to his cries for help

[@Amrhakim09]

if you wanna talk im here

[@ezrahaskard3527]

^^

[@tylerc6559]

Very few people can’t relate to his cries for help

[@Alylonglegs]

Thats the world we live in....are u ok

[@eddiehoney7166]

You can't blame the trolls, they will always be there. Its whether you focus on it or not. You have to have enough confidence in yourself to stay emotionally stable. He seemed like a great guy but too nice for the 12 year olds being brats

[@BovineIntervention]

Why are you even talking about 12 year olds ? This guy was 30 years old having sex in a penthouse getting paid thousands to do nothing. If some kids in the internet type random messages to you why would that affect you ?

[@Cratosuarez009]

Whats happen ?

[@cika299]

Cratosuarez009 committed suicide

[@Bambim8]

Alt+F4 irl

[@johnwalker4606]

@@Bambim8 hahaha

[@tonyle4307]

Bambim thats Dark

[@sugg7793]

?

[@Dylan_Thomas1]

Everybody saying that $4k/mo is not bad completely missed the point. He was contrasting it with making insane money before. Yeah 4k is even insane to a lot of us for doing something like streaming, but there was a context ignored.

[@Anomalous-One]

I'm not sure what your point is, because Byron never really asked or required subs, or stream super regularly.. he made his money multiply on the stock market then he kinda quit caring about money.

[@BovineIntervention]

Do you really think he wasn't lying. Bro streams from a penthouse suite in Manhattan like yo my donations are low 😂 what about that ad revenue g

[@JDDELAMIGO]

One of his problems: pay to much attenttion to his chat

[@vantablaq5319]

He was feeling completely alone my dude and deeply connected to the chat. Every individual in chat was just spending his free time by trolling, flaming, not understanding the situation etc. But for Byron those people were holding a part of his soul.. They were kinda part of his family. Being alone sucks my dude

[@RadeonVector]

oh, he was just bored of life, i understand him.

[@japanesemangos6372]

Hope you’re okay man

[@BovineIntervention]

He was ungrateful

[@bangcibs240]

Why the viewers act like that T.T

[@henryelliott9384]

I hate our generation

[@devicted]

He died because all the trolls

[@The111avatar]

It was for a variety of reasons

[@GamingDualities]

it feels like this is the sad truth...well many reasons...but they pushed it too much

[@CRUSHMtv]

I think it ended up being his breaking point. was clearly depressed before this, and most likely even more so when he decided to propose on twitter as a desperate move to find happiness. With becca not responding (because she didn't see it in time) and the massive amount of people who made fun of him and said all that terrible shit in his most vulnerable moment it was just enough for him to hit his limit.

[@MrTirien]

@@CRUSHMtv What did they say to him? Trying to figure it out, but he seem to laugh and have fun? I'm not a follower so i don't know, but most people joke about other people, just jokes not to be mean or anything. He seem to have a good time?

[@FusDevil]

@@MrTirien jokes can really hurt people, plus i wouldnt say he was having a great time but he was definitely using those "great" times as a distraction to not suicide because he was alrdy depressed when he was young

[@eduardosantos-xp3iw]

I never knew he suffer from depression due to him seeing so find