Numb Feeling & Blanking Out | Cancer & Vlogmas DAY 22

[@tinaviju580]

The chronic stress, physical pain and fear a cancer patient deals with everyday no one else will understand unless they lived it. But the way you deal with it so sensibly and positively is a super power that amazes me!

[@robinwagner3293]

What they ^ said.

[@amandamiller7926]

Couldn't have said it better!! I'm unlucky enough to having to do this 100% alone because I don't have family and life does not stop. I'm not able to get out of bed anymore so income is LITERALLY zero. Now my water is shut off. No food and certainly no Xmas tree and I don't think I've been so sad my whole life...

[@WilmaBrowning-i4o]

Praying God sends you some help. Praying someone close to you(a neighbor maybe)will see your post and help you

[@kindheart629]

Which city you are in?

[@staysea71]

It's as if she doesn't have cancer. I've had family members die from cancer. I recently worked in a Peds Hem/Onc clinic, and to see children and teens ravaged with cancer is merely unbearable. Apparently, Tiffany has superpowers and an enigma. One would almost think all this is from Crohn's and IBS, but I digress. She must just have an amazing immune system for a stage 4 cancer patient.

[@carrieraymond6621]

I know 3 people who were diagnosed with stage 4 cancer 20+ years ago and yes, there was an end to their chemo. They are alive and cancer FREE today, living a normal life. So, yes, you can absolutely have hope sweet Tiffany.

[@motherofthreeb6337]

I treated my breast cancer holistically under the care of a holistic doctor. Six years cancer free! No conventional treatments!

[@montgpaula]

Our hope is in Jesus the maker of Heaven and Earth. 💙

[@ltilley7343]

​@@montgpaula Amen ❤

[@gwyn6907]

@@motherofthreeb6337Rubbish

[@gwyn6907]

Its amazing you seem to eat so much and very agile for a person with stage 4 cancer

[@Summerrose400]

The feeling numb/ blanking out is absolutely normal reaction to news be it good or bad, that’s why a second person there to listen in for you is so important. Also often nurse specialists are present after you appointment to give you time to absorb the information and answer any questions you have. You have tens of thousands of people wishing you the very best results and will still be here to cheer you on or give support when not so good. You’ve got this Tiffany ❤

[@ltilley7343]

Tiffany, It has helped me during my cancer journey to remind myself that I am just like everyone else. Nobody knows what tomorrow brings. God is with you. Waiting for results is so hard. Praying for peace while you wait, and for good results. You are loved. ❤

[@sallygard63]

Matt is absolutely 24 karat gold ! Tiffany couldn’t have found a better partner and future hubby! So loyal, loving, sweet and caring ❤ Thank goodness for Matt! ❤️

[@motherofthreeb6337]

He should just marry her instead of shacking up; aka living in sin!

[@sallygard63]

@ living in sin ??!!!! I think they’ve had more important things to worry about !! What sin for goodness sake?!! Do you realise what they’ve been through? Anyway he’s recently proposed so you can breathe a sigh of relief 😮‍💨🙄😅

[@loripugh7277]

@@motherofthreeb6337that does sound a little judgmental lol. And we aren’t supposed to judge, are we 😎

[@lizhaley803]

I was just going to compliment Matt but some others said it well…He’s a keeper!

[@kremmiz1]

@@motherofthreeb6337not a helpful comment, in the least. Not your circus, not your monkeys. ✌🏽

[@nancyp2992]

Tiffany, you are so so much better than you were last year at this time, I'm so proud of you, I'm sure you'll sail through this meeting with your doctors just fine, take care, and have a merry Christmas and a very happy new year

[@RebeccaYoung-lm8vz]

When I was given the news, I didn't need further treatment. I completely broke down crying n my doctor hugged me. I 💯 understand how your feeling. Be brave n let God have it. You are going to be fine.

[@ericaaubie860]

ALL YOU CAN DO IS WHAT YOUR DOING NOW. YOU EAT HEALTHY, EXERCISE, AND FOLLOW TREATMENT. YOU ALSO KEEP THAT POSITIVE ATTITUDE.

[@beverleyevans3262]

And avoid crowded places with a very reduced immune system

[@nancylewis3754]

We should all celebrate the small wins. No one is promised tomorrow. I love your attitude and way of dealing with what life throws at you. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@catmama54]

I’m praying for good results. Keeping a positive attitude is most important. That is what helped my friend who was told he had six months to live. He didn’t give up. He went through a year of the most horrendous treatment. One could possibly endure because it was super aggressive, but he lived. He was 41 diagnosed. He passed away 72 or 73. He had a very aggressive cancer that was inoperable. But he kept a positive attitude and the doctors all said that is one of the most important things. A patient can do.🙏✝️

[@Thekessnerclan]

Tiffany do not let anyone steal your sunshine. You are a smiling absolute delight, so bright and refreshing in a world full of darkness. Continue to be who you are by nature. That happy, olive eating, smiling, analytical gorgeous you. Remember, you can’t control what happens in life, you can only control how you react to it. Much love

[@juanitawhite7486]

Tiffany you celebrate all the little wins like you said. You might have been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer but God is still in the healing business. YOU’VE GOT THIS!! Praying when you get your results you are cancer FREE. God can heal you completely of this nasty thing they call cancer. You’re such a lovely person and your mom and Matt is equally amazing. God bless you all. 🥰💜

[@pattylyman7907]

I also blank out. When people ask what chemo drug I was given I couldn't tell them. Because I didn't really care. Thats why I told my Dr to never mention what stage Im at. I don't care. I want to do whatever I need to do for the fight. As you, I am fully aware of everything that might be ahead. But what good does it do for me to hear the brutal truth every day? It doesn't. YOU GOT THIS as do I. So lets kick butt!!!

[@sherrydawson6253]

Matt is the coolest 😎 cook ever! Love u both. Happy holidays 🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@janelleabbott2227]

Praying you and your family receive the best possible news and with God anything is possible You need a break. I pray so much that Baxter worked 100% Merry Christmas Tiffany, Matt, Amma and your entire family now and for the New Year!!!❤❤😊😊

[@canadafragrancereviewerdia9119]

You should record what the doctor says and listen to it at a later time when you’re not so anxious. We all tend to block things out under stress. Good luck with your results. We are all praying good results. You deserve it and so does Matt and Amma

[@KP-ly1qw]

Tiffany your positivity is fantastic, you go ahead and celebrate and dance to every tiny piece of positive news. Your bubbly, happy attitude is what will help you get through anything❤

[@nancyflaherty7038]

Your positive attitude is helping me as I help my husband through his Cancer treatments. Merry Christmas to you and your entire family!🙏🎅🏼🎄

[@meganryan9945]

Oh Tiffany it fills my heart every time I see you so happy and enjoying yourself🥰🎄

[@sugarplumk6838]

Hi Tiffany, I totally understand your "numb and blank" feelings. It happend to me when i got my diagnose. Doctor was talking to me and i felt like i wanna run away and wanted him to stop talking so i can leave. Didnt care what he was saying at all. Wasnt able to ask any questions. Felt so empty and in shock! I said Thank you! and quickly left doctor's office, run to the restrooms where I broke down crying. Had to put myself together to be able to leave the hospital and drive home. It was hard and i still have my eyes wattery till today only thinking about. Its 10 years ago. I hope and wish that you never ever have to feel this way again 💙 Many prayers for you, dear Tiffany 🤗

[@sheryljoubert1624]

All the best Tiff. You are teaching me saying its out of your control, so why worry so much. Be blessed and happy christmas❤

[@melissapoole8580]

I have a whole new respect for you. I have been feeling chronically ill, with shortness of breath, fatigue and lots of issues for about 2 years. This last week, I was admitted for massive pulmonary embolisms with no known cause. Called "unprovoked" embolisms. This is NOTHING compared to what you have and are dealing with. But I feel like my whole life has been turned upside. I am on blood thinners, possibly forever. The docs told me I should have been dead. It's not something that just easily goes away either, especially when they don't know why I formed such dangerous clots to begin with. So, I can only imagine with how long you have been dealing with this and how hard it has been, you have been amazingly strong. I feel so weak and it's nothing compared to your struggle.

[@mariam7203]

Exact same thing happened to my mother-in-law back in March. No known cause either. She will be on thinners for life.. pill form. Scary stuff but she is doing well now.

[@iramshawana6574]

Sending you love and prayers ❤️

[@ForeverChanged7]

Get well soon.❤

[@lindanewton1142]

Me too took me a year to feel well again

[@ElaineSharon358]

Hope you feel better soon. Praying for a better 2025

[@jh8984]

Do celebrate smalll wins. It's your life, your journey, no one should judge. Being positive and optimistic is the best attitude.

[@carolynhall1302]

You're such an inspiration Tiffany! So upbeat and full of energy, considering what you're having to cope with. Matt is a love, so is Amma. And you have lovely friends who obviously appreciate the effort you make to nurture the friendships, so important!

[@d.o.y.vcaninebehaviour.hea1558]

In Australia. Christmas is always boiling hot. I’d love a cold Christmas. Merry Christmas Tiff. You are incredible. 💙

[@MamaChapinaEnUSA]

You are getting results so fast this time! I am sure the doctors didn’t want you to spend Christmas waiting anxiously for results so they sped them up! ❤❤❤

[@agoodlifelived]

People can be really annoying with their comments. Your positive thinking doesn't mean you are clueless! People think they know everything. Just take it with a grain of salt 🤩

[@shirleypoplo-ej7lz]

I get tired of the know it alls !! Now I know some people can have knowledge about certain things ! I think it’s a very great statement. UNTILL YOU WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!!

[@createwithlinda5181]

You can tell your self anything you want…God bless you Tiffany!🙏😘

[@ForeverChanged7]

Celebrate the small wins. Live your life, just like you're doing. You make our lives better by alliwing us to be part of your lovely family and friends. Merry Christmas Tiffany! Lovely content!

[@bethbonome1226]

How wonderful life is with you in the world 🎀

[@ericaaubie860]

IT IS OK TO CELEBRATE EACH MILESTONE. EVERYTIME YOU FINISH CHEMO, AND EVERYTIME SCANS ARE GOOD CELEBRATE.

[@JenniferPerrin-r9j]

You are allowed to celebrate every victory, big and small! Also, don’t put your life on hold-live each day to it’s fullest❤

[@MrsSherrymcm]

Merry Christmas to you, beautiful Tiffany! Merry Christmas 🎄 to your entire family ❤

[@jmc9937]

celebrate you girl!!!!! enjoy truth is none os us know what our next steps are in life..celebrate!!

[@TheWondabar]

Good luck to you Tiffany, and Merry Christmas!

[@WilmaBrowning-i4o]

Tiffany you are such a blessing and i am praying for you each day. I love your sweet disposition and the happiness you show .God bless you always.

[@kateatherton3002]

Anxiety about scans is a very real thing and I don't think you can underestimate its power to take over every waking moment! I finished treatment a year ago and had a staging CT scan last Saturday. I got a call from my oncologist on Thursday to say all clear. 3 months to the next one. Feels an age! I'm thinking of you and hope you receive reassuring results. Don't let anyone put you off feeling positive! Celebrate the good moments. A bit depressing otherwise! You're right. The first time you're told you have cancer is the absolute pits. I feel better able to deal with whatever comes now while celebrating a good scan x

[@gerryryan1372]

Hi Tiffany 👋 wishing you a merry Christmas 🎅 🎄 to you, Matt, Amma and your family and friends 🧡 ❤

[@dottybb1]

I just love you and your entire family you deserve a break I am praying that you get good news

[@jackiemckinley9533]

❤ it amazes me how much energy you have you've got more than me and I haven't got cancer well done you XX

[@australienne11]

It's quite often helped by the steroids...you just don't see her down days. Also, she has small amounts of cancer, currently. She didn't feel unwell when they were detected. Side effects from the treatment are very well countered with new drugs, these days.

[@rosieschweebie]

We are having Ham for our Christmas dinner Tiffany. 😊 Merry Christmas 🎄🎄🎄 We got This!💙💙

[@robinwagner3293]

Whatever the case may be, I am praying for the best for you. Merry Christmas.

[@Diane269]

Dear Tiffany...you never have to explain how you are dealing with your illness! You have every right to hope and dream and do whatever you like! The nerve of people commenting on that just gets to me.I am a 40 year breast cancer survivor and still get nervous about my Mammogram and call from my Doctor. God Bless you honey from Canada and take good care of yourself!❤️🫂🙏

[@myahowlett6995]

You have stage 4 cancer i must admit your are immensely brave to face it like you are and not crumble like some people would, terminal cancer can go with a miracle I've seen it happen but not in all cases hope you get the news you want

[@marthainsalaco9266]

Merry Christmas Tiffany and family ❤

[@maryellenmonk3481]

You sure are allowed to celebrate, Tiff! Celebrate every day. I am with you every step of this journey. You are very much loved!❤

[@TanyaRando]

It's a great attitude to try to have, celebrate the small wins! 💙💖

[@corneliusdenise]

Tiffany your positive attitude is amazing. You GOT This!!!!

[@TheoriginalANGEK439]

That’s quick. A few days and you get results. Any thing else you have a scan for is 3-4 weeks on the NHS unless they find something and it’s urgent. 🤞FINGERS CROSSED. 👍💙👍

[@australienne11]

Specialists will be off Christmas to late January, in my experience. They're taking care of results so if she needs continued treatment, it won't be delayed six weeks.

[@joyhayes5735]

Wishing you a Wonderful Christmas Tiffany and your lovely family.... lot's of love from Limerick Ireland... you've got this 💙🎄

[@ckerspilo]

I know your city because I've watched Angela's Ashes a hundred times. I'm sure it's a lot better now though.

[@madalenacalleja1199]

Sweetheart enjoy it every day celebrate and forget about it . Forget and ignore all those with silly comments Just do what if got to do We all should celebrate Moore live everyday and people should be always Moore positive no matter if we r ill or not Sending lots of love to you and your beautiful family Merry Xmas 🎄🙏🌸🤶🏻

[@brendamacqueen2106]

“If you know you know”. 😂😂😂

[@melaniewalker5226]

You're so lovely, wishing you Mat Mum and all of you're family an extra special Christmas.

[@annag201]

Loving ure vlogmas vlogs Tiffany ☺️ always look forward to your uploads it's very cold n scotland we been told where in for snow ☃️ hope your having a lovely evening 💙

[@ElaineSharon358]

Wishing you and you our family a very happy Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤💙

[@dancingdolly8335]

Sending blessings and love for good results xx

[@susannebyrne7488]

You must always warm your plates before dishing up . There’s nothing worse than serving hot food onto cold plates, especially in winter.

[@wanya_telborn]

Well there are actually a lot of things that are worse

[@sandywhite9796]

Haha. I think that’s just an expression but I suppose it’s a good idea!

[@a.life.reimagined]

Never ever warmed our plates. Sounds weird.

[@chuchu1051]

@@a.life.reimaginedGood restaurants always serve hot food on warm plates. I recently purchased a range cooker and it comes with a plate warming rack.

[@paulaross3106]

Bless you and your recovery 🎉❤🙏🤩🎄🎁⛄🧑‍🎄💯

[@terriny1040]

Merry Christmas Tiffany to you all. Hoping it’s filled with many smiles 💞

[@darknesswinz0525]

Merry Christmas 🎁🎄 stay safe

[@G-wk4gt]

Tiffany, the way you handle this stage 4 is the perfect way to do so. When someone says “Tiffany this or that” in my mind they are being awfully foolish! First off they don’t know what’s headed their own way in life! Would they be squawking the same way about things if it were them? Secondly, you totally SHOULD say it’s your last chemo etc because the treatment of this sort of thing is ever changing for the better! You could go from this being your last chemo for real, to just needing a new drug you can take until you’re very old like 100 years old! Medical science is changing so quickly. There are already medicines for some cancers that require ZERO chemo because other drugs do a better job at keeping it at bay for a ton of years. So absolutely celebrate every victory! I have always had a feeling you will some day become a very old happy woman and what a shame it would be if you listened to any naysayers telling you to not celebrate victories!?? Yes celebrate your way to 100 years old!

[@maureenchalloner5859]

Its best to keep busy ..2 days will come and go fast .you have come this far .and done well .love and good wishes ❤❤❤

[@Sammy-il1qf]

When you go for your results, press record on your phone so you can play it back later. I am sure the chemo will have worked!

[@PaulineHilton-w7u]

When I had a heart attack the drs.put in 2 stents and told me 5 yrs to live that was 23yrs ago the stents only good for 10 yrs hope their not rusting in my heart merry Christmas and remember Jesus has our backs love nyc usa

[@pemachotso6727]

Hi dear Tiffany: Enjoy your Christmas time with all your loved ones!!! What's better than that? All the best and MERRY CHRISTMAS❤❤

[@raneewike506]

My husband was the cook in our family and watching Matt cook is very bittersweet for me. As I have said before...I love the love you two have for oneanother.

[@debbieploschnitznig2576]

So glad you are keeping busy. Continued prayers for healing

[@angeliccare9553]

I believe when we get into that numb feeling during Dr. Appts. Its Gods way of protecting us during that moment. ❤

[@gailhanna3576]

Not gods way. It’s our bodies way. I know. I’m not religious at all and dealing with huge health problems with my husband.

[@joanbrucks446]

Positivity and optimism are healing, blessing forres! The indwelling Christ's faith and patience are, too.🤩👍 "Hold fast to your profession of faith."💞✝️

[@wheelswheelchairgirl]

Roast looked soooo good .... love your nails Tiff , I have green nail varnish , wearing red at mo for Christmas... ❤💙💙🎅🤶⛄️🌲

[@carolhyduck4063]

I think of you often and pray all will be well. You are a ray of sunshine in to all of us. God Bless you at Christmas time.

[@karenanderson717]

Love and prayers for great results. Merry Christmas and may 2025 be a great year for you and your family and friends.

[@veronicafall8626]

You have gained so much maturity and peace since you started this journey - a journey no one wants to be on. My Christmas Wish is for you to get really good news about how wonderfully well your treatment is going. God Bless to you and your family!

[@VivianlovesRL]

Tiffany how do you feel about the idea of having a tree year round and decorating it with the appropriate season?

[@angeliccare9553]

I know this idea is so fun!!

[@TanyaRando]

I've heard of this idea, and it sounds fabulous, if you like a free up. Turkey is pretty dry really, although the best one I cooked, I accidentally cooked it breast down and it was SO moist. Then loads of people told me that's the way that you're supposed to cook them. My excuse was it was a fresh turkey from a farm, and huge, so it wasn't trussed the same way as they are in a supermarket 😂

[@cathygail9204]

Ha! My kids' kindergarten teacher had a tree like that in her classroom. Christmas, New Year, Valentine day, St. Paddy's day, Resurrection Sunday, Thanksgiving, all of it! The kids loved it!

[@jmc9937]

girl you can ay whatever you want darling and hopes everything I love!!!!

[@tiffanys9493]

What you say makes total sense to me. It is important to take things one day at a time . And celebrate each win -“last chemo ever”. Because yes, it could be the last chemo or it could be the last chemo for now. And simply celebrate that. I agree with you. Live in the moment !

[@KikiBear_01]

Hi Tiffany, staying positive with you, not worrying about the future, not worrying about scan results. Think of the best scenario for as far as you know, you’re done chemo and it eliminated any issues and you’re free of appointments and follow-up for a beautiful 3-6 months or however long. Keep healthy and happy as we all try everyday … good food, activity, working, playing, sleeping … less stressing about anything out of our control. Matt is wonderful and I’m sure a sense of calm and warm hugs when you need to feel safe. You’ve got this! 💙Your attitude and family and friends circle is priceless and a big part of a healthy recipe for a great life. 😘💚XO

[@itsonlyme4759]

Dearest Tiffany, please excuse me but *F* cancer!! It's Christmas, your favourite time of the year, so enjoy it and make memories. WE GOT THIS 💙 🙏🏻💙🙏🏻💙🙏🏻💙🙏🏻

[@robertashaffer3950]

Dearest Tiff I cannot imagine what it's like to have to wait for scan results and then receive them from the doctor, however I really admire you. You help people with illnesses and without, how our state of mind is so important and something that needs to be guarded at all times. I am in my head A LOT and that has caused me unnecessary strife for as long as I can remember. Your words are encouraging. Matt's cousins seem so lovely. You guys look like you really enjoyed each other's company. The meal Matt cooked looked incredible! You guys are probably sleeping now. It is 7:25 pm Sunday night here in Toronto. See you tomorrow dear girl! We love you lots ❣️❣️ WE GOT THIS 💙

[@oneseeker2]

Tiffany is a testament of many positive characteristics. Character is everything, she isn't mean spirited.

[@LovedbyYah]

That Christmas 🎄 pudding looks amazing they put flames on it .

[@sunnydays802]

Happy Christmas Tiffany and Matt!!

[@yvonnespearing]

I just love your calming voice.

[@michellecleverley6293]

Hi Tiffany So lovely to watch your Volgmas. So nice to see you having fun with the family. Be thinking of you on results day.Hope you get good result.

[@brigittecrawley1872]

You guys are always so busy. Nice to have so many friends and family to play games with.

[@kristenwalker4747]

Hey Tiffany, You got this. Your such a stong brave women. Its your journey, your body your life. You keep being positive. God is in contol he can heal your cancer 💯 for it to never return. Just ignore the negative people trying to tell you what to think. How dare they tell you not to be positive. I got your back..Im hear for you In these Tiffany thinks streets. Merry Christmas to you Mat and all your family ❤🎉🫶🏾🧑‍🎄🥰🤗

[@mymoonearthsun]

Your videos help so many of us who are going through the same thing! I thank you for that! Sending lots of love from Maryland!❤ PS We ALL got this!

[@tanya8940]

❤❤

[@caitlinscancerchronicles]

I don’t like turkey too much either but I LOVE games!

[@57msdeb]

It’s all about living in the moment! Absolutely, celebrate each victory, and just take things one at a time-one day, one hour, one minute if that’s where you are. Each good moment is a gift we can’t overlook. Blessings to you, Sweet Girl!

[@elainefunes4294]

Maybe we're misinformed that cancer thrives in your body on sugar. It doesn't seem to affect you however. You are a walking miracle dear Tiffany. Take care.

[@australienne11]

It's a myth. Having less sugar is good for your overall health.

[@sarahrichardson302]

The meal looked delicious and you all seemed to be having lots of fun together 🎄❤️

[@FuzzyDogFosterMom]

I cant imagine why anyone would make an unhelpful remark, especially at this time of year. Tiffany, you are a doll and I’m praying for you every day. 💙💙💙

[@monanwright]

Tiffany, always keep your joyful spirit! Everything you say is true, you won't forget what's going. You deserve happiness even if it is small wins , like you say. Merry Christmas! ❤❤❤❤

[@juliaforbes-nish9027]

Matt is a treasure! My hubby can't boil water lol

[@melaniecharlton7121]

We never have turkey,we always have chicken for Christmas😊

[@lorrainesmith6464]

You are so right to celebrate each step you go through.. Always nice to stay positive. You are doing so well. Be proud of yourself .xx

[@cher-ker]

Hi sweet Tiffany, You truly GOT THIS Always In MY Thoughts and Prayer 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤🇿🇦

[@paulinerabbitte1532]

Please god tiff your results will be good i have to wait 4 weeks for mine its in gods hands now love your videos they help me a lot thinking of you all ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@juliekelderman4041]

I'm glad you're getting your results before Christmas, then you can truly relax and enjoy your holiday. I believe you will be fine and hear wonderful news!

[@irenedonohue1406]

Matt's dinner looked amazing! So glad you had a lovely evening with Matt's family, good for the soul! Praying for good results, Tiffany.