Trixie Mattel sings “Soldier” on Katya’s Birthday, 1/5/2020

[@ieatgremlins]

I wish people took Trixie’s music career more seriously because her lyrics are beautiful and have so much value.

[@dudeivealreadydonethis5tim289]

Me too! I do! She made a dance track and it has me worried she won't make songs like this anymore.

[@katiekat-nl7ny]

Yes! I love this song sm but it's so underrated!

[@TheMysteryMachine]

they are. and her covers are amazing. Her version of "Video Games" eats the OG for lunch!

[@rosswell2548]

lol i cried... i remember the year she wrote this and katya was in rehab 😣

[@lunaxnika]

she wrote it for her… i’m sobbing

[@AnneliesRosseel]

I’m not crying just allergies

[@pattymino1356]

Same

[@illegalhedgehog]

i just discovered these two a few months ago and i’m so fucking thankful for them. their friendship and the love they have for each other is genuinely so infectious

[@Morganxeffer]

ITS THE SAME FOR ME OMG! Their friendship is honestly one of the most beautiful I’ve seen, I’m genuinely thankful for every piece of content they make lol

[@CoutureCr0chet]

SAME. I just watched Moving Parts and this song at the end completely broke me. I love these two real women very much and their friendship means the absolute world to me

[@tonifitz6831]

A match made in heaven. There are funny as f*ck. These two ppl had to meet. The world would be a much worse place without Trixie and Katya as a duo. Or individual

[@nope.thankies]

Years later and I still sob like a baby

[@nope.thankies]

@Allye Beso this song came out in 2018

[@Adriana_Batista7]

Every time

[@librabearxox7470]

I just found out that this is about katya so now I have to listen to it 1000 times and cry my fucking eyes out

[@lunaxnika]

let’s do it together bestie

[@librabearxox7470]

@@lunaxnika yassss

[@91frankthetank]

Other than here, did Trixie mention this was about Katya? Did Katya ever say anything about this song?

[@parogesexbang]

@@91frankthetank kzbin.info/www/bejne/pJKYgHxsdtOdmMU @35:26

[@91frankthetank]

@@parogesexbang thank you!!!!!

[@Nousername27837]

Trixie this song was the only thing in my head on repeat when i was at a psychiatric ward after a suicide attempt. I had no acess to music so finally I called my sister and she played it for me through the phone and its comforted me more than you will ever know. Thank you. This gave me hope in my darkest moment. *Update* I'm in mental health and I got really burned out last year. Things are starting to look hopeful again though! Got diagnosed with adhd at 31, found out and started treating my folic acid deficiency(mthfr gene mutation), and did genetic testing to find out which medications have full effectiveness on me and which don't. I was the second worst gene testing my psychiatrist had seen. I only had two or sometimes 1 medicine available to me in the "green" column for depression, Insomnia, and anxiety medications. That combined with having the gene mutation where I don't produce enough folic acid to metabolize my medications made me feel like I was truly broken and lazy. And my untreated adhd and misdiagnosises had ruined so many opportunities for me. So medicaiton and therapy never fully helped. I was truly hopeless and felt helpless. But now that I am treating that mutation, eating better and more frequently, and am on the right medications my life has changed from black and white to color. It took me 15 years and 3 suicide attempts. But I'm still here and now I'm well enough to share my knowledge with others. I hope someone is helped by my story.

[@yourgirlromeo]

that's a beautiful story, hope you're in a better place now🫶🏻

[@Nousername27837]

@@yourgirlromeo thank you so much for sharing your kindness. I was pretty apprehensive and embarrased about sharing it because I know it's intense to put that onto a stranger, like Trixie. But I am just extremely grateful for the impact she has made in my life. I am feeling a lot better in thanks to a great therapist and psychiatrist. I didn't know this but for the fifteen years I have been taking medications that I don't metabolize. Just knowing that and that I need supplements and vitamins has lifted the weight of feeling shame that I couldn't move past it because I wasn't trying. It's called MTHFR testing. But once again thank you, it means more to me than I could express in a KZbin reply. Stay sweet ♥

[@TheMysteryMachine]

she always says that all her fans are traumatized or mentally ill and its fucking true. but she missed the part where she helps us heal. she surely does.

[@Nousername27837]

@@TheMysteryMachine thank you! She is a healer! I'm in mental health and I got really burned out last year. Things are starting to look hopeful again though! Got diagnosed with adhd at 31, found out and started treating my folic acid deficiency(mthfr gene mutation), and did genetic testing to find out which medications have full effectiveness on me and which don't. I was the second worst gene testing my psychiatrist had seen. I only had two or sometimes 1 medicine available to me in the "green" column for depression, Insomnia, and anxiety medications. That combined with having the gene mutation where I don't produce enough folic acid to metabolize my medications made me feel like I was truly broken and lazy. And my untreated adhd and misdiagnosises had ruined so many opportunities for me. So medicaiton and therapy never fully helped. I was truly hopeless and felt helpless. But now that I am treating that mutation, eating better and more frequently, and am on the right medications my life has changed from black and white to color. It took me 15 years and 3 suicide attempts. But I'm still here and now I'm well enough to share my knowledge with others. I hope someone is helped by my story. Thank you and I wish you the same! ♥

[@joeyhilliard5323]

The headphones over the hat and wig is sending me

[@brittneygriggs3786]

This song is so powerful and relatable. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sabotaged friendships throughout my life because of my own damn anxiety and trauma. Patience is what I look for in my relationships now. Thank you, sweet Trixie.

[@HeyItsNovalee]

It really is rare that I find a song that makes me full on sob as if it touched some deep part of my soul but somehow this did it I think it’s just finding katya’s struggles with anxiety and mental health extremely relatable and how badly I want a friendship like theirs because it’s not something I’ve ever experienced. And imagining how it would be to have someone who understand me as well as they understand each other and if that someone did something like this for me. All I all I’m just wrecked and I love them

[@juliagoolia72]

Oh, sweet one, I hope you find that friend.

[@lunaxnika]

this comment is describing how i feel in the best way possible. their friendship makes me believe in true connections; if i’m ever lucky enough to experience one i’ll thank them for that.

[@lazybunny3]

This comment really hit me because I am the same way

[@plut0_plut0nium]

Me: Nah, I don’t think I’m gonna cry. 30 seconds later: *Full on ugly sobbing*

[@fr0ggyl3ahh37]

I always cry at this...it reminds me that I need to keep going

[@xgreenus]

Always keep going ✨💕

[@sjdjdj4026]

you’re loved and supported always, u aren’t alone, you are important and you matter, you’re here for a reason and purpose, if i have your consent and if you’re comfortable i’m here if you want anyone to talk to❤️

[@XsimplycomplicatedXx]

I was dying when she forgot the lyric because I remembered it 😂 (“spend your day regretting but I’m betting that you’ll do it all again next weekend”)

[@slydoll7877]

Weirdness follows me wherever I go Weirdness seems to know me even better than I seem to know myself I'm someone else Looking to the clock beside my bed Am I really keeping time or is it only keeping me instead? Go back to bed You've got time to grow Oh soldier, take your time No one said the words all have to rhyme, and if they do it's fine And even if they don't, no one needs to know Woah, soldier, you gotta let things go An hour hand moves faster with a scotch Even when you're in it moving faster every minute if you watch And I drink a lot But drinking only wakes you up at ten Spend the day regrettin', but I'm bettin' that you'll do it all again Next weekend You've got time to grow Oh soldier, take your time No one said the words all have to rhyme, and if they do it's fine And even if they don't, no one needs to know Woah, soldier, you gotta let things go Don't look down the barrel with an arrow and a bow Dressed down in apparel with camouflage from head to toe With everything so sterile in a heavy monotone Oh soldier, you gotta let things go Oh soldier, take your time No one said the words all have to rhyme, and if they do it's fine And even if they don't, no one needs to know Woah, soldier, you gotta let things go

[@SuCam427]

Thank you for all the Trixie songs you’ve given us the words for.

[@TheMysteryMachine]

so lovely. and for katya.....🥲🥲🥲

[@guccidumpsterfire3354]

Lemme tell you, this song is so beautiful...also, low-key, in my opinion, One Stone is Tracy's best album

[@isabellacordoba3450]

It's first time hearing this... and I'M SOBBING

[@sixelacooper]

This means so so so much to me and the struggle that my husband and I have through. I love you Trixie

[@jaipsskoko68]

I love katya and trixies friendship sm fjdnkw love watching this video every other day and full on sobbing

[@eo793]

i love them sm

[@wendyvazquez386]

Bruh this had me full on sobbing

[@saturn7618]

Its been two years and i still cry but I remember watching this live sobbing

[@PaperDolly86]

Bless this beautiful human

[@potatoempress]

It's so small but the line trixie forgets is "spend the day regretting but i'm betting that you'll do it all again next weekend" and i always read it as trixie subconciously pushing out the idea that katya is stuck in her self destructive cycle and beleiving that she'll get better, even after all the hell they went through.

[@hollymarie1636]

I love this song so much

[@benjybox842]

Same

[@rebeccaschussheim7323]

@@benjybox842 Same

[@warrengray8611]

So much love and respect amongst them!

[@youcalmdownchile6891]

I feel happy with this song

[@namianagrande]

this song always makes me cry since i found out abt it :( hits close 2 home 4 me

[@Yu-qp4bx]

I miss full coverage Fridays❤

[@GoodGD09]

Balling 😭 I need a hug

[@murshidyahmoumaniekadre]

I love you Trixie. ❤️🙏🏼

[@koolkatyou]

Crying a river rn 💔

[@tysannjohnson4242]

I'm sobbing shit upppp

[@malloryknox6950]

First time hearing this..... Bawling

[@ThelouwseFD]

will this video ever not make me cry

[@angelinaperez6604]

crying to it rn

[@ArgoBargo]

One of my favorite songs

[@8jerasikapark8]

Love this song

[@heathermichael3987]

I love this song ❤️

[@eiz815]

Its 5 am and im crying

[@tonifitz6831]

This tune is quality x

[@rockydeleon6629]

When she said am I really keeping time or is it only keeping me instead man I felt that hard love you trixie💙💙💙

[@chillarypuff]

Love this more than words

[@LeNoir2411]

I wish i have a friend like her 😔 i do have a best friend, but i guess having a friend with mental illnesses would wear you down eventually ,we were always together, laughing and crying, we did everything together even work together.. just like trixie and katya, but my friend is very sensitive, she probably absorb my bad energy , she's an infj btw so you know how complex they can be, and I'm a pretty damaged entp.. rn we're still friends but she's emotionally unavailable.. i think that's for the best though, i don't wanna drag her down.. but it's a lie if i said i don't want a supportive friend like Trixie.. i wish i could just get rid of my depression, anxiety and ptsd so i could have my best friend back for real.. i miss us so much

[@LeighPhillips78]

You should write it down and share it. Or, write it and don't share it. But like this is a tribute to Katya, you can write a tribute of your own.

[@jaquenile]

Why i here again just to make myself sad and soft~ :(

[@klindaba]

I have obsessions with this song now and I just realized that we all are katya but we want to be trixie, woooah and she's also impersonating the ideal of beauty it really makes sense even more in my head now

[@leileyking1544]

it hurts

[@Yuyu99000]

I just heard on tiktok Katya in rehab inspired her,I had no idea 🥹🥹

[@rebeccafernandez2008]

i am not ok

[@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607]

Why? What’s wrong?

[@rebeccafernandez2008]

@@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607 i'm so sorry omg what i meant was that this made me really emotional because it's beautiful. i'm okay! you are so sweet❤

[@rebeccafernandez2008]

@@alyssarfreitas i'm so sorry, what i meant was that this made me really emotional because it's beautiful. i'm okay! you are so sweet❤

[@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607]

@@rebeccafernandez2008 : )

[@jacquelineduplessis4508]

fuck....this is everything!

[@meapantz1983]

Ja ja ding dong I love u Trixie

[@youloveanthony]

Good morning to me bish! Ugh this made me ready to take on the world. Thanks Trixie 😘

[@lavalamps3559]

everything's gonna be okay.

[@marbles_machine]

ON HER BIRTHDAY??? :'''(

[@Dandelion4048]

When you're on the verge of crying but then she messed up the lyrics 😫😫

[@anjealousanaconda9692]

Omg 😱 Katya and my mom have the same birthday

[@tanguydubos]

Have u ever seen them in the same room

[@angelinaperez6604]

@@tanguydubos LFMAO

[@hiimmauie3563]

When that day Katya went to rehab is my friends death from a car accident

[@cerimiller6219]

Does anyone know the chords in the middle section where trixie does a a little chord progression up the neck (just after the section where she loses the lyrics for a min) the basic chords are on ultimate guitar ...but that part isn't...any help appreciated x

[@avie3969]

cryign

[@rodentsoda8126]

pearl why is this channel a thing

[@rodentsoda8126]

and why does it have a bit of views pearl lmaooo i mean song makes me cry so okay