My First Love Committed Suicide | STORYTIME |

[@NDGOCHYLD]

Man nobody knows the pain of a black man here on earth. We carry so much pain. Tripp you are definitely so mething special. My dude! ✊🏿❤

[@monty150]

True

[@804smiles]

Big Factz! I luv 2 c a man being honest about their true feelings

[@DDominoGeronimo]

Say that again, my guy.

[@wendyellis3738]

Sorry for beingblate but your committee is true

[@curtb2480]

Just listening to your story reminds me of the similarities of being far away from home in the Military. I know so many people I was stationed with that are no longer with us do to suicide. Some from PTSD while others just couldn't cope with returning home to an environment they ran away from. With Josh, you gave him something he could never get at home.... Unconditional Love, Friendship, and support. You never asked him to change rather you accepted him for the person he was. Most important, you gave him stability. Going back to an environment where there is no stability, support and constant chaos can make anyone insane. I hate to say this but it seems like Josh felt he lost you and what you represented to him. It's a bitter pill to swallow. Nevertheless, just know that for the brief moment in time, you gave Josh something to believe in... you gave him purpose... Most importantly you gave him love and friendship. And that make you a better person... a better human being than most....

[@sharonmacdonald8771]

I love this man and I think he loves me what do u suggest

[@walterharris1301]

Man, that story was deep. I pray one day I’ll meet a dude like yourself, a strong man with a big ❤️🙏🙏🙏. Please keep those wonderful and crazy 😜 stories coming.

[@frankiespeght6091]

YOU ARE A GREAT MAN YOU HAVE MY RESPECT

[@dylanbillion917]

Story wuz lit 🔥

[@dranev]

The Tripp Ali Story. Coming to Lifetime in 2020. Brother, I don't blame you for leaving the U.S. for a while. You've had more life experiences than many of us. I have to take a shot of whiskey everytime to listen to one of your colorful stories.

[@popetzm1]

Hopefully netflix or youtube Amazon lifetime don't need to do his store and they mess up everything they just need to stick to their movies those mystery thriller movies not people's life story

[@mythoughts1763]

BOY OH BOY, I AM LEARNING ALOT. DAMM YOUR STORIES ARE SO REALLLLLL AND RAWWWWW. YOU NEED TO WRITE A BOOK.

[@annemoore5961]

I am so so sorry for your loss, this was one of the hardest story time you've ever talked about I feel your loss I feel your pain, you are a amazing person, 🕊️ Rest IN GREATNESS 🥀

[@As504725]

He was in love with you, he new in the real world real, he'd have to be the thug/hood boy again. There wouldn't be a friendship like yours out there waiting for him

[@BrittaneyBoss]

That's exactly what I was thinking. Being an out masculine gay dude is rare. So, it 2as unlikely that he'd ever bd able to find that kind of deep bond with another masculine gay guy again.

[@alexthomas1877]

Yes. Its rare for us masculine gay men to be open and out. Im still not out though

[@igotthekeiskeithmoore4719]

Wow!! I'm at a lost for words on this one bro. Y'all definitely had a special bond with each other. I hate that it ended that way. Keep ya head up fam

[@3BuckHead]

I agree with someone else in the comments, I believe he was in love with you and didn't want to come out and directly tell you and he didn't want to leave you. He felt without you, he had nothing to live for. I may be wrong, but that's what this story gave me. God bless you

[@terralroberts2088]

I got the same thing you did. Also he said that he had no support system on the outside.

[@michaelc805]

Omg... I'm listening as I'm typing in tears...😥😭😭 I'm so..... sorry. I'm with talking at the end of your video. 😔RIP JOSH!!!🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@TripperPlugged]

my bad didn't want to make anyone cry

[@michaelc805]

@@TripperPlugged no... u didn't your story did, your pain. Its ok.. your not alone.. people feel your feelings.. ur very strong to see u cry in front of the world to bare your heart its so touching. No need for apologies, thanks trip for talking us on a trip inside your heart. Be blessed 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤❤❤❤💯💯💯

[@annacobbs4717]

I truly understand a loss of someone you care so much for and to lose them and not truly understanding why. RIP and to you keeping his words and memories does keep him still here. Prayers

[@desertgirl3374]

I don’t know how I got here but wow...this story will stay with me. I’m so sorry for your loss. You had such a big impact on that man 🙏🏽❤️

[@reginaldjefferson9998]

Maan Tripp you had me in tears at the end 😢😢 I was with you this whole story living every moment you described from the fight all the way up to you going to jail...... It’s good that you let us in cause most celebs don’t do that..... It’s a A plus for me..... You had me glued in all through the story.... Appreciate you sharing your story especially with me..... All I know is that you are a very intense Virgo because we have the same birthday but maan you was mad hardcore for a Virgo!!!!

[@rondvue2129]

Yo Trip - these chronicles are your dramatic ONE MAN SHOW, put pen to paper and make this work Bruh....AMAZING!

[@kendonovin]

Dam Bro, so sorry for your loss. I don't understand how someone can come into a person's life and bring so much joy, only to have them leave your life in such a tragic way. From one Virgo to another you have my deepest condolences. What I'm not understanding is you made plans to hang out and chill when u got out, all he had to do was hold on until then. You gave him something to look forward to, why couldn't you just wait. Why???. SMH. My bad, got caught up in the emotion for a second. But dam. Anyway your time is coming Tripp, just hold on a lil longer. You're gonna find the happiness you rightly deserve, and I'm speaking that in the air for you. God bless bro.

[@THEBLACKSLEEPINGBEAUTY]

I felt the same thing. This was like a love story with tragedy in the end.

[@shy_guy_sean9437]

Sorry im new here, i knew he had to be a virgo like me. Love hurts us the worst. Sorry for your loss

[@ABSoBougie1906]

This was heavy brother! So glad you and Josh met. We never know the depth of one's pain or hurt. That's why it's imperative to love one another no matter our stains. Once again, great video and content. 🙌🏾🙏🏾😘

[@TripperPlugged]

Thank you man, hope you stay around

[@ABSoBougie1906]

@@TripperPlugged For sure my guy .🙌🏾

[@LifeCoachIvan]

Definitely praying for your strength. I totally understand. My ex committed suicide last year oct. This year the pain is still there. Stay strong. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@iiiiLoveLucy]

I can't keep up, they coming so fast.. Im going to just watch you on my slow days . Thanks for sharing

[@lanesh7245]

Sincerely, A Lucy his stories are not real sad!

[@iiiiLoveLucy]

Stef Huh😳 Are you serious ?

[@lanesh7245]

Sincerely, A Lucy yes ma’am !

[@mythoughts1763]

DAMM, I THINK COMFORT, BEING HIMSELF, LOVE, AND NOT BEING JUDGE BY YOU IS WHY HE WANTED TO STAY WITH YOU. ALSO, ALOT OF MEN DONT HAVE HOPE OUTSIDE "THE WALLS". I HAVE REALIZED ALOT OF PEOPLE ARE LONLEY AND SAD.

[@darrellmorris4469]

Mr. Trip, I'm listening to your story about Josh and I'm so sorry for your loss of your good friend Josh. I believe when you guys became cellmates tat you brought some peace and joy to his life.

[@mylesken6122]

I totally agree with you. Cherish the good people in our lives. Life is truly priceless. Death is emotionally and psychologically hurting. Very sorry that Josh took his life. I didn't know him, but I am sad about what he did to himself. May he be in God's care.

[@josephbowers8793]

Cuzo! This story took me all the way back when I was 15 and keep doing what you doing Cuzo bc you are helping a lot of us

[@Jahseree]

Men Don’t Understand That Male Bonds Are So Important 😩👌🏿I Promise The Intimacy You Share With Another Male Is So Damn Exotic And Mind Blowing❗️It’s A Different Type Of ❤️ Love.

[@lisamerriweather6144]

SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS TRIPP , THIS BROUGHT ME TO TEARS ! 💖💖

[@nelsonnblottt5803]

A good story teller pays attention to the minutes details. That is exactly how you tell your stories. I got hooked from the very first one i came up upon. Great job bro.

[@dalenorwood8658]

I am so sorry for your loss. What I took from that was treat people the way you want to be treated. You never know the impact you have on someone with your actions as well as your words. This really touched me

[@jessiejohnson1422]

All I can say is WOWWW!!! Bro I am so sorry, that story left me in tears! I can honestly say been there! The almost committing suicide part, that was me! Only by the GRACE of GOD that I'm still here!!! You have prayers and support my beautiful brother. Thank you for sharing.

[@emperor1470]

I am so sorry for you and the world will never know what he could've offered to humanity.

[@peterwalker9211]

He will always be in your heart Tripp! But have peace my brother, he will live again, all is not loss, the great God of heaven is gonna bring all our love ones back to life , in the coming world tomorrow! There just sleep till the ressurections!a day is like a thousand years to The Almighty! Just a little while longer, time has no distance with God!let all say Amen

[@beaux1798]

Wow bro. This blew me away. You like an onion. With every blog you peel away another layer of yourself. You are way more complex than anyone would have ever thought. Thank you for sharing. Much Luv ❤️💛🧡💚💙💜

[@mythoughts1763]

SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, IN MY OPINION PEOPLE WHO PLAY THAT GAME, IN THEIR MIND THEY DONT HAVE NOTHING TO LOOSE. I WISH PEOPLE WERE MORE KIND TO ONE ANOTHER, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT PEOPLE ARE DEALING WITH. BUT YOU TRIPPER WERE KIND TO HIM. BLESSINGS

[@terralroberts2088]

T areIPP. I have only been a subscriber for two days. I know you get this all of the time, but you are something special. I honestly believe that you came in Josh life for a reason. You gave him two gifts. True friendship. Most importantly unconditional love. Your heart changed him. He totally opened himself up to you to the deepest level of his being. You gave him things that no one in his life had ever given to him and he cherished it. That’s why he didn’t want to leave and to stay with you. He knew when he got on the outside that there was nothing there. Feel good, proud, and confident that you gave him things no one else could give him and it changed his life! That was your purpose for meeting him. In return you gained a real friendship out of it. I am so glad that we are cousins. I wish I had more like you! I think he did the Russian roulette so that he would not know when it would happen but he knew that it was going to happen. Please be encouraged! Don’t let the last thing you remember be the main focus on your mind. Remember and focus on all the special moments and time that you had with him. Love you, cousin!

[@coxgyrl7742]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My ❤ goes out to you. I love how REAL you are, then I realize you are HUMAN like the rest of us.

[@carlboggs2644]

Baby so sorry :-( his spirit lives in you ! The love is still there inside of you /your loved as well !! I know the feeling -!

[@carlboggs2644]

Thank you /Real talk

[@AnnoyedOpticalMicroscope-yo4wf]

this story was deep and I really felt your emotions. I had a friend who I cared for dearly nothing never happen between us but he ended up getting shot and he died. All the family and friends help to carry his casket. that was a day to remember I think we was like 12 or 13 when it happen. I heard his girlfriend did it but I can't say what really happen cause I don't know. just like my boy he was a street kid and my parents didn't play that but I feel your pain. I have to say this again u remind me of my ex so much

[@lauriehollingsworth7612]

Wow that's heavy. I'm so sorry, for your pain that you're going to carry with you for the rest of your life. Nobody ever understands what goes through someone's mind, or the despair they are feeling when they takes their own life. But we all feel the pain of the loss from them leaving us, and trying to understand WHY. May he rip.......

[@P310P]

You have some of the best stories...But this one tough to hear... 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

[@dimikamartinsmith3102]

I found your page today at work. I been watching back to back. Your one of a kind a beautiful soul stay blessed my brother. Your voice has so much emotion and you draw people in. I have no idea what brought me to your channel but thank you. You have a new friend in Miami now. Remain humble, blessed and strong your cut from a different cloth!!

[@MrGreenzboy]

Sad story 😢😥, but ya have to give yourself time to heal. Very brave of you to share

[@itzjayichasebandzz4272]

This did it for me Bro😥 We got so much in Common.....YOUR STRENGTH COULD MOVE MOUNTAINS 💪🙏💕

[@raymonsmith8821]

I'm sorry for your loss and he was definitely in love with you and that's beautiful! Cherish those memories of him. That says a lot about you! Even watching your videos, your spirit comes across as a genuine, caring brother! I wish you the best life has to offer

[@BrianMelville-q9g]

You have me tearing up I can’t begin to imagine the pain you went through on recovering that news. Gone too soon

[@marcojackson4437]

Tripper I am sorry for you loss I didn't never know what you was going throught, You right that person on earth you better Do right you don't know when that person leave this earth.

[@antJaxStar]

I'm so happy you posted, I was running out of your content. I'm only a few minutes in ...

[@vaughnwebb8704]

Tripp,u've been through alot,just by listening to u on how your emotions flow clearly can show what a big heart u have,after losing the one u cared for deeply ,will always be apart of your every being,u will eventually come out all the pain and anguish,it's moments like those which makes u stronger, keep the good memories close to u and it will give u the joy to conquer all your obstacles, till next time tripp.

[@michaelc805]

Omg... ive been through this with a friend..🤦🏾‍♂️ except the suicide. I'm sooo... sorry for your lost. That's a deep story.

[@TripperPlugged]

it was Russian Roulette witch is a game but still suicide

[@johnmccall1142]

A very touching story it shows love doesn't have a gender. Love you my brother you seem to be so touchable.

[@ericsimms4327]

There are instances when we are blessed beyond our circumstances to come across someone who doesn’t judge us but meets us where we are with compassion, realness and fellowship🕊🙏🏾🕊I believe you were a gift to your friend that when he was in your presence he felt free to be the highest vibration of himself to give from his heart and embrace his truth🙏🏾🕊🙏🏾 Sorry for the loss of your friend🌹🕊🌹🙏🏾

[@charlesyost8507]

Cousin Tripp, This Storytime was very close to my heart. My younger brother, and we were close, committed suicide. I still have questions about it after 20 years. Thanks for sharing! Love From Orlando

[@rudicknapoleon8410]

I’m so so sorry for your loss 🙏🏾 my prayers are with you hope you continue to share and heal your heart ❤️

[@rodrickskeeyon252]

Tripp your eyes always looked sad now I see king...

[@verapaige7915]

Depression

[@shironbrown3781]

🥺🥺🥺 We Can't Control Who Has A Lasting Impression On Our Life...PRAYERS FOR YOU MAN

[@BrotherRahb]

Tripp man this is a tear jerker seriously

[@sirquincywashington7584]

He'll yeah my exdogged me doe I'll never get back with him

[@calvinfelton4077]

Man Tripp, this was deep. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. No words can convey my deepest sympathies, all i can say is I'm so sorry man.

[@aprilmartian5837]

Wow that's heartbreaking. Sorry for your loss... I could listen to you talk all day forreal. I think I... Love you 😘

[@isaacfitzpatrick8160]

I'm sorry for your loss but I understand your friend I suffer from depression to I have tried to commit suicide eight times I am very sorry for your loss

[@asktheuniverse231]

You matter. You are loved. Remember that❤❤❤

[@coxgyrl7742]

Please STOP TRYING TO HURT YOURSELF! GOD SPARED YOU 8 TIMES BECAUSE HE KNOWS WHATEVER DEMONS ARE HAUNTING YOU, YOU ARE A SOLDIER. Prayers to you.

[@499lex9]

This stands the test of time as your most beautiful story - along with the search for your brother - IMHO

[@althingsrpossible]

A tragic, epic journey. The suicidal mind is an unfortunate fact of life. Your presence gave him hope in a world away from his reality. I have a story that parallels your own with drastic results. You are light in his darkest of place. I salute you Tripper!! We honor his legacy. Josh, you will never be forgotten.

[@ELP1125]

Damn Tripp got me over here in my feeling DEEP 😢...but It sounds to me like Josh was dealing with his inner demons (wanting to express same sex attractions, not having anyone to rely on, etc) the things that many men, especially black men, deal with constantly. So the whole Russian roulette thing seems like he wanted to relinquish that burden of taking his own life, and give it up to chance. Very disheartening story, but thank you for sharing. RIP Josh 👼🏽

[@sharjjahnaziz4122]

I am sorry to hear about your loss bro. Stay strong.

[@JustSalenaMarie]

So sorry to hear this may she Rest In Peace 🥰😘 and I pray for healing in your heart

[@stormc14]

Tripper Plugged I truly sorry for your losing Josh. I will forever say you are THE REALIST KZbinR AND MY FAVORITE 🙌🏽🙌🏽. Losing some you love is one of hardest thing that ever can happen to anyone. I pray for your strength and pray GOD keep your in his will. This made me smile at moments, laugh, and yes I cried. Don't judge me...

[@crandell4505]

Life is tough enough. When you suffer the lost of a trusted friend now that sounds devastating. The type of love that you described for your friend is one that is not sexual, but one that is loving & warm. Today we as men lack such warm male friendships. Any type of touch from another man in our society is viewed as gay. How sad. If I were standing in your presence right now I would give you a big hug & I would just sit with you. Much love goes out to you my broken hearted brother. You have a strength about you that I lack, but I so admire that trait in you. Thank You for being so honest. I will be reflecting on what you discussed. My deepest condolences to you. Good friends are really hard to come by. I understand that from my own experiences. Love you big bro.

[@Jtzist]

Your stories are so fulfilling when I listen I feel like I'm in your head. I'm sorry about Josh.

[@499lex9]

More than anything, this story is a beautiful tribute to Josh. I gather he didn’t have much of a family but, whoever they are, I wish they could hear it.

[@beingbryce]

Josh: Here you go. Tripp: What is that ? Me: Now you know damn well....

[@drderf10]

Tripp are definitely something special. Sad story. The stresses of a black man. I will pray for you man. You have strength & courage...but most importantly you have a big heart. God bless man

[@geraldsomeone7675]

Also had a great friend commit suicide...he was divorced and then remarried. Seemingly out of nowhere I got a call from his ex-wife stating that he had committed suicide. She also asked me if I was aware that he esteemed me as his best friend - ever? OMG, I am still shocked and saddened...also talked with him as a neighbor for hours and hours and hours, had no idea he told both his wife's that he loved me as his best friend and also left me all of his assets...💰 💰 💰.

[@christophercordell528]

Very sad story - so important to continue to be an example for our youth today!

[@que1973]

MAN!!!😓😓😓😓...KEEP EM COMING..This is almost as good as power..I cant wait for the next post

[@thelifeofrafiq2075]

I am sorry to hear ..u lose a good person in ur life ..😔😇😇😇😇😇😇

[@ianhands663]

Bro,just hold the faith. Josh was hurting. Brotherly Love bro. Stay strong. Bless up

[@bisharawilson8569]

You have a unique gift about yourself. The power to touch people as you see fit, in a good way, is God like. You are enlightened, it's sumthing your born with and it grows as you do. Thank you for being you. I see you so clearly Bra 😊. You are many parts rapped in one. Take care Trip.

[@jeromesavary7033]

Thank you Tripp. We all need a reminder of how fragile life is.

[@TripperPlugged]

you welcome its true

[@rudicknapoleon8410]

Man went through the same thing with my child hood friend i wish we can meet so I can tell you my story my heart broke last year When my friend killed him self it just broke me. I’m on depression meds and therapy since then but I keep moving on. Thanks for sharing your story bro keep your head up and take one day at a time it will get better live you for telling your story.

[@ladamiencrawford1]

Wow, brought me to tears and touched me... so much so I had to read the story about it... so sorry for your loss!!!!🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@itzjayichasebandzz4272]

I Literally FIEND for his NOTIFICATIONS to Pop Up.....BEST STORYTELLER ALIVE🙌

[@rogerpeguero6382]

Tripp I feel sorry for your experience and the loss of a good as friend my condolences

[@duckymanlove3370]

Sorry for your loss keep your head up in stay strong

[@marjharvey1]

Ali, I just saw this. Sending you a virtual Mommy hug. I'm so sorry.

[@TripperPlugged]

🤗

[@QuiteOhKnowledge-ws1wl]

Peace & Greetings ... You got me with this one mane... Can't lie I cryed for yOu I cryed for yo friend Josh ... Real talk tho yOu need to write a book mane ...lol This for yOu Ali ... "Whoever said that loss gets easier with time was a liar, Here's what really happens; The spaces between the times yOu miss them grow longer, Then when yOu do remember to miss them again, it's still with a stabbing pain to the heart. And yOu have guilt. Guilt because it's been too long since yOu missed them last... Don't worry trippali you'll see him at the Resurrection ...✌

[@dasreal8178]

ur beard is nice , shiny black. its just something about u is alluring, sorry for your loss i was gripped by the story .

[@dellydior]

Great story Tripp very touching.luv yo storytimes,Keep it up💯💙💙

[@frdc1990]

It seems Mr. Josh loved u and couldn't express it frankly.😢

[@TripperPlugged]

Yea I believe so in hindsight

[@chelseabrown1005]

Yoooooo,when he kept saying pocket pussy😂😂😂it took me out🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@lovejones1021]

Sorry for your loss, cuzzin. Sorry to see you in so much pain. God bless 🙏

[@DeeStarHairstylist]

Wow 😳 this was heavy and deep 😨😥🤭

[@immature1990]

Lol your face when he said pocket p lol the stories you got man you need to write a book or develop a tv series based on these stories that you have and Josh seems like he was a cool guy and if he was still around he would of gave a lot to the world and u guys could of probably been something more between y’all

[@bigbellyman100]

powerful. it makes sense but sometimes its the signs we miss

[@stone6135]

This story made me so teary eyed...I’m sorry for your friend

[@ning-ningshalom3266]

Hugs Tripp... so sorry to see your pain and so sorry to think of someone taking their own life...

[@johnsonkevin32]

Been there in the feeling part of this story. Yes the pain is real. It only makes you stronger if not it will kill your spirit.

[@joelrush6007]

You are one authentic brother and you are telling the truth about your experiences. How do I know because you said you were concerned about that damn count. If you have been caught you probably would have added some more time on to what you already had mister.

[@THEBLACKSLEEPINGBEAUTY]

This story touched me in so many ways.........*hugs to you Tripp* May Joshua rest in peace.

[@tc3354]

Chile why you got this off of the movie 'Life'...stop it🤣🤣🤣

[@kevinplan3812]

COME ON STORYTIME😆that was juicy and one hell of a story...he need to write a novel🤣

[@titan2010cafe]

You are an amazing person. Keep the stories coming.

[@elmo4729]

Cuz I had to chuckle with the #Pocketpu@%y and #Pu@%yinANapkin. My heart sank when you talked about him taking his own life. When you connect with someone like you guys did, the love was real. My condolences cuz. A very tragic loss indeed.💙💙💙

[@MichaelWhitmore425]

I laughed, I cried and I prayed for you. Much love cuz.🤣😥🙏

[@tjtanner9311]

Damn when the teacher broke the news, that shit had me in tears 😢. I couldn't imagine, devastating!