Today was really hard for me

I try to give you a bit of background as to why today was such a big achievement for me.

[@paulijooste3010]

WoW Becca - GREAT ❤❤❤ just found your channels today - been binge watching and this video has me in tears - good tears. I'm 52 with advanced MS and severe anxiety and what you achieved here is amazing and the fact that you took us with you - THANK YOU ❤ ❤❤❤

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Hey 👋🏻 ❤️ wow you have a lot to cope with too. Thank you for coming with me today on my journey. I’m sending you so much love from me❤️🙏

[@julietteboser1202]

You have achieved a huge feat today. I'm so proud of you. I don't know who had the bigger smile when you made it to the water, you or me! Please take us along with you when you feel strong enough to do this again. We are all cheering you on.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you Juliette I will definitely take you all along on my next adventure. Thank you so much for your support 🙏❤️

[@Rainy679]

Stay strong Becca. I have same problem. Keep trying and get out every day. As soon as I leave my house I want to go home. I have autism

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

You stay strong too ❤️ 😘🙏

[@isabel-bluesapphire]

Bless you Becca. I hadn't realised how much you were struggling with this now. How brave to share and I'm sending you waves of support xxx

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘

[@serenitykelley9515]

There you go Darling Becca…we all love you !!!!! Celebrate your accomplishment…it is a big deal…so proud of you of you

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you lovely ❤️🙏

[@Arisaem]

My late brother-in- law had bipolar and struggled with leaving the house too. He finally got a therapist that helped him out of that by kayaking. He developed pneumonia after having the flu like 6 years ago and didn't survive but it makes me happy that his last few years of life, he was getting out and became something of a hero to the people in his apartment building. Keep working on it and remember to be patient with yourself. You got this!

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. He sounded like an amazing person. I will keep trying to be patient with myself. I did feel really good about my trip out the other day. Thank you for your encouragement. Sending love ❤️

[@crystalotus6861]

Well done Becca! I have had panic attacks when I had to go to a doctor's appointment - it's a miserable feeling. And then when I get there I'm fine 🤪. You did great! Now treat yourself! Heaps of luv! ❤

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

We are all stronger than we realise.😘🙏❤️

[@moonbeanification]

Great job Becca ... thank you for sharing your beautiful scenery with us! We're with you in spirit ~♥

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I love your channel name🥰

[@gabyhagemann3319]

You made it, Becca!💚 I also have to deal with anxiety, so I know it sucks! I'm sending you a virtual hug!🤗

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Hug received and one is coming straight back for you ❤️🙏

[@mrsl238]

Well done Becca.I relate absolutely. What a beautiful destination to reach though..beautiful 💜

[@tarotherbologycrystals3565]

How brave of you Becca and incredibly authentic to share this with us! The whole video was an emotional journey. Beautiful nature, cascading waters and your beaming smile when you made it were highlights! And the sight of adorable cutie pies Louie and Mabel excitedly delighted to have Mum home was so heartwarming! I've suffered social anxiety on and off all my life. Thank you again for sharing, you are helping others to face their fears :) 🙏🌼🌺🏵🌻🌷🌹💐

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you 😘❤️🙏

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘🙏❤️

[@lilyrose7496]

Well done for walking to your goal today! What a beautiful and tranquil place. 💕

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘🙏❤️

[@tarotmumma56]

Wrote my previous comment early in the video , just saw the end where you say your diagnosis. Thank you for sharing and again well done ! ❤

[@theimportanceoftemperance]

I'm not entirely sure that I can understand what you face Bec, but I just want to say that I love your courage and I love that you share your journey with us.

[@kikibelle8265]

Well done Becca, very proud of your achievement 👏🥇⭐️ you did really well. The river and the weir is a magical place isn’t it. 🐾🐶💕

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘😘😘😘❤️🙏

[@tracyrivers460]

Canadian MS WARRIOR for the last 27+ yrs here.... I'M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR REACHING YOUR GOAL TODAY!! Every day brings us things we have to &/or choose to face!! It's OK to set your own standards to life, even if no one else understands why!! What works for you is individual to your needs!! LOVE YOURSELF COMPLETELY & know you are aloud to learn from situations that don't turn out how we would like! Nothing is a "FAILURE", unless we do not learn from it... just b/c we've succeeded in finding what does not work, does not mean we are done trying! It is a matter of WILL, ENERGY, & LOVE that I continue to get through another day, and I believe YOU CAN TOO!!

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you for your beautiful encouraging message. You most definitely are a warrior! Sending you so much love ❤️ 😘🙏

[@trishawartooth]

This was just brilliant becca! As someone who suffers the same, this is such great inspiration. YOU DID IT!

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

It’s really hard isn’t it. I always feel less alone when someone understands what it’s like. 😘🙏❤️

[@sorchajones1788]

Wow, this is La Force card, you complete star, Becca ⭐️ Getting out, making this footage and putting this out. What huge courage you have, challenging yourself and that terrible backlash double whammy anxiety plus panic attack you suffered all the way. I think your dry mouth was your nervous system in F/F. I’ve whatsapped people to say I needed to go out, to have them virtually be with me and witness. How many people did you help with this, as well as your lovely self. What a beautiful spot you got to. Thank you for being real. Sending you so much love ⭐️ edit- Rose says woof! (means good on ya Bex in doggy language) ⭐️

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you so much lovely 😘❤️🙏

[@tarotmumma56]

Well done ❤ I have the same issues. Would love a video sharing about your health problem and what it is how it affects you etc but with the going out anxiety I’m right there with you so well done big hugs you did great

[@mageriver3388]

Wow Becca thanks for being real and sharing. What triumph to go that far on your own . I love wild woodland flowers etc so its a treat for me to see them thru the UK forest. I have anxiety too and mostly tense. After divorce i had to baby step it out In world as a single lady. I was full of fear & self conscious, shy even. I started small. Then got a divorce bike! So now..,i can go almost everywhere alone. Many years later. Now ive come into my own power.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

You are a survivor! Always remember how far you’ve come and how strong you are 😘❤️🙏

[@mageriver3388]

Thanks Becca!!!!

[@LouValcourt]

Good job getting to your goal! I’ve struggled with anxiety too, sometimes more than others. For me making goals like that and then by keep doing them helped.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘🙏❤️

[@serenitykelley9515]

Oh boy a cup of tea to be shared with those that love you 🥰

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I would make you all one if I could ❤️🙏

[@serenitykelley9515]

Bye Becca. Take us on the next one too…it does help with the feeling of abandonment…XXX hugs

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘😘😘

[@serenitykelley9515]

Stress is a terrible thing and your babies are so glad to see their Momma

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

They always give the best welcome ❤️🙏

[@serenitykelley9515]

It is dreadful to be going through this…I only leave the house to do the Dr visit once every few months and I bring my little lunch bag as my safety net

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I’m sorry you go through this too. We can journey through together.❤️🙏

[@dawnrobertson3123]

Dearest Becca.... So brave of you for trying & getting your desire accomplished even tho at first I was seeing you about to have a panic attack. I actually had the same thing yesterday before I had an afternoon dental appt. Just out of no where, I had to use a med to get by it so I could make the appt. Wishing I could have walked with you & held your hand to get there. I love you show plants along the way, such a treat for those who love plants! Hope you can get the blackberries before the birds & other critters. The beautiful elderberry...you can make things with the flowers as well. I'd suggest next walk take a small pack with you. A bottle of water, maybe put a favorite crystal in a pocket , even carry your favorite deck in a pouch against your heart....we know which deck! For strength, next time sit with your back against the tree, breathe & let it share its strength with you. Or put your arms around it or lay your hands & forehead on it. Trees are powerful beings as are all our green friends. Try to focus on the beauty & what interests you out there instead of letting your anxious mind run the show. It's hard , I know! I have to do it too, but find that calming the breath will help settle things down. You forced yourself this time, next time can be easier. I'm so glad to see you trying & staying determined! Maybe taking Louie & Mabel would be comforting & calming for you. Add snacks to the pack! Lol... have a little picnic with them on such lovely days. Lot of talk I know but I just want you to know I'm thinking of you & recognize the struggle. One last thing if I may... please look into at least a filter for your faucet. I'm assuming you have a city water supply, there's nasty stuff in there even tho they say otherwise. Especially fluoride. Cheers to you, with love on this Summer Solstice of great power! (Think you found it!) ❤ 😊

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you for taking the time to write this comment , it was full of great kindness and support. Thank you so much 😘❤️🙏

[@serenitykelley9515]

I sure do hear the water

[@kaybrown7541]

Aww well done Becca, must of taken a lot for you to do that, keep it up you hav lovely places to walk ❤

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘😘😘

[@louloudark1651]

Bravo Becca !!! Beautiful place it was worthed ! Happy that you feel good ! Baby steps don't forget ! XX and like others said take us with you !

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I will definitely take you all with me❤️🙏😘

[@lynnhayes5514]

Great job! Very proud of you❤

[@kathykerr1202]

Well played, Becca!!! I'm so happy for you!!!

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘😘😘

[@naomihewitt7119]

I was willing you on and the prize at the end was worth the walk. You've had a lots of changes over the last few years but I admire how you overcome, your an inspiration. Thanks for the lovely video. Take care lovely 💜💜

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘🙏❤️

[@jennyfer_rebecca]

Great job Becca!🙌🏽You did it! Looks like such a lovely spot. 😊

[@amandamonaghan1190]

Well done for getting to the place you love. Thank you for showing us how ppl suffer from anxiety. I’m one of them. The house is my sanctuary and my prison. And it’s so hard for ppl to understand how it makes you feel. And the battles you face every day. ❤

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I totally feel you. My home is my sanctuary too. It’s safe but at the same time very lonely.😘🙏❤️

[@kim-moonwhisper135]

I knew you were a bad ass! (In a totally good way) You faced your fears knowing it would be hard but you pushed through. The spot you went to was beautiful 🖤 any step forward no matter how small is something to be proud of. Lots of love to you!

[@ivyrose7657]

Keep it up! You are amazing!❤️❤️❤️

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘🙏❤️

[@pegcarr1765]

congratulations!! you did it! sI have problems with leaving the house too, but you did amazingly today

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Sorry to hear you are going through the same thing. 😘❤️🙏

[@pegcarr1765]

@@Vlogmeitsbecca not any where near the torment that you are experiencing but halting most of the time , good luck going fwd

[@serenitykelley9515]

Making stops is terrific and leaning against the tree is a wonderful idea 😊

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Trees have a very calming effect 😘❤️

[@Tdiva-Elly]

It is okay Becca, you are very brave to do this. Thank you for explaining and trying this to show us how hard it is.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Hey lovely. Thank you 😘😘❤️🙏

[@alisonhaggart8584]

Well done 😊

[@serenitykelley9515]

Always carry a small paper bag like lunges when we were kids and if it gets hard to breath put the bag over your mouth to breathe in and out in the bag…it’s okay darling we are all with you and we are right here with you .😊❤

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you. I really feel everyone’s love😘🙏❤️

[@BrianGryphon]

Congratulations... every step another one on your hero's journey.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

Thank you😘🙏❤️

[@traceyjane4288]

well done you ! i love water i find it vey relaxing x

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘😘❤️

[@doodleschucky]

Well done Becca x

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘❤️🙏

[@jackiechong6537]

❤

[@serenitykelley9515]

Always bring water when you are out for a walk to wet your lips and have some lip balm

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I didn’t think about that, you’re absolutely right 😘❤️🙏

[@metallicleoraa]

Some people have found that having a baby doll helps their anxiety and depression and loneliness. Especially among the elderly in care homes. And pushing a stroller, I’ve heard people say that it helps them feel more steady when walking, less alone, and such. I have dolls, and it’s made a difference. Jc toys, baby born, and baby annabell are what I like to get, don’t like them too realistic. 17 inch dolls can wear preemie baby clothes or doll clothes. Some people may find it helpful, some people will not be comfortable trying it. We are all so different.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I have definitely heard that this is extremely helpful and calming. 😘❤️🙏

[@midnightunicorn5139]

Well done Becca! A great achievement and an inspiration to a fellow anxiety sufferer 🩵

[@elineeugenie5224]

I'm very proud of you!

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

😘❤️🙏

[@elineeugenie5224]

@@Vlogmeitsbecca maybe moonstone can help you

[@cam9130]

Agoraphobia. My mother suffered from this.

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

It’s a horrible thing, but I’m making progress, slowly but surely.❤️

[@Oxfordshire1]

Hi hun hope your ok xxx

[@Vlogmeitsbecca]

I’m doing ok. Thank you for asking 😘🙏❤️