Torley's life with Asperger syndrome, hyperacusis, bipolar disorder, depression, etc.

I wasn't always so happy. But things change, and you either make life happen, or it happens to you.
If you're concerned about your mental health, I recommend you explore and get professional help - it's not just a disclaimer that comedians use, it made a tremendously positive difference in my life.

[@hunterproxy1]

No genius has ever gone through life without inward struggle. I don't know that much about you but to look at your visible achievements I'd say you've taken your disorders and rose above them. You're a master musician (in my opinion). You have a lovely wife, you have a highly intelligent disposition, and hey you have good taste in liking Fringe. I don't know you but you seem very respectable.

[@ThomasHope73]

Well it's 2016, so five years after you posted this Torley! I've only just discovered you and your music here. I was drawn in by your personality and your music, and then I saw this post referring to Aspergers, etc! Well, whaddyaknow; we have so much in common - wow! Check it out: I'm a musician, with Aspergers, have suffered from depression, have Tinnitus, had a nurturing (although somewhat demanding upbringing). My father died, and I lost my way for a while, and got professional help, including the late diagnosis for AS. A little uncanny! Best wishes Dude, you're a great character! :)

[@Yoloslides]

The ability to focus for extended periods of time is a gift. It's a gift that millions around the world (myself included) would LOVE to have because the complete opposite is anything but productive. You effing rock, Torley. Been watching you for years.

[@powersmine]

"Cruelty says more about the person doing it than the victim" Very true indeed. Thanks for voicing what I've to today only been able to think

[@polhas]

So brave of you to post this Torley. Your fresh, honest and non-judgemental attitude are trully inspirational.

[@iamvonimmel]

Torley, you are a genius. I don't care what anyone says. You are one of the most intelligent people I've ever come across. You are absolutely amazing! Please do not ever stop you!!!

[@MichaelMizeKolumna]

Very happy to have found you, "so many things in life are influential", YOU ARE! I have paranoid schizophrenia, severe depression, ADHD, also had mom encourage me as I was, despite my illnesses, gifted and talented. I love you man, you are a NEW major influence for me.

[@earthlingcrusader1529]

I would have never known. You're sooo good at expressing yourself and seem like you probably have tons of friends.

[@babypeavonphoenix1691]

My daughter's father has Asperger's syndrome. I think everyone has something. Suppressing the negative and emphasizing the positive is so important in life, for everyone, no matter the characteristics that make each of our lives unique. Thank you for sharing this.

[@ampariaecksol]

Hi Torley, we never met in Second Life, but you through your videos and other guys on the spectrum I met there have really helped me a lot, so I would like to thank you. Thanks to you I could understand who I am and found the courage to go to a doctor for a diagnosis and being helped. And it made a positive difference to me too :)

[@brokerhc]

I always knew that you were from another planet. No earthling can be so intelligent, so nice, so willing to help others and so talented. I have decided at 65 years of age to learn a little bit of piano and you inspire me.

[@weatherkop]

I had a friend who was schizo-effective and manic. He was incredibly gifted in music production and was very knowledgable about many things. People thought he was a freak and avoided him. He became one of my best friends because I understood him and was inspired by his ideas.

[@roxanneworld11]

Hi Torley! I appreciate your willingness to share a part of your life here! This will inspire & help many now & in the future. I already find a reminder in your video about the importance of being authentic. So much easier to filter in the goodness of Life that way..thank you!

[@ehhhhhhhhhh]

Torley, I doubt any disability could hold you back--you're prolific to the n-th degree. Your ability to focus and complete projects of all types has been a huge inspiration to someone like me with attention deficit disorder.

[@TanabiSimba]

Hey Torley, Just wanna say thank you for being so open with us and talking about all of this. When I was 4 I found out I had below-average hearing, when 14 that I had Aspergers and much more recently that I had depression, it's refreshing to hear someone being so open about Aspergers.

[@argikon]

You're awesome Torley! Kudos to you.

[@JoelEverettComposer]

Total respect for you man! You are a joy to watch and a total inspiration!!

[@DelanceyVids]

Yay, more people talking about their mental health! There is a campaign for that going on in the UK right now, "Time To Change" (youtube doesn't seem to want me to post the url though) Glad you felt able to share, Torley :)

[@DarkFaze]

It is always such a pleasure to listen to you speak. I've listened to you off and on for the last year, and you have really helped me make it through some rough times. Your joy and zest for life though it may not have always been, does in fact rub off on those that have the opportunity to hear. Thanks again.

[@williamihayes]

thank you for helping us Torley, I am so glad you posted this personal experience of your life. People who suffer from Aspergers appreciate how you have shared this life wisdom.

[@les5841]

i want u to know.. ive watched a lot of your second life tutorials over the past few years.. and i never seen this.. i luv u torley! like i admire you more now for bein so real and just bein you.. never change!

[@issiewizzie]

Jesus.... I've always wondered what happened to Toley.. His newsfeed suddenly went quiet. But I know that he's getting music demo done software houses. I had a friend with Aspergers syndrome . The guy was a freaking genius... Stay blessed brother and do whatever makes you happy :)

[@orioneriksen]

Thanks Torley, I'm struggling with my bi polar disorder and having suicidality problems, so this was good to hear.

[@AEArato]

I enjoy your tutorials and your music, and creativity so much, Torley. Now I get to enjoy you as you are. Wonderful to listen to you. Yes a great share. And yes, all of us have problems with something. My mom was bipolar, my son has PDD with anxiety, I have experienced depression, and been disabled(losing my career) by fibromyalgia-finding SL a good place when feeling isolated! One of the things you show in your video is that you can laugh at yourself. We all have to, we have to liten up!

[@MarkusStormXXV]

I literally had tears at the end of the video, you are an amazing person Torley. There is one sentence you said that I won't forget. Thanks for sharing these intim aspects of your life, I am sure who has a bit of conscience is gonna listen and appreciate and learn from this video, a lot.

[@zenixoffical]

when i saw your videos, i instantly felt related to you, and i didn't know why. now i watched this video, and i'm amazed, i have aspergers too and i can relate to almost anything you said what your experiences are. i'm also depressed and i have trouble having a conversation in crowdy, noisy places. torley man, i hope you'll never have to face dark times, you deserve happiness!

[@YetiSandvichVideos]

Torley, you´re an amazing person. I enjoy watching all of your videos. You just have a certain kind of charm and friendliness that makes me smile. I´m sure all of us here love you, and love to learn from you, be it music, or something else!

[@phobos2k2]

Love to listen to you talk Torley. Thank you for graciously revealing more of the facets of your being that lend form to the person you've become and are becoming. You have touched many lives so positively. Best wishes on life's journey!

[@bensteel3944]

Omg.. The real life Torley. Thanks for all your SL videos. They have been awesome

[@QUIZFILTER]

Never been financially able to get myself checked out by a doctor as far as any ADHD, OCD, Asperger's, etc. stuff... so I just go to work, get it done, come home & chill & make music in Logic Pro 9 on my iMac... post bits on soundcloud here & there... blah, blah, blah... & the days go on & I remain mostly lonely... . . .

[@guywhomighthaveaspergersne5723]

yeah, i kind of feel the same way

[@iamoneabe]

I relate to you in so many ways. I, myself have lost the things I have lost due to series of unfortunate events. Lost my hearing, my talking isn't good, I nod and smile instead of asking people to repeat. Really inspiring 22 minutes. Thank you for sharing.

[@maceosx]

Great story Torley. I never would of guessed what you've had to overcome. Keep doing what you're doing and we will all be better for it. Thank you so much for your courage!!

[@NiamorH]

I'm not directly concerned with either of the problems you've been through, but I want to thank you for sharing your thoughs with us. Friendly salutation from France.

[@sikpikfrank]

I've enjoyed your videos, because of your teching and your character. You have shown me your joy, of just listening to the universe and let it wash over you. It may be your difficulties, but I find that it's your 'embrace' of them and your honesty about your struggle that is endearing, enduring and the most """Human""" quality of all. And then learn more about my self and get to apply it to others. As we used to say in the army, "You're a fine man, leading by example!"

[@miriamdara9619]

Torley, thank you so much for being so open about your mental health issues. I have an 11 year old son with mild Asperger's Syndrome. It helps to know that others have succeeded with proper treatment. I love the tutorials you have done for SL, the textures and, the music! Please keep up the good work and never let the haters get you down!! :)

[@c21CanadaBob]

Torley, this is a really remarkable video and I thank you for making it. I must say, that since I joined Second Life in 2006, I have watched many of your YouuTube videos with interest, and other than a reference you made to hyperacusis, I have been constantly amazed by your talents without knowing anything about the challenges you have faced and continue to face.

[@treetopteresa]

Second Life was a nice experience for me as well. I have been given the chance to meet so many wonderful people. Im glad you have been able to find a place that you feel so welcomed. I also applaud you for being brave to share about yourself as well.

[@Lempface]

Thanks for posting this Torley! I wasn't able to drive for 10 years and finally got my license last year.. so good luck with that!

[@annagulaev]

Thanks for sharing this, Torley. You're awesome.

[@paraglide01]

Torley, you will always be the greatest for me. You have my deepest respect and love.

[@bethbrence3540]

Wonderful that you shared this. I so admire you.

[@iamvonimmel]

Torley, you are an amazing person. Please never change!!!!

[@Somnivers]

You rock man, glad I've found your channel.

[@joelletort6088]

I to have Asperger Syndrome my friend. It is ignorance which they are afraid of. We are very special humans being. I am also a musician since the age of 17 years old. So good on you to talk about it and you can't please all the people all of the time but you can only please some of the people some of the time. I have five very good friends and that is all I need. Peace to you. Happy New Year.

[@phaylen]

This is such a beautiful, brave and necessary video. Deeply in appreciation of you, Torley. So great to have known you, Thank you for sharing this.

[@boosuff]

With you 100%. I wear flesh colored ear plugs when I go to any venue that's loud. Its amazing how clear and enjoyable it still sounds even with them in. They are practically unnoticeable and yet you can still talk with people and enjoy the music and ambiance without screwing your hearing up. Most people wont notice hearing loss until its too late.

[@battara]

this video made me smile, a smile towards life. and a smile appreciating your achievements. keep up the good work, i find your videos always very inspirational.

[@lilmissmusic2012]

I luv u Torley!!! Keep your head up and keep making music. You are an inspiration to all. My brother has OCD, Aspergers as well as some other things, and you really helped me look into life the way he might. Before I can honestly say I never tried to understand him (because of personal reasons) and watching this helps me alot. Luv u!!! ;D

[@locutz]

dude you always have my respect as a musician and as a person cause you so positive i applaud you my friend i wish you only the best in all aspects of life

[@hasznoneother]

I've always known that there was something special about you which is what drew me to you as I watched some of your videos for music production. After hearing your back story so to speak it is confirmed that your are indeed an extraordinary and phenomenal human being. I am not autistic or anything of the sort however I can see strands of my own personality that share commonalities with yours and this fascinates me. Kindred spirits perhaps you are quite a fascinating person I salute you.

[@joeyxl3456]

you have balls to share this Torley bro. much appreciated thanks.

[@boston7775]

Its an honor to hear your story. Nothing inspires me more then when people are depressed and still find a reason to push through. Your content is great and you are the reason i bought Cyclop haha. Have a good one man.

[@m.p.958]

You are a fantastic musician and such a friendly human - thx for all your videos !!

[@KennyV83]

Wow, so inspirational, never stop doing what makes you happy, and thanks for inspiring me with music.

[@SabastianWeaver]

Your a amazing piano player and sound designer, I'm glad you take the time out of your day to show and recommend us to certain synths

[@anaday11]

I feel as tho I just learned something about myself today...thanks for sharing Torley!

[@MrCthaler]

I always enjoy your synth tests, here you show real potential as a speaker or spokesperson. This is really interestng. I had two students I was told had asperger syndrome, both very musical and intense, focussed, great students.

[@cxl133]

You are always inspiring. I really enjoyed listening to your story.

[@criddyla696]

Found this in late 2022, watched lots of your excellent videos over the years pal, hope you are ok lad, great stuff.

[@SamIves85]

Thank you for sharing this video. I've enjoyed watching a lot of your videos, you have such a friendly and creative spirit and I look up to you for that, especially now knowing what goes on behind the scenes in your life. I actually have some issues myself and I've been meaning to make a new video for this channel about it for well over a year now but I keep on putting it off for various reasons and watching this has given me an incentive to make this video. Once again thanks :)

[@SqueeDee]

Hey Torley, love your feed and enthusiasm. Thanks for the fun and insights.

[@kornluv3r1]

Torely, you are amazing....just simply amazing.

[@iside42]

Go Torley...so glad I was pointed to this video. Its so important to see positive role models for young people with Aspergers. And A Dolby fan too :D

[@Mr_Matrix]

Thank you for sharing your story!

[@MichelangeloFlores]

Thanks for this video, Torley! I am a big big fan of the Fringe TV series and thoroughly enjoy your Equation and tutorials. I am very likely also an Aspie, and so I can relate to a lot of what you present in this video. Much praise for your ability to express your experiences.

[@carypotts3592]

Hey Torley.....thank you very much for sharing!!...you're a true inspiration and courageous!!....my belief is that we all have something to deal with and we have to find our way to do it.....my battle is that I'm recovering from a stroke and dealing with paralysis of my left side...again thank you for the inspiration!!!!

[@ultimateredstone]

It's so much fun to listen to you, you're really great at talking! :)

[@SecondLifeBlows]

Thank you for your fine thinking :-) and caring to share Torley...

[@LukeSock]

This was very useful and helped explain Asberger syndrome. Thanks, Torley. I appreciate the video.

[@carlosbenson1381]

Some of us are slow entering into the world of Torley but watching a video he has about guitar sounds software I was immediately taken with his musical talent and enthusiasm about life. As one that deals with Bi-Polar and frequency deprivation and was inspired by this timeless message and encouraged to "talk" professionally with a Dr. about it. Meds are good but therapy is part of the equation. Thanks for the 1+1 = 1 inspiration Torley. All the best.

[@OfficialTRAZOM]

I know this is an old video, but, i greatly enjoy watching your videos and at the same time you make me laugh. Thank you for sharing your story and your knowledge.

[@djohnson2449]

Hi Torley! Very much enjoyed the audio demos you submitted for Skippy's Unify. Beautiful composition. Hope you are well! Miss your videos, but if your journey leads you elsewhere I wish you all the best. Glad your composition is alive and well. Peace, man!

[@tomcatxsl6742]

Stay strong Torley! you inspire so many others :)

[@epipd5712]

Thanks for the video Torley....I think you help a lot of people with this video. Understanding is sometimes a big part of the cure!

[@Wilson10164]

I like how open you are Torley. Your videos are always very interesting. :)

[@medhue]

Hey Torley! Thanks for sharing!

[@stevenwagenheim8108]

Torley you are priceless. Don't ever change. PS - Love your videos.

[@hasssna]

you're an amazing person with an amazing talents period....just be yourself dude !!!

[@TOMJACK91]

I respect and love you Torley!!! I'm def prayin for you bro! You're a good dude 4real!!

[@kennethhjelle2225]

Very good Torley! Seen your video about EWQL before i bought it. And you make it easy! Peace and love!

[@Owldragonash]

I thought Torely pretty awesome before this Vid ...thank you for sharing more of yourself. You are amazing and bring us so much!

[@NE0TIMELESS]

Thanks for sharing! respect for you.

[@HectorAndresMayoral]

Torley... I really appreciate this!

[@rawrcalumx]

lmfao!!! Wasn't expecting a "eat da poo pooh!" reference. That video is gold. "they eat it.........like yoghurt"

[@JakeVerDugt]

Glad to see you're doing well Torley!

[@PetterKarlsten]

You are a big inspiration Torley!

[@capone6sic6]

you help other more than you know Torley. never change please

[@googleboughtmee]

So inspirational, especially to hear you have tinnitus and other hearing issues like I do yet are still amazing with music. I've never heard anyone describe the hearing problems with understanding people talking etc as you did, thought was just me.

[@EvilHippy38]

This is awesome. So articulate.

[@TheTrumanZoo]

its not you that is depressed, it is the world around us.

[@iamvonimmel]

We love and support you Torley!!!!! You will always be a friend of mine :)

[@vidworxsfx]

Thanks for sharing, I have to say your videos are enjoyable and informative plus the audio dialog in your videos sounds really fantastic with good presence on my mons, I am assuming you use a separate HQ mic to capture your dialog, as it sounds 100 times better then most of the tinny distorted sounding vids I see on the tube all too often. I am even more impressed with the sound quality based on the fact you say its harder for you to hear whats correct, well I can tell you, that the sound is correct and sounds great, awesome job man keep up the great work.

[@PeterRobotMusic]

Torley - I remember growing up on electronic music in the 90's, and you had a bit of a legendary story as 'the techno kid', writing electronic/classical compositions. Back then you were on the radar as this up and coming Aphex Twin type figure. Then, I remember hearing that you had suddenly gone deaf, and kind of fell off the radar. I wondered why 'It's all gone, Pete Tong' didn't mention you. Anyway, your video on SonicCharge Bitspeak just showed up on reddit's sub WATTM. Suddenly I remembered this figure that I looked up to as a kid. Good to hear you speak about your experience, and good to hear you're happy! Cheers

[@bjorngrauers]

thank you for sharing! your'e such an inspiration :)

[@StigDesign]

Nice to see your rl Torley love your tutorials :)

[@FreshnessStudio1]

hi Torley, this is a beautiful video it means a lot to me, you remind me of my son, he also is Autistic & he is also very beautiful, he is 12 now & a lot better today than he was when he was younger thanks to God.. thank you for this video, you are amazing peace & love bless x

[@MatheusDinizsr]

...have something to eat, shower, then I study music until 10. Then I study some english and italian, play a game and go to sleep. Thats it for everyday. I also get so focused on studying music that I forgot everything else, and I feel like not progressing anything. I really want to thank you for this video, and i'd love to share more information about this with you. Thanks, Math.

[@bitpixpr]

Really awesome video having a disability myself its very cool when other share their story's too, keep it up always I really enjoy all of you're videos thanks a lot.

[@QUIZFILTER]

Good stuff dude, thank you.

[@losagentenaranja]

you´re one of the coolest guys in the whole planet mate! all my respects.