tiktoks by, for and about neurodivergent and/or mentally ill ppl - episode 4

[@violingineer7862]

"overanalyzing people's words and behaviors is just another symptom of not understanding social cues." Like, you have to analyze all social cues, since none of it comes naturally. So then when it comes to fiction, each phrase or action is 'meaningful' or intentional to the character or plot or whatever. And since fiction is a static thing, it's not going to be wiggly and changy like talking to a person, so you can take your time and review things to fully understand (or overanalyze) every detail, because you finally get the chance to take one specific character action and figure out everything about it instead of, like, talking to someone, because you're supposed to like listen and also talk and you don't have that same time to think through stuff. or maybe that's just me.

[@gagrin1565]

Yup. Stories make sense because you KNOW that the writer put intention behind everything they choose to describe, but with IRL interactions - I just saw your eye twitch, WHAT DOES IT MEAN?! Nothing? Everything? Oh shit I didn't hear something I was distracted. What's that buzzing sound? Oh fuck you want me to respond don't you aaaaaaaah!

[@sarahbarabe8470]

This is the most accurate and personal call out I have ever ever read

[@lesbiangoddess290]

Bitch me too. Fiction always made more sense to me because it had structure and the double meaning had a purpose which I loved because structure is my absolute shit but when it comes to having real conversations they make me so anxious I just stay silent until I can interject when they talk about something I know alot about, I'm always over analysing and over processing jokes since alot of the time I dont get it but pretend to get it because being different is too stressful. Anways so I'm going to the GP now to see what's going on

[@lesbiangoddess290]

@@gagrin1565 that literally my inner dialogue.

[@lesbiangoddess290]

@@sarahbarabe8470 I know right!!! I felt so personally attacked

[@Staarbo]

Not me tearing up over a frog stuffed animal named Twig

[@notacringyusername9475]

me too and it's not even the first time i've seen the twig tik tok in this-- i knew what was coming and still teared up---

[@hannahhernandez1797]

SAME I STARTED SOBBING

[@mc.gemstone]

I teared up at that last part so much. ;-; Now I really want a frog plushy.

[@definitelynotavegan7285]

I-I am almost crying. Thank you twig

[@essr4580]

For real, twig really gets me

[@dr.heinzdoofenshmirtz8513]

CW: Tics. Okay hold up. There are people out there who go out of their way to trigger tics?? Like i thought it was common sense not to do that. I have never even thought about doing something like that. Triggering someone's tics is like telling a person who had just gotten into a car crash to get into a car. Like what????

[@isaacgoldie5873]

Yeah. I went to a friend’s house back in November (when lockdown was eased so we could meet up) and he said poggers. I ticced (my tic is that I do the face) and asked for him not to say that (he didn’t see me do it) and he immediately said it again so he could see me do it.

[@marinamorton8458]

yeah it’s fucked up

[@whata_jackalope6703]

Yeah I’ve had situations where people try to either trigger my tics or get me to repeat something “funny” (uwu, daddy, *s3x noises*) while I’m mid tic attack, which only adds to the difficulty for trying to clear my head :/ Thankfully I’ve got poggers friends who respect my boundaries now 😎

[@marinamorton8458]

@@whata_jackalope6703 jesus i cant believe people did that to you

[@Uncann7]

Yes, it isn't even just with tics. I find that normal neurotypical people will go out of their way to trigger anything they find funny. For example, I have OCD. I was sitting next to a kid in class that knew I was diagnosed with this. They'd constantly do annoying stuff to 'trigger' my OCD, it was annoying. Luckily nothing ever happened.

[@MontyGeldard]

stop i cant have so many realisations, you mean all these things i though was normal was due to my mental illness and Neurodiversity and no one told me

[@rattyonechild233]

ikr

[@-zyn-8142]

Same fam. Same.

[@destryedbyhippiepwrs]

Especially the textures one

[@xoaningout8784]

same

[@C-3-DAR]

SAME I THOUGHT EVERYONE HATED HOW COTTON FELT BCUSZ IT HURT THE BACK OF MY THROUGH BUT IG IM JUST MENTALLY ILL

[@RazmiWellness]

I'm 49, pretty sure I'm autistic and crying because I wish you all were around for my very misunderstood childhood. I'm so happy that your generation has this platform for self expression. I'm continually blown away by the fact that I am not wierd, just wired differently. My God, how many of these folks even look like my people. I feel like we're only at the beginning of a huge Civil rights movement for those of us who are neurodiverse.

[@margicates553]

Yes. There is a huge movement building and it’s very exciting! I love seeing all these young adults embracing stimming, communicating in their own way and demanding autonomy.

[@hat7475]

Ugh, you two ma'ams/or preferred identity, really make me sparkle with joy! I'm happy that some adults understand, or in this case, *are* like the people here. I'd like to include myself too but I haven't been diagnosed. All I want to say is that I really appreciate your existence and support! ❤️

[@kissit012]

Just diagnosed at 31. It was a hard time coming up, but I’m still kind of in the “young/hip” range in certain areas of social media. We have internet and are still alive to benefit from the progress, even if it is a bit “late” for some of us.

[@reclusiarchgrimaldus1269]

Careful how you saythat name

[@enk335]

💖💖

[@froggy-boi7560]

my friends: telling me something my ADHD brain: i can hear you, but i wont me: *wut*

[@cadethebabe3222]

My friends: telling me something My ADHD brain: okay cool bUT TELL THEM ABOUT THAT TIME YOU- Me: nO

[@elizabethcabbage9817]

Or anyone for that matter skkvkskv

[@mysticrose2000]

SAME! I will think I am focused, but the moment that they stop talking my brain decides that the words they said are to never be remembered again

[@miraclerats2989]

You: commenting My brain: 🎶Some look for trouble, while others don’t🎶 Me: again?

[@miilk.]

wonderful now i also have that song stuck in my head 💀

[@specialsauce.]

Whenever I see ADHD tiktoks, I really feel bad for people who have it, but don't know they have it, or can't get a diagnosis or medication/therapy. Living with ADHD is so difficult, especially when we don't know what's wrong with you. I'm so very grateful that I had someone who noticed my symptoms and someone who could pay for my medication, because the medication helps me so much, and I'm so grateful that I could learn about ADHD, how neurodivergent brains function, how to treat it and how to live with it. I just wish that everyone could have that too. I imagine someone watching these tiktoks and wondering if they are neurodivergent, and they have been living their whole lives thinking that something was wrong with them or that they were just lazy. It's so devastating think about someone going through the same things I did, but not getting any help, so I really hope you guys are doing okay. It will get better, I promise.

[@ashumii7733]

i'm fairly certain i have adhd (or something like it) but i cant get a medical diagnosis (its a p long story..) and its so difficult, it's affecting my school work because i just can't sit down, focus, and get it done. i would just rather be doing something else than my school work so my brain goes okay we're not gonna do our work

[@Edenistics]

i have a lot of the symptoms of adhd, but nobody seems no notice or think it's adhd

[@froggy-boi7560]

i got diagnosed with adhd and sometimes it fun, and other times its living hell

[@pinkapoppy]

i hate it so so much. i used to do so great in school because i was really smart so the tiny amount of homework we had would take 5 minutes and it was okay if it was handed in late or i didn’t revise because i was intelligent. but then homework increased and i went to a school where more people were just as clever as i am and i needed to do more homework and it’s now currently close to impossible to actually do homework, or revise for tests. i have a gcse in 3 days and yet i am just struggling so so hard to revise. i spend most afternoons and evenings sitting at my desk, not using my phone because anxiety tells me i’m slacking off and i’m lazy but i’m not able to concentrate or do work or start even 1 5 minute practice question. thankfully some of my teachers at school noticed my lack of homework and told my head of year, who is arranging extra time in the exam for me so this might be a step towards a diagnosis. i also always feel guilty for thinking this, but if i do have adhd and it’s not something else, i desperately want to try medication; anything to calm my hyperactivity and help me to settle my thoughts and to be able to focus and organise myself a little better, but i’m worried that my mum would hate the idea of me going on medication in order to do homework. i also feel like i’m cheating, like i don’t need it and that i should be trying harder because it’s unfair that my friends are also struggling with procrastination yet i’m getting special treatment.

[@pinkapoppy]

lol sorry i wrote a full on essay, just needed to put my thoughts into words to process i suppose.

[@alegria1813]

Metaphors are a life savior like seriously, the problem is when other people doesn't get it

[@zoki4291]

Sometimes when you don't know properly the problem/feeling, you just gotta see if you can project it into another thing and solve it that way. There can definately be a mathematical metaphor with this.

[@tristantheoofer2]

for meh u gotta be rly literal or i wont get it bc i have autism

[@thesilentmarauder3758]

YES THEY ARE

[@chronicallydrew]

i never knew that metaphors instead of feelings was a neurodivergent thing

[@applesmith8129]

I use metaphors a lot like more than I make up original sentences and I used to be so good but now I’m kind of like eh and it really really makes me upset because that’s how I communicate

[@nikolasslead6582]

2:10 ..... oh .... OH... OH NO. I definitely did that. I also joined debate, and now my dad yells at me for 'talking like a debater' because it's the most comfortable and effective way for me to get my point across. He went on a 10 minute tirade about me using 'therefore' in a sentence casually.

[@heyoitsel7705]

OH NO talking like a smart person how dare you! My friends constantly get mad at me because I use 'therefore' all the time, not because of debate but because of math.

[@loreaccuratethor]

Not me an ADHD smart bisexual who nobody can understand because half of my sentences are way more mature then I am because the only people I talked to as a kid were adults, not me at all. And then communicating with people as thought they are adults and being way more advanced than anyone else in my life.

[@gagrin1565]

And you realise that it doesn't pissing matter anyway cos the only person who actually gives a toss about any of these subjects is you, the weirdo, who cared enough to actually try like a loser. Sorry, that's not aimed at anyone. My brain just hates me at the moment.

[@blasianking4827]

Bro I swearrrrrrrr on god I do this shit, I don't use things like therefore but I do make an active effort to explain and argue points in an articulate, specific way. I also get into a lot of politics and tend to know a smattering of shit here or there about disorders and social shit. Not only am I kind of a recluse, there's also not many, if any people around to make friends with so online is da weyyyy

[@haveagoodmourning]

@@loreaccuratethor i'm lesbian but highkey relate to like 99% of that. nobody can ever understand me and it's FRUSTRATING. no, teacher, i dont want you to be like "oh good vocabulary" every five seconds, and no, frickin classmates, i don't want you to look at me like i'm an alien from outer space every time i say PERFECTLY NORMAL WORDS it doesn't help that i have: 1) a lisp 2) a stutter that sometimes just gets "stuck" on words and just repeats a syllable for like 2 minutes straight 3) i talk ridiculously fast it's a wonder anyone comprehends me at all

[@saphyyyra]

About to get my first formal mental diagnosis, bc my abuser never allowed me to actually go to a psychiatrist. I'm almost 100% sure I have at least ADHD. Wish me luck! Update: you guys, i finally got my diagnosis: I'm very depressed and very anxious and I do have ADHD, but my psychiatrist said that, in order to treat it, we need to get my mental illnesses out of the way first! I'm starting my meds on Monday (wich is also my birthday, btw)!❤️❤️

[@nagitheanimedragon5514]

I hope you’ll get a proper diagnosis! Good luck :D

[@simon-tq5bd]

Good luck. Sorry about ur past, but is in behind u now. I'm proud of u.

[@saphyyyra]

Ty to you both! It's amazing to get some support ^^

[@babydai5472]

Good luck friend, you're very strong and better things will come 💜

[@elizabethgrey6040]

Good luck! I’m rooting for you :)

[@Haze-xr9rc]

0:39 the 7 genders - ADHD - Neurotypical - Non canonical Autism - Semi canonical ADHD - Needs to talk to a doctor - Definitely something - A cat

[@basildoingthings819]

Y’all ever just try to remember your childhood and can’t?? Like,,, all of elementary school?? It’s just gone no more

[@-positive_flower-]

I'm still having my childhood but- i can't remember anything about my sister being in middle school. My sister said its probably Trauma-

[@basildoingthings819]

-Positive Flower- I’m also still having my childhood. But now I’m in high school and can’t remember almost all of elementary and middle school?? Is it trauma?? Who knows.

[@margicates553]

Trauma does that 😞

[@adrianbristol1471]

My case is the exact opposite, I remember absolutely everything from as far back as a baby. My parents didn't believe me until I recounted some random trip when I was 8 months old. Apparently trauma does that too.

[@3ll3llyyy]

same i cant remember shit about my childhood.

[@BlakeGeometrio]

The overdressed analogy is so accurate.

[@tristantheoofer2]

wait dat was an analogy?

[@melanieb6214]

COMPLETELY. I was pretty stunned by that one.

[@ywyyeyeh2334]

--5--5

[@ywyyeyeh2334]

w

[@aarasko]

RIGHT?

[@jester6784]

9:32 I have never felt. so called out. in my entire life.

[@emma7933]

For me it was the "socially overdressed" one (I'm autistic and kind of did the whole "little professor" thing as a child then never grew out of it and it can cause problems). Though admittedly the things I want to talk about are either politics, religion, my special interest, or disabled rights so I do understand that maybe the random kid sat next to me in History doesn't want to know that.

[@momimelodies]

SAME! Literally came to the comments to say that, it was like an a t t a c k

[@tovawong2081]

Me too, idk if im nd or not but that one hit me like a fucking train 😭

[@xsweetiebloomx605]

@@emma7933 IT WAS BOTH OF THESE. I'm either dressing up super formal or dressing like a 5-year old, there's no in-between-- But fancy speaking has always been a part of me because I love words and wordiness in general. And no I don't remember my childhood because school traumatized me both bc of peers and bc of subjects that were too hard, also I suspect that I was a gifted kid for at least Literature but I'm still not sure-

[@monsterfucker.]

Exactlyyyy

[@Olivia-pj9wy]

The second to last one kills me. My parents are so convinced I didn’t have adhd as a child, but I know I did because I’ve talked things out with my therapist and can see the symptoms that I’ve tried and failed to point out to my parents. I was always good academically until my depression kicked in, which then led to that and anxiety being diagnosed for me, but I wasn’t diagnosed with having ADHD until I was 20.

[@elainaformica3355]

that one hit deep for me too. I think that I might have autism, and I have a friend who I think has similar struggles. There was a time when my friends and I where worried for his safety. I wonder if he would have thought about unaliving himself if he had parents who supported him. It's been 3 months, but that video still brought tears to my eyes.

[@marzipanmenthol]

me, almost 20, with my shiny new adhd diagnosis and the asd PowerPoint I'm preparing for my parents:

[@Olivia-pj9wy]

@@marzipanmenthol also planning to make a PowerPoint about asd to my parents lol

[@jenajackson9679]

Compilations like these really make me want to see someone because I relate a little too hard. (Also, this deep rumbling pulse is going off in my head and I can’t tell if it’s my head or someone mowing their garden 😭😤)

[@matthias5435]

Rub the skin in front of your ears :) itll calm the little muscles down

[@indigoollie6544]

"Laura, Definitely Something" What a mood lmao. my parents wont take me to a specialist because they think im faking it for attention, and they don't see why "everyone your age needs to label themselves." i don't want a label i want a fucking diagnosis. if i had cancer and went to the doctor that wouldn't be me labeling myself, that would be me getting help. i'm pretty sure i'm autistic or have something with similar symptoms, but they refuse to take me seriously. sorry for the rant, im just really fucking pissed

[@anxiouscatgod3125]

12:43 So I'm almost positive that I have ADHD and this is exactly the kind of thing that I experience. I was really good at school earlier in life but now that I am realizing that I have basically all the symptoms, I know that it's going to be a lot harder to convince my parents to get me diagnosed. I tried telling my mom about it, but she straight up told me that she "knows people with ADHD" and that I'm not like them. My mom teaches high school and almost certainly meant that she has met disruptive teen boys who get bad grades and are hyperactive. She has also convinced herself that I am not a bad student, so I find it hard to tell her when my grades are slipping.

[@inkmink8957]

I didn’t come to this comment section to be attacked...

[@gooeyboba9838]

You. Read. My. Mind.

[@evejeanmusic]

Literally in the exact same situation...

[@ageneraldisaster3643]

same here omg

[@Pearpopi]

literally the same for me they also wanted me to stop being 'different' and that i am just normal but my adhd has been getting progressively worse in my life and then with Covid it has really hit me hard so idk how far its gonna get

[@mandylatimer1607]

9:32 this called me out so hard. It made me feel like I was being backed into a corner and I physically scrunched up as if I was being backed into a corner

[@sunnysideofthings]

same akgsdkjg it was literally like they were looking at ME how did they know all of that ??

[@Hemoglobin404]

I did literally the same, i was like, liying on my reclining chair and i got to the edge of the seat just as they started talking. It was scary af

[@jvseventeen]

Same lol I felt very specifically targeted by that one

[@aarasko]

SAME LIKE I DID NOT EXPECT TO BE STRIPPED LIKE THAT

[@Amanda-eh8zf]

SAME

[@gr_00vy]

8:08 BRO I GIVE LETTERS AND NUMBERS STORIES LMAO I remember when I was a kid when I would write my name (Ryleigh) the g would be protecting the h from I and the y and L would be trying to protect the I as well LOL. I also thought when doing math for example 8-6=2 I used to think that 8 and 6 are 2's parents and they are divorced 6 is the mom and 8 is the dad and the mom (6) hates the dad and when I subtract them and get the answer I imagine that it means that 6 is coming to get 2 from their dads house LOL! (I still do this)

[@TheJ3573R]

Yeah! Also, this helps me understand the subject

[@gr_00vy]

@@TheJ3573R glad to help :P

[@xsweetiebloomx605]

OH MY GOD I DID SOMETHING SIMILAR Sometimes in history I would kinda just make OOC skits in which, say, Napoleon is like actually friends with the enemy and they're having a tea party (I love tea) or something lmao But of course I would also picture everything as it's supposed to be, and it was fun but it kept me from paying attention to dates that were said during class :/

[@Beechepisode]

Forget about learning styles trying getting emotionally attached to COSTUMES in a VIDEOGAME

[@echoweb2]

I did the same exact thing! for example Upper case and lower case b were family and seen as rich, and elegant and upper case D wanted to be just like them but lower case d is rebellious and goes in the opposite direction

[@dillpickles5012]

When I was a kid I was intensely analytical and I watched movies all the time. So when I didn’t have my own words from a situation I’d say a quote from a movie and that was enough to get me through until I could people-watch enough to analyze understand the cues. Once when I was a toddler my mom left me at my grandmas house for the first time to help her friend give birth. My grandma called and said I was standing in the driveway and said, “I’m afraid. I want to go home.” And my mom laughed and informed my grandma that I was quoting the Aristocats.

[@wallfishz]

I imediently knew what movie that was from...

[@sapphirefire291]

5:04. i haven’t been diagnosed with anything but i wanna put in my “experiences”(idk what to call them). so i feel disgusting when i touch anything that makes any part of me sticky. it’s usually sweet things like fizzy drinks or certain fruits and i won’t touch anything until i wash the sticky away. as i’m washing it off i feel the need to just have the water running over, usually my hands, because it soothes me. also those scratchy sounds, nails on chalkboards included. like i will cry if i hear anything like it. forks on metal plates, bad zipper sounds, etc

[@hell0ki77y6]

For me it’s when my lettuce or food in my burger slips out. Idk why but it gets me SUPER mad and I’ll start stuffing the food back in my burger. Another one is when I’m frying an egg and the yolk pops. Like I will start cursing at the egg ✋😩🗿

[@virtualakuno4281]

Oil is like. My one weakness.

[@wallfishz]

I have the same things, it sucks

[@khaenriya]

i have the exact opposite of this where if something looks like it'll make my skin feel sticky, i crave it. i need to touch it, it needs to be in my hands RIGHT NOW

[@babydai5472]

Okay but the one about metaphors hits hard cause trying to explain how I feel is so hard, the only reason I even started to suspect I have adhd is cause I saw relatable things and went "oh wait that's a thing healthy people don't do??" Even with my formally diagnosed depression and anxiety, I only realized it was that because I saw things online back then and well now I can't exactly show my psychiatrist that "hey look at these memes, this is how I feel"

[@magentamovie6520]

Yes I love these comps! I have notifs on and I always try to comment

[@intellectualInsectoid]

i see every one of ur comments and im v thankful!

[@kate.6262]

9:14 this happened to me! I didn't want to eat homemade sweet potato fries because I found the texture unbearable, and my parents forced me to eat them the next day. I skipped breakfast cause I didn't want to eat them, but when it came to lunch I was so hungry I forced myself to eat them till I projectile vomited onto the floor :/

[@feitan7130]

i think a lot of us with textural issues face this, bc those like... people who teach you how to raise kids?? will say that you dont have likes and dislikes, theyre "learnt" bc as per they dont know how to deal with nd children. i've got many but roast pumpkin was the worst one by far, that'll make me vomit just thinking about the texture

[@jaychilton9507]

I wasnt made to eat a certain food for the next few meals (and I'm glad that didn't happen), but I definitely remember sitting at the table long after the others were finished, crying because I couldn't bear to eat a certain type of food, like broccoli stalks :(

[@kate.6262]

@@jaychilton9507 I HATE broccoli stalks. The leaves I'm fine with, but the stalks I just can't bear. good to know I'm not the only one ^^;

[@jaychilton9507]

@@kate.6262 I'm glad I'm not the only one too! They're so gross right? The taste plus the texture, it's not good at all 😨😖

[@kate.6262]

@@jaychilton9507 They're so NASTY. The texture... i don't even know how to describe it, it's just like biting into a stick 😖

[@crystalocelot1641]

I hate that society has made it so that basically 70% of me and my personality is in one way or any other socially unacceptable

[@adonii8364]

1:27 made me Google “what’s exploding head syndrome?” and I experience that every time I’m about to go to sleep. I thought it was normal, but I guess it makes sense that your brain... shouldn’t jumpscare you.

[@nothere142]

Oh my god is that what it is? I keep having it every now and again and it annoys me so badly like I just want to sleep please-

[@adonii8364]

@@nothere142 Apparently, mine comes in waves so it’s easing up a little. Instead of happening every night it’s happening like, once a week. Maybe yours will ease up too? Try to relax some more, I read somewhere that it can be developed because of stress.

[@jamjams_143]

umm that happens to me sometimes but i probably don't have it it still scares the shit out of me

[@skeletized]

oh my god me too! i was so worried i was losing my mind or something

[@arianavail]

You can think someone’s tick is cute without forcing them to do it. Just smile when you hear it and then show the person you’re more focused on what they’re saying/doing. Like it’s really not that hard a concept lol.

[@meteorsoda369]

The first one- it’s not normal?? Well i guess it’s another one for neurodivergent bingo :D

[@Delta9Philosopher]

Textures can literally hard stop my brain. Like styrofoam(especially rubbing together) or powedered milk in a bag being squeezed.

[@stuffiek7466]

0:00 YOU’RE TELLING THAT’S NOT NORAML? THESE TYPES OF TIKTOKS GIVE ME SO MANY REALIZATIONS THAT I START TO QUESTION EVERYTHING 😭🤚

[@spooksboh6251]

5:04 there is nothing, let me stress this, nothing i hate more than velvety textures. i touch velvet or a peach and i freak out and scrub my skin till it gets red and i my teeth hurt and i tear up. i hate food with mixed textures (if you put raisins in anything i WILL spit it out) also whole wheat pasta and chickpeas are like,,, velvet adjacent lmao

[@coolrecorderguy4206]

OH god velvet ANGERS me fuckkk I’m happy someone else shares the same rage

[@joy7367]

aaah yes velvet is not good like especially the hard kind? like some soft velvety things can be ok for me. peaches tho i really don't understand how people eat the skin??? like the velvet goes on their tongues and they don't mind???

[@thefl0werpr1nce20]

GOD YES I HATE VELVET

[@aarasko]

SEE YOU GET IT

[@Rock4est]

(rant) i rly wanna know why is it so hard for my mum to let me do an adhd test, ive already said that in woman it doesnt rly show up when young, and that after the test i would shut up about all this i just wanna know whats wrong with my head but she still says theres nothing wrong with me, that im looking to have a problem like ??????

[@floorfloorfloor722]

I wonder why they are oppose to that too. I know my dad will be

[@straycat698]

I feel like it’s just an insecurity thing, parents don’t want to admit that their child is neurodivergent, so they think that just ignoring it or not formally getting a diagnosis will make it go away somehow.

[@haileys5224]

How old are you? I got diagnosed as soon as I turned 18 because I was in the same position as you. Depending on where you live, the type of healthcare you have access too, and your age you can go to your pediatrician and they will give a diagnosis. Some places let you make and go to appointments alone before you are 18. even if you can’t, you can have your doctor ask you mom to leave the room rq so you can talkto the doctor about ADHD. I didn’t know what to expect, or where to go, so I called my pediatrician and I thought from there she was going to refer me out inorder to be diagnosed. Instead I was diagnosed that day, getting a prescription that same week. I still see my old pediatrician (even though I’m 21) for my adhd treatment. I have an apt over the phone every 3 months and I love my medication . My brother went in for a physical and he asked his pediatrician to swab his mouth to see what type of medication would be good for him, he didn’t need parents permission for that. He probably won’t get to treat his ADHD until he leaves the house, but Atleast now he knows what medicine could work, and that he has ADHD, not that he is lazy or bad or doesn’t try.

[@ro_rory197]

Let’s talk about twig, on the last TikTok. No this isn’t being mean at all it’s just discussing how to get yourself up and doing stuff. How I do things, as I have grandma friend override not mom friend grandma, is I set myself out to do things like, “ok I’ll take a shower, go on a walk to dry my hair, and then eat lunch, and if I do that then I can ask my friends if we can hang out or I’ll go get a squishmallow” as this helps a TON because those things are things I want to do, but can’t necessarily do if I haven’t eaten or showered. For being tired I’m telling you now, it’s shit. I get energetic when I’m excited, so find something your happy to do or excited to do, wether it be knitting walking or buying something. Self care is so difficult but it’s so important.

[@milo4707]

I do that but then end up sitting on the bathroom floor staring into the shower anyway. Yucky shower how dare it

[@ro_rory197]

@@milo4707 I can’t take showers without lots of talking to myself cause water makes me ick

[@fernbreeze723]

haha i can say if i take the shower i need then i can play sky after but then i sit in bed for hours for no reason to not take the shower anyways it doesnt matter what rewards i promise myself after i will, not, move

[@xsweetiebloomx605]

The sound of water makes me incredibly anxious, then I space out in the shower and then I get out and realized I never did anything but stand under the hot water for hours-

[@haveagoodmourning]

Squishmallows are the best thing in the world i swear I have literally 20+

[@arentsoogjelotte8810]

The last message with Twig had me crying. I really needed that after today😭❤️

[@dashfury6692]

5:08 mine is like you know those poofy coats that make a kind of idk how to explain, like almost platicky noise. Well yeah those, I HATE it when people like scratch my back when I’m wearing those like ughhhh I dieee!

[@nightly-ruse2925]

My mom finally noticed something was wrong when she heard me telling my hands to put the topping on the taco cause they kept fidgeting. Hehe

[@aarasko]

9:32 YOU DIDNT HAVE TO CALL ME OUT THERE DAMN. I literally CANT remember my childhood, my undiagnosed autism is NOT going well and I am queer.

[@JM-dw5fu]

Hi fellow neurodivergents! I just wanted to share that I got over my fear of the stigma associated with seeking professional help. I related so much to a lot of these videos and it gave me incentive to get help. Although I have family that push me to seek help in church, I was surprised to find that everyone in my household is supportive of my decision. The family that wishes I seek help in church was understanding enough to recommend a Christian therapist, to me that means a whole lot. I was worried the conversation would have been a lot worse. When I opened up to one of my parents, I was surprised to learn that they observed a lot of behavioral red flags in my family, solidifying my suspicion of a hereditary condition. My sis also confirmed her own suspicions. I am looking forward to commence the healing and I thank all of the neurodivergents on KZbin for sharing your experiences. I hope we can end the stigma of mental health problems🥰 you can't treat* a problem without admitting there is one to begin with.

[@SuperOrangeMan23]

5:00 Tomato juice. Not like V8 stuff, like FRESH tomato juice. Like when you slice through the tomato, and on the cutting board is just this semi translucent fluid oozing out of your fresh tomato. It makes my stomach twist.

[@ceciliebreum-jensen1833]

These are always so good! Thank you for providing neurodivergent content🥰 It can be hard to find good autism content:/

[@ahousecatwhohasacellphone]

im glad that the internet has mostly gotten out of the habit of treating neurodivergency like quirky cute little things. i have autism and adhd and it took me aaaaages to get diagnosed because even medical professionals weren’t taking my disorders seriously. i like these compilations of nd tiktoks btw thanks for posting

[@juleswhisler401]

my texture thing is when my hands have a bit of potato starch on my hands then touch potato skin, I hate it so much just thinking about it makes me want to cry.

[@satanisananimeboy8022]

5:04 eating avocado makes me want to turn inside out which sucks cause I love the flavor, and also feeling sticky and that one's so severe once I got soda on my hand during a long car ride so I couldn't wash it off and I started crying from the feeling

[@goldenapple3952]

9:07 shes honestly so right for not wanting to eat that because what the hell is that abomination of a dish

[@forgottenboy9778]

I have ADHD and half of these were so enlightening I was so shook My overstimulation thing is if I’m put in a box for too long with to many people and it feels like I’m suffocating it’s horrible man

[@multiplewormsonthesidewalk5902]

just woke up from a 7 hour nap that i took bc i can’t write literally 4 sentences. like i can but i can’t yknow. probably gonna take another one lol

[@kaylinsmith6921]

Me, forcing myself to sleep because being conscious is simply not an option.

[@tristantheoofer2]

same breh. i have autism and cant fucking write essays at all. creative writing and rly creative shit in general is ez for me tbh

[@verxwaffles2338]

Yo, that opening one about hating touch when over-heated is very relatable for our system.....it's nice to know that other people experience reality in similar and/or the same ways we do. How you experience reality might be unique, and that's normal, not weird nor wrong, just unique and deserving of respect care and dignity. There are so many of these tik-toks that just point to my brain and yell, "we experience things in the same ways that you do, or in other ways that you now have the resources and context/content to better understand and respect each of these experiences/ways of existing/processing." We know that our brain can be very chaotic and inefficient, but our brain can also be amazing, articulate and we can have chunks of time where we can function day-to-day with little-to-no-worries or gripes. And the secret is, not putting value behind the malarky, lies and hatred as well as judgement of other people, do take into account their care and consideration, but what they say and/or what they do doesn't have to define you, and they are not the boss of you and your happiness. As long as you are not hurting yourself nor anybody else, then you are good. Consent matters. Be kind to yourself, because you deserve it whether you believe that you do or you don't believe that you do. You are wonderful just as you are, and from all of us in The SwanStar System, we hope that you have a wonderful existence!!!

[@luciferbringsbread8848]

9:40 I DID NOT DESERVE TO BE CALLED OUT LIKE THIS

[@aarasko]

SERIOUSLY SAME

[@ErutaniaRose]

As a kid I always looked for the saddest looking stuffed animal when I bought one--because I thought they were bullied or abused and wanted to provide a safe space for them.

[@luckymoonjoy1278]

1:35 GIVE US SOME MONEY! i recognized this from Ranboo's donation notification.

[@waterlemonandfriends]

It’s from a comedian named John Mulaney! He has three great specials on Netflix, you’ll definitely like watching him if you like Ranboo :)

[@dallyhall]

Ikr, it was a jumpscare lmao

[@nellie3140]

i used to(and still sort of do) think that stuffed animals or inanimate objects or articles of clothing have feelings like- i didn’t want to wear a certain pair of pants but i felt bad because i thought it would be sad if i didn’t wear them- and if i gave away a stuffed animal it would be sad forever because i didn’t want it- this is probably why i’m so empathetic towards people i love and why i possibly have 6 undiagnosed mental illnesses.

[@oc4029]

The two things that got to me most: 1) overanalysing social cues is a sign that you don't understand them 2) academic success makes it harder to get a diagnosis of ADHD

[@GREATEXPLOSIONMURDERGODYNAMITE]

8:20 I do this with numbers, I have an entire story where 5 and 7 are meant to be but 7 is dating 6 because he doesn't wanna let them down. 6 bullies 5 and 5 is just like "nobody asked" and 4 is 5's younger sister and 1 is his younger brother and 2 is his other younger sister 3 is his other younger brother. 9 and 8 are 7's older sisters. 1, 2, and 3 are the same age as their numbers, 4 is 14, 5, 6, and 7 are 16, 8 is 19 and 9 is 21. 0 is the spirit of the wind.

[@justaspiral13]

Metaphors are good for lots of abstract concepts, including emotion. The way I try to explain most things is with metaphors cuz that's just how I think and learn. I have to remind myself that not everyone understands them, though.

[@theevauwu7853]

9:20 [eating] that shit is abusive. I can't imagine the stress she went through every mealtime. If they continue to this extreme I can even see her developing an ed. Absolutely vile parents.

[@floating_rock172]

12:44 Made me fucking cry. I was always the golden kid when it came to classes and grades. Now that I'm older, I realize that my terrible attention span isn't just a lack of hard work or sincerity, but a deeper problem with my brain. Not getting a diagnosis as seeing failure as an adult maybe caused my depression and anxiety and my therapist doesn't want to give me an ADHD diagnosis because she thinks my concentration is bad because of anxiety. And in my country, the idea of ADHD is just a kid jumping around and being destructive. It's hard when I agree with everything these kind of videos say and suffer the same way, but i don't have a diagnosis because no one will give it to me. Shit's annoying.

[@idfkwgo]

I hate it when people scratch paper or just the feeling of scratching paper and I still have to scratch something else when I think about it. Idk what this is but I really relate with the girl at 5:50

[@galaxyaj4256]

I've been living my whole life hiding my neurodivergency, assuming that it was just a thing every neurotypical person did up until recently. I've pushed through my fear and anxiety around seeing a doctor and I just feel so relieved. It's so refreshing to hear others sharing my experiences. For the first time in a long time I feel like I kinda fit in.

[@kissit012]

I picked up on social queues and body language very well, very early. People were just liars, deceptive, insecure, egotistical, or deeply socially conditioned. I got in trouble a lot for calling out people’s behavior/how I felt and being called “rude” only to have it revealed later that I was absolutely correct and they were dishonest, etc. (with no apologies or correction, of course) I tend to hyper analyze people’s behavior, which helps me spot “dangerous” people, but constantly being punished made me feel like I couldn’t trust my own instincts for a long time. It’s a blessing and a curse.

[@lycanthrop-ee9971]

2:04 WOAH WOAH WOAH please put the panel you removed to see into my brain back thanks : ]

[@neonnnleon]

2:07 haha oh my god i really relate and I'm so happy someone else feels like that too

[@SquirmieWormington]

7:56 does me feeling bad when I pick one of my stuffed animals over the other or is that too mild a case to count? Sometimes I do that when I’m at a store and there is one thing that is kind of a little busted and another thing of the same product that isn’t busted and I have a mini crisis over whether I should pick the non busted one cause it’s probably better quality or the dinged up one cause he needs love too

[@babydai5472]

Omg i feel that, like i feel obliged to pick the less pretty stuffies or any other stuff because im afraid others won't pick them and they're gonna be sad and lonely and I feel guilty about it 😭

[@aston5207]

i was not aware a frog stuffed animal could make me feel love.

[@chloepowell6293]

i love that john mulaney quotes are being mixed with neurodivergent stuff😌

[@ZoeBateman]

4:55 people chewing with their mouth open or just chewing loud makes me want to do a violence, or makes me want to leave the area, except neither option will ever happen because I'm too awkward and nervous to confront people about their chewing, which is also made worse because one time I did confront someone about it and they said it was an "explosive, over the top" reaction and now I'm scared of confronting people for any reason, not just loud mouth noises and chewing, scared because the person I confronted about it was family and someone I trusted. I hate going to visit them even though I don't see them very often and I love them, whatever, but I hate visiting purely because at some point someone is gonna eat food

[@Nicole-hearthemouseroar]

Well, I guess I now know why I would get irrationally angry when my maths room got too warm.

[@goblinkingofpotatoes5823]

13:01 not me crying because this has made so many things make sense.

[@freshbread4039]

8:38 okay this story just. give me a minute. i dont know if i personally have autism or adhd but i am definitely a very fussy/picky eater. i cant stand the texture of fruit and i have a small group of "safe foods" that i have figured out how to make for myself so that i am comfortable eating them. and this story makes me so fucking mad. like. because i was such a fussy eater i didn't have a lot of food to eat and i cant even imagine the turmoil that kid went through. its incredibly painful to be forced to eat a food that i am not comfortable with. i get super nervous and i gag and i feel like throwing up. anyway sorry for ranting

[@gremlinn9336]

I have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and I relate a ton to neurodivergent people, y'all rock :)

[@niko_kneecaps3644]

7:37 i relate to both the tiktok and the sound what is this

[@kristentodoroki5688]

idk, but I recognize the last voice as Jschlatt, so maybe lunch club?

[@niko_kneecaps3644]

@@kristentodoroki5688 yeah and i think the first voice was slimecicle. it was probably on a podcast.

[@niko_kneecaps3644]

@@frostmatt8393 oh ok! im not a huge fan of podcasts, but i might look it up :)

[@ita2552]

@@niko_kneecaps3644 it doesn't really feel like a podcast they're just talking about random shit except they're constantly just utterly dissolving into chaos, its great

[@niko_kneecaps3644]

@@ita2552 ok, ill listen to it :)

[@elh7149]

I have been diagnosed with depression, GAD, social anxiety, and.... I definitely have ADHD and my psychiatrist and therapist are treating me for it but I don't think anyone officially diagnosed me but that is VERY beside the point. The point: this video has illuminated a number of things to me and I'll just say one of them: the fact that I'm obsessed with linguistics, specifically, is totally related to my ADHD. wanting to understand every single complex system, but especially social ones, to the extreme... I always worry I'm gonna lose interest in it one day, though. like I used to want to be an architect or a *cough* *gag* actress *cough* and now I can't imagine why. The thought of performing terrifies me now and I am mortified but, yeah. I'm a late diagnosed formerly gifted kid who was a lifelong procrastinator and crashed and burned in 9th grade. I'm failing school and I'm so so stressed and my therapist wants me to start caring but I'm so scared of letting my defenses down. I used to be so sensitive and my standards for myself were impossibly high. For years since my attempts in freshman year of high school, I've coped by avoiding thinking about myself at all, and having no standards whatsoever. My grades went from As to Fs instantly. But on the bright side, it did wonders for my depression and anxiety. I feel okay again. I'm healthy. Because I never think about myself too much, I can be happy. But I know that I can't keep this up forever. I just sometimes wish that more people understood that just because my grades flopped doesn't mean I'm "doing worse" or I was "fine before". I'm better now. I care about things that matter, like my bodily safety and my health and my emotional stability. I just don't see the point in doing homework. This video was really helpful for me :) but the future is terrifying and I don't want to disappoint myself. because as much as it hurts to say, I know it's true that I would be doing myself a disservice if I ruined my chances of achieving my dreams just for some temporary dopamine. in an ideal world I wouldn't have to worry about it. But the world is designed for people who work a certain way. My teachers don't use my ADA accomodations and I know I'm supposed to email them but I'm scared of communicating with them. I procrastinate it like everything else. What use are accomodations that aren't being used? And then there's curriculums... If I can get into one of those new-fangled liberal arts schools with self-motivated, self-paced, self-designed curriculums where you do things that will actually help you learn the things you want or need to learn, I might be okay. But I need to have the grades and money to get into one and I have to worry about my future afterward. Can I get a job with a liberal arts degree??? probably not tbh. no one will read this. Sorry for rambling. Gooooodnight

[@snakewithapen5489]

0:40 wow okay well you didn't have to call me and my desperate need for constant layered mental stimulation out like that 4:08 Also holy crap- my mom made me do the notebook thing too at school instead of constantly talking out loud and getting in trouble and she only let me get on ADHD meds at age 14 starting highschool

[@agayman9880]

To the second to last tiktok about having adhd and being good in school. So I recently got diagnosed with adhd but school has never been a problem for me and when my mom asked my counselor for things to help me in school my counselors said no bc my grades were to high. 🙂

[@marinamorton8458]

THE METAPHOR THING. THE METAPHOR THING. YES.

[@alienlapdance]

7:50 yes i cried for 5 minutes today because i was ripping up my broken headphones it felt like i was losing a friend or having to dispose of a dead pet’s body or something (that got dark) i was very sad BUT afterwards I drew some cool dog pictures.

[@swagman7704]

these are my absolute favorite compilations, they always make me feel seen and shows me im not alone in the way i think and feel.

[@snazzymcsnazaroo2834]

I've been watching a lot of neurodivergent tiktok comps and they all make me feel valid in some way but my main thought is that i know im on the spectrum of being neurodivergent but the only thing i know of is my heightened anxiety, and because of this anxiety i have the deep need to figure out where i am in my mind. And the tiktok at @ really made me think about whether i have ADHD or something around there because years ago i was tested for it and my teacher used the school system to try and figure it out and assumed I didnt, and a few months ago i got tested for it again but after my mom told me that it was just my anxiety telling me that i do but im still unsure and her "reassurance" didnt really help.

[@ShilohBluecube]

Ah, the last one genuinely made me cry. Maybe it’s just because I’ve pulled an all nighter and I’m tired but damn, I’m very sad. :)

[@iya827coleen7]

5:04 so mine is painting my nails, like ill look at nail polish and be like oooh pretty but if I use any of it on myself I instantly regret it.

[@oyaoyaoyaoyaoyaoya3227]

want to thank you for putting captions!! i cant really pay much attention to stuff without something visual/captions so this makes me very happy!!

[@fizzie6902]

Chicken tenders - Fried 198th playthrough of Bloodborne - At the fog gate to Vicar Amelia The same 48 chrome tabs I keep open "just in case" - Online That one 20 second part of a song a I heard a week ago - Hasn't stopped playing on a loop in my head since Yup, It's gamer time.

[@cosmicsailor8733]

That last one’s really making me cry rn ily Twig

[@EternalGalaxies]

Holy crap the Tiktok at 2:05! That is one of the most apt and relatable descriptions/metaphors I have ever heard about masking and ND coping strategies. Mind blown.

[@lilitpatchwork]

Why did the last one make me cry? Thank you twig. Thank you. I needed that today

[@finch3333]

All I can say is that feeling that magic erasers give- no. No. No. No. I can NNNNOOOTTT deal with that.

[@howlinghellgar2214]

My friend and I are both neurodivergent and they have vocal stims and I have echolalia. I’m sure you can imagine what happens: they stim, I repeat. I don’t even have vocal stims, it’s literally just the echolalia.

[@onesadfrog]

its always a fun game: do i have another undiagnosed mental illness or is my anxiety just going buck wild??

[@kafkaesquest]

each of these clips just took shape of a woman in white who slapped me and then caressed my cheek, pulling me to a loving embrace and reminded me that i need medication badly and then disappeared into thin air

[@waterlemonandfriends]

Lady Dimitrescu

[@bismuthmoon]

Watching these tiktoks, understanding some cuz of my partner's ADHD and my own anxiety but only half paying attention... THEN TWIG MAKES ME CRY.

[@mic787]

Twig at the end made me cry. I hope they have a wonderful life and a loving owner :]

[@ZackOfCards]

9:32 had no right to call me out so hard like that-

[@aarasko]

FR

[@bozenkabear]

5:04 CHALK. anything that feels like chalk (ie blackboards and the Crunchy Drywall™) make me clench my fists so hard every time i even think about it for too long

[@GeoGamerArtistVlogger]

The last tiktok almost made me start crying like a baby

[@elizabethcabbage9817]

WAIT SO IT'S NOT JUST ME FEELING LIKE "SOCIALLY OVERDRESSED" AS THEY PUT IT?????????????? Wild

[@beepboop2816]

5:00 DRY CLAY AND FLOUR IT HURTS PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY! I CANT!

[@fernbreeze723]

OUHG DRY CLAY

[@punkyskunky3131]

For me my most horrible sensory thing is crushed velvet especially if it's the stiffer kind or if it's damp/wet it makes me want to tear of my skin, lay down on the floor and cry

[@nidjiunanatshi]

It's funny because I know I have Asperger's and synesthesia and so somehow I thought this meant I couldn't also have ADHD so I never really looked into it, but the more I do, the more I realize I might have slight ADHD. It feels like my brain is a swirling cocktail of mental illnesses and to be honest I'm tired of calling them illnesses (though they are -they can be). But I don't know what else to call them. Because sometimes I love the way I see the world in its tiniest details even if some textures make me want to throw up and stab my arms and sometimes I wish people would stop calling me weird and then telling me I'm too normal to be autistic. The problem I find is that we don't really have an in-between. It's always, always intense. I guess that's why we're so tired all the time.

[@emmad4308]

If it helps, both autism and ADHD are neurodevelopmental conditions, or central nervous system conditions.

[@amandaking9527]

I was diagnosed with ADHD as a high schooler (I was homeschooled in elementary school so my parents didn’t know what to look out for and i was academically successful) but it wasn’t until THIS YEAR as a sophomore in college that I learned that all my symptoms that I was worried might be autism related (which I have never been diagnosed with and didnt think I had) were actually just neurodivergent things in general. How is society okay with believing ADHD is JUST related to attention. It’s sooooo much more

[@a.c.259]

ugh i love these comps! thank you so much :D