Toxic Mormon Family Systems - Ari and Adam | Ep. 1630

[@outwardbound2241]

I'm only half way through (at the wedding day) but here's what I think: you two should get married again. At a wonderful location, with an awesome speaker, in your dream wedding dress, with the most beautiful wedding photos and surrounded only by people who deeply love and support you. To celebrate your incredible love and strength and because you are wonderful people who deserve to have an amazing wedding day

[@Whitwitty]

Yes, agreed!

[@trembletea]

I was thinking the same thing! It could be a renewal of vows, something like that.

[@hairthere9802]

I was thinking this too! I want her to have a beautiful wedding day or via renewal memory. ❤️

[@vainglory5346]

I totally agree. It's heartbreaking that Arise wedding day was the worst day of her life. A vow renewal sounds exactly like what the doctor ordered. Make it beautiful and happy, and don't even tell any of the people who ruined the original wedding day.

[@patricianoel7782]

AND DANCE!!!❤️

[@lc5666]

It's so touching to me to see how many men come on Mormon Stories and support their wives while they tell their own stories. It seems like such a beautiful healing thing, like the opposite of patriarchy telling women to sit down and be quiet. Adam is a great example of this here and I've seen it with several other guests. You can just see how much they love their wives and it's really beautiful.

[@lynnenaylor4224]

But What does their body language say?

[@mynamegoeshere5666]

@@lynnenaylor4224 It says they're nervous to be on camera and talking about a personal issue. People who aren't accustomed to being filmed can look a little uncomfortable or unnatural.

[@ryananderson845]

@@lynnenaylor4224 I thought his body language was reflecting the moods of the topics perfectly fine. Thanks Adam for being there. You're awesome.

[@JennJacobs.]

I lived in Ari and Adam’s neighborhood for a few years and I know they are genuinely great people. From the outside, seeing their sweet family at church, they were the “the perfect family”. I am so incredibly sorry for the trauma you’ve experienced! My advice is to make boundaries that are comfortable for you, I’m 53 now and just starting to dare to disagree with my parents or stand up for my beliefs, it’s such a hard thing when you know how they “view” or talk about outsiders😕. I’ve been out of church for 7 years now, and it gets better! You care less about old belief systems and can rewire to new belief systems! I am so proud of you and thrilled that you’re out and can find true happiness❤️!

[@lisawyatt1671]

100%!

[@michealcobia7869]

I had to wait for my mom to die. Im 68.

[@Cate7451]

You’re identifying the neighbour hood so take down your name. Keep the privacy that they asked for.

[@ernweist]

@Molly, everyone causes some disturbance with the choices they make. It’s more helpful to look where you’ve made your own than lash out at others doing their own healing.

[@ragenbostrom8075]

Sometimes the more perfect you look, the more trauma you carry/create.

[@bamaQT99]

Ari, this made me cry. My daughter married a man (boy child) I and the family didn’t like. But we still rallied around her, planned a great day, it was for her, to see her smile. I wanted and prayed to be proven wrong. But a year later, they separated. Again we rallied around her. I can’t imagine treating my daughter the way Ari’s mother did. Ari, you deserve that, you are a beautiful person! Annnnnd I just hear you say you have 9 kids!!!! Wow! College too! Truly an amazing woman!

[@jeannemarie5908]

Oh my goodness Ari & Adam! You two really, really need to redo your wedding. Please gift yourself with the wedding you deserve! It is a celebration of your love and commitment to each other. Plan an amazing celebration!

[@outwardbound2241]

I commented the same thing. Totally agree!

[@jeannemarie5908]

@@outwardbound2241 Absolutely! When the time is right, this couple really deserves to & needs to have a wedding that truly celebrates their union in a happy and beautiful way!!

[@yolandagrabowski6043]

Mary if you want to. It's just a piece of paper and finger demon. Diamond means demon.

[@TiredKnitter]

I think it wasn't really that he hadn't served a mission. That was the excuse. It was that Adam was taking Ari away from being under her mom's power, and she didn't want to lose someone she had control over. I'm incredibly impressed that Ari got out despite all that pressure.

[@djdalad]

that's what happened when I married my exwife, my mom made accusations about her that weren't true, and made my exwife cry from hearing obviously untrue things, I don't respect my mom for poisoning perception of her, I think it was partly not having control of me as reasoning for my mother's behavior.

[@joanteasdale2991]

Yeah by darn they do check for garments I'm not kidding you one lady in our Ward cap sleeves even my mother said she must be kept tucking her garment

[@LucyBlue0823]

I’m not Mormon, but we also called urine “tinkle.”😂

[@cosudu3002]

I think you hit the nail on the head here @avhn

[@BenSwagnerd]

This. My parents are a lot like Ari's parents. I've never been mormon, but I "ruined" their family when I came out as transgender. When I started dating my clean-cut Midwestern active duty military husband, they *loved* him. Until they realized that the loves me for who I am and had no intention of trying to change me. We haven't spoken to my parents in 4 years. Best decision ever. I hope Ari and Adam have kept healing in the year+ since this was recorded. It's so worth it.

[@windyday85]

I married that missionary at 18!! He told me I was the one he was to marry. He NEVER asked me to marry him. I have lived in fear ever since. And yes I am rendered voiceless.. I stayed for my children. It was the WORST thing to do.. ALMOST 30 years.. I gave my all to my children. Trying to make up for the lack of him being there. I left him I still suffer my children suffer, my grandchildren suffering. Don't let any one tell you that you are to marry them. You find out for yourself. Listen to your heart. And don't stay in any kind of an abusive relationship. They may hold the priesthood and your told to stay. But that is NOT a reason to continue to be abused. This episode REALLY pulled at my heart strings.. I'm crying like Jenn.. The manipulation and narcissist abuse was so well done. I lost me..

[@hairthere9802]

Were you able to get out and get the help you need or do you need safe resources in your area?

[@917hazel]

Thank you. This is a universal story in many ways. I so appreciate the vulnerability and honesty of these two ppl. Tears, cleansing tears🙏

[@naanpareil]

As someone who didn't know the first thing about mormonism until I met my ex-mormon now-fiancé, this was a great watch. He also grew up in a narcissistic & abusive family and it's shocking to me the things he thinks are 'normal'. It's a lot of hard work to undo that toxic conditioning he was raised under, but we're tackling it together every step of the way. Thank you Ari for sharing your story!!

[@letahamilton]

Yikes. This episode is so informative & educational for anyone listening- Mormon or not. I am learning so much. Thank you. Having these real life examples of narcissistic family dynamics is super useful for me. Really like your long form episodes.

[@lilyt5855]

I'm so dang invested in Ari and Adam! I hope so much that they've continued to grow and heal.

[@dorothybatton9544]

Aris story, by far, is the saddest story I have ever heard and I’m 90 yrs old. I’d be so proud to have her as a granddaughter. I would love to see this amazing couple marry again in a ceremony they could be overjoyed with starting over.

[@MKConnecticut]

I’m not quite as old but I feel the same. I’d welcome this couple and their nine children

[@Cocoon68]

You have a brace and courageous granddaughter!

[@ariannebrown4845]

Thank you, @dorothybatton9544 . I'll gladly adopt you :)

[@rachelleandrichard]

Renew your vows please Ari with people who love you and celebrate your love for each other. You deserve happiness and joy. You've proven your family wrong. You chose a good man. I'm so sorry for all the bullsh*t you went through as a child and young woman. Your mother is so manipulative and cruel treating her children as pawns in some wicked game of control. She needs to apologise but don't hold your breath. People like her believe their own lies. I felt sick to my stomach. No one deserves this. She's so destructive. My hope for you and your generations going forward is that you would bloom and your children will be healthy and prosper. The tears and pain I witnessed be replaced with laughter and genuine joy. You get to author your story from here forward. I wish you well. xo

[@ragenbostrom8075]

THIS IS AN EXCELLENT IDEA

[@MKConnecticut]

My heart has a hundred “feels” for you, Adam. Your simple support is so admirable

[@ColorJoyLynnH]

Truth is everything. I love and connect with truth tellers. Love to you and your family.

[@bookslikewhoa]

When Jenn said that no one will ever cry alone during a Mormon stories… hard relate! I’m always sitting here crying with the folks who share. I appreciate Ari’s vulnerability 💙

[@srso4660]

Her dad was my therapist 🤦🏼😳 What's ironic is I went to him to deal with my toxic Mormon family. I'm so happy to see Ari made it out, good for her ☺

[@cumeil]

I’d ask for a refund. It boggles my brain how the church has these therapists that do nothing to help vulnerable people. It’s almost like they are out there to keep people damaged and in the church.

[@vegasviber1173]

This resonates. My dad was not a therapist, but many people came to him for advice.

[@Rockinashy]

@@cumeil no literally though. when i went through an extreme traumatic experience, my bishop wanted me go to an LDS counselor and not a different therapist

[@rtwindsor]

He should have his license revoked and his credentials retracted. Quacks like him should be stopped from practicing in the mental health field. Rather, place him as a tour guide for a creationist museum, leave science to the TRUE professionals!

[@ernweist]

@molly then you should come on here and share your own story. How did things really happen? Maybe you can explain about Ari’s wedding day, what was that like for you?

[@dm-dk5lm]

Rendered voiceless is such an accurate description. 💔 Edit to add: narcissistic parents have the space to thrive in lds culture. The rules can be taken as far as it suits them, which means they can "justify" lashing out, they can put the responsibility of what the rules are on dead prophets/God so you can never actually contest the rule with the person who made it, and then they latch onto the hero complex because "they're doing it to save your soul", all while claiming you chose them in the premortal life so you already had your "say". It's super messed up.

[@62Loralee]

My family went against me as well. I’m so very sorry. Mom built an army and they stood up for her. They went so far as to call police on me. Thank My husband who supported me in this family war against me. They never said sorry for doing and saying things. It’s brushed under the carpet.

[@leahflower9924]

Narcissists employ flying monkeys

[@ClaireCopeland-n6y]

We were not Mormon but I had the flying monkeys too. Mom had two helpers who stayed with her when my dad died. They were always against me and I gave her most of my check etc etc. My mom would curse and scream at me for no reason and if I said a small word in defense she would say This is elder abuse and pick up the phone to call the police. She had many good moments but got worse with age. I understand this poor girl

[@bethswalwell6797]

I have learned so much about the trauma ‘religion’ causes in families by watching these videos. I (56) grew up with parents who were teachers who NEVER had anything to do with any kind of religion. Sundays were actually called fun days where we did all kinds of things. The only swear word in our house was the word ‘hate’. I am so grateful for the way I was raised and my siblings and I often talk about how wonderful it was.

[@cosudu3002]

I didn't grow up with any religion and I was treated often the same way as Ari was treated. I don't think religion is a requirement for these things to happen. But I understand.

[@haroldwhite5761]

@@cosudu3002 Agreed, govt's easily become narcissistic so can filter down into culture and happen anywhere. But I also know it's very concentrated here in Utah where the separation between church and state is an illusion.

[@gw2424]

Was being the key word.

[@exmoextra13]

i grew up in a family like this. thank you ❤ i appreciate you connecting the dots on how lehi's family displays this toxic family dysfunction and us used as a model in mormonism. i have noticed and seen this play out so much in life. sending love ❤

[@jmoney8962]

My parents and siblings are so toxic, that I had to step away from all of them Christmas 2018. We always had dysfunction in our family. There were so many issues, I wouldn't know where to begin. I removed my name from the records of the church and I don't want to ever see this family again. Stress-free and being around people who actually love me and see my greatness. Powerful podcast. I can relate. Thank you for your story!

[@unapologeticallyauthentic]

My family puts the "fun" in dysfunctional!! Lol... WEDDING REDO

[@flowersbelowskyabove]

This is such an important story to share. I was also raised by a "hard" mormon mother and an enabling father. Thank you so much for opening up and for showing us that we are not alone. I wish you all the best on your journey of healing and love.

[@mormonstories]

I suspect there will be MANY people who relate to Ari's story and hopefully many can get helpful answers for their own lives if they are still caught up in the toxic kinds of relationships we talk about here.

[@Sundaymagpie]

As someone who is completely outside this broke my heart. I’m so thankful that you shared your story.

[@Sundaymagpie]

“The very air has ears.” Wow. That is powerful.

[@kimgoeckeritz6320]

Mormon Stories has literally been my life line!

[@kimgoeckeritz6320]

@Jenn Kamp thank you! You bring so much good to this podcast. I always love your comments and heartfelt empathy and compassion. Thank you for the good you put out into the world 💛

[@MKConnecticut]

Me too! And I’m not, and have never been Mormon!!!😘

[@kimgoeckeritz6320]

@@MKConnecticut that’s amazing! Have you ever been affiliated with a religion?

[@MKConnecticut]

Yes- Catholic. My mother was VERY Catholic and I went to Catholic school for 16 years, taught by nuns until college. I walked away when I was 25 because I fell in love with a divorced man and was told I couldn’t marry a divorced man. But so many similar feelings!!!

[@RCarpeDiem83]

Having grown up in the same town as Ari, and having many acquaintances in common, it has been very therapeutic for me to hear your story. Thank you for having the courage to share so much on these difficult topics.

[@robynhfearon2108]

Your story is our story; your pain is felt by my family too; your courage to hold your story with such self-compassion gives me hope that I can learn self-compassion too.

[@catherinecrane535]

Ari please know that you & Adam have saved your children & future generations from living lives distorted by hard & fast rules that are built around performative & narcissistic liars that create mentally & emotionally crippled human beings. Be proud of what you are doing to save others who are struggling❤

[@zacc9953]

I’ve watched many of these episodes but this is the first where I was surprised to see people I know. Wonderful people. Adam taught and coached my kids and Ari is an incredible distance runner, well respected and liked in the trail running community. So terrible to hear what they’ve been through.

[@kathrynneuman1079]

I'm 18 minutes in and I already love Ari. I can already tell she is an honest, trustworthy and deeply compassionate person. She is clearly a person who cares about truth and interpersonal respect, down to her bones. I like spending time with people like Ari.

[@forgivemore4488]

"Striving for the perfect Mormon dream creates suffering for everyone. " Perfectly put, John. So, so sad.

[@dehende07]

This was a very emotional interview and I love Ari and Adam for their openness, they're willing to tell such a compelling life story...... God bless them

[@hazelgirl5091]

This was so relatable! I spent my entire life believing that I was mentally ill because my family system functioned just like this. It wasn't until I learned about narcissism that I was able to step back and distance myself from the toxicity. Yet, I still couldn't "fix" myself no matter how much research I did to understand why I was the way I was. It wasn't until I finally decided to take a deep dive into the faith I was raised in that I realized how much the two are connected.. I've since realized how distructive the Mormon faith is on the core of the family system. I've been the scapegoat/black sheep since I had the ability to think for myself. I was always the truth teller and a nonconforming personality type. It nearly destroyed me because as a result, I was taught to believe that I was disposable. Even removing myself from my family and the belief system I was raised in couldn't fix the things I would continue to tell myself about myself. I self-destructed for years because I was so conditioned to believe that I was never enough, regardless of knowing deep down that it just isn't true... I am on my way to healing now, but it also meant mourning the loss of my loved ones in order to move on.. Stories like this do help, it reminds me that I'm not alone. 💞

[@melliness123]

My mother was like her mother, we were a UK Mormon family. My father was a good man but very weak and was an enabler. I think narcissists hide in religions, they pretend to be good church going people. Later in life I found that that was Dad was not my biological father and my mother had had many affairs. I need to write a book!

[@fifthgencanuck8663]

The pure anguish in Ari’s voice breaks my heart, how anyone can cause such trauma to her is gut wrenching 😰 thank you, Adam and John for supporting her to speak her truth and to help a larger audience contemplate the toxic narcissistic family/church system. Sending you all much love from Canada 🍁

[@dominiquemmaurice]

I recently started listening to all of these podcasts, and I have to say that the way John gives the guests space to say what they need to, is truly a gift. (I’m an ex Pentecostal Christian)

[@jeannemarie5908]

Ari, as a mother of grown young men (36 & 38) and now fathers. I am proud of you for establishing your boundaries and being true to your self. I am proud of you for protecting your children. You, Adam and your children are the priority. You don’t deserve this treatment - no one does. Ari, you are so blessed to have a strong supportive husband. You are blessed to have wonderful insights into your self & your own pain -> This is where healing is. Follow your heart, love your family, be true to yourself. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your story. Follow your heart, be true to yourself. Either your parents will be forced to grow (and respect you and your perspective) or they will remain behind your barrier.

[@Mari-go5hc]

Aris' mom sounds like she could be bipolar. I'm not a Dr. but the things Ari is saying sounds like my mother in law. Instant major mood swings

[@hannabfree]

I love the advice at the end of “look to the outsiders cause they will catch you and help you” and “trust yourself”. Leaving the church is so hard, especially when it’s so fresh. But this story is so hard to listen to but also incredible and I can’t help but feel so proud of them. ❤️ I thought my story was hard and now I feel that I can handle my story better and move forward with more strength.

[@Jenocide999]

Adam is a strong man. Living under the thumb, directly or indirectly, of your in-laws is devastating to your role in your own family.

[@RandEinfeldt]

@@Jenocide999 no he is not. He is soft spoken, but recently has been spineless.

[@PsstErika]

@ A strong man supports his wife. Your comments make you seem unhinged and brainwashed. Seek help.

[@PsstErika]

@randeinfeldt A strong man supports his wife. Your comments make you seem unhinged and brainwashed. Seek help.

[@trixieloo]

I have a covert narcissist sister and I could relate to so much of this, even as a “never-mo.” Learning to recognize the DARVO technique was key for me: Deny-Accuse-Reverse Victim and Offender roles. It’s projection/ deflection/ nitpicking. “I don’t have to listen to the content of what you’re saying because you didn’t say it correctly.” Dr. Phil would say “filibustering.” Common among narcissists, borderlines, and addicts when they are confronted. Either immediately or after they’ve had a chance to think about it and “build their case.” I love this channel. So much shared humanity among those of us who have walked through fire and looked for better ways to live. I especially appreciate the perspectives on parenting because I’m determined to break the pattern of generational abuse and trauma with my child.

[@62Loralee]

I can totally relate. Churchy parents and super abusive parents. Tears.

[@sweingold5686]

Very emotional journey. I agree with another commenter: Renew your vows in a beautiful place that you pick. Get new photos and put them up on the wall. I suggest planning fun family adventures on Sundays. Go to plays, zoo, museums, concerts, nature parks. Encourage your children to explore their passions. Volunteer as a family at a Food Bank and Habitat for Humanity. I wish you a bright future and much happiness.

[@annaswanson5903]

Oh man, when you're an adult who goes to therapy and realize that you're in a family with a multi-generational narcissistic family dynamic family ... anyone else?

[@srso4660]

🙋🏻‍♀

[@vegasviber1173]

I am floored at how much this resonates and is similar to my own family.

[@annaswanson5903]

@@vegasviber1173 I’m sorry you’ve had these experiences, sending hugs and strength from afar

[@annaswanson5903]

@@srso4660 sending hugs and strength from afar

[@julies518]

my husband. He started therapy a couple years ago and his therapist told him his dad has full-blown NPD and his family is terribly enmeshed and toxic. It shook him deep to realize how f*cked up his family is. Sorry you have been in a family like that. My mother is a covert narcissist, I know the harm that comes from that.

[@Joshuamonkey]

About the two instances where your intuition helped you (Ari) discover things: In addition to the theory that it's our own intuition alone, as I started exploring outside of the Church I learned there is a lot of scientific evidence of spiritual telepathy (e.g. in near death or end of life experiences), and this was comforting for me. It doesn't require believing in the Church to believe in spiritual inspiration; the Church just took credit for it you could say. The key is to be intellectually humble and open to different possibilities. :)

[@TraciFrank-t3t]

Thank you so much for sharing! I found Mormon Stories this past year and have been binge watching ever since. The definition of the narcissistic family was spot on and gave me comfort that it was not my 'mind' thinking these things but actually a true toxic environment. Your story resonant so strong with me! I was the loud, obnoxious one who was blamed, etc. and grew up so confused between what I experienced and what I felt should be normal. Now as an adult, I am working on deconstruction decades of mind manipulation. John, thank you for what you do!!!

[@lisaschildmeyer129]

WOW! Thank you! You've helped me peel away yet more layers. Praying that God will strengthen you in your journey of breaking your generational curses. God bless you! And your family!

[@Andi-tx1rl]

Oh Ari, I wish I could hug you. I've felt only a minute fraction of the abuse you've been through. I have a narcissistic father. It's so hard & I'm so sorry. You are such a brave woman to share your story & your vulnerability. Thank you for being amazing.

[@jeangarde841]

Powerful interview with two very brave/strong young people. As a retired hospice nurse, I imagine it’s a grieving process. Prayers for peace & comfort as they move forward.

[@dionclark6581]

Ari, thank you for your army allegory. I have so many instances in my family where allies vs enemies are in a war.

[@susanwilliams70]

I still remember feeling relief when I moved 600 miles away from where my mom lived (my choice). My mom was diagnosed BPD (borderline personality disorder)in her 70s. By that time the damage had an impact on all 8 of her children. We all went our own ways & avoided her whenever she was raging (often making excuses to leave as these people can get mean at times) or in a bad mood,which could be often. She lived a sad chaotic life. I think Ari had it worse than I as her mom was more extreme. Most of my brothers & sisters were understanding & supported one another when it came to my mom.

[@sirij8784]

I lived in Utah, Arizona and Colorado and if there was one nothing I noticed was that a large majority of the girls had depression, bi polar and anxiety. Mormon or not they all had alot of mental health problems. Why is that?!

[@merricat3025]

Got to be hard to have BPD mom. I have seen many people who say they are in therapy for having BPD. IMO, most don't see the pain they cause people in their lives. Even the ones in therapy. It always seems like it's about them. I get they are in pain, but they cause pain to innocent. I can't imagine one not in therapy raising happy kids. BPD are not people who you want to your close life.

[@janemaas4225]

This is so sad. My heart breaks for both Ari and Adam. With all this negative Ari and Adam will have to work hard to overcome all of this. Prayers and love for both Ari and Adam. You both are very strong to weather this storm.

[@jenellaedwards1165]

This is one of the most profoundly moving stories I have ever heard on the internet. I am not Mormon or ex-Mormon, but I have had some very diverse and curious experiences with LDS people over the years (I am in my mid 60's for context). I have been listening to your channel for about a year, and I really appreciate your long format interviews. So many parts of this story can spark insight into many person's experiences with relationships and family systems.

[@ryananderson845]

Ari and Adam, thank you so much for sharing this story. So brave of you. I am so sorry for all that you've been through. I believe things will get better for you guys.

[@billbirkett7166]

It wouldn't be Mormonism if it weren't a toxic family system.

[@mellisagreen7801]

😅😅😅😅😅😅

[@brittanygray2742]

Ari- your story is so similar to mine. So so similar. I am estranged from my parents, it will be a year in October. And it's the most painful thing I've ever experienced. I'm struggling and learning how to live now. My kids miss them too.

[@brittanygray2742]

And the wedding story broke my heart. I have a story about my wedding day involving my mom. She made it one of the worst days of my life.

[@lisettebordeleau3765]

Dear Ari. You did the right thing: you protected your children. You are so smart. I went through the same thing but not within a religious family. However the result was the same. I did not protect my children so I lost them all. It took me years to get over the pain but it went away eventually. I'm now a happy person. You will too.

[@hashaborgonja]

When I told my Dad I wanted to leave the Church, he told me I shouldn't because he has made covenants. He two more times brought it up and told me I shouldn't. The third time, I knew I had to do it. I wrote to a friend, telling him what I intended to do. The next morning, I sent a message to my Bishop telling him what I wanted to do.

[@jeannemarie5908]

I pray that if your family see’s this video of you bearing your soul and being incredibly brave .. I hope it is catalytic to healing the pain in your family. You are BRAVE and strong and a very wise woman, wife, mother. I am sure your strength has helped many people, and will continue to help.

[@Charalldredge]

Ari, same. Very abusive Mother. Never knew if I’d get a push, slap, hair pull just by walking by. I know exactly how you felt and feel today. I’m 50 now, and it doesn’t go away but it doesn’t define me anymore. Time will heal you. Much ❤️ to you.

[@deborahannstephenson741]

Thanks, Ari and Adam. Thanks John and Jen, good job. It was heartbreaking but the story needed to be told. I wish this couple and their children the best life possible and it looks like they're on the right track. God bless everyone involved, be well and stay safe

[@kiterafrey]

My heart goes out to Ari. She deserves a do over wedding. A renewal of vows with friends who are her new family where she can have the wedding that was in her heart.

[@mayflowergal6794]

I agree

[@JillGioello-sm9fj]

I am a survivor of a mixed faith, narcissistic family system, and have been watching Mormon stories for over a year. This has been the most impactful episode for me. I hope that Ari will find out how much this episode has helped me and I am 71 yo. Thank you very much!

[@The_Crow-]

I’m not LDS NOR ever have been. Yet her story resonates so much with me, my mom and family. 😢 ❤

[@michealfrances]

I recently had to cut bait with my own Mormon family after years of being the family scapegoat because I'm LGBTQ. It was particularly ugly because my mother's death was used as another way of alienating me out of the family. This hurt will continue as long as I allow them back in my life. As painful as it is, it's really important to stay away from toxic people . The LDS corporation gives these people the impression that it's okay to be hateful toward their family members. There's not a word for what the LDS church has done to our family. It hasn't been invented yet. It's a kind of an evil that's hard to wrap your head around. A multi-billion dollar corporation has destroyed my family. And my family blames me for it

[@alexasmaellie3764]

My heart aches for the experiences and stories shared here. I can’t imagine the pain, but I have experienced similar experiences when I was younger. You are so strong 🤍

[@mandamoodouglas4573]

I cannot express how incredible you are for sharing your story . I come from a similar upbringing and also married a man who did not serve but was a member. I'm finding so many similarities in our stories. It is sooooo hard to grow up without a voice and in fear. To have to step back and talk about it is scary. Thank you for sharing.

[@lorineilson7529]

Great podcast. I appreciate Ari's openness and honesty.

[@dallinklain3852]

Thank you for your story. On a much lesser scale I can see a lot of similarities. Helps me to accept more of the negativity in my past and gives me motivation to move forward.

[@kathymarsden5757]

Joseph Smith's father was an alcoholic and his wife and children were enablers and codependents, Joseph was an adult child of an alcoholic. Their alcoholic codependent dysfunctional shame based family system is replicated in the structure and culture and doctrine of the church. It is the warp and woof of the church..the very foundation structure of it. Dysfunction creates dysfunction in the next generation. Thank you for your clarity, courage and educating us about family systems and shining light on the church''s apparent resemblance to narcissistic family systems. . In your time given here we have been given the template, the substance and evidence of how it really plays out--we can clearly recognize all you have described. This is a priceless gift you have provided. Profound.

[@bradengv5187]

"My world is very small." This is so true. Well said. It defines my upbringing and my family members still in the cult.

[@smockedtop9720]

Ari as a 20-something year old who is the child of a narcissistic father in a narcissistic family system who has been in therapy for 7 years now… thank you for your courage; you are so knowledgeable and insightful and this interview was so eye-opening. You have SO much to offer no matter how early in your healing journey you feel you are. I am still learning to stop apologizing for everything, so I hope you can learn that too 😊 To Adam- thank you for being not judgemental and a source of validation for Ari. Hearing my partner say, “I can’t believe how far you’ve come, that’s crazy they would treat you like that, it makes me mad to hear they treated you like that,” means more than I could ever put into words. “You can’t change it, you can only support” (I’m butchering your words) but GOD that was insightful. Many many blessings and wishes for happiness for you and your family.

[@boysrus61]

This was a really good interview. I appreciate Ari's openness and vulnerability in sharing with. I kept thinking over and over that sometimes there comes a point where you have to leave the family you grew up with and cling to the family you created. It would be nice to have a parent there helping, but when that can't happen, there are others who can fill that void if you look around and embrace them.

[@JustJ-Me]

Thanks for the disclaimers as they are important. I imagine this was both terrifying and validating for Ari.

[@JustJ-Me]

Thank you for sharing your story and experiences. 💓

[@shdfx1]

I am so glad I made it out of this church. I fell for the perfect images and thought all the Mormon families I knew were just so happy and blessed. It did a number on my marriage and my family but thankfully I found the truth about 4 years in. I can’t be happier or more proud of being free and letting my husband and my children be free also. No forcing this bullshit down their throats and feeling like constant failures.

[@bigmac4265]

There aren't very many people who understand the mormon culture and dialet!! This is all real and extremely emotionally serious!!

[@shannahdawn4724]

If “Straightening” your shoulders, for the first time in your life, is the body’s natural response to speaking your truth… Then “Showing” your shoulders is a symbol for claiming your Autonomy. This episode is more valuable than I can describe. Thank all four of you!!

[@tthomas6013]

I wasn't able to finish this live, but I went back and finished it later and I'm so glad I did. The similarities are heartbreaking. The LDS Church has allowed this behavior and even encouraged it in some instances. Families are divided or forever cut off. No longer blood is thicker than water. The Church is a poison that has ruined generations. Our Family also dealt with abuse, both within the Family and out. Within the Highest reaches of the Church down to the BSA. The length the Church Officials go to cover-up the abuse is disgusting. Thank you for sharing your story. The more we can get the BS the Church hides out and in the open the better.

[@VerdeVal-sb8tz]

I am so loving this podcast. What are you sharing? Is so parallel in the type of family I was raised in.

[@robinsmith1218]

Ooooohmyyyygoooodd. .. I am hearing and feeling all of this. I'm going to have to take a break and come back. The walking on eggshells, the craving and longing for ONE statement from my parents like, "You know one thing I really enjoy about you?", my mom kept trying to pay me to not stay with my husband, the gaslighting, the constant cattiness and criticism of everyone in and out of the family, the inability to ever get anyone to understand MY point of view or experience, the horror of the days that should have been wonderful, the taking over of my wedding ... John said early on that it sounded like any family. And that's the thing: you only begin to get it when you've heard story layered on event layered on detail layered on commentary that cuts you to shreds. I am sooooo sorry this happened to you!!

[@BenSwagnerd]

This sounds so familiar to me. I hope Ari and Adam are in a good place now. I know how it feels to feel how raw Ari was in this interview. Healing isnt linear and I hope she knows how strong and powerful she is for stopping the cycle.

[@hsavage2899]

I love how this illustrates the parallel between narcissistic relationship abuse and the organization of the LDS church. Truly eye opening.

[@curtisgladden6708]

I resonate with her story so much. My father is the same way. He’s tried in so many ways to hide his abuse. Unfortunately I ended up marrying a narcissist as well. Fortunately us kids where close and didn’t fall for the scapegoating. So we are still pretty close

[@ernweist]

@molly, if it happens once that’s possible, I’d it happens twice it’s turning into a pattern. She’s not the only sibling this has happened to- that’s a pattern.

[@joanteasdale2991]

Damn you've just got to go out and make your little family the happiest and funniest that you can be in I feel that in that situation being happy and fun with your little family you will overcome this and you will get over the grief of not having your other family that you grew up with because I left home when I was fourteen and went to live with my aunt and more less quit going to church and met and married the most wonderful guy with the approval of my aunt but I didn't even ask my parents whether they approved or not when I was 24 he felt about the church as I did he was wonderful and I was close to his family because we lived out of state and mine was okay probably because I lived out of state and we did get along because I was out of state but you going to make your own happy little life and put that in the background and eventually you will ease up on that out of the church is not all that bad you'll be free or happier doing what you actually want to do renew your vows have the wedding you've always wanted with your kids as your attendance Batman in your backyard invite your neighbors but don't include Deb toxic family workboard happiness

[@alyssamauger8257]

The similarities in this story to my own are uncanny. I needed this story. Thank you for sharing .

[@Rjohnson8641]

I am only half way through this and I can understand so much of this kind of pain. Pathological narcissism is the worst. The absolute worst. Thank you sharing with all the raw emotions, and the trauma related to narcissism.

[@leannhill3741]

Heartbreaking story. So proud of Adam standing by Ari and supporting her. I agree with other comments- you should renew your vows or something and have the day be exactly like you dreamed of! Bless you both 💞

[@JessLena-cn8zi]

Powerful! Thank you for sharing your inspiring story of healing.

[@letahamilton]

This episode was heavy. Thank you so much.

[@marcellacruser951]

Ari and Adam, you have more family than you think. Thirty-six thousand new brothers and sister now have your back. Your courage to speak the truth will be a lifeline for so many that are fighting to survive and escape the same darkness. I pray for your continued recovery, for an easing of your grief and far, far better days ahead. Walk in the light and be blessed.

[@elizabethwoodyard8241]

41:00 this was my upbringing too, Ari. I'm 43 and still healing. I wish I could give you a hug. It's hard to reconcile the person your parent was at church/ in public versus who they were at home.

[@jenhodell9663]

I feel so much of this! I can really relate! My story seriously aligns so much with this

[@carlamullenberg1029]

I have been watching Moran Stories a little over a year now and I have watched some amazing stories but none of them have had me in tears for almost the entire story as this story. As a Never Mormon there are references that have been made that I have no understanding of but that a family can be destroyed from within by the Mother & condoned by the Father is one of the reasons I have been a non-believer my whole life, however I feel that even if this family was not Morman the outcome would still be the same. Ari I wish I could just hug the hurt away for you, you are a good mother, wife, daughter, sister, aunt etc. you are more than good enough, and I wish you healing and light as you move forward from this with your amazing husband Adam and family. Keep your children close but share your truth if and when they ask you questions, age appropriate answers are sometimes hard to come by. Lead by example and I am sure you 9 children will be forever blessed to be able to call you and Adam, Mum and Dad.

[@Leinomaaea]

Just finished this podcast…. So so good. Thank you Ari! And especially Adam!

[@urbansanctuary4899]

You just told my exact story. Thank you for giving us a voice.

[@katiem8715]

Oh my goodness Ari, I’m so sorry those things happened to you. I hope you know that NONE of it is your fault- even if you did everything “right” according to your mother, she would find something to punish you for because that’s who she is. Wishing you love and healing ❤️

[@lorismith621]

I’m watching this video a year later and all I have to say is Ari and Adam just be happy you are away from the toxic relationship you had with your family Be strong and don’t waiver If your siblings wake up one day they will look to you for strength You are both beautiful and loving hearts

[@IamMrKatz]

I’m just watching this a year after it was released and all the issues with Jenn. Looking at Jenn now, her input is all about herself and not out of concern for Ari. I’m glad Jenn is no longer with MS. And my heart goes out to Ari and Adam.

[@katego370]

Ari, I feel you. It is the lies that crack you. You learn to be a very forgiving and hopeful person, growing up with that kind of mother. You're always hoping that you'll get through to her eventually. The thing is; you can't get through to people like that. I have tried for 12 years and I'm still battling the feeling of hope that one day, maybe one day, I'll get through to her but the reality is that people like that only learn from crashing into brick wall after brick wall. It hurts and it's so hard to let go because it's your mother but you have to focus on healing yourself and finally mending those wounds for your own sake. You have lived to please your mother in order to receive her love, as have I. Now, you have to face years of realizations and tears but it will make you a better person. Dare to be vulnerable, as you are already doing, it's what your mother cannot be. *You have to refuse to stop crying, it is your strength, your weakness, your story, and you need to cry all of the tears that you didn't cry growing up.* And by the time that all the tears have been cried, you will own your past as much as you get to own your future. For every piece of insight into your psyche, you get to be a better person. With your dad, I suppose the one thing you could try is to record everything you want to say to him, record 'til you get it how you want it, and then send it to him. Starting the recording by saying you're recording it because you want to speak from your heart without interruptions, you don't want to fight with him but you as his daughter want to tell your father all of the hurt you have experienced and why you believe what you believe and ask that if he wishes to answer, that he only answers in writing or recording, not on the phone or face to face. I don't know how that would pan out, you have to do what is right for you. Somebody else said it already but yes, you two should have a wedding do-over. Just renew your vows and treat it like a real wedding. Only invite people that actually care about you, wear the perfect dress, take the best wedding photos, only music and food you love, and make it a day to remember. The great thing when you have kids is that they can participate, as a part of your story. You can have wedding pictures with your kids, and you can have your children walk you down the aisle.

[@marthashepherd341]

Gentle Blessings to You Both. You are very Brave ❤🙏❤

[@bodytrainer1crane730]

Well this interview is incredible. I really learned about a narcissistic environment and mostly grew to respect Ari's courageous journey. It's amazing what a parent's psychology can do to their children mentally and emotionally and what the LDS church does to support dysfunction.