Toshl: Author, "Brainwashed: My Comeback from 12 Years of Hell"

[@AriannaTremayne]

I think Toshi-san is very brave to appear in front of a panel and talk about personal experiences.

[@Pnnoth123]

I'm crying. Wish Toshi a happy life from now on.

[@xieyunpretty]

"We thought that we weren't just creating songs, we're creating art" gold.

[@DandyCandy1]

"I lost more than a decade of my life and I can't get it back, but I can try to move forward with my life and be honest about these experiences" - I'm so glad he's out, but it's so sad. Those 12 years...fuck. But you can't change the past :( "Yoshiki is my closest friend" - this put a smile on my face. You can see them being so happy again while performing on stage and it makes me even more happy. :) There are more great ones near the end as well. Inspirational video!

[@EdenAuroraz]

1. I'm really happy that he got out and is doing well, I love you Toshi❤️ 2. I wouldn't say that this was an "amazing experience" it was a horrible experience, imagine being brainwashed, hearing that the band you started with your best friend, who is called "the leader of all evil", is disgusting and evil, being abused, sometimes for HOURS!! being cut off from family and friends, hearing you are evil and an egomaniac, giving all your money to your abuser so while they live a great life, you only get 500-600 yen (about 3-4 dollars) to live on, and much more.... Yeah, not an "great experience"

[@cherriemarshall8596]

Oh my god, this is so sad. He always seems so nice and kind despite what has happened to him.

[@jefferyfranklin3033]

Dear Toshi ,all of America including myself love you very much with all our hearts ❣️ God bless you ❣️✝️

[@lillianc.lausell]

Toshi - San know that you are truly love here in America not only for your brilliant & awesome talents but for the kind & compassionate man that you are! I'm relieve & glad that you escaped the clutches of these misguided individuals. That you got your life back. That you once again can share your amazing talents with us fans that L♡VE YOU with all our hearts! Know that you have my support 100% in all your endeavors! God's blessings to you & your precious family as you continue to walk this road of life. I have confidence that you will concentrate on the positive side of life. I pray that as time passes that your memories of this bad experience will lessen & not cause you anymore bitterness. Toshi - San live long & be blessed with people that love & support you. Love you so much in X JAPAN! I will never meet you but I do have the great honor of listening to your awesome & beautiful voice thru your music CDs & Videos. How I wish to read your book but as it is not written in English I cannot. If at one point you decide to print your book in English I will definitely buy it & read of your experiences that has made you a stronger & more compassionate man. Thanks for sharing your experiences with us. One of your biggest fan from Red Lion, Pennsylvania USA 🇺🇸 ⚘ ❤ Lillian C. Lausell 💋

[@psychemxcv]

Omg this is some psycho level sh*t. I’m glad you’re finally saved Toshi!

[@Aprilyn-lm9vs]

He really is a survivor like Yoshiki his bestfriend.

[@Dara_21]

Toshi-san is brave for speaking about his experience and everything he had to go through he just thought us that no matter what you go through you can come back twice as strong and nothing will knock you down thank you ... though I do have to admit that I was mad when you left the band I still watch XJAPAN last live and I cry sooo much and it was so amazing.. and regards of the music what that guy said of being dark no its not it help me so much to get through a lot of hardships so thank you 🙏🏻😭♥️

[@dalilakenaza8612]

Je suis une fan inconditionnelle de X JAPAN depuis leur début . J'ai vécu de l'extérieur vos douloureuses épreuves et j'ai pleuré avec vous la perte immense de certains membres du groupe . Je suis heureuse de voir ici TOSHI survivant de la secte qui l'a oppresse et anéanti et à laquelle il a pu s'extraire . Merci de nous revenir sain et sauf et de nous honorer de ton retour avec X JAPAN , I love so much TOSHI -san 😍😙😗😘😁😀

[@pearel8166]

Greetings from Poland. ToshI, I am with you man! Stay strong!

[@ladysaera]

poor Toshi. i will always support my daddy Toshi 😢 i love all x japan member 😢

[@jiwoonb9278]

It is such a moving and thought-provoking interview. I am truly paying my respect to Toshi for the brevity and wisdom he has earned through all the suffering.

[@theneethikikomoritnh9442]

Thank you for speaking out on brain washing.

[@wilmasmith3030]

My heart goes out to ToshI He has been through so much

[@Starrla1717]

❤️love Toshl-san 🥰 Press On

[@山本瑞代]

反響が大きかった本!洗脳…すごくわかりやすいシンプルなタイトルの良い本でしたよ!

[@X3000Chan]

1:16:50 - ToshI sets this kid who's not a fan, just some kid who read some translated X JAPAN lyrics on the internet, and thought they were "dark", straight, about how uplifting they actually are. As a promoter of X JAPAN's music in the U.S., through facebook.com/xjapanusa, I've read the words of so many fans, hundreds, maybe thousands of fans, talking about how X JAPAN's music and lyrics saved them from some hard or painful time in their lives, weather it was depression or suicide, death of a loved one, some personal insecurity or hurdle or struggle they needed to overcome, X JAPAN's lyrics, on the surface, look dark, as they are (not all songs, but many) an expression of YOSHIKI's personal pain through loosing his father to suicide, and then his dearest friend, X guitarist Hide. However, YOSHIKI is not a self-loathing, negative type of human who pulls people down. He is the opposite of that, and this is apparent if you actually listen (while reading the translation, if you like) to X JAPAN's music. He's the type of human who thinks that ANYTHING is possible. ANYTHING is achievable. YOSHIKI has said "You have to have confidence!" There is ALWAYS a bright light at the end of the tunnel in YOSHIKI's sad lyrics. Take for example, the ballad TEARS, which is about his father's suicide. The lyrics are extremely openly emotional and sad. This taps in (even to those who don't consider themselves emotional) something that we all share. Suffering. "Life is suffering", the first Noble Truth of Buddhism states. Every human being on earth has felt some sort of pain or suffering in their lifetime, and if they haven't yet, they will. This is just a truth of the world. This is life. But the entire refrain of the song (which is in English, which I think gives it extra impact to fans worldwide), and the thought it leaves you with, is "Dry your tears with Love." What could possibly be more beautiful and uplifting and hopeful that those five words? Dry your tears with Love. X JAPAN's music, has continued to reach fans across the world, despite being mostly in Japanese, despite the band not even being together for 10 years as their world fan base steadily increased with the bridge of the internet and more specifically, KZbin, which is how I discovered them only in 2012, fans from many countries around the world, find healing music in Yoshiki's words and music, and ToshI's voice. The "healing" music of "uplifting" artists like of the group ToshI was pulled into, can sometimes be deceiving. Those people say (as does all religious music for the most part) that the sound and lyrics must be uplifting, but sometimes the message is not actually uplifting, but restricting, or condemning. X JAPAN's music is about pain, passion, beauty, love, and most of all, hope. It taps in to the most real and most basic human emotions, and it never refuses to give up on hope, love, and light. Thank You X JAPAN and Thank You ToshIさん! WE ARE X.

[@jefferyfranklin3033]

Five Men, one heart, one sole, XJAPAN FOREVER ❣️

[@whakjob]

@@jefferyfranklin3033 Seven

[@ganymede12283]

Soon they are going to be 8 members. Heath will now be replaced by a new member.

[@fallenishvalen9970]

A very, very good interview. It would have been really cool to add subtitles. The translator was great but reading along would have been nice in my opinion. I can see how that would be a hassle though.

[@empiorer]

Poor toshi. Pity you.Welcome Back

[@lb2.0.45]

I hate that Toshi with through all that but I am glad he got out of it and he's back with X Japan doing what he loves and taking back his life. As far as Masaya and Moritani goes there's a special place in hell for people like them.

[@timmyoshaunessy1518]

I’ve been there. I didn’t have a father figure. Didn’t blame him. I was lured into manipulation. Thank God I got out of there

[@kanokwanhottinger8831]

Masaya and Moritani are evil

[@ladysaera]

Kanokwan Nualwat yess they are

[@jinlongb]

Evil Washing Brain.

[@KT414a]

Kanokwan Hottinger I think they are psychopaths 💢

[@darientellez73]

Toshi, I am so sorry for what you’ve been through and I hope you can move forward despite all the hardships, and also, I hope that Masaya and Moritani pay for what they did to one of my childhood memories.

[@williamcole2431]

stay on The Path Toshi...

[@misskay2150]

There are many way of deception nowadays, there will be always someone that have their mind twisted. This is life. Hunter and prey. You can learn the lesson by yourself or you can learn from others. So you won’t be the next victim.

[@panadaachin]

♥#foreverlove #toshI

[@山本瑞代]

英語のインタビューに日本語で応える…凄いですネ…

[@山本瑞代]

洗脳!!良い本出た!!

[@ปัญญพรผาติเสน]

อยากให้แปลไทยจังเลยค่ะ

[@Mugenstylo]

Imagine being used by the cult and worse still his ex wife for 12 long yrs

[@timmyoshaunessy1518]

And God paid them back with cancer. I would never have people go threw that. I let God make that decision

[@EdenAuroraz]

I would never wish cancer on anyone else BUT for Masaya and Moritani... GIVE THEM THE MOST PAIN!!

[@timmyoshaunessy1518]

I wonder is that organization is still in business. I hope they get arrested or something.

[@Karma20XX]

Where can I get Toshi-san's book in English 英語 お願いします?

[@山本瑞代]

日本映画お引っ越し!お引っ越しの度に逃げ出すチャンスはあったはずなのに…何故逃げ出そうとしなかったのか？日本のジャーナリスト達は実に優秀ですネ…!教祖の寿命が逃げ出すチャンス!!（笑）

[@山本瑞代]

事務処理仕事が超得意分野!!そんな人達…本当に尊敬します…美容専門学校よりも商業高校受験すれば良かったかな?と思うくらい…ウワサの高校の歌詞…（笑）

[@larsulrich26ulrich42]

I reaad his book, I undertsand fully that he was scared to go to police etc.. but how come he couldnt reach to Yoshiki ?? I mean Yoshiki would destroy Masaya and this cult. Only questiaon I dont understand

[@inyue.]

LOL dude, asking help to the reason he got brainwashed?

[@larsulrich26ulrich42]

@@inyue. no, later on he realise that he is victim but couldnt reach for help

[@山本瑞代]

いつか訪れる矛盾と言うほころび…洗脳から目が覚める瞬間…

[@hanaokanatsuko3978]

こういう場に、自分が勤務するメディアを代表して出てきて、ファンからの質問を（それも内容をわかりやすくまとめることすらせずにそのまま読み上げる形で）そのまま本人に尋ねるって、ジャーナリストとしてどうなんでしょう？ プロ意識を激しく疑います。

[@山本瑞代]

シンガーの第1条件は身軽な独身である事の条件を死守する事が最重要条件だったのでした!シンプルあたりまえ理論ですネ…

[@山本瑞代]

トシジャパン!頑張れ!!

[@山本瑞代]

地球🌏の酸素の何10%かの酸素はアマゾンの森でつくられているらしいのです…理科はあまり好きではない科目でしたが何故か?酸素のつくり方だけは覚えてしまいました。究極の命の知識だけは…（笑）

[@山本瑞代]

シンガーとしてオリンピックアスリートの様に頑張ってくださいネ!

[@山本瑞代]

仕事に集中出来る条件!!

[@山本瑞代]

日本人は中学生に入ってから英語学習がプラスされていた昭和2桁時代…

[@ikhwanmohd4882]

why no English subtitle 😭😭

[@山本瑞代]

国語と体育と音楽が合体した様なカテゴリーがロック？

[@山本瑞代]

トシ君もたぶんそんな心境でしょう…

[@뿌잉뿌잉-f7t]

토시사랑해❤

[@山本瑞代]

Artistと言う知財活動家としての個人の人間のトリセツ!弁護士さんはその道のプロ!音楽の事しか知らなかったミュージシャン達…弁護士さんを頼って良かったですネ…

[@timmyoshaunessy1518]

What the. He got beat up???!!! I would be piss!!

[@山本瑞代]

ミュージシャンは…ぁ~弁護士ナシじゃぁ〜生きられない〜私の歌詞の替え歌…（笑）

[@山本瑞代]

あの時代小学生で英語話せる日本人は少なかったですネ…

[@山本瑞代]

見てんなざっせ〜見てんなざっせ〜甲状選手!謎の高校の応援歌の歌詞…（笑）

[@山本瑞代]

ウワサの高校の謎の応援歌の歌詞…

[@山本瑞代]

知財活動家のトリセツ!

[@山本瑞代]

著作権に関わるお仕事は大変ですネ…

[@山本瑞代]

作詞は文学ですネ…文系…

[@rambobunny1]

my mum rote book bowt her life

[@ckck3504]

香とまさや逮捕されてなかった？

[@山本瑞代]

事件結婚File!

[@山本瑞代]

地球🌏の空気の〜（笑）

[@山本瑞代]

ラプンツェル事件も閉じ込め事件!

[@cristinapinteac45]

If you need to Talk to somebody about the time you were in the sect you can write me in private😢💖🌼🙏🤗

[@山本瑞代]

子供は親を選べない…

[@山本瑞代]

韓国の理科女子大事件!古い幹部達しか知らない…

[@山本瑞代]

36年間もあれば英語の聴き取り学習は充分上達できていたでしょうネ…

[@山本瑞代]

おかげで私は結婚恐怖症…

[@山本瑞代]

後は音楽馬鹿…